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Quo Vadis, A Narrative of the Time of Nero
Henryk Sienkiewicz
Translated from the Polish by Jeremiah Cuurtin
TO AUGUSTE COMTE,
Of San Francisco, Cal.,
MY DEAR FRIEND AND CLASSMATE, I BEG TO DEDICATE
THIS VOLUME.
JEREMIAH CURTIN
IN the trilogy "With Fire and Sword," "The Deluge," and "Pan
Michael," Sienkiewicz has given pictures of a great and decisive
epoch in modern history. The results of the struggle begun under
Bogdan Hmelnitski have been felt for more than two centuries, and
they are growing daily in importance. The Russia which rose out
of that struggle has become a power not only of European but of
world-wide significance, and, to all human seeming, she is yet in
an early stage of her career.
In "Quo Vadis" the author gives us pictures of opening scenes in
the conflict of moral ideas with the Roman Empire, -- a conflict
from which Christianity issued as the leading force in history.
The Slays are not so well known to Western Europe or to us as
they are sure to be in the near future; hence the trilogy, with all its
popularity and merit, is not appreciated yet as it will be.
The conflict described in "Quo Vadis" is of supreme interest to a
vast number of persons reading English; and this book will rouse, I
think, more attention at first than anything written by Sienkiewicz
hitherto.
PETRONIUS woke only about midday, and as usual greatly
wearied. The evening before he had been at one of Nero's feasts,
which was prolonged till late at night. For some time his health
had been failing. He said himself that he woke up benumbed, as it
were, and without power of collecting his thoughts. But the
morning bath and careful kneading of the body by trained slaves
hastened gradually the course of his slothful blood, roused him,
quickened him, restored his strength, so that he issued from the
elaeothesium, that is, the last division of the bath, as if he had risen
from the dead, with eyes gleaming from wit and gladness,
rejuvenated, filled with life, exquisite, so unapproachable that
Otho himself could not compare with him, and was really that
which he had been called, -- arbiter elegantiarum.
He visited the public baths rarely, only when some rhetor
happened there who roused admiration and who was spoken of in
the city, or when in the ephebias there were combats of
exceptional interest. Moreover, he had in his own "insula" private
baths which Celer, the famous contemporary of Severus, had
extended for him, reconstructed and arranged with such
uncommon taste that Nero himself acknowledged their excellence
over those of the Emperor, though the imperial baths were more
extensive and finished with incomparably greater luxury.
After that feast, at which he was bored by the jesting of Vatinius
with Nero, Lucan, and Seneca, he took part in a diatribe as to
whether woman has a soul. Rising late, he used, as was his custom,
the baths. Two enormous balneatores laid him on a cypress table
covered with snow-white Egyptian byssus, and with hands dipped
in perfumed olive oil began to rub his shapely body; and he waited
with closed eyes till the heat of the laconicum and the heat of their
hands passed through him and expelled weariness.
But after a certain time he spoke, and opened his eyes; he inquired
about the weather, and then about gems which the jeweller
Idomeneus had promised to send him for examination that day. It
appeared that the weather was beautiful, with a light breeze from
the Alban hills, and that the gems had not been brought. Petronius
closed his eyes again, and had given command to bear him to the
tepidarium, when from behind the curtain the nomenclator looked
in, announcing that young Marcus Vinicius, recently returned from
Asia Minor, had come to visit him.
Petronius ordered to admit the guest to the tepidarium, to which he
was borne himself. Vinicius was the son of his oldest sister, who
years before had married Marcus Vinicius, a man of consular
dignity from the time of Tiberius. The young man was serving then
under Corbulo against the Parthians, and at the close of the war
had returned to the city. Petronius had for him a certain weakness
bordering on attachment, for Marcus was beautiful and athletic,
a young man who knew how to preserve a certain aesthetic
measure in his profligacy; this, Petronius prized above everything.
"A greeting to Petronius," said the young man, entering the
tepidarium with a springy step. "May all the gods grant thee
success, but especially Asklcpios and Kypris, for under their
double protection nothing evil can meet one."
"I greet thee in Rome, and may thy rest be sweet after war," replied
Petronius, extending his hand from between the folds of soft
karbas stuff in which he was wrapped. "What's to be heard in
Armenia; or since thou wert in Asia, didst thou not stumble into
Bithynia?"
Petronius on a time had been proconsul in Bithynia, and, what is
more, he had governed with energy and justice. This was a
marvellous contrast in the character of a man noted for effeminacy
and love of luxury; hence he was fond of mentioning those times,
as they were a proof of what he had been, and of what he might
have become had it pleased him.
"I happened to visit Heraklea," answered Vinicius. "Corbulo sent
me there with an order to assemble reinforcements."
"Ah, Heraklea! I knew at Heraklea a certain maiden from Colchis,
for whom I would have given alI the divorced women of this city,
not excluding Poppaa. But these are old stories. Tell me now,
rather, what is to be heard from the Parthian boundary. It is true
that they weary me every Vologeses of them, and Tiridates and
Tigranes, -- those barbarians who, as young Arulenus insists, walk
on all fours at home, and pretend to be human only when in our
presence. But now people in Rome speak much of them, if only for
the reason that it is dangerous to speak of aught else."
"The war is going badly, and but for Corbulo might be turned to
defeat."
"Corbulo! by Bacchus! a real god of war, a genuine Mars, a great
leader, at the same time quick-tempered, honest, and dull. I love
him, even for this,-- that Nero is afraid of him."
"Corbulo is not a dull man."
"Perhaps thou art right, but for that matter it is all one. Dulness, as
Pyrrho says, is in no way worse than wisdom, and differs from it in
nothing."
Vinicius began to talk of the war; but when Petronius closed his
eyes again, the young man, seeing his uncle's tired and somewhat
emaciated face, changed the conversation, and inquired with a
certain interest about his health.
Petronius opened his eyes again.
Health! -- No. He did not feel well. He had not gone so far yet, it is
true, as young Sissena, who had lost sensation to such a degree that
when he was brought to the bath in the morning he inquired, "Am I
sitting?" But he was not well. Vinicius had just committed him to
the care of Askiepios and Kypris. But he, Petronius, did not
believe in Askiepios. It was not known even whose son that
Askiepios was, the son of Arsinoe or Koronis; and if the mother
was doubtful, what was to be said of the father? Who, in that time,
could be sure who his own father was?
Hereupon Petronius began to laugh; then he continued, -- "Two
years ago, it is true, I sent to Epidaurus three dozen live blackbirds
and a goblet of gold; but dost thou know why? I said to myself,
'Whether this helps or not, it will do me no harm.' Though people
make offerings to the gods yet, I believe that all think as I do, --
all, with the exception, perhaps, of muledrivers hired at the Porta
Capena by travellers. Besides Askiepios, I have had dealings with
sons of Askiepios. When I was troubled a little last year in the
bladder, they performed an incubation for me. I saw that they were
tricksters, but I said to myself: 'What harm! The world stands on
deceit, and life is an illusion. The soul is an illusion too. But one
must have reason enough to distinguish pleasant from painful
illusions.' I shall give command to burn in my hypocaustum,
cedar-wood sprinkled with ambergris, for during life I prefer
perfumes to stenches. As to Kypris, to whom thou hast also
confided me, I have known her guardianship to the extent that 1
have twinges in my right foot. But as to the rest she is a good
goddess! I suppose that thou wilt bear sooner or later white doves
to her altar."
"True," answered Vinicius. "The arrows of the Parthians have not
reached my body, but a dart of Amor has struck me --
unexpectedly, a few stadia from a gate of this city."
"By the white knees of the Graces! thou wilt tell me of this at a
leisure hour."
"I have come purposely to get thy advice," answered Marcus.
But at that moment the epilatores came, and occupied themselves
with Petronius. Marcus, throwing aside his tunic, entered a bath of
tepid water, for Petronius invited him to a plunge bath.
"Ah, I have not even asked whether thy feeling is reciprocated,"
said Pctronius, looking at the youthful body of Marcus, which was
as if cut out of marble. "Had Lysippos seen thee, thou wouldst be
ornamenting now the gate leading to the Palatine, as a statue of
Hercules in youth."
The young man smiled with satisfaction, and began to sink in the
bath, splashing warm water abundantly on the mosaic which
represented Hera at the moment when she was imploring Sleep to
lull Zeus to rest. Petronius looked at him with the satisfied eye of
an artist.
When Vinicius had finished and yielded himself in turn to the
epilatores, a lector came in with a bronze tube at his breast and
rolls of paper in the tube.
"Dost wish to listen?" asked Petronius.
"If it is thy creation, gladly!" answered the young tribune; "if not, I
prefer conversation. Poets seize people at present on every street
corner."
"Of course they do. Thou wilt not pass any basilica, bath, library,
or book-shop without seeing a poet gesticulating like a monkey.
Agrippa, on coming here from the East, mistook them for
madmen. And it is just such a time now. Caesar writes verses;
hence all follow in his steps. Only it is not permitted to write better
verses than Caesar, and for that reason I fear a little for Lucan. But
I write prose, with which, however, I do not honor myself or
others. What the lector has to read are codicilli of that poor
Fabricius Veiento."
"Why 'poor'?"
"Because it has been communicated to him that he must dwell in
Odyssa and not return to his domestic hearth till he receives a new
command. That Odyssey will be easier for him than for Ulysses,
since his wife is no Penelope. I need not tell thee, for that matter,
that he acted stupidly. But here no one takes things otherwise than
superficially. His is rather a wretched and dull little book, which
people have begun to read passionately only when the author is
banished. Now one hears on every side, 'Scandala! scandala!' and it
may be that Veiento invented some things; but I, who know the
city, know our patres and our women, assure thee that it is all paler
than reality. Meanwhile every man is searching in the book, -- for
himself with alarm, for his acquaintances with delight. At the
book-shop of Avirnus a hundred copyists are writing at dictation,
and its success is assured."
"Are not thy affairs in it?"
"They are; but the author is mistaken, for I am at once worse and
less flat than he represents me. Seest thou we have lost long since
the feeling of what is worthy or unworthy, -- and to me even it
seems that in real truth there is no difference between them,
though Seneca, Musonius, and Trasca pretend that they see it. To
me it is all one! By Hercules, I say what I think! I have preserved
loftiness, however, because I know what is deformed and what is
beautiful; but our poet, Bronzebeard, for example, the charioteer,
the singer, the actor, does not understand this."
"I am sorry, however, for Fabricius! He is a good companion."
"Vanity ruined the man. Every one suspected him, no one knew
certainly; but he could not contain himself, and told the secret on
all sides in confidence. Hast heard the history of Rufinus?"
"Then come to the frigidarium to cool; there I will tell thee."
They passed to the frigidarium, in the middle of which played a
fountain of bright rose-color, emitting the odor of violets. There
they sat in niches which were covered with velvet, and began to
cool themselves. Silence reigned for a time. Vinicius looked
awhile thoughtfully at a bronze faun which, bending over the arm
of a nymph, was seeking her lips eagerly with his lips.
"He is right," said the young man. "That is what is best in life."
"More or less! But besides this thou lovest war, for which I have
no liking, since under tents one's finger-nails break and cease to be
rosy. For that matter, every man has his preferences. Bronzebcard
loves song, especially his own; and old Scaurus his Corinthian
vase, which stands near his bed at night, and which he kisses when
he cannot sleep. He has kissed the edge off already. Tell me, dost
thou not write verses?"
"No; I have never composed a single hexameter."
"And dost thou not play on the lute and sing?"
"No."
"And dost thou drive a chariot?"
"I tried once in Antioch, but unsuccessfully."
"Then I am at rest concerning thee. And to what party in the
hippodrome dost thou belong?"
"To the Greens."
"Now I am perfectly at rest, especially since thou hast a large
property indeed, though thou art not so rich as Pallas or Seneca.
For seest thou, with us at present it is well to write verses, to sing
to a lute, to declaim, and to compete in the Circus; but better, and
especially safer, not to write verses, not to play, not to sing, and
not to compete in the Circus. Best of all, is it to know how to
admire when Bronzebeard admires. Thou art a comely young man;
hence Poppxa may fall in love with thee. This is thy only peril. But
no, she is too experienced; she cares for something else. She has
had enough of love with her two husbands; with the third she has
other views. Dost thou know that that stupid Otho loves her yet to
distraction? He walks on the cliffs of Spain, and sighs; he has so
lost his former habits, and so ceased to care for his person, that
three hours each day suffice him to dress his hair. \Vho could have
expected this of Otho?"
"I understand him," answered Vinicius; "but in his place I should
have done something else."
"What, namely?"
"I should have enrolled faithful legions of mountaineers of that
country. They are good soldiers, -- those Iberians."
"Vinicius! Vinicius! I almost wish to tell thee that thou wouldst not
have been capable of that. And knowest why? Such things are
done, but they are not mentioned even conditionally. As to me, in
his place, I should have laughed at Popp~ra, laughed at
Bronzebeard, and formed for myself legions, not of Iberian men,
however, but Iberian women. And what is more, I should have
written epigrams which I should not have read to any one, -- not
like that poor Rufinus."
"Thou wert to tell me his history."
"I will tell it in the unctorium."
But in the unctorium the attention of Vinicius was turned to other
objects; namely, to wonderful slave women who were waiting for
the bathers. Two of them, Africans, resembling noble statues of
ebony, began to anoint their bodies with delicate perfumes from
Arabia; others, Phrygians, skilled in hairdressing, held in their
hands, which were bending and flexible as serpents, combs and
mirrors of polished steel; two Grecian maidens from Kos, who
were simply like deities, waited as vestiplic~, till the moment
should come to put statuesque folds in the togas of the lords.
"By the cloud-scattering Zeus!" said Marcus Vinicius, "what a
choice thou hast!"
"I prefer choice to numbers," answered Petronius. "My whole
'familia' 1 in Rome does not exceed four hundred, and I judge that
for personal attendance only upstarts need a greater number of
people."
"More beautiful bodies even Bronzebeard does not possess," said
Vinicius, distending his nostrils.
"Thou art my relative," answered Petronius, with a certain friendly
indifference, "and I am neither so misanthropic as Barsus nor such
a pedant as Aulus Plautius."
When Vinicius heard this last name, he forgot the maidens from
Kos for a moment, and, raising his head vivaciously, inquired, --
"Whence did Aulus Plautius come to thy mind? Dost thou know
that after I had disjointed my arm outside the city, I passed a
number of days in his house? It happened that Plautius came up at
the moment when the accident happened, and, seeing that I was
suffering greatly, he took me to his house; there a slave of his, the
physician Merion, restored me to health. I wished to speak with
thee touching this very matter."
"Why? Is it because thou hast fallen in love with Pomponia
perchance? In that case I pity thee; she is not young, and she is
virtuous! I cannot imagine a worse combination. Brr!"
"Not with Pomponia -- eheu!" answered Vinicius.
"With whom, then?"
"If I knew myself with whom? But I do not know to a certainty her
name even, -- Lygia or Calhina? They call her Lygia in the house,
for she comes of the Lygian nation; but she has her own barbarian
name, Callina. It is a wonderful house, -- that of those Plautiuses.
There are many people in it; but it is quiet there as in the groves of
Subiacum. For a number of days I did not know that a divinity
dwelt in the house. Once about daybreak I saw her bathing in the
garden fountain; and I swear to thee by that foam from which
Aphrodite rose, that the rays of the dawn passed right through her
body. I thought that when the sun rose she would vanish before me
in the light, as the twilight of morning does. Since then, I have
seen her twice; and since then, too, I know not what rest is, I know
not what other desires are, I have no wish to know what the city
can give me. I want neither women, nor gold, nor Corinthian
bronze, nor amber, nor pearls, nor wine, nor feasts; I want only
Lygia. I am yearning for her, in sincerity I tell thee, Petronius, as
that Dream who is imaged on the Mosaic of thy tepidarium
yearned for Paisythea, -- whole days and night do I yearn."
"If she is a slave, then purchase her."
"She is not a slave."
"What is she? A freed woman of Plautius?"
"Never having been a slave, she could not be a freed woman."
"Who is she?"
"I know not, -- a king's daughter, or something of that sort."
"Thou dost rouse my curiosity, Vinicius."
"But if thou wish to listen, I will satisfy thy curiosity straightway.
Her story is not a long one. Thou art acquainted, perhaps
personally, with Vannius, king of the Suevi, who, expelled from
his country, spent a long time here in Rome, and became even
famous for his skilful play with dice, and his good driving of
chariots. Drusus put him on the throne again. Vannius, who was
really a strong man, ruled well at first, and warred with success;
afterward, however, he began to skin not only his neighbors, but
his own Suevi, too much. Thereupon Vanglo and Sido, two sister's
sons of his, and the sons of Vibilius, king of the Hermunduri,
determined to force him to Rome again -- to try his luck there at
dice."
"I remember; that is of recent Glaudian times."
"Yes! War broke out. Vannius summoned to his aid the Yazygi; his
dear nephews called in the Lygians, who, hearing of the riches of
Vannius, and enticed by the hope of booty, came in such numbers
that Caesar himself, Claudius, began to fear for the safety of the
boundary. Claudius did not wish to interfere in a war among
barbarians, but he wrote to Atelius Hister, who commanded the
legions of the Danube, to turn a watchful eye on the course of the
war, and not permit them to disturb our peace. Hister required,
thcn, of the Lygians a promise not to cross the boundary; to this
they not only agreed, but gave hostages, among whom were the
wife and daughter of their leader. It is known to thee that
barbarians take their wives and children to war with them. My
Lygia is the daughter of that leader."
"Whence dost thou know all this?"
"Aulus Plautius told it himself. The Lygians did not cross the
boundary, indeed; but barbarians come and go like a tempest. So
did the Lygians vanish with their wild-ox horns on their heads.
They killed Vannius's Suevi and Yazygi; but their own king fell.
They disappeared with their booty then, and the hostages remained
in Hister's hands. The mother died soon after, and Hister, not
knowing what to do with the daughter, sent her to Pornponius, the
governor of all Germany. He, at the close of the war with the Catti,
returned to Rome, where Claudius, as is known to thee, permitted
him to have a triumph. The maiden on that occasion walked after
the car of the conqueror; but, at the end of the solemnity, -- since
hostages cannot be considered captives, and since Pomponius did
not know what to do with her definitely -- he gave her to his sister
Pomponia Grsrcina, the wife of Plautius. In that house where all --
beginning with the masters and ending with the poultry in the
hen-house -- are virtuous, that maiden grew up as virtuous, alas! as
Grxcina herself, and so beautiful that even Poppae, if near her,
would seem like an autumn fig near an apple of the Hesperides."
"And what?"
"And I repeat to thee that from the moment when I saw how the
sun-rays at that fountain passed through her body, I fell in love to
distraction."
"She is as transparent as a lamprey eel, then, or a youthful
sardine?"
"Jest not, Petronius; but if the freedom with which I speak of my
desire misleads thee, know this, -- that bright garments frequently
cover deep wounds. I must tell thee, too, that, while returning from
Asia, I slept one night in the temple of Mopsus to have a prophetic
dream. Well, Mopsus appeared in a dream to me, and declared
that, through love, a great change in my life would take place."
"Pliny declares, as I hear, that he does not believe in the gods, but
he believes in dreams; and perhaps he is right. My jests do not
prevent me from thinking at times that in truth there is only one
deity, eternal, creative, all. powerful, Venus Genetrix. She brings
souls together; she unites bodies and things. Eros called the world
out of chaos. Whether he did well is another question; but, since
he did so, we should recognize his might, though we are free not to
bless it."
"Alas! Petronius, it is easier to find philosophy in the world than
wise counsel."
"Tell me, what is thy wish specially?"
"I wish to have Lygia. I wish that these arms of mine, which now
embrace only air, might embrace Lygia and press her to my bosom.
I wish to breathe with her breath. Were she a slave, I would give
Aulus for her one hundred maidens with feet whitened with lime
as a sign that they were exhibited on sale for the first time. I wish
to have her in my house till my head is as white as the top of
Soracte in winter."
"She is not a slave, but she belongs to the 'family' of Plautius; and
since she is a deserted maiden, she may be considered an 'alumna.'
Plautius might yield her to thee if he wished."
"Then it seems that thou knowest not Pomponia Graecina. Both
have become as much attached to her as if she were their own
daughter."
"Pomponia I know, -- a real cypress. If she were not the wife of
Aulus, she might be engaged as a mourner. Since the death of
Julius she has not thrown aside dark robes; and in general she
looks as if, while still alive, she were walking on the asphodel
meadow. She is, moreover, a 'one-man woman'; hence, among our
ladies of four and five divorces, she is straighrway a phoenix. But!
hast thou heard that in Upper Egypt the phoenix has just been
hatched out, as 'tis said? -- an event which happens not oftener
than once in five centuries."
"Petronius! Petronius! Let us talk of the phoenix some other time."
"What shall I tell thee, my Marcus? I know Aulus Plautius, who,
though he blames my mode of life, has for me a certain weakness,
and even respects me, perhaps, more than others, for he knows that
I have never been an informer like Domitius Afer, Tigellinus, and
a whole rabble of Ahenobarbus's intimates.1 Without pretending to
be a stoic, I have been offended more than once at acts of Nero,
which Seneca and Burrus looked at through their fingers. If it is
thy thought that I might do something for thee with Aulus, I am at
thy command."
"I judge that thou hast the power. Thou hast influence over him;
and, besides, thy mind possesses inexhaustible resources. If thou
wert to survey the position and speak with Plautius."
"Thou hast too great an idea of my influence and wit; but if that is
the only question, I will talk with Plautius as soon as they return to
the city."
"They returned two days since."
"In that case let us go to the triclinium, where a meal is now ready,
and when we have refreshed ourselves, let us give command to
bear us to Plautius."
"Thou hart ever been kind to me," answered Vinicius, with
vivacity; "but now I shall give command to rear thy statue among
my lares, -- just such a beauty as this one, -- and I will place
offerings before it."
Then he turned toward the statues which ornamented one entire
wall of the perfumed chamber, and pointing to the one which
represented Petronius as Hermes with a staff in his hand, he added,
-- "By the light of Helios! if the 'godlike' Alexander resembled
thee, I do not wonder at Helen."
And in that exclamation there was as much sincerity as flattery; for
Pc.tronius, though older and less athletic, was more beautiful than
even Vinicius. The women of Rome admired not only his pliant
mind and his taste, which gained for him the title Arbiter
cleganti~e, but also his body. This admiration was evident even on
the faces of those maidens from Kos who were arranging the folds
of his toga; and one of whom, whose name was Eunice, loving him
in secret, looked him in the eyes with submission and rapture. But
he did not even notice this; and, smiling at Vinicius, he quoted in
answer an expression of Seneca about woman, -- Animal impud
ens, etc. And then, placing an arm on the shoulders of his nephew,
he conducted him to the triclinium.
In the unctorium the two Grecian maidens, the Phrygians, and the
two Ethiopians began to put away the vessels with perfumes. But
at that moment, and beyond the curtain of the frigidarium,
appeared the heads of the halneatores, and a low "Psst!" was heard.
At that call one of the Grecians, the Phrygians, and the Ethiopians
sprang up quickly, and vanished in a twinkle behind the curtain. In
the baths began a moment of license which the inspector did not
prevent, for he took frequent part in such frolics himself. Petronius
suspected that they took place; but, as a prudent man, and one who
did not like to punish, he looked at them through his fingers.
In the unctorium only Eunice remained. She listened for a short
time to the voices and laughter which retreated in the direction of
the laconicum. At last she took the stool inlaid with amber and
ivory, on which Petronius had been sitting a short time before, and
put it carefully at his statue. The unctorium was full of sunlight
and the hues which came from the manycolored marbles with
which the wall was faced. Eunice stood on the stool, and, finding
herself at the level of the statue, cast her arms suddenly around its
neck; then, throwing back her golden hair, and pressing her rosy
body to the white marble, she pressed her lips with ecstasy to the
cold lips of Petronius.
1 Nero's name was originally I. Domitius Ahenobarbus.
Avrza a refreshment, which was called the morning meal and to
which the two friends sat down at an hour when common mortals
were abeady long past their midday prandium, Petronius proposed
a light doze. According to him, it was too early for visits yet.
"There are, it is true," said he, "people who begin to visit their
acquaintances about sunrise, thinking that custom an old Roman
one, but I look on this as barbarous. The afternoon hours are most
proper, -- not earlier, however, than that one when the sun passes
to the side of Jove's temple on the Capitol and begins to look
slantwise on the Forum. In autumn it is still hot, and people arc
glad to sleep after eating. At the same time it is pleasant to hear
the noise of the fountain in the atrium, and, after the obligatory
thousand steps, to doze in the red light which filters in through the
purple half-drawn velarium."
Vinicius recognized the justice of these words; and the two men
began to walk, speaking in a careless manner of what was to be
heard on the Palatine and in the city, and philosophizing a little
upon life. Petronius withdrew then to the cubiculum, but did not
sleep long. In half an hour he came out, and, having given
command to bring verbena, he inhaled the perfume and rubbed his
hands and temples with it.
"Thou wilt not believe," said he, "how it enlivens and freshens one.
Now I am ready."
The litter was waiting long since; hence they took their places, and
Petronius gave command to bear them to the Vicus Patricius, to
the house of Aulus. Petronius's "insula" lay on the southern slope
of the Palatine, near the so-called Carinse; their nearest way,
therefore, was below the Forum; but since Petronius wished to step
in on the way to see the jeweller Idomeneus, he gave the direction
to carry them along the Vicus Apollinis and the Forum in the
direction of the Vicus Sceleratus, on the corner of which were
many tabernae of every kind.
Gigantic Africans bore the litter and moved on, preceded by slaves
called pedisequii. Petronius, after some time, raised to his nostrils
in silence his palm odorous with verbena, and seemed to be
meditating on something.
"It occurs to me," said he after a while, "that if thy forest goddess
is not a slave she might leave the house of Plautius, and transfer
herself to thine. Thou wouldst surround her with love and cover
her with wealth, as I do my adored Chrysothemis, of whom,
speaking between us, I have quite as nearly enough as she has of
me."
Marcus shook his head.
"No?" inquired Petronius. "In the worst event, the case would be
left with Caesar, and thou mayst be certain that, thanks even to my
influence, our Bronzebeard would be on thy side."
"Thou knowest not Lygia," replied Vinicius.
"Then permit me to ask if thou know her otherwise than by sight?
Mast spoken with her? hast confessed thy love to her?"
"I saw her first at the fountain; since then I have met her twice.
Remember that during my stay in the house of Aulus, I dwelt in a
separate villa, intended for guests, and, having a disjointed arm, I
could not sit at the common table. Only on the eve of the day for
which I announced my departure did I meet Lygia at supper, but I
could not say a word to her. I had to listen to Aulus and his
account of victories gained by him in Britain, and then of the fall
of small states in Italy, which Licinius Stolo strove to prevent. In
general I do not know whether Aulus will be able to speak of aught
else, and do not think that we shall escape this history unless it be
thy wish to hear about the effeminacy of these days. They have
pheasants in their preserves, but they do not eat them, setting out
from the principle that every pheasant eaten brings nearer the end
of Roman power. I met her a second time at the garden cistern,
with a freshly plucked reed in her hand, the top of which she
dipped in the water and sprinkled the irises growing around. Look
at my knees. By the shield of Hercules, I tell thee that they did not
tremble when clouds of Parthians advanced on our maniples with
howls, but they trembled before the cistern. And, confused as a
youth who still wears a bulla on his neck, I merely begged pity
with my eyes, not being able to utter a word for a long time."
Petronius looked at him, as if with a certain envy. "Happy man,"
said he, "though the world and life were the worst possible, one
thing in them will remain eternally good, -- youth!"
After a while he inquired: "And hast thou not spoken to her?"
"When I had recovered somewhat, I told her that I was returning
from Asia, that I had disjointed my arm near the city, and had
suffered severely, but at the moment of leaving that hospitable
house I saw that suffering in it was more to be wished for than
delight in another place, that sickness there was better than health
somewhere else. Confused too on her part, she listened to my
words with bent head while drawing something with the reed on
the saffron-colored sand. Afterward she raised her eyes, then
looked down at the marks drawn already; once more she looked at
me, as if to ask about something, and then fled on a sudden like a
hamadryad before a dull faun."
"She must have beautiful eyes."
"As the sea -- and I was drowned in them, as in the sea. Believe me
that the archipelago is less blue. After a while a little son of
Plautius ran up with a question. But I did not understand what he
wanted."
"O Athene!" exclaimed Petronius, "remove from the eyes of this
youth the bandage with which Eros has bound them; if not, he will
break his head against the columns of Venus's temple.
"O thou spring bud on the tree of life," said he, turning to Vinicius,
"thou first green shoot of the vine! Instead of taking thee to the
Plautiuses, I ought to give command to bear thee to the house of
Gelocius, where there is a school for youths unacquainted with
life."
"What dost thou wish in particular?"
"But what did she write on the sand? Was it not the name of Amor,
or a heart pierced with his dart, or something of such sort, that one
might know from it that the satyrs had whispered to the ear of that
nymph various secrets of life? How couldst thou help looking on
those marks?"
"It is longer since I have put on the toga than seems to thee," said
Vinicius, "and before little Aulus ran up, I looked carefully at
those marks, for I know that frequently maidens in Greece and in
Rome draw on the sand a confession which their lips will not utter.
But guess what she drew!"
"If it is other than I supposed, I shall not guess."
"A fish."
"What dost thou say?"
"I say, a fish. What did that mean, -- that cold blood is flowing in
her veins? So far I do not know; but thou, who hast called me a
spring bud on the tree of life, wilt be able to understand the sign
certainly."
"Carissime! ask such a thing of Pliny. He knows fish. If old
Apicius were alive, he could tell thee something, for in the course
of his life he ate more fish than could find place at one time in the
bay of Naples."
Further conversation was interrupted, since they were borne into
crowded streets where the noise of people hindered them.
From the Vicus Apollinis they turned to the Boarium, and then
entered the Forum Rornanurn, where on clear days, before sunset,
crowds of idle people assembled to stroll among the columns, to
tell and hear news, to see noted people borne past in litters, and
finally to look in at the jewellery-shops, the book-shops, the arches
where coin was changed, shops for silk, bronze, and all other
articles with which the buildings covering that part of the market
placed opposite the Capitol were filled.
One-half of the Forum, immediately under the rock of the Capitol,
was buried already in shade; but the columns of the temples,
placed higher, seemed golden in the sunshine and the blue. Those
lying lower cast lengthened shadows on marble slabs. The place
was so filled with columns everywhere that the eye was lost in
them as in a forest.
