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The Last Man
Mary Shelley
Let no man seek
Henceforth to be foretold what shall befall
Him or his children.
MILTON.
I VISITED Naples in the year 1818. On the 8th of December of
that year, my companion and I crossed the Bay, to visit the
antiquities which are scattered on the shores of Baiæ. The
translucent and shining waters of the calm sea covered
fragments of old Roman villas, which were interlaced by sea-
weed, and received diamond tints from the chequering of the
sun-beams; the blue and pellucid element was such as Galatea
might have skimmed in her car of mother of pearl; or
Cleopatra, more fitly than the Nile, have chosen as the path of
her magic ship. Though it was winter, the atmosphere seemed
more appropriate to early spring; and its genial warmth
contributed to inspire those sensations of placid delight, which
are the portion of every traveller, as he lingers, loath to quit
the tranquil bays and radiant promontories of Baiæ.
We visited the so-called Elysian Fields and Avernus: and
wandered through various ruined temples, baths, and classic
spots; at length we entered the gloomy cavern of the Cumæan
Sibyl. Our Lazzeroni bore flaring torches, which shone red, and
almost dusky, in the murky subterranean passages, whose
darkness thirstily surrounding them, seemed eager to imbibe
more and more of the element of light. We passed by a natural
archway, leading to a second gallery, and enquired, if we could
not enter there also. The guides pointed to the reflection of
their torches on the water that paved it, leaving us to form our
own conclusion; but adding it was a pity, for it led to the
Sibyl's Cave. Our curiosity and enthusiasm were excited by this
circumstance, and we insisted upon attempting the passage. As
is usually the case in the prosecution of such enterprises, the
difficulties decreased on examination. We found, on each side of
the humid pathway, "dry land for the sole of the foot." At
length we arrived at a large, desert, dark cavern, which the
Lazzeroni assured us was the Sibyl's Cave. We were sufficiently
disappointed---- Yet we examined it with care, as if its blank,
rocky walls could still bear trace of celestial visitant. On one
side was a small opening. "Whither does this lead?" we asked;
"can we enter here?"--"Questo poi, no," said the wild looking
savage, who held the torch; "you can advance but a short
distance, and nobody visits it."
"Nevertheless, I will try it," said my companion; "it may
lead to the real cavern. Shall I go alone, or will you
accompany me?"
I signified my readiness to proceed, but our guides protested
against such a measure. With great volubility, in their native
Neapolitan dialect, with which we were not very familiar, they
told us that there were spectres, that the roof would fall in,
that it was too narrow to admit us, that there was a deep hole
within, filled with water, and we might be drowned. My friend
shortened the harangue, by taking the man's torch from him;
and we proceeded alone.
The passage, which at first scarcely admitted us, quickly grew
narrower and lower; we were almost bent double; yet still we
persisted in making our way through it. At length we entered a
wider space, and the low roof heightened; but, as we
congratulated ourselves on this change, our torch was
extinguished by a current of air, and we were left in utter
darkness. The guides bring with them materials for renewing the
light, but we had none--our only resource was to return as we
came. We groped round the widened space to find the entrance,
and after a time fancied that we had succeeded. This proved
however to be a second passage, which evidently ascended. It
terminated like the former; though something approaching to a
ray, we could not tell whence, shed a very doubtful twilight in
the space. By degrees, our eyes grew somewhat accustomed to
this dimness, and we perceived that there was no direct passage
leading us further; but that it was possible to climb one side
of the cavern to a low arch at top, which promised a more easy
path, from whence we now discovered that this light proceeded.
With considerable difficulty we scrambled up, and came to
another passage with still more of illumination, and this led
to another ascent like the former.
After a succession of these, which our resolution alone
permitted us to surmount, we arrived at a wide cavern with an
arched dome-like roof. An aperture in the midst let in the
light of heaven; but this was overgrown with brambles and
underwood, which acted as a veil, obscuring the day, and giving a
solemn religious hue to the apartment. It was spacious, and
nearly circular, with a raised seat of stone, about the size of a
Grecian couch, at one end. The only sign that life had been
here, was the perfect snow-white skeleton of a goat, which had
probably not perceived the opening as it grazed on the hill
above, and had fallen headlong. Ages perhaps had elapsed since
this catastrophe; and the ruin it had made above, had been
repaired by the growth of vegetation during many hundred
summers.
The rest of the furniture of the cavern consisted of piles of
leaves, fragments of bark, and a white filmy substance,
resembling the inner part of the green hood which shelters the
grain of the unripe Indian corn. We were fatigued by our
struggles to attain this point, and seated ourselves on the
rocky couch, while the sounds of tinkling sheep-bells, and shout
of shepherd-boy, reached us from above.
At length my friend, who had taken up some of the leaves
strewed about, exclaimed, "This is the Sibyl's cave; these are
Sibylline leaves." On examination, we found that all the leaves,
bark, and other substances, were traced with written characters.
What appeared to us more astonishing, was that these writings
were expressed in various languages: some unknown to my
companion, ancient Chaldee, and Egyptian hieroglyphics, old as
the Pyramids. Stranger still, some were in modern dialects,
English and Italian. We could make out little by the dim light,
but they seemed to contain prophecies, detailed relations of
events but lately passed; names, now well known, but of modern
date; and often exclamations of exultation or woe, of victory
or defeat, were traced on their thin scant pages. This was
certainly the Sibyl's Cave; not indeed exactly as Virgil
describes it, but the whole of this land had been so convulsed
by earthquake and volcano, that the change was not wonderful,
though the traces of ruin were effaced by time; and we probably
owed the preservation of these leaves to the accident which had
closed the mouth of the cavern, and the swift-growing
vegetation which had rendered its sole opening impervious to
the storm. We made a hasty selection of such of the leaves,
whose writing one at least of us could understand; and then,
laden with our treasure, we bade adieu to the dim hypæthric
cavern, and after much difficulty succeeded in rejoining our
guides.
During our stay at Naples, we often returned to this cave,
sometimes alone, skimming the sun-lit sea, and each time added
to our store. Since that period, whenever the world's
circumstance has not imperiously called me away, or the temper
of my mind impeded such study, I have been employed in
deciphering these sacred remains. Their meaning, wondrous and
eloquent, has often repaid my toil, soothing me in sorrow, and
exciting my imagination to daring flights, through the
immensity of nature and the mind of man. For a while my
labours were not solitary; but that time is gone; and, with the
selected and matchless companion of my toils, their dearest
reward is also lost to me--
Di mie tenere frondi altro lavoro
Credea mostrarte; e qual fero pianeta
Ne' nvidiò insieme, o mio nobil tesoro?
I present the public with my latest discoveries in the slight
Sibylline pages. Scattered and unconnected as they were, I have
been obliged to add links, and model the work into a consistent
form. But the main substance rests on the truths contained in
these poetic rhapsodies, and the divine intuition which the
Cumæan damsel obtained from heaven.
I have often wondered at the subject of her verses, and at the
English dress of the Latin poet. Sometimes I have thought that,
obscure and chaotic as they are, they owe their present form to
me, their decipherer. As if we should give to another artist the
painted fragments which form the mosaic copy of Raphael's
Transfiguration in St. Peter's; he would put them together in a
form, whose mode would be fashioned by his own peculiar mind
and talent. Doubtless the leaves of the Cumæan Sibyl have
suffered distortion and diminution of interest and excellence
in my hands. My only excuse for thus transforming them, is
that they were unintelligible in their pristine condition.
My labours have cheered long hours of solitude, and taken me
out of a world, which has averted its once benignant face from
me, to one glowing with imagination and power. Will my readers
ask how I could find solace from the narration of misery and
woeful change? This is one of the mysteries of our nature,
which holds full sway over me, and from whose influence I
cannot escape. I confess, that I have not been unmoved by the
development of the tale; and that I have been depressed, nay,
agonized, at some parts of the recital, which I have faithfully
transcribed from my materials. Yet such is human nature, that
the excitement of mind was dear to me, and that the
imagination, painter of tempest and earthquake, or, worse, the
stormy and ruin-fraught passions of man, softened my real
sorrows and endless regrets, by clothing these fictitious ones
in that ideality, which takes the mortal sting from pain.
I hardly know whether this apology is necessary. For the
merits of my adaptation and translation must decide how far I
have well bestowed my time and imperfect powers, in giving
form and substance to the frail and attenuated Leaves of the
I AM the native of a sea-surrounded nook, a cloud-enshadowed
land, which, when the surface of the globe, with its shoreless
ocean and trackless continents, presents itself to my mind,
appears only as an inconsiderable speck in the immense whole;
and yet, when balanced in the scale of mental power, far
outweighed countries of larger extent and more numerous
population. So true it is, that man's mind alone was the
creator of all that was good or great to man, and that Nature
herself was only his first minister. England, seated far north
in the turbid sea, now visits my dreams in the semblance of a
vast and well-manned ship, which mastered the winds and rode
proudly over the waves. In my boyish days she was the universe
to me. When I stood on my native hills, and saw plain and
mountain stretch out to the utmost limits of my vision,
speckled by the dwellings of my countrymen, and subdued to
fertility by their labours, the earth's very centre was fixed for
me in that spot, and the rest of her orb was as a fable, to have
forgotten which would have cost neither my imagination nor
understanding an effort.
My fortunes have been, from the beginning, an
exemplification of the power that mutability may possess over
the varied tenor of man's life. With regard to myself, this
came almost by inheritance. My father was one of those men on
whom nature had bestowed to prodigality the envied gifts of wit
and imagination, and then left his bark of life to be impelled
by these winds, without adding reason as the rudder, or judgment
as the pilot for the voyage. His extraction was obscure; but
circumstances brought him early into public notice, and his
small paternal property was soon dissipated in the splendid
scene of fashion and luxury in which he was an actor. During the
short years of thoughtless youth, he was adored by the high-
bred triflers of the day, nor least by the youthful sovereign,
who escaped from the intrigues of party, and the arduous duties
of kingly business, to find never-failing amusement and
exhilaration of spirit in his society. My father's impulses,
never under his own control, perpetually led him into
difficulties from which his ingenuity alone could extricate
him; and the accumulating pile of debts of honour and of trade,
which would have bent to earth any other, was supported by him
with a light spirit and tameless hilarity; while his company
was so necessary at the tables and assemblies of the rich, that
his derelictions were considered venial, and he himself received
with intoxicating flattery.
This kind of popularity, like every other, is evanescent: and
the difficulties of every kind with which he had to contend
increased in a frightful ratio compared with his small means of
extricating himself. At such times the king, in his enthusiasm
for him, would come to his relief, and then kindly take his
friend to task; my father gave the best promises for
amendment, but his social disposition, his craving for the
usual diet of admiration, and more than all, the fiend of
gambling, which fully possessed him, made his good resolutions
transient, his promises vain. With the quick sensibility
peculiar to his temperament, he perceived his power in the
brilliant circle to be on the wane. The king married; and the
haughty princess of Austria, who became, as queen of England,
the head of fashion, looked with harsh eyes on his defects, and
with contempt on the affection her royal husband entertained
for him. My father felt that his fall was near; but so far from
profiting by this last calm before the storm to save himself,
he sought to forget anticipated evil by making still greater
sacrifices to the deity of pleasure, deceitful and cruel arbiter
of his destiny.
The king, who was a man of excellent dispositions, but easily
led, had now become a willing disciple of his imperious
consort. He was induced to look with extreme disapprobation,
and at last with distaste, on my father's imprudence and
follies. It is true that his presence dissipated these clouds;
his warm-hearted frankness, brilliant sallies, and confiding
demeanour were irresistible: it was only when at a distance,
while still renewed tales of his errors were poured into his
royal friend's ear, that he lost his influence. The queen's
dexterous management was employed to prolong these absences,
and gather together accusations. At length the king was brought
to see in him a source of perpetual disquiet, knowing that he
should pay for the short-lived pleasure of his society by
tedious homilies, and more painful narrations of excesses, the
truth of which he could not disprove. The result was, that he
would make one more attempt to reclaim him, and in case of
ill success, cast him off for ever.
Such a scene must have been one of deepest interest and
high-wrought passion. A powerful king, conspicuous for a
goodness which had heretofore made him meek, and now lofty in
his admonitions, with alternate entreaty and reproof, besought
his friend to attend to his real interests, resolutely to avoid
those fascinations which in fact were fast deserting him, and to
spend his great powers on a worthy field, in which he, his
sovereign, would be his prop, his stay, and his pioneer. My
father felt this kindness; for a moment ambitious dreams
floated before him; and he thought that it would be well to
exchange his present pursuits for nobler duties. With sincerity
and fervour he gave the required promise: as a pledge of
continued favour, he received from his royal master a sum of
money to defray pressing debts, and enable him to enter under
good auspices his new career. That very night, while yet full of
gratitude and good resolves, this whole sum, and its amount
doubled, was lost at the gaming-table. In his desire to repair
his first losses, my father risked double stakes, and thus
incurred a debt of honour he was wholly unable to pay. Ashamed
to apply again to the king, he turned his back upon London, its
false delights and clinging miseries; and, with poverty for his
sole companion, buried himself in solitude among the hills and
lakes of Cumberland. His wit, his bon mots, the record of his
personal attractions, fascinating manners, and social talents,
were long remembered and repeated from mouth to mouth. Ask
where now was this favourite of fashion, this companion of the
noble, this excelling beam, which gilt with alien splendour the
assemblies of the courtly and the gay--you heard that he was
under a cloud, a lost man; not one thought it belonged to him
to repay pleasure by real services, or that his long reign of
brilliant wit deserved a pension on retiring. The king lamented
his absence; he loved to repeat his sayings, relate the
adventures they had had together, and exalt his talents--but
here ended his reminiscence.
Meanwhile my father, forgotten, could not forget. He repined
for the loss of what was more necessary to him than air or
food--the excitements of pleasure, the admiration of the noble,
the luxurious and polished living of the great. A nervous fever
was the consequence; during which he was nursed by the daughter
of a poor cottager, under whose roof he lodged. She was lovely,
gentle, and, above all, kind to him; nor can it afford
astonishment, that the late idol of high-bred beauty should,
even in a fallen state, appear a being of an elevated and
wondrous nature to the lowly cottage-girl. The attachment
between them led to the ill-fated marriage, of which I was the
offspring.
Notwithstanding the tenderness and sweetness of my mother,
her husband still deplored his degraded state. Unaccustomed to
industry, he knew not in what way to contribute to the support
of his increasing family. Sometimes he thought of applying to
the king; pride and shame for a while withheld him; and, before
his necessities became so imperious as to compel him to some
kind of exertion, he died. For one brief interval before this
catastrophe, he looked forward to the future, and contemplated
with anguish the desolate situation in which his wife and
children would be left. His last effort was a letter to the king,
full of touching eloquence, and of occasional flashes of that
brilliant spirit which was an integral part of him. He
bequeathed his widow and orphans to the friendship of his royal
master, and felt satisfied that, by this means, their prosperity
was better assured in his death than in his life. This letter was
enclosed to the care of a nobleman, who, he did not doubt,
would perform the last and inexpensive office of placing it in
the king's own hand.
He died in debt, and his little property was seized
immediately by his creditors. My mother, penniless and
burthened with two children, waited week after week, and month
after month, in sickening expectation of a reply, which never
came. She had no experience beyond her father's cottage; and
the mansion of the lord of the manor was the chiefest type of
grandeur she could conceive. During my father's life, she had
been made familiar with the name of royalty and the courtly
circle; but such things, ill according with her personal
experience, appeared, after the loss of him who gave substance
and reality to them, vague and fantastical. If, under any
circumstances, she could have acquired sufficient courage to
address the noble persons mentioned by her husband, the ill
success of his own application caused her to banish the idea.
She saw therefore no escape from dire penury: perpetual care,
joined to sorrow for the loss of the wondrous being, whom she
continued to contemplate with ardent admiration, hard labour,
and naturally delicate health, at length released her from the
sad continuity of want and misery.
The condition of her orphan children was peculiarly desolate.
Her own father had been an emigrant from another part of the
country, and had died long since: they had no one relation to
take them by the hand; they were outcasts, paupers, unfriended
beings, to whom the most scanty pittance was a matter of
favour, and who were treated merely as children of peasants, yet
poorer than the poorest, who, dying, had left them, a thankless
bequest, to the close-handed charity of the land.
I, the elder of the two, was five years old when my mother
died. A remembrance of the discourses of my parents, and the
communications which my mother endeavoured to impress upon
me concerning my father's friends, in slight hope that I might
one day derive benefit from the knowledge, floated like an
indistinct dream through my brain. I conceived that I was
different and superior to my protectors and companions, but I
knew not how or wherefore. The sense of injury, associated with
the name of king and noble, clung to me; but I could draw no
conclusions from such feelings, to serve as a guide to action.
My first real knowledge of myself was as an unprotected orphan
among the valleys and fells of Cumberland. I was in the service
of a farmer; and with crook in hand, my dog at my side, I
shepherded a numerous flock on the near uplands. I cannot say
much in praise of such a life; and its pains far exceeded its
pleasures. There was freedom in it, a companionship with
nature, and a reckless loneliness; but these, romantic as they
were, did not accord with the love of action and desire of human
sympathy, characteristic of youth. Neither the care of my flock,
nor the change of seasons, were sufficient to tame my eager
spirit; my out-door life and unemployed time were the
temptations that led me early into lawless habits. I associated
with others friendless like myself; I formed them into a band,
I was their chief and captain. All shepherd-boys alike, while
our flocks were spread over the pastures, we schemed and
executed many a mischievous prank, which drew on us the anger
and revenge of the rustics. I was the leader and protector of my
comrades, and as I became distinguished among them, their
misdeeds were usually visited upon me. But while I endured
punishment and pain in their defence with the spirit of an
hero, I claimed as my reward their praise and obedience.
In such a school my disposition became rugged, but firm. The
appetite for admiration and small capacity for self-control
which I inherited from my father, nursed by adversity, made me
daring and reckless. I was rough as the elements, and unlearned
as the animals I tended. I often compared myself to them, and
finding that my chief superiority consisted in power, I soon
persuaded myself that it was in power only that I was inferior
to the chiefest potentates of the earth. Thus untaught in
refined philosophy, and pursued by a restless feeling of
degradation from my true station in society, I wandered among
the hills of civilized England as uncouth a savage as the wolf-
bred founder of old Rome. I owned but one law, it was that of
the strongest, and my greatest deed of virtue was never to
submit.
Yet let me a little retract from this sentence I have passed
on myself. My mother, when dying, had, in addition to her other
half-forgotten and misapplied lessons, committed, with solemn
exhortation, her other child to my fraternal guardianship; and
this one duty I performed to the best of my ability, with all
the zeal and affection of which my nature was capable. My
sister was three years younger than myself; I had nursed her as
an infant, and when the difference of our sexes, by giving us
various occupations, in a great measure divided us, yet she
continued to be the object of my careful love. Orphans, in the
fullest sense of the term, we were poorest among the poor, and
despised among the unhonoured. If my daring and courage
obtained for me a kind of respectful aversion, her youth and
sex, since they did not excite tenderness, by proving her to be
weak, were the causes of numberless mortifications to her; and
her own disposition was not so constituted as to diminish the
evil effects of her lowly station.
She was a singular being, and, like me, inherited much of the
peculiar disposition of our father. Her countenance was all
expression; her eyes were not dark, but impenetrably deep; you
seemed to discover space after space in their intellectual
glance, and to feel that the soul which was their soul,
comprehended an universe of thought in its ken. She was pale
and fair, and her golden hair clustered on her temples,
contrasting its rich hue with the living marble beneath. Her
coarse peasant-dress, little consonant apparently with the
refinement of feeling which her face expressed, yet in a strange
manner accorded with it. She was like one of Guido's saints,
with heaven in her heart and in her look, so that when you saw
her you only thought of that within, and costume and even
feature were secondary to the mind that beamed in her
countenance.
Yet though lovely and full of noble feeling, my poor Perdita
(for this was the fanciful name my sister had received from her
dying parent), was not altogether saintly in her disposition.
Her manners were cold and repulsive. If she had been nurtured
by those who had regarded her with affection, she might have
been different; but unloved and neglected, she repaid want of
kindness with distrust and silence. She was submissive to those
who held authority over her, but a perpetual cloud dwelt on her
brow; she looked as if she expected enmity from every one who
approached her, and her actions were instigated by the same
feeling. All the time she could command she spent in solitude.
She would ramble to the most unfrequented places, and scale
dangerous heights, that in those unvisited spots she might wrap
herself in loneliness. Often she passed whole hours walking up
and down the paths of the woods; she wove garlands of flowers
and ivy, or watched the flickering of the shadows and glancing
of the leaves; sometimes she sat beside a stream, and as her
thoughts paused, threw flowers or pebbles into the waters,
watching how those swam and these sank; or she would set
afloat boats formed of bark of trees or leaves, with a feather
for a sail, and intensely watch the navigation of her craft
among the rapids and shallows of the brook. Meanwhile her
active fancy wove a thousand combinations; she dreamt "of
moving accidents by flood and field"--she lost herself
delightedly in these self-created wanderings, and returned with
unwilling spirit to the dull detail of common life.
Poverty was the cloud that veiled her excellencies, and all
that was good in her seemed about to perish from want of the
genial dew of affection. She had not even the same advantage as
I in the recollection of her parents; she clung to me, her
brother, as her only friend, but her alliance with me completed
the distaste that her protectors felt for her; and every error
was magnified by them into crimes. If she had been bred in that
sphere of life to which by inheritance the delicate framework
of her mind and person was adapted, she would have been the
object almost of adoration, for her virtues were as eminent as
her defects. All the genius that ennobled the blood of her
father illustrated hers; a generous tide flowed in her veins;
artifice, envy, or meanness, were at the antipodes of her
nature; her countenance, when enlightened by amiable feeling,
might have belonged to a queen of nations; her eyes were
bright; her look fearless.
Although by our situation and dispositions we were almost
equally cut off from the usual forms of social intercourse, we
formed a strong contrast to each other. I always required the
stimulants of companionship and applause. Perdita was all-
sufficient to herself. Notwithstanding my lawless habits, my
disposition was sociable, hers recluse. My life was spent among
tangible realities, hers was a dream. I might be said even to
love my enemies, since by exciting me they in a sort bestowed
happiness upon me; Perdita almost disliked her friends, for
they interfered with her visionary moods. All my feelings, even
of exultation and triumph, were changed to bitterness, if
unparticipated; Perdita, even in joy, fled to loneliness, and
could go on from day to day, neither expressing her emotions,
nor seeking a fellow-feeling in another mind. Nay, she could
love and dwell with tenderness on the look and voice of her
friend, while her demeanour expressed the coldest reserve. A
sensation with her became a sentiment, and she never spoke
until she had mingled her perceptions of outward objects with
others which were the native growth of her own mind. She was
like a fruitful soil that imbibed the airs and dews of heaven,
and gave them forth again to light in loveliest forms of fruits
and flowers; but then she was often dark and rugged as that
soil, raked up, and new sown with unseen seed.
She dwelt in a cottage whose trim grass-plat sloped down to
the waters of the lake of Ulswater; a beech wood stretched up
the hill behind, and a purling brook gently falling from the
acclivity ran through poplar-shaded banks into the lake. I lived
with a farmer whose house was built higher up among the hills:
a dark crag rose behind it, and, exposed to the north, the snow
lay in its crevices the summer through. Before dawn I led my
flock to the sheep-walks, and guarded them through the day. It
was a life of toil; for rain and cold were more frequent than
sunshine; but it was my pride to contemn the elements. My
trusty dog watched the sheep as I slipped away to the
rendezvous of my comrades, and thence to the accomplishment
of our schemes. At noon we met again, and we threw away in
contempt our peasant fare, as we built our fire-place and
kindled the cheering blaze destined to cook the game stolen
from the neighbouring preserves. Then came the tale of hair-
breadth escapes, combats with dogs, ambush and flight, as
gypsy-like we encompassed our pot. The search after a stray
lamb, or the devices by which we elude or endeavoured to elude
punishment, filled up the hours of afternoon; in the evening my
flock went to its fold, and I to my sister.
It was seldom indeed that we escaped, to use an old-fashioned
phrase, scot free. Our dainty fare was often exchanged for blows
and imprisonment. Once, when thirteen years of age, I was sent
for a month to the county jail. I came out, my morals
unimproved, my hatred to my oppressors increased tenfold.
Bread and water did not tame my blood, nor solitary
confinement inspire me with gentle thoughts. I was angry,
impatient, miserable; my only happy hours were those during
which I devised schemes of revenge; these were perfected in my
forced solitude, so that during the whole of the following
season, and I was freed early in September, I never failed to
provide excellent and plenteous fare for myself and my
comrades. This was a glorious winter. The sharp frost and heavy
snows tamed the animals, and kept the country gentlemen by
their firesides; we got more game than we could eat, and my
faithful dog grew sleek upon our refuse.
Thus years passed on; and years only added fresh love of
freedom, and contempt for all that was not as wild and rude as
myself. At the age of sixteen I had shot up in appearance to
man's estate; I was tall and athletic; I was practised to feats
of strength, and inured to the inclemency of the elements. My
skin was embrowned by the sun; my step was firm with conscious
power. I feared no man, and loved none. In after life I looked
back with wonder to what I then was; how utterly worthless I
should have become if I had pursued my lawless career. My life
was like that of an animal, and my mind was in danger of
degenerating into that which informs brute nature. Until now,
my savage habits had done me no radical mischief; my physical
powers had grown up and flourished under their influence, and
my mind, undergoing the same discipline, was imbued with all
the hardy virtues. But now my boasted independence was daily
instigating me to acts of tyranny, and freedom was becoming
licentiousness. I stood on the brink of manhood; passions,
strong as the trees of a forest, had already taken root within
me, and were about to shadow with their noxious overgrowth, my
path of life.
I panted for enterprises beyond my childish exploits, and
formed distempered dreams of future action. I avoided my
ancient comrades, and I soon lost them. They arrived at the age
when they were sent to fulfil their destined situations in life;
while I, an outcast, with none to lead or drive me forward,
paused. The old began to point at me as an example, the young
to wonder at me as a being distinct from themselves; I hated
them, and began, last and worst degradation, to hate myself. I
clung to my ferocious habits, yet half despised them; I
continued my war against civilization, and yet entertained a
wish to belong to it.
I revolved again and again all that I remembered my mother
to have told me of my father's former life; I contemplated the
few relics I possessed belonging to him, which spoke of greater
refinement than could be found among the mountain cottages;
but nothing in all this served as a guide to lead me to another
and pleasanter way of life. My father had been connected with
nobles, but all I knew of such connection was subsequent
neglect. The name of the king,--he to whom my dying father had
addressed his latest prayers, and who had barbarously slighted
them, was associated only with the ideas of unkindness,
injustice, and consequent resentment. I was born for something
greater than I was--and greater I would become; but greatness,
at least to my distorted perceptions, was no necessary
associate of goodness, and my wild thoughts were unchecked by
moral considerations when they rioted in dreams of distinction.
Thus I stood upon a pinnacle, a sea of evil rolled at my feet; I
was about to precipitate myself into it, and rush like a torrent
over all obstructions to the object of my wishes--when a
stranger influence came over the current of my fortunes, and
changed their boisterous course to what was in comparison like
the gentle meanderings of a meadow-encircling streamlet.
I LIVED far from the busy haunts of men, and the rumour of
wars or political changes came worn to a mere sound, to our
mountain abodes. England had been the scene of momentous
struggles, during my early boyhood. In the year 2073, the last
of its kings, the ancient friend of my father, had abdicated in
compliance with the gentle force of the remonstrances of his
subjects, and a republic was instituted. Large estates were
secured to the dethroned monarch and his family; he received
the title of Earl of Windsor, and Windsor Castle, an ancient
royalty, with its wide demesnes were a part of his allotted
wealth. He died soon after, leaving two children, a son and a
daughter.
The ex-queen, a princess of the house of Austria, had long
impelled her husband to withstand the necessity of the times.
She was haughty and fearless; she cherished a love of power, and
a bitter contempt for him who had despoiled himself of a
kingdom. For her children's sake alone she consented to remain,
shorn of regality, a member of the English republic. When she
became a widow, she turned all her thoughts to the educating
her son Adrian, second Earl of Windsor, so as to accomplish her
ambitious ends; and with his mother's milk he imbibed, and was
intended to grow up in the steady purpose of re-acquiring his
lost crown. Adrian was now fifteen years of age. He was addicted
to study, and imbued beyond his years with learning and talent:
report said that he had already begun to thwart his mother's
views, and to entertain republican principles. However this
might be, the haughty Countess entrusted none with the secrets
of her family-tuition. Adrian was bred up in solitude, and kept
apart from the natural companions of his age and rank. Some
unknown circumstance now induced his mother to send him from
under her immediate tutelage; and we heard that he was about to
visit Cumberland. A thousand tales were rife, explanatory of the
Countess of Windsor's conduct; none true probably; but each day
it became more certain that we should have the noble scion of
the late regal house of England among us.
There was a large estate with a mansion attached to it,
belonging to this family, at Ulswater. A large park was one of
its appendages, laid out with great taste, and plentifully
stocked with game. I had often made depredations on these
preserves; and the neglected state of the property facilitated
my incursions. When it was decided that the young Earl of
Windsor should visit Cumberland, workmen arrived to put the
house and grounds in order for his reception. The apartments
were restored to their pristine splendour, and the park, all
disrepairs restored, was guarded with unusual care.
I was beyond measure disturbed by this intelligence. It
roused all my dormant recollections, my suspended sentiments
of injury, and gave rise to the new one of revenge. I could no
longer attend to my occupations; all my plans and devices were
forgotten; I seemed about to begin life anew, and that under no
good auspices. The tug of war, I thought, was now to begin. He
would come triumphantly to the district to which my parent
had fled broken-hearted; he would find the ill-fated offspring,
bequeathed with such vain confidence to his royal father,
miserable paupers. That he should know of our existence, and
treat us, near at hand, with the same contumely which his
father had practised in distance and absence, appeared to me
the certain consequence of all that had gone before. Thus then I
should meet this titled stripling--the son of my father's
friend. He would be hedged in by servants; nobles, and the sons
of nobles, were his companions; all England rang with his
name; and his coming, like a thunderstorm, was heard from far:
while I, unlettered and unfashioned, should, if I came in contact
with him, in the judgment of his courtly followers, bear
evidence in my very person to the propriety of that ingratitude
which had made me the degraded being I appeared.
With my mind fully occupied by these ideas, I might be said
as if fascinated, to haunt the destined abode of the young Earl.
I watched the progress of the improvements, and stood by the
unlading waggons, as various articles of luxury, brought from
London, were taken forth and conveyed into the mansion. It was
part of the Ex-Queen's plan, to surround her son with princely
magnificence. I beheld rich carpets and silken hangings,
ornaments of gold, richly embossed metals, emblazoned
furniture, and all the appendages of high rank arranged, so that
nothing but what was regal in splendour should reach the eye of
one of royal descent. I looked on these; I turned my gaze to my
own mean dress.--Whence sprung this difference? Whence but
from ingratitude, from falsehood, from a dereliction on the
part of the prince's father, of all noble sympathy and generous
feeling. Doubtless, he also, whose blood received a mingling
tide from his proud mother--he, the acknowledged focus of the
kingdom's wealth and nobility, had been taught to repeat my
father's name with disdain, and to scoff at my just claims to
protection. I strove to think that all this grandeur was but
more glaring infamy, and that, by planting his gold-enwoven
flag beside my tarnished and tattered banner, he proclaimed not
his superiority, but his debasement. Yet I envied him. His stud
of beautiful horses, his arms of costly workmanship, the praise
that attended him, the adoration, ready servitor, high place and
high esteem,--I considered them as forcibly wrenched from me,
and envied them all with novel and tormenting bitterness.
To crown my vexation of spirit, Perdita, the visionary
Perdita, seemed to awake to real life with transport, when she
told me that the Earl of Windsor was about to arrive.
"And this pleases you?" I observed, moodily.
"Indeed it does, Lionel," she replied; "I quite long to see
him; he is the descendant of our kings, the first noble of the
land: every one admires and loves him, and they say that his
rank is his least merit; he is generous, brave, and affable."
"You have learnt a pretty lesson, Perdita," said I, "and
repeat it so literally, that you forget the while the proofs we
have of the Earl's virtues; his generosity to us is manifest in
our plenty, his bravery in the protection he affords us, his
affability in the notice he takes of us. His rank his least
merit, do you say? Why, all his virtues are derived from his
station only; because he is rich, he is called generous; because
he is powerful, brave; because he is well served, he is affable.
Let them call him so, let all England believe him to be thus--
we know him--he is our enemy--our penurious, dastardly,
arrogant enemy; if he were gifted with one particle of the
virtues you call his, he would do justly by us, if it were only
to show, that if he must strike, it should not be a fallen foe.
His father injured my father--his father, unassailable on his
throne, dared despise him who only stooped beneath himself,
when he deigned to associate with the royal ingrate. We,
descendants from the one and the other, must be enemies also.
He shall find that I can feel my injuries; he shall learn to
dread my revenge!"
A few days after he arrived. Every inhabitant of the most
miserable cottage, went to swell the stream of population that
poured forth to meet him: even Perdita, in spite of my late
philippic, crept near the highway, to behold this idol of all
hearts. I, driven half mad, as I met party after party of the
country people, in their holiday best, descending the hills,
escaped to their cloud-veiled summits, and looking on the
sterile rocks about me, exclaimed--"They do not cry, long live
the Earl!" Nor, when night came, accompanied by drizzling rain
and cold, would I return home; for I knew that each cottage
rang with the praises of Adrian; as I felt my limbs grow numb
and chill, my pain served as food for my insane aversion; nay, I
almost triumphed in it, since it seemed to afford me reason
and excuse for my hatred of my unheeding adversary. All was
attributed to him, for I confounded so entirely the idea of
father and son, that I forgot that the latter might be wholly
unconscious of his parent's neglect of us; and as I struck my
aching head with my hand, I cried: "He shall hear of this! I
will be revenged! I will not suffer like a spaniel! He shall
know, beggar and friendless as I am, that I will not tamely
submit to injury!"
Each day, each hour added to these exaggerated wrongs. His
praises were so many adder's stings infixed in my vulnerable
breast. If I saw him at a distance, riding a beautiful horse, my
blood boiled with rage; the air seemed poisoned by his
presence, and my very native English was changed to a vile
jargon, since every phrase I heard was coupled with his name
and honour. I panted to relieve this painful heart-burning by
some misdeed that should rouse him to a sense of my antipathy.
It was the height of his offending, that he should occasion in
me such intolerable sensations, and not deign himself to afford
any demonstration that he was aware that I even lived to feel
them.
It soon became known that Adrian took great delight in his
park and preserves. He never sported, but spent hours in
watching the tribes of lovely and almost tame animals with
which it was stocked, and ordered that greater care should be
taken of them than ever. Here was an opening for my plans of
offence, and I made use of it with all the brute impetuosity I
derived from my active mode of life. I proposed the enterprise
of poaching on his demesne to my few remaining comrades, who
were the most determined and lawless of the crew; but they all
shrunk from the peril; so I was left to achieve my revenge
myself. At first my exploits were unperceived; I increased in
daring; footsteps on the dewy grass, torn boughs, and marks of
slaughter, at length betrayed me to the game-keepers. They kept
better watch; I was taken, and sent to prison. I entered its
gloomy walls in a fit of triumphant ecstasy: "He feels me now,"
I cried, "and shall, again and again!"--I passed but one day in
confinement; in the evening I was liberated, as I was told, by
the order of the Earl himself. This news precipitated me from
my self-raised pinnacle of honour. He despises me, I thought;
but he shall learn that I despise him, and hold in equal
contempt his punishments and his clemency. On the second
night after my release, I was again taken by the gamekeepers--
again imprisoned, and again released; and again, such was my
pertinacity, did the fourth night find me in the forbidden park.
The gamekeepers were more enraged than their lord by my
obstinacy. They had received orders that if I were again taken, I
should be brought to the Earl; and his lenity made them expect
a conclusion which they considered ill befitting my crime. One
of them, who had been from the first the leader among those
who had seized me, resolved to satisfy his own resentment,
before he made me over to the higher powers.
The late setting of the moon, and the extreme caution I was
obliged to use in this my third expedition, consumed so much
time, that something like a qualm of fear came over me when I
perceived dark night yield to twilight. I crept along by the
fern, on my hands and knees, seeking the shadowy coverts of the
underwood, while the birds awoke with unwelcome song above, and
the fresh morning wind, playing among the boughs, made me
suspect a footfall at each turn. My heart beat quick as I
approached the palings; my hand was on one of them, a leap
would take me to the other side, when two keepers sprang from
an ambush upon me: one knocked me down, and proceeded to
inflict a severe horse-whipping. I started up--a knife was in my
grasp; I made a plunge at his raised right arm, and inflicted a
deep, wide wound in his hand. The rage and yells of the wounded
man, the howling execrations of his comrade, which I answered
with equal bitterness and fury, echoed through the dell;
morning broke more and more, ill accordant in its celestial
beauty with our brute and noisy contest. I and my enemy were
still struggling, when the wounded man exclaimed, "The Earl!" I
sprang out of the herculean hold of the keeper, panting from
my exertions; I cast furious glances on my persecutors, and
placing myself with my back to a tree, resolved to defend
myself to the last. My garments were torn, and they, as well as
my hands, were stained with the blood of the man I had wounded;
one hand grasped the dead birds--my hard-earned prey, the other
held the knife; my hair was matted; my face besmeared with the
same guilty signs that bore witness against me on the dripping
instrument I clenched; my whole appearance was haggard and
squalid. Tall and muscular as I was in form, I must have looked
like, what indeed I was, the merest ruffian that ever trod the
earth.
The name of the Earl startled me, and caused all the
indignant blood that warmed my heart to rush into my cheeks; I
had never seen him before; I figured to myself a haughty,
assuming youth, who would take me to task, if he deigned to
speak to me, with all the arrogance of superiority. My reply was
ready; a reproach I deemed calculated to sting his very heart.
He came up the while; and his appearance blew aside, with
gentle western breath, my cloudy wrath: a tall, slim, fair boy,
with a physiognomy expressive of the excess of sensibility and
refinement stood before me; the morning sunbeams tinged with
gold his silken hair, and spread light and glory over his
beaming countenance. "How is this?" he cried. The men eagerly
began their defence; he put them aside, saying, "Two of you at
once on a mere lad--for shame!" He came up to me: "Verney,"
he cried, "Lionel Verney, do we meet thus for the first time? We
were born to be friends to each other; and though ill fortune
has divided us, will you not acknowledge the hereditary bond of
friendship which I trust will hereafter unite us?"
As he spoke, his earnest eyes, fixed on me, seemed to read my
very soul: my heart, my savage revengeful heart, felt the
influence of sweet benignity sink upon it; while his thrilling
voice, like sweetest melody, awoke a mute echo within me,
stirring to its depths the life-blood in my frame. I desired to
reply, to acknowledge his goodness, accept his proffered
friendship; but words, fitting words, were not afforded to the
rough mountaineer; I would have held out my hand, but its
guilty stain restrained me. Adrian took pity on my faltering
mien: "Come with me," he said, "I have much to say to you;
come home with me--you know who I am?"
"Yes," I exclaimed, "I do believe that I now know you, and
that you will pardon my mistakes--my crime."
Adrian smiled gently; and after giving his orders to the
gamekeepers, he came up to me; putting his arm in mine, we
walked together to the mansion.
It was not his rank--after all that I have said, surely it will
not be suspected that it was Adrian's rank, that, from the first,
subdued my heart of hearts, and laid my entire spirit prostrate
before him. Nor was it I alone who felt thus intimately his
perfections. His sensibility and courtesy fascinated every one.
His vivacity, intelligence, and active spirit of benevolence,
completed the conquest. Even at this early age, he was deep read
and imbued with the spirit of high philosophy. This spirit gave
a tone of irresistible persuasion to his intercourse with
others, so that he seemed like an inspired musician, who struck,
with unerring skill, the "lyre of mind," and produced thence
divine harmony. In person, he hardly appeared of this world;
his slight frame was over-informed by the soul that dwelt
within; he was all mind; "Man but a rush against" his breast,
and it would have conquered his strength; but the might of his
smile would have tamed an hungry lion, or caused a legion of
armed men to lay their weapons at his feet.
I spent the day with him. At first he did not recur to the
past, or indeed to any personal occurrences. He wished probably
to inspire me with confidence, and give me time to gather
together my scattered thoughts. He talked of general subjects,
and gave me ideas I had never before conceived. We sat in his
library, and he spoke of the old Greek sages, and of the power
which they had acquired over the minds of men, through the
force of love and wisdom only. The room was decorated with the
busts of many of them, and he described their characters to me.
As he spoke, I felt subject to him; and all my boasted pride
and strength were subdued by the honeyed accents of this blue-
eyed boy. The trim and paled demesne of civilization, which I
had before regarded from my wild jungle as inaccessible, had
its wicket opened by him; I stepped within, and felt, as I
entered, that I trod my native soil.
As evening came on, he reverted to the past. "I have a tale
to relate," he said, "and much explanation to give concerning
the past; perhaps you can assist me to curtail it. Do you
remember your father? I had never the happiness of seeing him,
but his name is one of my earliest recollections: he stands
written in my mind's tablets as the type of all that was
gallant, amiable, and fascinating in man. His wit was not more
conspicuous than the overflowing goodness of his heart, which
he poured in such full measure on his friends, as to leave, alas!
small remnant for himself."
Encouraged by this encomium, I proceeded, in answer to his
inquiries, to relate what I remembered of my parent; and he
gave an account of those circumstances which had brought about
a neglect of my father's testamentary letter. When, in after
times, Adrian's father, then king of England, felt his situation
become more perilous, his line of conduct more embarrassed,
again and again he wished for his early friend, who might stand
a mound against the impetuous anger of his queen, a mediator
between him and the parliament. From the time that he had
quitted London, on the fatal night of his defeat at the gaming-
table, the king had received no tidings concerning him; and
when, after the lapse of years, he exerted himself to discover
him, every trace was lost. With fonder regret than ever, he
clung to his memory; and gave it in charge to his son, if ever
he should meet this valued friend, in his name to bestow every
succour, and to assure him that, to the last, his attachment
survived separation and silence.
A short time before Adrian's visit to Cumberland, the heir of
the nobleman to whom my father had confided his last appeal
to his royal master, put this letter, its seal unbroken, into
the young Earl's hands. It had been found cast aside with a mass
of papers of old date, and accident alone brought it to light.
Adrian read it with deep interest; and found there that living
spirit of genius and wit he had so often heard commemorated.
He discovered the name of the spot whither my father had
retreated, and where he died; he learnt the existence of his
orphan children; and during the short interval between his
arrival at Ulswater and our meeting in the park, he had been
occupied in making inquiries concerning us, and arranging a
variety of plans for our benefit, preliminary to his introducing
himself to our notice.
The mode in which he spoke of my father was gratifying to
my vanity; the veil which he delicately cast over his
benevolence, in alleging a duteous fulfilment of the king's
latest will, was soothing to my pride. Other feelings, less
ambiguous, were called into play by his conciliating manner and
the generous warmth of his expressions, respect rarely before
experienced, admiration, and love--he had touched my rocky
heart with his magic power, and the stream of affection gushed
forth, imperishable and pure. In the evening we parted; he
pressed my hand: "We shall meet again; come to me to-morrow."
I clasped that kind hand; I tried to answer; a fervent "God
bless you!" was all my ignorance could frame of speech, and I
darted away, oppressed by my new emotions.
I could not rest. I sought the hills; a west wind swept them,
and the stars glittered above. I ran on, careless of outward
objects, but trying to master the struggling spirit within me
by means of bodily fatigue. "This," I thought, "is power! Not to
be strong of limb, hard of heart, ferocious, and daring; but
kind, compassionate and soft."--Stopping short, I clasped my
hands, and with the fervour of a new proselyte, cried, "Doubt me
not, Adrian, I also will become wise and good!" and then quite
overcome, I wept aloud.
As this gust of passion passed from me, I felt more
composed. I lay on the ground, and giving the reins to my
thoughts, repassed in my mind my former life; and began, fold
by fold, to unwind the many errors of my heart, and to discover
how brutish, savage, and worthless I had hitherto been. I could
not however at that time feel remorse, for methought I was
born anew; my soul threw off the burthen of past sin, to
commence a new career in innocence and love. Nothing harsh or
rough remained to jar with the soft feelings which the
transactions of the day had inspired; I was as a child lisping
its devotions after its mother, and my plastic soul was
remoulded by a master hand, which I neither desired nor was
able to resist.
This was the first commencement of my friendship with
Adrian, and I must commemorate this day as the most fortunate
of my life. I now began to be human. I was admitted within that
sacred boundary which divides the intellectual and moral nature
of man from that which characterises animals. My best feelings
were called into play to give fitting responses to the
generosity, wisdom, and amenity of my new friend. He, with a
noble goodness all his own, took infinite delight in bestowing
to prodigality the treasures of his mind and fortune on the
long-neglected son of his father's friend, the offspring of that
gifted being whose excellencies and talents he had heard
commemorated from infancy.
After his abdication the late king had retreated from the
sphere of politics, yet his domestic circle afforded him small
content. The ex-queen had none of the virtues of domestic life,
and those of courage and daring which she possessed were
rendered null by the secession of her husband: she despised
him, and did not care to conceal her sentiments. The king had,
in compliance with her exactions, cast off his old friends, but
he had acquired no new ones under her guidance. In this dearth
of sympathy, he had recourse to his almost infant son; and the
early development of talent and sensibility rendered Adrian no
unfitting depository of his father's confidence. He was never
weary of listening to the latter's often repeated accounts of
old times, in which my father had played a distinguished part;
his keen remarks were repeated to the boy, and remembered by
him; his wit, his fascinations, his very faults were hallowed by
the regret of affection; his loss was sincerely deplored. Even
the queen's dislike of the favourite was ineffectual to deprive
him of his son's admiration: it was bitter, sarcastic,
contemptuous--but as she bestowed her heavy censure alike on
his virtues as his errors, on his devoted friendship and his ill-
bestowed loves, on his disinterestedness and his prodigality, on
his prepossessing grace of manner, and the facility with which
he yielded to temptation, her double shot proved too heavy, and
fell short of the mark. Nor did her angry dislike prevent Adrian
from imaging my father, as he had said, the type of all that
was gallant, amiable, and fascinating in man. It was not strange
therefore, that when he heard of the existence of the offspring
of this celebrated person, he should have formed the plan of
bestowing on them all the advantages his rank made him rich to
afford. When he found me a vagabond shepherd of the hills, a
poacher, an unlettered savage, still his kindness did not fail.
In addition to the opinion he entertained that his father was to
a degree culpable of neglect towards us, and that he was bound
to every possible reparation, he was pleased to say that under
all my ruggedness there glimmered forth an elevation of spirit,
which could be distinguished from mere animal courage, and
that I inherited a similarity of countenance to my father,
which gave proof that all his virtues and talents had not died
with him. Whatever those might be which descended to me, my
noble young friend resolved should not be lost for want of
culture.
Acting upon this plan in our subsequent intercourse, he led
me to wish to participate in that cultivation which graced his
own intellect. My active mind, when once it seized upon this
new idea, fastened on it with extreme avidity. At first it was
the great object of my ambition to rival the merits of my
father, and render myself worthy of the friendship of Adrian.
But curiosity soon awoke, and an earnest love of knowledge,
which caused me to pass days and nights in reading and study. I
was already well acquainted with what I may term the panorama
of nature, the change of seasons, and the various appearances of
heaven and earth. But I was at once startled and enchanted by
my sudden extension of vision, when the curtain, which had been
drawn before the intellectual world, was withdrawn, and I saw
the universe, not only as it presented itself to my outward
senses, but as it had appeared to the wisest among men. Poetry
and its creations, philosophy and its researches and
classifications, alike awoke the sleeping ideas in my mind, and
gave me new ones.
I felt as the sailor, who from the topmast first discovered
the shore of America; and like him I hastened to tell my
companions of my discoveries in unknown regions. But I was
unable to excite in any breast the same craving appetite for
knowledge that existed in mine. Even Perdita was unable to
understand me. I had lived in what is generally called the world
of reality, and it was awakening to a new country to find that
there was a deeper meaning in all I saw, besides that which my
eyes conveyed to me. The visionary Perdita beheld in all this
only a new gloss upon an old reading, and her own was
sufficiently inexhaustible to content her. She listened to me
as she had done to the narration of my adventures, and
sometimes took an interest in this species of information; but
she did not, as I did, look on it as an integral part of her
being, which having obtained, I could no more put off than the
universal sense of touch.
We both agreed in loving Adrian: although she not having yet
escaped from childhood could not appreciate as I did the extent
of his merits, or feel the same sympathy in his pursuits and
opinions. I was for ever with him. There was a sensibility and
sweetness in his disposition, that gave a tender and unearthly
tone to our converse. Then he was gay as a lark carolling from
its skiey tower, soaring in thought as an eagle, innocent as the
mild-eyed dove. He could dispel the seriousness of Perdita, and
take the sting from the torturing activity of my nature. I
looked back to my restless desires and painful struggles with
my fellow beings as to a troubled dream, and felt myself as
much changed as if I had transmigrated into another form,
whose fresh sensorium and mechanism of nerves had altered the
reflection of the apparent universe in the mirror of mind. But
it was not so; I was the same in strength, in earnest craving
for sympathy, in my yearning for active exertion. My manly
virtues did not desert me, for the witch Urania spared the locks
of Sampson, while he reposed at her feet; but all was softened
and humanized. Nor did Adrian instruct me only in the cold
truths of history and philosophy. At the same time that he
taught me by their means to subdue my own reckless and
uncultured spirit, he opened to my view the living page of his
own heart, and gave me to feel and understand its wondrous
character.
The ex-queen of England had, even during infancy, endeavoured
to implant daring and ambitious designs in the mind of her
son. She saw that he was endowed with genius and surpassing
talent; these she cultivated for the sake of afterwards using
them for the furtherance of her own views. She encouraged his
craving for knowledge and his impetuous courage; she even
tolerated his tameless love of freedom, under the hope that
this would, as is too often the case, lead to a passion for
command. She endeavoured to bring him up in a sense of
resentment towards, and a desire to revenge himself upon, those
who had been instrumental in bringing about his father's
abdication. In this she did not succeed. The accounts furnished
him, however distorted, of a great and wise nation asserting its
right to govern itself, excited his admiration: in early days he
became a republican from principle. Still his mother did not
despair. To the love of rule and haughty pride of birth she
added determined ambition, patience, and self-control. She
devoted herself to the study of her son's disposition. By the
application of praise, censure, and exhortation, she tried to
seek and strike the fitting chords; and though the melody that
followed her touch seemed discord to her, she built her hopes
on his talents, and felt sure that she would at last win him.
The kind of banishment he now experienced arose from other
causes.
The ex-queen had also a daughter, now twelve years of age;
his fairy sister, Adrian was wont to call her; a lovely,
animated, little thing, all sensibility and truth. With these,
her children, the noble widow constantly resided at Windsor;
and admitted no visitors, except her own partisans, travellers
from her native Germany, and a few of the foreign ministers.