Those buildings and columns seemed huddled together. They
towered some above others, they stretched toward the right and the
left, they climbed toward the height, and they clung to the wall of
the Capitol, or some of them clung to others, like greater and
smaller, thicker and thinner, white or gold colored tree-trunks, now
blooming under architraves, flowers of the acanthus, now
surrounded with Ionic corners, now finished with a simple Done
quadrangle. Above that forest gleamed colored triglyphs; from
tympans stood forth the sculptured forms of gods; from the
Summits winged golden quadrig~ seemed ready to fly away
through space into the blue dome, fixed serenely above that
crowded place of temples. Through the middle of the market and
along the edges of it flowed a river of people; crowds passed under
the arches of the basilica of Julius C~zsar; crowds were sitting on
the steps of Castor and Pollux, or walking around the temple of
Vesta, resembling on that great marble background many-colored
swarms of butterflies or beetles. Down immense steps, from the
side of the temple on the Capitol dedicated to Jupiter Optimus
Maximus, came new waves; at the rostra people listened to chance
orators; in one place and another rose the shouts of hawkers selling
fruit, wine, or water mixed with fig_juice; of tricksters; of venders
of marvellous medicines; of soothsayers; of discoverers of hidden
treasures; of interpreters of dreams. Here and there, in the tumult
of conversations and cries, were mingled sounds of the Egyptian
sistra, of tile sambuk‚, or of Grecian flutes. Here and there the
sick, the pious, or the afflicted were bearing offerings to the
temples. In the midst of the people, on the stone flags, gathered
flocks of doves, eager for the grain given them, and like movable
many-colored and dark spots, now rising for a moment with a loud
sound of wings, now dropping down again to places left vacant by
people. From time to time the crowds opened before litters in
which were visible the affected faces of women, or the heads of
senators and knights, with features, as it were, rigid and exhausted
from living. The many-tongued population repeated aloud their
names, with the addition of some term of praise or ridicule.
Among the unordered groups pushed from time to time, advancing
with measured tread, parties of soldiers, or watchers, preserving
order on the streets. Around about, the Greek language was heard
as often as Latin.
Vinicius, who had not been in the city for a long time, looked with
a certain curiosity on that swarm of people and on that Forum
Romanum, which both dominated the sea of the world and was
flooded by it, so that Petronius, who divined the thoughts of his
companion, called it "the nest of the Quirites -- without the
Quiites." In truth, the local element was well-nigh lost in that
crowd, composed of all races and nations. There appeared
Ethiopians, gigantic light-haired people from the distant north,
Britons, Gauls, Germans, sloping-eyed dwellers of Lericum;
people from the Euphrates and from the Indus, with beards dyed
brick color; Syrians from the banks of the Orontes, with black and
mild eyes; dwellers in the deserts of Arabia, dried up as a bone;
Jews, with their flat breasts; Egyptians, with the eternal,
indifferent smile on their faces; Numidians and Africans; Greeks
from Hellas, who equally with the Romans commanjied the city,
but commanded through science, art, wisdom, and deceit; Greeks
from the islands, from Asia Minor, from Egypt, from Italy, from
Narbonic Gaul. In the throng of slaves, with pierced ears, were not
lacking also freemen, -- an idle population, which Caesar amused,
supported, even clothed, -- and free visitors, whom the ease of life
and the prospects of fortune enticed to the gigantic city; there was
no lack of venal persons. There were priests of Serapis, with palm
branches in their hands; priests of Isis, to whose altar more
offerings were brought than to the temple of the Capitoline Jove;
priests of Cybele, bearing in their hands golden ears of rice; and
priests of nomad divinities; and dancers of the East with bright
head-dresses, and dealers in amulets, and snake-tamers, and
Chaldean seers; and, finally, people without any occupation
whatever, who applied for grain every week at the storehouses on
the Tiber, who fought for lottery-tickets to the Circus, who spent
their nights in rickety houses of districts beyond the Tiber, and
sunny and warm days under covered porticos, and in foul
eating-houses of the Subura, on the Milvian bridge, or before the
"insuhr" of the great, where from time to time remnants from the
tables of slaves were thrown out to them.
Petronius was well known to those crowds. Vinicius's ears were
struck continually by "Hic est!" (Here he is). They loved him for
his munificence; and his peculiar popularity increased from the
time when they learned that he had spoken before Caesar in
opposition to the sentence of death issued against the whole
"familia," that is, against all the slaves of the prefect Pedanius
Secundus, without distinction of sex or age, because one of them
had killed that monster in a moment of despair. Petronius repeated
in public, it is true, that it was all one to him, and that he had
spoken to Caesar only privately, as the arbiter elegantiarum whose
aesthetic taste was offended by a barbarous slaughter befitting
Scythians and not Romans. Nevertheless, people who were
indignant because of the slaughter loved Petronius from that
moment forth. But he did not care for their love. He remembered
that that crowd of people had loved also Britannicus, poisoned by
Nero; and Agrippina, killed at his command; and Octavia,
smothered in hot steam at the Pandataria, after her veins had been
opened previously; and Rubelius Plautus, who had been banished;
and Thrasea, to whom any morning might bring a death sentence.
The love of the mob might be considered rather of ill omen; and
the sceptical Pctronius was superstitious also. He had a twofold
contempt for the multitude, -- as an aristocrat and an aesthetic
person. Men with the odor of roast beans, which they carried in
their bosoms, and who besides were eternally hoarse and sweating
from playing mora on the street-corners and peristyles, did not in
his eyes deserve the term "human." Hence he gave no answer
whatever to the applause, or the kisses sent from lips here and
there to him. He was relating to Marcus the case of Pedanius,
reviling meanwhile the fickleness of that rabble which, next
morning after the terrible butchery, applauded Nero on his way to
the temple of Jupiter Stator. But he gave conimand to halt before
the book-shop of Avirnus, and, descending from tile litter,
purchased an ornamented manuscript, which he gave to Vinicius.
"Here is a gift for thee," said he.
"Thanks!" answered Vinicius. Then, looking at the title, he
inquired, "'Satyricon'? Is this something new? Whose is it?"
"Mine. But I do not wish to go in the road of Rufinus, whose
history I was to tell thee, nor of Fabricius Veiento; hence no one
knows of this, and do thou mention it to no man."
"Thou hast said that thou art no writer of verses," said Vinicius,
looking at the middle of tile manuscript; "but here I see prose
thickly interwoven with them."
"When thou art reading, turn attention to Trimalchion's feast. As to
verses, they have disgusted me, since Nero is writing an epic.
Vitelius, when he wishes to relieve himself, uses ivory fingers to
thrust down his throat; others serve themselves with flamingo
feathers steeped in olive oil or in a decoction of wild thyme. I read
Nero's poetry, and the result is immediate. Straight-way I am able
to praise it, if not with a clear conscience, at least with a clear
stomach."
When he had said this, he stopped the litter again before the shop
of Idomeneus the goldsmith, and, having settled the affair of the
gems, gave command to bear the litter directly to Aulus's mansion.
"On the road I will tell thee the story of Rufinus," said he, "as
proof of what vanity in an author may be."
But before he had begun, they turned in to the Vicus Patricius, and
soon found themselves before the dwelling of Aulus. A young and
sturdy "janitor" opened the door leading to the ostium, over which
a magpie confined in a cage greeted them noisily with the word,
"Salve!"
On the way from the second antechamber, called the ostium, to the
atrium itself, Vinicius said, -- "Flast noticed diat tile doorkeepers
are without chains!" "This is a wonderful house," answered
Petronius, in an undertone. "Of course it is known to thee that
Pomponia Griecina is suspected of entertaining that Eastern
superstition which consists in honoring a certain Chrestos. It seems
that Crispinilla rendered her this service, -- she who cannot forgive
Pomponia because one husband has sufficed her for a lifetime. A
one-man Woman! To-day, in Rome, it is easier to get a half-plate
of fresh mushrooms from Noricum than to find such. They tried
her before a domestic court --"
"To thy judgment this is a wonderful house. Later on I will tell
thee what I heard and saw in it."
Meanwhile they had entered the atrium. The slave appointed to it,
called atricnsis, sent a nomenclator to announce the guests; and
Petronius, who, imagining that eternal sadness reigned in this
severe house, had never been in it, looked around with
astonishment, and as it were with a feeling of disappointment, for
the atrium produced rather an impression of cheerfulness. A sheaf
of bright light falling from above through a large opening broke
into a thousand sparks on a fountain in a quadrangular little basin,
called the impluvium, which was in the middle to receive rain
falling through the opening during bad weather; this was
surrounded by anemones and lilies. In that house a special love for
lilies was evident, for there were whole clumps of them, both
white and red; and, finally, sapphire irises, whose delicate leaves
were as if silvered from the spray of the fountain. Among the
moist mosses, in which lily-pots were hidden, and among the
bunches of lilies were little bronze statues representing children
and water-birds. In one corner a bronze fawn, as if wishing to
drink, was inclining its greenish head, grizzled, too, by dampness.
The floor of the atrium was of mosaic; the walls, faced partly with
red marble and partly with wood, on which were painted fish,
birds, and griffins, attracted the eye by the play of colors. From the
door to the side chamber they were ornamented with tortoise-shell
or even ivory; at the walls between the doors were statues of
Aulus's ancestors. Everywhere calm plenty was evident, remote
from excess, but noble and self-trusting.
Petronius, who lived with incomparably greater show and
elegance, could find nothing which offended his taste; and had just
turned to Vinicius with that remark, when a slave, the velarius,
pushed aside the curtain separating the atrium from the tablinum,
and in the depth of the building appeared Aulus Plautius
approaching hurriedly.
He was a man nearing the evening of life, with a head whitened by
hoar frost, but fresh, with an energetic face, a trifle too short, but
still somewhat eagle-like. This time there was expressed on it a
certain astonishment, and even alarm, because of the unexpected
arrival of Nero's friend, companion, and suggester.
Petronius was too much a man of the world and too quick not to
notice this; hence, after the first greetings, he announced with all
the eloquence and ease at his command that he had come to give
thanks for the care which his sister's son had found in that house,
and that gratitude alone was the cause of the visit, to which,
moreover, he was emboldened by his old acquaintance with Aulus.
Aulus assured him that he was a welcome guest; and as to
gratitude, he declared that he had that feeling himself, though
surely Petronius did not divine the cause of it.
In fact, Petronius did not divine it. In vain did he raise his hazel
eyes, endeavoring to remember the least service rendered to Aulus
or to any one. He recalled none, unless it might be that which he
intended to show Vinicius. Some such thing, it is true, might have
happened involuntarily, but only involuntarily.
"I have great love and esteem for Vespasian, whose life thou didst
save," said Aulus, "when he had the misfortune to doze while
listening to Nero's verses."
"He was fortunate," replied Petronius, "for he did not hear them;
but I will not deny that the matter might have ended with
misfortune. Bronzebeard wished absolutely to send a centurion to
him with the friendly advice to open his veins."
"But thou, Petronius, laughed him out of it."
"That is true, or rather it is not true. I told Nero that if Orpheus put
wild beasts to sleep with song, his triumph was equal, since he had
put Vespasian to sleep. Ahenobarbus may be blamed on condition
that to a small criticism a great flattery be added. Our gracious
Augusta, Poppae, understands this to perfection."
"Alas! such are the times," answered Aulus. "I lack two front teeth,
knocked out by a stone from the hand of a Briton, I speak with a
hiss; still my happiest days were passed in Britain."
"Because they were days of victory," added Vinicius.
But Petronius, alarmed lest the old general might begin a narrative
of his former wars, changed the conversation.
"See," said he, "in the neighborhood of Prirneste country people
found a dead wolf whelp with two heads; and during a storm about
that time lightning struck off an angle of the temple of Luna, -- a
thing unparalleled, because of the late autumn. A certain Cotta,
too, who had told this, added, while telling it, that the priests of
that temple prophesied the fall of the city or, at least, the ruin of a
great house, -- ruin to be averted only by uncommon sacrifices."
Aulus, when he had heard the narrative, expressed the opinion that
such signs should not be neglected; that the gods might be angered
by an over-measure of wickedness. In this there was nothing
wonderful; arid in such an event expiatory sacrifices were
perfectly in order.
"Thy house, Plautius, is not too large," answered Petronius,
"though a great man lives in it. Mine is indeed too large for such a
wretched owner, though equally small. But if it is a question of the
ruin of something as great, for example, as the doinus transitoria,
would it be worth while for us to bring offerings to avert that
ruin?"
Plautius did not answer that question, -- a carefulness which
touched even Petronius somewhat, for, with all his inability to feel
the difference between good and evil, he had never been an
informer; and it was possible to talk with him in perfect safety. He
changed the conversation again, therefore, and began to praise
Plautius's dwelling and the good taste which reigned in the house.
"It is an ancient seat," said Plautius, "in which nothing has been
changed since I inherited it."
After the curtain was pushed aside which divided the atrium from
the tablinum, the house was open from end to end, so that through
the tabhinum and the following peristyle and the hail lying beyond
it which was called the aecus, the glance extended to the garden,
which seemed from a distance like a bright image set in a dark
frame. Joyous, childlike laughter came from it tmm the atrium.
"Oh, general!" said Petronius, "permit us to listen from near by to
that glad laughter which is of a kind heard so rarely in these days."
"Willingly," answered Plautius, rising; "that is my little Aulus and
Lygia, playing ball. But as to laughter, I think, Petronius, that our
whole life is spent in it."
"Life deserves laughter, hence people laugh at it," answered
Petronius, "but laughter here has another sound."
"Petronius does not laugh for days in succession," said Vinicius;
"but then he laughs entire nights."
Thus conversing, they passed through the length of the house and
reached the garden, where Lygia and little Aulus were playing with
balls, which slaves, appointed to that game exclusively and called
spherist~, picked up and placed in their hands. Petronius cast a
quick passing glance at Lygia; little Aulus, seeing Vinicius, ran to
greet him; but the young tribune, going forward, bent his head
before the beautiful maiden, who stood with a bali in her hand, her
hair blown apart a little. She was somewhat out of breath, and
flushed.
In the garden trichinium, shaded by ivy, grapes, and woodbine, sat
Pornponia Graecina; hence they went to salute her. She was
known to Petronius, though he did not visit Plautius, for he had
seen her at the house of Antistia, the daughter of Rubehius Plautus,
and besides at the house of Seneca and Polion. He could not resist
a certain admiration with which he was filled by her face, pensive
but mild, by the dignity of her bearing, by her movements, by her
words. Pomponia disturbed his understanding of women to such a
degree that that man, corrupted to the marrow of his bones, and
self-confident as no one in Rome, not only felt for her a kind of
esteem, but even lost his previous self-confidence. And now,
thanking her for her care of Vinicius, he thrust in, as it were
involuntarily, "domina," which never occurred to him when
speaking, for example, to Calvia Crispinilla, Scribonia, Veleria,
Solina, and other women of high society. After he had greeted her
and returned thanks, he began to complain that he saw her so
rarely, that it was not possible to meet her either in the Circus or
the Amphitheatre; to which she answered calmly, laying her hand
on the hand of her husband:
"We are growing old, and love our domestic quiet more and more,
both of us."
Petronius wished to oppose; but Aulus Plautius added in his
hissing voice, -- "And we feel stranger and stranger among people
who give Greek names to our Roman divinities."
"The gods have become for some time mere figures of rhetoric,"
replied Petronius, carelessly. "But since Greek rhetoricians taught
us, it is easier for me even to say Hera than Juno."
He turned his eyes then to Pomponia, as if to signify that in
presence of her no other divinity could come to his mind: and then
he began to contradict what she had said touching old age.
"People grow old quickly, it is true; but there are some who live
another life entirely, and there are faces moreover which Saturn
seems to forget."
Pctronius said this with a certain sincerity even, for Pomponia
Graecina, though descending from the midday of life, had
preserved an uncommon freshness of face; and since she had a
small head and delicate features, she produced at times, despite
her dark robes, despite her solemnity and sadness, the impression
of a woman quite young.
Meanwhile little Aulus, who had become uncommonly friendly
with Vinicius during his former stay in the house, approached the
young man and entreated him to play ball. Lygia herself entered
the triclinium after the little boy. Under the climbing ivy, with the
light quivering on her face, she seemed to Petronius more beautiful
than at the first glance, and really like some nymph. As he had not
spoken to her thus far, he rose, inclined his head, and, instead of
the usual expressions of greeting, quoted the words with which
Ulysses greeted Nausikaa, -- "I supplicate thee, O queen, whether
thou art some goddess or a mortal! If thou art one of the daughters
of men who dwell on earth, thrice blessed are thy father and thy
lady mother, and thrice blessed thy brethren."
The exquisite politeness of this man of the world pleased even
Pomponia. As to Lygia, she listened, confused and flushed,
without boldness to raise her eyes. But a wayward smile began to
quiver at the corners of her lips, and on her face a struggle was
evident between the timidity of a maiden and the wish to answer;
but clearly the wish was victorious, for, looking quickly at
Petronius, she answered him all at once with the words of that
same Nausikaa, quoting them at one breath, and a little like a
lesson learned, --
"Stranger, thou seemest no evil man nor foolish."
Then she turned and ran out as a frightened bird runs.
This time the turn for astonishment came to Petronius, for he had
not expected to hear verses of I lomer from the lips of a maiden of
whose barbarian extraction he had heard previously from Vinicius.
Hence he looked with an inquiring glance at Pomponia; but she
could not give him an answer, for she was looking at that moment,
with a smile, at the pride reflected on the face of her husband.
He was not able to conceal that pride. First, he had become
attached to Lygia as to his own daughter; and second, in spite of
his old Roman prejudices, which commanded him to thunder
against Greek and the spread of the language, he considered it as
the summit of social polish. He himself had never been able to
learn it well; over this he suffered in secret. He was glad,
therefore, that an answer was given in the language and poetry of
Homer to this exquisite man both of fashion and letters, who was
ready to consider Plautius's house as barbarian.
"We have in the house a pedagogue, a Greek," said he, turning to
Petronius, "who teaches our boy, and the maiden overhears the
lessons. She is a wagrail yet, but a dear one, to which we have both
grown attached."
Petronius looked through the branches of woodbine into the
garden, and at the three persons who were playing there. Vinicius
had thrown aside his toga, and, wearing only his tunic, was striking
the ball, which Lygia, standing opposite, with raised arms was
trying to catch. The maiden did not make a great impression on
Petronius at the first glance; she secirmed to hhrm too slender. But
from the moment when he saw her more nearly in the triclinium he
thought to himself that Aurora might look like her; and as a judge
he understood that in her there was something uncommon. He
considered everything and estimated everything; hence her face,
rosy and clear, her fresh lips, as if set for a kiss, her eyes blue as
the azure of the sea, the alabaster whiteness of her forehead, the
wealth of her dark hair, with the reflection of amber or Corinthian
bronze gleaming in its folds, her slender neck, the divine slope of
her shoulders, the whole posture, flexible, slender, young with the
youth of May and of freshly opened flowers. The artist was roused
in him, and the worshipper of beauty, who felt that beneath a
statue of that maiden one might write "Spring." All at once he
remembered Chrysothemis, and pure laughter seized him.
Chrysothemis seemed to him, with golden powder on her hair and
darkened brows, to be fabulously faded, -- something in the nature
of a yellowed rose-tree shedding its leaves. But still Rome envied
him that Chrysothemis. Then he recalled Poppza; and that most
famous Poppae also seemed to him soulless, a waxen mask. In that
maiden with Tanagrian outlines there was not only spring, but a
radiant soul, which shone through her rosy body as a flame through
a lamp.
"Vinicius is right," thought he, "and my Chrysothemis is old, old!
-- as Troy!"
Then he turned to Pomponia Graecina, and, pointing to the garden,
said, -- "I understand now, domina, why thou and thy husband
prefer this house to the Circus and to feasts on the Palatine."
"Yes," answered she, turning her eyes in the direction of little
Aulus and Lygia.
But the old general began to relate the history of the maiden, and
what he had heard years before from Atelius Hister about the
Lygian people who lived in the gloom of the North.
The three outside had finished playing ball, and for some time had
been walking along the sand of the garden, appearing against the
dark background of myrtles and cypresses like three white statues.
Lygia held little Aulus by the hand. After they had walked a while
they sat on a bench near the fishpond, which occupied the middle
of the garden. After a time Aulus sprang up to frighten the fish in
the transparent water, but Vinicius continued the conversation
begun during the walk.
"Yes," said he, in a low, quivering voice, scarcely audible; "barely
had I cast aside the pretexta, when I was sent to the legions in
Asia. I had not become acquainted with the city, nor with life, nor
with love. I know a small bit of Anacreon by heart, and Horace;
but I cannot like Petronius quote verses, when reason is dumb
from admiration and unable to find its own words. While a youth I
went to school to Musonius, who told me that happiness consists
in wishing what the gods wish, and therefore depends on our will. I
think, however, that it is something else, -- something greater and
more precious, which depends not on the will, for love only can
give it. The gods themselves seek that happiness; hence I too, O
Lygia, who have not known love thus far, follow in their footsteps.
I also seek her who would give me happiness --"
He was silent -- and for a time there was nothing to be heard save
the light plash of the water into which little Aulus was throwing
pebbles to frighten the fish; but after a while Vinicius began again
in a voice still softer amid lower, -- "But thou knowest of
Vespasian's son Titus? They say that he had scarcely ceased to be a
youth when he so loved Berenice that grief almost drew the life
out of him. So could I too love, O Lygia! Riches, glory, power are
mere smoke, vanity! The rich man will find a richer than himself;
the greater glory of another will eclipse a man who is famous; a
strong man will be conquered by a stronger. But can Caesar
himself, can any god even, experience greater delight or be happier
than a simple mortal at the moment when at his breast there is
breathing another dear breast, or when he kisses beloved lips?
Hence love makes us equal to the gods, O Lygia."
And she listened with alarm, with astonishment, and at the same
time as if she were listening to the sound of a Grecian flute or a
cithara. It seemed to her at moments that Vinicius was singing a
kind of wonderful song, which was instilling itself into her ears,
moving the blood in her, and penetrating her heart with a faintness,
a fear, and a kind of uncomprehended delight. It seemed to her
also that he was telling something which was in her before, but of
which she could not give account to herself. She felt that he was
rousing in her something which had been sleeping hitherto, and
that in that moment a hazy dream was changing into a form more
and more definite, more pleasing, more beautiful.
Meanwhile the sun had passed the Tiber long since, and had sunk
low over the Janiculum. On the motionless cypresses ruddy light
was falling, and the whole atmosphere was filled with it. Lygia
raised on Vinicius her blue eyes as if roused from sleep; and he,
bending over her with a prayer quivering in his eyes, seemed on a
sudden, in the reflections of evening, more beautiful than all men,
than all Greek and Roman gods whose statues she had seen on the
fa‡ades of temples. And with his fingers he clasped her arm lightly
just above the wrist and asked, -- "Dost thou not divine what I say
to thee, Lygia?"
"No," whispered she as answer, in a voice so low that Virsicius
barely heard it.
But he did not believe her, and, drawing her hand toward him
more vigorously, he would have drawn it to his heart, which, under
the influence of desire roused by the marvellous maiden, was
beating like a hammer, and would have addressed burning words
to her directly had not old Aulus appeared on a path set in a frame
of myrtles, who said, while approaching them, -- "The sun is
setting; so beware of the evening coolness, and do not trifle
with Libitina."
"No," answered Vinicius; "I have not put on my toga yet, and I do
not feel the cold."
"But see, barely half the sun's shield is looking from behind the
hill. That is a sweet climate of Sicily, where people gather on the
square before sunset and take farewell of disappearing Phothus
with a choral song."
And, forgetting that a moment earlier he had warned them against
Libitina, he began to tell about Sicily, where he had estates and
large cultivated fields which he loved. He stated also that it had
come to his mind more than once to remove to Sicily, and live out
his life there in quietness. "He whose head winters have whitened
has bad enough of hoar frost. Leaves are not falling from the trees
yet, and the sky smiles on the city lovingly; but when the
grapevines grow yellow-leaved, when snow falls on the Alban
hills, and the gods visit the Campania with piercing wind, who
knows but I may remove with my entire household to my quiet
country-seat?"
"Wouldst thou leave Rome?" inquired Vinicius, with sudden
alarm. "I have wished to do so this long time, for it is quieter in
Sicily and safer." And again he fell to praising his gardens, his
herds, his house hidden in green, and the hills grown over with
thyme and savory, among which were swarms of buzzing bees. But
Vinicius paid no heed to that bucolic note; and from thinking only
of this, that he might lose Lygia, he looked toward Petronius as if
expecting salvation from him alone.
Meanwhile Petronius, sitting near Pomponia, was admiring the
view of the setting sun, the garden, and the people standing near
the fish-pond. Their white garments on the dark background of the
myrtles gleamed like gold from the evening rays. On the sky the
evening light had begun to assume purple and violet hues, and to
change like an opal. A strip of the sky became lily-colored. The
dark silhouettes of the cypresses grew still more pronounced than
during bright daylight. In the people, in the trees, in the whole
garden there reigned an evening calm.
That calm struck Petronius, and it struck him especially in the
people. In the faces of Pomponia, old Aulus, their son, and Lygia
there was something such as he did not see in the faces which
surrounded him every day, or rather every night. There was a
certain light, a certain repose, a certain serenity, flowing directly
from the life which all lived there. And with a species of
astonishment he thought that a beauty and sweetness might exist
which he, who chased after beauty and sweetness continually, had
not known. He could not hide the thought in himself, and said,
turning to Pomponia, -- "I am considering in my soul how different
this world of yours is from the world which our Nero rules."
She raised her delicate face toward the evening light, and said with
simplicity, -- "Not Nero, but God, rules the world."
A moment of silence followed. Near the triclinium were heard in
the alley, the steps of the old general, Vinicius, Lygia, and little
Aulus; but before they arrived, Petronius had put another question,
-- "But believest thou in the gods, then, Pomponia?"
"I believe in God, who is one, just, and all-powerful," answered the
wife of Aulus Plautius.
"SHE believes in God who is one, all-powerful, and just," said
Petronius, when he found himself again in the litter with Vinicius.
"If her God is all-powerful, He controls life and death; and if He is
just, He sends death justly. Why, then, does Pomponia wear
mourning for Julius? In mourning for Julius she blames her God. I
must repeat this reasoning to our Bronzebeard, the monkey, since I
consider that in dialectics I am the equal of Socrates. As to
women, I agree that each has three or four souls, but none of them
a reasoning one. Let Pomponia meditate with Seneca or Cornurus
over the question of what their great Logos is. Let them summon at
once the shades of Xenophanes, Parmenides, Zeno, and Plato, who
are as much wearied there in Cimmerian regions as a finch in a
cage. I wished to talk with her and with Plautius about something
else. By the holy stomach of the Egyptian Isis! If I had told them
right out directly why we came, I suppose that their virtue would
have made as much noise as a bronze shield under the blow of a
club. And I did not dare to tell! Wilt thou believe, Vinicius, I did
not dare! Peacocks are beautiful birds, but they have too shrill a
cry. I feared an outburst.
But I must praise thy choice. A real 'rosy-fingered Aurora.' And
knowest thou what she reminded me of too? -- Spring! not our
spring in Italy, where an apple-tree merely puts forth a blossom
here and there, and olive groves grow gray, just as they were gray
before, but the spring which I saw once in Helvetia, -- young,
fresh, bright green. By that pale moon, I do not wonder at thee,
Marcus; but know that thou art loving Diana, because Auhis and
Pomponia are ready to tear thee to pieces, as the dogs once tore
Actaeon."
Vinicius was silent a time without raising his head; then he began
to speak with a voice broken by passion, -- "I desired her before,
but now I desire her still more. When I caught her arm, flame
embraced me. I must have her. Were I Zeus, I would surround her
with a cloud, as he surrounded lo, or I would f all on her in rain, as
he fell on Dana‰; I would kiss her lips till it pained! I would hear
her scream in my arms. I would kill Aulus and Pomponia, and bear
her home in my arms. I will not sleep to-night. I will give
command to flog one of my slaves, and listen to his groans --"
"Calm thyself," said Petronius. "Thou hast the longing of a
carpenter from the Subura."
"All one to me what thou sayst. I must have her. I have turned to
thee for aid; but if thou wilt not find it, I shall find it myself. Aulus
considers Lygia as a daughter; why should I look on her as a slave?
And since there is no other way, let her ornament the door of my
house, let her anoint it with wolf's fat, and let her sit at my hearth
as wife."
"Calm thyself, mad descendant of consuls. We do not lead in
barbarians bound behind our cars, to make wives of their
daughters. Beware of extremes. Exhaust simple, honorable
methods, and give thyself and me time for meditation.
Chrysothemis seemed to me too a daughter of Jove, and still I did
not marry her, just as Nero did not marry Acte, though they called
her a daughter of King Attalus. Calm thyself! Think that if she
wishes to leave Aulus for thee, he will have no right to detain her.
Know also that thou art not burning alone, for Eros has roused in
her the flame too. I saw that, and it is well to believe me. Have
patience. There is a way to do everything, but to-day I have
thought too much already, and it tires me. But I promise that
to-morrow I will think of thy love, and unless Petronius is not
Petronius, he will discover some method."
They were both silent again.
"I thank thee," said Vinicius at last. "May Fortune be bountiful to
thee."
"Be patient."
"Whither hast thou given command to bear us?"
"To Chrysothemis."
"Thou art happy in possessing her whom thou lovest."
"I? Dost thou know what amuses me yet in Chrysothemis? This,
that she is false to me with my freedman Theokles, and thinks that
I do not notice it. Once I loved her, but now she amuses me with
her lying and stupidity. Come with me to her. Should she begin to
flirt with thee, and write letters on the table with her fingers
steeped in wine, know that I shall not be jealous."
And he gave command to bear them both to Chrysothemis.
But in the entrance Petronius put his hand on Vinicius's shoulder,
and said,-- "Wait; it seems to me that I have discovered a plan."
"May all the gods reward thee!" "I have it! I judge that this plan is
infallible. Knowest what, Marcus?" "I listen to thee, my wisdom."
"Well, in a few days the divine Lygia will partake of Demeter's
grain in thy house."
"Thou art greater than Caesar!" exclaimed Vinicius with
enthusiasm.
IN fact, Petronius kept his promise. He slept all the day following
his visit to Chrysothemis, it is true; but in the evening he gave
command to bear him to the Palatine, where he had a confidential
conversation with Nero; in consequence of this, on the third day a
centurion, at the head of some tens of pretorian soldiers, appeared
before the house of Plautius.
The period was uncertain and terrible. Messengers of this kind
were more frequently heralds of death. So when the centurion
struck the hammer at Aulus's door, and when the guard of the
atrium announced that there were soldiers in the anteroom, terror
rose through the whole house. The family surrounded the old
general at once, for no one doubted that danger hung over him
above all. Pomponia, embracing his neck with her arms, clung to
him with all her strength, and her blue lips moved quickly while
uttering some whispered phrase. Lygia, with a face pale as linen,
kissed his hand; little Aulus clung to his toga. From the corridor,
from chambers in the lower story intended for servant-women and
attendants, from the bath, from the arches of lower dwellings, from
the whole house, crowds of slaves began to hurry out, and the cries
of "Heu! heu, me miserum!" were heard. The women broke into
great weeping; some scratched their cheeks, or covered their heads
with kerchiefs.
Only the old general himself, accustomed for years to look death
straight in the eye, remained calm, and his short eagle face became
as rigid as if chiselled from stone. After a while, when he had
silenced the uproar, and commanded the attendants to disappear,
he said, -- "Let me go, Pomponia. If my end has come, we shall
have time to take leave."
And he pushed her aside gently; but she said, -- "God grant thy fate
and mine to be one, O Aulus!"
Then, failing on her knees, she began to pray with that force which
fear for some dear one alone can give.
Aulus passed out to the atrium, where the centurion was waiting
for him. It was old Caius Hasta, his former subordinate and
companion in British wars.
"I greet thee, general," said he. "I bring a command, and the
greeting of Caesar; here are the tablets and the signet to show that
I come in his name."
"I am thankful to Caesar for the greeting, and I shall obey the
command," answered Aulus. "Be welcome, Hasta, and say what
command thou hast brought."
"Aulus Plautius," began Hasta, "Caesar has learned that in thy
house is dwelling the daughter of the king of the Lygians, whom
that king during the life of the divine Claudius gave into the hands
of the Romans as a pledge that the boundaries of the empire would
never be violated by the Lygians. The divine Nero is grateful to
thee, O general, because thou hast given her hospitality in thy
house for so many years; but, not wishing to burden thee longer,
and considering also that the maiden as a hostage should be under
the guardianship of Cirsar and the senate, he commands thee to
give her into my hands."
Aulus was too much a soldier and too much a veteran to permit
himself regret in view of an order, or vain words, or complaint. A
slight wrinkle of sudden anger and pain, however, appeared on his
forehead. Before that frown legions in Britain had trembled on a
time, and even at that moment fear was evident on the face of
Hasta. But in view of the order, Aulus Plautius felt defenceless. He
looked for some time at the tablets and the signet; then raising his
eyes to the old centurion, he said calmly, -- "Wait, Hasta, in the
atrium till the hostage is delivered to thee."
After these words he passed to the other end of the house, to the
hall called cecus, where Pomponia Graecina, Lygia, and little
Aulus
were waiting for him in fear and alarm.
"Death threatens no one, nor banishment to distant islands," said
he; "still Caesar's messenger is a herald of misfortune. It is a
question of thee, Lygia."
"Of Lygia?" exclaimed Pomponia, with astonishment.
"Yes," answered Aulus.
And turning to the maiden, he began: "Lygia, thou wert reared in
our house as our own child; I and Pomponia love thee as our
daughter. But know this, that thou art not our daughter. Thou art a
hostage, given by thy people to Rome, and guardianship over thee
belongs to Caesar. Now Caesar takes thee from our house."
The general spoke calmly, but with a certain strange, unusual
voice. Lygia listened to his words, blinking, as if not understanding
what the question was. Pomponia's cheeks became pallid. In the
doors leading from the corridor to the cecus, terrified faces of
slaves began to show themselves a second time.
"The will of Caesar must be accomplished," said Aulus.
"Aulus!" exclaimed Pomponia, embracing the maiden with her
arms, as if wishing to defend her, "it would be better for her to
die."
Lygia, nestling up to her breast, repeated, "Mother, mother!"
unable in her sobbing to find other words.
On Aulus's face anger and pain were reflected again. "If I were
alone in the world," said he, gloomily, "I would not surrender her
alive, and my relatives might give offerings this day to 'Jupiter
Liberator.' But I have not the right to kill thee and our child, who
may live to happier times. I will go to Caesar this day, and implore
him to change his command. Whether he will hear me, I know not.
Meanwhile, farewell, Lygia, and know that I and Pornponia ever
bless the day in which thou didst take thy seat at our hearth."
Thus speaking, he placed his hand on her head; but though he
strove to preserve his calmness, when Lygia turned to him eyes
filled with tears, and seizing his hand pressed it to her lips, his
voice was filled with deep fatherly sorrow.
"Farewell, our joy, and the light of our eyes," said he.
And he went to the atrium quickly, so as not to let himself be
conquered by emotion unworthy of a Roman and a general.
Meanwhile Pomponia, when she had conducted Lygia to the
cubiculum, began to comfort, console, and encourage her, uttering
words meanwhile which sounded strangely in that house, where
near them in an adjoining chamber the lararium remained yet, and
where the hearth was on which Aulus Plautius, faithful to ancient
usage, made offerings to the household divinities. Now the hour of
trial had come. On a time Virginius had pierced the bosom of his
own daughter to save her from the hands of Appius; still earlier
Lucretia had redeemed her shame with her life. The house of
Caesar is a den of infamy, of evil, of crime. But we, Lygia, know
why we have not the right to raise hands on ourselves! Yes! The
law under which we both live is another, a greater, a holier, but it
gives permission to defend oneself from evil and shame even
should it happen to pay for that defence with life and torment.
Whoso goes forth pure from the dwelling of corruption has the
greater merit thereby. The earth is that dwelling; but fortunately
life is one twinkle of the eye, and resurrection is only from the
grave; beyond that not Nero, but Mercy bears rule, and there
instead of pain is delight, there instead of tears is rejoicing.
Next she began to speak of herself. Yes! she was calm; but in her
breast there was no lack of painful wounds. For example, Aulus
was a cataract on her eye; the fountain of light had not flowed to
him yet. Neither was it permitted her to rear her son in Truth.
When she thought, therefore, that it might be thus to the end of her
life, and that for them a moment of separation might come which
would be a hundred times more grievous and terrible than that
temporary one over which they were both suffering then, she could
not so much as understand how she might be happy even in heaven
without them. And she had wept many nights through already, she
had passed many nights in prayer, imploring grace and mercy. But
she offered her suffering to God, and waited and trusted. And now,
when a new blow struck her, when the tyrant's command took from
her a dear one, -- the one whom Aulus had called the light of their
eyes, -- she trusted yet, believing that there was a power greater
than Nero's and a mercy mightier than his anger.
And she pressed the maiden's head to her bosom still more firmly.
Lygia dropped to her knees after a while, and, covering her eyes in
the folds of Pomponia's peplus, she remained thus a long time in
silence; but when she stood up again, some calmness was evident
on her face.
"I grieve for thee, mother, and for father and for my brother; but I
know that resistance is useless, and would destroy all of us. I
promise thee that in the house of Caesar I will never forget thy
words."
Once more she threw her arms around Pomponia's neck; then both
went out to the cecus, and she took farewell of little Aulus, of the
old Greek their teacher, of the dressing-maid who had been her
nurse, and of all the slaves. One of these, a tall and
broad-shouldered Lygian, called Ursus in the house, who with
other servants had in his time gone with Lygia's mother and her to
the camp of the Romans, fell now at her feet, and then bent down
to the knees of Pomponia, saying, -- "O domina! permit me to go
with my lady, to serve her and watch over her in the house of
Caesar."
"Thou art not our servant, but Lygia's," answered Pomponia; "but if
they admit thee through Caesar's doors, in what way wilt thou be
able to watch over her?"
"I know not, domina; I know only that iron breaks in my hands just
as wood does."
When Aulus, who came up at that moment, had heard what the
question was, not only did he not oppose the wishes of Ursus, but
he declared that he had not even the right to detain him. They were
sending away Lygia as a hostage whom Ciesar had claimed, and
they were obliged in the same way to send her retinue, which
passed with her to the control of Caesar. Here he whispered to
Pomponia that under the form of an escort she could add as many
slaves as she thought proper, for the centurion could not refuse to
receive them.
There was a certain comfort for Lygia in this. Pomponia also was
glad that she could surround her with servants of her own choice.
Therefore, besides Ursus, she appointed to her the old tire-woman,
two maidens from Cyprus well skilled in hair-dressing, and two
German maidens for the bath. Her choice fell exclusively on
adherents of the new faith; Ursus, too, had professed it for a
number of years. Pomponia could count on the faithfulness of
those servants, and at the same time consoled herself with the
thought that soon grains of truth would be in Caesar's house.
She wrote a few words also, committing care over Lygia to Nero's
freedwoman, Acte. Pomponia had not seen her, it is true, at
meetings of confessors of the new faith; but she had heard from
them that Acte had never refused them a service, and that she read
the letters of Paul of Tarsus eagerly. It was known to her also that
the young freedwoman lived in melancholy, that she was a person
different from all other women of Nero's house, and that in general
she was the good spirit of the palace.
Hasta engaged to deliver the letter himself to Acte. Considering it
natural that the daughter of a king should have a retinue of her
own servants, he did not raise the least difficulty in taking them to
the palace, but wondered rather that there should be so few. He
begged haste, however, fearing lest he might be suspected of want
of zeal in carrying out orders.
The moment of parting came. The eyes of Pomponia and Lygia
were filled with fresh tears; Aulus placed his hand on her head
again, and after a while the soldiers, followed by the cry of little
Aulus, who in defence of his sister threatened the centurion with
his small fists, conducted Lygia to Caesar's house.
The old general gave command to prepare his litter at once;
meanwhile, shutting himself up with Pomponia in the pinacotheca
adjoining the cecus, he said to her, -- "Listen to me, Pomponia. I
will go to Caesar, though I judge that my visit will be useless; and
though Seneca's word means nothing with Nero now, I will go also
to Seneca. To-day Sophonius, Tigellinus, Petronius, or Vatinius
has more influence. As to Caesar, perhaps he has never even heard
of the Lygian people; and if he has demanded the delivery of
Lygia, the hostage, he has done so because some one persuaded
him to it, -- it is easy to guess who could do that."
She raised her eyes to him quickly.
"Is it Petronius?"
"It is."
A moment of silence followed; then the general continued, -- "See
what it is to admit over the threshold any of those people without
conscience or honor. Cursed be the moment in which Vinicius
entered our house, for he brought Petronius. Woe to Lygia, since
those men are not seeking a hostage, but a concubine."
And his speech became more hissing than usual, because of
helpless rage and of sorrow for his adopted daughter. He struggled
with himself some time, and only his clenched fists showed how
severe was the struggle within him.
"I have revered the gods so far," said he; "but at this moment I
think that not they are over the world, but one mad, malicious
monster named Nero."
"Aulus," said Pomponia. "Nero is only a handful of rotten dust
before God."
But Aulus began to walk with long steps over the mosaic of the
pinacotheca. In his life there had been great deeds, but no great
misfortunes; hence he was unused to them. The old soldier had
grown more attached to Lygia than he himself had been aware of,
and now he could not be reconciled to the thought that he had lost
her. Besides, he felt humiliated. A hand was weighing on him
which he despised, and at the same time he felt that before its
power his power was as nothing.
But when at last he stifled in himself the anger which disturbed his
thoughts, he said,-- "I judge that Petronius has not taken her from
us for Caesar, since he would not offend Poppan. Therefore he
took
her either for himself or Vinicius. Today I will discover this."
And after a while the litter bore him in the direction of the
Palatine. Pornponia, when left alone, went to little Aulus, who did
not cease crying for his sister, or threatening Caesar.
AULUS had judged rightly that he would not be admitted to
Nero's presence. They told him that Caesar was occupied in
singing with the lute-player, Terpnos, and that in general he did
not receive those whom he himself had not summoned. In other
words, that Aulus must not attempt in future to see him.
Seneca, though ill with a fever, received the old general with due
honor; but when he had heard what the question was, he laughed
bitterly, and said, -- "I can render thee only one service, noble
Plautius, not to show Caesar at any time that my heart feels thy
pain, or that I should like to aid thee; for should Caesar have the
least suspicion on this head, know that he would not give thee
back Lygia, though for no other reason than to spite me."
He did not advise him, either, to go to Tigellinus or Vatinius or
Vitelius. It might be possible to do something with them through
money; perhaps, also, they would like to do evil to Petronius,
whose influence they were trying to undermine, but most likely
they would disclose before Nero how dear Lygia was to Plautius,
and then Nero would all the more resolve not to yield her to him.
Here the old sage began to speak with a biting irony, which he
turned against himself: "Thou hast been silent, Plautius, thou hast
been silent for whole years, and Caesar does not like those who are
silent. How couldst thou help being carried away by his beauty, his
virtue, his singing, his declamation, his chariot-driving, and his
verses? Why didst thou not glorify the death of Britannicus, and
repeat panegyrics in honor of the mother-slayer, and not offer
congratulations after the stifling of Octavia? Thou art lacking in
foresight, Aulus, which we who live happily at the court possess in
proper measure.
Thus speaking, he raised a goblet which he carried at his belt, took
water from a fountain at the impluvium, freshened his burning
lips, and continued, -- "Ah, Nero has a grateful heart. He loves thee
because thou hast served Rome and glorified its name at the ends
of the earth; he loves me because I was his master in youth.
Therefore, seest thou, I know that this water is not poisoned, and I
drink it in peace. Wine in my own house would be less reliable. If
thou art thirsty, drink boldly of this water. The aqueducts bring it
from beyond the Alban hills, and any one wishing to poison it
would have to poison every fountain in Rome. As thou seest, it is
possible yet to be safe in this world and to have a quiet old age. I
am sick, it is true, but rather in soul than in body."
This was true. Seneca lacked the strength of soul which Cornutus
possessed, for example, or Thrasea; hence his life was a series of
concessions to crime. He felt this himself; he understood that an
adherent of the principles of Zeno, of Citium, should go by another
road, and he suffered more from that cause than from the fear of
death itself.
But the general interrupted these reflections full of grief.
"Noble Annaeus," said he, "I know how Caesar rewarded thee for
the care with which thou didst surround his years of youth. But the
author of the removal of Lygia is Petronius. Indicate to me a
method against him, indicate the influences to which he yields,
and use besides with him all the eloquence with which friendship
for me of long standing can inspire thee."
"Petronius and I," answered Seneca, "are men of two opposite
camps; I know of no method against him, he yields to no man's
influence. Perhaps with all his corruption he is worthier than those
scoundrels with whom Nero surrounds himself at present. But to
show him that he has done an evil deed is to lose time simply.
Petronius has lost long since that faculty which distinguishes good
from evil. Show him that his act is ugly, he will be ashamed of it.
When I see him, I will say, 'Thy act is worthy of a freedman.' If
that will not help thee, nothing can."
"Thanks for that, even," answered the general.
Then he gave command to carry him to the house of Vinicius,
whom he found at sword practice with his domestic trainer. Aulus
was borne away by terrible anger at sight of the young man
occupied calmly with fencing during the attack on Lygia; and
barely had the curtain dropped behind the trainer when this anger
burst forth in a torrent of bitter reproaches and injuries. But
Vinicius, when he learned that Lygia had been carried away, grew
so terribly pale that Aulus could not for even an instant suspect
him of sharing in the deed. The young man's forehead was covered
with sweat; the blood, which had rushed to his heart for a moment,
returned to his face in a burning wave; his eyes began to shoot
sparks, his mouth to hurl disconnected questions. Jealousy and
rage tossed him in turn, like a tempest. It seemed to him that
Lygia, once she had crossed the threshold of Caesar's house, was
lost to him absolutely. When Aulus pronounced the name of
Petronius, suspicion flew like a lightning flash through the young
soldier's mind, that Petronius had made sport of him, and either
wanted to win new favor from Nero by the gift of Lygia, or keep
her for himself. That any one who had seen Lygia would not desire
her at once, did not find a place in his head. Impetuousness,
inherited in his family, carried him away like a wild horse, and
took from him presence of mind.
"General," said he, with a broken voice, "return home and wait for
me. Know that if Petronius were my own father, I would avenge on
him the wrong done to Lygia. Return home and wait for me.
Neither Petronius nor Caesar will have her."
Then he went with clinched fists to the waxed masks standing
clothed in the atrium, and burst out, -- "By those mortal masks! I
would rather kill her and myself." When he had said this, he sent
another "Wait for me" after Aulus, then ran forth like a madman
from the atrium, and flew to Petronius's house, thrusting
pedestrians aside on the way.
Aulus returned home with a certain encouragement. He judged that
if Petronius had persuaded Caesar to take Lygia to give her to
Vinicius, Vinicius would bring her to their house. Finally, the
thought was no little consolation to him, that should Lygia not be
rescued she would be avenged and protected by death from
disgrace. He believed that Vinicius would do everything that he
had promised. He had seen his rage, and he knew the excitability
innate in the whole family. He himself, though he loved Lygia as
her own father, would rather kill her than give her to Caesar; and
had he not regarded his son, the last descendant of his stock, he
would doubtless have done so. Aulus was a soldier; he had hardly
heard of the Stoics, but in character he was not far from their
ideas, -- death was more acceptable to his pride than disgrace.
When he returned home, he pacified Pomponia, gave her the
consolation that he had, and both began to await news from
Vinicius. At moments when the steps of some of the slaves were
heard in the atrium, they thought that perhaps Vinicius was
bringing their beloved child to them, and they were ready in the
depth of their souls to bless both. Time passed, however, and no
news came. Only in the evening was the hammer heard on the
gate.
After a while a slave entered and handed Aulus a letter. The old
general, though he liked to show command over himself, took it
with a somewhat trembling hand, and began to read as hastily as if
it were a question of his whole house.
All at once his face darkened, as if a shadow from a passing cloud
had fallen on it.
"Read," said he, turning to Pomponia.
Pomponia took the letter and read as follows: --
"Marcus Vinicius to Aulus Plautius greeting. What has happened,
has happened by the will of Caesar, before which incline your
heads, as I and Petronius incline ours."
PETRONIUS was at home. The doorkeeper did not dare to stop
Vinicius, who burst into the atrium like a storm, and, learning that
the master of the house was in the library, he rushed into the
library with the same impetus. Finding Petronius writing, he
snatched the reed from his hand, broke it, trampled the reed on the
floor, then fixed his fingers into his shoulder, and, approaching his
face to that of his uncle, asked, with a hoarse voice, -- "What hast
thou done with her? Where is she?"
Suddenly an amazing thing happened. That slender and effeminate
Petronius seized the hand of the youthful athlete, which was
grasping his shoulder, then seized the other, and, holding them
both in his one hand with the grip of an iron vice, he said, -- "I am
incapable only in the morning; in the evening I regain my former
strength. Try to escape. A weaver must have taught thee
gymnastics, and a blacksmith thy manners."
On his face not even anger was evident, but in his eyes there was a
certain pale reflection of energy and daring. After a while he let
the hands of Vinicius drop. Vinicius stood before him shamefaced
and enraged.
"Thou hast a steel hand," said he; "but if thou hast betrayed me, I
swear, by all the infernal gods, that I will thrust a knife into thy
body, though thou be in the chambers of Caesar."
"Let us talk calmly," said Petronius. "Steel is stronger, as thou
seest, than iron; hence, though out of one of thy arms two as large
as mine might be made, I have no need to fear thee. On the
contrary, I grieve over thy rudeness, and if the ingratitude of men
could astonish me yet, I should be astonished at thy ingratitude."
"Where is Lygia?"
"In a brothel, -- that is, in the house of Caesar."
"Petronius!"
"Calm thyself, and be seated. I asked Cirsar for two things, which
he promised me, -- first, to take Lygia from the house of Aulus,
and second to give her to thee. Hast thou not a knife there under
the folds of thy toga? Perhaps thou wilt stab me! But I advise thee
to wait a couple of days, for thou wouldst be taken to prison, and
meanwhile Lygia would be wearied in thy house."
Silence followed. Vinicius looked for some time with astonished
eyes on Petronius; then he said, -- "Pardon me; I love her, and love
is disturbing my faculties." "Look at me, Marcus. The day before
yesterday I spoke to Caesar as follows: 'My sister's son, Vinicius,
has so fallen in love with a lean little girl who is being reared with
the Auluses that his house is turned into a stealnbath from sighs.
Neither thou, O Caesar, nor I -- we who know, each of us, what
true beauty is -- would give a thousand's sterces for her; but that
lad has ever been as dull as a tripod, and now he has lost all the wit
that was in him.'"
"Petronius!"
"If thou understand not that I said this to insure Lygia's safety, I am
ready to believe that I told the truth. I persuaded Bronzebeard that
a man of his aesthetic nature could not consider such a girl
beautiful; and Nero, who so far has not dared to look otherwise
than through my eyes, will not find in her beauty, and, not finding
it, will not desire her. it was necessary to insure ourselves against
the monkey and take him on a rope. Not he, but Poppaea, will
value Lygia now; and Poppaea will strive, of course, to send the
girl out of the palace at the earliest. I said further to Bronzebeard,
in passing: 'Take Lygia and give her to Vinicius! Thou hast the
right to do so, for she is a hostage; and if thou take her, thou wilt
inflict pain on Aulus.' He agreed; he had not the least reason not to
agree, all the more since I gave him a chance to annoy decent
people. They will make thee official guardian of the hostage, and
give into thy hands that Lygian treasure; thou, as a friend of the
valiant Lygians, and also a faithful servant of CTsar, wilt not waste
any of the treasure, but wilt strive to increase it. Caesar, to
preserve appearances, will keep her a few days in his house, and
then send her to thy insula. Lucky man!"
"Is this true? Does nothing threaten her there in Caesar's house?"
"If she had to live there permanently, Poppaea would talk about
her to Locusta, but for a few days there is no danger. Ten thousand
people live in it. Nero will not see her, perhaps, all the more since
he left everything to me, to the degree that just now the centurion
was here with information that he had conducted the maiden to the
palace and committed her to Acte. She is a good soul, that Acte;
hence I gave command to deliver Lygia to her. Clearly Pomponia
Gnecina is of that opinion too, for she wrote to Acte. To-morrow
there is a feast at Nero's. I have requested a place for thee at the
side of Lygia."
"Pardon me, Caius, my hastiness. I judged that thou hadst given
command to take her for thyself or for Caesar."
"I can forgive thy hastiness; but it is more difficult to forgive rude
gestures, vulgar shouts, and a voice reminding one of players at
mora. I do not like that style, Marcus, and do thou guard against it.
Know that Tigellinus is Caesar's pander; but know also that if I
wanted the girl for myself now, looking thee straight in the eyes,
I would say, 'Vinicius! I take Lygia from thee. and I will keep her
till I am tired of her."
Thus speaking, he began to look with his hazel eyes straight into
the eyes of Vinicius with a cold and insolent stare. The young man
lost himself completely.
"The fault is mine," said he. "Thou art kind and worthy. I thank
thee from my whole soul. Permit me only to put one more
question: Why didst thou not have Lvgia sent directly to my
house?"
"Because Caesar wishes to preserve appearances. People in Rome
will talk about this, -- that we removed Lygia as a hostage. While
they are talking, she will remain in Caesar's palace. Afterward she
will be removed quietly to thy house, and that will be the end.
Bronzebeard is a cowardly cur. He knows that his power is
unlimited, and still he tries to give specious appearances to every
act. Hast thou recovered to the degree of being able to
philosophize a little? More than once have I thought, Why does
crime, even when as powerful as Caesar, and assured of being
beyond punishment, strive always for the appearances of truth,
justice, and virtue? Why does it take the trouble? I consider that to
murder a brother, a mother, a wife, is a thing worthy of some petty
Asiatic king, not a Roman Caesar; but if that position were mine, I
should not write justifying letters to the Senate. But Nero writes.
Nero is looking for appearances, for Nero is a coward. But
Tiberius was not a coward; still he justified every step he took.
Why is this? What a marvellous, involuntary homage paid to virtue
by evil! And knowest thou what strikes me? This, that it is done
because transgression is ugly and virtue is beautiful. Therefore a
man of genuine aesthetic feeling is also a virtuous man. Hence I
am virtuous. To-day I must pour out a little wine to the shades of
Protagoras, Prodicus, and Gorgias. It seems that sophists too can
be of service. Listen, for I am speaking yet. I took Lygia from
Aulus to give her to thee. Well. But Lysippus would have made
wonderful groups of her and thee. Ye are both beautiful; therefore
my act is beautiful, and being beautiful it cannot be bad. Marcus,
here sitting before thee is virtue incarnate in Caius Petronius! If
Aristides were living, it would be his duty to come to me and offer
a hundred minae for a short treatise on virtue."
But Vinicius, as a man more concerned with reality than with
treatises on virtue, replied, -- "To-morrow I shall see Lygia, and
then have her in my house daily, always, and till death."
"Thou wilt have Lygia, and I shall have Aulus on my head. He will
summon the vengeance of all the infernal gods against me. And if
the beast would take at least a preliminary lesson in good
declamation! He will blame me, however, as my former
doorkeeper blamed my clients but him I sent to prison in the
country."
"Aulus has been at my house. I promised to give him news of
Lygia."
"Write to him that the will of the 'divine' Caesar is the highest law,
and that thy first son will bear the name Aulus. It is necessary that
the old man should have some consolation. I am ready to pray
Bronzebeard to invite him to-morrow to the feast. Let him see thee
in the triclinium next to Lygia."
"Do not do that. I am sorry for them, especially for Pomponia."
And he sat down to write that letter which took from the old
general the remnant of his hope.
ONCE the highest heads in Rome inclined before Acre, the former
favorite of Nero. But even at that period she showed no desire to
interfere in public questions, and if on any occasion she used her
influence over the young ruler, it was only to implore mercy for
some one. Quiet and unassuming, she won the gratitude of many,
and made no one her enemy. Even Octavia was unable to hate her.
To those who envied her she seemed exceedingly harmless. It was
known that she continued to love Nero with a sad and pained love,
which lived not in hope, but only in memories of the time in which
that Nero was not only younger and loving, but better. It was
known that she could not tear her thoughts and soul from those
memories, but expected nothing; since there was no real fear that
Nero would return to her, she was looked upon as a person wholly
inoffensive, and hence was left in peace. Poppaea considered her
merely as a quiet servant, so harmless that she did not even try to
drive her from the palace.
But since Caesar had loved her once and dropped her without
offence in a quiet and to some extent friendly manner, a certain
respect was retained for her. Nero, when he had freed her, let her
live in the palace, and gave her special apartments with a few
servants. And as in their time Pallas and Narcissus, though
freedmen of Claudius, not only sat at feasts with Claudius, but also
held places of honor as powerful ministers, so she too was invited
at times to Caesar's table. This was done perhaps because her
beautiful form was a real ornament to a feast. Caesar for that
matter had long since ceased to count with any appearances in his
choice of company. At his table the most varied medley of people
of every position and calling found places. Among them were
senators, but mainly those who were content to be jesters as well.
There were patricians, old and young, eager for luxury, excess, and
enjoyment. There were women with great names, who did not
hesitate to put on a yellow wig of an evening and seek adventures
on dark streets for amusement's sake. There were also high
officials, and priests who at full goblets were willing to jeer at
their own gods. At the side of these was a rabble of every sort:
singers, mimes, musicians, dancers of both sexes; poets who,
while declaiming, were thinking of the sesterces which might fall
to them for praise of Caesar's verses; hungry philosophers
following the dishes with eager eyes; finally, noted charioteers,
tricksters, miracle-wrights, tale-tellers, jesters, and the most varied
adventurers brought through fashion or folly to a few days'
notoriety. Among these were not lacking even men who covered
with long hair their ears pierced in sign of slavery.
The most noted sat directly at the tables; the lesser served to
amuse in time of eating, and waited for the moment in which the
servants would permit them to rush at the remnants of food and
drink. Guests of this sort were furnished by Tigellinus, Vatinius,
and Vitelius; for these guests they were forced more than once to
find clothing befitting the chambers of Caesar, who, however,
liked their society, through feeling most free in it. The luxury of
the court gilded everything, and covered all things with glitter.
High and low, the descendants of great families, and the needy
from the pavements of the city, great artists, and vile scrapings of
talent, thronged to the palace to sate their dazzled eyes with a
splendor almost surpassing human estimate, and to approach the
giver of every favor, wealth, and property, -- whose single glance
might abase, it is true, but might also exalt beyond measure.
That day Lygia too had to take part in such a feast. Fear,
uncertainty, and a dazed feeling, not to be wondered at after the
sudden change, were struggling in her with a wish to resist. She
feared Nero; she feared the people and the palace whose uproar
deprived her of presence of mind; she feared the feasts of whose
shamelessness she had heard from Aulus, Pomponia Graecina, and
their friends. Though young, she was not without knowledge, for
knowledge of evil in those times reached even children's ears
early. She knew, therefore, that ruin was threatening her in the
palace. Pomponia, moreover, had warned her of this at the moment
of parting. But having a youthful spirit, unacquainted with
corruption, and confessing a lofty faith, implanted in her by her
foster mother, she had promised to defend herself against that ruin;
she had promised her mother, herself and also that Divine Teacher
in whom she not only believed, but whom she had come to love
with her half-childlike heart for the sweetness of his doctrine, the
bitterness of his death, and the glory of his resurrection.
She was confident too that now neither Aulus nor Pomponia would
be answerable for her actions; she was thinking therefore whether
it would not be better to resist and not go to the feast. On the one
hand fear and alarm spoke audibly in her soul; on the other the
wish rose in her to show courage in suffering, in exposure to
torture and death. The Divine Teacher had cormmanded to act
thus. He had given the example himself. Pomponia had told her
that the most earnest among the adherents desire with all their
souls such a test, and pray for it. And Lygia, when still in the house
of Aulus, had been mastered at moments by a similar desire. She
had seen herself as a martyr, with wounds on her feet and hands,
white as snow, beautiful with a beauty not of earth, and borne by
equally white angels into the azure sky; and her imagination
admired such a vision. There was in it much childish brooding, but
there was in it also something of delight in herself, which
Pomponia had reprimanded. But now, when opposition to Caesar's
will might draw after it some terrible punishment, and the
martyrdom scene of imagination become a reality, there was added
to the beautiful visions and to the delight a kind of curiosity
mingled with dread, as to how they would punish her, and what
kind of torments they would provide. And her soul, half childish
yet, was hesitating on two sides. But Acte, hearing of these
hesitations, looked at her with astonishment as if the maiden were
talking in a fever. To oppose Caesar's will, expose oneself from
the first moment to his anger? To act thus one would need to be a
child that knows not what it says. From Lygia's own words it
appears that she is, properly speaking, not really a hostage, but a
maiden forgotten by her own people. No law of nations protects
her; and even if it did, Caesar is powerful enough to trample on it
in a moment of anger. It has pleased Caesar to take her, and he
will dispose of her. Thenceforth she is at his will, above which
there is not another on earth.