Among these, and highly distinguished by her, was Prince Zaimi,
ambassador to England from the free States of Greece; and his
daughter, the young Princess Evadne, passed much of her time at
Windsor Castle. In company with this sprightly and clever Greek
girl, the Countess would relax from her usual state. Her views
with regard to her own children, placed all her words and
actions relative to them under restraint: but Evadne was a
plaything she could in no way fear; nor were her talents and
vivacity slight alleviations to the monotony of the Countess's
life.
Evadne was eighteen years of age. Although they spent much
time together at Windsor, the extreme youth of Adrian
prevented any suspicion as to the nature of their intercourse.
But he was ardent and tender of heart beyond the common nature
of man, and had already learnt to love, while the beauteous
Greek smiled benignantly on the boy. It was strange to me, who,
though older than Adrian, had never loved, to witness the whole
heart's sacrifice of my friend. There was neither jealousy,
inquietude, or mistrust in his sentiment; it was devotion and
faith. His life was swallowed up in the existence of his
beloved; and his heart beat only in unison with the pulsations
that vivified hers. This was the secret law of his life--he loved
and was beloved. The universe was to him a dwelling, to inhabit
with his chosen one; and not either a scheme of society or an
enchainment of events, that could impart to him either
happiness or misery. What, though life and the system of social
intercourse were a wilderness, a tiger-haunted jungle! Through
the midst of its errors, in the depths of its savage recesses,
there was a disentangled and flowery pathway, through which
they might journey in safety and delight. Their track would be
like the passage of the Red Sea, which they might traverse with
unwet feet, though a wall of destruction were impending on
either side.
Alas! why must I record the hapless delusion of this
matchless specimen of humanity? What is there in our nature
that is for ever urging us on towards pain and misery? We are
not formed for enjoyment; and, however we may be attuned to
the reception of pleasurable emotion, disappointment is the
never-failing pilot of our life's bark, and ruthlessly carries us
on to the shoals. Who was better framed than this highly-gifted
youth to love and be beloved, and to reap unalienable joy from
an unblamed passion? If his heart had slept but a few years
longer, he might have been saved; but it awoke in its infancy;
it had power, but no knowledge; and it was ruined, even as a too
early-blowing bud is nipped by the killing frost.
I did not accuse Evadne of hypocrisy or a wish to deceive her
lover; but the first letter that I saw of hers convinced me that
she did not love him; it was written with elegance, and,
foreigner as she was, with great command of language. The hand-
writing itself was exquisitely beautiful; there was something in
her very paper and its folds, which even I, who did not love, and
was withal unskilled in such matters, could discern as being
tasteful. There was much kindness, gratitude, and sweetness in
her expression, but no love. Evadne was two years older than
Adrian; and who, at eighteen, ever loved one so much their
junior? I compared her placid epistles with the burning ones of
Adrian. His soul seemed to distil itself into the words he
wrote; and they breathed on the paper, bearing with them a
portion of the life of love, which was his life. The very writing
used to exhaust him; and he would weep over them, merely from
the excess of emotion they awakened in his heart.
Adrian's soul was painted in his countenance, and
concealment or deceit were at the antipodes to the dreadless
frankness of his nature. Evadne made it her earnest request that
the tale of their loves should not be revealed to his mother;
and after for a while contesting the point, he yielded it to her.
A vain concession; his demeanour quickly betrayed his secret to
the quick eyes of the ex-queen. With the same wary prudence
that characterised her whole conduct, she concealed her
discovery, but hastened to remove her son from the sphere of
the attractive Greek. He was sent to Cumberland; but the plan
of correspondence between the lovers, arranged by Evadne, was
effectually hidden from her. Thus the absence of Adrian,
concerted for the purpose of separating, united them in firmer
bonds than ever. To me he discoursed ceaselessly of his beloved
Ionian. Her country, its ancient annals, its late memorable
struggles, were all made to partake in her glory and excellence.
He submitted to be away from her, because she commanded this
submission; but for her influence, he would have declared his
attachment before all England, and resisted, with unshaken
constancy, his mother's opposition. Evadne's feminine prudence
perceived how useless any assertion of his resolves would be,
till added years gave weight to his power. Perhaps there was
besides a lurking dislike to bind herself in the face of the
world to one whom she did not love--not love, at least, with
that passionate enthusiasm which her heart told her she might
one day feel towards another. He obeyed her injunctions, and
passed a year in exile in Cumberland.
HAPPY, thrice happy, were the months, and weeks, and hours of
that year. Friendship, hand in hand with admiration, tenderness
and respect, built a bower of delight in my heart, late rough as
an untrod wild in America, as the homeless wind or herbless
sea. Insatiate thirst for knowledge, and boundless affection for
Adrian, combined to keep both my heart and understanding
occupied, and I was consequently happy. What happiness is so
true and unclouded, as the overflowing and talkative delight of
young people. In our boat, upon my native lake, beside the
streams and the pale bordering poplars--in valley and over
hill, my crook thrown aside, a nobler flock to tend than silly
sheep, even a flock of new-born ideas, I read or listened to
Adrian; and his discourse, whether it concerned his love or his
theories for the improvement of man, alike entranced me.
Sometimes my lawless mood would return, my love of peril, my
resistance to authority; but this was in his absence; under the
mild sway of his dear eyes, I was obedient and good as a boy of
five years old, who does his mother's bidding.
After a residence of about a year at Ulswater, Adrian visited
London, and came back full of plans for our benefit. You must
begin life, he said: you are seventeen, and longer delay would
render the necessary apprenticeship more and more irksome. He
foresaw that his own life would be one of struggle, and I must
partake his labours with him. The better to fit me for this
task, we must now separate. He found my name a good passport
to preferment, and he had procured for me the situation of
private secretary to the Ambassador at Vienna, where I should
enter on my career under the best auspices. In two years, I
should return to my country, with a name well known and a
reputation already founded.
And Perdita?--Perdita was to become the pupil, friend and
younger sister of Evadne. With his usual thoughtfulness, he had
provided for her independence in this situation. How refuse the
offers of this generous friend?--I did not wish to refuse them;
but in my heart of hearts, I made a vow to devote life,
knowledge, and power, all of which, in as much as they were of
any value, he had bestowed on me--all, all my capacities and
hopes, to him alone I would devote.
Thus I promised myself, as I journeyed towards my
destination with roused and ardent expectation: expectation of
the fulfilment of all that in boyhood we promise ourselves of
power and enjoyment in maturity. Methought the time was now
arrived, when, childish occupations laid aside, I should enter
into life. Even in the Elysian fields, Virgil describes the souls
of the happy as eager to drink of the wave which was to restore
them to this mortal coil. The young are seldom in Elysium, for
their desires, outstripping possibility, leave them as poor as a
moneyless debtor. We are told by the wisest philosophers of
the dangers of the world, the deceits of men, and the treason of
our own hearts: but not the less fearlessly does each put off
his frail bark from the port, spread the sail, and strain his
oar, to attain the multitudinous streams of the sea of life. How
few in youth's prime, moor their vessels on the "golden sands,"
and collect the painted shells that strew them. But all at
close of day, with riven planks and rent canvas make for shore,
and are either wrecked ere they reach it, or find some wave-
beaten haven, some desert strand, whereon to cast themselves
and die unmourned.
A truce to philosophy!--Life is before me, and I rush into
possession. Hope, glory, love, and blameless ambition are my
guides, and my soul knows no dread. What has been, though sweet,
is gone; the present is good only because it is about to change,
and the to come is all my own. Do I fear, that my heart
palpitates? high aspirations cause the flow of my blood; my
eyes seem to penetrate the cloudy midnight of time, and to
discern within the depths of its darkness, the fruition of all
my soul desires.
Now pause!--During my journey I might dream, and with
buoyant wings reach the summit of life's high edifice. Now that
I am arrived at its base, my pinions are furled, the mighty
stairs are before me, and step by step I must ascend the
wondrous fane--
Speak!--What door is opened?
Behold me in a new capacity. A diplomatist: one among the
pleasure-seeking society of a gay city; a youth of promise;
favourite of the Ambassador. All was strange and admirable to
the shepherd of Cumberland. With breathless amaze I entered on
the gay scene, whose actors were
----the lilies glorious as Solomon,
Who toil not, neither do they spin.
Soon, too soon, I entered the giddy whirl; forgetting my
studious hours, and the companionship of Adrian. Passionate
desire of sympathy, and ardent pursuit for a wished-for object
still characterised me. The sight of beauty entranced me, and
attractive manners in man or woman won my entire confidence.
I called it rapture, when a smile made my heart beat; and I
felt the life's blood tingle in my frame, when I approached the
idol which for awhile I worshipped. The mere flow of animal
spirits was Paradise, and at night's close I only desired a
renewal of the intoxicating delusion. The dazzling light of
ornamented rooms; lovely forms arrayed in splendid dresses;
the motions of a dance, the voluptuous tones of exquisite
music, cradled my senses in one delightful dream.
And is not this in its kind happiness? I appeal to moralists
and sages. I ask if in the calm of their measured reveries, if in
the deep meditations which fill their hours, they feel the
ecstasy of a youthful tyro in the school of pleasure? Can the
calm beams of their heaven-seeking eyes equal the flashes of
mingling passion which blind his, or does the influence of cold
philosophy steep their soul in a joy equal to his, engaged
In this dear work of youthful revelry.
But in truth, neither the lonely meditations of the hermit,
nor the tumultuous raptures of the reveller, are capable of
satisfying man's heart. From the one we gather unquiet
speculation, from the other satiety. The mind flags beneath the
weight of thought, and droops in the heartless intercourse of
those whose sole aim is amusement. There is no fruition in
their vacant kindness, and sharp rocks lurk beneath the smiling
ripples of these shallow waters.
Thus I felt, when disappointment, weariness, and solitude
drove me back upon my heart, to gather thence the joy of which
it had become barren. My flagging spirits asked for something
to speak to the affections; and not finding it, I drooped. Thus,
notwithstanding the thoughtless delight that waited on its
commencement, the impression I have of my life at Vienna is
melancholy. Goethe has said, that in youth we cannot be happy
unless we love. I did not love; but I was devoured by a restless
wish to be something to others. I became the victim of
ingratitude and cold coquetry--then I desponded, and imagined
that my discontent gave me a right to hate the world. I receded
to solitude; I had recourse to my books, and my desire again to
enjoy the society of Adrian became a burning thirst.
Emulation, that in its excess almost assumed the venomous
properties of envy, gave a sting to these feelings. At this
period the name and exploits of one of my countrymen filled
the world with admiration. Relations of what he had done,
conjectures concerning his future actions, were the never-
failing topics of the hour. I was not angry on my own account,
but I felt as if the praises which this idol received were leaves
torn from laurels destined for Adrian. But I must enter into
some account of this darling of fame--this favourite of the
wonder-loving world.
Lord Raymond was the sole remnant of a noble but
impoverished family. From early youth he had considered his
pedigree with complacency, and bitterly lamented his want of
wealth. His first wish was aggrandisement; and the means that
led towards this end were secondary considerations. Haughty, yet
trembling to every demonstration of respect; ambitious, but
too proud to show his ambition; willing to achieve honour, yet
a votary of pleasure,--he entered upon life. He was met on the
threshold by some insult, real or imaginary; some repulse,
where he least expected it; some disappointment, hard for his
pride to bear. He writhed beneath an injury he was unable to
revenge; and he quitted England with a vow not to return, till
the good time should arrive, when she might feel the power of
him she now despised.
He became an adventurer in the Greek wars. His reckless
courage and comprehensive genius brought him into notice. He
became the darling hero of this rising people. His foreign
birth, and he refused to throw off his allegiance to his native
country, alone prevented him from filling the first offices in
the state. But, though others might rank higher in title and
ceremony, Lord Raymond held a station above and beyond all
this. He led the Greek armies to victory; their triumphs were
all his own. When he appeared, whole towns poured forth their
population to meet him; new songs were adapted to their
national airs, whose themes were his glory, valour, and
munificence.
A truce was concluded between the Greeks and Turks. At the
same time, Lord Raymond, by some unlooked-for chance, became
the possessor of an immense fortune in England, whither he
returned, crowned with glory, to receive the meed of honour and
distinction before denied to his pretensions. His proud heart
rebelled against this change. In what was the despised Raymond
not the same? If the acquisition of power in the shape of
wealth caused this alteration, that power should they feel as an
iron yoke. Power therefore was the aim of all his endeavours;
aggrandisement the mark at which he for ever shot. In open
ambition or close intrigue, his end was the same--to attain the
first station in his own country.
This account filled me with curiosity. The events that in
succession followed his return to England, gave me keener
feelings. Among his other advantages, Lord Raymond was
supremely handsome; every one admired him; of women he was
the idol. He was courteous, honey-tongued--an adept in
fascinating arts. What could not this man achieve in the busy
English world? Change succeeded to change; the entire history
did not reach me; for Adrian had ceased to write, and Perdita
was a laconic correspondent. The rumour went that Adrian had
become--how write the fatal word--mad: that Lord Raymond was
the favourite of the ex-queen, her daughter's destined husband.
Nay, more, that this aspiring noble revived the claim of the
house of Windsor to the crown, and that, on the event of
Adrian's incurable disorder and his marriage with the sister,
the brow of the ambitious Raymond might be encircled with the
magic ring of regality.
Such a tale filled the trumpet of many voiced fame; such a
tale rendered my longer stay at Vienna, away from the friend of
my youth, intolerable. Now I must fulfil my vow; now range
myself at his side, and be his ally and support till death.
Farewell to courtly pleasure; to politic intrigue; to the maze
of passion and folly! All hail, England! Native England, receive
thy child! thou art the scene of all my hopes, the mighty
theatre on which is acted the only drama that can, heart and
soul, bear me along with it in its development. A voice most
irresistible, a power omnipotent, drew me thither. After an
absence of two years I landed on its shores, not daring to make
any inquiries, fearful of every remark. My first visit would be
to my sister, who inhabited a little cottage, a part of Adrian's
gift, on the borders of Windsor Forest. From her I should learn
the truth concerning our protector; I should hear why she had
withdrawn from the protection of the Princess Evadne, and be
instructed as to the influence which this overtopping and
towering Raymond exercised over the fortunes of my friend.
I had never before been in the neighbourhood of Windsor; the
fertility and beauty of the country around now struck me with
admiration, which increased as I approached the antique wood.
The ruins of majestic oaks which had grown, flourished, and
decayed during the progress of centuries, marked where the
limits of the forest once reached, while the shattered palings
and neglected underwood showed that this part was deserted for
the younger plantations, which owed their birth to the
beginning of the nineteenth century, and now stood in the pride
of maturity. Perdita's humble dwelling was situated on the
skirts of the most ancient portion; before it was stretched
Bishopgate Heath, which towards the east appeared interminable,
and was bounded to the west by Chapel Wood and the grove of
Virginia Water. Behind, the cottage was shadowed by the
venerable fathers of the forest, under which the deer came to
graze, and which for the most part hollow and decayed, formed
fantastic groups that contrasted with the regular beauty of the
younger trees. These, the offspring of a later period, stood
erect and seemed ready to advance fearlessly into coming time;
while those out worn stragglers, blasted and broke, clung to
each other, their weak boughs sighing as the wind buffeted them
--a weather-beaten crew.
A light railing surrounded the garden of the cottage, which,
low-roofed, seemed to submit to the majesty of nature, and
cower amidst the venerable remains of forgotten time. Flowers,
the children of the spring, adorned her garden and casements;
in the midst of lowliness there was an air of elegance which
spoke the graceful taste of the inmate. With a beating heart I
entered the enclosure; as I stood at the entrance, I heard her
voice melodious as it had ever been, which before I saw her
assured me of her welfare.
A moment more and Perdita appeared; she stood before me in
the fresh bloom of youthful womanhood, different from and yet
the same as the mountain girl I had left. Her eyes could not be
deeper than they were in childhood, nor her countenance more
expressive; but the expression was changed and improved;
intelligence sat on her brow; when she smiled her face was
embellished by the softest sensibility, and her low, modulated
voice seemed tuned by love. Her person was formed in the most
feminine proportions; she was not tall, but her mountain life
had given freedom to her motions, so that her light step scarce
made her foot-fall heard as she tripped across the hall to meet
me. When we had parted, I had clasped her to my bosom with
unrestrained warmth; we met again, and new feelings were
awakened; when each beheld the other, childhood passed, as full
grown actors on this changeful scene. The pause was but for a
moment; the flood of association and natural feeling which had
been checked, again rushed in full tide upon our hearts, and
with tenderest emotion we were swiftly locked in each other's
embrace.
This burst of passionate feeling over, with calmed thoughts
we sat together, talking of the past and present. I alluded to
the coldness of her letters; but the few minutes we had spent
together sufficiently explained the origin of this. New feelings
had arisen within her, which she was unable to express in
writing to one whom she had only known in childhood; but we
saw each other again, and our intimacy was renewed as if
nothing had intervened to check it. I detailed the incidents of
my sojourn abroad, and then questioned her as to the changes
that had taken place at home, the causes of Adrian's absence,
and her secluded life.
The tears that suffused my sister's eyes when I mentioned
our friend, and her heightened colour seemed to vouch for the
truth of the reports that had reached me. But their import was
too terrible for me to give instant credit to my suspicion. Was
there indeed anarchy in the sublime universe of Adrian's
thoughts, did madness scatter the well-appointed legions, and
was he no longer the lord of his own soul? Beloved friend, this
ill world was no clime for your gentle spirit; you delivered up
its governance to false humanity, which stript it of its leaves
ere winter-time, and laid bare its quivering life to the evil
ministration of roughest winds. Have those gentle eyes, those
"channels of the soul" lost their meaning, or do they only in
their glare disclose the horrible tale of its aberrations? Does
that voice no longer "discourse excellent music?" Horrible,
most horrible! I veil my eyes in terror of the change, and
gushing tears bear witness to my sympathy for this
unimaginable ruin.
In obedience to my request Perdita detailed the melancholy
circumstances that led to this event.
The frank and unsuspicious mind of Adrian, gifted as it was
by every natural grace, endowed with transcendent powers of
intellect, unblemished by the shadow of defect (unless his
dreadless independence of thought was to be construed into one),
was devoted, even as a victim to sacrifice, to his love for
Evadne. He entrusted to her keeping the treasures of his soul,
his aspirations after excellence, and his plans for the
improvement of mankind. As manhood dawned upon him, his
schemes and theories, far from being changed by personal and
prudential motives, acquired new strength from the powers he
felt arise within him; and his love for Evadne became deep-
rooted, as he each day became more certain that the path he
pursued was full of difficulty, and that he must seek his reward,
not in the applause or gratitude of his fellow creatures, hardly
in the success of his plans, but in the approbation of his own
heart, and in her love and sympathy, which was to lighten every
toil and recompense every sacrifice.
In solitude, and through many wanderings afar from the
haunts of men, he matured his views for the reform of the
English government, and the improvement of the people. It
would have been well if he had concealed his sentiments, until
he had come into possession of the power which would secure
their practical development. But he was impatient of the years
that must intervene, he was frank of heart and fearless. He gave
not only a brief denial to his mother's schemes, but published
his intention of using his influence to diminish the power of
the aristocracy, to effect a greater equalisation of wealth and
privilege, and to introduce a perfect system of republican
government into England. At first his mother treated his
theories as the wild ravings of inexperience. But they were so
systematically arranged, and his arguments so well supported,
that though still in appearance incredulous, she began to fear
him. She tried to reason with him, and finding him inflexible,
learned to hate him.
Strange to say, this feeling was infectious. His enthusiasm
for good which did not exist; his contempt for the sacredness
of authority; his ardour and imprudence were all at the
antipodes of the usual routine of life; the worldly feared him;
the young and inexperienced did not understand the lofty
severity of his moral views, and disliked him as a being
different from themselves. Evadne entered but coldly into his
systems. She thought he did well to assert his own will, but
she wished that will to have been more intelligible to the
multitude. She had none of the spirit of a martyr, and did not
incline to share the shame and defeat of a fallen patriot. She
was aware of the purity of his motives, the generosity of his
disposition, his true and ardent attachment to her; and she
entertained a great affection for him. He repaid this spirit of
kindness with the fondest gratitude, and made her the treasure-
house of all his hopes.
At this time Lord Raymond returned from Greece. No two
persons could be more opposite than Adrian and he. With all
the incongruities of his character, Raymond was emphatically a
man of the world. His passions were violent; as these often
obtained the mastery over him, he could not always square his
conduct to the obvious line of self-interest, but self-
gratification at least was the paramount object with him. He
looked on the structure of society as but a part of the
machinery which supported the web on which his life was traced.
The earth was spread out as an highway for him; the heavens
built up as a canopy for him.
Adrian felt that he made a part of a great whole. He owned
affinity not only with mankind, but all nature was akin to him;
the mountains and sky were his friends; the winds of heaven and
the offspring of earth his playmates; while he the focus only
of this mighty mirror, felt his life mingle with the universe
of existence. His soul was sympathy, and dedicated to the
worship of beauty and excellence. Adrian and Raymond now came
into contact, and a spirit of aversion rose between them.
Adrian despised the narrow views of the politician, and Raymond
held in supreme contempt the benevolent visions of the
philanthropist.
With the coming of Raymond was formed the storm that laid
waste at one fell blow the gardens of delight and sheltered
paths which Adrian fancied that he had secured to himself, as a
refuge from defeat and contumely. Raymond, the deliverer of
Greece, the graceful soldier, who bore in his mien a tinge of
all that, peculiar to her native clime, Evadne cherished as
most dear--Raymond was loved by Evadne. Overpowered by her
new sensations, she did not pause to examine them, or to
regulate her conduct by any sentiments except the tyrannical
one which suddenly usurped the empire of her heart. She yielded
to its influence, and the too natural consequence in a mind
unattuned to soft emotions was, that the attentions of Adrian
became distasteful to her. She grew capricious; her gentle
conduct towards him was exchanged for asperity and repulsive
coldness. When she perceived the wild or pathetic appeal of his
expressive countenance, she would relent, and for a while
resume her ancient kindness. But these fluctuations shook to
its depths the soul of the sensitive youth; he no longer deemed
the world subject to him, because he possessed Evadne's love;
he felt in every nerve that the dire storms of the mental
universe were about to attack his fragile being, which quivered
at the expectation of its advent.
Perdita, who then resided with Evadne, saw the torture that
Adrian endured. She loved him as a kind elder brother; a
relation to guide, protect, and instruct her, without the too
frequent tyranny of parental authority. She adored his virtues,
and with mixed contempt and indignation she saw Evadne pile
drear sorrow on his head, for the sake of one who hardly marked
her. In his solitary despair Adrian would often seek my sister,
and in covered terms express his misery, while fortitude and
agony divided the throne of his mind. Soon, alas! was one to
conquer. Anger made no part of his emotion. With whom should
he be angry? Not with Raymond, who was unconscious of the
misery he occasioned; not with Evadne, for her his soul wept
tears of blood--poor, mistaken girl, slave not tyrant was she,
and amidst his own anguish he grieved for her future destiny.
Once a writing of his fell into Perdita's hands; it was blotted
with tears--well might any blot it with the like--
"Life"--it began thus--"is not the thing romance writers
describe it; going through the measures of a dance, and after
various evolutions arriving at a conclusion, when the dancers
may sit down and repose. While there is life there is action and
change. We go on, each thought linked to the one which was its
parent, each act to a previous act. No joy or sorrow dies barren
of progeny, which for ever generated and generating, weaves the
chain that make our life:
Un dia llama à otro dia
y ass i llama, y encadena
llanto à llanto, y pena à pena.
Truly disappointment is the guardian deity of human life; she
sits at the threshold of unborn time, and marshals the events
as they come forth. Once my heart sat lightly in my bosom; all
the beauty of the world was doubly beautiful, irradiated by the
sun-light shed from my own soul. O wherefore are love and ruin
for ever joined in this our mortal dream? So that when we make
our hearts a lair for that gently seeming beast, its companion
enters with it, and pitilessly lays waste what might have been
an home and a shelter."
By degrees his health was shaken by his misery, and then his
intellect yielded to the same tyranny. His manners grew wild;
he was sometimes ferocious, sometimes absorbed in speechless
melancholy. Suddenly Evadne quitted London for Paris; he
followed, and overtook her when the vessel was about to sail;
none knew what passed between them, but Perdita had never seen
him since; he lived in seclusion, no one knew where, attended by
such persons as his mother selected for that purpose.
THE next day Lord Raymond called at Perdita's cottage, on his
way to Windsor Castle. My sister's heightened colour and
sparkling eyes half revealed her secret to me. He was perfectly
self-possessed; he accosted us both with courtesy, seemed
immediately to enter into our feelings, and to make one with
us. I scanned his physiognomy, which varied as he spoke, yet was
beautiful in every change. The usual expression of his eyes was
soft, though at times he could make them even glare with
ferocity; his complexion was colourless; and every trait spoke
predominate self-will; his smile was pleasing, though disdain
too often curled his lips--lips which to female eyes were the
very throne of beauty and love. His voice, usually gentle, often
startled you by a sharp discordant note, which showed that his
usual low tone was rather the work of study than nature. Thus
full of contradictions, unbending yet haughty, gentle yet fierce,
tender and again neglectful, he by some strange art found easy
entrance to the admiration and affection of women; now
caressing and now tyrannising over them according to his mood,
but in every change a despot.
At the present time Raymond evidently wished to appear
amiable. Wit, hilarity, and deep observation were mingled in his
talk, rendering every sentence that he uttered as a flash of
light. He soon conquered my latent distaste; I endeavoured to
watch him and Perdita, and to keep in mind every thing I had
heard to his disadvantage. But all appeared so ingenuous, and
all was so fascinating, that I forgot everything except the
pleasure his society afforded me. Under the idea of initiating
me in the scene of English politics and society, of which I was
soon to become a part, he narrated a number of anecdotes, and
sketched many characters; his discourse, rich and varied, flowed
on, pervading all my senses with pleasure. But for one thing he
would have been completely triumphant. He alluded to Adrian,
and spoke of him with that disparagement that the worldly wise
always attach to enthusiasm. He perceived the cloud gathering,
and tried to dissipate it; but the strength of my feelings would
not permit me to pass thus lightly over this sacred subject; so
I said emphatically, "Permit me to remark, that I am devotedly
attached to the Earl of Windsor; he is my best friend and
benefactor. I reverence his goodness, I accord with his
opinions, and bitterly lament his present, and I trust
temporary, illness. That illness, from its peculiarity, makes it
painful to me beyond words to hear him mentioned, unless in
terms of respect and affection."
Raymond replied; but there was nothing conciliatory in his
reply. I saw that in his heart he despised those dedicated to
any but worldly idols. "Every man," he said, "dreams about
something, love, honour, and pleasure; you dream of friendship,
and devote yourself to a maniac; well, if that be your vocation,
doubtless you are in the right to follow it."--
Some reflection seemed to sting him, and the spasm of pain
that for a moment convulsed his countenance, checked my
indignation. "Happy are dreamers," he continued, "so that they
be not awakened! Would I could dream! but `broad and garish
day' is the element in which I live; the dazzling glare of
reality inverts the scene for me. Even the ghost of friendship
has departed, and love"---- He broke off; nor could I guess
whether the disdain that curled his lip was directed against the
passion, or against himself for being its slave.
This account may be taken as a sample of my intercourse
with Lord Raymond. I became intimate with him, and each day
afforded me occasion to admire more and more his powerful and
versatile talents, that together with his eloquence, which was
graceful and witty, and his wealth now immense, caused him to
be feared, loved, and hated beyond any other man in England.
My descent, which claimed interest, if not respect, my former
connection with Adrian, the favour of the ambassador, whose
secretary I had been, and now my intimacy with Lord Raymond,
gave me easy access to the fashionable and political circles of
England. To my inexperience we at first appeared on the eve of
a civil war; each party was violent, acrimonious, and
unyielding. Parliament was divided by three factions,
aristocrats, democrats, and royalists. After Adrian's declared
predilection to the republican form of government, the latter
party had nearly died away, chiefless, guideless; but, when Lord
Raymond came forward as its leader, it revived with redoubled
force. Some were royalists from prejudice and ancient
affection, and there were many moderately inclined who feared
alike the capricious tyranny of the popular party, and the
unbending despotism of the aristocrats. More than a third of
the members ranged themselves under Raymond, and their
number was perpetually increasing. The aristocrats built their
hopes on their preponderant wealth and influence; the
reformers on the force of the nation itself; the debates were
violent, more violent the discourses held by each knot of
politicians as they assembled to arrange their measures.
Opprobrious epithets were bandied about, resistance even to the
death threatened; meetings of the populace disturbed the quiet
order of the country; except in war, how could all this end?
Even as the destructive flames were ready to break forth, I saw
them shrink back; allayed by the absence of the military, by
the aversion entertained by every one to any violence, save that
of speech, and by the cordial politeness and even friendship of
the hostile leaders when they met in private society. I was
from a thousand motives induced to attend minutely to the
course of events, and watch each turn with intense anxiety.
I could not but perceive that Perdita loved Raymond;
methought also that he regarded the fair daughter of Verney
with admiration and tenderness. Yet I knew that he was urging
forward his marriage with the presumptive heiress of the
Earldom of Windsor, with keen expectation of the advantages
that would thence accrue to him. All the ex-queen's friends
were his friends; no week passed that he did not hold
consultations with her at Windsor.
I had never seen the sister of Adrian. I had heard that she
was lovely, amiable, and fascinating. Wherefore should I see
her? There are times when we have an indefinable sentiment of
impending change for better or for worse, to arise from an
event; and, be it for better or for worse, we fear the change,
and shun the event. For this reason I avoided this high-born
damsel. To me she was everything and nothing; her very name
mentioned by another made me start and tremble; the endless
discussion concerning her union with Lord Raymond was real
agony to me. Methought that, Adrian withdrawn from active life,
and this beauteous Idris, a victim probably to her mother's
ambitious schemes, I ought to come forward to protect her
from undue influence, guard her from unhappiness, and secure to
her freedom of choice, the right of every human being. Yet how
was I to do this? She herself would disdain my interference.
Since then I must be an object of indifference or contempt to
her, better, far better avoid her, nor expose myself before her
and the scornful world to the chance of playing the mad game
of a fond, foolish Icarus.
One day, several months after my return to England, I quitted
London to visit my sister. Her society was my chief solace and
delight; and my spirits always rose at the expectation of
seeing her. Her conversation was full of pointed remark and
discernment; in her pleasant alcove, redolent with sweetest
flowers, adorned by magnificent casts, antique vases, and copies
of the finest pictures of Raphael, Correggio, and Claude, painted
by herself, I fancied myself in a fairy retreat untainted by and
inaccessible to the noisy contentions of politicians and the
frivolous pursuits of fashion. On this occasion, my sister was
not alone; nor could I fail to recognise her companion: it was
Idris, the till now unseen object of my mad idolatry.
In what fitting terms of wonder and delight, in what choice
expression and soft flow of language, can I usher in the
loveliest, wisest, best? How in poor assemblage of words convey
the halo of glory that surrounded her, the thousand graces that
waited unwearied on her. The first thing that struck you on
beholding that charming countenance was its perfect goodness
and frankness; candour sat upon her brow, simplicity in her
eyes, heavenly benignity in her smile. Her tall slim figure bent
gracefully as a poplar to the breezy west, and her gait, goddess-
like, was as that of a winged angel new alit from heaven's high
floor; the pearly fairness of her complexion was stained by a
pure suffusion; her voice resembled the low, subdued tenor of a
flute. It is easiest perhaps to describe by contrast. I have
detailed the perfections of my sister; and yet she was utterly
unlike Idris. Perdita, even where she loved, was reserved and
timid; Idris was frank and confiding. The one recoiled to
solitude, that she might there entrench herself from
disappointment and injury; the other walked forth in open day,
believing that none would harm her. Wordsworth has compared a
beloved female to two fair objects in nature; but his lines
always appeared to me rather a contrast than a similitude:
A violet by a mossy stone
Half hidden from the eye,
Fair as a star when only one
Is shining in the sky.
Such a violet was sweet Perdita, trembling to entrust herself
to the very air, cowering from observation, yet betrayed by her
excellences; and repaying with a thousand graces the labour of
those who sought her in her lonely bye-path. Idris was as the
star, set in single splendour in the dim anadem of balmy
evening; ready to enlighten and delight the subject world,
shielded herself from every taint by her unimagined distance
from all that was not like herself akin to heaven.
I found this vision of beauty in Perdita's alcove, in earnest
conversation with its inmate. When my sister saw me, she rose,
and taking my hand, said, "He is here, even at our wish; this is
Lionel, my brother."
Idris arose also, and bent on me her eyes of celestial blue,
and with grace peculiar said--"You hardly need an introduction;
we have a picture, highly valued by my father, which declares at
once your name. Verney, you will acknowledge this tie, and as
my brother's friend, I feel that I may trust you."
Then, with lids humid with a tear and trembling voice, she
continued--"Dear friends, do not think it strange that now,
visiting you for the first time, I ask your assistance, and
confide my wishes and fears to you. To you alone do I dare
speak; I have heard you commended by impartial spectators; you
are my brother's friends, therefore you must be mine. What can
I say? if you refuse to aid me, I am lost indeed!" She cast up
her eyes, while wonder held her auditors mute; then, as if
carried away by her feelings, she cried--"My brother! beloved,
ill-fated Adrian! how speak of your misfortunes? Doubtless you
have both heard the current tale; perhaps believe the slander;
but he is not mad! Were an angel from the foot of God's throne
to assert it, never, never would I believe it. He is wronged,
betrayed, imprisoned--save him! Verney, you must do this; seek
him out in whatever part of the island he is immured; find him,
rescue him from his persecutors, restore him to himself, to me
--on the wide earth I have none to love but only him!"
Her earnest appeal, so sweetly and passionately expressed,
filled me with wonder and sympathy; and, when she added, with
thrilling voice and look, "Do you consent to undertake this
enterprise?" I vowed, with energy and truth, to devote myself in
life and death to the restoration and welfare of Adrian. We then
conversed on the plan I should pursue, and discussed the
probable means of discovering his residence. While we were in
earnest discourse, Lord Raymond entered unannounced: I saw
Perdita tremble and grow deadly pale, and the cheeks of Idris
glow with purest blushes. He must have been astonished at our
conclave, disturbed by it I should have thought; but nothing of
this appeared; he saluted my companions, and addressed me with
a cordial greeting. Idris appeared suspended for a moment, and
then with extreme sweetness, she said, "Lord Raymond, I confide
in your goodness and honour."
Smiling haughtily, he bent his head, and replied, with
emphasis, "Do you indeed confide, Lady Idris?"
She endeavoured to read his thought, and then answered with
dignity, "As you please. It is certainly best not to compromise
oneself by any concealment."
"Pardon me," he replied, "if I have offended. Whether you
trust me or not, rely on my doing my utmost to further your
wishes, whatever they may be."
Idris smiled her thanks, and rose to take leave. Lord Raymond
requested permission to accompany her to Windsor Castle, to
which she consented, and they quitted the cottage together. My
sister and I were left--truly like two fools, who fancied that
they had obtained a golden treasure, till daylight showed it to
be lead--two silly, luckless flies, who had played in sunbeams
and were caught in a spider's web. I leaned against the
casement, and watched those two glorious creatures, till they
disappeared in the forest-glades; and then I turned. Perdita had
not moved; her eyes fixed on the ground, her cheeks pale, her
very lips white, motionless and rigid, every feature stamped by
woe, she sat. Half frightened, I would have taken her hand; but
she shudderingly withdrew it, and strove to collect herself. I
entreated her to speak to me: "Not now," she replied, "nor do
you speak to me, my dear Lionel; you can say nothing, for you
know nothing. I will see you to-morrow; in the meantime,
adieu!" She rose, and walked from the room; but pausing at the
door, and leaning against it, as if her over-busy thoughts had
taken from her the power of supporting herself, she said, "Lord
Raymond will probably return. Will you tell him that he must
excuse me to-day, for I am not well. I will see him to-morrow
if he wishes it, and you also. You had better return to London
with him; you can there make the inquiries agreed upon,
concerning the Earl of Windsor and visit me again to-morrow,
before you proceed on your journey--till then, farewell!"
She spoke falteringly, and concluded with a heavy sigh. I gave
my assent to her request; and she left me. I felt as if, from
the order of the systematic world, I had plunged into chaos,
obscure, contrary, unintelligible. That Raymond should marry
Idris was more than ever intolerable; yet my passion, though a
giant from its birth, was too strange, wild, and impracticable,
for me to feel at once the misery I perceived in Perdita. How
should I act? She had not confided in me; I could not demand an
explanation from Raymond without the hazard of betraying what
was perhaps her most treasured secret. I would obtain the truth
from her the following day--in the mean time--But, while I was
occupied by multiplying reflections, Lord Raymond returned. He
asked for my sister; and I delivered her message. After musing
on it for a moment, he asked me if I were about to return to
London, and if I would accompany him: I consented. He was full
of thought, and remained silent during a considerable part of
our ride; at length he said, "I must apologize to you for my
abstraction; the truth is, Ryland's motion comes on to-night,
and I am considering my reply."
Ryland was the leader of the popular party, a hard-headed
man, and in his way eloquent; he had obtained leave to bring in
a bill making it treason to endeavour to change the present
state of the English government and the standing laws of the
republic. This attack was directed against Raymond and his
machinations for the restoration of the monarchy.
Raymond asked me if I would accompany him to the House
that evening. I remembered my pursuit for intelligence
concerning Adrian; and, knowing that my time would be fully
occupied, I excused myself. "Nay," said my companion, "I can
free you from your present impediment. You are going to make
inquiries concerning the Earl of Windsor. I can answer them at
once, he is at the Duke of Athol's seat at Dunkeld. On the first
approach of his disorder, he travelled about from one place to
another; until, arriving at that romantic seclusion he refused
to quit it, and we made arrangements with the Duke for his
continuing there."
I was hurt by the careless tone with which he conveyed this
information, and replied coldly: "I am obliged to you for your
intelligence, and will avail myself of it."
"You shall, Verney," said he, "and if you continue of the same
mind, I will facilitate your views. But first witness, I beseech
you, the result of this night's contest, and the triumph I am
about to achieve, if I may so call it, while I fear that victory
is to me defeat. What can I do? My dearest hopes appear to be
near their fulfilment. The ex-queen gives me Idris; Adrian is
totally unfitted to succeed to the earldom, and that earldom in
my hands becomes a kingdom. By the reigning God it is true;
the paltry earldom of Windsor shall no longer content him, who
will inherit the rights which must for ever appertain to the
person who possesses it. The Countess can never forget that she
has been a queen, and she disdains to leave a diminished
inheritance to her children; her power and my wit will rebuild
the throne, and this brow will be clasped by a kingly diadem.--I
can do this--I can marry Idris."---
He stopped abruptly, his countenance darkened, and its
expression changed again and again under the influence of
internal passion. I asked, "Does Lady Idris love you?"
"What a question," replied he laughing. "She will of course,
as I shall her, when we are married."
"You begin late," said I, ironically, "marriage is usually
considered the grave, and not the cradle of love. So you are
about to love her, but do not already?"
"Do not catechise me, Lionel; I will do my duty by her, be
assured. Love! I must steel my heart against that; expel it
from its tower of strength, barricade it out: the fountain of
love must cease to play, its waters be dried up, and all
passionate thoughts attendant on it die--that is to say, the
love which would rule me, not that which I rule. Idris is a
gentle, pretty, sweet little girl; it is impossible not to have
an affection for her, and I have a very sincere one; only do not
speak of love--love, the tyrant and the tyrant-queller; love,
until now my conqueror, now my slave; the hungry fire, the
untameable beast, the fanged snake--no--no--I will have nothing
to do with that love. Tell me, Lionel, do you consent that I
should marry this young lady?"
He bent his keen eyes upon me, and my uncontrollable heart
swelled in my bosom. I replied in a calm voice--but how far
from calm was the thought imaged by my still words--"Never! I
can never consent that Lady Idris should be united to one who
does not love her."
"Because you love her yourself."
"Your Lordship might have spared that taunt; I do not, dare
not love her."
"At least," he continued haughtily, "she does not love you. I
would not marry a reigning sovereign, were I not sure that her
heart was free. But, O, Lionel! a kingdom is a word of might,
and gently sounding are the terms that compose the style of
royalty. Were not the mightiest men of the olden times kings?
Alexander was a king; Solomon, the wisest of men, was a king;
Napoleon was a king; Caesar died in his attempt to become one,
and Cromwell, the puritan and king-killer, aspired to regality.
The father of Adrian yielded up the already broken sceptre of
England; but I will rear the fallen plant, join its dismembered
frame, and exalt it above all the flowers of the field.
"You need not wonder that I freely discover Adrian's abode.
Do not suppose that I am wicked or foolish enough to found my
purposed sovereignty on a fraud, and one so easily discovered as
the truth or falsehood of the Earl's insanity. I am just come
from him. Before I decided on my marriage with Idris, I
resolved to see him myself again, and to judge of the
probability of his recovery.--He is irrecoverably mad."
I gasped for breath--
"I will not detail to you," continued Raymond, "the
melancholy particulars. You shall see him, and judge for
yourself; although I fear this visit, useless to him, will be
insufferably painful to you. It has weighed on my spirits ever
since. Excellent and gentle as he is even in the downfall of his
reason, I do not worship him as you do, but I would give all my
hopes of a crown and my right hand to boot, to see him
restored to himself."
His voice expressed the deepest compassion: "Thou most
unaccountable being," I cried, "whither will thy actions tend, in
all this maze of purpose in which thou seemest lost?"
"Whither indeed? To a crown, a golden be-gemmed crown, I
hope; and yet I dare not trust and though I dream of a crown
and wake for one, ever and anon a busy devil whispers to me,
that it is but a fool's cap that I seek, and that were I wise, I
should trample on it, and take in its stead, that which is worth
all the crowns of the east and presidentships of the west."
"And what is that?"
"If I do make it my choice, then you shall know; at present I
dare not speak, even think of it."
Again he was silent, and after a pause turned to me
laughingly. When scorn did not inspire his mirth, when it was
genuine gaiety that painted his features with a joyous
expression, his beauty became super-eminent, divine. "Verney,"
said he, "my first act when I become King of England, will be to
unite with the Greeks, take Constantinople, and subdue all Asia.
I intend to be a warrior, a conqueror; Napoleon's name shall
vail to mine; and enthusiasts, instead of visiting his rocky
grave, and exalting the merits of the fallen, shall adore my
majesty, and magnify my illustrious achievements."
I listened to Raymond with intense interest. Could I be other
than all ear, to one who seemed to govern the whole earth in
his grasping imagination, and who only quailed when he
attempted to rule himself. Then on his word and will depended
my own happiness--the fate of all dear to me. I endeavoured to
divine the concealed meaning of his words. Perdita's name was
not mentioned; yet I could not doubt that love for her caused
the vacillation of purpose that he exhibited. And who was so
worthy of love as my noble-minded sister? Who deserved the
hand of this self-exalted king more than she whose glance
belonged to a queen of nations? who loved him, as he did her;
notwithstanding that disappointment quelled her passion, and
ambition held strong combat with his.
We went together to the House in the evening. Raymond, while
he knew that his plans and prospects were to be discussed and
decided during the expected debate, was gay and careless. An
hum, like that of ten thousand hives of swarming bees, stunned
us as we entered the coffee-room. Knots of politicians were
assembled with anxious brows and loud or deep voices. The
aristocratical party, the richest and most influential men in
England, appeared less agitated than the others, for the
question was to be discussed without their interference. Near
the fire was Ryland and his supporters. Ryland was a man of
obscure birth and of immense wealth, inherited from his father,
who had been a manufacturer. He had witnessed, when a young
man, the abdication of the king, and the amalgamation of the
two houses of Lords and Commons; he had sympathized with
these popular encroachments, and it had been the business of
his life to consolidate and increase them. Since then, the
influence of the landed proprietors had augmented; and at first
Ryland was not sorry to observe the machinations of Lord
Raymond, which drew off many of his opponent's partisans. But
the thing was now going too far. The poorer nobility hailed the
return of sovereignty, as an event which would restore them to
their power and rights, now lost. The half extinct spirit of
royalty roused itself in the minds of men; and they, willing
slaves, self-constituted subjects, were ready to bend their necks
to the yoke. Some erect and manly spirits still remained,
pillars of state; but the word republic had grown stale to the
vulgar ear; and many--the event would prove whether it was a
majority--pined for the tinsel and show of royalty. Ryland was
roused to resistance; he asserted that his sufferance alone had
permitted the increase of this party; but the time for
indulgence was passed, and with one motion of his arm he would
sweep away the cobwebs that blinded his countrymen.
When Raymond entered the coffee-room, his presence was
hailed by his friends almost with a shout. They gathered round
him, counted their numbers, and detailed the reasons why they
were now to receive an addition of such and such members, who
had not yet declared themselves. Some trifling business of the
House having been gone through, the leaders took their seats in
the chamber; the clamour of voices continued, till Ryland arose
to speak, and then the slightest whispered observation was
audible. All eyes were fixed upon him as he stood--ponderous of
frame, sonorous of voice, and with a manner which, though not
graceful, was impressive. I turned from his marked, iron
countenance to Raymond, whose face, veiled by a smile, would
not betray his care; yet his lips quivered somewhat, and his
hand clasped the bench on which he sat, with a convulsive
strength that made the muscles start again.
Ryland began by praising the present state of the British
empire. He recalled past years to their memory; the miserable
contentions which in the time of our fathers arose almost to
civil war, the abdication of the late king, and the foundation of
the republic. He described this republic; showed how it gave
privilege to each individual in the state, to rise to
consequence, and even to temporary sovereignty. He compared
the royal and republican spirit; showed how the one tended to
enslave the minds of men; while all the institutions of the
other served to raise even the meanest among us to something
great and good. He showed how England had become powerful, and
its inhabitants valiant and wise, by means of the freedom they
enjoyed. As he spoke, every heart swelled with pride, and every
cheek glowed with delight to remember, that each one there was
English, and that each supported and contributed to the happy
state of things now commemorated. Ryland's fervour increased--
his eyes lighted up--his voice assumed the tone of passion.
There was one man, he continued, who wished to alter all this,
and bring us back to our days of impotence and contention: --
one man, who would dare arrogate the honour which was due to
all who claimed England as their birthplace, and set his name
and style above the name and style of his country. I saw at this
juncture that Raymond changed colour; his eyes were withdrawn
from the orator, and cast on the ground; the listeners turned
from one to the other; but in the meantime the speaker's voice
filled their ears--the thunder of his denunciations influenced
their senses. The very boldness of his language gave him
weight; each knew that he spoke truth--a truth known, but not
acknowledged. He tore from reality the mask with which she had
been clothed; and the purposes of Raymond, which before had
crept around, ensnaring by stealth, now stood a hunted stag--
even at bay--as all perceived who watched the irrepressible
changes of his countenance. Ryland ended by moving, that any
attempt to re-erect the kingly power should be declared
treason, and he a traitor who should endeavour to change the
present form of government. Cheers and loud acclamations
followed the close of his speech.
After his motion had been seconded, Lord Raymond rose,--his
countenance bland, his voice softly melodious, his manner
soothing, his grace and sweetness came like the mild breathing
of a flute, after the loud, organ-like voice of his adversary. He
rose, he said, to speak in favour of the honourable member's
motion, with one slight amendment subjoined. He was ready to
go back to old times, and commemorate the contests of our
fathers, and the monarch's abdication. Nobly and greatly, he
said, had the illustrious and last sovereign of England
sacrificed himself to the apparent good of his country, and
divested himself of a power which could only be maintained by
the blood of his subjects--these subjects named so no more,
these, his friends and equals, had in gratitude conferred certain
favours and distinctions on him and his family for ever. An
ample estate was allotted to them, and they took the first rank
among the peers of Great Britain. Yet it might be conjectured
that they had not forgotten their ancient heritage; and it was
hard that his heir should suffer alike with any other pretender,
if he attempted to regain what by ancient right and inheritance
belonged to him. He did not say that he should favour such an
attempt; but he did say that such an attempt would be venial;
and, if the aspirant did not go so far as to declare war, and
erect a standard in the kingdom, his fault ought to be regarded
with an indulgent eye. In his amendment he proposed, that an
exception should be made in the bill in favour of any person
who claimed the sovereign power in right of the earls of
Windsor.
Nor did Raymond make an end without drawing in vivid and
glowing colours, the splendour of a kingdom, in opposition to
the commercial spirit of republicanism. He asserted, that each
individual under the English monarchy, was then as now, capable
of attaining high rank and power--with one only exception, that
of the function of chief magistrate; higher and nobler rank,
than a bartering, timorous commonwealth could afford. And for
this one exception, to what did it amount? The nature of riches
and influence forcibly confined the list of candidates to a few
of the wealthiest; and it was much to be feared, that the ill-
humour and contention generated by this triennial struggle,
would counterbalance its advantages in impartial eyes. I can ill
record the flow of language and graceful turns of expression,
the wit and easy raillery that gave vigour and influence to his
speech. His manner, timid at first, became firm--his changeful
face was lit up to superhuman brilliancy; his voice, various as
music, was like that enchanting.
It were useless to record the debate that followed this
harangue. Party speeches were delivered, which clothed the
question in cant, and veiled its simple meaning in a woven wind
of words. The motion was lost; Ryland withdrew in rage and
despair; and Raymond, gay and exulting, retired to dream of his
future kingdom.
IS there such a feeling as love at first sight? And if there be,
in what does its nature differ from love founded in long
observation and slow growth? Perhaps its effects are not so
permanent; but they are, while they last, as violent and
intense. We walk the pathless mazes of society, vacant of joy,
till we hold this clue, leading us through that labyrinth to
paradise. Our nature dim, like to an unlighted torch, sleeps in
formless blank till the fire attain it; this life of life, this
light to moon, and glory to the sun. What does it matter,
whether the fire be struck from flint and steel, nourished with
care into a flame, slowly communicated to the dark wick, or
whether swiftly the radiant power of light and warmth passes
from a kindred power, and shines at once the beacon and the
hope. In the deepest fountain of my heart the pulses were
stirred; around, above, beneath, the clinging Memory as a cloak
enwrapped me. In no one moment of coming time did I feel as I
had done in time gone by. The spirit of Idris hovered in the air
I breathed; her eyes were ever and for ever bent on mine; her
remembered smile blinded my faint gaze, and caused me to walk
as one, not in eclipse, not in darkness and vacancy--but in a
new and brilliant light, too novel, too dazzling for my human
senses. On every leaf, on every small division of the universe,
(as on the hyacinth ** is engraved) was imprinted the talisman
of my existence--SHE LIVES! SHE IS!--I had not time yet to
analyse my feeling, to take myself to task, and leash in the
tameless passion; all was one idea, one feeling, one knowledge--
it was my life!
But the die was cast--Raymond would marry Idris. The merry
marriage bells rung in my ears; I heard the nation's
gratulation which followed the union; the ambitious noble
uprose with swift eagle-flight, from the lowly ground to regal
supremacy--and to the love of Idris. Yet, not so! She did not
love him; she had called me her friend; she had smiled on me;
to me she had entrusted her heart's dearest hope, the welfare
of Adrian. This reflection thawed my congealing blood, and
again the tide of life and love flowed impetuously onward, again
to ebb as my busy thoughts changed.