"So it is," continued Acte. "I too have read the letters of Paul of
Tarsus, and I know that above the earth is God, and the Son of
God, who rose from the dead; but on the earth there is only Caesar.
Think of this, Lygia. I know too that thy doctrine does not permit
thee to be what I was, and that to you as to the Stoics, -- of whom
Epictetus has told me, -- when it comes to a choice between shame
and death, it is permitted to choose only death. But canst thou say
that death awaits thee and not shame too? Hast thou heard of the
daughter of Sej anus, a young maiden, who at command of
Tiberius had to pass through shame before her death, so as to
respect a law which prohibits the punishment of virgins with
death? Lygia, Lygia, do not irritate Caesar. If the decisive moment
comes when thou must choose between disgrace and death, thou
wilt act as thy faith commands; but seek not destruction thyself,
and do not irritate for a trivial cause an earthly and at the same
time a cruel divinity."
Acte spoke with great compassion, and even with enthusiasm; and
being a little short-sighted, she pushed her sweet face up to Lygia's
as if wishing to see surely the effect of her words.
But Lygia threw her arms around Acte's neck with childish
trustfulness and said, -- "Thou art kind, Acte."
Acte, pleased by the praise and confidence, pressed her to her
heart; and then disengaging herself from the arms of the maiden,
answered, -- "My happiness has passed and my joy is gone, but I
am not wicked." Then she began to walk with quick steps through
the room and to speak to herself, as if in despair.
"No! And he was not wicked. He thought himself good at that
time, and he wished to be good. I know that best. All his change
came later, when he ceased to love. Others made him what he is --
yes, others -- and Poppae."
Here her eyelids filled with tears. Lygia followed her for some
time with her blue eyes, and asked at last, -- "Art thou sorry for
him, Acre?" "I am sorry for him!" answered the Grecian, with a
low voice. And again she began to walk, her hands clinched as if
in pain, and her face without hope.
"Dost thou love him yet, Acte?" asked Lygia, timidly.
"I love him."
And after a while she added, -- "No one loves him but me."
Silence followed, during which Acte strove to recover her
calmness, disturbed by memories; and when at length her face
resumed its usual look of calm sorrow, she said, --
"Let us speak of thee, Lygia. Do not even think of opposing
Caesar; that would be madness. And be calm. I know this house
well, and I judge that on Caesar's part nothing threatens thee. If
Nero had given command to take thee away for himself, he would
not have brought thee to the Palatine. Here Poppaea rules; and
Nero, since she bore him a daughter, is more than ever under her
influence. No, Nero gave command, it is true, that thou shouldst be
at the feast, but he has not seen thee yet; he has not inquired about
thee, hence he does not care about thee. Maybe he took thee from
Aulus and Pomponia only through anger at them. Petronius wrote
me to have care of thee; and since Pomponia too wrote, as thou
knowest, maybe they had an understanding. Maybe he did that at
her request. If this be true, if he at the request of Pomponia will
occupy himself with thee, nothing threatens thee; and who knows
if Nero may not send thee back to Aulus at his persuasion? I know
not whether Nero loves him over much, but I know that rarely has
he the courage to be of an opinion opposite to his."
"Ah, Acte!" answered Lygia; "Petronius was with us before they
took me, and my mother was convinced that Nero demanded my
surrender at his instigation."
"That would be bad," said Acte. But she stopped for a while, and
then said, -- "Perhaps Petronius only said, in Nero's presence at
some supper, that he saw a hostage of the Lygians at Aulus's, and
Nero, who is jealous of his own power, demanded thee only
because hostages belong to Caesar. But he does not like Aulus and
Pomponia. No! it does not seem to me that if Petronius wished to
take thee from Aulus he would use such a method. I do not know
whether Petronius is better than others of Caesar's court, but he is
different. Maybe too thou wilt find some one else who would be
willing to intercede for thee. Hast thou not seen at Aulus's some
one who is near Caesar?"
"I have seen Vespasian and Titus."
"Caesar does not like them."
"And Seneca."
"If Seneca advised something, that would be enough to make Nero
act otherwise."
The bright face of Lygia was covered with a blush. "And
Vinicius--"
"I do not know him."
"He is a relative of Petronius, and returned not long since from
Armenia."
"Dost thou think that Nero likes him?"
"All like Vinicius."
"And would he intercede for thee?"
"He would."
Acte smiled tenderly, and said, "Then thou wilt see him surely at
the feast. Thou must be there, first, because thou must, -- only such
a child as thou could think otherwise. Second, if thou wish to
return to the house of Aulus, thou wilt find means of beseeching
Petronius and Vinicius to gain for thee by their influence the right
to return. If they were here, both would tell thee as I do, that it
would be madness and ruin to try resistance. Caesar might not
notice thy absence, it is true; but if he noticed it and thought that
thou hadst the daring to oppose his will, here would be no
salvation for thee. Go, Lygia! Dost thou hear the noise in the
palace? The sun is near setting; guests will begin to arrive soon."
"Thou art right," answered Lygia, "and I will follow thy advice."
How much desire to see Vinicius and Petronius there was in this
resolve, how much of woman's curiosity there was to see such a
feast once in life, and to see at it Caesar, the court, the renowned
Poppaea and other beauties, and all that unheard-of splendor, of
which wonders were narrated in Rome, Lygia could not give
account to herself of a certainty. But Acte was right, and Lygia felt
this distinctly. There was need to go; therefore, when necessity and
simple reason supported the hidden temptation, she ceased to
hesitate.
Acre conducted her to her own unctorium to anoint and dress her;
and though there was no lack of slave women in Caesar's house,
and Acte had enough of them for her personal service, still,
through sympathy for the maiden whose beauty and innocence had
caught her heart, she resolved to dress her herself. It became clear
at once that in the young Grecian, in spite of her sadness and her
perusal of the letters of Paul of Tarsus, there was yet much of the
ancient Hellenic spirit, to which physical beauty spoke with more
eloquence than aught else on earth. When she had undressed
Lygia, she could not restrain an exclamation of wonder at sight of
her form, at once slender and full, created, as it were, from pearl
and roses; and stepping back a few paces, she looked with delight
on that matchless, spring-like form.
"Lygia," exclaimed she at last, "thou art a hundred times more
beautiful than Poppaea!"
But, reared in the strict house of Pomponia, where modesty was
observed, even when women were by themselves, the maiden,
wonderful as a wonderful dream, harmonious as a work of
Praxiteles or as a song, stood alarmed, blushing from modesty,
with knees pressed together, with her hands on her bosom, and
downcast eyes. At last, raising her arms with sudden movement,
she removed the pins which held her hair, and in one moment,
with one shake of her head, she covered herself with it as with a
mantle.
Acte, approaching her and touching her dark tresses, said, --
"Oh, what hair thou hast! I will not sprinkle golden powder on it; it
gleams of itself in one place and another with gold, where it
waves. I will add, perhaps, barely a sprinkle here and there; but
lightly, lightly, as if a sun ray had freshened it. Wonderful must thy
Lygian country be where such maidens are born!
"I do not remember it," answered Lygia; "but Ursus has told me
that with us it is forests, forests, and forests."
"But flowers bloom in those forests," said Acte, dipping her hand
in a vase filled with verbena, and moistening Lygia's hair with it.
When she had finished this work, Acre anointed her body lightly
with odoriferous oils from Arabia, and then dressed her in a soft
gold-colored tunic without sleeves, over which was to be put a
snow-white peplus. But since she had to dress Lygia's hair first, she
put on her meanwhile a kind of roomy dress called synthesis, and,
seating her in an armchair, gave her for a time into the hands of
slave women, so as to stand at a distance herself and follow the
hairdressing. Two other slave women put on Lygia's feet white
sandals, embroidered with purple, fastening them to her alabaster
ankles with golden lacings drawn crosswise. When at last the
hair-dressing was finished, they put a peplus on her in very
beautiful, light folds; then Acte fastened pearls to her neck, and
touching her hair at the folds with gold dust, gave command to the
women to dress her, following Lygia with delighted eyes
meanwhile.
But she was ready soon; and when the first litters began to appear
before the main gate, both entered the side portico from which
were visible the chief entrance, the interior galleries, and the
courtyard surrounded by a colonnade of Numidian marble.
Gradually people passed in greater and greater numbers under the
lofty arch of the entrance, over which the splendid quadrig~ of
Lysias seemed to bear Apollo and Diana into space. Lygia's eyes
were struck by that magnificence, of which the modest house of
Aulus could not have given her the slightest idea. It was sunset; the
last rays were falling on the yellow Numidian marble of the
columns, which shone like gold in those gleams and changed into
rose color also. Among the columns, at the side of white statues of
the Danaides and others, representing gods or heroes, crowds of
people flowed past, -- men and women; resembling statues also,
for they were draped in togas, pepluses, and robes, falling with
grace and beauty toward the earth in soft folds, on which the rays
of the setting sun were expiring. A gigantic Hercules, with head in
the light yet, from the breast down sunk in shadow cast by the
columns, looked from above on that throng. Acte showed Lygia
senators in wide-bordered togas, in colored tunics, in sandals with
crescents on them, and knights, and famed artists; she showed her
Roman ladies, in Roman, in Grecian, in fantastic Oriental
costume, with hair dressed in towers or pyramids, or dressed like
that of the statues of goddesses, low on the head, and adorned with
flowers. Many men and women did Acte call by name, adding to
their names histories, brief and sometimes terrible, which pierced
Lygia with fear, amazement, and wonder. For her this was a
strange world, whose beauty intoxicated her eyes, but whose
contrasts her girlish understanding could not grasp. In those
twilights of the sky, in those rows of motionless columns vanishing
in the distance, and in those statuesque people, there was a certain
lofty repose. It seemed that in the midst of those marbles of simple
lines demigods might live free of care, at peace and in happiness.
Meanwhile the low voice of Acte disclosed, time after time, a new
and dreadful secret of that palace and those people. See, there at a
distance is the covered portico on whose columns and floor are
still visible red stains from the blood with which Caligula
sprinkled the white marble when he fell beneath the knife of
Cassius Chaerea; there his wife was slain; there his child was
dashed against a stone; under that wing is the dungeon in which
the younger Drusus gnawed his hands from hunger; there the elder
Drusus was poisoned; there Gemellus quivered in terror, and
Claudius in convulsions; there Germanicus suffered, -- everywhere
those walls had heard the groans and death-rattle of the dying; and
those people~ hurrying now to the feast in togas, in colored tunics,
in flowers, and in jewels, may be the condemned of to-morrow; on
more than one face, perhaps, a smile conceals terror, alarm, the
uncertainty of the next day; perhaps feverishness, greed, envy are
gnawing at this moment into the hearts of those crowned
demigods, who in appearance are free of care. Lygia's frightened
thoughts could not keep pace with Acte's words; and when that
wonderful world attracted her eyes with increasing force, her heart
contracted within her from fear, and in her soul she struggled with
an immense, inexpressible yearning for the beloved Pomponia
Graecina, and the calm house of Aulus, in which love, and not
crime, was the ruling power.
Meanwhile new waves of guests were flowing in from the Vicus
Apollinis. From beyond the gates came the uproar and shouts of
clients, escorting their patrons. The courtyard and the colonnades
were swarming with the multitude of Caesar's slaves, of both
sexes, small boys, and pretorian soldiers, who kept guard in the
palace. Here and there among dark or swarthy visages was the
black face of a Numidian, in a feathered helmet, and with large
gold rings in his ears. Some were bearing lutes and citharas, hand
lamps of gold, silver, and bronze, and bunches of flowers, reared
artificially despite the late autumn season. Louder and louder the
sound of conversation was mingled with the plashing of the
fountain, the rosy streams of which fell from above on the marble
and were broken, as if in sobs.
Acte had stopped her narration; but Lygia gazed at the throng, as if
searching for some one. All at once her face was covered with a
blush, and from among the columns came forth Vinicius with
Petronius. They went to the great triclinium, beautiful, calm, like
white gods, in their togas. It seemed to Lygia, when she saw those
two known and friendly faces among strange people, and
especially when she saw Vinicius, that a great weight had fallen
from her heart. She felt less alone. That measureless yearning for
Pomponia and the house of Aulus, which had broken out in her a
little while before, ceased at once to be painful. The desire to see
Vinicius and to talk with him drowned in her other voices. In vain
did she remember all the evil which she had heard of the house of
Caesar, the words of Acte, the warnings of Pornponia; in spite of
those words and warnings, she felt all at once that not only must
she be at that feast, but that she wished to be there. At the thought
that soon she would hear that dear and pleasant voice, which had
spoken of love to her and of happiness worthy of the gods, and
which was sounding like a song in her ears yet, delight seized her
straightway.
But the next moment she feared that delight. It seemed to her that
she would be false to the pure teaching in which she had been
reared, false to Pomponia, and false to herself. It is one thing to go
by constraint, and another to delight in such a necessity. She felt
guilty, unworthy, and ruined.
Despair swept her away, and she wanted to weep. Had she been
alone, she would have knelt down and beaten her breast, saying,
"Mea culpa! mea culpa!" Acte, taking her hand at that moment, led
her through the interior apartments to the grand triclinium, where
the feast was to be. Darkness was in her eyes, and a roaring in her
ears from internal emotion; the beating of her heart stopped her
breath. As in a dream, she saw thousands of lamps gleaming on the
tables and on the walls; as in a dream, she heard the shout with
which the guests greeted Caesar; as through a mist, she saw Caesar
himself. The shout deafened her, the glitter dazzled, the odors
intoxicated; and, losing the remnant of her consciousness, she was
barely able to recognize Acte, who seated her at the table and took
a place at her side.
But after a while a low and known voice was heard at the other
side, -- "A greeting, most beautiful of maidens on earth and of stars
in heaven.
A greeting to thee, divine Callina!"
Lygia, having recovered somewhat, looked up; at her side was
Vinicius. He was without a toga, for convenience and custom had
enjoined to cast aside the toga at feasts. His body was covered with
only a sleeveless scarlet tunic embroidered in silver palms. His
bare arms were ornamented in Eastern fashion with two broad
golden bands fastened above the elbow; below they were carefully
stripped of hair. They were smooth, but too muscular, -- real arms
of a soldier, they were made for the sword and the shield. On his
head was a garland of roses. With brows joining above the nose,
with splendid eyes and a dark complexion, he was the
impersonation of youth and strength, as it were. To Lygia he
seemed so beautiful that though her first amazement had passed,
she was barely able to answer, -- "A greeting, Marcus."
"Happy," said he, "are my eyes, which see thee; happy my ears,
which hear thy voice, dearer to me than the sound of lutes or
citharas. Were it commanded me to choose who was to rest here
by my side at this feast, thou, Lygia, or Venus, I would choose
thee, divine one!"
And he looked at the maiden as if he wished to sate himself with
the sight of her, to burn her eyes with his eyes. His glance slipped
from her face to her neck and bare arms, fondled her shapely
outlines, admired her, embraced her, devoured her; but besides
desire, there was gleaming in him happiness, admiration, and
ecstasy beyond limit.
"I knew that I should see thee in Caesar's house," continued he;
"but still, when I saw thee, such delight shook my whole soul, as if
a happiness entirely unexpected had met me."
Lygia, having recovered herself and feeling that in that throng and
in that house he was the only being who was near to her, began to
converse with him, and ask about everything which she did not
understand and which filled her with fear. Whence did he know
that he would find her in Caesar's house? Why is she there? Why
did Ciesar take her from Pomponia? She is full of fear where she
is, and wishes to return to Pomponia. She would die from alarm
and grief were it not for the hope that Petronius and he will
intercede for her before Caesar.
Vinicius explained that he learned from Aulus himself that she had
been taken. Why she is there, he knows not. Caesar gives account
to no one of his orders and commands But let her not fear. He,
Vinicius, is near her and will stay near her. He would rather lose
his eyes than not see her; he would rather lose his life than desert
her. She is his soul, and hence he will guard her as his soul. In his
house he will build to her, as to a divinity, an altar on which he
will offer myrrh and aloes, and in spring saffron and
apple-blossoms; and since she has a dread of Caesar's house, he
promises that she shall not stay in it.
And though he spoke evasively and at times invented, truth was to
be felt in his voice, because his feelings were real. Genuine pity
possessed him, too, and her words went to his soul so thoroughly
that when she began to thank him and assure him that Pomponia
would love him for his goodness, and that she herself would be
grateful to him all her life, he could not master his emotion, and it
seemed to him that he would never be able in life to resist her
prayer. The heart began to melt in him. Her beauty intoxicated his
senses, and he desired her; but at the same time he felt that she
was very dear to him, and that in truth he might do homage to her,
as to a divinity; he felt also irresistible need of speaking of her
beauty and of his own homage. As the noise at the feast increased,
he drew nearer to her, whispered kind, sweet words flowing from
the depth of his soul, words as resonant as music and intoxicating
as wine.
And he intoxicated her. Amid those strange people he seemed to
her ever nearer, ever dearer, altogether true, and devoted with his
whole soul. He pacified her; he promised to rescue her from the
house of Caesar; he promised not to desert her, and said that he
would serve her. Besides, he had spoken before at Aulus's only in
general about love and the happiness which it can give; but now he
said directly that he loved her, and that she was dear and most
precious to him. Lygia heard such words from a man's lips for the
first time; and as she heard them it seemed to her that something
was wakening in her as from a sleep, that some species of
happiness was embracing her in which immense delight was
mingled with immense alarm. Her cheeks began to burn, her heart
to beat, her mouth opened as in wonder. She was seized with fear
because she was listening to such things, still she did not wish for
any cause on earth to lose one word. At moments she dropped her
eyes; then again she raised her clear glance to Vinicius, timid and
also inquiring, as if she wished to say to him, "Speak on!" The
sound of the music, the odor of flowers and of Arabian perfumes,
began to daze her. In Rome it was the custom to recline at
banquets, but at home Lygia occupied a place between Pomponia
and little Aulus. Now Vinicius was reclining near her, youthful,
immense, in love, burning; and she, feeling the heat that issued
from him, felt both delight and shame. A kind of sweet weakness,
a kind of faintness and forgetfulness seized her; it was as if
drowsiness tortured her.
But her nearness to him began to act on Vinicius also. His nostrils
dilated, like those of an Eastern steed. The beating of his heart
with unusual throb was evident under his scarlet tunic; his
breathing grew short, and the expressions that fell from his lips
were broken. For the first time, too, he was so near her. His
thoughts grew disturbed; he felt a flame in his veins which he tried
in vain to quench with wine. Not wine, but her marvellous face,
her bare arms, her maiden breast heaving under the golden tunic,
and her form hidden in the white folds of the peplus, intoxicated
him more and more. Finally, he seized her arm above the wrist, as
he had done once at Aulus's, and drawing her toward him
whispered, with trembling lips, -- "I love thee, Callina, -- divine
one."
"Let me go, Marcus," said Lygia.
But he continued, his eyes mist-covered, "Love me, my goddess!"
But at that moment was heard the voice of Acte, who was reclining
on the other side of Lygia.
"Caesar is looking at you both."
Vinicius was carried away by sudden anger at Caesar and at Acre.
Her words had broken the charm of his intoxication. To the young
man even a friendly voice would have seemed repulsive at such a
moment, but he judged that Acte wished purposely to interrupt his
conversation with Lygia. So, raising his head and looking over the
shoulder of Lygia at the young freed-woman, he said with malice:
"The hour has passed, Acte, when thou didst recline near Caesar's
side at banquets, and they say that blindness is threatening thee;
how then canst thou see him?"
But she answered as if in sadness: "Still I see him. He, too, has
short sight, and is looking at thee through an emerald."
Everything that Nero did roused attention, even in those nearest
him; hence Vinicius was alarmed. He regained self-control, and
began imperceptibly to look toward Caesar. Lygia, who,
embarrassed at the beginning of the banquet, had seen Nero as in a
mist, and afterward, occupied by the presence and conversation of
Vinicius, had not looked at him at all, turned to him eyes at once
curious and terrified.
Acte spoke truly. Caesar had bent over the table, half-closed one
eye, and holding before the other a round polished emerald, which
he used, was looking at them. For a moment his glance met Lygia's
eyes, and the heart of the maiden was straitened with terror. When
still a child on Aulus's Sicilian estate, an old Egyptian slave had
told her of dragons which occupied dens in the mountains, and it
seemed to her now that all at once the greenish eye of such a
monster was gazing at her. She caught at Vinicius's hand as a
frightened child would, and disconnected, quick impressions
pressed into her head:
Was not that he, the terrible, the all-powerful? She had not seen
him hitherto, and she thought that he looked differently. She had
imagined some kind of ghastly face, with malignity petrified in its
features; now she saw a great head, fixed on a thick neck, terrible,
it is true, but almost ridiculous, for from a distance it resembled
the head of a child. A tunic of amethyst color, f orbidden to
ordinary mortals, cast a bluish tinge on his broad and short face.
He had dark hair, dressed, in the fashion introduced by Otho, in
four curls.
He had no beard, because he had sacrified it recently to Jove, -- for
which all Rome gave him thanks, though people whispered to each
other that he had sacrificed it because his beard, like that of his
whole family, was red. In his forehead, projecting strongly above
his brows, there remained something Olympian. In his contracted
brows the consciousness of supreme power was evident; but under
that forehead of a demigod was the face of a monkey, a drunkard,
and a comedian, -- vain, full of changing desires, swollen with fat,
notwithstanding his youth; besides, it was sickly and foul. To
Lygia he seemed ominous, but above all repulsive.
After a while he laid down the emerald and ceased to look at her.
Then she saw his prominent blue eyes, blinking before the excess
of light, glassy, without thought, resembling the eyes of the dead.
"Is that the hostage with whom Vinicius is in love?" asked he,
turning to Petronius.
"That is she," answered Petronius.
"What are her people called?"
"The Lygians."
"Does Vinicius think her beautiful?"
"Array a rotten olive trunk in the peplus of a woman, and Vinicius
will declare it beautiful. But on thy countenance, incomparable
judge, I read her sentence already. Thou hast no need to pronounce
it! The sentence is true: she is too dry, thin, a mere blossom on a
slender stalk; and thou, O divine aesthete, esteemest the stalk in a
woman. Thrice and four times art thou right! The face alone does
not signify. I have learned much in thy company, but even now I
have not a perfect cast of the eye. But I am ready to lay a wager
with Tullius Senecio concerning his mistress, that, although at a
feast, when all are reclining, it is difficult to judge the whole form,
thou hast said in thy mind already, 'Too narrow in the hips.'"
"Too narrow in the hips," answered Nero, blinking.
On Petronius's lips appeared a scarcely perceptible smile; but
Tullius Senecio, who till that moment was occupied in conversing
with Vestinius, or rather in reviling dreams, while Vestinius
believed in them, turned to Petronius, and though he had not the
least idea touching that of which they were talking, he said, --
"Thou art mistaken! I hold with Casar."
"Very well," answered Petronius. "I have just maintained that thou
hast a glimmer of understanding, but Caesar insists that thou art an
ass pure and simple."
"Habet!" said Caesar, laughing, and turning down the thumb, as
was done in the Circus, in sign that the gladiator had received a
blow and was to be finished.
But Vestinius, thinking that the question was of dreams,
exclaimed, -- "But I believe in dreams, and Seneca told me on a
time that he believes too." "Last night I dreamt that I had become a
vestal virgin," said Calvia Crispinilla, bending over the table.
At this Nero clapped his hands, other followed, and in a moment
clapping of hands was heard all around, -- for Crispinilla had been
divorced a number of times, and was known throughout Rome for
her fabulous debauchery.
But she, not disconcerted in the least, said, -- "Well! They are all
old and ugly. Rubria alone has a human semblance, and so there
would be two of us, though Rubria gets freckles in summer." "But
admit, purest Calvia," said Petronius, "that thou couldst become a
vestal only in dreams." "But if Caesar commanded?"
"I should believe that even the most impossible dreams might
come true."
"But they do come true," said Vestinius. "I understand those who
do not believe in the gods, but how is it possible not to believe in
dreams?"
"But predictions?" inquired Nero. "It was predicted once to me,
that Rome would cease to exist, and that I should rule the whole
Orient."
"Predictions and dreams are connected," said Vestinius. "Once a
certain proconsul, a great disbeliever, sent a slave to the temple of
Mopsus with a sealed letter which he would not let any one open;
he did this to try if the god could answer the question contained in
the letter. The slave slept a night in the temple to have a prophetic
dream; he returned then and said: 'I saw a youth in my dreams; he
was as bright as the sun, and spoke only one word, "Black."' The
proconsul, when he heard this, grew pale, and turning to his guests,
disbelievers like himself, said: 'Do ye know what was in the
letter?'" Here Vestinius stopped, and, raising his goblet with wine,
began to drink.
"What was in the letter?" asked Senecio.
"In the letter was the question: 'What is the color of the bull which
I am to sacrifice: white or black?'"
But the interest roused by the narrative was interrupted by Vitelius,
who, drunk when he came to the feast, burst forth on a sudden and
without cause in senseless laughter.
"What is that keg of tallow laughing at?" asked Nero.
"Laughter distinguishes men from animals," said Petronius, "and
he has no other proof that he is not a wild boar."
Vitelius stopped half-way in his laughter, and smacking his lips,
shining from fat and sauces, looked at those present with as much
astonishment as if he had never seen them before; then he raised
his two hands, which were like cushions, and said in a hoarse
voice, -- "The ring of a knight has fallen from my finger, and it was
inherited from my father."
"Who was a tailor," added Nero.
But Vitelius burst forth again in unexpected laughter, and began to
search for his ring in the peplus of Calvia Crispinilla.
Hereupon Vestinius fell to imitating the cries of a frightened
woman. Nigidia, a friend of Calvia, -- a young widow with the face
of a child and the eyes of a wanton, -- said aloud, -- "He is seeking
what he has not lost."
"And which will be useless to him if he finds it," finished the poet
Lucan. The feast grew more animated. Crowds of slaves bore
around successive courses; from great vases filled with snow and
garlanded with ivy, smaller vessels with various kinds of wine
were brought forth unceasingly. All drank freely. On the guests,
roses fell from the ceiling at intervals.
Petronius entreated Nero to dignify the feast with his song before
the guests drank too deeply. A chorus of voices supported his
words, but Nero refused at first. It was not a question of courage
alone, he said, though that failed him always. The gods knew what
efforts every success cost him. He did not avoid them, however,
for it was needful to do sonlething for art; and besides, if Apollo
had gifted him with a certain voice, it was not proper to let divine
gifts be wasted. He understood, even, that it was his duty to the
State not to let them be wasted. But that day he was really hoarse.
In the night he had placed leaden weights on his chest, but that had
not helped in any way. He was thinking even to go to Antium, to
breathe the sea air.
Lucan implored him in the name of art and humanity. All knew
that the divine poet and singer had composed a new hymn to
Venus, compared with which Lucretius's hymn was as the howl of
a yearling wolf. Let that feast be a genuine feast. So kind a ruler
should not cause such tortures to his subjects. "Be not cruel, O
Caesar!"
"Be not cruel!" repeated all who were sitting near.
Nero spread his hands in sign that he had to yield. All faces
assumed then an expression of gratitude, and all eyes were turned
to him; but he gave command first to announce to Poppan that he
would sing; he informed those present that she had not come to the
feast, because she did not feel in good health; but since no
medicine gave her such relief as his singing, he would be sorry to
deprive her of this opportunity.
In fact, Poppae came soon. Hitherto she had ruled Nero as if he
had been her subject, but she knew that when his vanity as a
singer, a charioteer, or a poet was involved, there was danger in
provoking it. She came in therefore, beautiful as a divinity,
arrayed, like Nero, in robes of amethyst color, and wearing a
necklace of immense pearls, stolen on a time from Massinissa; she
was golden-haired, sweet, and though divorced from two husbands
she had the face and the look of a virgin.
She was greeted with shouts, and the appellation "Divine
Augusta." Lygia had never seen any one so beautiful, and she
could not believe her own eyes, for she knew that Popp~ra Sabina
was one of the vilest women on earth. She knew from Pomponia
that she had brought Caesar to murder his mother and his wife; she
knew her from accounts given by Aulus's guests and the servants;
she had heard that statues to her had been thrown down at night in
the city; she had heard of inscriptions, the writers of which had
been condemned to severest punishment, but which still appeared
on the city walls every morning. Yet at sight of the notorious
Poppxa, considered by the confessors of Christ as crime and evil
incarnate, it seemed to her that angels or spirits of heaven might
look like her. She was unable simply to take her eyes from
Poppae; and from her lips was wrested involuntarily the question,
-- "Ah, Marcus, can it be possible?"
But he, roused by wine, and as it were impatient that so many
things had scattered her attention, and taken her from him and his
words, said, -- "Yes, she is beautiful, but thou art a hundred times
more beautiful. Thou dost not know thyself, or thou wouldst be in
love with thyself, as Narcissus was; she bathes in asses' milk, but
Venus bathed thee in her own milk. Thou dost not know thyself,
Ocelle mi! Look not at her. Turn thy eyes to me, Ocelle mi! Touch
this goblet of wine with thy lips, and I will put mine on the same
place."
And he pushed up nearer and nearer, and she began to withdraw
toward Acte. But at that moment silence was enjoined because
Caesar had risen. The singer Diodorus had given him a lute of the
kind called delta; another singer named Terpnos, who had to
accompany him in playing, approached with an instrument called
the nablium. Nero, resting the delta on the table, raised his eyes;
and for a moment silence reigned in the triclinium, broken only by
a rustle, as roses fell from the ceiling.
Then he began to chant, or rather to declaim, singingly and
rhythmically, to the accompaniment of the two lutes, his own
hymn to Venus. Neither the voice, though somewhat injured, nor
the verses were bad, so that reproaches of conscience took
possession of Lygia again; for the hymn, though glorifying the
impure pagan Venus, seemed to her more than beautiful, and
Caesar himself, with a laurel crown on his head and uplifted eyes,
nobler, much less terrible, and less repulsive than at the beginning
of the feast.