The debate had ended at three in the morning. My soul was in
tumults; I traversed the streets with eager rapidity. Truly, I
was mad that night--love--which I have named a giant from its
birth, wrestled with despair! My heart, the field of combat, was
wounded by the iron heel of the one, watered by the gushing
tears of the other. Day, hateful to me, dawned; I retreated to
my lodgings--I threw myself on a couch--I slept--was it sleep?
--for thought was still alive--love and despair struggled still,
and I writhed with unendurable pain.
I awoke half stupefied; I felt a heavy oppression on me, but
knew not wherefore; I entered, as it were, the council-chamber
of my brain, and questioned the various ministers of thought
therein assembled; too soon I remembered all; too soon my
limbs quivered beneath the tormenting power; soon, too soon, I
knew myself a slave!
Suddenly, unannounced, Lord Raymond entered my apartment.
He came in gaily, singing the Tyrolese song of liberty; noticed
me with a gracious nod, and threw himself on a sofa opposite
the copy of a bust of the Apollo Belvedere. After one or two
trivial remarks, to which I sullenly replied, he suddenly cried,
looking at the bust, "I am called like that victor! Not a bad
idea; the head will serve for my new coinage, and be an omen to
all dutiful subjects of my future success."
He said this in his most gay, yet benevolent manner, and
smiled, not disdainfully, but in playful mockery of himself.
Then his countenance suddenly darkened, and in that shrill tone
peculiar to himself, he cried, "I fought a good battle last
night; higher conquest the plains of Greece never saw me
achieve. Now I am the first man in the state, burthen of every
ballad, and object of old women's mumbled devotions. What are
your meditations? You, who fancy that you can read the human
soul, as your native lake reads each crevice and folding of its
surrounding hills--say what you think of me; king-expectant,
angel or devil, which?"
This ironical tone was discord to my bursting, over-boiling-
heart; I was nettled by his insolence, and replied with
bitterness; "There is a spirit, neither angel or devil, damned
to limbo merely." I saw his cheeks become pale, and his lips
whiten and quiver; his anger served but to enkindle mine, and I
answered with a determined look his eyes which glared on me;
suddenly they were withdrawn, cast down, a tear, I thought,
wetted the dark lashes; I was softened, and with involuntary
emotion added, "Not that you are such, my dear lord."
I paused, even awed by the agitation he evinced; "Yes," he
said at length, rising and biting his lip, as he strove to curb
his passion; "Such am I! You do not know me, Verney; neither
you, nor our audience of last night, nor does universal England
know aught of me. I stand here, it would seem, an elected king;
this hand is about to grasp a sceptre; these brows feel in each
nerve the coming diadem. I appear to have strength, power,
victory; standing as a dome-supporting column stands; and I am
--a reed! I have ambition, and that attains its aim; my nightly
dreams are realized, my waking hopes fulfilled; a kingdom
awaits my acceptance, my enemies are overthrown. But here,"
and he struck his heart with violence, "here is the rebel, here
the stumbling-block; this over-ruling heart, which I may drain
of its living blood; but, while one fluttering pulsation
remains, I am its slave."
He spoke with a broken voice, then bowed his head, and, hiding
his face in his hands, wept. I was still smarting from my own
disappointment; yet this scene oppressed me even to terror,
nor could I interrupt his access of passion. It subsided at
length; and, throwing himself on the couch, he remained silent
and motionless, except that his changeful features showed a
strong internal conflict. At last he rose, and said in his usual
tone of voice, "The time grows on us, Verney, I must away. Let
me not forget my chiefest errand here. Will you accompany me
to Windsor to-morrow? You will not be dishonoured by my
society, and as this is probably the last service, or disservice
you can do me, will you grant my request?"
He held out his hand with almost a bashful air. Swiftly I
thought--Yes, I will witness the last scene of the drama. Beside
which, his mien conquered me, and an affectionate sentiment
towards him, again filled my heart--I bade him command me.
"Aye, that I will," said he gaily, "that's my cue now; be with
me to-morrow morning by seven; be secret and faithful; and you
shall be groom of the stole ere long."
So saying, he hastened away, vaulted on his horse, and with a
gesture as if he gave me his hand to kiss, bade me another
laughing adieu. Left to myself, I strove with painful intensity
to divine the motive of his request and foresee the events of
the coming day. The hours passed on unperceived; my head ached
with thought, the nerves seemed teeming with the over full
fraught--I clasped my burning brow, as if my fevered hand could
medicine its pain.
I was punctual to the appointed hour on the following day,
and found Lord Raymond waiting for me. We got into his
carriage, and proceeded towards Windsor. I had tutored myself,
and was resolved by no outward sign to disclose my internal
agitation.
"What a mistake Ryland made," said Raymond, "when he
thought to overpower me the other night. He spoke well, very
well; such an harangue would have succeeded better addressed to
me singly, than to the fools and knaves assembled yonder. Had I
been alone, I should have listened to him with a wish to hear
reason, but when he endeavoured to vanquish me in my own
territory, with my own weapons, he put me on my mettle, and
the event was such as all might have expected."
I smiled incredulously, and replied: "I am of Ryland's way of
thinking, and will, if you please, repeat all his arguments; we
shall see how far you will be induced by them, to change the
royal for the patriotic style."
"The repetition would be useless," said Raymond, "since I
well remember them, and have many others, self-suggested,
which speak with unanswerable persuasion."
He did not explain himself, nor did I make any remark on his
reply. Our silence endured for some miles, till the country
with open fields, or shady woods and parks, presented pleasant
objects to our view. After some observations on the scenery and
seats, Raymond said: "Philosophers have called man a
microcosm of nature, and find a reflection in the internal mind
for all this machinery visibly at work around us. This theory
has often been a source of amusement to me; and many an idle
hour have I spent, exercising my ingenuity in finding
resemblances. Does not Lord Bacon say that, `the falling from a
discord to a concord, which maketh great sweetness in music,
hath an agreement with the affections, which are re-integrated
to the better after some dislikes?' What a sea is the tide of
passion, whose fountains are in our own nature! Our virtues are
the quick-sands, which show themselves at calm and low water;
but let the waves arise and the winds buffet them, and the poor
devil whose hope was in their durability, finds them sink from
under him. The fashions of the world, its exigencies, educations
and pursuits, are winds to drive our wills, like clouds all one
way; but let a thunderstorm arise in the shape of love, hate, or
ambition, and the rack goes backward, stemming the opposing
air in triumph."
"Yet," replied I, "nature always presents to our eyes the
appearance of a patient: while there is an active principle in
man which is capable of ruling fortune, and at least of tacking
against the gale, till it in some mode conquers it."
"There is more of what is specious than true in your
distinction," said my companion. "Did we form ourselves,
choosing our dispositions, and our powers? I find myself, for
one, as a stringed instrument with chords and stops--but I have
no power to turn the pegs, or pitch my thoughts to a higher or
lower key."
"Other men," I observed, "may be better musicians."
"I talk not of others, but myself," replied Raymond, "and I
am as fair an example to go by as another. I cannot set my
heart to a particular tune, or run voluntary changes on my
will. We are born; we choose neither our parents, nor our
station; we are educated by others, or by the world's
circumstance, and this cultivation, mingling with our innate
disposition, is the soil in which our desires, passions, and
motives grow."
"There is much truth in what you say," said I, "and yet no
man ever acts upon this theory. Who, when he makes a choice,
says, Thus I choose, because I am necessitated? Does he not on
the contrary feel a freedom of will within him, which, though
you may call it fallacious, still actuates him as he decides?"
"Exactly so," replied Raymond, "another link of the breakless
chain. Were I now to commit an act which would annihilate my
hopes, and pluck the regal garment from my mortal limbs, to
clothe them in ordinary weeds, would this, think you, be an act
of free-will on my part?"
As we talked thus, I perceived that we were not going the
ordinary road to Windsor, but through Englefield Green, towards
Bishopgate Heath. I began to divine that Idris was not the
object of our journey, but that I was brought to witness the
scene that was to decide the fate of Raymond--and of Perdita.
Raymond had evidently vacillated during his journey, and
irresolution was marked in every gesture as we entered Perdita's
cottage. I watched him curiously, determined that, if this
hesitation should continue, I would assist Perdita to overcome
herself, and teach her to disdain the wavering love of him, who
balanced between the possession of a crown, and of her, whose
excellence and affection transcended the worth of a kingdom.
We found her in her flower-adorned alcove; she was reading
the newspaper report of the debate in parliament, that
apparently doomed her to hopelessness. That heart-sinking
feeling was painted in her sunk eyes and spiritless attitude; a
cloud was on her beauty, and frequent sighs were tokens of her
distress. This sight had an instantaneous effect on Raymond;
his eyes beamed with tenderness, and remorse clothed his
manners with earnestness and truth. He sat beside her; and,
taking the paper from her hand, said, "Not a word more shall
my sweet Perdita read of this contention of madmen and fools.
I must not permit you to be acquainted with the extent of my
delusion, lest you despise me; although, believe me, a wish to
appear before you, not vanquished, but as a conqueror, inspired
me during my wordy war."
Perdita looked at him like one amazed; her expressive
countenance shone for a moment with tenderness; to see him
only was happiness. But a bitter thought swiftly shadowed her
joy; she bent her eyes on the ground, endeavouring to master
the passion of tears that threatened to overwhelm her. Raymond
continued, "I will not act a part with you, dear girl, or appear
other than what I am, weak and unworthy, more fit to excite
your disdain than your love. Yet you do love me; I feel and know
that you do, and thence I draw my most cherished hopes. If
pride guided you, or even reason, you might well reject me. Do
so; if your high heart, incapable of my infirmity of purpose,
refuses to bend to the lowness of mine. Turn from me, if you
will,--if you can. If your whole soul does not urge you to
forgive me--if your entire heart does not open wide its door to
admit me to its very centre, forsake me, never speak to me
again. I, though sinning against you almost beyond remission, I
also am proud; there must be no reserve in your pardon--no
drawback to the gift of your affection."
Perdita looked down, confused, yet pleased. My presence
embarrassed her; so that she dared not turn to meet her
lover's eye, or trust her voice to assure him of her affection;
while a blush mantled her cheek, and her disconsolate air was
exchanged for one expressive of deep-felt joy. Raymond
encircled her waist with his arm, and continued, "I do not deny
that I have balanced between you and the highest hope that
mortal men can entertain; but I do so no longer. Take me--
mould me to your will, possess my heart and soul to all
eternity. If you refuse to contribute to my happiness, I quit
England to-night, and will never set foot in it again.
"Lionel, you hear: witness for me: persuade your sister to
forgive the injury I have done her; persuade her to be mine."
"There needs no persuasion," said the blushing Perdita,
"except your own dear promises, and my ready heart, which
whispers to me that they are true."
That same evening we all three walked together in the forest,
and, with the garrulity which happiness inspires, they detailed
to me the history of their loves. It was pleasant to see the
haughty Raymond and reserved Perdita changed through happy
love into prattling, playful children, both losing their
characteristic dignity in the fullness of mutual contentment. A
night or two ago Lord Raymond, with a brow of care, and a heart
oppressed with thought, bent all his energies to silence or
persuade the legislators of England that a sceptre was not too
weighty for his hand, while visions of dominion, war, and
triumph floated before him; now, frolicsome as a lively boy
sporting under his mother's approving eye, the hopes of his
ambition were complete, when he pressed the small fair hand of
Perdita to his lips; while she, radiant with delight, looked on
the still pool, not truly admiring herself, but drinking in with
rapture the reflection there made of the form of herself and
her lover, shown for the first time in dear conjunction.
I rambled away from them. If the rapture of assured
sympathy was theirs, I enjoyed that of restored hope. I looked
on the regal towers of Windsor. High is the wall and strong the
barrier that separate me from my Star of Beauty. But not
impassible. She will not be his. A few more years dwell in thy
native garden, sweet flower, till I by toil and time acquire a
right to gather thee. Despair not, nor bid me despair! What
must I do now? First I must seek Adrian, and restore him to
her. Patience, gentleness, and untired affection, shall recall
him, if it be true, as Raymond says, that he is mad; energy and
courage shall rescue him, if he be unjustly imprisoned.
After the lovers again joined me, we supped together in the
alcove. Truly it was a fairy's supper; for though the air was
perfumed by the scent of fruits and wine, we none of us either
ate or drank--even the beauty of the night was unobserved;
their ecstasy could not be increased by outward objects, and I
was wrapt in reverie. At about midnight Raymond and I took
leave of my sister, to return to town. He was all gaiety; scraps
of songs fell from his lips; every thought of his mind--every
object about us, gleamed under the sunshine of his mirth. He
accused me of melancholy, of ill-humour and envy.
"Not so," said I, "though I confess that my thoughts are not
occupied as pleasantly as yours are. You promised to facilitate
my visit to Adrian; I conjure you to perform your promise. I
cannot linger here; I long to soothe--perhaps to cure the
malady of my first and best friend. I shall immediately depart
for Dunkeld."
"Thou bird of night," replied Raymond, "what an eclipse do
you throw across my bright thoughts, forcing me to call to
mind that melancholy ruin, which stands in mental desolation,
more irreparable than a fragment of a carved column in a weed-
grown field. You dream that you can restore him? Dædalus never
wound so inextricable an error round Minotaur, as madness has
woven about his imprisoned reason. Nor you, nor any other
Theseus, can thread the labyrinth, to which perhaps some unkind
Ariadne has the clue."
"You allude to Evadne Zaimi: but she is not in England."
"And were she," said Raymond, "I would not advise her seeing
him. Better to decay in absolute delirium, than to be the
victim of the methodical unreason of ill-bestowed love. The
long duration of his malady has probably erased from his mind
all vestige of her; and it were well that it should never again
be imprinted. You will find him at Dunkeld; gentle and
tractable he wanders up the hills, and through the wood, or sits
listening beside the waterfall. You may see him--his hair stuck
with wild flowers--his eyes full of untraceable meaning--his
voice broken--his person wasted to a shadow. He plucks flowers
and weeds, and weaves chaplets of them, or sails yellow leaves
and bits of bark on the stream, rejoicing in their safety, or
weeping at their wreck. The very memory half unmans me. By
Heaven! the first tears I have shed since boyhood rushed
scalding into my eyes when I saw him."
It needed not this last account to spur me on to visit him. I
only doubted whether or not I should endeavour to see Idris
again, before I departed. This doubt was decided on the
following day. Early in the morning Raymond came to me;
intelligence had arrived that Adrian was dangerously ill, and it
appeared impossible that his failing strength should surmount
the disorder. "To-morrow," said Raymond, "his mother and
sister set out for Scotland to see him once again."
"And I go to-day," I cried; "this very hour I will engage a
sailing balloon; I shall be there in forty-eight hours at
furthest, perhaps in less, if the wind is fair. Farewell,
Raymond; be happy in having chosen the better part in life.
This turn of fortune revives me. I feared madness, not sickness
--I have a presentiment that Adrian will not die; perhaps this
illness is a crisis, and he may recover."
Everything favoured my journey. The balloon rose about half
a mile from the earth, and with a favourable wind it hurried
through the air, its feathered vans cleaving the unopposing
atmosphere. Notwithstanding the melancholy object of my
journey, my spirits were exhilarated by reviving hope, by the
swift motion of the airy pinnace, and the balmy visitation of
the sunny air. The pilot hardly moved the plumed steerage, and
the slender mechanism of the wings, wide unfurled, gave forth a
murmuring noise, soothing to the sense. Plain and hill, stream
and corn-field, were discernible below, while we unimpeded sped
on swift and secure, as a wild swan in his spring-tide flight.
The machine obeyed the slightest motion of the helm; and, the
wind blowing steadily, there was no let or obstacle to our
course. Such was the power of man over the elements; a power
long sought, and lately won; yet foretold in by-gone time by
the prince of poets, whose verses I quoted much to the
astonishment of my pilot, when I told him how many hundred
years ago they had been written:--
Oh! human wit, thou can'st invent much ill,
Thou searchest strange arts: who would think by skill,
An heavy man like a light bird should stray,
And through the empty heavens find a way?
I alighted at Perth; and, though much fatigued by a constant
exposure to the air for many hours, I would not rest, but
merely altering my mode of conveyance, I went by land instead
of air, to Dunkeld. The sun was rising as I entered the opening
of the hills. After the revolution of ages Birnam hill was again
covered with a young forest, while more aged pines, planted at
the very commencement of the nineteenth century by the then
Duke of Athol, gave solemnity and beauty to the scene. The
rising sun first tinged the pine tops; and my mind, rendered
through my mountain education deeply susceptible of the graces
of nature, and now on the eve of again beholding my beloved and
perhaps dying friend, was strangely influenced by the sight of
those distant beams: surely they were ominous, and as such I
regarded them, good omens for Adrian, on whose life my
happiness depended.
Poor fellow! he lay stretched on a bed of sickness, his
cheeks glowing with the hues of fever, his eyes half closed, his
breath irregular and difficult. Yet it was less painful to see
him thus, than to find him fulfilling the animal functions
uninterruptedly, his mind sick the while. I established myself
at his bedside; I never quitted it day or night. Bitter task was
it, to behold his spirit waver between death and life: to see
his warm cheek, and know that the very fire which burned too
fiercely there, was consuming the vital fuel; to hear his
moaning voice, which might never again articulate words of love
and wisdom; to witness the ineffectual motions of his limbs,
soon to be wrapt in their mortal shroud. Such for three days
and nights appeared the consummation which fate had decreed
for my labours, and I became haggard and spectre-like, through
anxiety and watching. At length his eyes unclosed faintly, yet
with a look of returning life; he became pale and weak; but the
rigidity of his features was softened by approaching
convalescence. He knew me. What a brimful cup of joyful agony
it was, when his face first gleamed with the glance of
recognition--when he pressed my hand, now more fevered than
his own, and when he pronounced my name! No trace of his past
insanity remained, to dash my joy with sorrow.
This same evening his mother and sister arrived. The
Countess of Windsor was by nature full of energetic feeling; but
she had very seldom in her life permitted the concentrated
emotions of her heart to show themselves on her features. The
studied immovability of her countenance; her slow, equable
manner, and soft but unmelodious voice, were a mask, hiding her
fiery passions, and the impatience of her disposition. She did
not in the least resemble either of her children; her black and
sparkling eye, lit up by pride, was totally unlike the blue
lustre, and frank, benignant expression of either Adrian or
Idris. There was something grand and majestic in her motions,
but nothing persuasive, nothing amiable. Tall, thin, and strait,
her face still handsome, her raven hair hardly tinged with grey,
her forehead arched and beautiful, had not the eye-brows been
somewhat scattered--it was impossible not to be struck by her,
almost to fear her. Idris appeared to be the only being who
could resist her mother, notwithstanding the extreme mildness
of her character. But there was a fearlessness and frankness
about her, which said that she would not encroach on another's
liberty, but held her own sacred and unassailable.
The Countess cast no look of kindness on my worn-out frame,
though afterwards she thanked me coldly for my attentions. Not
so Idris; her first glance was for her brother; she took his
hand, she kissed his eye-lids, and hung over him with looks of
compassion and love. Her eyes glistened with tears when she
thanked me, and the grace of her expressions was enhanced, not
diminished, by the fervour, which caused her almost to falter as
she spoke. Her mother, all eyes and ears, soon interrupted us;
and I saw, that she wished to dismiss me quietly, as one whose
services, now that his relatives had arrived, were of no use to
her son. I was harassed and ill, resolved not to give up my
post, yet doubting in what way I should assert it; when Adrian
called me, and clasping my hand, bade me not leave him. His
mother, apparently inattentive, at once understood what was
meant, and seeing the hold we had upon her, yielded the point
to us.
The days that followed were full of pain to me; so that I
sometimes regretted that I had not yielded at once to the
haughty lady, who watched all my motions, and turned my
beloved task of nursing my friend to a work of pain and
irritation. Never did any woman appear so entirely made of
mind, as the Countess of Windsor. Her passions had subdued her
appetites, even her natural wants; she slept little, and hardly
ate at all; her body was evidently considered by her as a mere
machine, whose health was necessary for the accomplishment of
her schemes, but whose senses formed no part of her enjoyment.
There is something fearful in one who can thus conquer the
animal part of our nature, if the victory be not the effect of
consummate virtue; nor was it without a mixture of this
feeling, that I beheld the figure of the Countess awake when
others slept, fasting when I, abstemious naturally, and rendered
so by the fever that preyed on me, was forced to recruit myself
with food. She resolved to prevent or diminish my
opportunities of acquiring influence over her children, and
circumvented my plans by a hard, quiet, stubborn resolution,
that seemed not to belong to flesh and blood. War was at last
tacitly acknowledged between us. We had many pitched battles,
during which no word was spoken, hardly a look was
interchanged, but in which each resolved not to submit to the
other. The Countess had the advantage of position; so I was
vanquished, though I would not yield.
I became sick at heart. My countenance was painted with the
hues of ill health and vexation. Adrian and Idris saw this; they
attributed it to my long watching and anxiety; they urged me to
rest, and take care of myself, while I most truly assured them,
that my best medicine was their good wishes; those, and the
assured convalescence of my friend, now daily more apparent.
The faint rose again blushed on his cheek; his brow and lips
lost the ashy paleness of threatened dissolution; such was the
dear reward of my unremitting attention--and bounteous heaven
added overflowing recompense, when it gave me also the thanks
and smiles of Idris.
After the lapse of a few weeks, we left Dunkeld. Idris and her
mother returned immediately to Windsor, while Adrian and I
followed by slow journeys and frequent stoppages, occasioned by
his continued weakness. As we traversed the various counties of
fertile England, all wore an exhilarating appearance to my
companion, who had been so long secluded by disease from the
enjoyments of weather and scenery. We passed through busy
towns and cultivated plains. The husbandmen were getting in
their plenteous harvests, and the women and children, occupied
by light rustic toils, formed groups of happy, healthful
persons, the very sight of whom carried cheerfulness to the
heart. One evening, quitting our inn, we strolled down a shady
lane, then up a grassy slope, till we came to an eminence, that
commanded an extensive view of hill and dale, meandering
rivers, dark woods, and shining villages. The sun was setting;
and the clouds, straying, like new-shorn sheep, through the vast
fields of sky, received the golden colour of his parting beams;
the distant uplands shone out, and the busy hum of evening
came, harmonized by distance, on our ear. Adrian, who felt all
the fresh spirit infused by returning health, clasped his hands
in delight, and exclaimed with transport:
"O happy earth, and happy inhabitants of earth! A stately
palace has God built for you, O man! and worthy are you of your
dwelling! Behold the verdant carpet spread at our feet, and the
azure canopy above; the fields of earth which generate and
nurture all things, and the track of heaven, which contains and
clasps all things. Now, at this evening hour, at the period of
repose and refection, methinks all hearts breathe one hymn of
love and thanksgiving, and we, like priests of old on the
mountain-tops, give a voice to their sentiment.
"Assuredly a most benignant power built up the majestic
fabric we inhabit, and framed the laws by which it endures. If
mere existence, and not happiness, had been the final end of
our being, what need of the profuse luxuries which we enjoy?
Why should our dwelling place be so lovely, and why should the
instincts of nature minister pleasurable sensations? The very
sustaining of our animal machine is made delightful; and our
sustenance, the fruits of the field, is painted with transcendent
hues, endued with grateful odours, and palatable to our taste.
Why should this be, if HE were not good? We need houses to
protect us from the seasons, and behold the materials with
which we are provided; the growth of trees with their adornment
of leaves; while rocks of stone piled above the plains variegate
the prospect with their pleasant irregularity.
"Nor are outward objects alone the receptacles of the Spirit
of Good. Look into the mind of man, where wisdom reigns
enthroned; where imagination, the painter, sits, with his pencil
dipped in hues lovelier than those of sunset, adorning familiar
life with glowing tints. What a noble boon, worthy the giver, is
the imagination! It takes from reality its leaden hue: it
envelopes all thought and sensation in a radiant veil, and with
an hand of beauty beckons us from the sterile seas of life, to
her gardens, and bowers, and glades of bliss. And is not love a
gift of the divinity? Love, and her child, Hope, which can bestow
wealth on poverty, strength on the weak, and happiness on the
sorrowing.
"My lot has not been fortunate. I have consorted long with
grief, entered the gloomy labyrinth of madness, and emerged,
but half alive. Yet I thank God that I have lived! I thank God,
that I have beheld his throne, the heavens, and earth, his
footstool. I am glad that I have seen the changes of his day; to
behold the sun, fountain of light, and the gentle pilgrim moon;
to have seen the fire bearing flowers of the sky, and the
flowery stars of earth; to have witnessed the sowing and the
harvest. I am glad that I have loved, and have experienced
sympathetic joy and sorrow with my fellow-creatures. I am glad
now to feel the current of thought flow through my mind, as
the blood through the articulations of my frame; mere
existence is pleasure; and I thank God that I live!
"And all ye happy nurslings of mother-earth, do ye not echo
my words? Ye who are linked by the affectionate ties of nature,
companions, friends, lovers! fathers, who toil with joy for
their offspring; women, who while gazing on the living forms of
their children, forget the pains of maternity; children, who
neither toil nor spin, but love and are loved!
"Oh, that death and sickness were banished from our earthly
home! that hatred, tyranny, and fear could no longer make their
lair in the human heart! that each man might find a brother in
his fellow, and a nest of repose amid the wide plains of his
inheritance! that the source of tears were dry, and that lips
might no longer form expressions of sorrow. Sleeping thus
under the beneficent eye of heaven, can evil visit thee, O Earth,
or grief cradle to their graves thy luckless children? Whisper
it not, let the demons hear and rejoice! The choice is with us;
let us will it, and our habitation becomes a paradise. For the
will of man is omnipotent, blunting the arrows of death,
soothing the bed of disease, and wiping away the tears of agony.
And what is each human being worth, if he do not put forth his
strength to aid his fellow-creatures? My soul is a fading spark,
my nature frail as a spent wave; but I dedicate all of intellect
and strength that remains to me, to that one work, and take
upon me the task, as far as I am able, of bestowing blessings
on my fellow-men!"
His voice trembled, his eyes were cast up, his hands clasped,
and his fragile person was bent, as it were, with excess of
emotion. The spirit of life seemed to linger in his form, as a
dying flame on an altar flickers on the embers of an accepted
WHEN we arrived at Windsor, I found that Raymond and Perdita
had departed for the continent. I took possession of my
sister's cottage, and blessed myself that I lived within view of
Windsor Castle. It was a curious fact, that at this period, when
by the marriage of Perdita I was allied to one of the richest
individuals in England, and was bound by the most intimate
friendship to its chiefest noble, I experienced the greatest
excess of poverty that I had ever known. My knowledge of the
worldly principles of Lord Raymond, would have ever prevented
me from applying to him, however deep my distress might have
been. It was in vain that I repeated to myself with regard to
Adrian, that his purse was open to me; that one in soul, as we
were, our fortunes ought also to be common. I could never,
while with him, think of his bounty as a remedy to my poverty;
and I even put aside hastily his offers of supplies, assuring
him of a falsehood, that I needed them not. How could I say to
this generous being, "Maintain me in idleness. You who have
dedicated your powers of mind and fortune to the benefit of
your species, shall you so misdirect your exertions, as to
support in uselessness the strong, healthy, and capable?"
And yet I dared not request him to use his influence that I
might obtain an honourable provision for myself--for then I
should have been obliged to leave Windsor. I hovered for ever
around the walls of its Castle, beneath its enshadowing
thickets; my sole companions were my books and my loving
thoughts. I studied the wisdom of the ancients, and gazed on the
happy walls that sheltered the beloved of my soul. My mind was
nevertheless idle. I pored over the poetry of old times; I
studied the metaphysics of Plato and Berkeley. I read the
histories of Greece and Rome, and of England's former periods,
and I watched the movements of the lady of my heart. At night
I could see her shadow on the walls of her apartment; by day I
viewed her in her flower-garden, or riding in the park with her
usual companions. Methought the charm would be broken if I
were seen, but I heard the music of her voice and was happy. I
gave to each heroine of whom I read, her beauty and matchless
excellences--such was Antigone, when she guided the blind
Oedipus to the grove of the Eumenides, and discharged the
funeral rites of Polynices; such was Miranda in the unvisited
cave of Prospero; such Haidee, on the sands of the Ionian
island. I was mad with excess of passionate devotion; but pride,
tameless as fire, invested my nature, and prevented me from
betraying myself by word or look.
In the mean time, while I thus pampered myself with rich
mental repasts, a peasant would have disdained my scanty fare,
which I sometimes robbed from the squirrels of the forest. I
was, I own, often tempted to recur to the lawless feats of my
boy-hood, and knock down the almost tame pheasants that
perched upon the trees, and bent their bright eyes on me. But
they were the property of Adrian, the nurslings of Idris; and so,
although my imagination rendered sensual by privation, made
me think that they would better become the spit in my kitchen,
than the green leaves of the forest,
Nathelesse,
I checked my haughty will, and did not eat;
but supped upon sentiment, and dreamt vainly of "such morsels
sweet," as I might not waking attain.
But, at this period, the whole scheme of my existence was
about to change. The orphan and neglected son of Verney, was on
the eve of being linked to the mechanism of society by a golden
chain, and to enter into all the duties and affections of life.
Miracles were to be wrought in my favour, the machine of social
life pushed with vast effort backward. Attend, O reader! while I
narrate this tale of wonders!
One day as Adrian and Idris were riding through the forest,
with their mother and accustomed companions, Idris, drawing
her brother aside from the rest of the cavalcade, suddenly asked
him, "What had become of his friend, Lionel Verney?"
"Even from this spot," replied Adrian, pointing to my
sister's cottage, "you can see his dwelling."
"Indeed!" said Idris, "and why, if he be so near, does he not
come to see us, and make one of our society?"
"I often visit him," replied Adrian; "but you may easily
guess the motives, which prevent him from coming where his
presence may annoy any one among us."
"I do guess them," said Idris, "and such as they are, I would
not venture to combat them. Tell me, however, in what way he
passes his time; what he is doing and thinking in his cottage
retreat?"
"Nay, my sweet sister," replied Adrian, "you ask me more than
I can well answer; but if you feel interest in him, why not
visit him? He will feel highly honoured, and thus you may repay
a part of the obligation I owe him, and compensate for the
injuries fortune has done him."
"I will most readily accompany you to his abode," said the
lady, "not that I wish that either of us should unburthen
ourselves of our debt, which, being no less than your life, must
remain unpayable ever. But let us go; to-morrow we will arrange
to ride out together, and proceeding towards that part of the
forest, call upon him."
The next evening therefore, though the autumnal change had
brought on cold and rain, Adrian and Idris entered my cottage.
They found me Curius-like, feasting on sorry fruits for supper;
but they brought gifts richer than the golden bribes of the
Sabines, nor could I refuse the invaluable store of friendship
and delight which they bestowed. Surely the glorious twins of
Latona were not more welcome, when, in the infancy of the
world, they were brought forth to beautify and enlighten this
"sterile promontory," than were this angelic pair to my lowly
dwelling and grateful heart. We sat like one family round my
hearth. Our talk was on subjects, unconnected with the emotions
that evidently occupied each; but we each divined the other's
thought, and as our voices spoke of indifferent matters, our
eyes, in mute language, told a thousand things no tongue could
have uttered.
They left me in an hour's time. They left me happy--how
unspeakably happy. It did not require the measured sounds of
human language to syllable the story of my ecstasy. Idris had
visited me; Idris I should again and again see--my imagination
did not wander beyond the completeness of this knowledge. I
trod air; no doubt, no fear, no hope even, disturbed me; I
clasped with my soul the fullness of contentment, satisfied,
undesiring, beatified.
For many days Adrian and Idris continued to visit me thus. In
this dear intercourse, love, in the guise of enthusiastic
friendship, infused more and more of his omnipotent spirit.
Idris felt it. Yes, divinity of the world, I read your characters
in her looks and gesture; I heard your melodious voice echoed
by her--you prepared for us a soft and flowery path, all gentle
thoughts adorned it--your name, O Love, was not spoken, but you
stood the Genius of the Hour, veiled, and time, but no mortal
hand, might raise the curtain. Organs of articulate sound did
not proclaim the union of our hearts; for untoward
circumstance allowed no opportunity for the expression that
hovered on our lips.
Oh my pen! haste thou to write what was, before the thought
of what is, arrests the hand that guides thee. If I lift up my
eyes and see the desert earth, and feel that those dear eyes
have spent their mortal lustre, and that those beauteous lips
are silent, their "crimson leaves" faded, for ever I am mute!
But you live, my Idris, even now you move before me! There
was a glade, O reader! a grassy opening in the wood; the
retiring trees left its velvet expanse as a temple for love; the
silver Thames bounded it on one side, and a willow bending down
dipped in the water its Naiad hair, dishevelled by the wind's
viewless hand. The oaks around were the home of a tribe of
nightingales--there am I now; Idris, in youth's dear prime, is
by my side--remember, I am just twenty-two, and seventeen
summers have scarcely passed over the beloved of my heart. The
river swollen by autumnal rains, deluged the low lands, and
Adrian in his favourite boat is employed in the dangerous
pastime of plucking the topmost bough from a submerged oak.
Are you weary of life, O Adrian, that you thus play with
danger?--
He has obtained his prize, and he pilots his boat through the
flood; our eyes were fixed on him fearfully, but the stream
carried him away from us; he was forced to land far lower down,
and to make a considerable circuit before he could join us. "He
is safe!" said Idris, as he leapt on shore, and waved the bough
over his head in token of success; "we will wait for him here."
We were alone together; the sun had set; the song of the
nightingales began; the evening star shone distinct in the flood
of light, which was yet unfaded in the west. The blue eyes of my
angelic girl were fixed on this sweet emblem of herself: "How
the light palpitates," she said, "which is that star's life. Its
vacillating effulgence seems to say that its state, even like
ours upon earth, is wavering and inconstant; it fears, methinks,
and it loves."
"Gaze not on the star, dear, generous friend," I cried, "read
not love in its trembling rays; look not upon distant worlds;
speak not of the mere imagination of a sentiment. I have long
been silent; long even to sickness have I desired to speak to
you, and submit my soul, my life, my entire being to you. Look
not on the star, dear love, or do, and let that eternal spark
plead for me; let it be my witness and my advocate, silent as
it shines--love is to me as light to the star; even so long as
that is uneclipsed by annihilation, so long shall I love you."
Veiled for ever to the world's callous eye must be the
transport of that moment. Still do I feel her graceful form
press against my full-fraught heart--still does sight, and
pulse, and breath sicken and fail, at the remembrance of that
first kiss. Slowly and silently we went to meet Adrian, whom we
heard approaching.
I entreated Adrian to return to me after he had conducted his
sister home. And that same evening, walking among the moon-
lit forest paths, I poured forth my whole heart, its transport
and its hope, to my friend. For a moment he looked disturbed--
"I might have foreseen this," he said, "what strife will now
ensue! Pardon me, Lionel, nor wonder that the expectation of
contest with my mother should jar me, when else I should
delightedly confess that my best hopes are fulfilled, in
confiding my sister to your protection. If you do not already
know it, you will soon learn the deep hate my mother bears to
the name Verney. I will converse with Idris; then all that a
friend can do, I will do; to her it must belong to play the
lover's part, if she be capable of it."
While the brother and sister were still hesitating in what
manner they could best attempt to bring their mother over to
their party, she, suspecting our meetings, taxed her children
with them; taxed her fair daughter with deceit, and an
unbecoming attachment for one whose only merit was being the
son of the profligate favourite of her imprudent father; and
who was doubtless as worthless as he from whom he boasted his
descent. The eyes of Idris flashed at this accusation; she
replied, "I do not deny that I love Verney; prove to me that he
is worthless; and I will never see him more."
"Dear Madam," said Adrian, "let me entreat you to see him, to
cultivate his friendship. You will wonder then, as I do, at the
extent of his accomplishments, and the brilliancy of his
talents." (Pardon me, gentle reader, this is not futile vanity;
--not futile, since to know that Adrian felt thus, brings joy
even now to my lone heart).
"Mad and foolish boy!" exclaimed the angry lady, "you have
chosen with dreams and theories to overthrow my schemes for
your own aggrandisement; but you shall not do the same by
those I have formed for your sister. I but too well understand
the fascination you both labour under; since I had the same
struggle with your father, to make him cast off the parent of
this youth, who hid his evil propensities with the smoothness
and subtlety of a viper. In those days how often did I hear of
his attractions, his wide spread conquests, his wit, his refined
manners. It is well when flies only are caught by such spiders'
webs; but is it for the high-born and powerful to bow their
necks to the flimsy yoke of these unmeaning pretensions? Were
your sister indeed the insignificant person she deserves to be, I
would willingly leave her to the fate, the wretched fate, of the
wife of a man, whose very person, resembling as it does his
wretched father, ought to remind you of the folly and vice it
typifies--but remember, Lady Idris, it is not alone the once
royal blood of England that colours your veins, you are a
Princess of Austria, and every life-drop is akin to emperors and
kings. Are you then a fit mate for an uneducated shepherd-boy,
whose only inheritance is his father's tarnished name?"
"I can make but one defence," replied Idris, "the same
offered by my brother; see Lionel, converse with my shepherd-
boy"----
The Countess interrupted her indignantly--"Yours!"--she
cried: and then, smoothing her impassioned features to a
disdainful smile, she continued--"We will talk of this another
time. All I now ask, all your mother, Idris, requests is, that
you will not see this upstart during the interval of one
month."
"I dare not comply," said Idris, "it would pain him too much.
I have no right to play with his feelings, to accept his
proffered love, and then sting him with neglect."
"This is going too far," her mother answered, with quivering
lips, and eyes again instinct by anger.
"Nay, Madam," said Adrian, "unless my sister consent never to
see him again, it is surely an useless torment to separate them
for a month."
"Certainly," replied the ex-queen, with bitter scorn, "his
love, and her love, and both their childish flutterings, are to
be put in fit comparison with my years of hope and anxiety,
with the duties of the offspring of kings, with the high and
dignified conduct which one of her descent ought to pursue. But
it is unworthy of me to argue and complain. Perhaps you will
have the goodness to promise me not to marry during that
interval?"
This was asked only half ironically; and Idris wondered why
her mother should extort from her a solemn vow not to do,
what she had never dreamed of doing--but the promise was
required and given.
All went on cheerfully now; we met as usual, and talked
without dread of our future plans. The Countess was so gentle,
and even beyond her wont, amiable with her children, that they
began to entertain hopes of her ultimate consent. She was too
unlike them, too utterly alien to their tastes, for them to find
delight in her society, or in the prospect of its continuance,
but it gave them pleasure to see her conciliating and kind. Once
even, Adrian ventured to propose her receiving me. She refused
with a smile, reminding him that for the present his sister had
promised to be patient.
One day, after the lapse of nearly a month, Adrian received a
letter from a friend in London, requesting his immediate
presence for the furtherance of some important object.
Guileless himself, Adrian feared no deceit. I rode with him as
far as Staines: he was in high spirits; and, since I could not
see Idris during his absence, he promised a speedy return. His
gaiety, which was extreme, had the strange effect of awakening
in me contrary feelings; a presentiment of evil hung over me; I
loitered on my return; I counted the hours that must elapse
before I saw Idris again. Wherefore should this be? What evil
might not happen in the mean time? Might not her mother take
advantage of Adrian's absence to urge her beyond her sufferance,
perhaps to entrap her? I resolved, let what would befall, to see
and converse with her the following day. This determination
soothed me. To-morrow, loveliest and best, hope and joy of my
life, to-morrow I will see thee--Fool, to dream of a moment's
delay!
I went to rest. At past midnight I was awaked by a violent
knocking. It was now deep winter; it had snowed, and was still
snowing; the wind whistled in the leafless trees, despoiling
them of the white flakes as they fell; its drear moaning, and
the continued knocking, mingled wildly with my dreams--at
length I was wide awake; hastily dressing myself, I hurried to
discover the cause of this disturbance, and to open my door to
the unexpected visitor. Pale as the snow that showered about
her, with clasped hands, Idris stood before me. "Save me!" she
exclaimed, and would have sunk to the ground had I not
supported her. In a moment however she revived, and, with
energy, almost with violence, entreated me to saddle horses, to
take her away, away to London--to her brother--at least to save
her. I had no horses--she wrung her hands. "What can I do?" she
cried, "I am lost--we are both for ever lost! But come--come
with me, Lionel; here I must not stay,--we can get a chaise at
the nearest post-house; yet perhaps we have time! come, O come
with me to save and protect me!"
When I heard her piteous demands, while with disordered
dress, dishevelled hair, and aghast looks, she wrung her hands--
the idea shot across me is she also mad?--"Sweet one," and I
folded her to my heart, "better repose than wander further;
--rest--my beloved, I will make a fire--you are chill."
"Rest!" she cried, "repose! you rave, Lionel! If you delay we
are lost; come, I pray you, unless you would cast me off for
ever."
That Idris, the princely born, nursling of wealth and luxury,
should have come through the tempestuous winter-night from
her regal abode, and standing at my lowly door, conjure me to
fly with her through darkness and storm--was surely a dream--
again her plaintive tones, the sight of her loveliness assured
me that it was no vision. Looking timidly around, as if she
feared to be overheard, she whispered: "I have discovered--to-
morrow--that is, to-day--already the to-morrow is come--before
dawn, foreigners, Austrians, my mother's hirelings, are to carry
me off to Germany, to prison, to marriage--to anything, except
you and my brother--take me away, or soon they will be here!"
I was frightened by her vehemence, and imagined some
mistake in her incoherent tale; but I no longer hesitated to
obey her. She had come by herself from the Castle, three long
miles, at midnight, through the heavy snow; we must reach
Englefield Green, a mile and a half further, before we could
obtain a chaise. She told me, that she had kept up her strength
and courage till her arrival at my cottage, and then both
failed. Now she could hardly walk. Supporting her as I did, still
she lagged: and at the distance of half a mile, after many
stoppages, shivering fits, and half faintings, she slipt from my
supporting arm on the snow, and with a torrent of tears averred
that she must be taken, for that she could not proceed. I lifted
her up in my arms; her light form rested on my breast.--I felt
no burthen, except the internal one of contrary and contending
emotions. Brimming delight now invested me. Again her chill
limbs touched me as a torpedo; and I shuddered in sympathy
with her pain and fright. Her head lay on my shoulder, her
breath waved my hair, her heart beat near mine, transport made
me tremble, blinded me, annihilated me--till a suppressed
groan, bursting from her lips, the chattering of her teeth,
which she strove vainly to subdue, and all the signs of
suffering she evinced, recalled me to the necessity of speed and
succour. At last I said to her, "There is Englefield Green; there
the inn. But, if you are seen thus strangely circumstanced, dear
Idris, even now your enemies may learn your flight too soon:
were it not better that I hired the chaise alone? I will put you
in safety meanwhile, and return to you immediately."
She answered that I was right, and might do with her as I
pleased. I observed the door of a small out-house a-jar. I
pushed it open; and, with some hay strewed about, I formed a
couch for her, placing her exhausted frame on it, and covering
her with my cloak. I feared to leave her, she looked so wan and
faint--but in a moment she re-acquired animation, and, with
that, fear; and again she implored me not to delay. To call up
the people of the inn, and obtain a conveyance and horses, even
though I harnessed them myself, was the work of many minutes;
minutes, each freighted with the weight of ages. I caused the
chaise to advance a little, waited till the people of the inn
had retired, and then made the post-boy draw up the carriage to
the spot where Idris, impatient, and now somewhat recovered,
stood waiting for me. I lifted her into the chaise; I assured
her that with our four horses we should arrive in London before
five o'clock, the hour when she would be sought and missed. I
besought her to calm herself; a kindly shower of tears relieved
her, and by degrees she related her tale of fear and peril.
That same night after Adrian's departure, her mother had
warmly expostulated with her on the subject of her attachment
to me. Every motive, every threat, every angry taunt was urged
in vain. She seemed to consider that through me she had lost
Raymond; I was the evil influence of her life; I was even
accused of increasing and confirming the mad and base apostasy
of Adrian from all views of advancement and grandeur; and now
this miserable mountaineer was to steal her daughter. Never,
Idris related, did the angry lady deign to recur to gentleness
and persuasion; if she had, the task of resistance would have
been exquisitely painful. As it was, the sweet girl's generous
nature was roused to defend, and ally herself with, my despised
cause. Her mother ended with a look of contempt and covert
triumph, which for a moment awakened the suspicions of Idris.
When they parted for the night, the Countess said, "To-morrow I
trust your tone will be changed: be composed; I have agitated
you; go to rest; and I will send you a medicine I always take
when unduly restless--it will give you a quiet night."
By the time that she had with uneasy thoughts laid her fair
cheek upon her pillow, her mother's servant brought a draught;
a suspicion again crossed her at this novel proceeding,
sufficiently alarming to determine her not to take the potion;
but dislike of contention, and a wish to discover whether there
was any just foundation for her conjectures, made her, she said,
almost instinctively, and in contradiction to her usual
frankness, pretend to swallow the medicine. Then, agitated as
she had been by her mother's violence, and now by unaccustomed
fears, she lay unable to sleep, starting at every sound. Soon
her door opened softly, and on her springing up, she heard a
whisper, "Not asleep yet," and the door again closed. With a
beating heart she expected another visit, and when after an
interval her chamber was again invaded, having first assured
herself that the intruders were her mother and an attendant,
she composed herself to feigned sleep. A step approached her
bed, she dared not move, she strove to calm her palpitations,
which became more violent, when she heard her mother say
mutteringly, "Pretty simpleton, little do you think that your
game is already at an end for ever."
For a moment the poor girl fancied that her mother believed
that she had drank poison: she was on the point of springing
up; when the Countess, already at a distance from the bed, spoke
in a low voice to her companion, and again Idris listened:
"Hasten," said she, "there is no time to lose--it is long past
eleven; they will be here at five; take merely the clothes
necessary for her journey, and her jewel-casket." The servant
obeyed; few words were spoken on either side; but those were
caught at with avidity by the intended victim. She heard the
name of her own maid mentioned;--"No, no," replied her mother,
"she does not go with us; Lady Idris must forget England, and
all belonging to it." And again she heard, "She will not wake
till late to-morrow, and we shall then be at sea." ---- "All is
ready," at length the woman announced. The Countess again came
to her daughter's bedside: "In Austria at least," she said, "you
will obey. In Austria, where obedience can be enforced, and no
choice left but between an honourable prison and a fitting
marriage."
Both then withdrew; though, as she went, the Countess said,
"Softly; all sleep; though all have not been prepared for sleep,
like her. I would not have any one suspect, or she might be
roused to resistance, and perhaps escape. Come with me to my
room; we will remain there till the hour agreed upon." They
went. Idris, panic-struck, but animated and strengthened even by
her excessive fear, dressed herself hurriedly, and going down a
flight of back-stairs, avoiding the vicinity of her mother's
apartment, she contrived to escape from the castle by a low
window, and came through snow, wind, and obscurity to my
cottage; nor lost her courage, until she arrived, and, depositing
her fate in my hands, gave herself up to the desperation and
weariness that overwhelmed her.
I comforted her as well as I might. Joy and exultation, were
mine, to possess, and to save her. Yet not to excite fresh
agitation in her, "per non turbar quel bel viso sereno," I
curbed my delight. I strove to quiet the eager dancing of my
heart; I turned from her my eyes, beaming with too much
tenderness, and proudly, to dark night, and the inclement
atmosphere, murmured the expressions of my transport. We
reached London, methought, all too soon; and yet I could not
regret our speedy arrival, when I witnessed the ecstasy with
which my beloved girl found herself in her brother's arms, safe
from every evil, under his unblamed protection.
Adrian wrote a brief note to his mother, informing her that
Idris was under his care and guardianship. Several days elapsed,
and at last an answer came, dated from Cologne. "It was
useless," the haughty and disappointed lady wrote, "for the Earl
of Windsor and his sister to address again the injured parent,
whose only expectation of tranquillity must be derived from
oblivion of their existence. Her desires had been blasted, her
schemes overthrown. She did not complain; in her brother's
court she would find, not compensation for their disobedience
(filial unkindness admitted of none), but such a state of things
and mode of life, as might best reconcile her to her fate. Under
such circumstances, she positively declined any communication
with them."
Such were the strange and incredible events, that finally
brought about my union with the sister of my best friend, with
my adored Idris. With simplicity and courage she set aside the
prejudices and opposition which were obstacles to my
happiness, nor scrupled to give her hand, where she had given
her heart. To be worthy of her, to raise myself to her height
through the exertion of talents and virtue, to repay her love
with devoted, unwearied tenderness, were the only thanks I could
offer for the matchless gift.
AND now let the reader, passing over some short period of time,
be introduced to our happy circle. Adrian, Idris and I, were
established in Windsor Castle; Lord Raymond and my sister,
inhabited a house which the former had built on the borders of
the Great Park, near Perdita's cottage, as was still named the
low-roofed abode, where we two, poor even in hope, had each
received the assurance of our felicity. We had our separate
occupations and our common amusements. Sometimes we passed
whole days under the leafy covert of the forest with our books
and music. This occurred during those rare days in this country,
when the sun mounts his ethereal throne in unclouded majesty,
and the windless atmosphere is as a bath of pellucid and
grateful water, wrapping the senses in tranquillity. When the
clouds veiled the sky, and the wind scattered them there and
here, rending their woof, and strewing its fragments through the
aerial plains--then we rode out, and sought new spots of beauty
and repose. When the frequent rains shut us within doors,
evening recreation followed morning study, ushered in by music
and song. Idris had a natural musical talent; and her voice,
which had been carefully cultivated, was full and sweet. Raymond
and I made a part of the concert, and Adrian and Perdita were
devout listeners. Then we were as gay as summer insects,
playful as children; we ever met one another with smiles, and
read content and joy in each other's countenances. Our prime
festivals were held in Perdita's cottage; nor were we ever weary
of talking of the past or dreaming of the future. Jealousy and
disquiet were unknown among us; nor did a fear or hope of
change ever disturb our tranquillity. Others said, We might be
happy--we said--We are.
When any separation took place between us, it generally so
happened, that Idris and Perdita would ramble away together,
and we remained to discuss the affairs of nations, and the
philosophy of life. The very difference of our dispositions gave
zest to these conversations. Adrian had the superiority in
learning and eloquence; but Raymond possessed a quick
penetration, and a practical knowledge of life, which usually
displayed itself in opposition to Adrian, and thus kept up the
ball of discussion. At other times we made excursions of many
days' duration, and crossed the country to visit any spot noted
for beauty or historical association. Sometimes we went up to
London, and entered into the amusements of the busy throng;
sometimes our retreat was invaded by visitors from among
them. This change made us only the more sensible to the
delights of the intimate intercourse of our own circle, the
tranquillity of our divine forest, and our happy evenings in the
halls of our beloved Castle.
The disposition of Idris was peculiarly frank, soft, and
affectionate. Her temper was unalterably sweet; and although
firm and resolute on any point that touched her heart, she was
yielding to those she loved. The nature of Perdita was less
perfect; but tenderness and happiness improved her temper, and
softened her natural reserve. Her understanding was clear and
comprehensive, her imagination vivid; she was sincere, generous,
and reasonable. Adrian, the matchless brother of my soul, the
sensitive and excellent Adrian, loving all, and beloved by all,
yet seemed destined not to find the half of himself, which was
to complete his happiness. He often left us, and wandered by
himself in the woods, or sailed in his little skiff, his books
his only companions. He was often the gayest of our party, at
the same time that he was the only one visited by fits of
despondency; his slender frame seemed overcharged with the
weight of life, and his soul appeared rather to inhabit his body
than unite with it. I was hardly more devoted to my Idris than
to her brother, and she loved him as her teacher, her friend,
the benefactor who had secured to her the fulfilment of her
dearest wishes. Raymond, the ambitious, restless Raymond,
reposed midway on the great high-road of life, and was content
to give up all his schemes of sovereignty and fame, to make one
of us, the flowers of the field. His kingdom was the heart of
Perdita, his subjects her thoughts; by her he was loved,
respected as a superior being, obeyed, waited on. No office, no
devotion, no watching was irksome to her, as it regarded him.