The guests answered with a thunder of applause. Cries of, "Oh,
heavenly voice!" were heard round about; some of the women
raised their hands, and held them thus, as a sign of delight, even
after the end of the hymn; others wiped their tearful eyes; the
whole hall was seething as in a beehive. Poppae, bending her
golden-haired head, raised Nero's hand to her lips, and held it long
in silence. Pythagoras, a young Greek of marvellous beauty, -- the
same to whom later the half-insane Nero commanded the flamens
to marry him, with the observance of all rites, -- knelt now at his
feet.
But Nero looked carefully at Petronius, whose praises were desired
by him always before every other, and who said, -- "If it is a
question of music, Orpheus must at this moment be as yellow from
envy as Lucan, who is here present; and as to the verses, I am sorry
that they are not worse; if they were I might find proper words to
praise them."
Lucan did not take the mention of envy evil of him; on the
contrary, he looked at Petronius with gratitude, and, affecting
ill-humor, began to murmur, -- "Cursed fate, which commanded
me to live contemporary with such a poet. One might have a place
in the memory of man, and on Parnassus; but now one will
quench, as a candle in sunlight."
Petronius, who had an amazing memory, began to repeat extracts
from the hymn and cite single verses, exalt, and analyze the more
beautiful expressions. Lucan, forgetting as it were his envy before
the charm of the poetry, joined his ecstasy to Petronius's words. On
Nero's face were reflected delight and fathomless vanity, not only
nearing stupidity, but reaching it perfectly. He indicated to them
verses which he considered the most beautiful; and finally he
began to comfort Lucan, and tell him not to lose heart, for though
whatever a man is born that he is, the honor which people give
Jove does not exclude respect for other divinities.
Then he rose to conduct Poppae, who, being really in ill health,
wished to withdraw. But he commanded the guests who remained
to occupy their places anew, and promised to return, In fact, he
returned a little later, to stupefy himself with the smoke of incense,
and gaze at further spectacles which he himself, Petronius, or
Tigellinus had prepared for the feast.
Again verses were read or dialogues listened to in which
extravagance took the place of wit. After that Paris, the celebrated
mime, represented the adventures of Io, the daughter of Inachus.
To the guests, and especially to Lygia, unaccustomed to such
scenes, it seemed that they were gazing at miracles and
enchantment. Paris, with motions of his hands and body, was able
to express things apparently impossible in a dance. His hands
dimmed the air, creating a cloud, bright, living, quivering,
voluptuous, surrounding the half-fainting form of a maiden shaken
by a spasm of delight. That was a picture, nor a dance; an
expressive picture, disclosing the secrets of love, bewitching and
shameless; and when at the end of it Corybantes rushed in and
began a bacchic dance with girls of Syria to the sounds of cithara,
lutes, drums, and cymbals, -- a dance filled with wild shouts and
still wilder license,-- it seemed to Lygia that living fire was
burning her, and that a thunderbolt ought to strike that house, or
the ceiling fall on the heads of those feasting there.
But from the golden net fastened to the ceiling only roses fell, and
the now half-drunken Vinicius said to her, -- "I saw thee in the
house of Aulus, at the fountain. It was daylight, and thou didst
think that no one saw thee; but I saw thee. And I see thee thus yet,
though that peplus hides thee. Cast aside the peplus, like
Crispinilla. See, gods and men seek love. There is nothing in the
world but love. Lay thy head on my breast and close thy eyes."
The pulse beat oppressively in Lygia's hands and temples. A
feeling seized her that she was flying into some abyss, and that
Vinicius, who before had seemed so near and so trustworthy,
instead of saving was drawing her toward it. And she felt sorry for
him. She began again to dread the feast and him and herself. Some
voice, like that of Pomponia, was calling yet in her soul, "O Lygia,
save thyself!" But something told her also that it was too late; that
the one whom such a flame had embraced as that which had
embraced her, the one who had seen what was done at that feast
and whose heart had beaten as hers had on hearing the words of
Vinicius, the one through whom such a shiver had passed as had
passed through her when he approached, was lost beyond recovery.
She grew weak. It seemed at moments to her that she would faint,
and then something terrible would happen. She knew that, under
penalty of Caesar's anger, it was not permitted any one to rise till
Caesar rose; but even were that not the case, she had not strength
now to rise.
Meanwhile it was far to the end of the feast yet. Slaves brought
new courses, and filled the goblets unceasingly with wine; before
the table, on a platform open at one side, appeared two athletes to
give the guests a spectacle of wrestling.
They began the struggle at once, and the powerful bodies, shining
from olive oil, formed one mass; bones cracked in their iron arms,
and from their set jaws came an ominous gritting of teeth. At
moments was heard the quick, dull thump of their feet on the
platform strewn with saffron; again they were motionless, silent,
and it seemed to the spectators that they had before them a group
chiselled out of stone. Roman eyes followed with delight the
movement of tremendously exerted backs, thighs, and arms. But
the struggle was not too prolonged; for Croton, a master, and the
founder of a school of gladiators, did not pass in vain for the
strongest man in the empire. His opponent began to breathe more
and more quickly: next a rattle was heard in his throat; then his
face grew blue; finally he threw blood from his mouth and fell.
A thunder of applause greeted the end of the struggle, and Croton,
resting his foot on the breast of his opponent, crossed his gigantic
arms on his breast, and cast the eyes of a victor around the hail.
Next appeared men who mimicked beasts and their voices,
ball-players and buffoons. Only a few persons looked at them,
however, since wine had darkened the eyes of the audience. The
feast passed by degrees into a drunken revel and a dissolute orgy.
The Syrian damsels, who appeared at first in the bacchic dance,
mingled now with the guests. The music changed into a disordered
and wild outburst of citharas, lutes, Armenian cymbals, Egyptian
sistra, trumpets, and horns. As some of the guests wished to talk,
they shouted at the musicians to disappear. The air, filled with the
odor of flowers and the perfume of oils with which beautiful boys
had sprinkled the feet of the guests during the feast, permeated
with saffron and the exhalations of people, became stilling; lamps
burned with a dim flame; the wreaths dropped side-wise on the
heads of guests; faces grew pale and were covered with sweat.
Vitelius rolled under the table. Nigidia, stripping herself to the
waist, dropped her drunken childlike head on the breast of Lucan,
who, drunk in like degree, fell to blowing the golden powder from
her hair, and raising his eyes with immense delight. Vestinius, with
the stubbornness of intoxication, repeated for the tenth time the
answer of Mopsus to the sealed letter of the proconsul. Tullius,
who reviled the gods, said, with a drawling voice broken by
hiccoughs, -- "If the spheros of Xenophanes is round, then
consider, such a god might be pushed along before one with the
foot, like a barrel."
But Domitius Afer, a hardened criminal and informer, was
indignant at the discourse, and through indignation spilled
Falernian over his whole tunic. He had always believed in the
gods. People say that Rome will perish, and there are some even
who contend that it is perishing already. And surely! But if that
should come, it is because the youth are without faith, and without
faith there can be no virtue. People have abandoned also the strict
habits of former days, and it never occurs to them that Epicureans
will not stand against barbarians. As for him, he -- As for him, he
was sorry that he had lived to such times, and that he must seek in
pleasures a refuge against griefs which, if not met, would soon kill
him.
When he had said this, he drew toward him a Syrian dancer, and
kissed her neck and shoulders with his toothless mouth. Seeing
this, the consul Meminius Regulus laughed, and, raising his bald
head with wreath awry, exclaimed, -- "Who says that Rome is
perishing? What folly! I, a consul, know better. Videant consules!
Thirty legions are guarding our pax romana!"
Here he put his fists to his temples and shouted, in a voice heard
throughout the triclinium, -- "Thirty legions! thirty legions! from
Britain to the Parthian boundaries!" But he stopped on a sudden,
and, putting a finger to his forehead, said, -- "As I live, I think
there are thirty-two." He rolled under the table, and began soon to
send forth flamingo tongues, roast and chilled mushrooms, locusts
in honey, fish, meat, and everything which he had eaten or drunk.
But the number of the legions guarding Roman peace did not
pacify Domitius.
No, no! Rome must perish; for faith in the gods was lost, and so
were strict habits! Rome must perish; and it was a pity, for still life
was pleasant there. Caesar was gracious, wine was good! Oh, what
a pity!
And hiding his head on the arm of a Syrian bacchanal, he burst
into tears. "What is a future life! Achilles was right, -- better be a
slave in the world beneath the sun than a king in Cimmerian
regions. And still the question whether there are any gods -- since
it is unbelief -- is destroying the youth."
Lucan meanwhile had blown all the gold powder from Nigidia's
hair, and she being drunk had fallen asleep. Next he took wreaths
of ivy from the vase before him, put them on the sleeping woman,
and when he had finished looked at those present with a delighted
and inquiring glance. He arrayed himself in ivy too, repeating, in a
voice of deep conviction, "I am not a man at all, but a faun."
Petronius was not drunk; but Nero, who drank little at first, out of
regard for his "heavenly" voice, emptied goblet after goblet toward
the end, and was drunk. He wanted even to sing more of his verses,
-- this time in Greek,-- but he had forgotten them, and by mistake
sang an ode of Anacreon. Pythagoras, Diodorus, and Terpnos
accompanied him; but failing to keep time, they stopped. Nero as a
judge and an aesthete was enchanted with the beauty of
Pythagoras, and fell to kissing his hands in ecstasy. "Such beautiful
hands I have seen only once, and whose were they?" Then placing
his palm on his moist forehead, he tried to remember. After a
while terror was reflected on his face.
Ah! His mother's -- Agrippina's!
And a gloomy vision seized him forthwith.
"They say," said he, "that she wanders by moonlight on the sea
around Baiae and Bauli. She merely walks, -- walks as if seeking
for something. When she comes near a boat, she looks at it and
goes away; but the fisherman on whom she has fixed her eye dies."
"Not a bad theme," said Petronius.
But Vestinius, stretching his neck like a stork, whispered
mysteriously, -- "I do not believe in the gods; but I believe in
spirits -- Oi!"
Nero paid no attention to their words, and continued, -- "I
celebrated the Lemuria, and have no wish to see her. This is the
fifth year -- I had to condemn her, for she sent assassins against
me; and, had I not been quicker than she, ye would not be listening
to-night to my song."
"Thanks be to Caesar, in the name of the city and the world!" cried
Domitius Afer.
"Wine! and let them strike the tympans!"
The uproar began anew. Lucan, all in ivy, wishing to outshout him,
rose and cried, -- "I am not a man, but a faun; and I dwell in the
forest. Eho-o-o-oo!" Caesar drank himself drunk at last; men were
drunk, and women were drunk. Vinicius was not less drunk than
others; and in addition there was roused in him, besides desire, a
wish to quarrel, which happened always when he passed the
measure. His dark face became paler, and his tongue stuttered
when he spoke, in a voice now loud and commanding, -- "Give me
thy lips! To-day, to-morrow, it is all one! Enough of this!
Caesar took thee from Auius to give thee to me, dost understand?
To-morrow, about dusk, I will send for thee, dost understand?
Caesar promised thee to me before he took thee. Thou must be
mine! Give me thy lips! I will not wait for to-morrow, -- give thy
lips quickly."
And he moved to embrace her; but Acte began to defend her, and
she defended herself with the remnant of her strength, for she felt
that she was perishing. But in vain did she struggle with both
hands to remove his hairless arm; in vain, with a voice in which
terror and grief were quivering, did she implore him not to be what
he was, and to have pity on her. Sated with wine, his breath blew
around her nearer and nearer, and his face was there near her face.
He was no longer the former kind Vinicius, almost dear to her
soul; he was a drunken, wicked satyr, who filled her with repulsion
and terror. But her strength deserted her more and more. In vain
did she bend and turn away her face to escape his kisses. He rose
to his feet, caught her in both arms, and drawing her head to his
breast, began, panting, to press her pale lips with his.
But at this instant a tremendous power removed his arms from her
neck with as much ease as if they had been the arms of a child, and
pushed him aside, like a dried limb or a withered leaf. What had
happened? Vinicius rubbed his astonished eyes, and saw before
him the gigantic figure of the Lygian, called Ursus, whom he had
seen at the house of Aulus.
Ursus stood calmly, but looked at Vinicius So strangely with his
blue eyes that the blood stiffened in the veins of the young man;
then the giant took his queen on his arm, and walked out of the
triclinium with an even, quiet step.
Acte in that moment went after him.
Vinicius sat for the twinkle of an eye as if petrified; then he sprang
up and ran toward the entrance crying, -- "Lygia! Lygia!"
But desire, astonishment, rage, and wine cut the legs from under
him. He staggered once and a second time, seized the naked arm of
one of the bacchanals, and began to inquire, with blinking eyes,
what had happened. She, taking a goblet of wine, gave it to him
with a smile in her mist-covered eyes.
"Drink!" said she.
Vinicius drank, and fell to the floor.
Thegreater number of the guests were lying under the table; others
were walking with tottering tread through the triclinium, while
others were sleeping on couches at the table, snoring, or giving
forth the excess of wine. Meanwhile, from the golden network,
roses were dropping and dropping on those drunken consuls and
senators, on those drunken knights, philosophers, and poets, on
those drunken dancing damsels and patrician ladies, on that society
all dominant as yet but with the soul gone from it, on that society
garlanded and ungirdled but perishing.
No one stopped Ursus, no one inquired even what he was doing.
Those guests who were not under the table had not kept their own
places; hence the servants, seeing a giant carrying a guest on his
arm, thought him some slave bearing out his intoxicated mistress.
Moreover, Acte was with them, and her presence removed all
suspicion.
In this way they went from the triclinium to the adjoining
chamber, and thence to the gallery leading to Acte's apartments.
To such a degree had her strength deserted Lygia, that she hung as
if dead on the arm of Ursus. But when the cool, pure breeze of
morning beat around her, she opened her eyes. It was growing
clearer and clearer in the open air. After they had passed along the
colonnade awhile, they turned to a side portico, coming out, not in
the courtyard, but the palace gardens, where the tops of the pines
and cypresses were growing ruddy from the light of morning. That
part of the building was empty, so that echoes of music and sounds
of the feast came with decreasing distinctness. It seemed to Lygia
that she had been rescued from hell, and borne into God's bright
world outside. There was something, then, besides that disgusting
tricliium. There was the sky, the dawn, light, and peace. Sudden
weeping seized the maiden, and, taking shelter on the arm of the
giant, she repeated, with sobbing, -- "Let us go home, Ursus! home,
to the house of Aulus."
"Let us go!" answered Ursus.
They found themselves now in the small atrium of Acte's
apartments. Ursus placed Lygia on a marble bench at a distance
from the fountain. Acte strove to pacify her; she urged her to sleep,
and declared that for the moment there was no danger, -- after the
feast the drunken guests would sleep till evening. For a long time
Lygia could not calm herself, and, pressing her temples with both
hands, she repeated like a child, -- "Let us go home, to the house of
Aulus!"
Ursus was ready. At the gates stood pretorians, it is true, but he
would pass them. The soldiers would not stop out-going people.
The space before the arch was crowded with litters. Guests were
beginning to go forth in throngs. No one would detain them. They
would pass with the crowd and go home directly. For that matter,
what does he care? As the queen commands, so must it be. He is
there to carry out her orders.
"Yes, Ursus," said Lygia, "let us go."
Acte was forced to find reason for both. They would pass out, true;
no one would stop them. But it is not permitted to flee from the
house of Caesar; whoso does that offends Caesar's majesty. They
may go; but in the evening a centurion at the head of soldiers will
take a death sentence to Aulus and Pomponia Graecina; they will
bring Lygia to the palace again, and then there will be no rescue
for her. Should Aulus and his wife receive her under their roof,
death awaits them to a certainty.
Lygia's arms dropped. There was no other outcome. She must
choose her own ruin or that of Plautius. In going to the feast, she
had hoped that Vinicius and Petronius would win her from Caesar,
and return her to Pornponia; now she knew that it was they who
had brought Caesar to remove her from the house of Aulus. There
was no help. Only a miracle could save her from the abyss, -- a
miracle and the might of God.
"Acte," said she, in despair, "didst thou hear Vinicius say that
Caesar had given me to him, and that he will send slaves here this
evening to take me to his house?"
"I did," answered Acte; and, raising her arms from her side, she
was silent. The despair with which Lygia spoke found in her no
echo. She herself had been Nero's favorite. Her heart, though good,
could not feel clearly the shame of such a relation. A former slave,
she had grown too much inured to the law of slavery; and, besides,
she loved Nero yet. If he returned to her, she would stretch her
arms to him, as to happiness. Comprehending clearly that Lygia
must become the mistress of the youthful and stately Vinicius, or
expose Aulus and Pomponia to ruin, she failed to understand how
the girl could hesitate.
"In Caesar's house," said she, after a while, "it would not be safer
for thee than in that of Vinicius."
And it did not occur to her that, though she told the truth, her
words meant, "Be resigned to fate and become the concubine of
Vinicius."
As to Lygia, who felt on her lips yet his kisses, burning as coals
and full of beastly desire, the blood rushed to her face with shame
at the mere thought of them.
"Never," cried she, with an outburst, "will I remain here, or at the
house of Vinicius, -- never!"
"But," inquired Acte, "is Vinicius hateful to thee?"
Lygia was unable to answer, for weeping seized her anew. Acte
gathered the maiden to her bosom, and strove to calm her
excitement. Ursus breathed heavily, and balled his giant fists; for,
loving his queen with the devotion of a dog, he could not bear the
sight of her tears. In his half-wild Lygian heart was the wish to
return to the tridinium, choke Vinicius, and, should the need come,
Caesar himself; but he feared to sacrifice thereby his mistress, and
was not certain that such an act, which to him seemed very simple,
would befit a confessor of the Crucified Lamb.
But Acte, while caressing Lygia, asked again, "Is he so hateful to
thee?"
"No," said Lygia; "it is not permitted me to hate, for I am a
Christian."
"I know, Lygia. I know also from the letters of Paul of Tarsus, that
it is not permitted to defile one's self, nor to fear death more than
sin; but tell me if thy teaching permits one person to cause the
death of others?"
"Then how canst thou bring Caesar's vengeance on the house of
Aulus?" A moment of silence followed. A bottomless abyss
yawned before Lygia again.
"I ask," continued the young freedwoman, "for I have compassion
on thee -- and I have compassion on the good Pomponia and
Aulus, and on their child. It is long since I began to live in this
house, and I know what Caesar's anger is. No! thou art not at
liberty to flee from here. One way remains to thee: implore
Vinicius to return thee to Pomponia."
But Lygia dropped on her knees to implore some one else. Ursus
knelt down after a while, too, and both began to pray in Caesar's
house at the morning dawn.
Acte witnessed such a prayer for the first time, and could not take
her eyes from Lygia, who, seen by her in profile, with raised hands,
and face turned heavenward, seemed to implore rescue. The dawn,
casting light on her dark hair and white peplus, was reflected in
her eyes. Entirely in the light, she seemed herself like light. In that
pale face, in those parted lips, in those raised hands and eyes, a
kind of superhuman exaltation was evident. Acte understood then
why Lygia could not become the concubine of any man. Before the
face of Nero's former favorite was drawn aside, as it were, a corner
of that veil which hides a world altogether different from that to
which she was accustomed. She was astonished by prayer in that
abode of crime and infamy. A moment earlier it had seemed to her
that there was no rescue for Lygia; now she began to think that
something uncommon would happen, that some aid would come,
-- aid so mighty that Caesar himself would be powerless to resist
it; that some winged army would descend from the sky to help that
maiden, or that the sun would spread its rays beneath her feet and
draw her up to itself. She had heard of many miracles among
Christians, and she thought now that everything said of them was
true, since Lygia was praying.
Lygia rose at last, with a face serene with hope. Ursus rose too,
and, holding to the bench, looked at his mistress, waiting for her
words.
But it grew dark in her eyes, and after a time two great tears rolled
down her checks slowly.
"May God bless Pomponia and Aulus," said she. "It is not
permitted me to bring ruin on them; therefore I shall never see
them again."
Then turning to Ursus she said that he alone remained to her in the
world; that he must be to her as a protector and a father. They
could not seek refuge in the house of Aulus, for they would bring
on it the anger of Caesar. But neither could she remain in the
house of Caesar or that of Vinicius. Let Ursus take her then; let
him conduct her out of the city; let him conceal her in some place
where neither Vinicius nor his servants could find her. She would
follow Ursus anywhere, even beyond the sea, even beyond the
mountains, to the barbarians, where the Roman name was not
heard, and whither the power of Caesar did not reach. Let him take
her and save her, for he alone had remained to her.
The Lygian was ready, and in sign of obedience he bent to her feet
and embraced them. But on the face of Acte, who had been
expecting a miracle, disappointment was evident. Had the prayer
effected only that much? To flee from the house of Caesar is to
commit an offence against majesty which must be avenged; and
even if Lygia succeeded in hiding, Caesar would avenge himself
on Aulus and Pomponia. If she wishes to escape, let her escape
from the house of Vinicius. Then Caesar, who does not like to
occupy himself with the affairs of others, may not wish even to aid
Vinicius in the pursuit; in every case it will not be a crime against
majesty.
But Lygia's thoughts were just the following: Aulus would not even
know where she was; Pomponia herself would not know. She
would escape not from the house of Vinicius, however, but while
on the way to it. When drunk, Vinicius had said that he would send
his slaves for her in the evening. Beyond doubt he had told the
truth, which he would not have done had he been sober. Evidently
he himself, or perhaps he and Petronius, had seen Caesar before
the feast, and won from him the promise to give her on the
following evening. And if they forgot that day, they would send for
her on the morrow. But Ursus will save her. He will come; he will
bear her out of the litter as he bore her out of the triclinium, and
they will go into the world. No one could resist Ursus, not even
that terrible athlete who wrestled at the feast yesterday. But as
Vinicius might send a great number of slaves, Ursus would go at
once to Bishop Linus for aid and counsel. The bishop will take
compassion on her, will not leave her in the hands of Vinicius; he
will command Christians to go with Ursus to rescue her. They will
seize her and bear her away; then Ursus can take her out of the city
and hide her from the power of Rome.
And her face began to flush and smile. Consolation entered her
anew, as if the hope of rescue had turned to reality. She threw
herself on Acte's neck suddenly, and, putting her beautiful lips to
Acte's cheek, she whispered:
"Thou wilt not betray, Acte, wilt thou?"
"By the shade of my mother," answered the freedwoman, "I will
not; but pray to thy God that Ursus be able to bear thee away."
The blue, childlike eyes of the giant were gleaming with
happiness. He had not been able to frame any plan, though he had
been breaking his poor head; but a thing like this he could do, --
and whether in the day or in the night it was all one to him! He
would go to the bishop, for the bishop can read in the sky what is
needed and what is not. Besides, he could assemble Christians
himself. Are his acquaintances few among slaves, gladiators, and
free people, both in the Subura and beyond the bridges? He can
collect a couple of thousand of them. He will rescue his lady, and
take her outside the city, and he can go with her. They will go to
the end of the world, even to that place from which they had come,
where no one has heard of Rome.
Here he began to look forward, as if to see things in the future and
very distant.
"To the forest? Al, what a forest, what a forest!"
But after a while he shook himself out of his visions. Well, he will
go to the bishop at once, and in the evening will wait with
something like a hundred men for the litter. And let not slaves, hut
even pretorians, take her from him! Better for any man not to come
under his fist, even though in iron armor, -- for is iron so strong?
When he strikes iron earnestly, the head underneath will not
survive.
But Lygia raised her finger with great and also childlike
seriousness.
"Ursus, do not kill," said she.
Ursus put his fist, which was like a maul, to the back of his head,
and, rubbing his neck with great seriousness, began to mutter. But
he must rescue "his light." She herself had said that his turn had
come. He will try all he can. But if something happens in spite of
him? In every case he must save her. But should anything happen,
he will repent, and so entreat the Innocent Lamb that the Crucified
Lamb will have mercy on him, poor fellow. He has no wish to
offend the Lamb; but then his hands are so heavy.
Great tenderness was expressed on his face; but wishing to
hide it, he bowed and said, -- "Now I will go to the holy bishop."
Acte put her arms around Lygia's neck, and began to weep. Once
more the freedwoman understood that there was a world in which
greater happiness existed, even in suffering, than in all the
excesses and luxury of Caesar's house. Once more a kind of door
to the light was opened a little before her, but she felt at once that
she was unworthy to pass through it.
LYGIA was grieved to lose Pomponia Graecina, whom she loved
with her whole soul, and she grieved for the household of Aulus;
still her despair passed away. She felt a certain delight even in the
thought that she was sacrificing plenty and comfort for her Truth,
and was entering on an unknown and wandering existence.
Perhaps there was in this a little also of childish curiosity as to
what that life would be, off somewhere in remote regions, among
wild beasts and barbarians. But there was still more a deep and
trusting faith, that by acting thus she was doing as the Divine
Master had commanded, and that henceforth He Himself would
watch over her, as over an obedient and faithful child. In such a
case what harm could meet her? If sufferings come, she will
endure them in His name. If sudden death comes, He will take her;
and some time, when Pomponia dies, they will be together for all
eternity. More than once when she was in the house of Aulus, she
tortured her childish head because she, a Christian, could do
nothing for that Crucified, of whom Ursus spoke with such
tenderness. But now the moment had come. Lygia felt almost
happy, and began to speak of her happiness to Acte, who could not
understand her, however. To leave everything, -- to leave house,
wealth, the city, gardens, temples, porticos, everything that is
beautiful; leave a sunny land and people near to one -- and for
what purpose? To hide from the love of a young and stately knight.
In Acte's head these things could not find place. At times she felt
that Lygia's action was right, that there must be some immense
mysterious happiness in it; but she could not give a clear account
to herself of the matter, especially since an adventure was before
Lygia which might have an evil ending, -- an adventure in which
she might lose her life simply. Acte was timid by nature, and she
thought with dread of what the coming evening might bring. But
she was loath to mention her fears to Lygia; meanwhile, as the day
was clear and the sun looked into the atrium, she began to
persuade her to take the rest needed after a night without sleep.
Lygia did not refuse; and both went to the cubiculum, which was
spacious and furnished with luxury because of Acte's former
relations with Caesar. There they lay down side by side, but in
spite of her weariness Acte could not sleep. For a long time she
had been sad and unhappy, but now she was seized by a certain
uneasiness which she had never felt before. So far life had seemed
to her simply grievous and deprived of a morrow; now all at once
it seemed to her dishonorable.
Increasing chaos rose in her head. Again the door to light began to
open and close. But in the moment when it opened, that light so
dazzled her that she could see nothing distinctly. She divined,
merely, that in that light there was happiness of some kind,
happiness beyond measure, in presence of which every other was
nothing, to such a degree that if Caesar, for example, were to set
aside Poppae, and love her, Acte, again, it would be vanity.
Suddenly the thought came to her that that Caesar whom she
loved, whom she held involuntarily as a kind of demigod, was as
pitiful as any slave, and that palace, with columns of Numidian
marble, no better than a heap of stones. At last, however, those
feelings which she had not power to define began to torment her;
she wanted to sleep, but being tortured by alarm she could not.
Thinking that Lygia, threatened by so many perils and
uncertainties, was not sleeping either, she turned to her to speak of
her flight in the evening. But Lygia was sleeping calmly. Into the
dark cubiculum, past the curtain which was not closely drawn,
came a few bright rays, in which golden dust-motes were playing.
By the light of these rays Acte saw her delicate face, resting on her
bare arm, her closed eyes, and her mouth slightly open. She was
breathing regularly, but as people breathe while asleep.
"She sleeps, -- she is able to sleep," thought Acte. "She is a child
yet." Still, after a while it came to her mind that that child chose to
flee rather than remain the beloved of Vinicius; she preferred want
to shame, wandering to a lordly house, to robes, jewels, and feasts,
to the sound of lutes and citharas.
"Why?"
And she gazed at Lygia, as if to find an answer in her sleeping
face. She looked at her clear forehead, at the calm arch of her
brows, at her dark tresses, at her parted lips, at her virgin bosom
moved by calm breathing; then she thought again, -- "How
different from me!"
Lygia seemed to her a miracle, a sort of divine vision, something
beloved of the gods, a hundred times more beautiful than all the
flowers in Caesar's garden, than all the statues in his palace. But ih
the Greek woman's heart there was no envy. On the contrary, at
thought of the dangers which threatened the girl, great pity seized
her. A certain motherly feeling rose in the woman. Lygia seemed
to her not only as beautiful as a beautiful vision, but also very dear,
and, putting her lips to her dark hair, she kissed it.
But Lygia slept on calmly, as if at home, under the care of
Pomponia Graecina. And she slept rather long. Midday had passed
when she opened her blue eyes and looked around the cubiculum
in astonishment. Evidently she wondered that she was not in the
house of Aulus.
"That is thou, Acte?" said she at last, seeing in the darkness the
face of the Greek.
"I, Lygia."
"Is it evening?"
"No, child; but midday has passed."
"And has Ursus not returned?"
"Ursus did not say that he would return; he said that he would
watch in the evening, with Christians, for the litter."
"True."
Then they left the cubiculum and went to the bath, where Acte
bathed Lygia; then she took her to breakfast and afterward to the
gardens of the palace, in which no dangerous meeting might be
feared, since Caesar and his principal courtiers were sleeping yet.
For the first time in her life Lygia saw those magnificent gardens,
full of pines, cypresses, oaks, olives, and myrtles, among which
appeared white here and there a whole population of statues. The
mirror of ponds gleamed quietly; groves of roses were blooming,
watered with the spray of fountains; entrances to charming grottos
were encircled with a growth of ivy or woodbine; silver-colored
swans were sailing on the water; amidst statues and trees wandered
tame gazelles from the deserts of Africa, and rich-colored birds
from all known countries on earth.
The gardens were empty; but here and there slaves were working,
spade in hand, singing in an undertone; others, to whom was
granted a moment of rest, were sitting by ponds or in the shade of
groves, in trembling light produced by sun-rays breaking in
between leaves; others were watering roses or the pale lily-colored
blossoms of the saffron. Acte and Lygia walked rather long,
looking at all the wonders of the gardens; and though Lygia's mind
was not at rest, she was too much a child yet to resist pleasure,
curiosity, and wonder. It occurred to her, even, that if Caesar were
good, he might be very happy in such a palace, in such gardens.
But at last, tired somewhat, the two women sat down on a bench
hidden almost entirely by dense cypresses and began to talk of that
which weighed on their hearts most, -- that is, of Lygia's escape in
the evening. Acte was far less at rest than Lygia touching its
success. At times it seemed to her even a mad project, which could
not succeed. She felt a growing pity for Lygia. It seemed to her that
it would be a hundred times safer to try to act on Vinicius. After a
while she inquired of Lygia how long she had known him, and
whether she did not think that he would let himself be persuaded
to return her to Pomponia.
But Lygia shook her dark head in sadness. "No. In Aulus's house,
Vinicius had been different, he had been very kind, but since
yesterday's feast she feared him, and would rather flee to the
Lygians."
"But in Aulus's house," inquired Acte, "he was dear to thee, was he
not?"
"He was," answered Lygia, inclining her head.
"And thou wert not a slave, as I was," said Acte, after a moment's
thought. "Vinicius might marry thee. Thou art a hostage, and a
daughter of the Lygian king. Aulus and Pomponia love thee as
their own child; I am sure that they arc ready to adopt thee.
Vinicius might marry thee, Lygia."
But Lygia answered calmly, and with still greater sadness, "I would
rather flee to the Lygians."
"Lygia, dost thou wish me to go directly to Vinicius, rouse him, if
he is sleepmg, and tell him what I have told thee? Yes, my
precious one, I will go to him and say, 'Vinicius, this is a king's
daughter, and a dear child of the famous Aulus; if thou love her,
return her to Aulus and Pomponia, and take her as wife from their
house.'"
But the maiden answered with a voice so low that Acte could
barely hear it, --
"1 would rather flee to the Lygians." And two tears were hanging
on her drooping lids.
Further conversation was stopped by the rustle of approaching
steps, and bef ore Acte had time to see who was coming, Poppae
Sabina appeared in front of the bench with a small retinue of slave
women. Two of them held over her head bunches of ostrich
feathers fixed to golden wires; with these they fanned her lightly,
and at the same time protected her from the autumn sun, which
was hot yet. Before her a woman from Egypt, black as ebony, and
with bosom swollen as if from milk, bore in her arms an infant
wrapped in purple fringed with gold. Acte and Lygia rose, thinking
that Popp~ra would pass the bench without turning attention to
either; but she halted before them and said, -- "Acte, the bells sent
by thee for the doll were badly fastened; the child tore off one and
put it to her mouth; luckily Lilith saw it in season."
"Pardon, divinity," answered Acte, crossing her arms on her breast
and bending her head.
But Poppaea began to gaze at Lygia.
"What slave is this?" asked she, after a pause.
"She is not a slave, divine Augusta, but a foster child of Pomponia
Graecina, and a daughter of the Lygian king given by him as
hostage to Rome."
"And has she come to visit thee?"
"No, Augusta. She is dwelling in the palace since the day before
yesterday."
"Was she at the feast last night?"
"She was, Augusta."
"At whose command?"
"At Caesar's command."
Poppae looked still more attentively at Lygia, who stood with
bowed head, now raising her bright eyes to her with curiosity, now
covering them with their lids. Suddenly a frown appeared between
the brows of the Augusta. Jealous of her own beauty and power,
she lived in continual alarm lest at some time a fortunate rival
might ruin her, as she had ruined Octavia. Hence every beautiful
face in the palace roused her suspicion. With the eye of a critic she
took in at once every part of Lygia's form, estimated every detail of
her face, and was frightened. "That is simply a nymph," thought
she, "and 'twas Venus who gave birth to her." On a sudden this
came to her mind which had never come before at sight of any
beauty, -- that she herself had grown notably older! Wounded
vanity quivered in Poppaea, alarm seized her, and various fears
shot through her head. "Perhaps Nero has not seen the girl, or,
seeing her through the emerald, has not appreciated her. But what
would happen should he meet such a marvel in the daytime, in
sunlight? Moreover she is not a slave, she is the daughter of a king,
-- a king of barbarians, it is true, but a king. Immortal gods! she is
as beautiful as I am, but younger!" The wrinkle between her brows
increased, and her eyes began to shine under their golden lashes
with a cold gleam.
"Hast thou spoken with Caesar?"
"No, Augusta."
"Why dost thou choose to be here rather than in the house of
Aulus?"
"I do not choose, lady. Petronius persuaded Caesar to take me from
Pomponia. I am here against my will."
"And wouldst thou return to Pomponia?"
This last question Poppae gave with a softer and milder voice;
hence a sudden hope rose in Lygia's heart.
"Lady," said she, extending her hand to her, "Caesar promised to
give me as a slave to Vinicius, but do thou intercede and return me
to Pomponia."
"Then Petronius persuaded Caesar to take thee from Aulus, and
give thee to Vinicius?"
"True, lady. Vinicius is to send for me to-day, but thou art good,
have compassion on me." When she had said this, she inclined,
and, seizing the border of Poppae's robe, waited for her word with
beating heart. Poppaa looked at her for a while, with a face lighted
by an evil smile, and said, -- "Then I promise that thou wilt
become the slave of Vinicius this day." And she went on, beautiful
as a vision, but evil. To the ears of Lygia and Acte came only the
wail of the infant, which began to cry, it was unknown for what
reason.
Lygia's eyes too were filled with tears; but after a while she took
Acte's hand and said, -- "Let us return. Help is to be looked for
only whence it can come." And they returned to the atrium, which
they did not leave till evening.
When darkness had come and slaves brought in tapers with great
flames, both women were very pale. Their conversation failed
every moment. Both were listening to hear if some one were
coming. Lygia repeated again and again that, though grieved to
leave Acte, she preferred that all should take place that day, as
Ursus must be waiting in the dark for her then. But her breathing
grew quicker from emotion, and louder. Acte collected feverishly
such jewels as she could, and, fastening them in a corner of Lygia's
peplus, implored her not to reject that gift and means of escape. At
moments came a deep silence full of deceptions for the ear. It
seemed to both that they heard at one time a whisper beyond the
curtain, at another the distant weeping of a child, at another the
barking of dogs.
Suddenly the curtain of the entrance moved without noise, and a
tall, dark man, his face marked with small-pox, appeared like a
spirit in the atrium. In one moment Lygia recognized Atacinus, a
freedman of Vinicius, who had visited the house of Aulus.
Acte screamed; but Atacinus bent low and said, -- "A greeting,
divine Lygia, from Marcus Vinicius, who awaits thee with a feast
in his house which is decked in green."
The lips of the maiden grew pale.
"I go," said she.
Then she threw her arms around Acte's neck in farewell.
THE house of Vinicius was indeed decked in the green of myrtle
and ivy, which had been hung on the walls and over the doors. The
columns were wreathed with grape vine. In the atrium, which was
closed above by a purple woollen cloth as protection from the
night cold, it was as clear as in daylight. Eight and twelve flamed
lamps were burning; these were like vessels, trees, animals, birds,
or statues, holding cups filled with perfumed olive oil, lamps of
alabaster, marble, or gilded Corinthian bronze, not so wonderful as
that famed candlestick used by Nero and taken from the temple of
Apollo, but beautiful and made by famous masters. Some of the
lights were shaded by Alexandrian glass, or transparent stuffs from
the Indus, of red, blue, yellow, or violet color, so that the whole
atrium was filled with many colored rays. Everywhere was given
out the odor of nard, to which Vinicius had grown used, and which
he had learned to love in the Orient. The depths of the house, in
which the forms of male and female slaves were movmg, gleamed
also with light. In the triclinium a table was laid for four persons.
At the feast were to sit, besides Vinicius and Lygia, Petronius and
Chrysothemis. Vimcius had followed in everything the words of
Petronius, who advised him not to go for Lygia, but to send
Atacinus with the permission obtained from Caesar, to receive her
himself in the house, receive her with friendliness and even with
marks of honor.
"Thou wert drunk yesterday," said he; "I saw thee. Thou didst act
with her like a quarryman from the Alban Hills. Be not
over-insistent, and remember that one should drink good wine
slowly. Know too that it is sweet to desire, but sweeter to be
desired."
Chrysothemis had her own and a somewhat different opinion on
this point; but Petronius, calling her his vestal and his dove, began
to explain the difference which must exist between a trained
charioteer of the Circus and the youth who sits on the quadriga for
the first time. Then, turning to Vinicius, he continued, -- "Win her
confidence, make her joyful, be magnanimous. I have no wish to
see a gloomy feast. Swear to her, by Hades even, that thou wilt
return her to Pomponia, and it will be thy affair that to-morrow she
prefers to stay with thee."
Then pointing to Chrysothemis, he added, -- "For five years I have
acted thus more or less with this timid dove, and I cannot complain
of her harshness."
Chrysothemis struck him with her fan of peacock feathers, and
said, -- "But I did not resist, thou satyr!"
"Out of consideration for my predecessor --"
"But wert thou not at my feet?"
"Yes; to put rings on thy toes."
Chrysothemis looked involuntarily at her feet, on the toes of which
diamonds were really glittering; and she and Petronius began to
laugh. But Vinicius did not give ear to their bantering. His heart
was beating unquietly under the robes of a Syrian priest, in which
he had arrayed himself to receive Lygia.
"They must have left the palace," said he, as if in a monologue.
"They must," answered Petronius. "Meanwhile I may mention the
predictions of Apollonius of Tyana, or that history of Rufinus
which I have not finished, I do not remember why."
But Vinicius cared no more for Apollonius of Tyana than for the
history of Rufinus. His mind was with Lygia; and though he felt
that it was more appropriate to receive her at home than to go in
the role of a myrmidon to the palace, he was sorry at moments that
he had not gone, for the single reason that he might have seen her
sooner, and sat near her in the dark, in the double litter.
Meanwhile slaves brought in a tripod ornamented with rams'
heads, bronze dishes with coals, on which they sprinkled bits of
myrrh and nard.
"Now they are turning toward the Carinx," said Vinicius, again.
"He cannot wait; he will run to meet the litter, and is likely to miss
them!" exclaimed Chrysothemis.
Vinicius smiled without thinking, and said, -- "On the contrary, I
will wait."
But he distended his nostrils and panted; seeing which, Petronius
shrugged his shoulders, and said, -- "There is not in him a
philosopher to the value of one sestertium, and I shall never make
a man of that son of Mars."
"They are now in the Carinaae."
In fact, they were turning toward the Carimr. The slaves called
lampadarii were in front; others called pedisequii, were on both
sides of the litter. Atacinus was right behind, overseeing the
advance. But they moved slowly, for lamps showed the way badly
in a place not lighted at all. The streets near the palace were
empty; here and there only some man moved forward with a
lantern, but farther on the place was uncommonly crowded. From
almost every alley people were pushing out in threes and fours, all
without lamps, all in dark mantles. Some walked on with the
procession, mingling with the slaves; others in greater numbers
came from the opposite direction. Some staggered as if drunk. At
moments the advance grew so difficult that the lampadarii cried, --
"Give way to the noble tribune, Marcus Vinicius!"
Lygia saw those dark crowds through the curtains which were
pushed aside, and trembled with emotion. She was carried away at
one moment by hope, at another by fear.
"That is he! --that is Ursus and the Christians! Now it will happen
quickly," said she, with trembling lips. "O Christ, aid! O Christ,
save!"
Atacinus himself, who at first did not notice the uncommon
animation of the street, began at last to be alarmed. There was
something strange in this. The lampadaril had to cry oftener and
oftener, "Give way to the litter of the noble tribune!" From the
sides unknown people crowded up to the litter so much that
Atacinus commanded the slaves to repulse them with clubs.
Suddenly a cry was heard in front of the procession. In one instant
all the lights were extinguished. Around the litter came a rush, an
uproar, a struggle.
Atacinus saw that this was simply an attack; and when he saw it he
was frightened. It was known to all that Caesar with a crowd of
attendants made attacks frequently for amusement in the Subura
and in other parts of the city. It was known that even at times he
brought out of these night adventures black and blue spots; but
whoso defended himself went to his death, even if a senator. The
house of the guards, whose duty it was to watch over the city, was
not very far; but during such attacks the guards feigned to be deaf
and blind.
Meanwhile there was an uproar around the litter; people struck,
struggled, threw, and trampled one another. The thought flashed
on Atacinus to save Lygia and himself, above all, and leave the rest
to their fate. So, drawing her out of the litter, he took her in his
arms and strove to escape in the darkness.
But Lygia called, "Ursus! Ursus!"
She was dressed in white; hence it was easy to see her. Atacinus,
with his other arm, which was free, was throwing his own mantle
over her hastily, when terrible claws seized his neck, and on his
head a gigantic, crushing mass fell like a stone.
He dropped in one instant, as an ox felled by the back of an axe
before the altar of Jove.
The slaves for the greater part were either lying on the ground, or
had saved themselves by scattering in the thick darkness, around
the turns of the walls. On the spot remained only the litter, broken
in the onset. Ursus bore away Lygia to the Subura; his comrades
followed him, dispersing gradually along the way.
The slaves assembled before the house of Vinicius, and took
counsel. They had not courage to enter. After a short deliberation
they returned to the place of conflict, where they found a few
corpses, and among them Atacinus. He was quivering yet; but,
after a moment of more violent convulsion, he stretched and was
motionless.
They took him then, and, returning, stopped before the gate a
second time But they must declare to their lord what had
happened.
"Let Cub declare it," whispered some voices; "blood is flowing
from his face as from ours; and the master loves him; it is safer for
Gulo than for others."
Gulo, a German, an old slave, who had nursed Vinicius, and was
inherited by him from his mother, the sister of Petronius, said, --
"I will tell him; but do ye all come. Do not let his anger fall on my
head alone."
Vinicius was growing thoroughly impatient. Petronius and
Chrysothemis were laughing; but he walked with quick step up and
down the atrium.
"They ought to be here! They ought to be here!"
He wished to go out to meet the litter, but Petronius and
Chrysothemis detained him.
Steps were heard suddenly in the entrance; the slaves rushed into
the atrium in a crowd, and, halting quickly at the wall, raised their
hands, and began to repeat with groaning, -- "Aaaa! --aa!"
Vinicius sprang toward them.
"Where is Lygia?" cried he, with a terrible and changed voice.
"Aaaa!"
Then Gulo pushed forward with his bloody face, and exclaimed, in
haste and pitifully,
"See our blood, lord! We fought! See our blood! See our blood!"
But he had not finished when Vinicius seized a bronze lamp, and
with one blow shattered the skull of the slave; then, seizing his
own head with both hands, he drove his fingers into his hair,
repeating hoarsely, -- "Me miserum! me miserum!"
His face became blue, his eyes turned in his head, foam came out
on his lips.
"Whips!" roared he at last, with an unearthly voice. "Lord! Aaaa!
Take pity!" groaned the slaves.
Petronius stood up with an expression of disgust on his face.
"Come, Chry.. sothemis!" said he. "if 'tis thy wish to look on raw
flesh, I will give command to open a butcher's stall on the
Carina~!"
And he walked out of the atrium. But through the whole house,
ornamented in the green of ivy and prepared for a feast, were
heard, from moment to moment, groans and the whistling of
whips, which lasted almost till morning.
VINICIUS did not lie down that night. Some time after the
departure of Petronius, when the groans of his flogged slaves
could allay neither his rage nor his pain, he collected a crowd of
other servants, and, though the night was far advanced, rushed
forth at the head of these to look for Lygia. He visited the district
of the Esquiline, then the Subura, Vicus Sceleratus, and all the
adjoining alleys. Passing next around the Capitol, he went to the
island over the bridge of Fabricius; after that he passed through a
part of the TransTiber. But that was a pursuit without object, for
he himself had no hope of finding Lygia, and if he sought her it
was mainly to fill out with something a terrible night. In fact he
returned home about daybreak, when the carts and mules of
dealers in vegetables began to appear in the city, and when bakers
were opening their shops.
On returning he gave command to put away Gubo's corpse, which
no one had ventured to touch. The slaves from whom Lygia had
been taken he sent to rural prisons, -- a punishment almost more
dreadful than death. Throwing himself at last on a couch in the
atrium, he began to think confusedly of how he was to find and
seize Lygia.
To resign her, to lose her, not to see her again, seemed to him
impossible; and at this thought alone frenzy took hold of him. For
the first time in life the imperious nature of the youthful soldier
met resistance, met another unbending will, and he could not
understand simply how any one could have the daring to thwart his
wishes. Vinicius would have chosen to see the world and the city
sink in ruins rather than fail of his purpose. The cup of delight had
been snatched from before his lips almost; hence it seemed to him
that something unheard of had happened, something crying to
divine and human laws for vengeance.
But, first of all, he was unwilling and unable to be reconciled with
fate, for never in life had he so desired anything as Lygia. It
seemed to him that he could not exist without her. He could not
tell himself what he was to do without her on the morrow, how he
was to survive the days following. At moments he was transported
by a rage against her, which approached madness. He wanted to
have her, to beat her, to drag her by the hair to the cubiculum, and
gloat over her; then, again, he was carried away by a terrible
yearning for her voice, her form, her eyes, and he felt that he
would be ready to lie at her feet. He called to her, gnawed his
fingers, clasped his head with his hands. He strove with all his
might to think calmly about searching for her, -- and was unable. A
thousand methods and means flew through his head, but one
wilder than another. At last the thought flashed on him that no one
else had intercepted her but Aulus, that in every case Aulus must
know where she was hiding. And he sprang up to run to the house
of Aulus.
If they will not yield her to him, if they have no fear of his threats,
he will go to Caesar, accuse the old general of disobedience, and
obtain a sentence of death against him; but before that, he will
gain from them a confession of where Lygia is. If they give her,
even willingly, he will be revenged. They received him, it is true,
in their house and nursed him, -- but that is nothing! With this one
injustice they have freed him from every debt of gratitude. Here
his vengeful and stubborn soul began to take pleasure at the
despair of Pomponia Gr~ecina, when the centurion would bring
the death sentence to old Aulus. He was almost certain that he
would get it. Petronius would assist him. Moreover, Caesar never
denies anything to his intimates, the Augustians, unless personal
dislike or desire enjoins a refusal.
Suddenly his heart almost died within him, under the influence of
this terrible supposition, -- "But if Caesar himself has taken
Lygia?"
All knew that Nero from tedium sought recreation in night attacks.
Even Petronius took part in these amusements. Their main object
was to seize women and toss each on a soldier's mantle till she
fainted. Even Nero himself on occasions called these expeditions
"pearl hunts," for it happened that in the depth of districts occupied
by a numerous and needy population they caught a real pearl of
youth and beauty sometimes. Then the "sagatio," as they termed
the tossing, was changed into a genuine carrying away, and the
pearl was sent either to the Palatine or to one of Caesar's
numberless villas, or finally Caesar yielded itto one of his
intimates. So might it happen also with Lygia. Caesar had seen her
during the feast; and Vinicius doubted not for an instant that she
must have seemed to him the most beautiful woman he had seen
yet. How could it be otherwise? It is true that Lygia had been in
Nero's own house on the Palatine, and he might have kept her
openly. But, as Petronius said truly, Caesar had no courage in
crime, and, with power to act openly, he chose to act always in
secret. This time fear of Poppaera might incline him also to
secrecy. It occurred now to the young soldier that Aulus would not
have dared, perhaps, to carry off forcibly a girl given him,
Vinicius, by Caesar. Besides, who would dare? Would that
gigantic blue-eyed Lygian, who had the courage to enter the
triclinium and carry her from the feast on his arm? But where
could he hide with her; whither could he take her? No! a slave
would not have ventured that far. Hence no one had done the deed
except Caesar.
At this thought it grew dark in his eyes, and drops of sweat covered
his forehead. In that case Lygia was lost to him forever. It was
possible to wrest her from the hands of any one else, but not from
the hands of Caesar. Now, with greater truth than ever, could he
exclaim, "Vaqe misere mihi!" His imagination represented Lygia
in Nero's arms, and, for the first time in life, he understood that
there are thoughts which are simply beyond man's endurance. He
knew then, for the first time, how he loved her. As his whole life
flashes through the memory of a drowning man, so Lygia began to
pass through his. Fle saw her, heard every word of hers, -- saw her
at the fountain, saw her at the house of Aulus, and at the feast; felt
her near him, felt the odor of her hair, the warmth of her body, the
delight of the kisses which at the feast he had pressed on her
innocent lips. She seemed to him a hundred times sweeter, more
beautiful, more desired than ever, -- a hundred times more the only
one, the one chosen from among all mortals and divinities. And
when he thought that all this which had become so fixed in his
heart, which had become his blood and life, might be possessed by
Nero, a pain seized him, which was purely physical, and so
piercing that he wanted to beat his head against the wall of the
atrium, until he should break it. He felt that he might go mad; and
he would have gone mad beyond doubt, had not vengealice
remained to him. But as hitherto he had thought that he could not
live unless he got Lygia, he thought now that he would not die till
he had avenged her. This gave him a certain kind of comfort. '~I
will be thy Cassius Chaerea!"' said he to himself in thinking of
Nero. After a while, seizing earth in his hands from the flower
vases surrounding the impluvium, he made a dreadful vow to
Erebus, Hecate, and his own household lares, that he would have
vengeance.
And he received a sort of consolation. He had at least something to
live for and something with which to fill his nights and days. Then,
dropping his idea of visiting Aulus, he gave command to bear him
to the Palatine. Along the way he concluded that if they would not
admit him to Caesar, or if they should try to find weapons on his
person, it would be a proof that Caesar had taken Lygia. He had no
weapons with him. He had lost presence of mind in general; but as
is usual with persons possessed by a single idea, he preserved it in
that which concerned his revenge. He did not wish his desire of
revenge to fall away prematurely. He wished above all to see Acte,
for he expected to learn the truth from her. At moments the hope
flashed on him that he might see Lygia also, and at that thought he
began to tremble. For if Caesar had carried her away without
knowledge of whom he was taking, he might return her that day.
But after a while he cast aside this supposition. Had there been a
wish to return her to him, she would have been sent yesterday.
Acte was the only person who could explain everything, and there
was need to see her before others.
Convinced of this, he commanded the slaves to hasten; and along
the road he thought without order, now of Lygia, now of revenge.
He had heard that Egyptian priests of the goddess Pasht could
bring disease on whomever they wished, and he determined to
learn the means of doing this. In the Orient they had told him, too,
that Jews have certain invocations by which they cover their
enemies' bodies with ulcers. He had a number of Jews among his
domestic slaves; hence he promised himself to torture them on his
return till they divulged the secret. He found most delight,
however, in thinking of the short Roman sword which lets out a
stream of blood such as had gushed from Caius Caligula and made
ineffaceable stains on the columns of the portico. He was ready to
exterminate all Rome; and had vengeful gods promised that all
people should die except him and Lygia, he would have accepted
the promise.
In front of the arch he regained presence of mind, and thought
when he saw the pretorian guard, "If they make the least difficulty
in admitting me, they will prove that Lygia is in the palace by the
will of Caesar."
But the chief centurion smiled at him in a friendly manner, then
advanced a number of steps, and said, -- "A greeting, noble
tribune. If thou desire to give an obeisance to Caesar, thou hast
found an unfortunate moment. I do not think that thou wilt be able
to see him."
"What has happened?" inquired Vinicius.
"The infant Augusta fell ill yesterday on a sudden. Caesar and the
august Poppsea are attending her, with physicians whom they have
summoned from the whole city."
This was an important event. When that daughter was born to him,
Caesar was simply wild from delight, and received her with extra
humanism gaudium. Previously the senate had committed the
womb of Poppae to the gods with the utmost solemnity. A votive
offering was made at Antium, where the delivery took place;
splendid games were celebrated, and besides a temple was erected
to the two Fortunes. Nero, unable to be moderate in anything,
loved the infant beyond measure; to Poppae the child was dear
also, even for this, that it strengthened her position and made her
influence irresistible.
The fate of the whole empire might depend on the health and life
of the infant Augusta; but Vinicius was so occupied with himself,
his own case and his love, that without paying attention to the
news of the centurion he answered, "I only wish to see Acte." And
he passed in.
But Acte was occupied also near the child, and he had to wait a
long time to see her. She came only about midday, with a face pale
and wearied, which grew paler still at sight of Vinicius.
"Acre!" cried Vinicius, seizing her hand and drawing her to the
middle of the atrium, "where is Lygia?"
"I wanted to ask thee touching that," answered she, looking him in
the eyes with reproach.
But though he had promised himself to inquire of her calmly, he
pressed his head with his hands again, and said, with a face
distorted by pain and anger, -- "She is gone. She was taken from
me on the way!"
After a while, however, he recovered, and thrusting his face up to
Acte's, said through his set teeth, -- "Acte! If life be dear to thee, if
thou wish not to cause misfortunes which
thou are unable even to imagine, answer me truly. Did Caesar take
her?" "Caesar did not leave the palace yesterday."
"By the shade of thy mother, by all the gods, is she not in the
palace?"
"By the shade of my mother, Marcus, she is not in the palace, and
Caesar did not intercept her. The infant Augusta is ill since
yesterday, and Nero has not left her cradle."
Vinicius drew breath. That which had seemed the most terrible
ceased to threaten him.
"Ah, then," said he, sitting on the bench and clinching his fists,
"Aulus intercepted her, and in that case woe to him!"
"Aulus Plautius was here this morning. He could not see me, for I
was occupied with the child; but he inquired of Epaphroditus, and
others of Caesar's servants, touching Lygia, and told them that he
would come again to see me."
"He wished to turn suspicion from himself. If he knew not what
happened, he would have come to seek Lygia in my house."
"He left a few words on a tablet, from which thou wilt see that,
knowing Lygia to have been taken from his house by Caesar, at thy
request and that of Petronius, he expected that she would be sent to
thee, and this morning early he was at thy house, where they told
him what had happened."
When she had said this, she went to the cubiculum and returned
soon with the tablet which Aulus had left.
Vinicius read the tablet, and was silent; Acte seemed to read the
thoughts on his gloomy face, for she said after a while, -- "No,
Marcus. That has happened which Lygia herself wished." "It was
known to thee that she wished to flee!" burst out Vinicius. "I knew
that she would not become thy concubine." And she looked at him
with her misty eyes almost sternly. "And thou, -- what hast thou
been all thy life?" "I was a slave, first of all."
But Vinicius did not cease to be enraged. Caesar had given him
Lygia; hence he had no need to inquire what she had been before.
He would find her, even under the earth, and he would do what he
liked with her. He would indeed! She should be his concubine. He
would give command to flog her as often as he pleased. If she
grew distasteful to him, he would give her to the lowest of his
slaves, or he would command her to turn a handmill on his lands in
Africa. He would seek her out now, and find her only to bend her,
to trample on her, and conquer her.
And, growing more and more excited, he lost every sense of
measure, to the degree that even Acte saw that he was promising
more than he could execute; that he was talking because of pain
and anger. She might have had even compassion on him, but his
extravagance exhausted her patience, and at last she inquired why
he had come to her.
Vinieius did not find an answer immediately. He had come to her
because he wished to come, because he judged that she would give
him information; but really he had come to Caesar, and, not being
able to see him, he came to her. Lygia, by fleeing, opposed the will
of Caesar; hence he would implore him to give an order to search
for her throughout the city and the empire, even if it came to using
for that purpose all the legions, and to ransacking in turn every
house within Roman dominion. Petronius would support his
prayer, and the search would begin from that day.
"Have a care," answered Acte, "lest thou lose her forever the
moment she is found, at command of Ciesar."
Vinicius wrinkled his brows. "What does that mean?" inquired he.
"Listen to me, Marcus. Yesterday Lygia and I were in the gardens
here, and we met Popp~ra, with the infant Augusta, borne by an
African woman, Liith. In the evening the child fell ill, and Liith
insists that she was bewitched; that that foreign woman whom they
met in the garden bewitched her. Should the child recover, they
will forget this, but in the opposite case Poppae will be the first to
accuse Lygia of witchcraft, and wherever she is found there will be
no rescue for her."
A moment of silence followed; then Vinicius said, -- "But perhaps
she did bewitch her, and has bewitched me."
"Lilith repeats that the child began to cry the moment she carried
her past us. And really the child did begin to cry. It is certain that
she was sick when they took her out of the garden. Marcus, seek
for Lygia whenever it may please thee, but till the infant Augusta
recovers, speak not of her to Caesar, or thou wilt bring on her
Poppaea's vengeance. Her eyes have wept enough because of thee
already, and may all the gods guard her poor head."
"Dost thou love her, Acte?" inquired Vinicius, gloomily.
"Yes, I love her." And tears glittered in the eyes of the
freedwoman.
"Thou lovest her because she has not repaid thee with hatred, as
she has me." Acre looked at him for a time as if hesitating, or as if
wishing to learn if he spoke sincerely; then she said, -- "O blind
and passionate man -- she loved thee." Vinicius sprang up under
the influence of those words, as if possessed. "It is not true."
She hated him. How could Acte know? Would Lygia make a
confession to her after one day's acquaintance? What love is that
which prefers wandering, the disgrace of poverty, the uncertainty
of to-morrow, or a shameful death even, to a wreath-bedecked
house, in which a lover is waiting with a feast? It is better for him
not to hear such things, for he is ready to go mad. He would not
have given that girl for all Caesar's treasures, and she fled. What
kind of love is that which dreads delight and gives pain? Who can
understand it? Who can fathom it? Were it not for the hope that he
should find her, he would sink a sword in himself. Love
surrenders; it does not take away. There were moments at the
house of Aulus when he himself believed in near happiness, but
now he knows that she hated him, that she hates him, and will die
with hatred in her heart.
But Acte, usually mild and timid, burst forth in her turn with
indignation. How had he tried to win Lygia? Instead of bowing
before Aulus and Pomponia to get her, he took the child away
from her parents by stratagem. He wanted to make, not a wife, but
a concubine of her, the foster daughter of an honorable house, and
the daughter of a king. He had her brought to this abode of crime
and infamy; he defiled her innocent eyes with the sight of a
shameful feast; he acted with her as with a wanton. Had he
forgotten the house of Aulus and Pomponia Graecina, who had
reared Lygia? Had he not sense enough to understand that there are
women different from Nigidia or Calvia Crispinilla or Poppae, and
from all those whom he meets in Caesar's house? Did he not
understand at once on seeing Lygia that she is an honest maiden,
who prefers death to infamy? Whence does he know what kind of
gods she worships, and whether they are not purer and better than
the wanton Venus, or than Isis, worshipped by the profligate
women of Rome? No! Lygia had made no confession to her, but
she had said that she looked for rescue to him, to Vinicius: she had
hoped that he would obtain for her permission from Caesar to
return home, that he would restore her to Pomponia. And while
speaking of this, Lygia blushed like a maiden who loves and trusts.