She would sit apart from us and watch him; she would weep for
joy to think that he was hers. She erected a temple for him in
the depth of her being, and each faculty was a priestess vowed
to his service. Sometimes she might be wayward and capricious;
but her repentance was bitter, her return entire, and even this
inequality of temper suited him who was not formed by nature
to float idly down the stream of life.
During the first year of their marriage, Perdita presented
Raymond with a lovely girl. It was curious to trace in this
miniature model the very traits of its father. The same half-
disdainful lips and smile of triumph, the same intelligent
eyes, the same brow and chestnut hair; her very hands and taper
fingers resembled his. How very dear she was to Perdita! In
progress of time, I also became a father, and our little
darlings, our playthings and delights, called forth a thousand
new and delicious feelings.
Years passed thus,--even years. Each month brought forth its
successor, each year one like to that gone by; truly, our lives
were a living comment on that beautiful sentiment of Plutarch,
that "our souls have a natural inclination to love, being born
as much to love, as to feel, to reason, to understand and
remember." We talked of change and active pursuits, but still
remained at Windsor, incapable of violating the charm that
attached us to our secluded life.
Pareamo aver qui tutto il ben raccolto
Che fra mortali in più parte si rimembra.
Now also that our children gave us occupation, we found excuses
for our idleness, in the idea of bringing them up to a more
splendid career. At length our tranquillity was disturbed, and
the course of events, which for five years had flowed on in
hushing tranquillity, was broken by breakers and obstacles, that
woke us from our pleasant dream.
A new Lord Protector of England was to be chosen; and, at
Raymond's request, we removed to London, to witness, and even
take a part in the election. If Raymond had been united to
Idris, this post had been his stepping-stone to higher dignity;
and his desire for power and fame had been crowned with fullest
measure. He had exchanged a sceptre for a lute, a kingdom for
Perdita.
Did he think of this as we journeyed up to town? I watched
him, but could make but little of him. He was particularly gay,
playing with his child, and turning to sport every word that was
uttered. Perhaps he did this because he saw a cloud upon
Perdita's brow. She tried to rouse herself, but her eyes every
now and then filled with tears, and she looked wistfully on
Raymond and her girl, as if fearful that some evil would betide
them. And so she felt. A presentiment of ill hung over her. She
leaned from the window looking on the forest, and the turrets
of the Castle, and as these became hid by intervening objects,
she passionately exclaimed--"Scenes of happiness! scenes sacred
to devoted love, when shall I see you again! and when I see ye,
shall I be still the beloved and joyous Perdita, or shall I,
heart-broken and lost, wander among your groves, the ghost of
what I am!"
"Why, silly one," cried Raymond, "what is your little head
pondering upon, that of a sudden you have become so sublimely
dismal? Cheer up, or I shall make you over to Idris, and call
Adrian into the carriage, who, I see by his gesture, sympathies
with my good spirits."
Adrian was on horseback; he rode up to the carriage, and his
gaiety, in addition to that of Raymond, dispelled my sister's
melancholy. We entered London in the evening, and went to our
several abodes near Hyde Park.
The following morning Lord Raymond visited me early. "I
come to you," he said, "only half assured that you will assist
me in my project, but resolved to go through with it, whether
you concur with me or not. Promise me secrecy however; for if
you will not contribute to my success, at least you must not
baffle me."
"Well, I promise. And now----"
"And now, my dear fellow, for what are we come to London? To
be present at the election of a Protector, and to give our yea
or nay for his shuffling Grace of ------? or for that noisy
Ryland? Do you believe, Verney, that I brought you to town for
that? No, we will have a Protector of our own. We will set up a
candidate, and ensure his success. We will nominate Adrian, and
do our best to bestow on him the power to which he is entitled
by his birth, and which he merits through his virtues.
"Do not answer; I know all your objections, and will reply to
them in order. First, Whether he will or will not consent to
become a great man? Leave the task of persuasion on that point
to me; I do not ask you to assist me there. Secondly, Whether
he ought to exchange his employment of plucking blackberries,
and nursing wounded partridges in the forest, for the command
of a nation? My dear Lionel, we are married men, and find
employment sufficient in amusing our wives, and dancing our
children. But Adrian is alone, wifeless, childless, unoccupied. I
have long observed him. He pines for want of some interest in
life. His heart, exhausted by his early sufferings, reposes like a
new-healed limb, and shrinks from all excitement. But his
understanding, his charity, his virtues, want a field for exercise
and display; and we will procure it for him. Besides, is it not a
shame, that the genius of Adrian should fade from the earth
like a flower in an untrod mountain-path, fruitless? Do you
think Nature composed his surpassing machine for no purpose?
Believe me, he was destined to be the author of infinite good to
his native England. Has she not bestowed on him every gift in
prodigality?--birth, wealth, talent, goodness? Does not every
one love and admire him? and does he not delight singly in such
efforts as manifest his love to all? Come, I see that you are
already persuaded, and will second me when I propose him to-
night in parliament."
"You have got up all your arguments in excellent order," I
replied; "and, if Adrian consent, they are unanswerable. One
only condition I would make,--that you do nothing without his
concurrence."
"I believe you are in the right," said Raymond; "although I
had thought at first to arrange the affair differently. Be it so.
I will go instantly to Adrian; and, if he inclines to consent,
you will not destroy my labour by persuading him to return, and
turn squirrel again in Windsor Forest. Idris, you will not act
the traitor towards me?"
"Trust me," replied she, "I will preserve a strict
neutrality."
"For my part," said I, "I am too well convinced of the worth
of our friend, and the rich harvest of benefits that all England
would reap from his Protectorship, to deprive my countrymen of
such a blessing, if he consent to bestow it on them."
In the evening Adrian visited us.--"Do you cabal also against
me," said he, laughing; "and will you make common cause with
Raymond, in dragging a poor visionary from the clouds to
surround him with the fire-works and blasts of earthly
grandeur, instead of heavenly rays and airs? I thought you knew
me better."
"I do know you better," I replied "than to think that you
would be happy in such a situation; but the good you would do
to others may be an inducement, since the time is probably
arrived when you can put your theories into practice, and you
may bring about such reformation and change, as will conduce
to that perfect system of government which you delight to
portray."
"You speak of an almost-forgotten dream," said Adrian, his
countenance slightly clouding as he spoke; "the visions of my
boyhood have long since faded in the light of reality; I know
now that I am not a man fitted to govern nations; sufficient
for me, if I keep in wholesome rule the little kingdom of my
own mortality.
"But do not you see, Lionel, the drift of our noble friend; a
drift, perhaps, unknown to himself, but apparent to me. Lord
Raymond was never born to be a drone in the hive, and to find
content in our pastoral life. He thinks, that he ought to be
satisfied; he imagines, that his present situation precludes the
possibility of aggrandisement; he does not therefore, even in
his own heart, plan change for himself. But do you not see,
that, under the idea of exalting me, he is chalking out a new
path for himself; a path of action from which he has long
wandered?
"Let us assist him. He, the noble, the warlike, the great in
every quality that can adorn the mind and person of man; he is
fitted to be the Protector of England. If I--that is, if we
propose him, he will assuredly be elected, and will find, in the
functions of that high office, scope for the towering powers of
his mind. Even Perdita will rejoice. Perdita, in whom ambition
was a covered fire until she married Raymond, which event was
for a time the fulfilment of her hopes; Perdita will rejoice in
the glory and advancement of her lord--and, coyly and prettily,
not be discontented with her share. In the mean time, we, the
wise of the land, will return to our Castle, and, Cincinnatus-
like, take to our usual labours, until our friend shall require
our presence and assistance here."
The more Adrian reasoned upon this scheme, the more
feasible it appeared. His own determination never to enter into
public life was insurmountable, and the delicacy of his health
was a sufficient argument against it. The next step was to
induce Raymond to confess his secret wishes for dignity and
fame. He entered while we were speaking. The way in which
Adrian had received his project for setting him up as a
candidate for the Protectorship, and his replies, had already
awakened in his mind, the view of the subject which we were now
discussing. His countenance and manner betrayed irresolution
and anxiety; but the anxiety arose from a fear that we should
not prosecute, or not succeed in our idea; and his irresolution,
from a doubt whether we should risk a defeat. A few words from
us decided him, and hope and joy sparkled in his eyes; the idea
of embarking in a career, so congenial to his early habits and
cherished wishes, made him as before energetic and bold. We
discussed his chances, the merits of the other candidates, and
the dispositions of the voters.
After all we miscalculated. Raymond had lost much of his
popularity, and was deserted by his peculiar partisans. Absence
from the busy stage had caused him to be forgotten by the
people; his former parliamentary supporters were principally
composed of royalists, who had been willing to make an idol of
him when he appeared as the heir of the Earldom of Windsor;
but who were indifferent to him, when he came forward with no
other attributes and distinctions than they conceived to be
common to many among themselves. Still he had many friends,
admirers of his transcendent talents; his presence in the
house, his eloquence, address and imposing beauty, were
calculated to produce an electric effect. Adrian also,
notwithstanding his recluse habits and theories, so adverse to
the spirit of party, had many friends, and they were easily
induced to vote for a candidate of his selection.
The Duke of ------, and Mr. Ryland, Lord Raymond's old
antagonist, were the other candidates. The Duke was supported
by all the aristocrats of the republic, who considered him
their proper representative. Ryland was the popular candidate;
when Lord Raymond was first added to the list, his chance of
success appeared small. We retired from the debate which had
followed on his nomination: we, his nominators, mortified; he
dispirited to excess. Perdita reproached us bitterly. Her
expectations had been strongly excited; she had urged nothing
against our project, on the contrary, she was evidently pleased
by it; but its evident ill success changed the current of her
ideas. She felt, that, once awakened, Raymond would never return
unrepining to Windsor. His habits were unhinged; his restless
mind roused from its sleep, ambition must now be his
companion through life; and if he did not succeed in his
present attempt, she foresaw that unhappiness and cureless
discontent would follow. Perhaps her own disappointment added
a sting to her thoughts and words; she did not spare us, and our
own reflections added to our disquietude.
It was necessary to follow up our nomination, and to
persuade Raymond to present himself to the electors on the
following evening. For a long time he was obstinate. He would
embark in a balloon; he would sail for a distant quarter of the
world, where his name and humiliation were unknown. But this
was useless; his attempt was registered; his purpose published
to the world; his shame could never be erased from the
memories of men. It was as well to fail at last after a
struggle, as to fly now at the beginning of his enterprise.
From the moment that he adopted this idea, he was changed.
His depression and anxiety fled; he became all life and
activity. The smile of triumph shone on his countenance;
determined to pursue his object to the uttermost, his manner
and expression seem ominous of the accomplishment of his
wishes. Not so Perdita. She was frightened by his gaiety, for she
dreaded a greater revulsion at the end. If his appearance even
inspired us with hope, it only rendered the state of her mind
more painful. She feared to lose sight of him; yet she dreaded
to remark any change in the temper of his mind. She listened
eagerly to him, yet tantalised herself by giving to his words a
meaning foreign to their true interpretation, and adverse to
her hopes. She dared not be present at the contest; yet she
remained at home a prey to double solicitude. She wept over
her little girl; she looked, she spoke, as if she dreaded the
occurrence of some frightful calamity. She was half mad from
the effects of uncontrollable agitation.
Lord Raymond presented himself to the house with fearless
confidence and insinuating address. After the Duke of ------ and
Mr. Ryland had finished their speeches, he commenced. Assuredly
he had not conned his lesson; and at first he hesitated, pausing
in his ideas, and in the choice of his expressions. By degrees he
warmed; his words flowed with ease, his language was full of
vigour, and his voice of persuasion. He reverted to his past
life, his successes in Greece, his favour at home. Why should he
lose this, now that added years, prudence, and the pledge which
his marriage gave to his country, ought to increase, rather than
diminish his claims to confidence? He spoke of the state of
England; the necessary measures to be taken to ensure its
security, and confirm its prosperity. He drew a glowing picture
of its present situation. As he spoke, every sound was hushed,
every thought suspended by intense attention. His graceful
elocution enchained the senses of his hearers. In some degree
also he was fitted to reconcile all parties. His birth pleased
the aristocracy; his being the candidate recommended by Adrian,
a man intimately allied to the popular party, caused a number,
who had no great reliance either on the Duke or Mr. Ryland, to
range on his side.
The contest was keen and doubtful. Neither Adrian nor myself
would have been so anxious, if our own success had depended on
our exertions; but we had egged our friend on to the enterprise,
and it became us to ensure his triumph. Idris, who entertained
the highest opinion of his abilities, was warmly interested in
the event: and my poor sister, who dared not hope, and to whom
fear was misery, was plunged into a fever of disquietude.
Day after day passed while we discussed our projects for the
evening, and each night was occupied by debates which offered no
conclusion. At last the crisis came: the night when parliament,
which had so long delayed its choice, must decide: as the hour
of twelve passed, and the new day began, it was by virtue of the
constitution dissolved, its power extinct.
We assembled at Raymond's house, we and our partisans. At
half past five o'clock we proceeded to the House. Idris
endeavoured to calm Perdita; but the poor girl's agitation
deprived her of all power of self-command. She walked up and
down the room,--gazed wildly when any one entered, fancying
that they might be the announcers of her doom. I must do
justice to my sweet sister: it was not for herself that she was
thus agonized. She alone knew the weight which Raymond
attached to his success. Even to us he assumed gaiety and hope,
and assumed them so well, that we did not divine the secret
workings of his mind. Sometimes a nervous trembling, a sharp
dissonance of voice, and momentary fits of absence revealed to
Perdita the violence he did himself; but we, intent on our
plans, observed only his ready laugh, his joke intruded on all
occasions, the flow of his spirits which seemed incapable of
ebb. Besides, Perdita was with him in his retirement; she saw
the moodiness that succeeded to this forced hilarity; she
marked his disturbed sleep, his painful irritability--once she
had seen his tears--hers had scarce ceased to flow, since she
had beheld the big drops which disappointed pride had caused to
gather in his eye, but which pride was unable to dispel. What
wonder then, that her feelings were wrought to this pitch! I
thus accounted to myself for her agitation; but this was not
all, and the sequel revealed another excuse.
One moment we seized before our departure, to take leave of
our beloved girls. I had small hope of success, and entreated
Idris to watch over my sister. As I approached the latter, she
seized my hand, and drew me into another apartment; she threw
herself into my arms, and wept and sobbed bitterly and long. I
tried to soothe her; I bade her hope; I asked what tremendous
consequences would ensue even on our failure. "My brother," she
cried, "protector of my childhood, dear, most dear Lionel, my
fate hangs by a thread. I have you all about me now--you, the
companion of my infancy; Adrian, as dear to me as if bound by
the ties of blood; Idris, the sister of my heart, and her lovely
offspring. This, O this may be the last time that you will
surround me thus!"
Abruptly she stopped, and then cried: "What have I said?
--foolish false girl that I am!" She looked wildly on me, and
then suddenly calming herself, apologized for what she called
her unmeaning words, saying that she must indeed be insane,
for, while Raymond lived, she must be happy; and then, though
she still wept, she suffered me tranquilly to depart. Raymond
only took her hand when he went, and looked on her
expressively; she answered by a look of intelligence and assent.
Poor girl! what she then suffered! I could never entirely
forgive Raymond for the trials he imposed on her, occasioned as
they were by a selfish feeling on his part. He had schemed, if
he failed in his present attempt, without taking leave of any of
us, to embark for Greece, and never again to revisit England.
Perdita acceded to his wishes; for his contentment was the
chief object of her life, the crown of her enjoyment; but to
leave us all, her companions, the beloved partners of her
happiest years, and in the interim to conceal this frightful
determination, was a task that almost conquered her strength of
mind. She had been employed in arranging for their departure;
she had promised Raymond during this decisive evening, to take
advantage of our absence, to go one stage of the journey, and
he, after his defeat was ascertained, would slip away from us,
and join her.
Although, when I was informed of this scheme, I was bitterly
offended by the small attention which Raymond paid to my
sister's feelings, I was led by reflection to consider, that he
acted under the force of such strong excitement, as to take
from him the consciousness, and, consequently, the guilt of a
fault. If he had permitted us to witness his agitation, he would
have been more under the guidance of reason; but his struggles
for the show of composure, acted with such violence on his
nerves, as to destroy his power of self-command. I am convinced
that, at the worst, he would have returned from the seashore to
take leave of us, and to make us the partners of his council.
But the task imposed on Perdita was not the less painful. He
had extorted from her a vow of secrecy; and her part of the
drama, since it was to be performed alone, was the most
agonizing that could be devised. But to return to my narrative.
The debates had hitherto been long and loud; they had often
been protracted merely for the sake of delay. But now each
seemed fearful lest the fatal moment should pass, while the
choice was yet undecided. Unwonted silence reigned in the house,
the members spoke in whispers, and the ordinary business was
transacted with celerity and quietness. During the first stage of
the election, the Duke of ------ had been thrown out; the
question therefore lay between Lord Raymond and Mr. Ryland. The
latter had felt secure of victory, until the appearance of
Raymond; and, since his name had been inserted as a candidate,
he had canvassed with eagerness. He had appeared each evening,
impatience and anger marked in his looks, scowling on us from
the opposite side of St. Stephen's, as if his mere frown would
cast eclipse on our hopes.
Every thing in the English constitution had been regulated
for the better preservation of peace. On the last day, two
candidates only were allowed to remain; and to obviate, if
possible, the last struggle between these, a bribe was offered
to him who should voluntarily resign his pretensions; a place
of great emolument and honour was given him, and his success
facilitated at a future election. Strange to say however, no
instance had yet occurred, where either candidate had had
recourse to this expedient; in consequence the law had become
obsolete, nor had been referred to by any of us in our
discussions. To our extreme surprise, when it was moved that we
should resolve ourselves into a committee for the election of
the Lord Protector, the member who had nominated Ryland, rose
and informed us that this candidate had resigned his
pretensions. His information was at first received with silence;
a confused murmur succeeded; and, when the chairman declared
Lord Raymond duly chosen, it amounted to a shout of applause
and victory. It seemed as if, far from any dread of defeat even
if Mr. Ryland had not resigned, every voice would have been
united in favour of our candidate. In fact, now that the idea of
contest was dismissed, all hearts returned to their former
respect and admiration of our accomplished friend. Each felt,
that England had never seen a Protector so capable of
fulfilling the arduous duties of that high office. One voice
made of many voices, resounded through the chamber; it
syllabled the name of Raymond.
He entered. I was on one of the highest seats, and saw him
walk up the passage to the table of the speaker. The native
modesty of his disposition conquered the joy of his triumph. He
looked round timidly; a mist seemed before his eyes. Adrian,
who was beside me, hastened to him, and jumping down the
benches, was at his side in a moment. His appearance re-
animated our friend; and, when he came to speak and act, his
hesitation vanished, and he shone out supreme in majesty and
victory. The former Protector tendered him the oaths, and
presented him with the insignia of office, performing the
ceremonies of installation. The house then dissolved. The chief
members of the state crowded round the new magistrate, and
conducted him to the palace of government. Adrian suddenly
vanished; and, by the time that Raymond's supporters were
reduced to our intimate friends merely, returned leading Idris
to congratulate her friend on his success.
But where was Perdita? In securing solicitously an unobserved
retreat in case of failure, Raymond had forgotten to arrange the
mode by which she was to hear of his success; and she had been
too much agitated to revert to this circumstance. When Idris
entered, so far had Raymond forgotten himself, that he asked
for my sister; one word, which told of her mysterious
disappearance, recalled him. Adrian it is true had already gone
to seek the fugitive, imagining that her tameless anxiety had
led her to the purlieus of the House, and that some sinister
event detained her. But Raymond, without explaining himself,
suddenly quitted us, and in another moment we heard him gallop
down the street, in spite of the wind and rain that scattered
tempest over the earth. We did not know how far he had to go,
and soon separated, supposing that in a short time he would
return to the palace with Perdita, and that they would not be
sorry to find themselves alone.
Perdita had arrived with her child at Dartford, weeping and
inconsolable. She directed everything to be prepared for the
continuance of their journey, and placing her lovely sleeping
charge on a bed, passed several hours in acute suffering.
Sometimes she observed the war of elements, thinking that they
also declared against her, and listened to the pattering of the
rain in gloomy despair. Sometimes she hung over her child,
tracing her resemblance to the father, and fearful lest in after
life she should display the same passions and uncontrollable
impulses, that rendered him unhappy. Again, with a gush of
pride and delight, she marked in the features of her little girl,
the same smile of beauty that often irradiated Raymond's
countenance. The sight of it soothed her. She thought of the
treasure she possessed in the affections of her lord; of his
accomplishments, surpassing those of his contemporaries, his
genius, his devotion to her.--Soon she thought, that all she
possessed in the world, except him, might well be spared, nay,
given with delight, a propitiatory offering, to secure the
supreme good she retained in him. Soon she imagined, that fate
demanded this sacrifice from her, as a mark she was devoted to
Raymond, and that it must be made with cheerfulness. She
figured to herself their life in the Greek isle he had selected
for their retreat; her task of soothing him; her cares for the
beauteous Clara, her rides in his company, her dedication of
herself to his consolation. The picture then presented itself to
her in such glowing colours, that she feared the reverse, and a
life of magnificence and power in London; where Raymond would
no longer be hers only, nor she the sole source of happiness to
him. So far as she merely was concerned, she began to hope for
defeat; and it was only on his account that her feelings
vacillated, as she heard him gallop into the court-yard of the
inn. That he should come to her alone, wetted by the storm,
careless of every thing except speed, what else could it mean,
than that, vanquished and solitary, they were to take their way
from native England, the scene of shame, and hide themselves in
the myrtle groves of the Grecian isles?
In a moment she was in his arms. The knowledge of his
success had become so much a part of himself, that he forgot
that it was necessary to impart it to his companion. She only
felt in his embrace a dear assurance that while he possessed
her, he would not despair. "This is kind," she cried; "this is
noble, my own beloved! O fear not disgrace or lowly fortune,
while you have your Perdita; fear not sorrow, while our child
lives and smiles. Let us go even where you will; the love that
accompanies us will prevent our regrets."
Locked in his embrace, she spoke thus, and cast back her
head, seeking an assent to her words in his eyes--they were
sparkling with ineffable delight. "Why, my little Lady
Protectress," said he, playfully, "what is this you say? And what
pretty scheme have you woven of exile and obscurity, while a
brighter web, a gold-enwoven tissue, is that which, in truth, you
ought to contemplate?"
He kissed her brow--but the wayward girl, half sorry at his
triumph, agitated by swift change of thought, hid her face in
his bosom and wept. He comforted her; he instilled into her his
own hopes and desires; and soon her countenance beamed with
sympathy. How very happy were they that night! How full even to
bursting was their sense of joy!
HAVING seen our friend properly installed in his new office, we
turned our eyes towards Windsor. The nearness of this place to
London was such, as to take away the idea of painful separation,
when we quitted Raymond and Perdita. We took leave of them in
the Protectoral Palace. It was pretty enough to see my sister
enter as it were into the spirit of the drama, and endeavour to
fill her station with becoming dignity. Her internal pride and
humility of manner were now more than ever at war. Her
timidity was not artificial, but arose from that fear of not
being properly appreciated, that slight estimation of the
neglect of the world, which also characterised Raymond. But
then Perdita thought more constantly of others than he; and
part of her bashfulness arose from a wish to take from those
around her a sense of inferiority; a feeling which never crossed
her mind. From the circumstances of her birth and education,
Idris would have been better fitted for the formulae of
ceremony; but the very ease which accompanied such actions
with her, arising from habit, rendered them tedious; while, with
every drawback, Perdita evidently enjoyed her situation. She was
too full of new ideas to feel much pain when we departed; she
took an affectionate leave of us, and promised to visit us soon;
but she did not regret the circumstances that caused our
separation. The spirits of Raymond were unbounded; he did not
know what to do with his new got power; his head was full of
plans; he had as yet decided on none--but he promised himself,
his friends, and the world, that the era of his Protectorship
should be signalized by some act of surpassing glory.
Thus, we talked of them, and moralized, as with diminished
numbers we returned to Windsor Castle. We felt extreme delight
at our escape from political turmoil, and sought our solitude
with redoubled zest. We did not want for occupation; but my
eager disposition was now turned to the field of intellectual
exertion only; and hard study I found to be an excellent
medicine to allay a fever of spirit with which in indolence, I
should doubtless have been assailed. Perdita had permitted us
to take Clara back with us to Windsor; and she and my two
lovely infants were perpetual sources of interest and
amusement.
The only circumstance that disturbed our peace, was the
health of Adrian. It evidently declined, without any symptom
which could lead us to suspect his disease, unless indeed his
brightened eyes, animated look, and flustering cheeks, made us
dread consumption; but he was without pain or fear. He betook
himself to books with ardour, and reposed from study in the
society he best loved, that of his sister and myself. Sometimes
he went up to London to visit Raymond, and watch the progress
of events. Clara often accompanied him in these excursions;
partly that she might see her parents, partly because Adrian
delighted in the prattle, and intelligent looks of this lovely
child.
Meanwhile all went on well in London. The new elections were
finished; parliament met, and Raymond was occupied in a
thousand beneficial schemes. Canals, aqueducts, bridges, stately
buildings, and various edifices for public utility, were entered
upon; he was continually surrounded by projectors and projects,
which were to render England one scene of fertility and
magnificence; the state of poverty was to be abolished; men
were to be transported from place to place almost with the
same facility as the Princes Houssain, Ali, and Ahmed, in the
Arabian Nights. The physical state of man would soon not yield
to the beatitude of angels; disease was to be banished; labour
lightened of its heaviest burden. Nor did this seem extravagant.
The arts of life, and the discoveries of science had augmented
in a ratio which left all calculation behind; food sprung up, so
to say, spontaneously--machines existed to supply with facility
every want of the population. An evil direction still survived;
and men were not happy, not because they could not, but because
they would not rouse themselves to vanquish self-raised
obstacles. Raymond was to inspire them with his beneficial
will, and the mechanism of society, once systematised according
to faultless rules, would never again swerve into disorder. For
these hopes he abandoned his long-cherished ambition of being
enregistered in the annals of nations as a successful warrior;
laying aside his sword, peace and its enduring glories became
his aim--the title he coveted was that of the benefactor of his
country.
Among other works of art in which he was engaged, he had
projected the erection of a national gallery for statues and
pictures. He possessed many himself, which he designed to
present to the Republic; and, as the edifice was to be the great
ornament of his Protectorship, he was very fastidious in his
choice of the plan on which it would be built. Hundreds were
brought to him and rejected. He sent even to Italy and Greece
for drawings; but, as the design was to be characterised by
originality as well as by perfect beauty, his endeavours were
for a time without avail. At length a drawing came, with an
address where communications might be sent, and no artist's
name affixed. The design was new and elegant, but faulty; so
faulty, that although drawn with the hand and eye of taste, it
was evidently the work of one who was not an architect.
Raymond contemplated it with delight; the more he gazed, the
more pleased he was; and yet the errors multiplied under
inspection. He wrote to the address given, desiring to see the
draughtsman, that such alterations might be made, as should be
suggested in a consultation between him and the original
conceiver.
A Greek came. A middle-aged man, with some intelligence of
manner, but with so common-place a physiognomy, that Raymond
could scarcely believe that he was the designer. He acknowledged
that he was not an architect; but the idea of the building had
struck him, though he had sent it without the smallest hope of
its being accepted. He was a man of few words. Raymond
questioned him; but his reserved answers soon made him turn
from the man to the drawing. He pointed out the errors, and the
alterations that he wished to be made; he offered the Greek a
pencil that he might correct the sketch on the spot; this was
refused by his visitor, who said that he perfectly understood,
and would work at it at home. At length Raymond suffered him
to depart.
The next day he returned. The design had been re-drawn; but
many defects still remained, and several of the instructions
given had been misunderstood. "Come," said Raymond, "I yielded
to you yesterday, now comply with my request--take the pencil."
The Greek took it, but he handled it in no artist-like way; at
length he said: "I must confess to you, my Lord, that I did not
make this drawing. It is impossible for you to see the real
designer; your instructions must pass through me. Condescend
therefore to have patience with my ignorance, and to explain
your wishes to me; in time I am certain that you will be
satisfied."
Raymond questioned vainly; the mysterious Greek would say
no more. Would an architect be permitted to see the artist?
This also was refused. Raymond repeated his instructions, and
the visitor retired. Our friend resolved however not to be
foiled in his wish. He suspected, that unaccustomed poverty was
the cause of the mystery, and that the artist was unwilling to
be seen in the garb and abode of want. Raymond was only the
more excited by this consideration to discover him; impelled
by the interest he took in obscure talent, he therefore ordered
a person skilled in such matters, to follow the Greek the next
time he came, and observe the house in which he should enter.
His emissary obeyed, and brought the desired intelligence. He
had traced the man to one of the most penurious streets in the
metropolis. Raymond did not wonder, that, thus situated, the
artist had shrunk from notice, but he did not for this alter his
resolve.
On the same evening, he went alone to the house named to
him. Poverty, dirt, and squalid misery characterised its
appearance. Alas! thought Raymond, I have much to do before
England becomes a Paradise. He knocked; the door was opened by
a string from above--the broken, wretched staircase was
immediately before him, but no person appeared; he knocked
again, vainly--and then, impatient of further delay, he ascended
the dark, creaking stairs. His main wish, more particularly now
that he witnessed the abject dwelling of the artist, was to
relieve one, possessed of talent, but depressed by want. He
pictured to himself a youth, whose eyes sparkled with genius,
whose person was attenuated by famine. He half feared to
displease him; but he trusted that his generous kindness would
be administered so delicately, as not to excite repulse. What
human heart is shut to kindness? and though poverty, in its
excess, might render the sufferer unapt to submit to the
supposed degradation of a benefit, the zeal of the benefactor
must at last relax him into thankfulness. These thoughts
encouraged Raymond, as he stood at the door of the highest
room of the house. After trying vainly to enter the other
apartments, he perceived just within the threshold of this one,
a pair of small Turkish slippers; the door was ajar, but all was
silent within. It was probable that the inmate was absent, but
secure that he had found the right person, our adventurous
Protector was tempted to enter, to leave a purse on the table,
and silently depart. In pursuance of this idea, he pushed open
the door gently--but the room was inhabited.
Raymond had never visited the dwellings of want, and the
scene that now presented itself struck him to the heart. The
floor was sunk in many places; the walls ragged and bare--the
ceiling weather-stained--a tattered bed stood in the corner;
there were but two chairs in the room, and a rough broken
table, on which was a light in a tin candlestick;--yet in the
midst of such drear and heart sickening poverty, there was an
air of order and cleanliness that surprised him. The thought
was fleeting; for his attention was instantly drawn towards the
inhabitant of this wretched abode. It was a female. She sat at
the table; one small hand shaded her eyes from the candle; the
other held a pencil; her looks were fixed on a drawing before
her, which Raymond recognized as the design presented to him.
Her whole appearance awakened his deepest interest. Her dark
hair was braided and twined in thick knots like the head-dress
of a Grecian statue; her garb was mean, but her attitude might
have been selected as a model of grace. Raymond had a confused
remembrance that he had seen such a form before; he walked
across the room; she did not raise her eyes, merely asking in
Romaic, who is there? "A friend," replied Raymond in the same
dialect. She looked up wondering, and he saw that it was Evadne
Zaimi. Evadne, once the idol of Adrian's affections; and who,
for the sake of her present visitor, had disdained the noble
youth, and then, neglected by him she loved, with crushed hopes
and a stinging sense of misery, had returned to her native
Greece. What revolution of fortune could have brought her to
England, and housed her thus?
Raymond recognized her; and his manner changed from polite
beneficence to the warmest protestations of kindness and
sympathy. The sight of her, in her present situation, passed
like an arrow into his soul. He sat by her, he took her hand,
and said a thousand things which breathed the deepest spirit of
compassion and affection. Evadne did not answer; her large dark
eyes were cast down, at length a tear glimmered on the lashes.
"Thus," she cried, "kindness can do, what no want, no misery
ever effected; I weep." She shed indeed many tears; her head
sunk unconsciously on the shoulder of Raymond; he held her
hand: he kissed her sunken tear-stained cheek. He told her, that
her sufferings were now over: no one possessed the art of
consoling like Raymond; he did not reason or declaim, but his
look shone with sympathy; he brought pleasant images before
the sufferer; his caresses excited no distrust, for they arose
purely from the feeling which leads a mother to kiss her
wounded child; a desire to demonstrate in every possible way
the truth of his feelings, and the keenness of his wish to pour
balm into the lacerated mind of the unfortunate.
As Evadne regained her composure, his manner became even
gay; he sported with the idea of her poverty. Something told
him that it was not its real evils that lay heavily at her
heart, but the debasement and disgrace attendant on it; as he
talked, he divested it of these; sometimes speaking of her
fortitude with energetic praise; then, alluding to her past
state, he called her his Princess in disguise. He made her warm
offers of service; she was too much occupied by more engrossing
thoughts, either to accept or reject them; at length he left
her, making a promise to repeat his visit the next day. He
returned home, full of mingled feelings, of pain excited by
Evadne's wretchedness, and pleasure at the prospect of relieving
it. Some motive for which he did not account, even to himself,
prevented him from relating his adventure to Perdita.
The next day he threw such disguise over his person as a
cloak afforded, and revisited Evadne. As he went, he bought a
basket of costly fruits, such as were natives of her own country,
and throwing over these various beautiful flowers, bore it
himself to the miserable garret of his friend. "Behold," cried
he, as he entered, "what bird's food I have brought for my
sparrow on the house-top."
Evadne now related the tale of her misfortunes. Her father,
though of high rank, had in the end dissipated his fortune, and
even destroyed his reputation and influence through a course of
dissolute indulgence. His health was impaired beyond hope of
cure; and it became his earnest wish, before he died, to
preserve his daughter from the poverty which would be the
portion of her orphan state. He therefore accepted for her, and
persuaded her to accede to, a proposal of marriage, from a
wealthy Greek merchant settled at Constantinople. She quitted
her native Greece; her father died; by degrees she was cut off
from all the companions and ties of her youth.
The war, which about a year before the present time had
broken out between Greece and Turkey, brought about many
reverses of fortune. Her husband became bankrupt, and then in a
tumult and threatened massacre on the part of the Turks, they
were obliged to fly at midnight, and reached in an open boat an
English vessel under sail, which brought them immediately to
this island. The few jewels they had saved, supported them
awhile. The whole strength of Evadne's mind was exerted to
support the failing spirits of her husband. Loss of property,
hopelessness as to his future prospects, the inoccupation to
which poverty condemned him, combined to reduce him to a
state bordering on insanity. Five months after their arrival in
England, he committed suicide.
"You will ask me," continued Evadne, "what I have done since;
why I have not applied for succour to the rich Greeks resident
here; why I have not returned to my native country? My answer
to these questions must needs appear to you unsatisfactory, yet
they have sufficed to lead me on, day after day, enduring every
wretchedness, rather than by such means to seek relief. Shall
the daughter of the noble, though prodigal Zaimi, appear a
beggar before her compeers or inferiors--superiors she had
none. Shall I bow my head before them, and with servile gesture
sell my nobility for life? Had I a child, or any tie to bind me
to existence, I might descend to this--but, as it is--the world
has been to me a harsh step-mother; fain would I leave the
abode she seems to grudge, and in the grave forget my pride, my
struggles, my despair. The time will soon come; grief and
famine have already sapped the foundations of my being; a very
short time, and I shall have passed away; unstained by the
crime of self-destruction, unstung by the memory of
degradation, my spirit will throw aside the miserable coil, and
find such recompense as fortitude and resignation may deserve.
This may seem madness to you, yet you also have pride and
resolution; do not then wonder that my pride is tameless, my
resolution unalterable."
Having thus finished her tale, and given such an account as
she deemed fit, of the motives of her abstaining from all
endeavour to obtain aid from her countrymen, Evadne paused;
yet she seemed to have more to say, to which she was unable to
give words. In the mean time Raymond was eloquent. His desire
of restoring his lovely friend to her rank in society, and to
her lost prosperity, animated him, and he poured forth with
energy, all his wishes and intentions on that subject. But he
was checked; Evadne exacted a promise, that he should conceal
from all her friends her existence in England. "The relatives of
the Earl of Windsor," said she haughtily, "doubtless think that
I injured him; perhaps the Earl himself would be the first to
acquit me, but probably I do not deserve acquittal. I acted
then, as I ever must, from impulse. This abode of penury may at
least prove the disinterestedness of my conduct. No matter: I
do not wish to plead my cause before any of them, not even
before your Lordship, had you not first discovered me. The
tenor of my actions will prove that I had rather die, than be a
mark for scorn--behold the proud Evadne in her tatters! look
on the beggar-princess! There is aspic venom in the thought--
promise me that my secret shall not be violated by you."
Raymond promised; but then a new discussion ensued. Evadne
required another engagement on his part, that he would not
without her concurrence enter into any project for her benefit,
nor himself offer relief. "Do not degrade me in my own eyes,"
she said; "poverty has long been my nurse; hard-visaged she is,
but honest. If dishonour, or what I conceive to be dishonour,
come near me, I am lost." Raymond adduced many arguments and
fervent persuasions to overcome her feeling, but she remained
unconvinced; and, agitated by the discussion, she wildly and
passionately made a solemn vow, to fly and hide herself where
he never could discover her, where famine would soon bring
death to conclude her woes, if he persisted in his to her
disgracing offers. She could support herself, she said. And then
she showed him how, by executing various designs and paintings,
she earned a pittance for her support. Raymond yielded for the
present. He felt assured, after he had for awhile humoured her
self-will, that in the end friendship and reason would gain the
day.
But the feelings that actuated Evadne were rooted in the
depths of her being, and were such in their growth as he had no
means of understanding. Evadne loved Raymond. He was the hero
of her imagination, the image carved by love in the unchanged
texture of her heart. Seven years ago, in her youthful prime,
she had become attached to him; he had served her country
against the Turks; he had in her own land acquired that
military glory peculiarly dear to the Greeks, since they were
still obliged inch by inch to fight for their security. Yet when
he returned thence, and first appeared in public life in England,
her love did not purchase his, which then vacillated between
Perdita and a crown. While he was yet undecided, she had quitted
England; the news of his marriage reached her, and her hopes,
poorly nurtured blossoms, withered and fell. The glory of life
was gone for her; the roseate halo of love, which had imbued
every object with its own colour, faded;--she was content to
take life as it was, and to make the best of leaden-coloured
reality. She married; and, carrying her restless energy of
character with her into new scenes, she turned her thoughts to
ambition, and aimed at the title and power of Princess of
Wallachia; while her patriotic feelings were soothed by the idea
of the good she might do her country, when her husband should
be chief of this principality. She lived to find ambition, as
unreal a delusion as love. Her intrigues with Russia for the
furtherance of her object, excited the jealousy of the Porte,
and the animosity of the Greek government. She was considered
a traitor by both, the ruin of her husband followed; they
avoided death by a timely flight, and she fell from the height
of her desires to penury in England. Much of this tale she
concealed from Raymond; nor did she confess, that repulse and
denial, as to a criminal convicted of the worst of crimes, that
of bringing the scythe of foreign despotism to cut away the new
springing liberties of her country, would have followed her
application to any among the Greeks.
She knew that she was the cause of her husband's utter ruin;
and she strung herself to bear the consequences. The reproaches
which agony extorted; or worse, cureless, uncomplaining
depression, when his mind was sunk in a torpor, not the less
painful because it was silent and moveless. She reproached
herself with the crime of his death; guilt and its punishments
appeared to surround her; in vain she endeavoured to allay
remorse by the memory of her real integrity; the rest of the
world, and she among them, judged of her actions, by their
consequences. She prayed for her husband's soul; she conjured
the Supreme to place on her head the crime of his self-
destruction--she vowed to live to expiate his fault.
In the midst of such wretchedness as must soon have
destroyed her, one thought only was matter of consolation. She
lived in the same country, breathed the same air as Raymond.
His name as Protector was the burthen of every tongue; his
achievements, projects, and magnificence, the argument of every
story. Nothing is so precious to a woman's heart as the glory
and excellence of him she loves; thus in every horror Evadne
revelled in his fame and prosperity. While her husband lived,
this feeling was regarded by her as a crime, repressed, repented
of. When he died, the tide of love resumed its ancient flow, it
deluged her soul with its tumultuous waves, and she gave herself
up a prey to its uncontrollable power.
But never, O, never, should he see her in her degraded state.
Never should he behold her fallen, as she deemed, from her
pride of beauty, the poverty-stricken inhabitant of a garret,
with a name which had become a reproach, and a weight of guilt
on her soul. But though impenetrably veiled from him, his
public office permitted her to become acquainted with all his
actions, his daily course of life, even his conversation. She
allowed herself one luxury, she saw the newspapers every day,
and feasted on the praise and actions of the Protector. Not that
this indulgence was devoid of accompanying grief. Perdita's
name was for ever joined with his; their conjugal felicity was
celebrated even by the authentic testimony of facts. They were
continually together, nor could the unfortunate Evadne read the
monosyllable that designated his name, without, at the same
time, being presented with the image of her who was the
faithful companion of all his labours and pleasures. They, their
Excellencies, met her eyes in each line, mingling an evil
potion that poisoned her very blood.
It was in the newspaper that she saw the advertisement for
the design for a national gallery. Combining with taste her
remembrance of the edifices which she had seen in the east, and
by an effort of genius enduing them with unity of design, she
executed the plan which had been sent to the Protector. She
triumphed in the idea of bestowing, unknown and forgotten as
she was, a benefit upon him she loved; and with enthusiastic
pride looked forward to the accomplishment of a work of hers,
which, immortalized in stone, would go down to posterity
stamped with the name of Raymond. She awaited with eagerness
the return of her messenger from the palace; she listened
insatiate to his account of each word, each look of the
Protector; she felt bliss in this communication with her
beloved, although he knew not to whom he addressed his
instructions. The drawing itself became ineffably dear to her.
He had seen it, and praised it; it was again retouched by her,
each stroke of her pencil was as a chord of thrilling music, and
bore to her the idea of a temple raised to celebrate the
deepest and most unutterable emotions of her soul. These
contemplations engaged her, when the voice of Raymond first
struck her ear, a voice, once heard, never to be forgotten; she
mastered her gush of feelings, and welcomed him with quiet
gentleness.
Pride and tenderness now struggled, and at length made a
compromise together. She would see Raymond, since destiny had
led him to her, and her constancy and devotion must merit his
friendship. But her rights with regard to him, and her cherished
independence, should not be injured by the idea of interest, or
the intervention of the complicated feelings attendant on
pecuniary obligation, and the relative situations of the
benefactor, and benefited. Her mind was of uncommon strength;
she could subdue her sensible wants to her mental wishes, and
suffer cold, hunger and misery, rather than concede to fortune a
contested point. Alas! that in human nature such a pitch of
mental discipline, and disdainful negligence of nature itself,
should not have been allied to the extreme of moral
excellence! But the resolution that permitted her to resist the
pains of privation, sprung from the too great energy of her
passions; and the concentrated self-will of which this was a
sign, was destined to destroy even the very idol, to preserve
whose respect she submitted to this detail of wretchedness.
Their intercourse continued. By degrees Evadne related to her
friend the whole of her story, the stain her name had received
in Greece, the weight of sin which had accrued to her from the
death of her husband. When Raymond offered to clear her
reputation, and demonstrate to the world her real patriotism,
she declared that it was only through her present sufferings
that she hoped for any relief to the stings of conscience; that,
in her state of mind, diseased as he might think it, the
necessity of occupation was salutary medicine; she ended by
extorting a promise that for the space of one month he would
refrain from the discussion of her interests, engaging after
that time to yield in part to his wishes. She could not disguise
to herself that any change would separate her from him; now
she saw him each day. His connection with Adrian and Perdita
was never mentioned; he was to her a meteor, a companionless
star, which at its appointed hour rose in her hemisphere, whose
appearance brought felicity, and which, although it set, was
never eclipsed. He came each day to her abode of penury, and his
presence transformed it to a temple redolent with sweets,
radiant with heaven's own light; he partook of her delirium.
"They built a wall between them and the world"---- Without, a
thousand harpies raved, remorse and misery, expecting the
destined moment for their invasion. Within, was the peace as of
innocence, reckless blindness, deluding joy, hope, whose still
anchor rested on placid but unconstant water.
Thus, while Raymond had been wrapt in visions of power and
fame, while he looked forward to entire dominion over the
elements and the mind of man, the territory of his own heart
escaped his notice; and from that unthought of source arose the
mighty torrent that overwhelmed his will, and carried to the
oblivious sea, fame, hope, and happiness.
During the first months of his Protectorate, Raymond and she
had been inseparable; each project was discussed with her, each
plan approved by her. I never beheld any one so perfectly happy
as my sweet sister. Her expressive eyes were two stars whose
beams were love; hope and light-heartedness sat on her
cloudless brow. She fed even to tears of joy on the praise and
glory of her Lord; her whole existence was one sacrifice to him,
and if in the humility of her heart she felt self-complacency,
it arose from the reflection that she had won the distinguished
hero of the age, and had for years preserved him, even after
time had taken from love its usual nourishment. Her own
feeling was as entire as at its birth. Five years had failed to
destroy the dazzling unreality of passion. Most men ruthlessly
destroy the sacred veil, with which the female heart is wont to
adorn the idol of its affections. Not so Raymond; he was an
enchanter, whose reign was for ever undiminished; a king whose
power never was suspended: follow him through the details of
common life, still the same charm of grace and majesty
adorned him; nor could he be despoiled of the innate
deification with which nature had invested him. Perdita grew in
beauty and excellence under his eye; I no longer recognised my
reserved abstracted sister in the fascinating and open-hearted
wife of Raymond. The genius that enlightened her countenance,
was now united to an expression of benevolence, which gave
divine perfection to her beauty.
Happiness is in its highest degree the sister of goodness.
Suffering and amiability may exist together, and writers have
loved to depict their conjunction; there is a human and
touching harmony in the picture. But perfect happiness is an
attribute of angels; and those who possess it, appear angelic.
Fear has been said to be the parent of religion: even of that
religion is it the generator, which leads its votaries to
sacrifice human victims at its altars; but the religion which
springs from happiness is a lovelier growth; the religion which
makes the heart breathe forth fervent thanksgiving, and causes
us to pour out the overflowings of the soul before the author
of our being; that which is the parent of the imagination and
the nurse of poetry; that which bestows benevolent intelligence
on the visible mechanism of the world, and makes earth a
temple with heaven for its cope. Such happiness, goodness, and
religion inhabited the mind of Perdita.
During the five years we had spent together, a knot of happy
human beings at Windsor Castle, her blissful lot had been the
frequent theme of my sister's conversation. From early habit,
and natural affection, she selected me in preference to Adrian
or Idris, to be the partner in her overflowings of delight;
perhaps, though apparently much unlike, some secret point of
resemblance, the offspring of consanguinity, induced this
preference. Often at sunset, I have walked with her, in the
sober, enshadowed forest paths, and listened with joyful
sympathy. Security gave dignity to her passion; the certainty of
a full return, left her with no wish unfulfilled. The birth of
her daughter, embryo copy of her Raymond, filled up the
measure of her content, and produced a sacred and indissoluble
tie between them. Sometimes she felt proud that he had
preferred her to the hopes of a crown. Sometimes she
remembered that she had suffered keen anguish, when he
hesitated in his choice. But this memory of past discontent
only served to enhance her present joy. What had been hardly
won, was now, entirely possessed, doubly dear. She would look at
him at a distance with the same rapture, (O, far more exuberant
rapture!) that one might feel, who after the perils of a
tempest, should find himself in the desired port; she would
hasten towards him, to feel more certain in his arms, the
reality of her bliss. This warmth of affection, added to the
depth of her understanding, and the brilliancy of her
imagination, made her beyond words dear to Raymond.
If a feeling of dissatisfaction ever crossed her, it arose
from the idea that he was not perfectly happy. Desire of
renown, and presumptuous ambition, had characterised his youth.
The one he had acquired in Greece; the other he had sacrificed
to love. His intellect found sufficient field for exercise in his
domestic circle, whose members, all adorned by refinement and
literature, were many of them, like himself, distinguished by
genius. Yet active life was the genuine soil for his virtues; and
he sometimes suffered tedium from the monotonous succession
of events in our retirement. Pride made him recoil from
complaint; and gratitude and affection to Perdita, generally
acted as an opiate to all desire, save that of meriting her
love. We all observed the visitation of these feelings, and none
regretted them so much as Perdita. Her life consecrated to him,
was a slight sacrifice to reward his choice, but was not that
sufficient--Did he need any gratification that she was unable to
bestow? This was the only cloud in the azure of her happiness.
His passage to power had been full of pain to both. He
however attained his wish; he filled the situation for which
nature seemed to have moulded him. His activity was fed in
wholesome measure, without either exhaustion or satiety; his
taste and genius found worthy expression in each of the modes
human beings have invented to encage and manifest the spirit of
beauty; the goodness of his heart made him never weary of
conducing to the well-being of his fellow-creatures; his
magnificent spirit, and aspirations for the respect and love of
mankind, now received fruition; true, his exaltation was
temporary; perhaps it were better that it should be so. Habit
would not dull his sense of the enjoyment of power; nor
struggles, disappointment and defeat await the end of that
which would expire at its maturity. He determined to extract
and condense all of glory, power, and achievement, which might
have resulted from a long reign, into the three years of his
Protectorate.
Raymond was eminently social. All that he now enjoyed would
have been devoid of pleasure to him, had it been unparticipated.
But in Perdita he possessed all that his heart could desire. Her
love gave birth to sympathy; her intelligence made her
understand him at a word; her powers of intellect enabled her
to assist and guide him. He felt her worth. During the early
years of their union, the inequality of her temper, and yet
unsubdued self-will which tarnished her character, had been a
slight drawback to the fullness of his sentiment. Now that
unchanged serenity, and gentle compliance were added to her
other qualifications, his respect equalled his love. Years added
to the strictness of their union. They did not now guess at, and
totter on the pathway, divining the mode to please, hoping, yet
fearing the continuance of bliss. Five years gave a sober
certainty to their emotions, though it did not rob them of
their ethereal nature. It had given them a child; but it had not
detracted from the personal attractions of my sister. Timidity,
which in her had almost amounted to awkwardness, was exchanged
for a graceful decision of manner; frankness, instead of reserve,
characterised her physiognomy; and her voice was attuned to
thrilling softness. She was now three and twenty, in the pride
of womanhood, fulfilling the precious duties of wife and
mother, possessed of all her heart had ever coveted. Raymond
was ten years older; to his previous beauty, noble mien, and
commanding aspect, he now added gentlest benevolence, winning
tenderness, graceful and unwearied attention to the wishes of
another.
The first secret that had existed between them was the visits
of Raymond to Evadne. He had been struck by the fortitude and
beauty of the ill-fated Greek; and, when her constant tenderness
towards him unfolded itself, he asked with astonishment, by
what act of his he had merited this passionate and unrequited
love. She was for a while the sole object of his reveries; and
Perdita became aware that his thoughts and time were bestowed
on a subject unparticipated by her. My sister was by nature
destitute of the common feelings of anxious, petulant jealousy.
The treasure which she possessed in the affections of Raymond,
was more necessary to her being, than the life-blood that
animated her veins--more truly than Othello she might say,
To be once in doubt,
Is--once to be resolved.
On the present occasion she did not suspect any alienation of
affection; but she conjectured that some circumstance
connected with his high place, had occasioned this mystery. She
was startled and pained. She began to count the long days, and
months, and years which must elapse, before he would be
restored to a private station, and unreservedly to her. She was
not content that, even for a time, he should practice
concealment with her. She often repined; but her trust in the
singleness of his affection was undisturbed; and, when they were
together, unchecked by fear, she opened her heart to the fullest
delight.
Time went on. Raymond, stopping mid-way in his wild career,
paused suddenly to think of consequences. Two results presented
themselves in the view he took of the future. That his
intercourse with Evadne should continue a secret to, or that
finally it should be discovered by Perdita. The destitute
condition, and highly wrought feelings of his friend prevented
him from adverting to the possibility of exiling himself from
her. In the first event he had bidden an eternal farewell to
open-hearted converse, and entire sympathy with the companion
of his life. The veil must be thicker than that invented by
Turkish jealousy; the wall higher than the unscaleable tower of
Vathek, which should conceal from her the workings of his
heart, and hide from her view the secret of his actions. This
idea was intolerably painful to him. Frankness and social
feelings were the essence of Raymond's nature; without them
his qualities became common-place; without these to spread
glory over his intercourse with Perdita, his vaunted exchange of
a throne for her love, was as weak and empty as the rainbow
hues which vanish when the sun is down. But there was no
remedy. Genius, devotion, and courage; the adornments of his
mind, and the energies of his soul, all exerted to their
uttermost stretch, could not roll back one hair's breadth the
wheel of time's chariot; that which had been was written with
the adamantine pen of reality, on the everlasting volume of the
past; nor could agony and tears suffice to wash out one iota
from the act fulfilled.
But this was the best side of the question. What, if
circumstance should lead Perdita to suspect, and suspecting to
be resolved? The fibres of his frame became relaxed, and cold
dew stood on his forehead, at this idea. Many men may scoff at
his dread; but he read the future; and the peace of Perdita was
too dear to him, her speechless agony too certain, and too
fearful, not to unman him. His course was speedily decided
upon. If the worst befell; if she learnt the truth, he would
neither stand her reproaches, or the anguish of her altered
looks. He would forsake her, England, his friends, the scenes of
his youth, the hopes of coming time, he would seek another
country, and in other scenes begin life again. Having resolved
on this, he became calmer. He endeavoured to guide with
prudence the steeds of destiny through the devious road which
he had chosen, and bent all his efforts the better to conceal
what he could not alter.
The perfect confidence that subsisted between Perdita and
him, rendered every communication common between them. They
opened each other's letters, even as, until now, the inmost fold
of the heart of each was disclosed to the other. A letter came
unawares, Perdita read it. Had it contained confirmation, she
must have been annihilated. As it was, trembling, cold, and
pale, she sought Raymond. He was alone, examining some
petitions lately presented. She entered silently, sat on a sofa
opposite to him, and gazed on him with a look of such despair,
that wildest shrieks and dire moans would have been tame
exhibitions of misery, compared to the living incarnation of
the thing itself exhibited by her.
At first he did not take his eyes from the papers; when he
raised them, he was struck by the wretchedness manifest on her
altered cheek; for a moment he forgot his own acts and fears,
and asked with consternation--"Dearest girl, what is the
matter; what has happened?"
"Nothing," she replied at first; "and yet not so," she
continued, hurrying on in her speech; "you have secrets,
Raymond; where have you been lately, whom have you seen, what
do you conceal from me?--why am I banished from your
confidence? Yet this is not it--I do not intend to entrap you
with questions--one will suffice--am I completely a wretch?"
With trembling hand she gave him the paper, and sat white
and motionless looking at him while he read it. He recognised
the hand-writing of Evadne, and the colour mounted in his
cheeks. With lightning-speed he conceived the contents of the
letter; all was now cast on one die; falsehood and artifice were
trifles in comparison with the impending ruin. He would either
entirely dispel Perdita's suspicions, or quit her for ever. "My
dear girl," he said, "I have been to blame; but you must pardon
me. I was in the wrong to commence a system of concealment;
but I did it for the sake of sparing you pain; and each day has
rendered it more difficult for me to alter my plan. Besides, I
was instigated by delicacy towards the unhappy writer of these
few lines."
Perdita gasped: "Well," she cried, "well, go on!"
"That is all--this paper tells all. I am placed in the most
difficult circumstances. I have done my best, though perhaps I
have done wrong. My love for you is inviolate."
Perdita shook her head doubtingly: "It cannot be," she cried,
"I know that it is not. You would deceive me, but I will not be
deceived. I have lost you, myself, my life!"
"Do you not believe me?" said Raymond haughtily.
"To believe you," she exclaimed, "I would give up all, and
expire with joy, so that in death I could feel that you were
true--but that cannot be!"
"Perdita," continued Raymond, "you do not see the precipice
on which you stand. You may believe that I did not enter on my
present line of conduct without reluctance and pain. I knew that
it was possible that your suspicions might be excited; but I
trusted that my simple word would cause them to disappear. I
built my hope on your confidence. Do you think that I will be
questioned, and my replies disdainfully set aside? Do you think
that I will be suspected, perhaps watched, cross-questioned, and
disbelieved? I am not yet fallen so low; my honour is not yet
so tarnished. You have loved me; I adored you. But all human
sentiments come to an end. Let our affection expire--but let it
not be exchanged for distrust and recrimination. Heretofore we
have been friends--lovers--let us not become enemies, mutual
spies. I cannot live the object of suspicion--you cannot believe
me--let us part!"
"Exactly so," cried Perdita, "I knew that it would come to
this! Are we not already parted? Does not a stream, boundless
as ocean, deep as vacuum, yawn between us?"
Raymond rose, his voice was broken, his features convulsed,
his manner calm as the earthquake-cradling atmosphere, he
replied: "I am rejoiced that you take my decision so
philosophically. Doubtless you will play the part of the
injured wife to admiration. Sometimes you may be stung with
the feeling that you have wronged me, but the condolence of
your relatives, the pity of the world, the complacency which
the consciousness of your own immaculate innocence will
bestow, will be excellent balm;--me you will never see more!"
Raymond moved towards the door. He forgot that each word he
spoke was false. He personated his assumption of innocence even
to self-deception. Have not actors wept, as they portrayed
imagined passion? A more intense feeling of the reality of
fiction possessed Raymond. He spoke with pride; he felt injured.
Perdita looked up; she saw his angry glance; his hand was on the
lock of the door. She started up, she threw herself on his neck,
she gasped and sobbed; he took her hand, and leading her to the
sofa, sat down near her. Her head fell on his shoulder, she
trembled, alternate changes of fire and ice ran through her
limbs: observing her emotion he spoke with softened accents:
"The blow is given. I will not part from you in anger;--I owe
you too much. I owe you six years of unalloyed happiness. But
they are passed. I will not live the mark of suspicion, the
object of jealousy. I love you too well. In an eternal
separation only can either of us hope for dignity and propriety
of action. We shall not then be degraded from our true
characters. Faith and devotion have hitherto been the essence
of our intercourse;--these lost, let us not cling to the
seedless husk of life, the unkernelled shell. You have your
child, your brother, Idris, Adrian"----
"And you," cried Perdita, "the writer of that letter."
Uncontrollable indignation flashed from the eyes of
Raymond. He knew that this accusation at least was false.
"Entertain this belief," he cried, "hug it to your heart--make
it a pillow to your head, an opiate for your eyes--I am content.
But, by the God that made me, hell is not more false than the
word you have spoken!"
Perdita was struck by the impassioned seriousness of his
asseverations. She replied with earnestness, "I do not refuse to
believe you, Raymond; on the contrary I promise to put
implicit faith in your simple word. Only assure me that your
love and faith towards me have never been violated; and
suspicion, and doubt, and jealousy will at once be dispersed. We
shall continue as we have ever done, one heart, one hope, one
life."
"I have already assured you of my fidelity," said Raymond
with disdainful coldness, "triple assertions will avail nothing
where one is despised. I will say no more; for I can add nothing
to what I have already said, to what you before contemptuously
set aside. This contention is unworthy of both of us; and I
confess that I am weary of replying to charges at once
unfounded and unkind."
Perdita tried to read his countenance, which he angrily
averted. There was so much of truth and nature in his
resentment, that her doubts were dispelled. Her countenance,
which for years had not expressed a feeling unallied to
affection, became again radiant and satisfied. She found it
however no easy task to soften and reconcile Raymond. At first
he refused to stay to hear her. But she would not be put off;
secure of his unaltered love, she was willing to undertake any
labour, use any entreaty, to dispel his anger. She obtained an
hearing, he sat in haughty silence, but he listened. She first
assured him of her boundless confidence; of this he must be
conscious, since but for that she would not seek to detain him.
She enumerated their years of happiness; she brought before
him past scenes of intimacy and happiness; she pictured their
future life, she mentioned their child--tears unbidden now
filled her eyes. She tried to disperse them, but they refused to
be checked--her utterance was choked. She had not wept before.
Raymond could not resist these signs of distress: he felt
perhaps somewhat ashamed of the part he acted of the injured
man, he who was in truth the injurer. And then he devoutly
loved Perdita; the bend of her head, her glossy ringlets, the
turn of her form were to him subjects of deep tenderness and
admiration; as she spoke, her melodious tones entered his soul;
he soon softened towards her, comforting and caressing her, and
endeavouring to cheat himself into the belief that he had never
wronged her.
Raymond staggered forth from this scene, as a man might do,
who had been just put to the torture, and looked forward to
when it would be again inflicted. He had sinned against his own
honour, by affirming, swearing to, a direct falsehood; true this
he had palmed on a woman, and it might therefore be deemed
less base--by others--not by him;--for whom had he deceived?
--his own trusting, devoted, affectionate Perdita, whose
generous belief galled him doubly, when he remembered the
parade of innocence with which it had been exacted. The mind of
Raymond was not so rough cast, nor had been so rudely handled,
in the circumstance of life, as to make him proof to these
considerations--on the contrary, he was all nerve; his spirit
was as a pure fire, which fades and shrinks from every contagion
of foul atmosphere: but now the contagion had become
incorporated with its essence, and the change was the more
painful. Truth and falsehood, love and hate lost their eternal
boundaries, heaven rushed in to mingle with hell; while his
sensitive mind, turned to a field for such battle, was stung to
madness. He heartily despised himself, he was angry with
Perdita, and the idea of Evadne was attended by all that was
hideous and cruel. His passions, always his masters, acquired
fresh strength, from the long sleep in which love had cradled
them, the clinging weight of destiny bent him down; he was
goaded, tortured, fiercely impatient of that worst of miseries,
the sense of remorse. This troubled state yielded by degrees, to
sullen animosity, and depression of spirits. His dependants,
even his equals, if in his present post he had any, were startled
to find anger, derision, and bitterness in one, before
distinguished for suavity and benevolence of manner. He
transacted public business with distaste, and hastened from it
to the solitude which was at once his bane and relief. He
mounted a fiery horse, that which had borne him forward to
victory in Greece; he fatigued himself with deadening exercise,
losing the pangs of a troubled mind in animal sensation.
He slowly recovered himself; yet, at last, as one might from
the effects of poison, he lifted his head from above the vapours
of fever and passion into the still atmosphere of calm
reflection. He meditated on what was best to be done. He was
first struck by the space of time that had elapsed, since
madness, rather than any reasonable impulse, had regulated his
actions. A month had gone by, and during that time he had not
seen Evadne. Her power, which was linked to few of the enduring
emotions of his heart, had greatly decayed. He was no longer
her slave--no longer her lover: he would never see her more,
and by the completeness of his return, deserve the confidence
of Perdita.
Yet, as he thus determined, fancy conjured up the miserable
abode of the Greek girl. An abode, which from noble and lofty
principle, she had refused to exchange for one of greater
luxury. He thought of the splendour of her situation and
appearance when he first knew her; he thought of her life at
Constantinople, attended by every circumstance of oriental
magnificence; of her present penury, her daily task of industry,
her lorn state, her faded, famine-struck cheek. Compassion
swelled his breast; he would see her once again; he would devise
some plan for restoring her to society, and the enjoyment of
her rank; their separation would then follow, as a matter of
course.
Again he thought, how during this long month, he had avoided
Perdita, flying from her as from the stings of his own
conscience. But he was awake now; all this should be remedied;
and future devotion erase the memory of this only blot on the
serenity of their life. He became cheerful, as he thought of
this, and soberly and resolutely marked out the line of conduct
he would adopt. He remembered that he had promised Perdita to
be present this very evening (the 19th of October, anniversary
of his election as Protector) at a festival given in his honour.
Good augury should this festival be of the happiness of future
years. First, he would look in on Evadne; he would not stay; but
he owed her some account, some compensation for his long and
unannounced absence; and then to Perdita, to the forgotten
world, to the duties of society, the splendour of rank, the
enjoyment of power.
After the scene sketched in the preceding pages, Perdita had
contemplated an entire change in the manners and conduct of
Raymond. She expected freedom of communication, and a return
to those habits of affectionate intercourse which had formed
the delight of her life. But Raymond did not join her in any of
her avocations. He transacted the business of the day apart
from her; he went out, she knew not whither. The pain inflicted
by this disappointment was tormenting and keen. She looked on
it as a deceitful dream, and tried to throw off the
consciousness of it; but like the shirt of Nessus, it clung to
her very flesh, and ate with sharp agony into her vital
principle. She possessed that (though such an assertion may
appear a paradox) which belongs to few, a capacity of happiness.
Her delicate organization and creative imagination rendered her
peculiarly susceptible of pleasurable emotion. The overflowing
warmth of her heart, by making love a plant of deep root and
stately growth, had attuned her whole soul to the reception of
happiness, when she found in Raymond all that could adorn love
and satisfy her imagination. But if the sentiment on which the
fabric of her existence was founded, became common place
through participation, the endless succession of attentions and
graceful action snapped by transfer, his universe of love
wrested from her, happiness must depart, and then be exchanged
for its opposite. The same peculiarities of character rendered
her sorrows agonies; her fancy magnified them, her sensibility
made her for ever open to their renewed impression; love
envenomed the heart-piercing sting. There was neither
submission, patience, nor self-abandonment in her grief; she
fought with it, struggled beneath it, and rendered every pang
more sharp by resistance. Again and again the idea recurred,
that he loved another. She did him justice; she believed that
he felt a tender affection for her; but give a paltry prize to
him who in some life-pending lottery has calculated on the
possession of tens of thousands, and it will disappoint him
more than a blank. The affection and amity of a Raymond might
be inestimable; but, beyond that affection, embosomed deeper
than friendship, was the indivisible treasure of love. Take the
sum in its completeness, and no arithmetic can calculate its
price; take from it the smallest portion, give it but the name
of parts, separate it into degrees and sections, and like the
magician's coin, the valueless gold of the mine, is turned to
vilest substance. There is a meaning in the eye of love; a
cadence in its voice, an irradiation in its smile, the talisman
of whose enchantments one only can possess; its spirit is
elemental, its essence single, its divinity an unit. The very
heart and soul of Raymond and Perdita had mingled, even as two
mountain brooks that join in their descent, and murmuring and
sparkling flow over shining pebbles, beside starry flowers; but
let one desert its primal course, or be dammed up by choking
obstruction, and the other shrinks in its altered banks. Perdita
was sensible of the failing of the tide that fed her life. Unable
to support the slow withering of her hopes, she suddenly formed
a plan, resolving to terminate at once the period of misery,
and to bring to an happy conclusion the late disastrous events.
The anniversary was at hand of the exaltation of Raymond to
the office of Protector; and it was customary to celebrate this
day by a splendid festival. A variety of feelings urged Perdita
to shed double magnificence over the scene; yet, as she arrayed
herself for the evening gala, she wondered herself at the pains
she took, to render sumptuous the celebration of an event which
appeared to her the beginning of her sufferings. Woe befall the
day, she thought, woe, tears, and mourning betide the hour, that
gave Raymond another hope than love, another wish than my
devotion; and thrice joyful the moment when he shall be
restored to me! God knows, I put my trust in his vows, and
believe his asserted faith--but for that, I would not seek what I
am now resolved to attain. Shall two years more be thus passed,
each day adding to our alienation, each act being another stone
piled on the barrier which separates us? No, my Raymond, my
only beloved, sole possession of Perdita! This night, this
splendid assembly, these sumptuous apartments, and this
adornment of your tearful girl, are all united to celebrate your
abdication. Once for me, you relinquished the prospect of a
crown. That was in days of early love, when I could only hold
out the hope, not the assurance of happiness. Now you have the
experience of all that I can give, the heart's devotion,
taintless love, and unhesitating subjection to you. You must
choose between these and your protectorate. This, proud noble,
is your last night! Perdita has bestowed on it all of
magnificent and dazzling that your heart best loves--but, from
these gorgeous rooms, from this princely attendance, from
power and elevation, you must return with to-morrow's sun to
our rural abode; for I would not buy an immortality of joy, by
the endurance of one more week sister to the last.
Brooding over this plan, resolved when the hour should come,
to propose, and insist upon its accomplishment, secure of his
consent, the heart of Perdita was lightened, or rather exalted.
Her cheek was flushed by the expectation of struggle; her eyes
sparkled with the hope of triumph. Having cast her fate upon a
die, and feeling secure of winning, she, whom I have named as
bearing the stamp of queen of nations on her noble brow, now
rose superior to humanity, and seemed in calm power, to arrest
with her finger, the wheel of destiny. She had never before
looked so supremely lovely.
We, the Arcadian shepherds of the tale, had intended to be
present at this festivity, but Perdita wrote to entreat us not
to come, or to absent ourselves from Windsor; for she (though
she did not reveal her scheme to us) resolved the next morning
to return with Raymond to our dear circle, there to renew a
course of life in which she had found entire felicity. Late in
the evening she entered the apartments appropriated to the
festival. Raymond had quitted the palace the night before; he
had promised to grace the assembly, but he had not yet
returned. Still she felt sure that he would come at last; and
the wider the breach might appear at this crisis, the more
secure she was of closing it for ever.
It was as I said, the nineteenth of October; the autumn was
far advanced and dreary. The wind howled; the half bare trees
were despoiled of the remainder of their summer ornament; the
state of the air which induced the decay of vegetation, was
hostile to cheerfulness or hope. Raymond had been exalted by
the determination he had made; but with the declining day his
spirits declined. First he was to visit Evadne, and then to
hasten to the palace of the Protectorate. As he walked through
the wretched streets in the neighbourhood of the luckless
Greek's abode, his heart smote him for the whole course of his
conduct towards her. First, his having entered into any
engagement that should permit her to remain in such a state of
degradation; and then, after a short wild dream, having left her
to drear solitude, anxious conjecture, and bitter, still--
disappointed expectation. What had she done the while, how
supported his absence and neglect? Light grew dim in these
close streets, and when the well known door was opened, the
staircase was shrouded in perfect night. He groped his way up,
he entered the garret, he found Evadne stretched speechless,
almost lifeless on her wretched bed. He called for the people
of the house, but could learn nothing from them, except that
they knew nothing. Her story was plain to him, plain and
distinct as the remorse and horror that darted their fangs into
him. When she found herself forsaken by him, she lost the heart
to pursue her usual avocations; pride forbade every application
to him; famine was welcomed as the kind porter to the gates of
death, within whose opening folds she should now, without sin,
quickly repose. No creature came near her, as her strength
failed.
If she died, where could there be found on record a murderer,
whose cruel act might compare with his? What fiend more
wanton in his mischief, what damned soul more worthy of
perdition! But he was not reserved for this agony of self-
reproach. He sent for medical assistance; the hours passed,
spun by suspense into ages; the darkness of the long autumnal
night yielded to day, before her life was secure. He had her then
removed to a more commodious dwelling, and hovered about her,
again and again to assure himself that she was safe.
In the midst of his greatest suspense and fear as to the
event, he remembered the festival given in his honour, by
Perdita; in his honour then, when misery and death were
affixing indelible disgrace to his name, honour to him whose
crimes deserved a scaffold; this was the worst mockery. Still
Perdita would expect him; he wrote a few incoherent words on a
scrap of paper, testifying that he was well, and bade the woman
of the house take it to the palace, and deliver it into the
hands of the wife of the Lord Protector. The woman, who did not
know him, contemptuously asked, how he thought she should gain
admittance, particularly on a festal night, to that lady's
presence? Raymond gave her his ring to ensure the respect of
the menials. Thus, while Perdita was entertaining her guests,
and anxiously awaiting the arrival of her lord, his ring was
brought her; and she was told that a poor woman had a note to
deliver to her from its wearer.
The vanity of the old gossip was raised by her commission,
which, after all, she did not understand, since she had no
suspicion, even now that Evadne's visitor was Lord Raymond.
Perdita dreaded a fall from his horse, or some similar accident
--till the woman's answers woke other fears. From a feeling of
cunning blindly exercised, the officious, if not malignant
messenger, did not speak of Evadne's illness; but she
garrulously gave an account of Raymond's frequent visits, adding
to her narration such circumstances, as, while they convinced
Perdita of its truth, exaggerated the unkindness and perfidy of
Raymond. Worst of all, his absence now from the festival, his
message wholly unaccounted for, except by the disgraceful hints
of the woman, appeared the deadliest insult. Again she looked
at the ring, it was a small ruby, almost heart-shaped, which she
had herself given him. She looked at the hand-writing, which
she could not mistake, and repeated to herself the words--"Do
not, I charge you, I entreat you, permit your guests to wonder
at my absence:" the while the old crone going on with her talk,
filled her ear with a strange medley of truth and falsehood. At
length Perdita dismissed her.
The poor girl returned to the assembly, where her presence
had not been missed. She glided into a recess somewhat
obscured, and leaning against an ornamental column there
placed, tried to recover herself. Her faculties were palsied. She
gazed on some flowers that stood near in a carved vase: that
morning she had arranged them, they were rare and lovely
plants; even now all aghast as she was, she observed their
brilliant colours and starry shapes.--"Divine infoliations of
the spirit of beauty," she exclaimed, "Ye droop not, neither do
ye mourn; the despair that clasps my heart, has not spread
contagion over you!--Why am I not a partner of your
insensibility, a sharer in your calm!"
She paused. "To my task," she continued mentally, "my guests
must not perceive the reality, either as it regards him or me. I
obey; they shall not, though I die the moment they are gone.
They shall behold the antipodes of what is real--for I will
appear to live--while I am--dead." It required all her self-
command, to suppress the gush of tears self-pity caused at this
idea. After many struggles, she succeeded, and turned to join
the company.
All her efforts were now directed to the dissembling her
internal conflict. She had to play the part of a courteous
hostess; to attend to all; to shine the focus of enjoyment and
grace. She had to do this, while in deep woe she sighed for
loneliness, and would gladly have exchanged her crowded rooms
for dark forest depths, or a drear, night-enshadowed heath. But
she became gay. She could not keep in the medium, nor be, as
was usual with her, placidly content. Every one remarked her
exhilaration of spirits; as all actions appear graceful in the
eye of rank, her guests surrounded her applaudingly, although
there was a sharpness in her laugh, and an abruptness in her
sallies, which might have betrayed her secret to an attentive
observer. She went on, feeling that, if she had paused for a
moment, the checked waters of misery would have deluged her
soul, that her wrecked hopes would raise their wailing voices,
and that those who now echoed her mirth, and provoked her
repartees, would have shrunk in fear from her convulsive
despair. Her only consolation during the violence which she did
herself, was to watch the motions of an illuminated clock, and
internally count the moments which must elapse before she
could be alone.
At length the rooms began to thin. Mocking her own desires,
she rallied her guests on their early departure. One by one they
left her--at length she pressed the hand of her last visitor.
"How cold and damp your hand is," said her friend; "you are over
fatigued, pray hasten to rest." Perdita smiled faintly--her
guest left her; the carriage rolling down the street assured the
final departure. Then, as if pursued by an enemy, as if wings had
been at her feet, she flew to her own apartment, she dismissed
her attendants, she locked the doors, she threw herself wildly
on the floor, she bit her lips even to blood to suppress her
shrieks, and lay long a prey to the vulture of despair, striving
not to think, while multitudinous ideas made a home of her
heart; and ideas, horrid as furies, cruel as vipers, and poured in
with such swift succession, that they seemed to jostle and
wound each other, while they worked her up to madness.
At length she rose, more composed, not less miserable. She
stood before a large mirror--she gazed on her reflected image;
her light and graceful dress, the jewels that studded her hair,
and encircled her beauteous arms and neck, her small feet shod
in satin, her profuse and glossy tresses, all were to her clouded
brow and woe-begone countenance like a gorgeous frame to a
dark tempest-portraying picture. "Vase am I," she thought,
"vase brimful of despair's direst essence. Farewell, Perdita!
farewell, poor girl! never again will you see yourself thus;
luxury and wealth are no longer yours; in the excess of your
poverty you may envy the homeless beggar; most truly am I
without a home! I live on a barren desert, which, wide and
interminable, brings forth neither fruit or flower; in the
midst is a solitary rock, to which thou, Perdita, art chained,
and thou seest the dreary level stretch far away."
She threw open her window, which looked on the palace-
garden. Light and darkness were struggling together, and the
orient was streaked by roseate and golden rays. One star only
trembled in the depth of the kindling atmosphere. The morning
air blowing freshly over the dewy plants, rushed into the heated
room. "All things go on," thought Perdita, "all things proceed,
decay, and perish! When noontide has passed, and the weary day
has driven her team to their western stalls, the fires of heaven
rise from the East, moving in their accustomed path, they
ascend and descend the skiey hill. When their course is
fulfilled, the dial begins to cast westward an uncertain shadow;
the eye-lids of day are opened, and birds and flowers, the
startled vegetation, and fresh breeze awaken; the sun at length
appears, and in majestic procession climbs the capitol of
heaven. All proceeds, changes and dies, except the sense of
misery in my bursting heart.
"Ay, all proceeds and changes: what wonder then, that love
has journeyed on to its setting, and that the lord of my life
has changed? We call the supernal lights fixed, yet they wander
about yonder plain, and if I look again where I looked an hour
ago, the face of the eternal heavens is altered. The silly moon
and inconstant planets vary nightly their erratic dance; the sun
itself, sovereign of the sky, ever and anon deserts his throne,
and leaves his dominion to night and winter. Nature grows old,
and shakes in her decaying limbs,--creation has become
bankrupt! What wonder then, that eclipse and death have led to
destruction the light of thy life, O Perdita!"
THUS sad and disarranged were the thoughts of my poor sister,
when she became assured of the infidelity of Raymond. All her
virtues and all her defects tended to make the blow incurable.
Her affection for me, her brother, for Adrian and Idris, was
subject as it were to the reigning passion of her heart; even
her maternal tenderness borrowed half its force from the
delight she had in tracing Raymond's features and expression in
the infant's countenance. She had been reserved and even stern
in childhood; but love had softened the asperities of her
character, and her union with Raymond had caused her talents
and affections to unfold themselves; the one betrayed, and the
other lost, she in some degree returned to her ancient
disposition. The concentrated pride of her nature, forgotten
during her blissful dream, awoke, and with its adder's sting
pierced her heart; her humility of spirit augmented the power
of the venom; she had been exalted in her own estimation,
while distinguished by his love: of what worth was she, now that
he thrust her from this preferment? She had been proud of
having won and preserved him--but another had won him from
her, and her exultation was as cold as a water quenched ember.
We, in our retirement, remained long in ignorance of her
misfortune. Soon after the festival she had sent for her child,
and then she seemed to have forgotten us. Adrian observed a
change during a visit that he afterward paid them; but he could
not tell its extent, or divine the cause. They still appeared in
public together, and lived under the same roof. Raymond was as
usual courteous, though there was, on occasions, an unbidden
haughtiness, or painful abruptness in his manners, which
startled his gentle friend; his brow was not clouded but disdain
sat on his lips, and his voice was harsh. Perdita was all
kindness and attention to her lord; but she was silent, and
beyond words sad. She had grown thin and pale; and her eyes
often filled with tears. Sometimes she looked at Raymond, as if
to say--That it should be so! At others her countenance
expressed--I will still do all I can to make you happy. But
Adrian read with uncertain aim the charactery of her face, and
might mistake.--Clara was always with her, and she seemed most
at ease, when, in an obscure corner, she could sit holding her
child's hand, silent and lonely. Still Adrian was unable to
guess the truth; he entreated them to visit us at Windsor, and
they promised to come during the following month.
It was May before they arrived: the season had decked the
forest trees with leaves, and its paths with a thousand flowers.
We had notice of their intention the day before; and, early in
the morning, Perdita arrived with her daughter. Raymond would
follow soon, she said; he had been detained by business.
According to Adrian's account, I had expected to find her sad;
but, on the contrary, she appeared in the highest spirits: true,
she had grown thin, her eyes were somewhat hollow, and her
cheeks sunk, though tinged by a bright glow. She was delighted
to see us; caressed our children, praised their growth and
improvement; Clara also was pleased to meet again her young
friend Alfred; all kinds of childish games were entered into, in
which Perdita joined. She communicated her gaiety to us, and as
we amused ourselves on the Castle Terrace, it appeared that a
happier, less care-worn party could not have been assembled.
"This is better, Mamma," said Clara, "than being in that dismal
London, where you often cry, and never laugh as you do now."--
"Silence, little foolish thing," replied her mother, "and
remember any one that mentions London is sent to Coventry for
an hour."
Soon after, Raymond arrived. He did not join as usual in the
playful spirit of the rest; but, entering into conversation with
Adrian and myself, by degrees we seceded from our companions,
and Idris and Perdita only remained with the children. Raymond
talked of his new buildings; of his plan for an establishment
for the better education of the poor; as usual Adrian and he
entered into argument, and the time slipped away unperceived.
We assembled again towards evening, and Perdita insisted on
our having recourse to music. She wanted, she said, to give us a
specimen of her new accomplishment; for since she had been in
London, she had applied herself to music, and sang, without
much power, but with a great deal of sweetness. We were not
permitted by her to select any but light-hearted melodies; and
all the Operas of Mozart were called into service, that we
might choose the most exhilarating of his airs. Among the
other transcendent attributes of Mozart's music, it possesses
more than any other that of appearing to come from the heart;
you enter into the passions expressed by him, and are
transported with grief, joy, anger, or confusion, as he, our
soul's master, chooses to inspire. For some time, the spirit of
hilarity was kept up; but, at length, Perdita receded from the
piano, for Raymond had joined in the trio of "Taci ingiusto
core," in Don Giovanni, whose arch entreaty was softened by him
into tenderness, and thrilled her heart with memories of the
changed past; it was the same voice, the same tone, the self-
same sounds and words, which often before she had received, as
the homage of love to her--no longer was it that; and this
concord of sound with its dissonance of expression penetrated
her with regret and despair. Soon after Idris, who was at the
harp, turned to that passionate and sorrowful air in Figaro,
"Porgi, amor, qualche ristoro," in which the deserted Countess
laments the change of the faithless Almaviva. The soul of
tender sorrow is breathed forth in this strain; and the sweet
voice of Idris, sustained by the mournful chords of her
instrument, added to the expression of the words. During the
pathetic appeal with which it concludes, a stifled sob attracted
our attention to Perdita, the cessation of the music recalled
her to herself, she hastened out of the hall--I followed her. At
first, she seemed to wish to shun me; and then, yielding to my
earnest questioning, she threw herself on my neck, and wept
aloud:--"Once more," she cried, "once more on your friendly
breast, my beloved brother, can the lost Perdita pour forth her
sorrows. I had imposed a law of silence on myself; and for
months I have kept it. I do wrong in weeping now, and greater
wrong in giving words to my grief. I will not speak! Be it
enough for you to know that I am miserable--be it enough for
you to know, that the painted veil of life is rent, that I sit
for ever shrouded in darkness and gloom, that grief is my
sister, everlasting lamentation my mate!"
I endeavoured to console her; I did not question her! but I
caressed her, assured her of my deepest affection and my
intense interest in the changes of her fortune:--"Dear words,"
she cried, "expressions of love come upon my ear, like the
remembered sounds of forgotten music, that had been dear to
me. They are vain, I know; how very vain in their attempt to
soothe or comfort me. Dearest Lionel, you cannot guess what I
have suffered during these long months. I have read of mourners
in ancient days, who clothed themselves in sackcloth, scattered
dust upon their heads, ate their bread mingled with ashes, and
took up their abode on the bleak mountain tops, reproaching
heaven and earth aloud with their misfortunes. Why this is the
very luxury of sorrow! thus one might go on from day to day
contriving new extravagances, revelling in the paraphernalia of
woe, wedded to all the appurtenances of despair. Alas! I must
for ever conceal the wretchedness that consumes me. I must
weave a veil of dazzling falsehood to hide my grief from vulgar
eyes, smoothe my brow, and paint my lips in deceitful smiles--
even in solitude I dare not think how lost I am, lest I become
insane and rave."
The tears and agitation of my poor sister had rendered her
unfit to return to the circle we had left--so I persuaded her to
let me drive her through the park; and, during the ride, I
induced her to confide the tale of her unhappiness to me,
fancying that talking of it would lighten the burthen, and
certain that, if there were a remedy, it should be found and
secured to her.
Several weeks had elapsed since the festival of the
anniversary, and she had been unable to calm her mind, or to
subdue her thoughts to any regular train. Sometimes she
reproached herself for taking too bitterly to heart, that which
many would esteem an imaginary evil; but this was no subject
for reason; and, ignorant as she was of the motives and true
conduct of Raymond, things assumed for her even a worse
appearance, than the reality warranted. He was seldom at the
palace; never, but when he was assured that his public duties
would prevent his remaining alone with Perdita. They seldom
addressed each other, shunning explanation, each fearing any
communication the other might make. Suddenly, however, the
manners of Raymond changed; he appeared to desire to find
opportunities of bringing about a return to kindness and
intimacy with my sister. The tide of love towards her appeared
to flow again; he could never forget, how once he had been
devoted to her, making her the shrine and storehouse wherein to
place every thought and every sentiment. Shame seemed to hold
him back; yet he evidently wished to establish a renewal of
confidence and affection. From the moment Perdita had
sufficiently recovered herself to form any plan of action, she
had laid one down, which now she prepared to follow. She
received these tokens of returning love with gentleness; she did
not shun his company; but she endeavoured to place a barrier in
the way of familiar intercourse or painful discussion, which
mingled pride and shame prevented Raymond from surmounting.
He began at last to show signs of angry impatience, and Perdita
became aware that the system she had adopted could not
continue; she must explain herself to him; she could not
summon courage to speak--she wrote thus:--
"Read this letter with patience, I entreat you. It will
contain no reproaches. Reproach is indeed an idle word: for
what should I reproach you?
"Allow me in some degree to explain my feeling; without
that, we shall both grope in the dark, mistaking one another;
erring from the path which may conduct, one of us at least, to
a more eligible mode of life than that led by either during the
last few weeks.
"I loved you--I love you--neither anger nor pride dictates
these lines; but a feeling beyond, deeper, and more unalterable
than either. My affections are wounded; it is impossible to heal
them:--cease then the vain endeavour, if indeed that way your
endeavours tend. Forgiveness! Return! Idle words are these! I
forgive the pain I endure; but the trodden path cannot be
retraced.
"Common affection might have been satisfied with common
usages. I believed that you read my heart, and knew its
devotion, its unalienable fidelity towards you. I never loved any
but you. You came the embodied image of my fondest dreams.
The praise of men, power and high aspirations attended your
career. Love for you invested the world for me in enchanted
light; it was no longer the earth I trod--the earth, common
mother, yielding only trite and stale repetition of objects and
circumstances old and worn out. I lived in a temple glorified
by intensest sense of devotion and rapture; I walked, a
consecrated being, contemplating only your power, your
excellence;
For O, you stood beside me, like my youth,
Transformed for me the real to a dream,
Clothing the palpable and familiar
With golden exhalations of the dawn.
`The bloom has vanished from my life'--there is no morning to
this all investing night; no rising to the set-sun of love. In
those days the rest of the world was nothing to me: all other
men--I never considered nor felt what they were; nor did I look
on you as one of them. Separated from them; exalted in my
heart; sole possessor of my affections; single object of my
hopes, the best half of myself.
"Ah, Raymond, were we not happy? Did the sun shine on any,
who could enjoy its light with purer and more intense bliss? It
was not--it is not a common infidelity at which I repine. It is
the disunion of an whole which may not have parts; it is the
carelessness with which you have shaken off the mantle of
election with which to me you were invested, and have become
one among the many. Dream not to alter this. Is not love a
divinity, because it is immortal? Did not I appear sanctified,
even to myself, because this love had for its temple my heart?
I have gazed on you as you slept, melted even to tears, as the
idea filled my mind, that all I possessed lay cradled in those
idolised, but mortal lineaments before me. Yet, even then, I
have checked thick-coming fears with one thought; I would not
fear death, for the emotions that linked us must be immortal.
"And now I do not fear death. I should be well pleased to
close my eyes, never more to open them again. And yet I fear
it; even as I fear all things; for in any state of being linked
by the chain of memory with this, happiness would not return--
even in Paradise, I must feel that your love was less enduring
than the mortal beatings of my fragile heart, every pulse of
which knells audibly,
The funeral note
Of love, deep buried, without resurrection.
No--no--me miserable; for love extinct there is no
resurrection!
"Yet I love you. Yet, and for ever, would I contribute all I
possess to your welfare. On account of a tattling world; for the
sake of my--of our child, I would remain by you, Raymond, share
your fortunes, partake your counsel. Shall it be thus? We are no
longer lovers; nor can I call myself a friend to any; since,
lost as I am, I have no thought to spare from my own wretched,
engrossing self. But it will please me to see you each day! to
listen to the public voice praising you; to keep up your
paternal love for our girl; to hear your voice; to know that I
am near you, though you are no longer mine.
"If you wish to break the chains that bind us, say the word,
and it shall be done--I will take all the blame on myself, of
harshness or unkindness, in the world's eye.
"Yet, as I have said, I should be best pleased, at least for
the present, to live under the same roof with you. When the
fever of my young life is spent; when placid age shall tame the
vulture that devours me, friendship may come, love and hope
being dead. May this be true? Can my soul, inextricably linked
to this perishable frame, become lethargic and cold, even as
this sensitive mechanism shall lose its youthful elasticity?
Then, with lack-lustre eyes, grey hairs, and wrinkled brow,
though now the words sound hollow and meaningless, then,
tottering on the grave's extreme edge, I may be--your
affectionate and true friend,
"PERDITA."
Raymond's answer was brief. What indeed could he reply to
her complaints, to her griefs which she jealously paled round,
keeping out all thought of remedy. "Notwithstanding your bitter
letter," he wrote, "for bitter I must call it, you are the chief
person in my estimation, and it is your happiness that I would
principally consult. Do that which seems best to you: and if
you can receive gratification from one mode of life in
preference to another, do not let me be any obstacle. I foresee
that the plan which you mark out in your letter will not endure
long; but you are mistress of yourself, and it is my sincere
wish to contribute as far as you will permit me to your
happiness."
"Raymond has prophesied well," said Perdita, "alas, that it
should be so! our present mode of life cannot continue long,
yet I will not be the first to propose alteration. He beholds in
me one whom he has injured even unto death; and I derive no
hope from his kindness; no change can possibly be brought
about even by his best intentions. As well might Cleopatra have
worn as an ornament the vinegar which contained her dissolved
pearl, as I be content with the love that Raymond can now offer
me."
I own that I did not see her misfortune with the same eyes
as Perdita. At all events methought that the wound could be
healed; and, if they remained together, it would be so. I
endeavoured therefore to sooth and soften her mind; and it was
not until after many endeavours that I gave up the task as
impracticable. Perdita listened to me impatiently, and answered
with some asperity:--"Do you think that any of your arguments
are new to me? or that my own burning wishes and intense
anguish have not suggested them all a thousand times, with far
more eagerness and subtlety than you can put into them?
Lionel, you cannot understand what woman's love is. In days of
happiness I have often repeated to myself, with a grateful heart
and exulting spirit, all that Raymond sacrificed for me. I was a
poor, uneducated, unbefriended, mountain girl, raised from
nothingness by him. All that I possessed of the luxuries of life
came from him. He gave me an illustrious name and noble
station; the world's respect reflected from his own glory: all
this joined to his own undying love, inspired me with
sensations towards him, akin to those with which we regard the
Giver of life. I gave him love only. I devoted myself to him:
imperfect creature that I was, I took myself to task, that I
might become worthy of him. I watched over my hasty temper,
subdued my burning impatience of character, schooled my self-
engrossing thoughts, educating myself to the best perfection I
might attain, that the fruit of my exertions might be his
happiness. I took no merit to myself for this. He deserved it
all--all labour, all devotion, all sacrifice; I would have toiled
up a scaleless Alp, to pluck a flower that would please him. I
was ready to quit you all, my beloved and gifted companions,
and to live only with him, for him. I could not do otherwise,
even if I had wished; for if we are said to have two souls, he
was my better soul, to which the other was a perpetual slave.
One only return did he owe me, even fidelity. I earned that; I
deserved it. Because I was mountain bred, unallied to the noble
and wealthy, shall he think to repay me by an empty name and
station? Let him take them back; without his love they are
nothing to me. Their only merit in my eyes was that they were
his."
Thus passionately Perdita ran on. When I adverted to the
question of their entire separation, she replied: "Be it so! One
day the period will arrive; I know it, and feel it. But in this I
am a coward. This imperfect companionship, and our masquerade
of union, are strangely dear to me. It is painful, I allow,
destructive, impracticable. It keeps up a perpetual fever in my
veins; it frets my immedicable wound; it is instinct with
poison. Yet I must cling to it; perhaps it will kill me soon,
and thus perform a thankful office."
In the mean time, Raymond had remained with Adrian and
Idris. He was naturally frank; the continued absence of Perdita
and myself became remarkable; and Raymond soon found relief
from the constraint of months, by an unreserved confidence
with his two friends. He related to them the situation in which
he had found Evadne. At first, from delicacy to Adrian he
concealed her name; but it was divulged in the course of his
narrative, and her former lover heard with the most acute
agitation the history of her sufferings. Idris had shared
Perdita's ill opinion of the Greek; but Raymond's account
softened and interested her. Evadne's constancy, fortitude, even
her ill-fated and ill-regulated love, were matter of admiration
and pity; especially when, from the detail of the events of the
nineteenth of October, it was apparent that she preferred
suffering and death to any in her eyes degrading application for
the pity and assistance of her lover. Her subsequent conduct did
not diminish this interest. At first, relieved from famine and
the grave, watched over by Raymond with the tenderest assiduity,
with that feeling of repose peculiar to convalescence, Evadne
gave herself up to rapturous gratitude and love. But reflection
returned with health. She questioned him with regard to the
motives which had occasioned his critical absence. She framed
her inquiries with Greek subtlety; she formed her conclusions
with the decision and firmness peculiar to her disposition. She
could not divine, that the breach which she had occasioned
between Raymond and Perdita was already irreparable: but she
knew, that under the present system it would be widened each
day, and that its result must be to destroy her lover's
happiness, and to implant the fangs of remorse in his heart.
From the moment that she perceived the right line of conduct,
she resolved to adopt it, and to part from Raymond for ever.
Conflicting passions, long-cherished love, and self-inflicted
disappointment, made her regard death alone as sufficient
refuge for her woe. But the same feelings and opinions which
had before restrained her, acted with redoubled force; for she
knew that the reflection that he had occasioned her death,
would pursue Raymond through life, poisoning every enjoyment,
clouding every prospect. Besides, though the violence of her
anguish made life hateful, it had not yet produced that
monotonous, lethargic sense of changeless misery which for the
most part produces suicide. Her energy of character induced her
still to combat with the ills of life; even those attendant on
hopeless love presented themselves, rather in the shape of an
adversary to be overcome, than of a victor to whom she must
submit. Besides, she had memories of past tenderness to
cherish, smiles, words, and even tears, to con over, which,
though remembered in desertion and sorrow, were to be
preferred to the forgetfulness of the grave. It was impossible
to guess at the whole of her plan. Her letter to Raymond gave
no clue for discovery; it assured him, that she was in no danger
of wanting the means of life; she promised in it to preserve
herself, and some future day perhaps to present herself to him
in a station not unworthy of her. She then bade him, with the
eloquence of despair and of unalterable love, a last farewell.
All these circumstances were now related to Adrian and Idris.
Raymond then lamented the cureless evil of his situation with
Perdita. He declared, notwithstanding her harshness, he even
called it coldness, that he loved her. He had been ready once
with the humility of a penitent, and the duty of a vassal, to
surrender himself to her; giving up his very soul to her
tutelage, to become her pupil, her slave, her bondsman. She had
rejected these advances; and the time for such exuberant
submission, which must be founded on love and nourished by it,
was now passed. Still all his wishes and endeavours were
directed towards her peace, and his chief discomfort arose from
the perception that he exerted himself in vain. If she were to
continue inflexible in the line of conduct she now pursued, they
must part. The combinations and occurrences of this senseless
mode of intercourse were maddening to him. Yet he would not
propose the separation. He was haunted by the fear of causing
the death of one or other of the beings implicated in these
events; and he could not persuade himself to undertake to
direct the course of events, lest, ignorant of the land he
traversed, he should lead those attached to the car into
irremediable ruin.
After a discussion on this subject, which lasted for several
hours, he took leave of his friends, and returned to town,
unwilling to meet Perdita before us, conscious, as we all must
be, of the thoughts uppermost in the minds of both. Perdita
prepared to follow him with her child. Idris endeavoured to
persuade her to remain. My poor sister looked at the counsellor
with affright. She knew that Raymond had conversed with her;
had he instigated this request?--was this to be the prelude to
their eternal separation?--I have said, that the defects of her
character awoke and acquired vigour from her unnatural
position. She regarded with suspicion the invitation of Idris;
she embraced me, as if she were about to be deprived of my
affection also: calling me her more than brother, her only
friend, her last hope, she pathetically conjured me not to cease
to love her; and with increased anxiety she departed for London,
the scene and cause of all her misery.
The scenes that followed, convinced her that she had not yet
fathomed the obscure gulf into which she had plunged. Her
unhappiness assumed every day a new shape; every day some
unexpected event seemed to close, while in fact it led onward,
the train of calamities which now befell her.
The selected passion of the soul of Raymond was ambition.
Readiness of talent, a capacity of entering into, and leading the
dispositions of men; earnest desire of distinction were the
awakeners and nurses of his ambition. But other ingredients
mingled with these, and prevented him from becoming the
calculating, determined character, which alone forms a
successful hero. He was obstinate, but not firm; benevolent in
his first movements; harsh and reckless when provoked. Above
all, he was remorseless and unyielding in the pursuit of any
object of desire, however lawless. Love of pleasure, and the
softer sensibilities of our nature, made a prominent part of
his character, conquering the conqueror; holding him in at the
moment of acquisition; sweeping away ambition's web; making
him forget the toil of weeks, for the sake of one moment's
indulgence of the new and actual object of his wishes. Obeying
these impulses, he had become the husband of Perdita: egged on
by them, he found himself the lover of Evadne. He had now lost
both. He had neither the ennobling self-gratulation, which
constancy inspires, to console him, nor the voluptuous sense of
abandonment to a forbidden, but intoxicating passion. His heart
was exhausted by the recent events; his enjoyment of life was
destroyed by the resentment of Perdita, and the flight of
Evadne; and the inflexibility of the former, set the last seal
upon the annihilation of his hopes. As long as their disunion
remained a secret, he cherished an expectation of re-awakening
past tenderness in her bosom; now that we were all made
acquainted with these occurrences, and that Perdita, by
declaring her resolves to others, in a manner pledged herself
to their accomplishment, he gave up the idea of re-union as
futile, and sought only, since he was unable to influence her to
change, to reconcile himself to the present state of things. He
made a vow against love and its train of struggles,
disappointment and remorse, and sought in mere sensual
enjoyment, a remedy for the injurious inroads of passion.
Debasement of character is the certain follower of such
pursuits. Yet this consequence would not have been immediately
remarkable, if Raymond had continued to apply himself to the
execution of his plans for the public benefit, and the
fulfilling his duties as Protector. But, extreme in all things,
given up to immediate impressions, he entered with ardour into
this new pursuit of pleasure, and followed up the incongruous
intimacies occasioned by it without reflection or foresight.
The council-chamber was deserted; the crowds which attended on
him as agents to his various projects were neglected. Festivity,
and even libertinism, became the order of the day.
Perdita beheld with affright the increasing disorder. For a
moment she thought that she could stem the torrent, and that
Raymond could be induced to hear reason from her.--Vain hope!
The moment of her influence was passed. He listened with
haughtiness, replied disdainfully; and, if in truth, she succeeded
in awakening his conscience, the sole effect was that he sought
an opiate for the pang in oblivious riot. With the energy
natural to her, Perdita then endeavoured to supply his place.
Their still apparent union permitted her to do much; but no
woman could, in the end, present a remedy to the increasing
negligence of the Protector; who, as if seized with a paroxysm
of insanity, trampled on all ceremony, all order, all duty, and
gave himself up to license.
Reports of these strange proceedings reached us, and we were
undecided what method to adopt to restore our friend to
himself and his country, when Perdita suddenly appeared among
us. She detailed the progress of the mournful change, and
entreated Adrian and myself to go up to London, and endeavour
to remedy the increasing evil:--"Tell him," she cried, "tell
Lord Raymond, that my presence shall no longer annoy him.
That he need not plunge into this destructive dissipation for
the sake of disgusting me, and causing me to fly. This purpose
is now accomplished; he will never see me more. But let me, it
is my last entreaty, let me in the praises of his countrymen
and the prosperity of England, find the choice of my youth
justified."
During our ride up to town, Adrian and I discussed and argued
upon Raymond's conduct, and his falling off from the hopes of
permanent excellence on his part, which he had before given us
cause to entertain. My friend and I had both been educated in
one school, or rather I was his pupil in the opinion, that
steady adherence to principle was the only road to honour; a
ceaseless observance of the laws of general utility, the only
conscientious aim of human ambition. But though we both
entertained these ideas, we differed in their application.
Resentment added also a sting to my censure; and I reprobated
Raymond's conduct in severe terms. Adrian was more benign,
more considerate. He admitted that the principles that I laid
down were the best; but he denied that they were the only ones.
Quoting the text, there are many mansions in my father's
house, he insisted that the modes of becoming good or great,
varied as much as the dispositions of men, of whom it might be
said, as of the leaves of the forest, there were no two alike.
We arrived in London at about eleven at night. We
conjectured, notwithstanding what we had heard, that we should
find Raymond in St. Stephen's: thither we sped. The chamber
was full--but there was no Protector; and there was an austere
discontent manifest on the countenances of the leaders, and a
whispering and busy tattle among the underlings, not less
ominous. We hastened to the palace of the Protectorate. We
found Raymond in his dining room with six others: the bottle
was being pushed about merrily, and had made considerable
inroads on the understanding of one or two. He who sat near
Raymond was telling a story, which convulsed the rest with
laughter.