Lygia's heart beat for him; but he, Vinicius, had terrified and
offended her; had made her indignant; let him seek her now with
the aid of Caesar's soldiers, but let him know that should Poppaea's
child die, suspicion will fall on Lygia, whose destruction will then
be inevitable.
Emotion began to force its way through the anger and pain of
Vinicius. The information that he was loved by Lygia shook him to
the depth of his soul. He remembered her in Aulus's garden, when
she was listening to his words with blushes on her face and her
eyes full of light. It seemed to him ~hen that she had begun to love
him; and all at once, at that thought, a feeling of certain happiness
embraced him, a hundred times greater than that which he desired.
He thought that he might have won her gradually, and besides as
one loving him. She would have wreathed his door, rubbed it with
wolf's fat, and then sat as his wife by his hearth on the sheepskin.
He would have heard from her mouth the sacramental: "Where
thou art, Caius, there am I, Caia." And she would have been his
forever. Why did he not act thus? True, he had been ready so to
act. But now she is gone, and it may be impossible to find her; and
should he find her, perhaps he will cause her death, and should he
not cause her death, neither she nor Aulus nor Pomponia Graecina
will favor him. Here anger raised the hair on his head again; but
his anger turned now, not against the house of Aulus, or Lygia, but
against Petronius. Petronius was to blame for everything. Had it
not been for him Lygia would not have been forced to wander; she
would be his betrothed, and no danger would be hanging over her
dear head. But now all is past, and it is too late to correct the evil
which will not yield to correction.
"Too late!" And it seemed to him that a gulf had opened before his
feet. He did not know what to begin, how to proceed, whither to
betake himself. Acte repeated as an echo the words, "Too late,"
which from another's mouth sounded like a death sentence. He
understood one thing, however, that he must find Lygia, or
something evil would happen to him.
And wrapping himself mechanically in his toga, he was about to
depart without taking farewell even of Acte, when suddenly the
curtain separating the entrance from the atrium was pushed aside,
and he saw before him the pensive figure of Pomponia Gnecina.
Evidently she too had heard of the disappearance of Lygia, and,
judging that she could see Acte more easily than Aulus, had conic
for news to her.
But, seeing Vinicius, she turned her pale, delicate face to him, and
said, after a pause, -- "May God forgive thee the wrong, Marcus,
which thou hast done to us and to Lygia."
He stood with drooping head, with a feeling of misfortune and
guilt, not understanding what God was to forgive him or could
forgive him. Pomponia had no cause to mention forgiveness; she
ought to have spoken of revenge.
At last he went out with a head devoid of counsel, full of grievous
thoughts, immense care, and amazement.
In the court and under the gallery were crowds of anxious people.
Among slaves of the palace were knights and senators who had
come to inquire about the health of the infant, and at the same time
to show themselves in the palace, and exhibit a proof of their
anxiety, even in presence of Nero's slaves. News of the illness of
the "divine" had spread quickly it was evident, for new forms
appeared in the gateway every moment, and through the opening
of the arcade whole crowds were visible. Some of the newly
arrived, seeing that Vinicius was coming from the palace, attacked
him for news; but he hurried on without answering their questions,
till Petronius, who had come for news too, almost struck his breast
and stopped him.
Beyond doubt Vinicius would have become enraged at sight of
Petronius, and let himself do some lawless act in Caesar's palace,
had it not been that when he had left Acte he was so crushed, so
weighed down and exhausted, that for the moment even his innate
irascibility had left him. He pushed Petronius aside and wished to
pass; but the other detained him, by force almost.
"How is the divine infant?" asked he.
But this constraint angered Vinicius a second time, and roused his
indignation in an instant.
"May Hades swallow her and all this house!" said he, gritting his
teeth.
"Silence, hapless man!" said Petronius, and looking around he
added hurriedly, -- "If thou wish to know something of Lygia,
come with me; I will tell nothing here! Come with me; I will tell
my thoughts in the litter."
And putting his arm around the young tribune, he conducted him
from the palace as quickly as possible. That was his main concern,
for he had no news whatever; but being a man of resources, and
having, in spite of his indignation of yesterday, much sympathy for
Vinicius, and finally feeling responsible for all that had happened,
he had undertaken something already, and when they entered the
litter he said, -- "I have commanded my slaves to watch at every
gate. I gave them an accurate description of the girl, and that giant
who bore her from the feast at Caesar's, -- for he is the man,
beyond doubt, who intercepted her. Listen to me: Perhaps Aulus
and Pomponia wish to secrete her in some estate of theirs; in that
case we shall learn the direction in which they took her. If my
slaves do not see her at some gate, we shall know that she is in the
city yet, and shall begin this very day to search in Rome for her."
"Aulus does not know where she is," answered Vinicius. "Art thou
sure of that?"
"I saw Pomponia. She too is looking for her."
"She could not leave the city yesterday, for the gates are closed at
night.
Two of my people are watching at each gate. One is to follow
Lygia and the giant, the other to return at once and inform me. If
she is in the city, we shall find her, for that Lygian is easily
recognized, even by his stature and his shoulders. Thou art lucky
that it was not C~zsar who took her, and I can assure thee that he
did not, for there are no secrets from me on the Palatine."
But Vinicius burst forth in sorrow still more than in anger, and in a
voice broken by emotion told Petronius what he had heard from
Acte, and what new dangers were threatening Lygia, -- dangers so
dreadful that because of them there would be need to hide her
from Poppaea most carefully, in case they discovered her. Then he
reproached Petroruus bitterly for his counsel. Had it not been for
him, everything would have gone differently. Lygia would have
been at the house of Aulus, and he, Vinicius, might have seen her
every day, and he would have been happier at that moment than
Caesar. And carried away as he went on with his narrative, he
yielded more and more to emotion, till at last tears of sorrow and
rage began to fall from his eyes.
Petronius, who had not even thought that the young man could
love and desire to such a degree, when he saw the tears of despair
said to himself, with a certain astonishment, -- "O mighty Lady of
Cyprus, thou alone art ruler of gods and men!"
WHEN they alighted in front of the arbiter's house, the chief of the
atrium answered them that of slaves sent to the gates none had
returned yet. The atriensis had given orders to take food to them,
and a new command, that under penalty of rods they were to watch
carefully all who left the city.
"Thou seest," said Petronius, "that they are in Rome, beyond doubt,
and in that case we shall find them. But command thy people also
to watch at the gates, -- those, namely, who were sent for Lygia, as
they will recognize her easily."
"I have given orders to send them to rural prisons," said Vinicius,
"but I will recall the orders at once, and let them go to the gates."
And writing a few words on a wax-covered tablet, he handed it to
Petronius, who gave directions to send it at once to the house of
Vinicius. Then they passed into the interior portico, and, sitting on
a marble bench, began to talk. The golden-haired Eunice and has
pushed bronze footstools under their feet, and poured wine for
them into goblets, out of wonderful narrow-necked pitchers from
Volaterr~ and Qecina.
"Hast thou among thy people any one who knows that giant
Lygian?" asked Petronius.
"Atacinus and Gulo knew him; but Atacinus fell yesterday at the
litter, and Gulo I killed."
"I am sorry for him," said Petronius. "He carried not only thee, but
me, in his arms."
"I intended to free him," answered Vinicius; "but do not mention
him. Let us speak of Lygia. Rome is a sea--"
"A sea is just the place where men fish for pearls. Of course we
shall not find her to-day, or to-morrow, but we shall find her
surely. Thou hast accused me just now of giving thee this method;
but the method was good in itself, and became bad only when
turned to bad. Thou hast heard from Aulus himself, that he intends
to go to Sicily with his whole family. In that case the girl would be
far from thee."
"I should follow them," said Vinicius, "and in every case she
would be out of danger; but now, if that child dies, Poppae will
believe, and will persuade Caesar, that she died because of Lygia."
"True; that alarmed me, too. But that little doll may recover.
Should she die, we shall find some way of escape."
Here Petronius meditated a while and added, -- "Poppae, it is said,
follows the religion of the Jews, and believes in evil spirits. Caesar
is superstitious. If we spread the report that evil spirits carried
off Lygia, the news will find belief, especially as neither Caesar
nor Aulus Plautius intercepted her; her escape was really
mysterious. The Lygian could not have effected it alone; he must
have had help. And where could a slave find so many people in the
course of one day?"
"Slaves help one another in Rome."
"Some person pays for that with blood at times. True, they support
one another, but not some against others. In this case it was known
that responsibility and punishment would fall on thy people. If
thou give thy people the idea of evil spirits, they will say at once
that they saw such with their own eyes, because that will justify
them in thy sight. Ask one of them, as a test, if he did not see
spirits carrying off Lygia through the air, he will swear at once by
the Aegis of Zeus that he saw them."
Vinicius, who was superstitious also, looked at Petronius with
sudden and great fear.
"If Ursus could not have men to help him, and was not able to take
her alone, who could take her?"
Petronius began to laugh.
"See," said he, "they will believe, since thou art half a believer
thyself. Such is our society, which ridicules the gods. They, too,
will believe, and they will not look for her. Meanwhile we shall
put her away somewhere far off from the city, in some villa of
mine or thine."
"But who could help her?"
"Her co-religionists," answered Petronius.
"Who are they? What deity does she worship? I ought to know that
better than thou."
"Nearly every woman in Rome honors a different one. It is almost
beyond doubt that Pomponia reared her in the religion of that deity
which she herself worships; what one she worships 1 know not.
One thing is certain, that no person has seen her make an offering
to our gods in any temple. They have accused her even of being a
Christian; but that is not possible; a domestic tribunal cleared her
of the charge. They say that Christians not only worship an ass's
head, but are enemies of the human race, and permit the foulest
crimes. Pomponia cannot be a Christian, as her virtue is known,
and an enemy of the human race could not treat slaves as she
does."
"In no house are they treated as at Aulus's," interrupted Vinicius.
"Ah! Pomponia mentioned to me sonie god, who must be one
powerful and merciful. Where she has put away all the others is
her affair; it is enough that that Logos of hers cannot be very
mighty, or rather he must be a very weak god, since he has had
only two adherents, -- Pomponia and Lygia, -- and Ursus in
addition. It must be that there are more of those adherents, and that
they assisted Lygia."
"That faith commands forgiveness," said Vinicius. "At Acte's I met
Pomponia, who said to me: 'May God forgive thee the evil which
thou hast done to us and to Lygia.'"
"Evidently their God is some curator who is very mild. Ha! let him
forgive thee, and in sign of forgiveness return thee the maiden."
"I would offer him a hecatomb to-morrow! I have no wish for
food, or the bath, or sleep. I will take a dark lantern and wander
through the city. Perhaps I shall find her in disguise. I am sick."
Petronius looked at him with commiseration. In fact, there was
blue under his eyes, his pupils were gleaming with fever, his
unshaven beard indicated a dark strip on his firmly outlined jaws,
his hair was in disorder, and he wa~ really like a sick man. Iras and
the golden-haired Eunice looked at him also with sympathy; but he
seemed not to see them, and he and Petronius took no notice
whatever of the slave women, just as they would not have noticed
dogs moving around them.
"Fever is tormenting thee," said Petronius.
"It is."
"Then listen to me. I know not what the doctor has prescribed to
thee, but I know how I should act in thy place. Till this lost one is
found I should seek in another that which for the moment has gone
from me with her. I saw splendid forms at thy villa. Do not
contradict me. I know what love is; and I know that when one is
desired another cannot take her place. But in a beautiful slave it is
possible to find even momentary distraction."
"I do not need it," said Vinicius.
But Petronius, who had for him a real weakness, and who wished
to soften his pain, began to meditate how he might do so.
"Perhaps thine have not for thee the charm of novelty," said he,
after a while (and here he began to look in turn at Iras and Eunice,
and finally he placed his palm on the hip of the golden-haired
Eunice). "Look at this grace! for whom some days since Fonteius
Capiton the younger offered three wonderful boys from
Clazomene. A more beautiful figure than hers even Skopas himself
has not chiselled. I myself cannot tell why I have remained
indifferent to her thus far, since thoughts of Chrysothemis have not
restrained me. Well, I give her to thee; take her for thyself!"
When the golden-haired Eunice heard this, she grew pale in one
moment, and, looking with frightened eyes on Vinicius, seemed to
wait for his answer without breath in her breast.
But he sprang up suddenly, and, pressing his temples with his
hands, said quickly, like a man who is tortured by disease, and will
not hear anything, -- "No, no! I care not for her! I care not for
others! I thank thee, but I do not want her. I will seek that one
through the city. Give command to bring me a Gallic cloak with a
hood. I will go beyond the Tiber -- if I could see even Ursus."
And he hurried away. Petronius, seeing that he could not remain in
one place, did not try to detain him. Taking, however, his refusal
as a temporary dislike for all women save Lygia, and not wishing
his own magnanimity to go for naught, he said, turning to the
slave, -- "Eunice, thou wilt bathe and anoint thyself, then dress:
after that thou wilt go to the house of Vinicius."
But she dropped before him on her knees, and with joined palms
implored him not to remove her from the house. She would not go
to Vinicius, she said. She would rather carry fuel to the
hypocaustum in his house than be chief servant in that of Vinicius.
She would not, she could not go; and she begged him to have pity
on her. Let him give command to flog her daily, only not send her
away.
And trembling like a leaf with fear and excitement, she stretched
her hands to him, while he listened with amazement. A slave who
ventured to beg relief from the fulfilment of a command, who said
"I will not and I cannot," was something so unheard-of in Rome
that Petronius could not believe his own ears at first. Finally he
frowned. He was too refined to be cruel. His slaves, especially in
the department of pleasure, were freer than others, on condition of
performing their service in an exemplary manner, and honoring the
will of their master, like that of a god. In case they failed in these
two respects, he was able not to spare punishment, to which,
according to general custom, they were subject. Since, besides this,
he could not endure opposition, nor anything which ruffled his
calmness, he looked for a while at the kneeling girl, and then said,
-- "Call Tiresias, and return with him."
Eunice rose, trembling, with tears in her eyes, and went out; after a
time she returned with the chief of the atrium, Tiresias, a Cretan.
"Thou wilt take Eunice," said Petronius, "and give her
five-and-twenty lashes, in such fashion, however, as not to harm
her skin."
When he had said this, he passed into the library, and, sitting down
at a table of rose-colored marble, began to work on his "Feast of
Trimaichion." But the flight of Lygia and the illness of the infant
Augusta had disturbed his mind so much that he could not work
long. That illness, above all, was important. It occurred to
Petronius that were Caesar to believe that Lygia had cast spells on
the infant, the responsibility might fall on him also, for the girl had
been brought at his request to the palace. But he could reckon on
this, that at the first interview with Caesar he would be able in
some way to show the utter absurdity of such an idea; he counted a
little, too, on a certain weakness which Poppaea had for him, -- a
weakness hidden carefully, it is true, but not so carefully that he
could not divine it. After a while he shrugged his shoulders at
these fears, and decided to go to the trielinium to strengthen
himself, and then order the litter to bear him once more to the
palace, after that to the Campus Martins, and then to
Chrysothemis.
But on the way to the trielinium at the entrance to the corridor
assigned to servants, he saw unexpectedly the slender form of
Eunice standing, among other slaves, at the wall; and forgetting
that he had given Tiresias no order beyond flogging her, he
wrinkled his brow again, and looked around for the atriensis. Not
seeing him among the servants, he turned to Eunice.
"Hast thou received the lashes?"
She cast herself at his feet a second time, pressed the border of his
toga to her lips, and said, -- "Oh, yes, lord, I have received them!
Oh, yes, lord!" In her voice were heard, as it were, joy and
gratitude. It was clear that she looked on the lashes as a substitute
for her removal from the house, and that now she might stay there.
Petronius, who understood this, wondered at the passionate
resistance of the girl; but he was too deeply versed in human
nature not to know that love alone could call forth such resistance.
"Dost thou love some one in this house?" asked he.
She raised her blue, tearful eyes to him, and answered, in a voice
so low that it was hardly possible to hear her, -- "Yes, lord."
And with those eyes, with that golden hair thrown back, with fear
and hope in her face, she was so beautiful, she looked at him so
entreatingly, that Petronius, who, as a philosopher, had proclaimed
the might of love, and who, as a man of aesthetic nature, had given
homage to all beauty, felt for her a certain species of compassion.
"Whom of those dost thou love?" inquired he, indicating the
servants with his head.
There was no answer to that question. Eunice inclined her head to
his feet and remained motionless.
Petronius looked at the slaves, among whom were beautiful and
stately youths. He could read nothing on any face; on the contrary,
all had certain strange smiles. He looked then for a while on
Eunice lying at his feet, and went in silence to the trielinium.
After he had eaten, he gave command to bear him to the palace,
and then to Chrysothemis, with whom he remained till late at
night. But when he returned, he gave command to call Tiresias.
"Did Eunice receive the flogging?" inquired he.
"She did, lord. Thou didst not let the skin be cut, however."
"Did I give no other command touching her?"
"No, lord," answered the atriensis with alarm.
"That is well. Whom of the slaves does she love?"
"No one, lord."
"What dost thou know of her?"
Tiresias began to speak in a somewhat uncertain voice:
"At night Eunice never leaves the cuhiculum in which she lives
with old Acrisiona and Ifida; after thou art dressed she never goes
to the bath-rooms. Other slaves ridicule her, and call her Diana."
"Enough," said Petronius. "My relative, Vinicius, to whom I
offered her to-day, did not accept her; hence she may stay in the
house. Thou art free to go."
"Is it permitted me to speak more of Eunice, lord?"
"I have commanded thee to say all thou knowest."
"The whole familia are speaking of the flight of the maiden who
was to dwell in the house of the noble Vinicius. After thy
departure, Eunice came to me and said that she knew a man who
could find her."
"Ah! What kind of man is he?"
"I know not, lord; but I thought that I ought to inform thee of this
matter."
"That is well. Let that man wait to-morrow in my house for the
arrival of the tribune, whom thou wilt request in my name to meet
me here."
The atriensis bowed and went out. But Petronius began to think of
Eunice. At first it seemed clear to him that the young slave wished
Vinicius to find Lygia for this reason only, that she would not be
forced from his house. Afterward, however, it occurred to him that
the man whom Eunice was pushing forward might be her lover,
and all at once that thought seemed to him disagreeable. There
was, it is true, a simple way of learning the truth, for it was enough
to summon Eunice; but the hour was late, Petronius felt tired after
his long visit with Chrysothemis, and was in a hurry to sleep. But
on the way to the cubiculum he remembered -- it is unknown why
-- that he had noticed wrinkles, that day, in the corners of
Chrysothemis's eyes. He thought, also, that her beauty was more
celebrated in Rome than it deserved; and that Fonteius Capiton,
who had offered him three boys from Clazomenc for Eunice,
wanted to buy her too cheaply.
NEXT morning, Petronius had barely finished dressing in the
unctorium when Vinicius came, called by Tiresias. He knew that
no news had come from the gates. This information, instead of
comforting him, as a proof that Lygia was still in Rome, weighed
him down still more, for he began to think that Ursus might have
conducted her out of the city immediately after her seizure, and
hence before Petronius's slaves had begun to keep watch at the
gates. It is true that in autumn, when the days become shorter, the
gates are closed rather early; but it is true, also, that they are
opened for persons going out, and the number of these is
considerable. It was possible, also, to pass the walls by other ways,
well known, for instance, to slaves who wish to escape from the
city. Vinicius had sent out his people to all roads leading to the
provinces, to watchmen in the smaller towns, proclaiming a pair of
fugitive slaves, with a detailed description of Ursus and Lygia,
coupled with the offer of a reward for seizing them. But it was
doubtful whether that pursuit would reach the fugitives; and even
should it reach them, whether the local authorities would feel
justified in making the arrest at the private instance of Vinicius,
without the support of a pretor. Indeed, there had not been time to
obtain such support. Vinicius himself, disguised as a slave, had
sought Lygia the whole day before, through every corner of the
city, but had been unable to find the least indication or trace of
her. He had seen Aulus's servants, it is true; but they seemed to be
seeking something also, and that confirmed him in the belief that it
was not Aulus who had intercepted the maiden, and that the old
general did not know what had happened to her.
When Tiresias announced to him, then, that there was a man who
would undertake to find Lygia, he hurried with all speed to the
house of Petronius; and barely had he finished saluting his uncle,
when he inquired for the man.
"We shall see him at once, Eunice knows him," said Petronius.
"She will come this moment to arrange the folds of my toga, and
will give nearer information concerning him."
"Oh! she whom thou hadst the wish to bestow on me yesterday?"
"The one whom thou didst reject; for which I am grateful, for she
is the best vestiplica in the whole city."
In fact, the vestiplica came in before he had finished speaking, and
taking the toga, laid on a chair inlaid with pearl, she opened the
garment to throw it on Petronius's shoulder. Her face was clear and
calm; joy was in her eyes.
Petronius looked at her. She seemed to him very beautiful. After a
while, when she had covered him with the toga, she began to
arrange it, bending at times to lengthen the folds. 1-Je noticed that
her arms had a marvellous pale rose--color, and her bosom and
shoulders the transparent reflections of pearl or alabaster.
"Eunice," said he, "has the man come to Tiresias whom thou didst
mention yesterday?"
"He has, lord."
"What is his name?"
"Chilo Chilonides."
"Who is he?"
"A physician, a sage, a soothsayer, who knows how to read
people's fates and predict the future."
"Has he predicted the future to thee?"
Eunice was covered with a blush which gave a rosy color to her
ears and her neck even.
"Yes, lord."
"What has he predicted?"
"That pain and happiness would meet me."
"Pain met thee yesterday at the hands of Tiresias; hence happiness
also should come."
"It has come, lord, already."
"What?"
"I remain," said she in a whisper.
Petronius put his hand on her golden head.
"Thou hast arranged the folds well to-day, and I am satisfied with
thee, Eunice."
Under that touch her eyes were mist-covered in one instant from
happiness, and her bosom began to heave quickly.
Petronius and Vinicius passed into the atrium, where Chio
Chilonides was waiting. When he saw them, he made a low bow.
A smile came to the lips of Petronius at thought of his suspicion of
yesterday, that this man might be Eunice's lover. The man who was
standing before him could not be any one's lover. In that
marvellous figure there was something both foul and ridiculous.
He was not old; in his dirty beard and curly locks a gray hair shone
here and there. He had a lank stomach and stooping shoulders, so
that at the first cast of the eye he appeared to be hunchbacked;
above that hump rose a large head, with the face of a monkey and
also of a fox; the eye was penetrating. His yellowish complexion
was varied with pimples; and his nose, covered with them
completely, might indicate too great a love for the bottle. His
neglected apparel, composed of a dark tunic of goat's wool and a
mantle of similar material with holes in it, showed real or
simulated poverty. At sight of him, Homer's Thersites came to the
mind of Petronius. Hence, answering with a wave of the hand to
his bow, he said, -- "A greeting, divine Thersites! How are the
lumps which Ulysses gave thee at Troy, and what is he doing
himself in the Elysian Fields?"
"Noble lord," answered Chilo Chionides, "Ulysses, the wisest of
the dead, sends a greeting through me to Petronius, the wisest of
the living, and the request to cover my lumps with a new mantle."
"By Hecate Triformis!" exclaimed Petronius, "the answer deserves
a new mantle."
But further conversation was interrupted by the impatient Vinicius,
who inquired directly, -- "Dost thou know clearly what thou art
undertaking?" "When two households in two lordly mansions
speak of naught else, and when half Rome is repeating the news, it
is not difficult to know," answered Chio. "The night before last a
maiden named Lygia, but specially Callina, and reared in the house
of Aulus Plautius, was intercepted. Thy slaves were conducting
her, O lord, from Caesar's palace to thy 'insula,' and I undertake to
find her in the city, or, if she has left the city -- which is little
likely -- to indicate to thee, noble tribune, whither she has fled and
where she has hidden."
"That is well," said Vinicius, who was pleased with the precision
of the answer. "What means hast thou to do this?"
Chilo smiled cunningly. "Thou hast the means, lord; I have the wit
only."
Petronius smiled also, for he was perfectly satisfied with his guest.
"That man can find the maiden," thought he. Meanwhile Vinicius
wrinkled his joined brows, and said, -- "Wretch, in case thou
deceive me for gain, I will give command to beat thee with clubs."
"I am a philosopher, lord, and a philosopher cannot be greedy of
gain, especially of such as thou hast just offered magnanimously."
"Oh, art thou a philosopher?" inquired Petronius. "Eunice told me
that thou art a physician and a soothsayer. Whence knowest thou
Eunice?"
"She came to me for aid, for my fame struck her ears."
"What aid did she want?"
"Aid in love, lord. She wanted to be cured of unrequited love."
"Didst thou cure her?"
"I did more, lord. I gave her an amulet which secures mutuality. In
Paphos, on the island of Cyprus, is a temple, O lord, in which is
preserved a zone of Venus. I gave her two threads from that zone,
enclosed in an almond shell."
"And didst thou make her pay well for them?"
"One can never pay enough for mutuality, and I, who lack two
fingers on my right hand, am collecting money to buy a slave
copyist to write down my thoughts, and preserve my wisdom f or
mankind."
"Of what school art thou, divine sage?"
"I am a Cynic, lord, because I wear a tattered mantle; I am a Stoic,
because I bear poverty patiently; I am a Peripatetic, for, not
owning a litter, I go on foot from one wine-shop to another, and on
the way teach those who promise to pay for a pitcher of wine."
"And at the pitcher thou dost become a rhetor?"
"Heraclitus declares that 'all is fluid,' and canst thou deny, lord,
that wine is fluid?"
"And he declared that fire is a divinity; divinity, therefore, is
blushing in thy nose."
"But the divine Diogenes from Apollonia declared that air is the
essence of things, and the warmer the air the more perfect the
beings it makes, and from the warmest come the souls of sages.
And since the autumns are cold,a genuine sage should warm his
soul with wine; and wouldst thou hinder,
O lord, a pitcher of even the stuff produced in Capua or Telesia
from bearing heat to all the bones of a perishable human body?"
"Chilo Chionides, where is thy birthplace?"
"On the Euxine Pontus. I come from Mesembria."
"Oh, Chio, thou art great!"
"And unrecognized," said the sage, pensively.
But Vinicius was impatient again. In view of the hope which had
gleamed before him, he wished Chilo to set out at once on his
work; hence the whole conversation seemed to him simply a vain
loss of time, and he was angry at Petronius.
"When wilt thou begin the search?" asked he, turning to the Greek.
"I have begun it already," answered Chio. "And since I am here,
and answering thy affable question, I am searching yet. Only have
confidence, honored tribune, and know that if thou wert to lose the
string of thy sandal I should find it, or him who picked it up on the
street."
"Hast thou been employed in similar services?" asked Petronius.
The Greek raised his eyes. "To-day men esteem virtue and wisdom
too low, for a philosopher not to be forced to seek other means of
living."
"What are thy means?"
"To know everything, and to serve those with news who are in
need of it."
"And who pay for it?"
"Ah, lord, I need to buy a copyist. Otherwise my wisdom will
perish with me."
"If thou hast not collected enough yet to buy a sound mantle, thy
services cannot be very famous."
"Modesty hinders me. But remember, lord, that to-day there are
not such benefactors as were numerous formerly; and for whom it
was as pleasant to cover service with gold as to swallow an oyster
from Puteoli. No; my services are not small, but the gratitude of
mankind is small. At times, when a valued slave escapes, who will
find him, if not the only son of my father? When on the walls there
are inscriptions against the divine Poppae, who will indicate those
who composed them? Who will discover at the book-stalls verses
against Caesar? Who will declare what is said in the houses of
knights and senators? Who will carry letters which the writers will
not intrust to slaves? Who will listen to news at the doors of
barbers? For whom have wine-shops and bake-shops no secret? In
whom do slaves trust? Who can see through every house, from the
atrium to the garden? Who knows every street, every alley and
hiding-place? Who knows what they say in the baths, in the Circus,
in the markets, in the fencing-schools, in slave-dealers' sheds, and
even in the arenas?"
"By the gods! enough, noble sage!" cried Petronius; "we are
drowning in thy services, thy virtue, thy wisdom, and thy
eloquence. Enough! We wanted to know who thou art, and we
know!"
But Vinicius was glad, for he thought that this man, like a hound,
once put on the trail, would not stop till he had found out the
hiding-place.
"Well," said he, "dost thou need indications?"
"I need arms."
"Of what kind?" asked Vinicius, with astonishment.
The Greek stretched out one hand; with the other he made the
gesture of counting money.
"Such are the times, lord," said he, with a sigh.
"Thou wilt be the ass, then," said Petronius, "to win the fortress
with bags of gold?"
"I am only a poor philosopher," answered Chilo, with humility; "ye
have the gold."
Vinicius tossed him a purse, which the Greek caught in the air,
though two fingers were lacking on his right hand.
He raised his head then, and said: "I know more than thou thinkest.
I have not come empty-handed. I know that Aulus did not intercept
the maiden, for I have spoken with his slaves. I know that she is
not on the Palatine, for all are occupied with the infant Augusta;
and perhaps I may even divine why ye prefer to search for the
maiden with my help rather than that of the city guards and
Caesar's soldiers. I know that her escape was effected by a servant,
-- a slave coming from the same country as she. He could not find
assistance among slaves, for slaves all stand together, and would
not act against thy slaves. Only a co-religionist would help him."
"Dost hear, Vinicius?" broke in Petronius. "Have I not said the
same, word for word, to thee?"
"That is an honor for me," said Chio. "The maiden, lord,"
continued he, turning again to Vinicius, "worships beyond a doubt
the same divinity as that most virtuous of Roman ladies, that
genuine matron, Pomponia. I have heard this, too, that Pomponia
was tried in her own house for worshipping some kind of foreign
god, but I could not learn from her slaves what god that is, or what
his worshippers are called. If I could learn that, I should go to
them, become the most devoted among them, and gain their
confidence. But thou, lord, who hast passed, as I know too, a
number of days in the house of the noble Aulus, canst thou not
give me some information thereon?"
"I cannot," said Vinicius.
"Ye have asked me long about various things, noble lords, and I
have answered the questions; permit me now to give one. Hast
thou not seen, honored tribune, some statuette, some offering,
some token, some amulet on Pomponia or thy divine Lygia? Hast
thou not seen them making signs to each other, intelligible to them
alone?"
"Signs? Wait! Yes; I saw once that Lygia made a fish on the sand."
"A fish? A-a! O-o-o! Did she do that once, or a number of times?"
"Only once."
"And art thou certain, lord, that she outlined a fish? O-o?"
"Yes," answered Vinicius, with roused curiosity. "Dost thou divine
what that means?"