Raymond sat among them, though while he entered into the
spirit of the hour, his natural dignity never forsook him. He
was gay, playful, fascinating--but never did he overstep the
modesty of nature, or the respect due to himself, in his wildest
sallies. Yet I own, that considering the task which Raymond had
taken on himself as Protector of England, and the cares to
which it became him to attend, I was exceedingly provoked to
observe the worthless fellows on whom his time was wasted, and
the jovial if not drunken spirit which seemed on the point of
robbing him of his better self. I stood watching the scene,
while Adrian flitted like a shadow in among them, and, by a
word and look of sobriety, endeavoured to restore order in the
assembly. Raymond expressed himself delighted to see him,
declaring that he should make one in the festivity of the night.
This action of Adrian provoked me. I was indignant that he
should sit at the same table with the companions of Raymond--
men of abandoned characters, or rather without any, the refuse
of high-bred luxury, the disgrace of their country. "Let me
entreat Adrian," I cried, "not to comply: rather join with me
in endeavouring to withdraw Lord Raymond from this scene, and
restore him to other society."
"My good fellow," said Raymond, "this is neither the time
nor place for the delivery of a moral lecture: take my word for
it that my amusements and society are not so bad as you
imagine. We are neither hypocrites or fools--for the rest, 'Dost
thou think because thou art virtuous, there shall be no more
cakes and ale?'"
I turned angrily away: "Verney," said Adrian, "you are very
cynical: sit down; or if you will not, perhaps, as you are not a
frequent visitor, Lord Raymond will humour you, and accompany
us, as we had previously agreed upon, to parliament."
Raymond looked keenly at him; he could read benignity only
in his gentle lineaments; he turned to me, observing with scorn
my moody and stern demeanour. "Come," said Adrian, "I have
promised for you, enable me to keep my engagement. Come with
us."---- Raymond made an uneasy movement, and laconically
replied--"I won't!"
The party in the mean time had broken up. They looked at the
pictures, strolled into the other apartments, talked of
billiards, and one by one vanished. Raymond strode angrily up
and down the room. I stood ready to receive and reply to his
reproaches. Adrian leaned against the wall. "This is infinitely
ridiculous," he cried, "if you were school-boys, you could not
conduct yourselves more unreasonably."
"You do not understand," said Raymond. "This is only part of
a system:--a scheme of tyranny to which I will never submit.
Because I am Protector of England, am I to be the only slave in
its empire? My privacy invaded, my actions censured, my friends
insulted? But I will get rid of the whole together.--Be you
witnesses," and he took the star, insignia of office, from his
breast, and threw it on the table. "I renounce my office, I
abdicate my power--assume it who will!"----
"Let him assume it," exclaimed Adrian, "who can pronounce
himself, or whom the world will pronounce to be your superior.
There does not exist the man in England with adequate
presumption. Know yourself, Raymond, and your indignation will
cease; your complacency return. A few months ago, whenever we
prayed for the prosperity of our country, or our own, we at the
same time prayed for the life and welfare of the Protector, as
indissolubly linked to it. Your hours were devoted to our
benefit, your ambition was to obtain our commendation. You
decorated our towns with edifices, you bestowed on us useful
establishments, you gifted the soil with abundant fertility. The
powerful and unjust cowered at the steps of your judgment-seat,
and the poor and oppressed arose like morn-awakened flowers
under the sunshine of your protection.
"Can you wonder that we are all aghast and mourn, when this
appears changed? But, come, this splenetic fit is already
passed; resume your functions; your partisans will hail you;
your enemies be silenced; our love, honour, and duty will again
be manifested towards you. Master yourself, Raymond, and the
world is subject to you."
"All this would be very good sense, if addressed to another,"
replied Raymond, moodily, "con the lesson yourself, and you,
the first peer of the land, may become its sovereign. You the
good, the wise, the just, may rule all hearts. But I perceive,
too soon for my own happiness, too late for England's good,
that I undertook a task to which I am unequal. I cannot rule
myself. My passions are my masters; my smallest impulse my
tyrant. Do you think that I renounced the Protectorate (and I
have renounced it) in a fit of spleen? By the God that lives, I
swear never to take up that bauble again; never again to
burthen myself with the weight of care and misery, of which
that is the visible sign.
"Once I desired to be a king. It was in the hey-day of youth,
in the pride of boyish folly. I knew myself when I renounced it.
I renounced it to gain--no matter what--for that also I have
lost. For many months I have submitted to this mock majesty--
this solemn jest. I am its dupe no longer. I will be free.
"I have lost that which adorned and dignified my life; that
which linked me to other men. Again I am a solitary man; and I
will become again, as in my early years, a wanderer, a soldier
of fortune. My friends, for Verney, I feel that you are my
friend, do not endeavour to shake my resolve. Perdita, wedded to
an imagination, careless of what is behind the veil, whose
charactery is in truth faulty and vile, Perdita has renounced
me. With her it was pretty enough to play a sovereign's part;
and, as in the recesses of your beloved forest we acted masques,
and imagined ourselves Arcadian shepherds, to please the fancy
of the moment--so was I content, more for Perdita's sake than
my own, to take on me the character of one of the great ones of
the earth; to lead her behind the scenes of grandeur, to vary
her life with a short act of magnificence and power. This was to
be the colour; love and confidence the substance of our
existence. But we must live, and not act our lives; pursuing the
shadow, I lost the reality--now I renounce both.
"Adrian, I am about to return to Greece, to become again a
soldier, perhaps a conqueror. Will you accompany me? You will
behold new scenes; see a new people; witness the mighty
struggle there going forward between civilization and
barbarism; behold, and perhaps direct the efforts of a young
and vigorous population, for liberty and order. Come with me. I
have expected you. I waited for this moment; all is prepared;
--will you accompany me?"
"I will," replied Adrian.
"Immediately?"
"To-morrow if you will."
"Reflect!" I cried.
"Wherefore?" asked Raymond--"My dear fellow, I have done
nothing else than reflect on this step the live-long summer;
and be assured that Adrian has condensed an age of reflection
into this little moment. Do not talk of reflection; from this
moment I abjure it; this is my only happy moment during a
long interval of time. I must go, Lionel--the Gods will it; and
I must. Do not endeavour to deprive me of my companion, the
out-cast's friend.
"One word more concerning unkind, unjust Perdita. For a
time, I thought that, by watching a complying moment,
fostering the still warm ashes, I might relume in her the
flame of love. It is more cold within her, than a fire left by
gypsies in winter-time, the spent embers crowned by a pyramid
of snow. Then, in endeavouring to do violence to my own
disposition, I made all worse than before. Still I think, that
time, and even absence, may restore her to me. Remember, that
I love her still, that my dearest hope is that she will again be
mine. I know, though she does not, how false the veil is which
she has spread over the reality--do not endeavour to rend this
deceptive covering, but by degrees withdraw it. Present her with
a mirror, in which she may know herself; and, when she is an
adept in that necessary but difficult science, she will wonder at
her present mistake, and hasten to restore to me, what is by
right mine, her forgiveness, her kind thoughts, her love."
AFTER these events, it was long before we were able to attain
any degree of composure. A moral tempest had wrecked our
richly freighted vessel, and we, remnants of the diminished
crew, were aghast at the losses and changes which we had
undergone. Idris passionately loved her brother, and could ill
brook an absence whose duration was uncertain; his society was
dear and necessary to me--I had followed up my chosen literary
occupations with delight under his tutorship and assistance; his
mild philosophy, unerring reason, and enthusiastic friendship
were the best ingredient, the exalted spirit of our circle; even
the children bitterly regretted the loss of their kind
playfellow. Deeper grief oppressed Perdita. In spite of
resentment, by day and night she figured to herself the toils
and dangers of the wanderers. Raymond absent, struggling with
difficulties, lost to the power and rank of the Protectorate,
exposed to the perils of war, became an object of anxious
interest; not that she felt any inclination to recall him, if
recall must imply a return to their former union. Such return
she felt to be impossible; and while she believed it to be thus,
and with anguish regretted that so it should be, she continued
angry and impatient with him, who occasioned her misery. These
perplexities and regrets caused her to bathe her pillow with
nightly tears, and to reduce her in person and in mind to the
shadow of what she had been. She sought solitude, and avoided us
when in gaiety and unrestrained affection we met in a family
circle. Lonely musings, interminable wanderings, and solemn
music were her only pastimes. She neglected even her child;
shutting her heart against all tenderness, she grew reserved
towards me, her first and fast friend.
I could not see her thus lost, without exerting myself to
remedy the evil--remediless I knew, if I could not in the end
bring her to reconcile herself to Raymond. Before he went I
used every argument, every persuasion to induce her to stop his
journey. She answered the one with a gush of tears--telling me
that to be persuaded--life and the goods of life were a cheap
exchange. It was not will that she wanted, but the capacity;
again and again she declared, it were as easy to enchain the sea,
to put reins on the wind's viewless courses, as for her to take
truth for falsehood, deceit for honesty, heartless communion
for sincere, confiding love. She answered my reasonings more
briefly, declaring with disdain, that the reason was hers; and,
until I could persuade her that the past could be unacted, that
maturity could go back to the cradle, and that all that was
could become as though it had never been, it was useless to
assure her that no real change had taken place in her fate. And
thus with stern pride she suffered him to go, though her very
heart-strings cracked at the fulfilling of the act, which rent
from her all that made life valuable.
To change the scene for her, and even for ourselves, all
unhinged by the cloud that had come over us, I persuaded my two
remaining companions that it were better that we should absent
ourselves for a time from Windsor. We visited the north of
England, my native Ulswater, and lingered in scenes dear from a
thousand associations. We lengthened our tour into Scotland,
that we might see Loch Katrine and Loch Lomond; thence we
crossed to Ireland, and passed several weeks in the
neighbourhood of Killarney. The change of scene operated to a
great degree as I expected; after a year's absence, Perdita
returned in gentler and more docile mood to Windsor. The first
sight of this place for a time unhinged her. Here every spot was
distinct with associations now grown bitter. The forest glades,
the ferny dells, and lawny uplands, the cultivated and cheerful
country spread around the silver pathway of ancient Thames, all
earth, air, and wave, took up one choral voice, inspired by
memory, instinct with plaintive regret.
But my essay towards bringing her to a saner view of her own
situation, did not end here. Perdita was still to a great degree
uneducated. When first she left her peasant life, and resided
with the elegant and cultivated Evadne, the only
accomplishment she brought to any perfection was that of
painting, for which she had a taste almost amounting to genius.
This had occupied her in her lonely cottage, when she quitted
her Greek friend's protection. Her pallet and easel were now
thrown aside; did she try to paint, thronging recollections
made her hand tremble, her eyes fill with tears. With this
occupation she gave up almost every other; and her mind preyed
upon itself almost to madness.
For my own part, since Adrian had first withdrawn me from
my sylvatic wilderness to his own paradise of order and beauty,
I had been wedded to literature. I felt convinced that however
it might have been in former times, in the present stage of the
world, no man's faculties could be developed, no man's moral
principle be enlarged and liberal, without an extensive
acquaintance with books. To me they stood in the place of an
active career, of ambition, and those palpable excitements
necessary to the multitude. The collation of philosophical
opinions, the study of historical facts, the acquirement of
languages, were at once my recreation, and the serious aim of
my life. I turned author myself. My productions however were
sufficiently unpretending; they were confined to the biography
of favourite historical characters, especially those whom I
believed to have been traduced, or about whom clung obscurity
and doubt.
As my authorship increased, I acquired new sympathies and
pleasures. I found another and a valuable link to enchain me to
my fellow-creatures; my point of sight was extended, and the
inclinations and capacities of all human beings became deeply
interesting to me. Kings have been called the fathers of their
people. Suddenly I became as it were the father of all mankind.
Posterity became my heirs. My thoughts were gems to enrich the
treasure house of man's intellectual possessions; each
sentiment was a precious gift I bestowed on them. Let not these
aspirations be attributed to vanity. They were not expressed in
words, nor even reduced to form in my own mind; but they
filled my soul, exalting my thoughts, raising a glow of
enthusiasm, and led me out of the obscure path in which I
before walked, into the bright noon-enlightened highway of
mankind, making me, citizen of the world, a candidate for
immortal honours, an eager aspirant to the praise and sympathy
of my fellow men.
No one certainly ever enjoyed the pleasures of composition
more intensely than I. If I left the woods, the solemn music of
the waving branches, and the majestic temple of nature, I
sought the vast halls of the Castle, and looked over wide,
fertile England, spread beneath our regal mount, and listened
the while to inspiring strains of music. At such times solemn
harmonies or spirit-stirring airs gave wings to my lagging
thoughts, permitting them, methought, to penetrate the last
veil of nature and her God, and to display the highest beauty in
visible expression to the understandings of men. As the music
went on, my ideas seemed to quit their mortal dwelling house;
they shook their pinions and began a flight, sailing on the
placid current of thought, filling the creation with new glory,
and rousing sublime imagery that else had slept voiceless. Then
I would hasten to my desk, weave the new-found web of mind in
firm texture and brilliant colours, leaving the fashioning of
the material to a calmer moment.
But this account, which might as properly belong to a former
period of my life as to the present moment, leads me far
afield. It was the pleasure I took in literature, the discipline
of mind I found arise from it, that made me eager to lead
Perdita to the same pursuits. I began with light hand and
gentle allurement; first exciting her curiosity, and then
satisfying it in such a way as might occasion her, at the same
time that she half forgot her sorrows in occupation, to find in
the hours that succeeded a reaction of benevolence and
toleration.
Intellectual activity, though not directed towards books, had
always been my sister's characteristic. It had been displayed
early in life, leading her out to solitary musing among her
native mountains, causing her to form innumerous combinations
from common objects, giving strength to her perceptions, and
swiftness to their arrangement. Love had come, as the rod of
the master-prophet, to swallow up every minor propensity. Love
had doubled all her excellencies, and placed a diadem on her
genius. Was she to cease to love? Take the colours and odour
from the rose, change the sweet nutriment of mother's milk to
gall and poison; as easily might you wean Perdita from love.
She grieved for the loss of Raymond with an anguish, that
exiled all smile from her lips, and trenched sad lines on her
brow of beauty. But each day seemed to change the nature of her
suffering, and every succeeding hour forced her to alter (if so I
may style it) the fashion of her soul's mourning garb. For a
time music was able to satisfy the cravings of her mental
hunger, and her melancholy thoughts renewed themselves in each
change of key, and varied with every alteration in the strain. My
schooling first impelled her towards books; and, if music had
been the food of sorrow, the productions of the wise became its
medicine.
The acquisition of unknown languages was too tedious an
occupation, for one who referred every expression to the
universe within, and read not, as many do, for the mere sake of
filling up time; but who was still questioning herself and her
author, moulding every idea in a thousand ways, ardently
desirous for the discovery of truth in every sentence. She
sought to improve her understanding; mechanically her heart
and dispositions became soft and gentle under this benign
discipline. After awhile she discovered, that amidst all her
newly acquired knowledge, her own character, which formerly she
fancied that she thoroughly understood, became the first in
rank among the terrae incognitae, the pathless wilds of a
country that had no chart. Erringly and strangely she began the
task of self-examination with self-condemnation. And then
again she became aware of her own excellencies, and began to
balance with juster scales the shades of good and evil. I, who
longed beyond words, to restore her to the happiness it was
still in her power to enjoy, watched with anxiety the result of
these internal proceedings.
But man is a strange animal. We cannot calculate on his
forces like that of an engine; and, though an impulse draw with
a forty-horse power at what appears willing to yield to one, yet
in contempt of calculation the movement is not effected.
Neither grief, philosophy, nor love could make Perdita think
with mildness of the dereliction of Raymond. She now took
pleasure in my society; towards Idris she felt and displayed a
full and affectionate sense of her worth--she restored to her
child in abundant measure her tenderness and care. But I could
discover, amidst all her repinings, deep resentment towards
Raymond, and an unfading sense of injury, that plucked from me
my hope, when I appeared nearest to its fulfilment. Among
other painful restrictions, she has occasioned it to become a
law among us, never to mention Raymond's name before her. She
refused to read any communications from Greece, desiring me
only to mention when any arrived, and whether the wanderers
were well. It was curious that even little Clara observed this
law towards her mother. This lovely child was nearly eight
years of age. Formerly she had been a light-hearted infant,
fanciful, but gay and childish. After the departure of her
father, thought became impressed on her young brow. Children,
unadepts in language, seldom find words to express their
thoughts, nor could we tell in what manner the late events had
impressed themselves on her mind. But certainly she had made
deep observations while she noted in silence the changes that
passed around her. She never mentioned her father to Perdita,
she appeared half afraid when she spoke of him to me, and
though I tried to draw her out on the subject, and to dispel the
gloom that hung about her ideas concerning him, I could not
succeed. Yet each foreign post-day she watched for the arrival
of letters--knew the post mark, and watched me as I read. I
found her often poring over the article of Greek intelligence in
the newspaper.
There is no more painful sight than that of untimely care in
children, and it was particularly observable in one whose
disposition had heretofore been mirthful. Yet there was so
much sweetness and docility about Clara, that your admiration
was excited; and if the moods of mind are calculated to paint
the cheek with beauty, and endow motions with grace, surely her
contemplations must have been celestial; since every lineament
was moulded into loveliness, and her motions were more
harmonious than the elegant boundings of the fawns of her
native forest. I sometimes expostulated with Perdita on the
subject of her reserve; but she rejected my counsels, while her
daughter's sensibility excited in her a tenderness still more
passionate.
After the lapse of more than a year, Adrian returned from
Greece.
When our exiles had first arrived, a truce was in existence
between the Turks and Greeks; a truce that was as sleep to the
mortal frame, signal of renewed activity on waking. With the
numerous soldiers of Asia, with all of warlike stores, ships,
and military engines, that wealth and power could command, the
Turks at once resolved to crush an enemy, which creeping on by
degrees, had from their stronghold in the Morea, acquired
Thrace and Macedonia, and had led their armies even to the
gates of Constantinople, while their extensive commercial
relations gave every European nation an interest in their
success. Greece prepared for a vigorous resistance; it rose to a
man; and the women, sacrificing their costly ornaments,
accoutred their sons for the war, and bade them conquer or die
with the spirit of the Spartan mother. The talents and courage
of Raymond were highly esteemed among the Greeks. Born at
Athens, that city claimed him for her own, and by giving him
the command of her peculiar division in the army, the
commander-in-chief only possessed superior power. He was
numbered among her citizens, his name was added to the list of
Grecian heroes. His judgment, activity, and consummate bravery,
justified their choice. The Earl of Windsor became a volunteer
under his friend.
"It is well," said Adrian, "to prate of war in these pleasant
shades, and with much ill-spent oil make a show of joy, because
many thousand of our fellow-creatures leave with pain this
sweet air and natal earth. I shall not be suspected of being
averse to the Greek cause; I know and feel its necessity; it is
beyond every other a good cause. I have defended it with my
sword, and was willing that my spirit should be breathed out in
its defence; freedom is of more worth than life, and the Greeks
do well to defend their privilege unto death. But let us not
deceive ourselves. The Turks are men; each fibre, each limb is
as feeling as our own, and every spasm, be it mental or bodily,
is as truly felt in a Turk's heart or brain, as in a Greek's. The
last action at which I was present was the taking of ------. The
Turks resisted to the last, the garrison perished on the
ramparts, and we entered by assault. Every breathing creature
within the walls was massacred. Think you, amidst the shrieks
of violated innocence and helpless infancy, I did not feel in
every nerve the cry of a fellow being? They were men and women,
the sufferers, before they were Mohammedans, and when they rise
turbanless from the grave, in what except their good or evil
actions will they be the better or worse than we? Two soldiers
contended for a girl, whose rich dress and extreme beauty
excited the brutal appetites of these wretches, who, perhaps
good men among their families, were changed by the fury of the
moment into incarnated evils. An old man, with a silver beard,
decrepit and bald, he might be her grandfather, interposed to
save her; the battle axe of one of them clove his skull. I
rushed to her defence, but rage made them blind and deaf; they
did not distinguish my Christian garb or heed my words--words
were blunt weapons then, for while war cried `havoc,' and
murder gave fit echo, how could I--
Turn back the tide of ills, relieving wrong
With mild accost of soothing eloquence?
One of the fellows, enraged at my interference, struck me with
his bayonet in the side, and I fell senseless.
"This wound will probably shorten my life, having shattered
a frame, weak of itself. But I am content to die. I have learnt
in Greece that one man, more or less, is of small import, while
human bodies remain to fill up the thinned ranks of the
soldiery; and that the identity of an individual may be
overlooked, so that the muster roll contain its full numbers.
All this has a different effect upon Raymond. He is able to
contemplate the ideal of war, while I am sensible only to its
realities. He is a soldier, a general. He can influence the
blood-thirsty war-dogs, while I resist their propensities
vainly. The cause is simple. Burke has said that, `in all bodies
those who would lead, must also, in a considerable degree,
follow.'--I cannot follow; for I do not sympathize in their
dreams of massacre and glory--to follow and to lead in such a
career, is the natural bent of Raymond's mind. He is always
successful, and bids fair, at the same time that he acquires
high name and station for himself, to secure liberty, probably
extended empire, to the Greeks."
Perdita's mind was not softened by this account. He, she
thought, can be great and happy without me. Would that I also
had a career! Would that I could freight some untried bark with
all my hopes, energies, and desires, and launch it forth into
the ocean of life--bound for some attainable point, with
ambition or pleasure at the helm! But adverse winds detain me
on shore; like Ulysses, I sit at the water's edge and weep. But
my nerveless hands can neither fell the trees, nor smooth the
planks. Under the influence of these melancholy thoughts, she
became more than ever in love with sorrow. Yet Adrian's
presence did some good; he at once broke through the law of
silence observed concerning Raymond. At first she started from
the unaccustomed sound; soon she got used to it and to love it,
and she listened with avidity to the account of his
achievements. Clara got rid also of her restraint; Adrian and
she had been old playfellows; and now, as they walked or rode
together, he yielded to her earnest entreaty, and repeated, for
the hundredth time, some tale of her father's bravery,
munificence, or justice.
Each vessel in the mean time brought exhilarating tidings
from Greece. The presence of a friend in its armies and
councils made us enter into the details with enthusiasm; and a
short letter now and then from Raymond told us how he was
engrossed by the interests of his adopted country. The Greeks
were strongly attached to their commercial pursuits, and would
have been satisfied with their present acquisitions, had not the
Turks roused them by invasion. The patriots were victorious; a
spirit of conquest was instilled; and already they looked on
Constantinople as their own. Raymond rose perpetually in their
estimation; but one man held a superior command to him in
their armies. He was conspicuous for his conduct and choice of
position in a battle fought in the plains of Thrace, on the
banks of the Hebrus, which was to decide the fate of Islam. The
Mohammedans were defeated, and driven entirely from the
country west of this river. The battle was sanguinary, the loss
of the Turks apparently irreparable; the Greeks, in losing one
man, forgot the nameless crowd strewed upon the bloody field,
and they ceased to value themselves on a victory, which cost
them--Raymond.
At the battle of Makri he had led the charge of cavalry, and
pursued the fugitives even to the banks of the Hebrus. His
favourite horse was found grazing by the margin of the tranquil
river. It became a question whether he had fallen among the
unrecognised; but no broken ornament or stained trapping
betrayed his fate. It was suspected that the Turks, finding
themselves possessed of so illustrious a captive, resolved to
satisfy their cruelty rather than their avarice, and fearful of
the interference of England, had come to the determination of
concealing for ever the cold-blooded murder of the soldier they
most hated and feared in the squadrons of their enemy.
Raymond was not forgotten in England. His abdication of the
Protectorate had caused an unexampled sensation; and, when his
magnificent and manly system was contrasted with the narrow
views of succeeding politicians, the period of his elevation was
referred to with sorrow. The perpetual recurrence of his name,
joined to most honourable testimonials, in the Greek gazettes,
kept up the interest he had excited. He seemed the favourite
child of fortune, and his untimely loss eclipsed the world, and
showed forth the remnant of mankind with diminished lustre.
They clung with eagerness to the hope held out that he might
yet be alive. Their minister at Constantinople was urged to
make the necessary perquisitions, and should his existence be
ascertained, to demand his release. It was to be hoped that
their efforts would succeed, and that though now a prisoner, the
sport of cruelty and the mark of hate, he would be rescued from
danger and restored to the happiness, power, and honour which
he deserved.
The effect of this intelligence upon my sister was striking.
She never for a moment credited the story of his death; she
resolved instantly to go to Greece. Reasoning and persuasion
were thrown away upon her; she would endure no hindrance, no
delay. It may be advanced for a truth, that, if argument or
entreaty can turn any one from a desperate purpose, whose
motive and end depends on the strength of the affections only,
then it is right so to turn them, since their docility shows
that neither the motive nor the end were of sufficient force to
bear them through the obstacles attendant on their
undertaking. If, on the contrary, they are proof against
expostulation, this very steadiness is an omen of success; and
it becomes the duty of those who love them, to assist in
smoothing the obstructions in their path. Such sentiments
actuated our little circle. Finding Perdita immoveable, we
consulted as to the best means of furthering her purpose. She
could not go alone to a country where she had no friends, where
she might arrive only to hear the dreadful news, which must
overwhelm her with grief and remorse. Adrian, whose health had
always been weak, now suffered considerable aggravation of
suffering from the effects of his wound. Idris could not endure
to leave him in this state; nor was it right either to quit or
take with us a young family for a journey of this description. I
resolved at length to accompany Perdita. The separation from
my Idris was painful--but necessity reconciled us to it in some
degree: necessity and the hope of saving Raymond, and restoring
him again to happiness and Perdita. No delay was to ensue. Two
days after we came to our determination, we set out for
Portsmouth, and embarked. The season was May, the weather
stormless; we were promised a prosperous voyage. Cherishing
the most fervent hopes, embarked on the waste ocean, we saw
with delight the receding shore of Britain, and on the wings of
desire outspeeded our well filled sails towards the South. The
light curling waves bore us onward, and old ocean smiled at the
freight of love and hope committed to his charge; it stroked
gently its tempestuous plains, and the path was smoothed for
us. Day and night the wind right aft, gave steady impulse to our
keel--nor did rough gale, or treacherous sand, or destructive
rock interpose an obstacle between my sister and the land
which was to restore her to her first beloved,
Her dear heart's confessor--a heart within that heart.
DURING this voyage, when on calm evenings we conversed on deck,
watching the glancing of the waves and the changeful
appearances of the sky, I discovered the total revolution that
the disasters of Raymond had wrought in the mind of my sister.
Were they the same waters of love, which, lately cold and
cutting as ice, repelling as that, now loosened from their
frozen chains, flowed through the regions of her soul in gushing
and grateful exuberance? She did not believe that he was dead,
but she knew that he was in danger, and the hope of assisting in
his liberation, and the idea of soothing by tenderness the ills
that he might have undergone, elevated and harmonized the late
jarring element of her being. I was not so sanguine as she as to
the result of our voyage. She was not sanguine, but secure; and
the expectation of seeing the lover she had banished, the
husband, friend, heart's companion from whom she had long been
alienated, wrapt her senses in delight, her mind in placidity. It
was beginning life again; it was leaving barren sands for an
abode of fertile beauty; it was a harbour after a tempest, an
opiate after sleepless nights, a happy waking from a terrible
dream.
Little Clara accompanied us; the poor child did not well
understand what was going forward. She heard that we were bound
for Greece, that she would see her father, and now, for the first
time, she prattled of him to her mother.
On landing at Athens we found difficulties increase upon us:
nor could the storied earth or balmy atmosphere inspire us
with enthusiasm or pleasure, while the fate of Raymond was in
jeopardy. No man had ever excited so strong an interest in the
public mind; this was apparent even among the phlegmatic
English, from whom he had long been absent. The Athenians had
expected their hero to return in triumph; the women had taught
their children to lisp his name joined to thanksgiving; his
manly beauty, his courage, his devotion to their cause, made
him appear in their eyes almost as one of the ancient deities
of the soil descended from their native Olympus to defend
them. When they spoke of his probable death and certain
captivity, tears streamed from their eyes; even as the women of
Syria sorrowed for Adonis, did the wives and mothers of Greece
lament our English Raymond--Athens was a city of mourning.
All these shows of despair struck Perdita with affright. With
that sanguine but confused expectation, which desire engendered
while she was at a distance from reality, she had formed an
image in her mind of instantaneous change, when she should set
her foot on Grecian shores. She fancied that Raymond would
already be free, and that her tender attentions would come to
entirely obliterate even the memory of his mischance. But his
fate was still uncertain; she began to fear the worst, and to
feel that her soul's hope was cast on a chance that might prove
a blank. The wife and lovely child of Lord Raymond became
objects of intense interest in Athens. The gates of their abode
were besieged, audible prayers were breathed for his
restoration; all these circumstances added to the dismay and
fears of Perdita.
My exertions were unremitted: after a time I left Athens, and
joined the army stationed at Kishan in Thrace. Bribery, threats,
and intrigue, soon discovered the secret that Raymond was alive,
a prisoner, suffering the most rigorous confinement and wanton
cruelties. We put in movement every impulse of policy and
money to redeem him from their hands.
The impatience of my sister's disposition now returned on
her, awakened by repentance, sharpened by remorse. The very
beauty of the Grecian climate, during the season of spring,
added torture to her sensations. The unexampled loveliness of
the flower-clad earth--the genial sunshine and grateful shade--
the melody of the birds--the majesty of the woods--the
splendour of the marble ruins--the clear effulgence of the
stars by night--the combination of all that was exciting and
voluptuous in this transcending land, by inspiring a quicker
spirit of life and an added sensitiveness to every articulation
of her frame, only gave edge to the poignancy of her grief. Each
long hour was counted, and "He suffers" was the burthen of all
her thoughts. She abstained from food; she lay on the bare
earth, and, by such mimicry of his enforced torments,
endeavoured to hold communion with his distant pain. I
remembered in one of her harshest moments a quotation of
mine had roused her to anger and disdain. "Perdita," I had said,
"some day you will discover that you have done wrong in again
casting Raymond on the thorns of life. When disappointment has
sullied his beauty, when a soldier's hardships have bent his
manly form, and loneliness made even triumph bitter to him,
then you will repent; and regret for the irreparable change
"will move
In hearts all rocky now, the late remorse of love."
The stinging "remorse of love" now pierced her heart. She
accused herself of his journey to Greece--his dangers--his
imprisonment. She pictured to herself the anguish of his
solitude; she remembered with what eager delight he had in
former days made her the partner of his joyful hopes--with
what grateful affection he received her sympathy in his cares.
She called to mind how often he had declared that solitude was
to him the greatest of all evils, and how death itself was to
him more full of fear and pain when he pictured to himself a
lonely grave. "My best girl," he had said, "relieves me from
these phantasies. United to her, cherished in her dear heart,
never again shall I know the misery of finding myself alone.
Even if I die before you, my Perdita, treasure up my ashes till
yours may mingle with mine. It is a foolish sentiment for one
who is not a materialist, yet, methinks, even in that dark cell,
I may feel that my inanimate dust mingles with yours, and thus
have a companion in decay." In her resentful mood, these
expressions had been remembered with acrimony and disdain;
they visited her in her softened hour, taking sleep from her
eyes, all hope of rest from her uneasy mind.
Two months passed thus, when at last we obtained a promise
of Raymond's release. Confinement and hardship had undermined
his health; the Turks feared an accomplishment of the threats
of the English government, if he died under their hands; they
looked upon his recovery as impossible; they delivered him up
as a dying man, willingly making over to us the rites of burial.
He came by sea from Constantinople to Athens. The wind,
favourable to him, blew so strongly in shore, that we were
unable, as we had at first intended, to meet him on his watery
road. The watchtower of Athens was besieged by inquirers, each
sail eagerly looked out for; till on the first of May the
gallant frigate bore in sight, freighted with treasure more
invaluable than the wealth which, piloted from Mexico, the
vexed Pacific swallowed, or that was conveyed over its tranquil
bosom to enrich the crown of Spain. At early dawn the vessel
was discovered bearing in shore; it was conjectured that it
would cast anchor about five miles from land.
The news spread through Athens, and the whole city poured
out at the gate of the Piræus, down the roads, through the
vineyards, the olive woods and plantations of fig-trees, towards
the harbour. The noisy joy of the populace, the gaudy colours of
their dress, the tumult of carriages and horses, the march of
soldiers intermixed, the waving of banners and sound of martial
music added to the high excitement of the scene; while round us
reposed in solemn majesty the relics of ancient time. To our
right the Acropolis rose high, spectatress of a thousand
changes, of ancient glory, Turkish slavery, and the restoration
of dear-bought liberty; tombs and cenotaphs were strewed thick
around, adorned by ever renewing vegetation; the mighty dead
hovered over their monuments, and beheld in our enthusiasm and
congregated numbers a renewal of the scenes in which they had
been the actors. Perdita and Clara rode in a close carriage; I
attended them on horseback. At length we arrived at the
harbour; it was agitated by the outward swell of the sea; the
beach, as far could be discerned, was covered by a moving
multitude, which, urged by those behind toward the sea, again
rushed back as the heavy waves with sullen roar burst close to
them. I applied my glass, and could discern that the frigate had
already cast anchor, fearful of the danger of approaching nearer
to a lee shore: a boat was lowered; with a pang I saw that
Raymond was unable to descend the vessel's side; he was let
down in a chair, and lay wrapt in cloaks at the bottom of the
boat.
I dismounted, and called to some sailors who were rowing
about the harbour to pull up, and take me into their skiff;
Perdita at the same moment alighted from her carriage--she
seized my arm--"Take me with you," she cried; she was
trembling and pale; Clara clung to her--"You must not," I said,
"the sea is rough--he will soon be here--do you not see his
boat?" The little bark to which I had beckoned had now pulled
up; before I could stop her, Perdita, assisted by the sailors was
in it--Clara followed her mother--a loud shout echoed from the
crowd as we pulled out of the inner harbour; while my sister at
the prow, had caught hold of one of the men who was using a
glass, asking a thousand questions, careless of the spray that
broke over her, deaf, sightless to all, except the little speck
that, just visible on the top of the waves, evidently neared. We
approached with all the speed six rowers could give; the
orderly and picturesque dress of the soldiers on the beach, the
sounds of exulting music, the stirring breeze and waving flags,
the unchecked exclamations of the eager crowd, whose dark looks
and foreign garb were purely eastern; the sight of temple-
crowned rock, the white marble of the buildings glittering in
the sun, and standing in bright relief against the dark ridge of
lofty mountains beyond; the near roar of the sea, the splash of
oars, and dash of spray, all steeped my soul in a delirium,
unfelt, unimagined in the common course of common life.
Trembling, I was unable to continue to look through the glass
with which I had watched the motion of the crew, when the
frigate's boat had first been launched. We rapidly drew near, so
that at length the number and forms of those within could be
discerned; its dark sides grew big, and the splash of its oars
became audible: I could distinguish the languid form of my
friend, as he half raised himself at our approach.
Perdita's questions had ceased; she leaned on my arm,
panting with emotions too acute for tears--our men pulled
alongside the other boat. As a last effort, my sister mustered
her strength, her firmness; she stepped from one boat to the
other, and then with a shriek she sprang towards Raymond, knelt
at his side, and gluing her lips to the hand she seized, her face
shrouded by her long hair, gave herself up to tears.
Raymond had somewhat raised himself at our approach, but it
was with difficulty that he exerted himself even thus much.
With sunken cheek and hollow eyes, pale and gaunt, how could I
recognize the beloved of Perdita? I continued awe-struck and
mute--he looked smilingly on the poor girl; the smile was his.
A day of sunshine falling on a dark valley, displays its before
hidden characteristics; and now this smile, the same with which
he first spoke love to Perdita, with which he had welcomed the
protectorate, playing on his altered countenance, made me in
my heart's core feel that this was Raymond.
He stretched out to me his other hand; I discerned the trace
of manacles on his bared wrist. I heard my sister's sobs, and
thought, happy are women who can weep, and in a passionate
caress disburden the oppression of their feelings; shame and
habitual restraint hold back a man. I would have given worlds
to have acted as in days of boyhood, have strained him to my
breast, pressed his hand to my lips, and wept over him; my
swelling heart choked me; the natural current would not be
checked; the big rebellious tears gathered in my eyes; I turned
aside, and they dropped in the sea--they came fast and faster;
--yet I could hardly be ashamed, for I saw that the rough
sailors were not unmoved, and Raymond's eyes alone were dry
from among our crew. He lay in that blessed calm which
convalescence always induces, enjoying in secure tranquillity
his liberty and re-union with her whom he adored. Perdita at
length subdued her burst of passion, and rose,--she looked round
for Clara; the child frightened, not recognizing her father, and
neglected by us, had crept to the other end of the boat; she
came at her mother's call. Perdita presented her to Raymond;
her first words were: "Beloved, embrace our child:" "Come
hither, sweet one," said her father, "do you not know me?" she
knew his voice, and cast herself in his arms with half bashful
but uncontrollable emotion.
Perceiving the weakness of Raymond, I was afraid of ill
consequences from the pressure of the crowd on his landing. But
they were awed as I had been, at the change of his appearance.
The music died away, the shouts abruptly ended; the soldiers
had cleared a space in which a carriage was drawn up. He was
placed in it; Perdita and Clara entered with him, and his escort
closed round it; a hollow murmur, akin to the roaring of the
near waves, went through the multitude; they fell back as the
carriage advanced, and fearful of injuring him they had come to
welcome, by loud testimonies of joy, they satisfied themselves
with bending in a low salaam as the carriage passed; it went
slowly along the road of the Piraeus; passed by antique temple
and heroic tomb, beneath the craggy rock of the citadel. The
sound of the waves was left behind; that of the multitude
continued at intervals, suppressed and hoarse; and though, in
the city, the houses, churches, and public buildings were
decorated with tapestry and banners--though the soldiery lined
the streets, and the inhabitants in thousands were assembled to
give him hail, the same solemn silence prevailed, the soldiery
presented arms, the banners vailed, many a white hand waved a
streamer, and vainly sought to discern the hero in the vehicle,
which, closed and encompassed by the city guards, drew him to
the palace allotted for his abode.
Raymond was weak and exhausted, yet the interest he
perceived to be excited on his account, filled him with proud
pleasure. He was nearly killed with kindness. It is true, the
populace retained themselves; but there arose a perpetual hum
and bustle from the throng round the palace, which added to the
noise of fireworks, the frequent explosion of arms, the tramp
to and fro of horsemen and carriages, to which effervescence he
was the focus, retarded his recovery. So we retired awhile to
Eleusis, and here rest and tender care added each day to the
strength of our invalid. The zealous attention of Perdita
claimed the first rank in the causes which induced his rapid
recovery; but the second was surely the delight he felt in the
affection and good will of the Greeks. We are said to love much
those whom we greatly benefit. Raymond had fought and
conquered for the Athenians; he had suffered, on their account,
peril, imprisonment, and hardship; their gratitude affected him
deeply, and he inly vowed to unite his fate for ever to that of a
people so enthusiastically devoted to him.
Social feeling and sympathy constituted a marked feature in
my disposition. In early youth, the living drama acted around
me, drew me heart and soul into its vortex. I was now conscious
of a change. I loved, I hoped, I enjoyed; but there was
something besides this. I was inquisitive as to the internal
principles of action of those around me: anxious to read their
thoughts justly, and for ever occupied in divining their inmost
mind. All events, at the same time that they deeply interested
me, arranged themselves in pictures before me. I gave the right
place to every personage in the group, the just balance to every
sentiment. This undercurrent of thought, often soothed me
amidst distress, and even agony. It gave ideality to that, from
which, taken in naked truth, the soul would have revolted: it
bestowed pictorial colours on misery and disease, and not
unfrequently relieved me from despair in deplorable changes.
This faculty, or instinct, was now roused. I watched the re-
awakened devotion of my sister; Clara's timid, but concentrated
admiration of her father, and Raymond's appetite for renown,
and sensitiveness to the demonstrations of affection of the
Athenians. Attentively perusing this animated volume, I was the
less surprised at the tale I read on the new-turned page.
The Turkish army were at this time besieging Rodosto; and
the Greeks, hastening their preparations, and sending each day
reinforcements, were on the eve of forcing the enemy to battle.
Each people looked on the coming struggle as that which would
be to a great degree decisive; as, in case of victory, the next
step would be the siege of Constantinople by the Greeks.
Raymond, being somewhat recovered, prepared to re-assume his
command in the army.
Perdita did not oppose herself to his determination. She
only stipulated to be permitted to accompany him. She had set
down no rule of conduct for herself; but for her life she could
not have opposed his slightest wish, or do other than acquiesce
cheerfully in all his projects. One word, in truth, had alarmed
her more than battles or sieges, during which she trusted
Raymond's high command would exempt him from danger. That
word, as yet it was not more to her, was PLAGUE. This enemy to
the human race had begun early in June to raise its serpent-
head on the shores of the Nile; parts of Asia, not usually
subject to this evil, were infected. It was in Constantinople;
but as each year that city experienced a like visitation, small
attention was paid to those accounts which declared more
people to have died there already, than usually made up the
accustomed prey of the whole of the hotter months. However it
might be, neither plague nor war could prevent Perdita from
following her lord, or induce her to utter one objection to the
plans which he proposed. To be near him, to be loved by him, to
feel him again her own, was the limit of her desires. The
object of her life was to do him pleasure: it had been so
before, but with a difference. In past times, without thought or
foresight she had made him happy, being so herself, and in any
question of choice, consulted her own wishes, as being one with
his. Now she sedulously put herself out of the question,
sacrificing even her anxiety for his health and welfare to her
resolve not to oppose any of his desires. Love of the Greek
people, appetite for glory, and hatred of the barbarian
government under which he had suffered even to the approach of
death, stimulated him. He wished to repay the kindness of the
Athenians, to keep alive the splendid associations connected
with his name, and to eradicate from Europe a power which,
while every other nation advanced in civilization, stood still, a
monument of antique barbarism. Having effected the reunion of
Raymond and Perdita, I was eager to return to England; but his
earnest request, added to awakening curiosity, and an indefinable
anxiety to behold the catastrophe, now apparently at hand, in
the long drawn history of Grecian and Turkish warfare, induced
me to consent to prolong until the autumn, the period of my
residence in Greece.
As soon as the health of Raymond was sufficiently re-
established, he prepared to join the Grecian camp, near Kishan,
a town of some importance, situated to the east of the Hebrus;
in which Perdita and Clara were to remain until the event of
the expected battle. We quitted Athens on the 2nd of June.
Raymond had recovered from the gaunt and pallid looks of fever.
If I no longer saw the fresh glow of youth on his matured
countenance, if care had besieged his brow,
"And dug deep trenches in his beauty's field,"
if his hair, slightly mingled with grey, and his look,
considerate even in its eagerness, gave signs of added years and
past sufferings, yet there was something irresistibly affecting
in the sight of one, lately snatched from the grave, renewing
his career, untamed by sickness or disaster. The Athenians saw
in him, not as heretofore, the heroic boy or desperate man, who
was ready to die for them; but the prudent commander, who for
their sakes was careful of his life, and could make his own
warrior-propensities second to the scheme of conduct policy
might point out.
All Athens accompanied us for several miles. When he had
landed a month ago, the noisy populace had been hushed by
sorrow and fear; but this was a festival day to all. The air
resounded with their shouts; their picturesque costume, and the
gay colours of which it was composed, flaunted in the sunshine;
their eager gestures and rapid utterance accorded with their
wild appearance. Raymond was the theme of every tongue, the
hope of each wife, mother or betrothed bride, whose husband,
child, or lover, making a part of the Greek army, were to be
conducted to victory by him.
Notwithstanding the hazardous object of our journey, it was
full of romantic interest, as we passed through the valleys, and
over the hills, of this divine country. Raymond was inspirited
by the intense sensations of recovered health; he felt that in
being general of the Athenians, he filled a post worthy of his
ambition; and, in his hope of the conquest of Constantinople,
he counted on an event which would be as a landmark in the
waste of ages, an exploit unequalled in the annals of man; when
a city of grand historic association, the beauty of whose site
was the wonder of the world, which for many hundred years had
been the strong hold of the Moslems, should be rescued from
slavery and barbarism, and restored to a people illustrious for
genius, civilization, and a spirit of liberty. Perdita rested on
his restored society, on his love, his hopes and fame, even as a
Sybarite on a luxurious couch; every thought was transport,
each emotion bathed as it were in a congenial and balmy
element.
We arrived at Kishan on the 7th of July. The weather during
our journey had been serene. Each day, before dawn, we left our
night's encampment, and watched the shadows as they retreated
from hill and valley, and the golden splendour of the sun's
approach. The accompanying soldiers received, with national
vivacity, enthusiastic pleasure from the sight of beautiful
nature. The uprising of the star of day was hailed by
triumphant strains, while the birds, heard by snatches, filled
up the intervals of the music. At noon, we pitched our tents in
some shady valley, or embowering wood among the mountains,
while a stream prattling over pebbles induced grateful sleep.
Our evening march, more calm, was yet more delightful than the
morning restlessness of spirit. If the band played,
involuntarily they chose airs of moderated passion; the
farewell of love, or lament at absence, was followed and closed
by some solemn hymn, which harmonized with the tranquil
loveliness of evening, and elevated the soul to grand and
religious thought. Often all sounds were suspended, that we
might listen to the nightingale, while the fire-flies danced in
bright measure, and the soft cooing of the aziolo spoke of fair
weather to the travellers. Did we pass a valley? Soft shades
encompassed us, and rocks tinged with beauteous hues. If we
traversed a mountain, Greece, a living map, was spread beneath,
her renowned pinnacles cleaving the ether; her rivers threading
in silver line the fertile land. Afraid almost to breathe, we
English travellers surveyed with ecstasy this splendid
landscape, so different from the sober hues and melancholy
graces of our native scenery. When we quitted Macedonia, the
fertile but low plains of Thrace afforded fewer beauties; yet
our journey continued to be interesting. An advanced guard gave
information of our approach, and the country people were
quickly in motion to do honour to Lord Raymond. The villages
were decorated by triumphal arches of greenery by day, and
lamps by night; tapestry waved from the windows, the ground
was strewed with flowers, and the name of Raymond, joined to
that of Greece, was echoed in the Evive of the peasant crowd.
When we arrived at Kishan, we learnt, that on hearing of the
advance of Lord Raymond and his detachment, the Turkish army
had retreated from Rodosto; but meeting with a reinforcement,
they had re-trod their steps. In the meantime, Argyropylo, the
Greek commander-in-chief, had advanced, so as to be between the
Turks and Rodosto; a battle, it was said, was inevitable. Perdita
and her child were to remain at Kishan. Raymond asked me, if I
would not continue with them. "Now by the fells of
Cumberland," I cried, "by all of the vagabond and poacher that
appertains to me, I will stand at your side, draw my sword in
the Greek cause, and be hailed as a victor along with you!"
All the plain, from Kishan to Rodosto, a distance of sixteen
leagues, was alive with troops, or with the camp-followers, all
in motion at the approach of a battle. The small garrisons
were drawn from the various towns and fortresses, and went to
swell the main army. We met baggage waggons, and many females
of high and low rank returning to Fairy or Kishan, there to wait
the issue of the expected day. When we arrived at Rodosto, we
found that the field had been taken, and the scheme of the
battle arranged. The sound of firing, early on the following
morning, informed us that advanced posts of the armies were
engaged. Regiment after regiment advanced, their colours flying
and bands playing. They planted the cannon on the tumuli, sole
elevations in this level country, and formed themselves into
column and hollow square; while the pioneers threw up small
mounds for their protection.
These then were the preparations for a battle, nay, the
battle itself; far different from any thing the imagination had
pictured. We read of centre and wing in Greek and Roman
history; we fancy a spot, plain as a table, and soldiers small
as chessmen; and drawn forth, so that the most ignorant of the
game can discover science and order in the disposition of the
forces. When I came to the reality, and saw regiments file off
to the left far out of sight, fields intervening between the
battalions, but a few troops sufficiently near me to observe
their motions, I gave up all idea of understanding, even of
seeing a battle, but attaching myself to Raymond attended with
intense interest to his actions. He showed himself collected,
gallant and imperial; his commands were prompt, his intuition
of the events of the day to me miraculous. In the mean time
the cannon roared; the music lifted up its enlivening voice at
intervals; and we on the highest of the mounds I mentioned, too
far off to observe the fallen sheaves which death gathered into
his storehouse, beheld the regiments, now lost in smoke, now
banners and staves peering above the cloud, while shout and
clamour drowned every sound.
Early in the day, Argyropylo was wounded dangerously, and
Raymond assumed the command of the whole army. He made few
remarks, till, on observing through his glass the sequel of an
order he had given, his face, clouded for awhile with doubt,
became radiant. "The day is ours," he cried, "the Turks fly from
the bayonet." And then swiftly he dispatched his aides-de-camp
to command the horse to fall on the routed enemy. The defeat
became total; the cannon ceased to roar; the infantry rallied,
and horse pursued the flying Turks along the dreary plain; the
staff of Raymond was dispersed in various directions, to make
observations, and bear commands. Even I was dispatched to a
distant part of the field.
The ground on which the battle was fought, was a level plain
--so level, that from the tumuli you saw the waving line of
mountains on the wide-stretched horizon; yet the intervening
space was unvaried by the least irregularity, save such
undulations as resembled the waves of the sea. The whole of
this part of Thrace had been so long a scene of contest, that it
had remained uncultivated, and presented a dreary, barren
appearance. The order I had received, was to make an
observation of the direction which a detachment of the enemy
might have taken, from a northern tumulus; the whole Turkish
army, followed by the Greek, had poured eastward; none but the
dead remained in the direction of my side. From the top of the
mound, I looked far round--all was silent and deserted.
The last beams of the nearly sunken sun shot up from behind
the far summit of Mount Athos; the sea of Marmora still
glittered beneath its rays, while the Asiatic coast beyond was
half hid in a haze of low cloud. Many a casque, and bayonet, and
sword, fallen from unnerved arms, reflected the departing ray;
they lay scattered far and near. From the east, a band of
ravens, old inhabitants of the Turkish cemeteries, came sailing
along towards their harvest; the sun disappeared. This hour,
melancholy yet sweet, has always seemed to me the time when
we are most naturally led to commune with higher powers; our
mortal sternness departs, and gentle complacency invests the
soul. But now, in the midst of the dying and the dead, how could
a thought of heaven or a sensation of tranquillity possess one
of the murderers? During the busy day, my mind had yielded
itself a willing slave to the state of things presented to it by
its fellow-beings; historical association, hatred of the foe, and
military enthusiasm had held dominion over me. Now, I looked
on the evening star, as softly and calmly it hung pendulous in
the orange hues of sunset. I turned to the corse-strewn earth;
and felt ashamed of my species. So perhaps were the placid
skies; for they quickly veiled themselves in mist, and in this
change assisted the swift disappearance of twilight usual in the
south; heavy masses of cloud floated up from the south east,
and red and turbid lightning shot from their dark edges; the
rushing wind disturbed the garments of the dead, and was chilled
as it passed over their icy forms. Darkness gathered round; the
objects about me became indistinct, I descended from my
station, and with difficulty guided my horse, so as to avoid the
slain.
Suddenly I heard a piercing shriek; a form seemed to rise
from the earth; it flew swiftly towards me, sinking to the
ground again as it drew near. All this passed so suddenly, that I
with difficulty reined in my horse, so that it should not
trample on the prostrate being. The dress of this person was
that of a soldier, but the bared neck and arms, and the
continued shrieks discovered a female thus disguised. I
dismounted to her aid, while she, with heavy groans, and her
hand placed on her side, resisted my attempt to lead her on. In
the hurry of the moment I forgot that I was in Greece, and in
my native accents endeavoured to soothe the sufferer. With wild
and terrific exclamations did the lost, dying Evadne (for it was
she) recognize the language of her lover; pain and fever from
her wound had deranged her intellects, while her piteous cries
and feeble efforts to escape, penetrated me with compassion. In
wild delirium she called upon the name of Raymond; she
exclaimed that I was keeping him from her, while the Turks
with fearful instruments of torture were about to take his life.
Then again she sadly lamented her hard fate; that a woman, with
a woman's heart and sensibility, should be driven by hopeless
love and vacant hopes to take up the trade of arms, and suffer
beyond the endurance of man privation, labour, and pain--the
while her dry, hot hand pressed mine, and her brow and lips
burned with consuming fire.
As her strength grew less, I lifted her from the ground; her
emaciated form hung over my arm, her sunken cheek rested on
my breast; in a sepulchral voice she murmured:--"This is the
end of love!--Yet not the end!"--and frenzy lent her strength
as she cast her arm up to heaven: "there is the end! there we
meet again. Many living deaths have I borne for thee, O
Raymond, and now I expire, thy victim!--By my death I purchase
thee--lo! the instruments of war, fire, the plague are my
servitors. I dared, I conquered them all, till now! I have sold
myself to death, with the sole condition that thou shouldst
follow me--Fire, and war, and plague, unite for thy destruction
--O my Raymond, there is no safety for thee!"
With a heavy heart I listened to the changes of her delirium;
I made her a bed of cloaks; her violence decreased and a clammy
dew stood on her brow as the paleness of death succeeded to the
crimson of fever, I placed her on the cloaks. She continued to
rave of her speedy meeting with her beloved in the grave, of his
death nigh at hand; sometimes she solemnly declared that he
was summoned; sometimes she bewailed his hard destiny. Her
voice grew feebler, her speech interrupted; a few convulsive
movements, and her muscles relaxed, the limbs fell, no more to
be sustained, one deep sigh, and life was gone.
I bore her from the near neighbourhood of the dead; wrapt in
cloaks, I placed her beneath a tree. Once more I looked on her
altered face; the last time I saw her she was eighteen;
beautiful as poet's vision, splendid as a Sultana of the East--
Twelve years had past; twelve years of change, sorrow and
hardship; her brilliant complexion had become worn and dark,
her limbs had lost the roundness of youth and womanhood; her
eyes had sunk deep,
Crushed and o'erworn,
The hours had drained her blood, and filled her brow
With lines and wrinkles.
With shuddering horror I veiled this monument of human
passion and human misery; I heaped over her all of flags and
heavy accoutrements I could find, to guard her from birds and
beasts of prey, until I could bestow on her a fitting grave.
Sadly and slowly I stemmed my course from among the heaps of
slain, and, guided by the twinkling lights of the town, at length
reached Rodosto.
ON my arrival, I found that an order had already gone forth for
the army to proceed immediately towards Constantinople; and
the troops which had suffered least in the battle were already
on their way. The town was full of tumult. The wound, and
consequent inability of Argyropylo, caused Raymond to be the
first in command. He rode through the town, visiting the
wounded, and giving such orders as were necessary for the siege
he meditated. Early in the morning the whole army was in
motion. In the hurry I could hardly find an opportunity to
bestow the last offices on Evadne. Attended only by my servant,
I dug a deep grave for her at the foot of the tree, and without
disturbing her warrior shroud, I placed her in it, heaping
stones upon the grave. The dazzling sun and glare of daylight,
deprived the scene of solemnity; from Evadne's low tomb, I
joined Raymond and his staff, now on their way to the Golden
City.
Constantinople was invested, trenches dug, and advances made.
The whole Greek fleet blockaded it by sea; on land from the
river Kyat Kbanah, near the Sweet Waters, to the Tower of
Marmora, on the shores of the Propontis, along the whole line
of the ancient walls, the trenches of the siege were drawn. We
already possessed Pera; the Golden Horn itself, the city,
bastioned by the sea, and the ivy-mantled walls of the Greek
emperors was all of Europe that the Mohammedans could call
theirs. Our army looked on her as certain prey. They counted
the garrison; it was impossible that it should be relieved; each
sally was a victory; for, even when the Turks were triumphant,
the loss of men they sustained was an irreparable injury.
I rode one morning with Raymond to the lofty mound, not far
from the Top Kapou, (Cannon-gate), on which Mahmoud planted
his standard, and first saw the city. Still the same lofty domes
and minarets towered above the verdurous walls, where
Constantine had died, and the Turk had entered the city. The
plain around was interspersed with cemeteries, Turk, Greek, and
Armenian, with their growth of cypress trees; and other woods
of more cheerful aspect, diversified the scene. Among them the
Greek army was encamped, and their squadrons moved to and fro
--now in regular march, now in swift career.
Raymond's eyes were fixed on the city. "I have counted the
hours of her life," said he; "one month, and she falls. Remain
with me till then; wait till you see the cross on St. Sophia;
and then return to your peaceful glades."
"You then," I asked, "still remain in Greece?"
"Assuredly," replied Raymond. "Yet Lionel, when I say this,
believe me I look back with regret to our tranquil life at
Windsor. I am but half a soldier; I love the renown, but not the
trade of war. Before the battle of Rodosto I was full of hope
and spirit; to conquer there, and afterwards to take
Constantinople, was the hope, the bourne, the fulfilment of my
ambition. This enthusiasm is now spent, I know not why; I seem
to myself to be entering a darksome gulf; the ardent spirit of
the army is irksome to me, the rapture of triumph null."
He paused, and was lost in thought. His serious mien
recalled, by some association, the half-forgotten Evadne to my
mind, and I seized this opportunity to make inquiries from him
concerning her strange lot. I asked him, if he had ever seen
among the troops any one resembling her; if since he had
returned to Greece he had heard of her?
He started at her name,--he looked uneasily on me. "Even
so," he cried, "I knew you would speak of her. Long, long I had
forgotten her. Since our encampment here, she daily, hourly
visits my thoughts. When I am addressed, her name is the sound
I expect: in every communication, I imagine that she will form
a part. At length you have broken the spell; tell me what you
know of her."
I related my meeting with her; the story of her death was
told and re-told. With painful earnestness he questioned me
concerning her prophecies with regard to him. I treated them as
the ravings of a maniac. "No, no," he said, "do not deceive
yourself,--me you cannot. She has said nothing but what I knew
before--though this is confirmation. Fire, the sword, and
plague! They may all be found in yonder city; on my head alone
may they fall!"
From this day Raymond's melancholy increased. He secluded
himself as much as the duties of his station permitted. When in
company, sadness would in spite of every effort steal over his
features, and he sat absent and mute among the busy crowd that
thronged about him. Perdita rejoined him, and before her he
forced himself to appear cheerful, for she, even as a mirror,
changed as he changed, and if he were silent and anxious, she
solicitously inquired concerning, and endeavoured to remove the
cause of his seriousness. She resided at the palace of Sweet
Waters, a summer seraglio of the Sultan; the beauty of the
surrounding scenery, undefiled by war, and the freshness of the
river, made this spot doubly delightful. Raymond felt no relief,
received no pleasure from any show of heaven or earth. He often
left Perdita, to wander in the grounds alone; or in a light
shallop he floated idly on the pure waters, musing deeply.
Sometimes I joined him; at such times his countenance was
invariably solemn, his air dejected. He seemed relieved on
seeing me, and would talk with some degree of interest on the
affairs of the day. There was evidently something behind all
this; yet, when he appeared about to speak of that which was
nearest his heart, he would abruptly turn away, and with a sigh
endeavour to deliver the painful idea to the winds.
It had often occurred, that, when, as I said, Raymond quitted
Perdita's drawing-room, Clara came up to me, and gently drawing
me aside, said, "Papa is gone; shall we go to him? I dare say he
will be glad to see you." And, as accident permitted, I complied
with or refused her request. One evening a numerous assembly of
Greek chieftains were gathered together in the palace. The
intriguing Palli, the accomplished Karazza, the warlike
Ypsilanti, were among the principal. They talked of the events
of the day; the skirmish at noon; the diminished numbers of
the Infidels; their defeat and flight: they contemplated, after
a short interval of time, the capture of the Golden City. They
endeavoured to picture forth what would then happen, and spoke
in lofty terms of the prosperity of Greece, when Constantinople
should become its capital. The conversation then reverted to
Asiatic intelligence, and the ravages the plague made in its
chief cities; conjectures were hazarded as to the progress that
disease might have made in the besieged city.
Raymond had joined in the former part of the discussion. In
lively terms he demonstrated the extremities to which
Constantinople was reduced; the wasted and haggard, though
ferocious appearance of the troops; famine and pestilence was
at work for them, he observed, and the infidels would soon be
obliged to take refuge in their only hope--submission. Suddenly
in the midst of his harangue he broke off, as if stung by some
painful thought; he rose uneasily, and I perceived him at length
quit the hall, and through the long corridor seek the open air.
He did not return; and soon Clara crept round to me, making the
accustomed invitation. I consented to her request, and taking
her little hand, followed Raymond. We found him just about to
embark in his boat, and he readily agreed to receive us as
companions. After the heats of the day, the cooling land-breeze
ruffled the river, and filled our little sail. The city looked
dark to the south, while numerous lights along the near shores,
and the beautiful aspect of the banks reposing in placid night,
the waters keenly reflecting the heavenly lights, gave to this
beauteous river a dower of loveliness that might have
characterised a retreat in Paradise. Our single boatman
attended to the sail; Raymond steered; Clara sat at his feet,
clasping his knees with her arms, and laying her head on them.
Raymond began the conversation somewhat abruptly.
"This, my friend, is probably the last time we shall have an
opportunity of conversing freely; my plans are now in full
operation, and my time will become more and more occupied.
Besides, I wish at once to tell you my wishes and expectations,
and then never again to revert to so painful a subject. First, I
must thank you, Lionel, for having remained here at my request.
Vanity first prompted me to ask you: vanity, I call it; yet even
in this I see the hand of fate--your presence will soon be
necessary; you will become the last resource of Perdita, her
protector and consoler. You will take her back to Windsor."--
"Not without you," I said. "You do not mean to separate
again?"
"Do not deceive yourself," replied Raymond, "the separation
at hand is one over which I have no control; most near at hand
is it; the days are already counted. May I trust you? For many
days I have longed to disclose the mysterious presentiments
that weigh on me, although I fear that you will ridicule them.
Yet do not, my gentle friend; for, all childish and unwise as
they are, they have become a part of me, and I dare not expect
to shake them off.
"Yet how can I expect you to sympathize with me? You are of
this world; I am not. You hold forth your hand; it is even as a
part of yourself; and you do not yet divide the feeling of
identity from the mortal form that shapes forth Lionel. How
then can you understand me? Earth is to me a tomb, the
firmament a vault, shrouding mere corruption. Time is no more,
for I have stepped within the threshold of eternity; each man I
meet appears a corse, which will soon be deserted of its
animating spark, on the eve of decay and corruption.
Cada piedra un piramide levanta,
y cada flor costruye un monumento,
cada edificio es un sepulcro altivo,
cada soldado un esqueleto vivo."
His accent was mournful,--he sighed deeply. "A few months ago,"
he continued, "I was thought to be dying; but life was strong
within me. My affections were human; hope and love were the
day-stars of my life. Now--they dream that the brows of the
conqueror of the infidel faith are about to be encircled by
triumphant laurel; they talk of honourable reward, of title,
power, and wealth--all I ask of Greece is a grave. Let them
raise a mound above my lifeless body, which may stand even
when the dome of St. Sophia has fallen.
"Wherefore do I feel thus? At Rodosto I was full of hope; but
when first I saw Constantinople, that feeling, with every other
joyful one, departed. The last words of Evadne were the seal
upon the warrant of my death. Yet I do not pretend to account
for my mood by any particular event. All I can say is, that it
is so. The plague I am told is in Constantinople, perhaps I have
imbibed its effluvia--perhaps disease is the real cause of my
prognostications. It matters little why or wherefore I am
affected, no power can avert the stroke, and the shadow of
Fate's uplifted hand already darkens me.
"To you, Lionel, I entrust your sister and her child. Never
mention to her the fatal name of Evadne. She would doubly
sorrow over the strange link that enchains me to her, making
my spirit obey her dying voice, following her, as it is about to
do, to the unknown country."
I listened to him with wonder; but that his sad demeanour
and solemn utterance assured me of the truth and intensity of
his feelings, I should with light derision have attempted to
dissipate his fears. Whatever I was about to reply, was
interrupted by the powerful emotions of Clara. Raymond had
spoken, thoughtless of her presence, and she, poor child, heard
with terror and faith the prophecy of his death. Her father was
moved by her violent grief; he took her in his arms and soothed
her, but his very soothings were solemn and fearful. "Weep not,
sweet child," said he, "the coming death of one you have hardly
known. I may die, but in death I can never forget or desert my
own Clara. In after sorrow or joy, believe that you father's
spirit is near, to save or sympathize with you. Be proud of me,
and cherish your infant remembrance of me. Thus, sweetest, I
shall not appear to die. One thing you must promise,--not to
speak to any one but your uncle, of the conversation you have
just overheard. When I am gone, you will console your mother,
and tell her that death was only bitter because it divided me
from her; that my last thoughts will be spent on her. But
while I live, promise not to betray me; promise, my child."
With faltering accents Clara promised, while she still clung
to her father in a transport of sorrow. Soon we returned to
shore, and I endeavoured to obviate the impression made on the
child's mind, by treating Raymond's fears lightly. We heard no
more of them; for, as he had said, the siege, now drawing to a
conclusion, became paramount in interest, engaging all his
time and attention.
The empire of the Mohammedans in Europe was at its close.
The Greek fleet blockading every port of Stamboul, prevented
the arrival of succour from Asia; all egress on the side towards
land had become impracticable, except to such desperate
sallies, as reduced the numbers of the enemy without making
any impression on our lines. The garrison was now so much
diminished, that it was evident that the city could easily have
been carried by storm; but both humanity and policy dictated a
slower mode of proceeding. We could hardly doubt that, if
pursued to the utmost, its palaces, its temples and store of
wealth would be destroyed in the fury of contending triumph and
defeat. Already the defenceless citizens had suffered through
the barbarity of the Janisaries; and, in time of storm, tumult
and massacre, beauty, infancy and decrepitude, would have alike
been sacrificed to the brutal ferocity of the soldiers. Famine
and blockade were certain means of conquest; and on these we
founded our hopes of victory.
Each day the soldiers of the garrison assaulted our advanced
posts, and impeded the accomplishment of our works. Fire-boats
were launched from the various ports, while our troops
sometimes recoiled from the devoted courage of men who did
not seek to live, but to sell their lives dearly. These contests
were aggravated by the season: they took place during summer,
when the southern Asiatic wind came laden with intolerable
heat, when the streams were dried up in their shallow beds, and
the vast basin of the sea appeared to glow under the
unmitigated rays of the solstitial sun. Nor did night refresh
the earth. Dew was denied; herbage and flowers there were none;
the very trees drooped; and summer assumed the blighted
appearance of winter, as it went forth in silence and flame to
abridge the means of sustenance to man. In vain did the eye
strive to find the wreck of some northern cloud in the
stainless empyrean, which might bring hope of change and
moisture to the oppressive and windless atmosphere. All was
serene, burning, annihilating. We the besiegers were in the
comparison little affected by these evils. The woods around
afforded us shade,--the river secured to us a constant supply of
water; nay, detachments were employed in furnishing the army
with ice, which had been laid up on Haemus, and Athos, and the
mountains of Macedonia, while cooling fruits and wholesome
food renovated the strength of the labourers, and made us bear
with less impatience the weight of the unrefreshing air. But in
the city things wore a different face. The sun's rays were
refracted from the pavement and buildings--the stoppage of the
public fountains--the bad quality of the food, and scarcity even
of that, produced a state of suffering, which was aggravated by
the scourge of disease; while the garrison arrogated every
superfluity to themselves, adding by waste and riot to the
necessary evils of the time. Still they would not capitulate.
Suddenly the system of warfare was changed. We experienced
no more assaults; and by night and day we continued our labours
unimpeded. Stranger still, when the troops advanced near the
city, the walls were vacant, and no cannon was pointed against
the intruders. When these circumstances were reported to
Raymond, he caused minute observations to be made as to what
was doing within the walls, and when his scouts returned,
reporting only the continued silence and desolation of the city,
he commanded the army to be drawn out before the gates. No
one appeared on the walls; the very portals, though locked and
barred, seemed unguarded; above, the many domes and glittering
crescents pierced heaven; while the old walls, survivors of ages,
with ivy-crowned tower and weed-tangled buttress, stood as rocks
in an uninhabited waste. From within the city neither shout nor
cry, nor aught except the casual howling of a dog, broke the
noon-day stillness. Even our soldiers were awed to silence; the
music paused; the clang of arms was hushed. Each man asked his
fellow in whispers, the meaning of this sudden peace; while
Raymond from an height endeavoured, by means of glasses, to
discover and observe the stratagem of the enemy. No form could
be discerned on the terraces of the houses; in the higher parts
of the town no moving shadow bespoke the presence of any
living being: the very trees waved not, and mocked the stability
of architecture with like immovability.
The tramp of horses, distinctly heard in the silence, was at
length discerned. It was a troop sent by Karazza, the Admiral;
they bore dispatches to the Lord General. The contents of these
papers were important. The night before, the watch, on board
one of the smaller vessels anchored near the seraglio wall, was
roused by a slight splashing as of muffled oars; the alarm was
given: twelve small boats, each containing three Janisaries,
were descried endeavouring to make their way through the fleet
to the opposite shore of Scutari. When they found themselves
discovered they discharged their muskets, and some came to the
front to cover the others, whose crews, exerting all their
strength, endeavoured to escape with their light barks from
among the dark hulls that environed them. They were in the end
all sunk, and, with the exception of two or three prisoners, the
crews drowned. Little could be got from the survivors; but
their cautious answers caused it to be surmised that several
expeditions had preceded this last, and that several Turks of
rank and importance had been conveyed to Asia. The men
disdainfully repelled the idea of having deserted the defence of
their city; and one, the youngest among them, in answer to the
taunt of a sailor, exclaimed, "Take it, Christian dogs! take the
palaces, the gardens, the mosques, the abode of our fathers--
take plague with them; pestilence is the enemy we fly; if she
be your friend, hug her to your bosoms. The curse of Allah is
on Stamboul, share ye her fate."
Such was the account sent by Karazza to Raymond: but a tale
full of monstrous exaggerations, though founded on this, was
spread by the accompanying troop among our soldiers. A murmur
arose, the city was the prey of pestilence; already had a mighty
power subjugated the inhabitants; Death had become lord of
Constantinople.
I have heard a picture described, wherein all the inhabitants
of earth were drawn out in fear to stand the encounter of Death.
The feeble and decrepit fled; the warriors retreated, though
they threatened even in flight. Wolves and lions, and various
monsters of the desert roared against him; while the grim
Unreality hovered shaking his spectral dart, a solitary but
invincible assailant. Even so was it with the army of Greece. I
am convinced, that had the myriad troops of Asia come from
over the Propontis, and stood defenders of the Golden City, each
and every Greek would have marched against the overwhelming
numbers, and have devoted himself with patriotic fury for his
country. But here no hedge of bayonets opposed itself, no death-
dealing artillery, no formidable array of brave soldiers--the
unguarded walls afforded easy entrance--the vacant palaces
luxurious dwellings; but above the dome of St. Sophia the
superstitious Greek saw Pestilence, and shrunk in trepidation
from her influence.
Raymond was actuated by far other feelings. He descended the
hill with a face beaming with triumph, and pointing with his
sword to the gates, commanded his troops to--down with those
barricades--the only obstacles now to completest victory. The
soldiers answered his cheerful words with aghast and awe-struck
looks; instinctively they drew back, and Raymond rode in the
front of the lines:--"By my sword I swear," he cried, "that no
ambush or stratagem endangers you. The enemy is already
vanquished; the pleasant places, the noble dwellings and spoil
of the city are already yours; force the gate; enter and possess
the seats of your ancestors, your own inheritance!"
An universal shudder and fearful whispering passed through
the lines; not a soldier moved. "Cowards!" exclaimed their
general, exasperated, "give me an hatchet! I alone will enter! I
will plant your standard; and when you see it wave from yon
highest minaret, you may gain courage, and rally round it!"
One of the officers now came forward: "General," he said, "we
neither fear the courage, nor arms, the open attack, nor secret
ambush of the Moslems. We are ready to expose our breasts,
exposed ten thousand times before, to the balls and scimitars
of the infidels, and to fall gloriously for Greece. But we will
not die in heaps, like dogs poisoned in summer-time, by the
pestilential air of that city--we dare not go against the
Plague!"
A multitude of men are feeble and inert, without a voice, a
leader; give them that, and they regain the strength belonging
to their numbers. Shouts from a thousand voices now rent the
air--the cry of applause became universal. Raymond saw the
danger; he was willing to save his troops from the crime of
disobedience; for he knew, that contention once begun between
the commander and his army, each act and word added to the
weakness of the former, and bestowed power on the latter. He
gave orders for the retreat to be sounded, and the regiments
repaired in good order to the camp.
I hastened to carry the intelligence of these strange
proceedings to Perdita; and we were soon joined by Raymond. He
looked gloomy and perturbed. My sister was struck by my
narrative: "How beyond the imagination of man," she exclaimed,
"are the decrees of heaven, wondrous and inexplicable!"
"Foolish girl," cried Raymond angrily, "are you like my
valiant soldiers, panic-struck? What is there inexplicable, pray,
tell me, in so very natural an occurrence? Does not the plague
rage each year in Stamboul? What wonder, that this year, when
as we are told, its virulence is unexampled in Asia, that it
should have occasioned double havoc in that city? What wonder
then, in time of siege, want, extreme heat, and drought, that it
should make unaccustomed ravages? Less wonder far is it, that
the garrison, despairing of being able to hold out longer,
should take advantage of the negligence of our fleet to escape
at once from siege and capture. It is not pestilence--by the
God that lives! it is not either plague or impending danger
that makes us, like birds in harvest-time, terrified by a
scarecrow, abstain from the ready prey--it is base superstition
--And thus the aim of the valiant is made the shuttlecock of
fools; the worthy ambition of the high-souled, the plaything of
these tamed hares! But yet Stamboul shall be ours! By my past
labours, by torture and imprisonment suffered for them, by my
victories, by my sword, I swear--by my hopes of fame, by my
former deserts now awaiting their reward, I deeply vow, with
these hands to plant the cross on yonder mosque!"
"Dearest Raymond!" interrupted Perdita, in a supplicating
accent.
He had been walking to and fro in the marble hall of the
seraglio; his very lips were pale with rage, while, quivering,
they shaped his angry words--his eyes shot fire--his gestures
seemed restrained by their very vehemence. "Perdita," he
continued, impatiently, "I know what you would say; I know that
you love me, that you are good and gentle; but this is no
woman's work--nor can a female heart guess at the hurricane
which tears me!"
He seemed half afraid of his own violence, and suddenly
quitted the hall: a look from Perdita showed me her distress,
and I followed him. He was pacing the garden: his passions were
in a state of inconceivable turbulence. "Am I for ever," he
cried, "to be the sport of fortune! Must man, the heaven-
climber, be for ever the victim of the crawling reptiles of his
species! Were I as you, Lionel, looking forward to many years of
life, to a succession of love-enlightened days, to refined
enjoyments and fresh-springing hopes, I might yield, and
breaking my General's staff, seek repose in the glades of
Windsor. But I am about to die!--nay, interrupt me not--soon I
shall die. From the many-peopled earth, from the sympathies of
man, from the loved resorts of my youth, from the kindness of
my friends, from the affection of my only beloved Perdita, I am
about to be removed. Such is the will of fate! Such the decree
of the High Ruler from whom there is no appeal: to whom I
submit. But to lose all--to lose with life and love, glory also!
It shall not be!
"I, and in a few brief years, all you,--this panic-struck army,
and all the population of fair Greece, will no longer be. But
other generations will arise, and ever and for ever will
continue, to be made happier by our present acts, to be
glorified by our valour. The prayer of my youth was to be one
among those who render the pages of earth's history splendid;
who exalt the race of man, and make this little globe a
dwelling of the mighty. Alas, for Raymond! the prayer of his
youth is wasted--the hopes of his manhood are null!
"From my dungeon in yonder city I cried, soon I will be thy
lord! When Evadne pronounced my death, I thought that the title
of Victor of Constantinople would be written on my tomb, and I
subdued all mortal fear. I stand before its vanquished walls,
and dare not call myself a conqueror. So shall it not be! Did
not Alexander leap from the walls of the city of the Oxydracae,
to show his coward troops the way to victory, encountering
alone the swords of its defenders? Even so will I brave the
plague--and though no man follow, I will plant the Grecian
standard on the height of St. Sophia."
Reason came unavailing to such high-wrought feelings. In vain
I showed him, that when winter came, the cold would dissipate
the pestilential air, and restore courage to the Greeks. "Talk
not of other season than this!" he cried. "I have lived my last
winter, and the date of this year, 2092, will be carved upon my
tomb. Already do I see," he continued, looking up mournfully,
"the bourne and precipitate edge of my existence, over which I
plunge into the gloomy mystery of the life to come. I am
prepared, so that I leave behind a trail of light so radiant,
that my worst enemies cannot cloud it. I owe this to Greece, to
you, to my surviving Perdita, and to myself, the victim of
ambition."
We were interrupted by an attendant, who announced, that the
staff of Raymond was assembled in the council-chamber. He
requested me in the meantime to ride through the camp, and to
observe and report to him the dispositions of the soldiers; he
then left me. I had been excited to the utmost by the
proceedings of the day, and now more than ever by the
passionate language of Raymond. Alas! for human reason! He
accused the Greeks of superstition: what name did he give to
the faith he lent to the predictions of Evadne? I passed from
the palace of Sweet Waters to the plain on which the
encampment lay, and found its inhabitants in commotion. The
arrival of several with fresh stories of marvels, from the
fleet; the exaggerations bestowed on what was already known;
tales of old prophecies, of fearful histories of whole regions
which had been laid waste during the present year by pestilence,
alarmed and occupied the troops. Discipline was lost; the army
disbanded itself. Each individual, before a part of a great whole
moving only in unison with others, now became resolved into
the unit nature had made him, and thought of himself only.
They stole off at first by ones and twos, then in larger
companies, until, unimpeded by the officers, whole battalions
sought the road that led to Macedonia.
About midnight I returned to the palace and sought Raymond;
he was alone, and apparently composed; such composure, at
least, was his as is inspired by a resolve to adhere to a certain
line of conduct. He heard my account of the self-dissolution of
the army with calmness, and then said, "You know, Verney, my
fixed determination not to quit this place, until in the light
of day Stamboul is confessedly ours. If the men I have about me
shrink from following me, others, more courageous, are to be
found. Go you before break of day, bear these dispatches to
Karazza, add to them your own entreaties that he send me his
marines and naval force; if I can get but one regiment to
second me, the rest would follow of course. Let him send me
this regiment. I shall expect your return by to-morrow noon."
Methought this was but a poor expedient; but I assured him
of my obedience and zeal. I quitted him to take a few hours
rest. With the breaking of morning I was accoutred for my ride.
I lingered awhile, desirous of taking leave of Perdita, and from
my window observed the approach of the sun. The golden
splendour arose, and weary nature awoke to suffer yet another
day of heat and thirsty decay. No flowers lifted up their dew-
laden cups to meet the dawn; the dry grass had withered on the
plains; the burning fields of air were vacant of birds; the
cicale alone, children of the sun, began their shrill and
deafening song among the cypresses and olives. I saw Raymond's
coal-black charger brought to the palace gate; a small company
of officers arrived soon after; care and fear was painted on
each cheek, and in each eye, unrefreshed by sleep. I found
Raymond and Perdita together. He was watching the rising sun,
while with one arm he encircled his beloved's waist; she looked
on him, the sun of her life, with earnest gaze of mingled
anxiety and tenderness. Raymond started angrily when he saw
me. "Here still?" he cried. "Is this your promised zeal?"
"Pardon me," I said, "but even as you speak, I am gone."
"Nay, pardon me," he replied; "I have no right to command or
reproach; but my life hangs on your departure and speedy
return. Farewell!"
His voice had recovered its bland tone, but a dark cloud still
hung on his features. I would have delayed; I wished to
recommend watchfulness to Perdita, but his presence restrained
me. I had no pretence for my hesitation; and on his repeating
his farewell, I clasped his outstretched hand; it was cold and
clammy. "Take care of yourself, my dear Lord," I said.
"Nay," said Perdita, "that task shall be mine. Return
speedily, Lionel."
With an air of absence he was playing with her auburn locks,
while she leaned on him; twice I turned back, only to look
again on this matchless pair. At last, with slow and heavy
steps, I had paced out of the hall, and sprung upon my horse. At
that moment Clara flew towards me; clasping my knee she cried,
"Make haste back, uncle! Dear uncle, I have such fearful dreams;
I dare not tell my mother. Do not be long away!" I assured her
of my impatience to return, and then, with a small escort rode
along the plain towards the tower of Marmora.
I fulfilled my commission; I saw Karazza. He was somewhat
surprised; he would see, he said, what could be done; but it
required time; and Raymond had ordered me to return by noon.
It was impossible to effect any thing in so short a time. I
must stay till the next day; or come back, after having
reported the present state of things to the general. My choice
was easily made. A restlessness, a fear of what was about to
betide, a doubt as to Raymond's purposes, urged me to return
without delay to his quarters. Quitting the Seven Towers, I rode
eastward towards the Sweet Waters. I took a circuitous path,
principally for the sake of going to the top of the mount
before mentioned, which commanded a view of the city. I had my
glass with me. The city basked under the noon-day sun, and the
venerable walls formed its picturesque boundary. Immediately
before me was the Top Kapou, the gate near which Mahomet had
made the breach by which he entered the city. Trees gigantic
and aged grew near; before the gate I discerned a crowd of
moving human figures--with intense curiosity I lifted my glass
to my eye. I saw Lord Raymond on his charger; a small company
of officers had gathered about him; and behind was a
promiscuous concourse of soldiers and subalterns, their
discipline lost, their arms thrown aside; no music sounded, no
banners streamed. The only flag among them was one which
Raymond carried; he pointed with it to the gate of the city. The
circle round him fell back. With angry gestures he leapt from
his horse, and seizing a hatchet that hung from his saddle-bow,
went with the apparent intention of battering down the
opposing gate. A few men came to aid him; their numbers
increased; under their united blows the obstacle was vanquished,
gate, portcullis, and fence were demolished; and the wide sun-
lit way, leading to the heart of the city, now lay open before
them. The men shrank back; they seemed afraid of what they had
already done, and stood as if they expected some Mighty
Phantom to stalk in offended majesty from the opening.
Raymond sprung lightly on his horse, grasped the standard, and
with words which I could not hear (but his gestures, being their
fit accompaniment, were marked by passionate energy,) he
seemed to adjure their assistance and companionship; even as
he spoke, the crowd receded from him. Indignation now
transported him; his words I guessed were fraught with disdain
--then turning from his coward followers, he addressed himself
to enter the city alone. His very horse seemed to back from the
fatal entrance; his dog, his faithful dog, lay moaning and
supplicating in his path--in a moment more, he had plunged the
rowels into the sides of the stung animal, who bounded forward,
and he, the gateway passed, was galloping up the broad and
desert street.
Until this moment my soul had been in my eyes only. I had
gazed with wonder, mixed with fear and enthusiasm. The latter
feeling now predominated. I forgot the distance between us: "I
will go with thee, Raymond!" I cried; but, my eye removed from
the glass, I could scarce discern the pygmy forms of the crowd,
which about a mile from me surrounded the gate; the form of
Raymond was lost. Stung with impatience, I urged my horse with
force of spur and loosened reins down the acclivity, that,
before danger could arrive, I might be at the side of my noble,
godlike friend. A number of buildings and trees intervened, when
I had reached the plain, hiding the city from my view. But at
that moment a crash was heard. Thunderlike it reverberated
through the sky, while the air was darkened. A moment more and
the old walls again met my sight, while over them hovered a
murky cloud; fragments of buildings whirled above, half seen in
smoke, while flames burst out beneath, and continued
explosions filled the air with terrific thunders. Flying from
the mass of falling ruin which leapt over the high walls, and
shook the ivy towers, a crowd of soldiers made for the road by
which I came; I was surrounded, hemmed in by them, unable to
get forward. My impatience rose to its utmost; I stretched out
my hands to the men; I conjured them to turn back and save
their General, the conqueror of Stamboul, the liberator of
Greece; tears, aye tears, in warm flow gushed from my eyes--I
would not believe in his destruction; yet every mass that
darkened the air seemed to bear with it a portion of the
martyred Raymond. Horrible sights were shaped to me in the
turbid cloud that hovered over the city; and my only relief was
derived from the struggles I made to approach the gate. Yet
when I effected my purpose, all I could discern within the
precincts of the massive walls was a city of fire: the open way
through which Raymond had ridden was enveloped in smoke and
flame. After an interval the explosions ceased, but the flames
still shot up from various quarters; the dome of St. Sophia had
disappeared. Strange to say (the result perhaps of the
concussion of air occasioned by the blowing up of the city)
huge, white thunder clouds lifted themselves up from the
southern horizon, and gathered over-head; they were the first
blots on the blue expanse that I had seen for months, and
amidst this havoc and despair they inspired pleasure. The vault
above became obscured, lightning flashed from the heavy
masses, followed instantaneously by crashing thunder; then the
big rain fell. The flames of the city bent beneath it; and the
smoke and dust arising from the ruins was dissipated.
I no sooner perceived an abatement of the flames than,
hurried on by an irresistible impulse, I endeavoured to
penetrate the town. I could only do this on foot, as the mass
of ruin was impracticable for a horse. I had never entered the
city before, and its ways were unknown to me. The streets were
blocked up, the ruins smoking; I climbed up one heap, only to
view others in succession; and nothing told me where the centre
of the town might be, or towards what point Raymond might
have directed his course. The rain ceased; the clouds sunk
behind the horizon; it was now evening, and the sun descended
swiftly the western sky. I scrambled on, until I came to a
street, whose wooden houses, half-burnt, had been cooled by the
rain, and were fortunately uninjured by the gunpowder. Up this I
hurried--until now I had not seen a vestige of man. Yet none of
the defaced human forms which I distinguished, could be
Raymond; so I turned my eyes away, while my heart sickened
within me. I came to an open space--a mountain of ruin in the
midst, announced that some large mosque had occupied the space
--and here, scattered about, I saw various articles of luxury and
wealth, singed, destroyed--but showing what they had been in
their ruin--jewels, strings of pearls, embroidered robes, rich
furs, glittering tapestries, and oriental ornaments, seemed to
have been collected here in a pile destined for destruction; but
the rain had stopped the havoc midway.
Hours passed, while in this scene of ruin I sought for
Raymond. Insurmountable heaps sometimes opposed themselves;
the still burning fires scorched me. The sun set; the
atmosphere grew dim--and the evening star no longer shone
companionless. The glare of flames attested the progress of
destruction, while, during mingled light and obscurity, the
piles around me took gigantic proportions and weird shapes. For
a moment I could yield to the creative power of the
imagination, and for a moment was soothed by the sublime
fictions it presented to me. The beatings of my human heart
drew me back to blank reality. Where, in this wilderness of
death, art thou, O Raymond--ornament of England, deliverer of
Greece, "hero of unwritten story," where in this burning chaos
are thy dear relics strewed? I called aloud for him--through
the darkness of night, over the scorching ruins of fallen
Constantinople, his name was heard; no voice replied--echo even
was mute.
I was overcome by weariness; the solitude depressed my
spirits. The sultry air impregnated with dust, the heat and
smoke of burning palaces, palsied my limbs. Hunger suddenly
came acutely upon me. The excitement which had hitherto
sustained me was lost; as a building, whose props are loosened,
and whose foundations rock, totters and falls, so when
enthusiasm and hope deserted me, did my strength fail. I sat on
the sole remaining step of an edifice, which even in its
downfall, was huge and magnificent; a few broken walls, not
dislodged by gunpowder, stood in fantastic groups, and a flame
glimmered at intervals on the summit of the pile. For a time
hunger and sleep contended, till the constellations reeled
before my eyes and then were lost. I strove to rise, but my
heavy lids closed, my limbs over-wearied, claimed repose--I
rested my head on the stone, I yielded to the grateful sensation
of utter forgetfulness; and in that scene of desolation, on that
night of despair--I slept.
THE stars still shone brightly when I awoke, and Taurus high in
the southern heaven showed that it was midnight. I awoke from
disturbed dreams. Methought I had been invited to Timon's last
feast; I came with keen appetite, the covers were removed, the
hot water sent up its unsatisfying steams, while I fled before
the anger of the host, who assumed the form of Raymond; while
to my diseased fancy, the vessels hurled by him after me, were
surcharged with fetid vapour, and my friend's shape, altered by
a thousand distortions, expanded into a gigantic phantom,
bearing on its brow the sign of pestilence. The growing shadow
rose and rose, filling, and then seeming to endeavour to burst
beyond, the adamantine vault that bent over, sustaining and
enclosing the world. The night-mare became torture; with a
strong effort I threw off sleep, and recalled reason to her
wonted functions. My first thought was Perdita; to her I must
return; her I must support, drawing such food from despair as
might best sustain her wounded heart; recalling her from the
wild excesses of grief, by the austere laws of duty, and the soft
tenderness of regret.
The position of the stars was my only guide. I turned from
the awful ruin of the Golden City, and, after great exertion,
succeeded in extricating myself from its enclosure. I met a
company of soldiers outside the walls; I borrowed a horse from
one of them, and hastened to my sister. The appearance of the
plain was changed during this short interval; the encampment
was broken up; the relics of the disbanded army met in small
companies here and there; each face was clouded; every gesture
spoke astonishment and dismay.
With a heavy heart I entered the palace, and stood fearful to
advance, to speak, to look. In the midst of the hall was
Perdita; she sat on the marble pavement, her head fallen on her
bosom, her hair dishevelled, her fingers twined busily one
within the other; she was pale as marble, and every feature was
contracted by agony. She perceived me, and looked up
inquiringly; her half glance of hope was misery; the words died
before I could articulate them; I felt a ghastly smile wrinkle
my lips. She understood my gesture; again her head fell; again
her fingers worked restlessly. At last I recovered speech, but
my voice terrified her; the hapless girl had understood my
look, and for worlds she would not that the tale of her heavy
misery should have been shaped out and confirmed by hard,
irrevocable words. Nay, she seemed to wish to distract my
thoughts from the subject: she rose from the floor: "Hush!"
she said, whisperingly; "after much weeping, Clara sleeps; we
must not disturb her." She seated herself then on the same
ottoman where I had left her in the morning resting on the
beating heart of her Raymond; I dared not approach her, but sat
at a distant corner, watching her starting and nervous gestures.
At length, in an abrupt manner she asked, "Where is he?"
"O, fear not," she continued, "fear not that I should
entertain hope! Yet tell me, have you found him? To have him
once more in my arms, to see him, however changed, is all I
desire. Though Constantinople be heaped above him as a tomb,
yet I must find him--then cover us with the city's weight, with
a mountain piled above--I care not, so that one grave hold
Raymond and his Perdita." Then weeping, she clung to me: "Take
me to him," she cried, "unkind Lionel, why do you keep me here?
Of myself I cannot find him--but you know where he lies--lead
me thither."
At first these agonizing plaints filled me with intolerable
compassion. But soon I endeavoured to extract patience for her
from the ideas she suggested. I related my adventures of the
night, my endeavours to find our lost one, and my
disappointment. Turning her thoughts this way, I gave them an
object which rescued them from insanity. With apparent
calmness she discussed with me the probable spot where he
might be found, and planned the means we should use for that
purpose. Then hearing of my fatigue and abstinence, she herself
brought me food. I seized the favourable moment, and
endeavoured to awaken in her something beyond the killing
torpor of grief. As I spoke, my subject carried me away; deep
admiration; grief, the offspring of truest affection, the
overflowing of a heart bursting with sympathy for all that had
been great and sublime in the career of my friend, inspired me
as I poured forth the praises of Raymond.
"Alas, for us," I cried, "who have lost this latest honour of
the world! Beloved Raymond! He is gone to the nations of the
dead; he has become one of those, who render the dark abode of
the obscure grave illustrious by dwelling there. He has
journeyed on the road that leads to it, and joined the mighty
of soul who went before him. When the world was in its infancy
death must have been terrible, and man left his friends and
kindred to dwell, a solitary stranger, in an unknown country.
But now, he who dies finds many companions gone before to
prepare for his reception. The great of past ages people it, the
exalted hero of our own days is counted among its inhabitants,
while life becomes doubly `the desert and the solitude.'
"What a noble creature was Raymond, the first among the men
of our time. By the grandeur of his conceptions, the graceful
daring of his actions, by his wit and beauty, he won and ruled
the minds of all. Of one only fault he might have been accused;
but his death has cancelled that. I have heard him called
inconstant of purpose--when he deserted, for the sake of love,
the hope of sovereignty, and when he abdicated the
protectorship of England, men blamed his infirmity of purpose.
Now his death has crowned his life, and to the end of time it
will be remembered, that he devoted himself, a willing victim,
to the glory of Greece. Such was his choice: he expected to die.
He foresaw that he should leave this cheerful earth, the
lightsome sky, and thy love, Perdita; yet he neither hesitated
or turned back, going right onward to his mark of fame. While
the earth lasts, his actions will be recorded with praise.
Grecian maidens will in devotion strew flowers on his tomb, and
make the air around it resonant with patriotic hymns, in which
his name will find high record."
I saw the features of Perdita soften; the sternness of grief
yielded to tenderness--I continued:--"Thus to honour him, is
the sacred duty of his survivors. To make his name even as an
holy spot of ground, enclosing it from all hostile attacks by
our praise, shedding on it the blossoms of love and regret,
guarding it from decay, and bequeathing it untainted to
posterity. Such is the duty of his friends. A dearer one belongs
to you, Perdita, mother of his child. Do you remember in her
infancy, with what transport you beheld Clara, recognizing in
her the united being of yourself and Raymond; joying to view in
this living temple a manifestation of your eternal loves. Even
such is she still. You say that you have lost Raymond. O, no!
--yet he lives with you and in you there. From him she sprung,
flesh of his flesh, bone of his bone--and not, as heretofore, are
you content to trace in her downy cheek and delicate limbs, an
affinity to Raymond, but in her enthusiastic affections, in the
sweet qualities of her mind, you may still find him living, the
good, the great, the beloved. Be it your care to foster this
similarity--be it your care to render her worthy of him, so
that, when she glory in her origin, she take not shame for what
she is."
I could perceive that, when I recalled my sister's thoughts
to her duties in life, she did not listen with the same patience
as before. She appeared to suspect a plan of consolation on my
part, from which she, cherishing her new-born grief, revolted.
"You talk of the future," she said, "while the present is all to
me. Let me find the earthly dwelling of my beloved; let us
rescue that from common dust, so that in times to come men
may point to the sacred tomb, and name it his--then to other
thoughts, and a new course of life, or what else fate, in her
cruel tyranny, may have marked out for me."
After a short repose I prepared to leave her, that I might
endeavour to accomplish her wish. In the mean time we were
joined by Clara, whose pallid cheek and scared look showed the
deep impression grief had made on her young mind. She seemed
to be full of something to which she could not give words; but,
seizing an opportunity afforded by Perdita's absence, she
preferred to me an earnest prayer, that I would take her within
view of the gate at which her father had entered Constantinople.
She promised to commit no extravagance, to be docile, and
immediately to return. I could not refuse; for Clara was not an
ordinary child; her sensibility and intelligence seemed already
to have endowed her with the rights of womanhood. With her
therefore, before me on my horse, attended only by the servant
who was to re-conduct her, we rode to the Top Kapou. We found a
party of soldiers gathered round it. They were listening. "They
are human cries," said one: "More like the howling of a dog,"
replied another; and again they bent to catch the sound of
regular distant moans, which issued from the precincts of the
ruined city. "That, Clara," I said, "is the gate, that the street
which yestermorn your father rode up." Whatever Clara's
intention had been in asking to be brought hither, it was balked
by the presence of the soldiers. With earnest gaze she looked
on the labyrinth of smoking piles which had been a city, and
then expressed her readiness to return home. At this moment a
melancholy howl struck on our ears; it was repeated; "Hark!"
cried Clara, "he is there; that is Florio, my father's dog." It
seemed to me impossible that she could recognise the sound,
but she persisted in her assertion till she gained credit with
the crowd about. At least it would be a benevolent action to
rescue the sufferer, whether human or brute, from the
desolation of the town; so, sending Clara back to her home, I
again entered Constantinople. Encouraged by the impunity
attendant on my former visit, several soldiers who had made a
part of Raymond's body guard, who had loved him, and sincerely
mourned his loss, accompanied me.
It is impossible to conjecture the strange enchainment of
events which restored the lifeless form of my friend to our
hands. In that part of the town where the fire had most raged
the night before, and which now lay quenched, black and cold,
the dying dog of Raymond crouched beside the mutilated form of
its lord. At such a time sorrow has no voice; affliction, tamed
by it is very vehemence, is mute. The poor animal recognised
me, licked my hand, crept close to its lord, and died. He had
been evidently thrown from his horse by some falling ruin,
which had crushed his head, and defaced his whole person. I bent
over the body, and took in my hand the edge of his cloak, less
altered in appearance than the human frame it clothed. I
pressed it to my lips, while the rough soldiers gathered around,
mourning over this worthiest prey of death, as if regret and
endless lamentation could re-illumine the extinguished spark,
or call to its shattered prison-house of flesh the liberated
spirit. Yesterday those limbs were worth an universe; they then
enshrined a transcendent power, whose intents, words, and
actions were worthy to be recorded in letters of gold; now the
superstition of affection alone could give value to the
shattered mechanism, which, incapable and clod-like, no more
resembled Raymond, than the fallen rain is like the former
mansion of cloud in which it climbed the highest skies, and
gilded by the sun, attracted all eyes, and satiated the sense by
its excess of beauty.
Such as he had now become, such as was his terrene vesture,
defaced and spoiled, we wrapt it in our cloaks, and lifting the
burthen in our arms, bore it from this city of the dead. The
question arose as to where we should deposit him. In our road
to the palace, we passed through the Greek cemetery; here on a
tablet of black marble I caused him to be laid; the cypresses
waved high above, their death-like gloom accorded with his
state of nothingness. We cut branches of the funereal trees and
placed them over him, and on these again his sword. I left a
guard to protect this treasure of dust; and ordered perpetual
torches to be burned around.
When I returned to Perdita, I found that she had already been
informed of the success of my undertaking. He, her beloved, the
sole and eternal object of her passionate tenderness, was
restored her. Such was the maniac language of her enthusiasm.
What though those limbs moved not, and those lips could no
more frame modulated accents of wisdom and love! What though
like a weed flung from the fruitless sea, he lay the prey of
corruption--still that was the form she had caressed, those the
lips that meeting hers, had drank the spirit of love from the
commingling breath; that was the earthly mechanism of
dissoluble clay she had called her own. True, she looked forward
to another life; true, the burning spirit of love seemed to her
inextinguishable throughout eternity. Yet at this time, with
human fondness, she clung to all that her human senses
permitted her to see and feel to be a part of Raymond.
Pale as marble, clear and beaming as that, she heard my tale,
and enquired concerning the spot where he had been deposited.
Her features had lost the distortion of grief; her eyes were
brightened, her very person seemed dilated; while the excessive
whiteness and even transparency of her skin, and something
hollow in her voice, bore witness that not tranquillity, but
excess of excitement, occasioned the treacherous calm that
settled on her countenance. I asked her where he should be
buried. She replied, "At Athens; even at the Athens which he
loved. Without the town, on the acclivity of Hymettus, there is
a rocky recess which he pointed out to me as the spot where he
would wish to repose."
My own desire certainly was that he should not be removed
from the spot where he now lay. But her wish was of course to
be complied with; and I entreated her to prepare without delay
for our departure.
Behold now the melancholy train cross the flats of Thrace,
and wind through the defiles, and over the mountains of
Macedonia, coast the clear waves of the Peneus, cross the
Larissean plain, pass the straits of Thermopylae, and ascending
in succession Oeta and Parnassus, descend to the fertile plain
of Athens. Women bear with resignation these long drawn ills,
but to a man's impatient spirit, the slow motion of our
cavalcade, the melancholy repose we took at noon, the perpetual
presence of the pall, gorgeous though it was, that wrapt the
rifled casket which had contained Raymond, the monotonous
recurrence of day and night, unvaried by hope or change, all the
circumstances of our march were intolerable. Perdita, shut up
in herself, spoke little. Her carriage was closed; and, when we
rested, she sat leaning her pale cheek on her white cold hand,
with eyes fixed on the ground, indulging thoughts which refused
communication or sympathy.
We descended from Parnassus, emerging from its many folds,
and passed through Livadia on our road to Attica. Perdita would
not enter Athens; but reposing at Marathon on the night of our
arrival, conducted me on the following day, to the spot selected
by her as the treasure house of Raymond's dear remains. It was
in a recess near the head of the ravine to the south of
Hymettus. The chasm, deep, black, and hoary, swept from the
summit to the base; in the fissures of the rock myrtle
underwood grew and wild thyme, the food of many nations of
bees; enormous crags protruded into the cleft, some beetling
over, others rising perpendicularly from it. At the foot of this
sublime chasm, a fertile laughing valley reached from sea to
sea, and beyond was spread the blue AEgean, sprinkled with
islands, the light waves glancing beneath the sun. Close to the
spot on which we stood, was a solitary rock, high and conical,
which, divided on every side from the mountain, seemed a
nature-hewn pyramid; with little labour this block was reduced
to a perfect shape; the narrow cell was scooped out beneath in
which Raymond was placed, and a short inscription, carved in
the living stone, recorded the name of its tenant, the cause and
æra of his death.
Everything was accomplished with speed under my directions.
I agreed to leave the finishing and guardianship of the tomb to
the head of the religious establishment at Athens, and by the
end of October prepared for my return to England. I mentioned
this to Perdita. It was painful to appear to drag her from the
last scene that spoke of her lost one; but to linger here was
vain, and my very soul was sick with its yearning to rejoin my
Idris and her babes. In reply, my sister requested me to
accompany her the following evening to the tomb of Raymond.
Some days had passed since I had visited the spot. The path to
it had been enlarged, and steps hewn in the rock led us less
circuitously than before, to the spot itself; the platform on
which the pyramid stood was enlarged, and looking towards the
south, in a recess overshadowed by the straggling branches of a
wild fig-tree, I saw foundations dug, and props and rafters fixed,
evidently the commencement of a cottage; standing on its
unfinished threshold, the tomb was at our right-hand, the whole
ravine, and plain, and azure sea immediately before us; the dark
rocks received a glow from the descending sun, which glanced
along the cultivated valley, and dyed in purple and orange the
placid waves; we sat on a rocky elevation, and I gazed with
rapture on the beauteous panorama of living and changeful
colours, which varied and enhanced the graces of earth and
ocean.
"Did I not do right," said Perdita, "in having my loved one
conveyed hither? Hereafter this will be the cynosure of Greece.
In such a spot death loses half its terrors, and even the
inanimate dust appears to partake of the spirit of beauty which
hallows this region. Lionel, he sleeps there; that is the grave
of Raymond, he whom in my youth I first loved; whom my heart
accompanied in days of separation and anger; to whom I am now
joined for ever. Never--mark me--never will I leave this spot.
Methinks his spirit remains here as well as that dust, which,
uncommunicable though it be, is more precious in its
nothingness than aught else widowed earth clasps to her
sorrowing bosom. The myrtle bushes, the thyme, the little
cyclamen, which peep from the fissures of the rock, all the
produce of the place, bear affinity to him; the light that
invests the hills participates in his essence, and sky and
mountains, sea and valley, are imbued by the presence of his
spirit. I will live and die here!
"Go you to England, Lionel; return to sweet Idris and dearest
Adrian; return, and let my orphan girl be as a child of your own
in your house. Look on me as dead; and truly if death be a mere
change of state, I am dead. This is another world, from that
which late I inhabited, from that which is now your home. Here
I hold communion only with the has been, and to come. Go you
to England, and leave me where alone I can consent to drag out
the miserable days which I must still live."
A shower of tears terminated her sad harangue. I had expected
some extravagant proposition, and remained silent awhile,
collecting my thoughts that I might the better combat her
fanciful scheme. "You cherish dreary thoughts, my dear Perdita,"
I said, "nor do I wonder that for a time your better reason
should be influenced by passionate grief and a disturbed
imagination. Even I am in love with this last home of
Raymond's; nevertheless we must quit it."
"I expected this," cried Perdita; "I supposed that you would
treat me as a mad, foolish girl. But do not deceive yourself;
this cottage is built by my order; and here I shall remain,
until the hour arrives when I may share his happier dwelling."
"My dearest girl!"
"And what is there so strange in my design? I might have
deceived you; I might have talked of remaining here only a few
months; in your anxiety to reach Windsor you would have left
me, and without reproach or contention, I might have pursued
my plan. But I disdained the artifice; or rather in my
wretchedness it was my only consolation to pour out my heart
to you, my brother, my only friend. You will not dispute with
me? You know how wilful your poor, misery-stricken sister is.
Take my girl with you; wean her from sights and thoughts of
sorrow; let infantine hilarity revisit her heart, and animate
her eyes; so could it never be, were she near me; it is far
better for all of you that you should never see me again. For
myself, I will not voluntarily seek death, that is, I will not,
while I can command myself; and I can here. But drag me from
this country; and my power of self control vanishes, nor can I
answer for the violence my agony of grief may lead me to
commit."
"You clothe your meaning, Perdita," I replied, "in powerful
words, yet that meaning is selfish and unworthy of you. You
have often agreed with me that there is but one solution to the
intricate riddle of life; to improve ourselves, and contribute
to the happiness of others: and now, in the very prime of life,
you desert your principles, and shut yourself up in useless
solitude. Will you think of Raymond less at Windsor, the scene
of your early happiness? Will you commune less with his
departed spirit, while you watch over and cultivate the rare
excellence of his child? You have been sadly visited; nor do I
wonder that a feeling akin to insanity should drive you to
bitter and unreasonable imaginings. But a home of love awaits
you in your native England. My tenderness and affection must
soothe you; the society of Raymond's friends will be of more
solace than these dreary speculations. We will all make it our
first care, our dearest task, to contribute to your happiness."
Perdita shook her head; "If it could be so," she replied, "I
were much in the wrong to disdain your offers. But it is not a
matter of choice; I can live here only. I am a part of this
scene; each and all its properties are a part of me. This is no
sudden fancy; I live by it. The knowledge that I am here, rises
with me in the morning, and enables me to endure the light; it
is mingled with my food, which else were poison; it walks, it
sleeps with me, for ever it accompanies me. Here I may even
cease to repine, and may add my tardy consent to the decree
which has taken him from me. He would rather have died such a
death, which will be recorded in history to endless time, than
have lived to old age unknown, unhonoured. Nor can I desire
better, than, having been the chosen and beloved of his heart,
here, in youth's prime, before added years can tarnish the best
feelings of my nature, to watch his tomb, and speedily rejoin
him in his blessed repose.
"So much, my dearest Lionel, I have said, wishing to persuade
you that I do right. If you are unconvinced, I can add nothing
further by way of argument, and I can only declare my fixed
resolve. I stay here; force only can remove me. Be it so; drag
me away--I return; confine me, imprison me, still I escape, and
come here. Or would my brother rather devote the heart-broken
Perdita to the straw and chains of a maniac, than suffer her to
rest in peace beneath the shadow of His society, in this my own
selected and beloved recess?"----
All this appeared to me, I own, methodized madness. I
imagined, that it was my imperative duty to take her from
scenes that thus forcibly reminded her of her loss. Nor did I
doubt, that in the tranquillity of our family circle at Windsor,
she would recover some degree of composure, and in the end, of
happiness. My affection for Clara also led me to oppose these
fond dreams of cherished grief; her sensibility had already been
too much excited; her infant heedlessness too soon exchanged
for deep and anxious thought. The strange and romantic scheme
of her mother, might confirm and perpetuate the painful view
of life, which had intruded itself thus early on her
contemplation.
On returning home, the captain of the steam packet with
whom I had agreed to sail, came to tell me, that accidental
circumstances hastened his departure, and that, if I went with
him, I must come on board at five on the following morning. I
hastily gave my consent to this arrangement, and as hastily
formed a plan through which Perdita should be forced to become
my companion. I believe that most people in my situation
would have acted in the same manner. Yet this consideration
does not, or rather did not in after time, diminish the
reproaches of my conscience. At the moment, I felt convinced
that I was acting for the best, and that all I did was right and
even necessary.
I sat with Perdita and soothed her, by my seeming assent to
her wild scheme. She received my concurrence with pleasure, and
a thousand times over thanked her deceiving, deceitful brother.
As night came on, her spirits, enlivened by my unexpected
concession, regained an almost forgotten vivacity. I pretended
to be alarmed by the feverish glow in her cheek; I entreated
her to take a composing draught; I poured out the medicine,
which she took docilely from me. I watched her as she drank it.
Falsehood and artifice are in themselves so hateful, that,
though I still thought I did right, a feeling of shame and guilt
came painfully upon me. I left her, and soon heard that she
slept soundly under the influence of the opiate I had
administered. She was carried thus unconscious on board; the
anchor weighed, and the wind being favourable, we stood far out
to sea; with all the canvas spread, and the power of the engine
to assist, we scudded swiftly and steadily through the chafed
element.
It was late in the day before Perdita awoke, and a longer
time elapsed before recovering from the torpor occasioned by
the laudanum, she perceived her change of situation. She started
wildly from her couch, and flew to the cabin window. The blue
and troubled sea sped past the vessel, and was spread shoreless
around: the sky was covered by a rack, which in its swift motion
showed how speedily she was borne away. The creaking of the
masts, the clang of the wheels, the tramp above, all persuaded
her that she was already far from the shores of Greece.--"Where
are we?" she cried, "where are we going?"----
The attendant whom I had stationed to watch her, replied, "to
England."----
"And my brother?"--
"Is on deck, Madam."
"Unkind! unkind!" exclaimed the poor victim, as with a deep
sigh she looked on the waste of waters. Then without further
remark, she threw herself on her couch, and closing her eyes
remained motionless; so that but for the deep sighs that burst
from her, it would have seemed that she slept.
As soon as I heard that she had spoken, I sent Clara to her,
that the sight of the lovely innocent might inspire gentle and
affectionate thoughts. But neither the presence of her child,
nor a subsequent visit from me, could rouse my sister. She
looked on Clara with a countenance of woeful meaning, but she
did not speak. When I appeared, she turned away, and in reply to
my inquiries, only said, "You know not what you have done!"--I
trusted that this sullenness betokened merely the struggle
between disappointment and natural affection, and that in a few
days she would be reconciled to her fate.
When night came on, she begged that Clara might sleep in a
separate cabin. Her servant, however, remained with her. About
midnight she spoke to the latter, saying that she had had a bad
dream, and bade her go to her daughter, and bring word whether
she rested quietly. The woman obeyed.
The breeze, that had flagged since sunset, now rose again. I
was on deck, enjoying our swift progress. The quiet was
disturbed only by the rush of waters as they divided before the
steady keel, the murmur of the moveless and full sails, the
wind whistling in the shrouds, and the regular motion of the
engine. The sea was gently agitated, now showing a white crest,
and now resuming an uniform hue; the clouds had disappeared;
and dark ether clipped the broad ocean, in which the
constellations vainly sought their accustomed mirror. Our rate
could not have been less than eight knots.
Suddenly I heard a splash in the sea. The sailors on watch
rushed to the side of the vessel, with the cry--some one gone
overboard. "It is not from deck," said the man at the helm,
"something has been thrown from the aft cabin." A call for the
boat to be lowered was echoed from the deck. I rushed into my
sister's cabin; it was empty.
With sails abaft, the engine stopped, the vessel remained
unwillingly stationary, until, after an hour's search, my poor
Perdita was brought on board. But no care could re-animate her,
no medicine cause her dear eyes to open, and the blood to flow
again from her pulseless heart. One clenched hand contained a
slip of paper, on which was written, "To Athens." To ensure her
removal thither, and prevent the irrecoverable loss of her body
in the wide sea, she had had the precaution to fasten a long
shawl round her waist, and again to the stanchions of the cabin
window. She had drifted somewhat under the keel of the vessel,
and her being out of sight occasioned the delay in finding her.
And thus the ill-starred girl died a victim to my senseless
rashness. Thus, in early day, she left us for the company of the
dead, and preferred to share the rocky grave of Raymond, before
the animated scene this cheerful earth afforded, and the society
of loving friends. Thus in her twenty-ninth year she died;
having enjoyed some few years of the happiness of paradise, and
sustaining a reverse to which her impatient spirit and
affectionate disposition were unable to submit. As I marked the
placid expression that had settled on her countenance in death,
I felt, in spite of the pangs of remorse, in spite of heart-
rending regret, that it was better to die so, than to drag on
long, miserable years of repining and inconsolable grief.
Stress of weather drove us up the Adriatic Gulf; and, our
vessel being hardly fitted to weather a storm, we took refuge in
the port of Ancona. Here I met Georgio Palli, the vice-admiral
of the Greek fleet, a former friend and warm partisan of
Raymond. I committed the remains of my lost Perdita to his
care, for the purpose of having them transported to Hymettus,
and placed in the cell her Raymond already occupied beneath the
pyramid. This was all accomplished even as I wished. She
reposed beside her beloved, and the tomb above was inscribed
with the united names of Raymond and Perdita.
I then came to a resolution of pursuing our journey to
England overland. My own heart was racked by regrets and
remorse. The apprehension, that Raymond had departed for ever,
that his name, blended eternally with the past, must be erased
from every anticipation of the future, had come slowly upon
me. I had always admired his talents; his noble aspirations;
his grand conceptions of the glory and majesty of his
ambition: his utter want of mean passions; his fortitude and
daring. In Greece I had learnt to love him; his very
waywardness, and self-abandonment to the impulses of
superstition, attached me to him doubly; it might be weakness,
but it was the antipodes of all that was grovelling and selfish.
To these pangs were added the loss of Perdita, lost through my
own accursed self-will and conceit. This dear one, my sole
relation; whose progress I had marked from tender childhood
through the varied path of life, and seen her throughout
conspicuous for integrity, devotion, and true affection; for all
that constitutes the peculiar graces of the female character,
and beheld her at last the victim of too much loving, too
constant an attachment to the perishable and lost, she, in her
pride of beauty and life, had thrown aside the pleasant
perception of the apparent world for the unreality of the grave,
and had left poor Clara quite an orphan. I concealed from this
beloved child that her mother's death was voluntary, and tried
every means to awaken cheerfulness in her sorrow-stricken
spirit.
One of my first acts for the recovery even of my own
composure, was to bid farewell to the sea. Its hateful splash
renewed again and again to my sense the death of my sister; its
roar was a dirge; in every dark hull that was tossed on its
inconstant bosom, I imaged a bier, that would convey to death
all who trusted to its treacherous smiles. Farewell to the sea!
Come, my Clara, sit beside me in this aerial bark; quickly and
gently it cleaves the azure serene, and with soft undulation
glides upon the current of the air; or, if storm shake its
fragile mechanism, the green earth is below; we can descend,
and take shelter on the stable continent. Here aloft, the
companions of the swift-winged birds, we skim through the
unresisting element, fleetly and fearlessly. The light boat
heaves not, nor is opposed by death-bearing waves; the ether
opens before the prow, and the shadow of the globe that upholds
it, shelters us from the noon-day sun. Beneath are the plains of
Italy, or the vast undulations of the wave-like Apennines:
fertility reposes in their many folds, and woods crown the
summits. The free and happy peasant, unshackled by the
Austrian, bears the double harvest to the garner; and the
refined citizens rear without dread the long blighted tree of
knowledge in this garden of the world. We were lifted above the
Alpine peaks, and from their deep and brawling ravines entered
the plain of fair France, and after an airy journey of six days,
we landed at Dieppe, furled the feathered wings, and closed the
silken globe of our little pinnace. A heavy rain made this mode
of travelling now incommodious; so we embarked in a steam-
packet, and after a short passage landed at Portsmouth.
A strange story was rife here. A few days before, a tempest-
struck vessel had appeared off the town: the hull was parched-
looking and cracked, the sails rent, and bent in a careless,
unseamanlike manner, the shrouds tangled and broken. She
drifted towards the harbour, and was stranded on the sands at
the entrance. In the morning the custom-house officers,
together with a crowd of idlers, visited her. One only of the
crew appeared to have arrived with her. He had got to shore, and
had walked a few paces towards the town, and then, vanquished by
malady and approaching death, had fallen on the inhospitable
beach. He was found stiff, his hands clenched, and pressed
against his breast. His skin, nearly black, his matted hair and
bristly beard, were signs of a long protracted misery. It was
whispered that he had died of the plague. No one ventured on
board the vessel, and strange sights were averred to be seen at
night, walking the deck, and hanging on the masts and shrouds.
She soon went to pieces; I was shown where she had been, and
saw her disjoined timbers tossed on the waves. The body of the
man who had landed, had been buried deep in the sands; and none
could tell more, than that the vessel was American built, and
that several months before the Fortunatas had sailed from
Philadelphia, of which no tidings were afterwards received.
I RETURNED to my family estate in the autumn of the year 2092.
My heart had long been with them; and I felt sick with the hope
and delight of seeing them again. The district which contained
them appeared the abode of every kindly spirit. Happiness, love
and peace, walked the forest paths, and tempered the
atmosphere. After all the agitation and sorrow I had endured in
Greece, I sought Windsor, as the storm-driven bird does the nest
in which it may fold its wings in tranquillity.
How unwise had the wanderers been, who had deserted its
shelter, entangled themselves in the web of society, and entered
on what men of the world call "life,"--that labyrinth of evil,
that scheme of mutual torture. To live, according to this sense
of the word, we must not only observe and learn, we must also
feel; we must not be mere spectators of action, we must act; we
must not describe, but be subjects of description. Deep sorrow
must have been the inmate of our bosoms; fraud must have lain
in wait for us; the artful must have deceived us; sickening
doubt and false hope must have chequered our days; hilarity and
joy, that lap the soul in ecstasy, must at times have possessed
us. Who that knows what "life" is, would pine for this feverish
species of existence? I have lived. I have spent days and nights
of festivity; I have joined in ambitious hopes, and exulted in
victory: now,--shut the door on the world, and build high the
wall that is to separate me from the troubled scene enacted
within its precincts. Let us live for each other and for
happiness; let us seek peace in our dear home, near the inland
murmur of streams, and the gracious waving of trees, the
beauteous vesture of earth, and sublime pageantry of the skies.
Let us leave "life," that we may live.
Idris was well content with this resolve of mine. Her native
sprightliness needed no undue excitement, and her placid heart
reposed contented on my love, the well-being of her children,
and the beauty of surrounding nature. Her pride and blameless
ambition was to create smiles in all around her, and to shed
repose on the fragile existence of her brother. In spite of her
tender nursing, the health of Adrian perceptibly declined.
Walking, riding, the common occupations of life, overcame him:
he felt no pain, but seemed to tremble for ever on the verge of
annihilation. Yet, as he had lived on for months nearly in the
same state, he did not inspire us with any immediate fear; and,
though he talked of death as an event most familiar to his
thoughts, he did not cease to exert himself to render others
happy, or to cultivate his own astonishing powers of mind.
Winter passed away; and spring, led by the months, awakened
life in all nature. The forest was dressed in green; the young
calves frisked on the new-sprung grass; the wind-winged shadows
of light clouds sped over the green cornfields; the hermit
cuckoo repeated his monotonous all-hail to the season; the
nightingale, bird of love and minion of the evening star, filled
the woods with song; while Venus lingered in the warm sunset,
and the young green of the trees lay in gentle relief along the
clear horizon.
Delight awoke in every heart, delight and exultation; for
there was peace through all the world; the temple of Universal
Janus was shut, and man died not that year by the hand of man.
"Let this last but twelve months," said Adrian; "and earth
will become a Paradise. The energies of man were before
directed to the destruction of his species: they now aim at its
liberation and preservation. Man cannot repose, and his
restless aspirations will now bring forth good instead of evil.
The favoured countries of the south will throw off the iron
yoke of servitude; poverty will quit us, and with that, sickness.
What may not the forces, never before united, of liberty and
peace achieve in this dwelling of man?"
"Dreaming, for ever dreaming, Windsor!" said Ryland, the old
adversary of Raymond, and candidate for the Protectorate at the
ensuing election. "Be assured that earth is not, nor ever can be
heaven, while the seeds of hell are natives of her soil. When
the seasons have become equal, when the air breeds no
disorders, when its surface is no longer liable to blights and
droughts, then sickness will cease; when men's passions are
dead, poverty will depart. When love is no longer akin to hate,
then brotherhood will exist: we are very far from that state at
present."
"Not so far as you may suppose," observed a little old
astronomer, by name Merrival, "the poles precede slowly, but
securely; in an hundred thousand years--"
"We shall all be underground," said Ryland.
"The pole of the earth will coincide with the pole of the
ecliptic," continued the astronomer, "an universal spring will
be produced, and earth become a paradise."
"And we shall of course enjoy the benefit of the change,"
said Ryland, contemptuously.
"We have strange news here," I observed. I had the newspaper
in my hand, and, as usual, had turned to the intelligence from
Greece. "It seems that the total destruction of Constantinople,
and the supposition that winter had purified the air of the
fallen city, gave the Greeks courage to visit its site, and begin
to rebuild it. But they tell us that the curse of God is on the
place, for every one who has ventured within the walls has been
tainted by the plague; that this disease has spread in Thrace
and Macedonia; and now, fearing the virulence of infection
during the coming heats, a cordon has been drawn on the
frontiers of Thessaly, and a strict quarantine exacted."
This intelligence brought us back from the prospect of
paradise, held out after the lapse of an hundred thousand years,
to the pain and misery at present existent upon earth. We
talked of the ravages made last year by pestilence in every
quarter of the world; and of the dreadful consequences of a
second visitation. We discussed the best means of preventing
infection, and of preserving health and activity in a large city
thus afflicted--London, for instance. Merrival did not join in
this conversation; drawing near Idris, he proceeded to assure
her that the joyful prospect of an earthly paradise after an
hundred thousand years, was clouded to him by the knowledge
that in a certain period of time after, an earthly hell or
purgatory, would occur, when the ecliptic and equator would be
at right angles. Our party at length broke up; "We are all
dreaming this morning," said Ryland, "it is as wise to discuss
the probability of a visitation of the plague in our well-
governed metropolis, as to calculate the centuries which must
escape before we can grow pine-apples here in the open air."
But, though it seemed absurd to calculate upon the arrival of
the plague in London, I could not reflect without extreme pain
on the desolation this evil would cause in Greece. The English
for the most part talked of Thrace and Macedonia, as they would
of a lunar territory, which, unknown to them, presented no
distinct idea or interest to the minds. I had trod the soil. The
faces of many of the inhabitants were familiar to me; in the
towns, plains, hills, and defiles of these countries, I had
enjoyed unspeakable delight, as I journeyed through them the
year before. Some romantic village, some cottage, or elegant
abode there situated, inhabited by the lovely and the good, rose
before my mental sight, and the question haunted me, is the
plague there also?--That same invincible monster, which
hovered over and devoured Constantinople--that fiend more
cruel than tempest, less tame than fire, is, alas, unchained in
that beautiful country--these reflections would not allow me to
rest.
The political state of England became agitated as the time
drew near when the new Protector was to be elected. This event
excited the more interest, since it was the current report, that
if the popular candidate (Ryland) should be chosen, the question
of the abolition of hereditary rank, and other feudal relics,
would come under the consideration of parliament. Not a word
had been spoken during the present session on any of these
topics. Every thing would depend upon the choice of a
Protector, and the elections of the ensuing year. Yet this very
silence was awful, showing the deep weight attributed to the
question; the fear of either party to hazard an ill-timed
attack, and the expectation of a furious contention when it
should begin.
But although St. Stephen's did not echo with the voice which
filled each heart, the newspapers teemed with nothing else; and
in private companies the conversation however remotely begun,
soon verged towards this central point, while voices were
lowered and chairs drawn closer. The nobles did not hesitate to
express their fear; the other party endeavoured to treat the
matter lightly. "Shame on the country," said Ryland, "to lay so
much stress upon words and frippery; it is a question of
nothing; of the new painting of carriage-panels and the
embroidery of footmen's coats."
Yet could England indeed doff her lordly trappings, and be
content with the democratic style of America? Were the pride
of ancestry, the patrician spirit, the gentle courtesies and
refined pursuits, splendid attributes of rank, to be erased
among us? We were told that this would not be the case; that we
were by nature a poetical people, a nation easily duped by
words, ready to array clouds in splendour, and bestow honour on
the dust. This spirit we could never lose; and it was to diffuse
this concentrated spirit of birth, that the new law was to be
brought forward. We were assured that, when the name and title
of Englishman was the sole patent of nobility, we should all be
noble; that when no man born under English sway, felt another
his superior in rank, courtesy and refinement would become the
birth-right of all our countrymen. Let not England be so far
disgraced, as to have it imagined that it can be without nobles,
nature's true nobility, who bear their patent in their mien, who
are from their cradle elevated above the rest of their species,
because they are better than the rest. Among a race of
independent, and generous, and well educated men, in a country
where the imagination is empress of men's minds, there needs
be no fear that we should want a perpetual succession of the
high-born and lordly. That party, however, could hardly yet be
considered a minority in the kingdom, who extolled the
ornament of the column, "the Corinthian capital of polished
society;" they appealed to prejudices without number, to old
attachments and young hopes; to the expectation of thousands
who might one day become peers; they set up as a scarecrow, the
spectre of all that was sordid, mechanic and base in the
commercial republics.
The plague had come to Athens. Hundreds of English residents
returned to their own country. Raymond's beloved Athenians, the
free, the noble people of the divinest town in Greece, fell like
ripe corn before the merciless sickle of the adversary. Its
pleasant places were deserted; its temples and palaces were
converted into tombs; its energies, bent before towards the
highest objects of human ambition, were now forced to converge
to one point, the guarding against the innumerable arrows of
the plague.
At any other time this disaster would have excited extreme
compassion among us; but it was now passed over, while each
mind was engaged by the coming controversy. It was not so with
me; and the question of rank and right dwindled to
insignificance in my eyes, when I pictured the scene of
suffering Athens. I heard of the death of only sons; of wives
and husbands most devoted; of the rending of ties twisted with
the heart's fibres, of friend losing friend, and young mothers
mourning for their first born; and these moving incidents were
grouped and painted in my mind by the knowledge of the
persons, by my esteem and affection for the sufferers. It was
the admirers, friends, fellow soldiers of Raymond, families that
had welcomed Perdita to Greece, and lamented with her the loss
of her lord, that were swept away, and went to dwell with them
in the undistinguishing tomb.
The plague at Athens had been preceded and caused by the
contagion from the East; and the scene of havoc and death
continued to be acted there, on a scale of fearful magnitude. A
hope that the visitation of the present year would prove the
last, kept up the spirits of the merchants connected with these
countries; but the inhabitants were driven to despair, or to a
resignation which, arising from fanaticism, assumed the same
dark hue. America had also received the taint; and, were it
yellow fever or plague, the epidemic was gifted with a virulence
before unfelt. The devastation was not confined to the towns,
but spread throughout the country; the hunter died in the
woods, the peasant in the corn-fields, and the fisher on his
native waters.
A strange story was brought to us from the East, to which
little credit would have been given, had not the fact been
attested by a multitude of witnesses, in various parts of the
world. On the twenty-first of June, it was said that an hour
before noon, a black sun arose: an orb, the size of that
luminary, but dark, defined, whose beams were shadows, ascended
from the west; in about an hour it had reached the meridian,
and eclipsed the bright parent of day. Night fell upon every
country, night, sudden, rayless, entire. The stars came out,
shedding their ineffectual glimmerings on the light-widowed
earth. But soon the dim orb passed from over the sun, and
lingered down the eastern heaven. As it descended, its dusky
rays crossed the brilliant ones of the sun, and deadened or
distorted them. The shadows of things assumed strange and
ghastly shapes. The wild animals in the woods took fright at
the unknown shapes figured on the ground. They fled they knew
not whither; and the citizens were filled with greater dread, at
the convulsion which "shook lions into civil streets;"--birds,
strong-winged eagles, suddenly blinded, fell in the market-
places, while owls and bats showed themselves welcoming the
early night. Gradually the object of fear sank beneath the
horizon, and to the last shot up shadowy beams into the
otherwise radiant air. Such was the tale sent us from Asia,
from the eastern extremity of Europe, and from Africa as far
west as the Golden Coast.
Whether this story were true or not, the effects were certain.
Through Asia, from the banks of the Nile to the shores of the
Caspian, from the Hellespont even to the sea of Oman, a sudden
panic was driven. The men filled the mosques; the women,
veiled, hastened to the tombs, and carried offerings to the
dead, thus to preserve the living. The plague was forgotten, in
this new fear which the black sun had spread; and, though the
dead multiplied, and the streets of Ispahan, of Pekin, and of
Delhi were strewed with pestilence-struck corpses, men passed
on, gazing on the ominous sky, regardless of the death beneath
their feet. The christians sought their churches,--christian
maidens, even at the feast of roses, clad in white, with shining
veils, sought, in long procession, the places consecrated to
their religion, filling the air with their hymns; while, ever and
anon, from the lips of some poor mourner in the crowd, a voice
of wailing burst, and the rest looked up, fancying they could
discern the sweeping wings of angels, who passed over the earth,
lamenting the disasters about to fall on man.
In the sunny clime of Persia, in the crowded cities of China,
amidst the aromatic groves of Cashmere, and along the southern
shores of the Mediterranean, such scenes had place. Even in
Greece the tale of the sun of darkness increased the fears and
despair of the dying multitude. We, in our cloudy isle, were far
removed from danger, and the only circumstance that brought
these disasters at all home to us, was the daily arrival of
vessels from the east, crowded with emigrants, mostly English;
for the Moslems, though the fear of death was spread keenly
among them, still clung together; that, if they were to die (and
if they were, death would as readily meet them on the homeless
sea, or in far England, as in Persia,)--if they were to die, their
bones might rest in earth made sacred by the relics of true
believers. Mecca had never before been so crowded with
pilgrims; yet the Arabs neglected to pillage the caravans, but,
humble and weaponless, they joined the procession, praying
Mahomet to avert plague from their tents and deserts.
I cannot describe the rapturous delight with which I turned
from political brawls at home, and the physical evils of
distant countries, to my own dear home, to the selected abode
of goodness and love; to peace, and the interchange of every
sacred sympathy. Had I never quitted Windsor, these emotions
would not have been so intense; but I had in Greece been the
prey of fear and deplorable change; in Greece, after a period of
anxiety and sorrow, I had seen depart two, whose very names
were the symbol of greatness and virtue. But such miseries
could never intrude upon the domestic circle left to me, while,
secluded in our beloved forest, we passed our lives in
tranquillity. Some small change indeed the progress of years
brought here; and time, as it is wont, stamped the traces of
mortality on our pleasures and expectations.
Idris, the most affectionate wife, sister and friend, was a
tender and loving mother. The feeling was not with her as with
many, a pastime; it was a passion. We had had three children;
one, the second in age, died while I was in Greece. This had
dashed the triumphant and rapturous emotions of maternity
with grief and fear. Before this event, the little beings, sprung
from herself, the young heirs of her transient life, seemed to
have a sure lease of existence; now she dreaded that the
pitiless destroyer might snatch her remaining darlings, as it
had snatched their brother. The least illness caused throes of
terror; she was miserable if she were at all absent from them;
her treasure of happiness she had garnered in their fragile
being, and kept forever on the watch, lest the insidious thief
should as before steal these valued gems. She had fortunately
small cause for fear. Alfred, now nine years old, was an upright,
manly little fellow, with radiant brow, soft eyes, and gentle,
though independent disposition. Our youngest was yet in
infancy; but his downy cheek was sprinkled with the roses of
health, and his unwearied vivacity filled our halls with
innocent laughter.
Clara had passed the age which, from its mute ignorance, was
the source of the fears of Idris. Clara was dear to her, to all.
There was so much intelligence combined with innocence,
sensibility with forbearance, and seriousness with perfect good-
humour, a beauty so transcendent, united to such endearing
simplicity, that she hung like a pearl in the shrine of our
possessions, a treasure of wonder and excellence.
At the beginning of winter our Alfred, now nine years of age,
first went to school at Eton. This appeared to him the primary
step towards manhood, and he was proportionably pleased.
Community of study and amusement developed the best parts of
his character, his steady perseverance, generosity, and well-
governed firmness. What deep and sacred emotions are excited in
a father's bosom, when he first becomes convinced that his love
for his child is not a mere instinct, but worthily bestowed, and
that others, less akin, participate his approbation! It was
supreme happiness to Idris and myself, to find that the
frankness which Alfred's open brow indicated, the intelligence
of his eyes, the tempered sensibility of his tones, were not
delusions, but indications of talents and virtues, which would
"grow with his growth, and strengthen with his strength." At
this period, the termination of an animal's love for its
offspring,--the true affection of the human parent commences.
We no longer look on this dearest part of ourselves, as a tender
plant which we must cherish, or a plaything for an idle hour.
We build now on his intellectual faculties, we establish our
hopes on his moral propensities. His weakness still imparts
anxiety to this feeling, his ignorance prevents entire intimacy;
but we begin to respect the future man, and to endeavour to
secure his esteem, even as if he were our equal. What can a
parent have more at heart than the good opinion of his child?
In all our transactions with him our honour must be inviolate,
the integrity of our relations untainted: fate and circumstance
may, when he arrives at maturity, separate us for ever--but, as
his aegis in danger, his consolation in hardship, let the ardent
youth for ever bear with him through the rough path of life,
love and honour for his parents.
We had lived so long in the vicinity of Eton, that its
population of young folks was well known to us. Many of them
had been Alfred's playmates, before they became his school-
fellows. We now watched this youthful congregation with
redoubled interest. We marked the difference of character among
the boys, and endeavoured to read the future man in the
stripling. There is nothing more lovely, to which the heart
more yearns than a free-spirited boy, gentle, brave, and
generous. Several of the Etonians had these characteristics; all
were distinguished by a sense of honour, and spirit of
enterprise; in some, as they verged towards manhood, this
degenerated into presumption; but the younger ones, lads a
little older than our own, were conspicuous for their gallant
and sweet dispositions.
Here were the future governors of England; the men, who,
when our ardour was cold, and our projects completed or
destroyed for ever, when, our drama acted, we doffed the garb of
the hour, and assumed the uniform of age, or of more equalising
death; here were the beings who were to carry on the vast
machine of society; here were the lovers, husbands, fathers;
here the landlord, the politician, the soldier; some fancied
that they were even now ready to appear on the stage, eager to
make one among the dramatis personæ of active life. It was not
long since I was like one of these beardless aspirants; when my
boy shall have obtained the place I now hold, I shall have
tottered into a grey-headed, wrinkled old man. Strange system!
riddle of the Sphinx, most awe-striking! that thus man remains,
while we the individuals pass away. Such is, to borrow the words
of an eloquent and philosophic writer, "the mode of existence
decreed to a permanent body composed of transitory parts;
wherein, by the disposition of a stupendous wisdom, moulding
together the great mysterious incorporation of the human race,
the whole, at one time, is never old, or middle-aged, or young,
but, in a condition of unchangeable constancy, moves on through
the varied tenor of perpetual decay, fall, renovation, and
progression."
Willingly do I give place to thee, dear Alfred! advance,
offspring of tender love, child of our hopes; advance a soldier
on the road to which I have been the pioneer! I will make way
for thee. I have already put off the carelessness of childhood,
the unlined brow, and springy gait of early years, that they may
adorn thee. Advance; and I will despoil myself still further for
thy advantage. Time shall rob me of the graces of maturity,
shall take the fire from my eyes, and agility from my limbs,
shall steal the better part of life, eager expectation and
passionate love, and shower them in double portion on thy dear
head. Advance! avail thyself of the gift, thou and thy comrades;
and in the drama you are about to act, do not disgrace those
who taught you to enter on the stage, and to pronounce
becomingly the parts assigned to you! May your progress be
uninterrupted and secure; born during the spring-tide of the
hopes of man, may you lead up the summer to which no winter
may succeed!
SOME disorder had surely crept into the course of the elements,
destroying their benignant influence. The wind, prince of air,
raged through his kingdom, lashing the sea into fury, and
subduing the rebel earth into some sort of obedience.
The God sends down his angry plagues from high,
Famine and pestilence in heaps they die.
Again in vengeance of his wrath he falls
On their great hosts, and breaks their tottering walls;
Arrests their navies on the ocean's plain,
And whelms their strength with mountains of the main.
Their deadly power shook the flourishing countries of the
south, and during winter, even, we, in our northern retreat,
began to quake under their ill effects.
That fable is unjust, which gives the superiority to the sun
over the wind. Who has not seen the lightsome earth, the balmy
atmosphere, and basking nature become dark, cold and ungenial,
when the sleeping wind has awoke in the east? Or, when the dun
clouds thickly veil the sky, while exhaustless stores of rain
are poured down, until, the dank earth refusing to imbibe the
superabundant moisture, it lies in pools on the surface; when
the torch of day seems like a meteor, to be quenched; who has
not seen the cloud-stirring north arise, the streaked blue
appear, and soon an opening made in the vapours in the eye of
the wind, through which the bright azure shines? The clouds
become thin; an arch is formed for ever rising upwards, till,
the universal cope being unveiled, the sun pours forth its rays,
re-animated and fed by the breeze.
Then mighty art thou, O wind, to be throned above all other
vicegerents of nature's power; whether thou comest destroying
from the east, or pregnant with elementary life from the west;
thee the clouds obey; the sun is subservient to thee; the
shoreless ocean is thy slave! Thou sweepest over the earth, and
oaks, the growth of centuries, submit to thy viewless axe; the
snow-drift is scattered on the pinnacles of the Alps, the
avalanche thunders down their valleys. Thou holdest the keys of
the frost, and canst first chain and then set free the streams;
under thy gentle governance the buds and leaves are born, they
flourish nursed by thee.
Why dost thou howl thus, O wind? By day and by night for four
long months thy roarings have not ceased--the shores of the
sea are strewn with wrecks, its keel-welcoming surface has
become impassable, the earth has shed her beauty in obedience
to thy command; the frail balloon dares no longer sail on the
agitated air; thy ministers, the clouds, deluge the land with
rain; rivers forsake their banks; the wild torrent tears up the
mountain path; plain and wood, and verdant dell are despoiled
of their loveliness; our very cities are wasted by thee. Alas,
what will become of us? It seems as if the giant waves of ocean,
and vast arms of the sea, were about to wrench the deep-rooted
island from its centre; and cast it, a ruin and a wreck, upon the
fields of the Atlantic.
What are we, the inhabitants of this globe, least among the
many that people infinite space? Our minds embrace infinity;
the visible mechanism of our being is subject to merest
accident. Day by day we are forced to believe this. He whom a
scratch has disorganised, he who disappears from apparent life
under the influence of the hostile agency at work around us, had
the same powers as I--I also am subject to the same laws. In
the face of all this we call ourselves lords of the creation,
wielders of the elements, masters of life and death, and we
allege in excuse of this arrogance, that though the individual
is destroyed, man continues for ever.
Thus, losing our identity, that of which we are chiefly
conscious, we glory in the continuity of our species, and learn
to regard death without terror. But when any whole nation
becomes the victim of the destructive powers of exterior
agents, then indeed man shrinks into insignificance, he feels
his tenure of life insecure, his inheritance on earth cut off.
I remember, after having witnessed the destructive effects of
a fire, I could not even behold a small one in a stove, without
a sensation of fear. The mounting flames had curled round the
building, as it fell, and was destroyed. They insinuated
themselves into the substances about them, and the
impediments to their progress yielded at their touch. Could we
take integral parts of this power, and not be subject to its
operation? Could we domesticate a cub of this wild beast, and
not fear its growth and maturity?
Thus we began to feel, with regard to many-visaged death let
loose on the chosen districts of our fair habitation, and above
all, with regard to the plague. We feared the coming summer.
Nations, bordering on the already infected countries, began to
enter upon serious plans for the better keeping out of the
enemy. We, a commercial people, were obliged to bring such
schemes under consideration; and the question of contagion
became matter of earnest disquisition.
That the plague was not what is commonly called contagious,
like the scarlet fever, or extinct small-pox, was proved. It was
called an epidemic. But the grand question was still unsettled
of how this epidemic was generated and increased. If infection
depended upon the air, the air was subject to infection. As for
instance, a typhus fever has been brought by ships to one sea-
port town; yet the very people who brought it there, were
incapable of communicating it in a town more fortunately
situated. But how are we to judge of airs, and pronounce--in
such a city plague will die unproductive; in such another,
nature has provided for it a plentiful harvest? In the same way,
individuals may escape ninety-nine times, and receive the death-
blow at the hundredth; because bodies are sometimes in a state
to reject the infection of malady, and at others, thirsty to
imbibe it. These reflections made our legislators pause, before
they could decide on the laws to be put in force. The evil was
so wide-spreading, so violent and immedicable, that no care, no
prevention could be judged superfluous, which even added a
chance to our escape.
These were questions of prudence; there was no immediate
necessity for an earnest caution. England was still secure.
France, Germany, Italy and Spain, were interposed, walls yet
without a breach, between us and the plague. Our vessels truly
were the sport of winds and waves, even as Gulliver was the toy
of the Brobdignagians; but we on our stable abode could not be
hurt in life or limb by these eruptions of nature. We could not
fear--we did not. Yet a feeling of awe, a breathless sentiment
of wonder, a painful sense of the degradation of humanity, was
introduced into every heart. Nature, our mother, and our friend,
had turned on us a brow of menace. She showed us plainly, that,
though she permitted us to assign her laws and subdue her
apparent powers, yet, if she put forth but a finger, we must
quake. She could take our globe, fringed with mountains, girded
by the atmosphere, containing the condition of our being, and
all that man's mind could invent or his force achieve; she
could take the ball in her hand, and cast it into space, where
life would be drunk up, and man and all his efforts for ever
annihilated.
These speculations were rife among us; yet not the less we
proceeded in our daily occupations, and our plans, whose
accomplishment demanded the lapse of many years. No voice was
heard telling us to hold! When foreign distresses came to be
felt by us through the channels of commerce, we set ourselves
to apply remedies. Subscriptions were made for the emigrants,
and merchants bankrupt by the failure of trade. The English
spirit awoke to its full activity, and, as it had ever done, set
itself to resist the evil, and to stand in the breach which
diseased nature had suffered chaos and death to make in the
bounds and banks which had hitherto kept them out.
At the commencement of summer, we began to feel, that the
mischief which had taken place in distant countries was greater
than we had at first suspected. Quito was destroyed by an
earthquake. Mexico laid waste by the united effects of storm,
pestilence and famine. Crowds of emigrants inundated the west
of Europe; and our island had become the refuge of thousands.
In the mean time Ryland had been chosen Protector. He had
sought this office with eagerness, under the idea of turning his
whole forces to the suppression of the privileged orders of our
community. His measures were thwarted, and his schemes
interrupted by this new state of things. Many of the foreigners
were utterly destitute; and their increasing numbers at length
forbade a recourse to the usual modes of relief. Trade was
stopped by the failure of the interchange of cargoes usual
between us, and America, India, Egypt and Greece. A sudden break
was made in the routine of our lives. In vain our Protector and
his partisans sought to conceal this truth; in vain, day after
day, he appointed a period for the discussion of the new laws
concerning hereditary rank and privilege; in vain he endeavoured
to represent the evil as partial and temporary. These disasters
came home to so many bosoms, and, through the various
channels of commerce, were carried so entirely into every class
and division of the community, that of necessity they became
the first question in the state, the chief subjects to which we
must turn our attention.
Can it be true, each asked the other with wonder and dismay,
that whole countries are laid waste, whole nations annihilated,
by these disorders in nature? The vast cities of America, the
fertile plains of Hindustan, the crowded abodes of the Chinese,
are menaced with utter ruin. Where late the busy multitudes
assembled for pleasure or profit, now only the sound of wailing
and misery is heard. The air is empoisoned, and each human
being inhales death, even while in youth and health, their hopes
are in the flower. We called to mind the plague of 1348, when it
was calculated that a third of mankind had been destroyed. As
yet western Europe was uninfected; would it always be so?
O, yes, it would--Countrymen, fear not! In the still
uncultivated wilds of America, what wonder that among its other
giant destroyers, Plague should be numbered! It is of old a
native of the East, sister of the tornado, the earthquake, and
the simoom. Child of the sun, and nursling of the tropics, it
would expire in these climes. It drinks the dark blood of the
inhabitant of the south, but it never feasts on the pale-faced
Celt. If perchance some stricken Asiatic come among us, plague
dies with him, uncommunicated and innoxious. Let us weep for
our brethren, though we can never experience their reverse. Let
us lament over and assist the children of the garden of the
earth. Late we envied their abodes, their spicy groves, fertile
plains, and abundant loveliness. But in this mortal life
extremes are always matched; the thorn grows with the rose,
the poison tree and the cinnamon mingle their boughs. Persia,
with its cloth of gold, marble halls, and infinite wealth, is
now a tomb. The tent of the Arab is fallen in the sands, and his
horse spurns the ground unbridled and unsaddled. The voice of
lamentation fills the valley of Cashmere; its dells and woods,
its cool fountains, and gardens of roses, are polluted by the
dead; in Circassia and Georgia the spirit of beauty weeps over
the ruin of its favourite temple--the form of woman.
Our own distresses, though they were occasioned by the
fictitious reciprocity of commerce, increased in due
proportion. Bankers, merchants, and manufacturers, whose trade
depended on exports and interchange of wealth, became
bankrupt. Such things, when they happen singly, affect only the
immediate parties; but the prosperity of the nation was now
shaken by frequent and extensive losses. Families, bred in
opulence and luxury, were reduced to beggary. The very state of
peace in which we gloried was injurious; there were no means of
employing the idle, or of sending any overplus of population
out of the country. Even the source of colonies was dried up,
for in New Holland, Van Diemen's Land, and the Cape of Good
Hope, plague raged. O, for some medicinal vial to purge
unwholesome nature, and bring back the earth to its accustomed
health!
Ryland was a man of strong intellects and quick and sound
decision in the usual course of things, but he stood aghast at
the multitude of evils that gathered round us. Must he tax the
landed interest to assist our commercial population? To do
this, he must gain the favour of the chief land-holders, the
nobility of the country; and these were his vowed enemies--he
must conciliate them by abandoning his favourite scheme of
equalisation; he must confirm them in their manorial rights;
he must sell his cherished plans for the permanent good of his
country, for temporary relief. He must aim no more at the dear
object of his ambition; throwing his arms aside, he must for
present ends give up the ultimate object of his endeavours. He
came to Windsor to consult with us. Every day added to his
difficulties; the arrival of fresh vessels with emigrants, the
total cessation of commerce, the starving multitude that
thronged around the palace of the Protectorate, were
circumstances not to be tampered with. The blow was struck;
the aristocracy obtained all they wished, and they subscribed to
a twelvemonths' bill, which levied twenty per cent on all the
rent-rolls of the country.
Calm was now restored to the metropolis, and to the
populous cities, before driven to desperation; and we returned
to the consideration of distant calamities, wondering if the
future would bring any alleviation to their excess. It was
August; so there could be small hope of relief during the heats.
On the contrary, the disease gained virulence, while starvation
did its accustomed work. Thousands died unlamented; for beside
the yet warm corpse the mourner was stretched, made mute by
death.
On the eighteenth of this month news arrived in London that
the plague was in France and Italy. These tidings were at first
whispered about town; but no one dared express aloud the soul-
quailing intelligence. When any one met a friend in the street,
he only cried as he hurried on, "You know!"-- while the other,
with an ejaculation of fear and horror, would answer,--"What
will become of us?" At length it was mentioned in the
newspapers. The paragraph was inserted in an obscure part: "We
regret to state that there can be no longer a doubt of the
plague having been introduced at Leghorn, Genoa, and
Marseilles." No word of comment followed; each reader made his
own fearful one. We were as a man who hears that his house is
burning, and yet hurries through the streets, borne along by a
lurking hope of a mistake, till he turns the corner, and sees
his sheltering roof enveloped in a flame. Before it had been a
rumour; but now in words inerasable, in definite and undeniable
print, the knowledge went forth. Its obscurity of situation
rendered it the more conspicuous: the diminutive letters grew
gigantic to the bewildered eye of fear: they seemed graven with
a pen of iron, impressed by fire, woven in the clouds, stamped
on the very front of the universe.
The English, whether travellers or residents, came pouring in
one great revulsive stream, back on their own country; and with
them crowds of Italians and Spaniards. Our little island was
filled even to bursting. At first an unusual quantity of specie
made its appearance with the emigrants; but these people had
no means of receiving back into their hands what they spent
among us. With the advance of summer, and the increase of the
distemper, rents were unpaid, and their remittances failed
them. It was impossible to see these crowds of wretched,
perishing creatures, late nurslings of luxury, and not stretch
out a hand to save them. As at the conclusion of the eighteenth
century, the English unlocked their hospitable store, for the
relief of those driven from their homes by political
revolution; so now they were not backward in affording aid to
the victims of a more wide-spreading calamity. We had many
foreign friends whom we eagerly sought out, and relieved from
dreadful penury. Our Castle became an asylum for the unhappy. A
little population occupied its halls. The revenue of its
possessor, which had always found a mode of expenditure
congenial to his generous nature, was now attended to more
parsimoniously, that it might embrace a wider portion of
utility. It was not however money, except partially, but the
necessaries of life, that became scarce. It was difficult to find
an immediate remedy. The usual one of imports was entirely cut
off. In this emergency, to feed the very people to whom we had
given refuge, we were obliged to yield to the plough and the
mattock our pleasure-grounds and parks. Live stock diminished
sensibly in the country, from the effects of the great demand
in the market. Even the poor deer, our antlered proteges, were
obliged to fall for the sake of worthier pensioners. The labour
necessary to bring the lands to this sort of culture, employed
and fed the offcasts of the diminished manufactories.
Adrian did not rest only with the exertions he could make
with regard to his own possessions. He addressed himself to the
wealthy of the land; he made proposals in parliament little
adapted to please the rich; but his earnest pleadings and
benevolent eloquence were irresistible. To give up their
pleasure-grounds to the agriculturist, to diminish sensibly the
number of horses kept for the purposes of luxury throughout
the country, were means obvious, but unpleasing. Yet, to the
honour of the English be it recorded, that, although natural
disinclination made them delay awhile, yet when the misery of
their fellow-creatures became glaring, an enthusiastic
generosity inspired their decrees. The most luxurious were
often the first to part with their indulgencies. As is common
in communities, a fashion was set. The high-born ladies of the
country would have deemed themselves disgraced if they had now
enjoyed, what they before called a necessary, the ease of a
carriage. Chairs, as in olden time, and Indian palanquins were
introduced for the infirm; but else it was nothing singular to
see females of rank going on foot to places of fashionable
resort. It was more common, for all who possessed landed
property to secede to their estates, attended by whole troops
of the indigent, to cut down their woods to erect temporary
dwellings, and to portion out their parks, parterres and flower-
gardens, to necessitous families. Many of these, of high rank in
their own countries, now, with hoe in hand, turned up the soil.
It was found necessary at last to check the spirit of sacrifice,
and to remind those whose generosity proceeded to lavish waste,
that, until the present state of things became permanent, of
which there was no likelihood, it was wrong to carry change so
far as to make a reaction difficult. Experience demonstrated
that in a year or two pestilence would cease; it were well that
in the mean time we should not have destroyed our fine breeds
of horses, or have utterly changed the face of the ornamented
portion of the country.
It may be imagined that things were in a bad state indeed,
before this spirit of benevolence could have struck such deep
roots. The infection had now spread in the southern provinces
of France. But that country had so many resources in the way of
agriculture, that the rush of population from one part of it to
another, and its increase through foreign emigration, was less
felt than with us. The panic struck appeared of more injury,
than disease and its natural concomitants.
Winter was hailed, a general and never-failing physician. The
embrowning woods, and swollen rivers, the evening mists, and
morning frosts, were welcomed with gratitude. The effects of
purifying cold were immediately felt; and the lists of
mortality abroad were curtailed each week. Many of our visitors
left us: those whose homes were far in the south, fled
delightedly from our northern winter, and sought their native
land, secure of plenty even after their fearful visitation. We
breathed again. What the coming summer would bring, we knew
not; but the present months were our own, and our hopes of a
cessation of pestilence were high.
I HAVE lingered thus long on the extreme bank, the wasting
shoal that stretched into the stream of life, dallying with the
shadow of death. Thus long, I have cradled my heart in
retrospection of past happiness, when hope was. Why not for
ever thus? I am not immortal; and the thread of my history
might be spun out to the limits of my existence. But the same
sentiment that first led me to portray scenes replete with
tender recollections, now bids me hurry on. The same yearning
of this warm, panting heart, that has made me in written words
record my vagabond youth, my serene manhood, and the passions
of my soul, makes me now recoil from further delay. I must
complete my work.
Here then I stand, as I said, beside the fleet waters of the
flowing years, and now away! Spread the sail, and strain with
oar, hurrying by dark impending crags, adown steep rapids, even
to the sea of desolation I have reached. Yet one moment, one
brief interval before I put from shore--once, once again let me
fancy myself as I was in 2094 in my abode at Windsor, let me
close my eyes, and imagine that the immeasurable boughs of its
oaks still shadow me, its castle walls anear. Let fancy portray
the joyous scene of the twentieth of June, such as even now my
aching heart recalls it.