"Do I divine!" exclaimed Chio. And bowing in sign of farewell, he
added:
"May Fortune scatter on you both equally all gifts, worthy lords!"
"Give command to bring thee a mantle," said Petronius to him at
parting. "Ulysses gives thee thanks for Thersites," said the Greek;
and bowing a second time, he walked out.
"What wilt thou say of that noble sage?" inquired Petronius.
"This, that he will find Lygia," answered Vinicius, with delight;
"but I will say, too, that were there a kingdom of rogues he might
be the king of it."
"Most certainly. I shall make a nearer acquaintance with this stoic;
meanwhile I must give command to perfume the atrium."
But Chilo Chionides, wrapping his new mantle about him, threw
up on his palm, under its folds, the purse received from Vinicius,
and admired both its weight and its jingle. Walking on slowly, and
looking around to see if they were not looking at him from the
house, he passed the portico of Livia, and, reaching the corner of
the Clivus Virbius, turned toward the Subura.
"I must go to Sporus," said he to himself, "and pour out a little
wine to Fortuna. I have found at last what I have been seeking this
long time. He is young, irascible, bounteous as mines in Cyprus,
and ready to give half his fortune for that Lygian linnet. Just such a
man have I been seeking this long time. It is needful, however, to
be on one's guard with him, for the wrinkling of his brow
forebodes no good. Ah! the woif-whelps lord it over the world
to-day! I should fear that Petronius less. O gods! but the trade of
procurer pays better at present than virtue. Ah! she drew a fish on
the sand! If I know what that means, may I choke myself with a
piece of goat's cheese! But I shall know. Fish live under water, and
searching under water is more difficult than on land, ergo he will
pay me separately for this fish. Another such purse and I might
cast aside the beggar's wallet and buy myself a slave. But what
wouldst thou say, Chilo, were I to advise thee to buy not a male
but a female slave? I know thee; I know that thou wouldst consent.
If she were beautiful, like Eunice, for instance, thou thyself
wouldst grow young near her, and at the same time wouldst have
from her a good and certain income. I sold to that poor Eunice two
threads from my old mantle. She is dull; but if Petronius were to
give her to me, I would take her. Yes, yes, Chilo Chilonides, thou
hast lost father and mother, thou art an orphan; therefore buy to
console thee even a female slave. She must indeed live
somewhere, therefore Vinicius will hire her a dwelling, in which
thou too mayest find shelter; she must dress, hence Vinicius will
pay for the dress; and must eat, hence he will support her. Och!
what a hard life! Where are the times in which for an obolus a man
could buy as much pork and beans as he could hold in both hands,
or a piece of goat's entrails as long as the arm of a boy twelve years
old, and filled with blood? But here is that villain Sporus! In the
wine-shop it will be easier to learn something."
Thus conversing, he entered the wine-shop and ordered a pitcher
of "dark" for himself. Seeing the sceptical look of the shopkeeper,
he took a gold coin from his purse, and, putting it on the table,
said, -- "Sporus, I toiled to-day with Seneca from dawn till midday,
and this is what my friend gave me at parting."
The plump eyes of Sporus became plumper still at this sight, and
the wine was soon before Chilo. Moistening his fingers in it, he
drew a fish on the table, and said, -- "Knowest what that means?"
"A fish? Well, a fish, -- yes, that's a fish." "Thou art dull; though
thou dost add so much water to the wine that thou mightst find a
fish in it. This is a symbol which, in the language of philosophers,
means 'the smile of fortune.' If thou hadst divined it, thou too
mightst have made a fortune. Honor philosophy, I tell thee, or I
shall change my wineshop, -- an act to which Petronius, my
personal friend, has been urging me this long time."
FOR a number of days after the interview, Chilo did not show
himself anywhere. Vinicius, since he had learned from Acte that
Lygia loved him, was a hundred times more eager to find her, and
began himself to search. He was unwilling, and also unable, to ask
aid of Caesar, who was in great fear because of the illness of the
infant Augusta.
Sacrifices in the temples did not help, neither did prayers and
offerings, nor the art of physicians, nor all the means of
enchantment to which they turned finally. In a week the child died.
Mourning fell upon the court and Rome. Caesar, who at the birth
of the infant was wild with delight, was wild now from despair,
and, confining himself in his apartments, refused food for two
days; and though the palace was swarming with senators and
Augustians, who hastened with marks of sorrow and sympathy, he
denied audience to every one. The senate assembled in an
extraordinary session, at which the dead child was pronounced
divine. It was decided to rear to her a temple and appoint a special
priest to her service. New sacrifices were offered in other temples
in honor of the deceased; statues of her were cast from precious
metals; and her funeral was one immense solemnity, during which
the people wondered at the unrestrained marks of grief which
Caesar exhibited; they wept with him, stretched out their hands for
gifts, and above all amused themselves with the unparalleled
spectacle.
That death alarmed Petronius. All knew in Rome that Poppae
ascribed it to enchantment. The physicians, who were thus enabled
to explain the vanity of their efforts, supported her; the priests,
whose sacrifices proved powerless, did the same, as well as the
sorcerers, who were trembling for their lives, and also the people.
Petronius was glad now that Lygia had fled; for he wished no evil
to Aulus and Pomponia, and he wished good to himself and
Vinicius; therefore when the cypress, set out before the Palatine as
a sign of mourning, was removed, he went to the reception
appointed for the senators and Augustians to learn how far Nero
had lent ear to reports of spells, and to neutralize results which
might come from his belief.
Knowing Nero, he thought, too, that though he did not believe in
charms, he would feign belief, so as to magnify his own suffering,
and take vengeance on some one, finally, to escape the suspicion
that the gods had begun to punish him for crimes. Petronius did
not think that Caesar could love really and deeply even his own
child; though he loved her passionately, he felt certain, however,
that he would exaggerate his suffering. He was not mistaken. Nero
listened, with stony face and fixed eyes, to the consolation offered
by knights and senators. It was evident that, even if he suffered, he
was thinking of this: What impression would his suffering make
upon others? He was posing as a Niobe, and giving an exhibition
of parental sorrow, as an actor would give it on the stage. He had
not the power even then to endure in his silent and as it were
petrified sorrow, for at moments he made a gesture as if to cast the
dust of the earth on his head, and at moments he groaned deeply;
but seeing Petronius, he sprang up and cried in a tragic voice, so
that all present could hear him, -- "Eheu! And thou art guilty of her
death! At thy advice the evil spirit entered these walls, -- the evil
spirit which, with one look, drew the life from her breast! Woe is
me! Would that my eyes had not seen the light of Helios! Woe is
me! Eheu! eheu!"
And raising his voice still more, he passed into a despairing shout;
but Petronius resolved at that moment to put everything on one
cast of the dice; hence, stretching out his hand, he seized the silk
kerchief which Nero wore around his neck always, and, placing it
on the mouth of the Imperator, said solemnly, -- "Lord, Rome and
the world are benumbed with pain; but do thou preserve thy voice
for us!"
Those present were amazed; Nero himself was amazed for a
moment. Petronius alone was unmoved; he knew too well what he
was doing. He remembered, besides, that Terpnos and Diodorus
had a direct order to close Caesar's mouth whenever he raised his
voice too much and exposed it to danger.
"O Caesar!" continued he, with the same seriousness and sorrow,
"we have suffered an immeasurable loss; let even this treasure of
consolation remain to us!"
Nero's face quivered, and after a while tears came from his eyes.
All at once he rested his hands on Petronius's shoulders, and,
dropping his head on his breast, began to repeat, amid sobs,--
"Thou alone of all thought of this, -- thou alone, O Petronius! thou
alone!" Tigellinus grew yellow from envy; but Petronius
continued, -- "Go to Antium! there she came to the world, there joy
flowed in on thee, there solace will come to thee. Let the sea air
freshen thy divine throat; let thy breast breathe the salt dampness.
We, thy devoted ones, will follow thee everywhere; and when we
assuage thy pain with friendship, thou wilt comfort us with song.
"True!" answered Nero, sadly, "I will write a hymn in her honor,
and compose music for it."
"And then thou wilt find the warm sun in Bai~."
"And afterward -- forgetfulness in Greece."
"In the birthplace of poetry and song."
And his stony, gloomy state of mind passed away gradually, as
clouds pass that are covering the sun; and then a conversation
began which, though full of sadness, yet was full of plans for the
future, -- touching a journey, artistic exhibitions, and even the
receptions required at the promised coming of Tiridates, King of
Armenia. Tigellinus tried, it is true, to bring forward again the
enchantment; but Petronius, sure now of victory, took up the
challenge directly.
"Tigellinus," said he, "dost thou think that enchantments can injure
the gods?"
"Caesar himself has mentioned them," answered the courtier.
"Pain was speaking, not Caesar; but thou -- what is thy opinion of
the matter?"
"The gods are too mighty to be subject to charms."
"Then wouldst thou deny divinity to Caesar and his family?"
"Peractum est!" muttered Eprius Marcellus, standing near,
repeating that shout which the people gave always when a
gladiator in the arena received such a blow that he needed no
other.
Tigellinus gnawed his own anger. Between him and Petronius
there had long existed a rivalry touching Nero. Tigellinus had this
superiority, that Nero acted with less ceremony, or rather with
none whatever in his presence; while thus far Petronius overcame
Tigellinus at every encounter with wit and intellect.
So it happened now. Tigellinus was silent, and simply recorded in
his memory those senators and knights who, when Petronius
withdrew to the depth of the chamber, surrounded him
straightway, supposing that after this incident he would surely be
Casar's first favorite.
Petronius, on leaving the palace, betook himself to Vinicius, and
described his encounter with Caesar and Tigellinus.
"Not only have I turned away danger," said he, "from Aulus
Plautius, Pomponia, and us, but even from Lygia, whom they will
not seek, even for this reason, that I have persuaded Bronzebeard,
the monkey, to go to Antium, and thence to Naples or Bai~ and he
will go. I know that he has not ventured yet to appear in the theatre
publicly; I have known this long time that he intends to do so at
Naples. He is dreaming, moreover, of Greece, where he wants to
sing in all the more prominent cities, and then make a triumphal
entry into Rome, with all the crowns which the 'Gruculi' will
bestow on him. During that time we shall be able to seek Lygia
unhindered and secrete her in safety. But has not our noble
philosopher been here yet?"
"Thy noble philosopher is a cheat. No; he has not shown himself,
and he will not show himself again!"
"But I have a better understanding, if not of his honesty, of his wit.
He rn has drawn blood once from thy purse, and will come even
for this, to draw it a second time."
"Let him beware lest I draw his own blood."
"Draw it not; have patience till thou art convinced surely of his
deceit. Do not give him more money, but promise a liberal reward
if he brings thee certain information. Wilt thou thyself undertake
something?"
"My two freedmen, Nymphidius and Demas, are searching for her
with sixty men. Freedom is promised the slave who finds her.
Besides I have sent out special persons by all roads leading from
Rome to inquire at every inn for the Lygian and the maiden. I
course through the city myself day and night, counting on a chance
meeting."
"Whenever thou hast tidings let me know, for I must go to
Antium."
"I will do so."
"And if thou wake up some morning and say, 'It is not worth while
to torment myself for one girl, and take so much trouble because
of her,' come to Antium. There will be no lack of women there, or
amusement."
Vinicius began to walk with quick steps. Petronius looked f or
some time at him, and said at last, -- "Tell me sincerely, not as a
mad head, who talks something into his brain and excites himself,
but as a man of ~udgmcnt who is answering a friend: Art thou
concerned as much as ever about this Lygia?"
Vinicius stopped a moment, and looked at Petronius as if he had
not seen him before; then he began to walk again. It was evident
that he was restraining an outburst. At last, from a feeling of
helplessness, sorrow, anger, and invincible yearning, two tears
gathered in his eyes, which spoke with greater power to Petronius
than the most eloquent words.
Then, meditating for a moment, he said, -- "It is not Atlas who
carries the world on his shoulders, but woman; and sometimes she
plays with it as with a bail."
"True," said Vinicius.
And they began to take farewell of each other. But at that moment
a slave announced that Chilo Chilonides was waiting in the
antechamber, and begged to be admitted to the presence of the
lord.
Vinicius gave command to admit him immediately, and Petronius
said, -- "Ha! have I not told thee? By Hercules! keep thy calmness;
or he will command thee, not thou him."
"A greeting and honor to the noble tribune of the army, and to
thee, lord," said Chio, entering. "May your happiness be equal to
your fame, and may your fame course through the world from the
pillars of Hercules to the boundaries of the Arsacid~e."
"A greeting, O lawgiver of virtue and wisdom," answered
Petronius. But Vinicius inquired with affected calmness, "What
dost thou bring?" "The first time 1 came I brought thee hope, O
lord; at present, I bring certainty that the maiden will be found."
"That means that thou hast not found her yet?"
"Yes, lord; but I have found what that sign means which she made.
I know who the people are who rescued her, and I know the God
among whose worshippers to seek her."
Vinicius wished to spring from the chair in which he was sitting;
but Petronius placed his hand on his shoulder, and turning to Chio
said, -- "Speak on!"
"Art thou perfectly certain, lord, that she drew a fish on the sand?"
"Yes," burst out Vinicius.
"Then she is a Christian and Christians carried her away." A
moment of silence followed.
"Listen, Chilo," said Petronius. "My relative has predestined to
thee a considerable sum of money for finding the girl, but a no less
considerable number of rods if thou deceive him. In the first case
thou wilt purchase not one, but three scribes; in the second, the
philosophy of all the seven sages, with the addition of thy own,
will not suffice to get thee ointment."
"The maiden is a Christian, lord," cried the Greek.
"Stop, Chilo. Thou art not a dull man. We know that Junia and
Calvia Crispinilla accused Pomponia Graecina of confessing the
Christian superstition; but we know too, that a domestic court
acquitted her. Wouldst thou raise this again? Wouldst thou
persuade us that Pomponia, and with her Lygia, could belong to
the enemies of the human race, to the poisoners of ~ ells and
fountains, to the worshippers of an ass's head, to people who
murder infants and give themselves up to the foulest license?
Think, Chilo, if that thesis which thou art announcing to us will
not rebound as an antithesis on thy own back."
Chilo spread out his arms in sign that that was not his fault, and
then said,-- "Lord, utter in Greek the following sentence: Jesus
Christ, Son of God,
Saviour." 1
"Well, I have uttered it. What comes of that?"
"Now take the first letters of each of those words and put them into
one word."
"Fish!" said Petronius with astonishment.2
"There, that is why fish has become the watchword of the
Christians," answered Chio, proudly.
A moment of silence followed. But there was something so
striking in the conclusions of the Greek that the two friends could
not guard them.. selves from amazement.
"Vinicius, art thou not mistaken?" asked Petronius. "Did Lygia
really draw a fish for thee?"
"By all the infernal gods, one might go mad!" cried the young man,
with excitement. "If she had drawn a bird for me, I should have
said a bird."
"Therefore she is a Christian," repeated Chio.
"This signifies," said Petronius, "that Pomponia and Lygia poison
wells, murder children caught on the street, and give themselves
up to dissoluteness! Folly! Thou, Vinicius, wert at their house for a
time, I was there a little while; but I know Pomponia and Aulus
enough, I know even Lygia enough, to say monstrous and foolish!
If a fish is the symbol of the Christians, which it is difficult really
to deny, and if those women are Christians, then, by Proserpina!
evidently Christians are not what we hold them to be."
"Thou speakest like Socrates, lord," answered Chilo. "Who has
ever examined a Christian? Who has learned their religion? When
I was travelling three years ago from Naples hither to Rome (oh,
why did I not stay in Naples!), a man joined me, whose name was
Glaucus, of whom people said that he was a Christian; but in spite
of that I convinced myself that he was a good and virtuous man."
"Was it not from that virtuous man that thou hast learned now
what the fish means?"
"Unfortunately, lord, on the way, at an inn, some one thrust a knife
into that honorable old man; and his wife and child were carried
away by slave-dealers. I lost in their defence these two fingers;
since, as people say, there is no lack among Christians of miracles,
I hope that the fingers will grow out on my hand again."
"How is that? Hast thou become a Christian?"
"Since yesterday, lord, since yesterday! The fish made me a
Christian. But see what a power there is in it. For some days I shall
be the most zealous of the zealous, SO that they may admit me to
all their secrets; and when they admit me to their secrets, I shall
know where the maiden is hiding. Perhaps then my Christianity
will pay me better than my philosophy. I have made a vow also to
Mercury, that if he helps me to find the maiden, I will sacrifice to
him two heifers of the same size and color and will gild their
horns."
"Then thy Christianity of yesterday and thy philosophy of long
standing permit thee to believe in Mercury?"
"1 believe always in that in which I need to believe; that is my
philosophy, which ought to please Mercury. Unfortunately (ye
know, worthy lords, what a suspicious god he is), he does not trust
the promises even of blameless philosophers, and prefers the
heifers in advance; meanwhile this outlay is immense. Not every
one is a Seneca, and I cannot afford the sacrifice; should the noble
Vinicius, however, wish to give something, on account of that sum
which he promised --"
"Not an obolus, Chilo!" said Petronius, "not an obolus. The bounty
of Vinicius will surpass thy expectations, but only when Lygia is
found, -- that is, when thou shalt indicate to us her hiding-place.
Mercury must trust thee for the two heifers, though I am not
astonished at him for not wishing to do so; in this I recognize his
acuteness."
"Listen to me, worthy lords. The discovery which I have made is
great; for though I have not found the maiden yet, I have found the
way in which I must seek her. Ye have sent freedmen and slaves
throughout the city and into the country; has any one given you a
clew? No! I alone have given one. I tell you more. Among your
slaves there may be Christians, of whom ye have no knowledge,
for this superstition has spread everywhere; and they, instead of
aiding, will betray you. It is unfortunate that they see me here; do
thou therefore, noble Petronius, enjoin silence on Eunice; and thou
too, noble Vinicius, spread a report that I sell thee an ointment
which insures victory in the Circus to horses rubbed with it. I alone
will search for her, and single-handed I will find the fugitives; and
do ye trust in me, and know that whatever I receive in advance will
be for me simply an encouragement, for I shall hope always for
more, and shall feel the greater certainty that the promised reward
will not fail me. Ah, it is true! As a philosopher I despise money,
though neither Seneca, nor even Musonius, nor Cornutus despises
it, though they have not lost fingers in any one's defence, and are
able themselves to write and leave their names to posterity. But,
aside from the slave, whom I intend to buy, and besides Mercury,
to whom I have promised the heifers, -- and ye know how dear
cattle have become in these times, -- the searching itself involves
much outlay. Only listen to me patiently. Well, for the last few
days my feet are wounded from continual walking. I have gone to
wine-shops to talk with people, to bakeries, to butcher-shops, to
dealers in olive oil, and to fishermen. I have run through every
street and alley; I have been in the hiding-places of fugitive slaves;
I have lost money, nearly a hundred ases, in playing mora; I have
been in laundries, in drying-sheds, in cheap kitchens; I have seen
mule-drivers and carvers; I have seen people who cure bladder
complaints and pull teeth; I have talked with dealers in dried figs; I
have been at cemeteries; and do ye know why? This is why; so as
to outline a fish everywhere, look people in the eyes, and hear
what they would say of that sign. For a long time I was unable to
learn anything, till at last I saw an old slave at a fountain. He was
drawing water with a bucket, and weeping. Approaching him, I
asked the cause of his tears. When we had sat down on the steps of
the fountain, he answered that all his life he had been collecting
sestertium after sestertium, to redeem his beloved son; but his
master, a certain Pansa, when the money was
delivered to him, took it, but kept the son in slavery. 'And so I am
weeping,' said the old man, 'for though I repeat, Let the will of God
be done, I, poor sinner, am not able to keep down my tears.' Then,
as if penetrated by a forewarning, I moistened my finger in the
water and drew a fish for him. To this he answered, 'My hope, too,
is in Christ.' I asked him then, 'Hast thou confessed to me by that
sign?' 'I have,' said he; 'and peace be with thee.' I began then to
draw him out, and the honest old man told me everything. His
master, that Pansa, is himself a freedman of the great Pansa; and
he brings stones by the Tiber to Rome, where slaves and hired
persons unload them from the boats, and carry them to buildings in
the night time, so as not to obstruct movement in the streets during
daylight. Among these people many Christians work, and also his
son; as the work is beyond his son's strength, he wished to redeem
him. But Pansa preferred to keep both the money and the slave.
While telling me this, he began again to weep; and I mingled my
tears with his, -- tears came to me easily because of my kind heart,
and the pain in my feet, which I got from walking excessively. I
began also to lament that as I had come from Naples only a few
days since, I knew no one of the brotherhood, and did not know
where they assembled for prayer. He wondered that Christians in
Naples had not given me letters to their brethren in Rome; but I
explained to him that the letters were stolen from me on the road.
Then he told me to come to the river at night, and he would
acquaint me with brethren who would conduct me to houses of
prayer and to elders who govern the Christian cornmunity. When I
heard this, I was so delighted that I gave him the sum needed to
redeem his son, in the hope that the lordly Vinicius would return it
to me twofold."
"Chilo," interrupted Petronius, "in thy narrative falsehood appears
on the surface of truth, as oil does on water. Thou hart brought
important information; I do not deny that. I assert, even, that a
great step is made toward finding Lygia; but do not cover thy news
with falsehood. What is the name of that old man from whom thou
hart learned that the Christians recognize each other through the
sign of a fish?"
"Euricius. A poor, unfortunate old man! He reminded me of
Glaucus, whom I defended from murderers, and he touched me
mainly by this."
"I believe that thou didst discover him, and wilt be able to make
use of the acquaintance; but thou hast given him no money. Thou
hast not given him an as; dost understand me? Thou hast not given
anything."
"But I helped him to lift the bucket, and I spoke of his son with the
greatest sympathy. Yes, lord, what can hide before the penetration
of Petronius? Well, I did not give him money, or rather, I gave it to
him, but only in spirit, in intention, which, had he been a real
philosopher, should have sufficed him. I gave it to him because I
saw that such an act was indispensable and useful; for think, lord,
how this act has won all the Christians at once to me, what access
to them it has opened, and what confidence it has roused in them."
"True," said Petronius, "and it was thy duty to do it."
"For this very reason I have come to get the means to do it."
Petronius turned to Vinicius, -- "Give command to count out to
him five thousand sestertia, but in spirit, in intention."
"I will give thee a young man," said Vinicius, "who will take the
sum necessary; thou wilt say to Euricius that the youth is thy slave,
and thou wilt count out to the old man, in the youth's presence, this
money. Since thou hast brought important tidings, thou wilt
rece.ive the same amount for thyself. Come for the youth and the
money this evening."
"Thou art a real Caesar!" said Chilo. "Permit i-ne, lord, to dedicate
my work to thee; but permit also that this evening I come only for
the money, since Euricius told me that all the boats had been
unloaded, and that new ones would come from Ostia only after
some days. Peace be with you! Thus do Christians take farewell of
one another. I will buy myself a slave woman, -- that is, I wanted
to say a slave man. Fish are caught with a bait, and Christians with
fish. Fax vobiscum! pax! pax! pax!"
1 (Greek Phrase) Iesous Christos, Theou Uios, Soter.
2 (Greek) Ichthus, the Greek word for "fish."
"I send to thee from Antium, by a trusty slave, this letter, to which,
though thy hand is more accustomed to the sword and the javelin
than the pen, I think that thou wilt answer through the same
messenger without needless delay. I left thee on a good trail, and
full of hope; hence I trust that thou hast either satisfied thy
pleasant desires in the embraces of Lygia, or wilt satisfy them
before the real wintry wind from the summits of Soracte shall
blow on the Campania. Oh, my Vinicius! may thy preceptress be
the golden goddess of Cyprus; be thou, on thy part, the preceptor
of that Lygian Aurora, who is fleeing before the sun of love. And
remember always that marble, though most precious, is nothing of
itself, and acquires real value only when the sculptor's hand turns it
into a masterpiece. Be thou such a sculptor, carissime! To love is
not sufficient; one must know how to love; one must know how to
teach love. Though the plebs, too, and even animals, experience
pleasure, a genuine man differs from them in this especially, that
he makes love in some way a noble art, and, admiring it, knows all
its divine value, makes it present in his mind, thus satisfying not
his body~ merely, but his soul. More than once, when I think here
of the emptiness, the uncertainty, the dreariness of life, it occurs to
me that perhaps thou hast chosen better, and that not Caesar's
court, but war and love, are the only objects for which it is worth
while to be born and to live.
"Thou wert fortunate in war, be fortunate also in love; and if thou
art curious as to what men are doing at the court of Caesar, I will
inform thee from time to time. We are living here at Antium, and
nursing our heavenly voice; we continue to cherish the same
hatred of Rome, and think of betaking ourselves to Bai~ for the
winter, to appear in public at Naples, whose inhabitants, being
Greeks, will appreciate us better than that wolf brood on the banks
of the Tiber. People will hasten thither from Bait, from Pompeii,
Puteoli, Cumae, and Stabia; neither applause nor crowns will be
lacking, and that will be an encouragement for the proposed
expedition to Achaea.
"But the memory of the infant Augusta? Yes! we are bewailing her
yet. We are singing hymns of our own composition, so wonderful
that the sirens have been hiding from envy in Amphitrite's deepest
caves. But the dolphins would listen to us, were they not prevented
by the sound of the sea. Our suffering is not allayed yet; hence we
will exhibit it to the world in every form which sculpture can
employ, and observe carefully if we are beautiful in our suffering
and if people recognize this beauty. Oh, my dear! we shall die
buffoons and comedians!
"All the Augustians are here, male and female, not counting ten
thousand servants, and five hundred she asses, in whose milk
Poppae bathes. At times even it is cheerful here. Calvia Crispinilla
is growing old. It is said that she has begged Poppza to let her take
the bath immediately after herself. Lucan slapped Nigidia on the
face, because he suspected her of relations with a gladiator. Sporus
lost his wife at dice to Senecio. Torquatus Silanus has offered me
for Eunice four chestnut horses, which this year will win the prize
beyond doubt. I would not accept! Thanks to thee, also, that thou
d~dst not take her. As to Torquarus Silanus, the poor man does not
even suspect that he is already more a shade than a man. His death
is decided. And knowest what his crime is? He is the
great-grandson of the deified Augustus. There is no rescue for him.
Such is our world.
"As is known to thee, we have been expecting Tiridates here;
meanwhile Vologeses has written an offensive letter. Because he
has conquered Armenia, he asks that it be left to him for Tiridates;
if not, he will not yield it in any case. Pure comedy! So we have
decided on war. Corbulo will receive power such as Pompeius
Magnus received in the war with pirates. There was a moment,
however, when Nero hesitated. He seems afraid of the glory which
Corbulo will win in case of victory. It was even thought to offer
the chief command to our Aulus. This was opposed by Poppae, for
whom evidently Pomponia's virtue is as salt in the eye.
"Vatinius described to us a remarkable fight of gladiators, which is
to take place in Beneventum. See to what cobblers rise in our time,
in spite of the saying, 'Ne sutor ultra crepidam!' Vitelius is the
descendant of a cobbler; but Vatinius is the son of one! Perhaps he
drew thread himself! The actor Aliturus represented Oedipus
yesterday wonderfully. I asked him, by the way, as a Jew, if
Christians and Jews were the same. He answered that the Jews
have an eternal religion, but that Christians are a new sect risen
recently in Judea; that in the time of Tiberius the Jews crucified a
certain man, whose adherents increase daily, and that the
Christians consider him as God. They refuse, it seems, to
recognize other gods, ours especially. I cannot understand what
harm it would do them to recognize these gods.
"Tigellinus shows me open enmity now. So far he is unequal to
me; but he is, superior in this, that he cares more for life, and is at
the same time a greater scoundrel, which brings him nearer
Ahenobarbus. These two will understand each other earlier or
later, and then my turn will come. I know not when it will come;
but I know this, that as things are it must come; hence let time
pass. Meanwhile we must amuse ourselves. Life of itself would not
be bad were it not for Bronzebeard. Thanks to him, a man at times
is disgusted with himself. It is not correct to consider the struggle
for his favor as a kind of rivalry in a circus, -- as a kind of game, as
a struggle, in which victory flatters vanity. True, I explain it to
myself in that way frequently; but still it seems to me sometimes
that I am like Chio, and better in nothing than he. When he ceases
to be needful to thee, send him to me. I have taken a fancy to his
edifying conversation. A greeting from me to thy divine Christian,
or rather beg her in my name not to be a fish to thee. Inform me
of thy health, inform me of thy love, know how to love, teach how
to love, and farewell."
Vinscius to Pemonsus:
"Lygia is not found yet! Were it not for the hope that I shall find
her soon, thou wouldst not receive an answer; for when a man is
disgusted with life, he has no wish to write letters. I wanted to
learn whether Chilo was not deceiving me; and at night when he
came to get the money for Euricius, I threw on a military mantle,
and unobserved followed him and the slave whom I sent with him.
When they reached the place, I watched from a distance, hidden
behind a portico pillar, and convinced myself that Euricius was not
invented. Below, a number of tens of people were unloading
stones from a spacious barge, and piling them up on the bank. I
saw Chilo approach them, and begin to talk with some old man,
who after a while fell at his feet. Others surrounded them with
shouts of admiration. Before my eyes the boy gave a purse to
Euricius, who on seizing it began to pray with upraised hands,
while at his side some second person was kneeling, evidently his
son. Chilo said something which I could not hear, and blessed the
two who were kneeling, as well as others, making in the air signs
in the form of a cross, which they honor apparently, f or all bent
their knees. The desire seized me to go among them, and promise
three such purses to him who would deliver to me Lygia; but I
feared to spoil Chio's work, and after hesitating a moment went
home.
"This happened at least twelve days after thy departure. Since then
Chilo has been a number of times with me. He says that he has
gained great significance among the Christians; that if he has not
found Lygia so far, it is because the Christians in Rome are
innumerable, hence all are not acquainted with each person in their
community, and cannot know everything that is done in it. They
are cautious, too, and in general reticent. He gives assurance,
however, that when he reaches the elders, who are called
presbyters, he will learn every secret. He has made the
acquaintance of a number of these already, and has begun to
inquire of them, though carefully, so as not to rouse suspicion by
haste, and not to make the work still more difficult. Though it is
hard to wait, though patience fails, I feel that he is right, and I
wait.
"He learned, too, that they have places of meeting for prayer,
frequently outside the city, in empty houses and even in sandpits.
There they worship Christ, sing hymns, and have feasts. There are
many such places. Chilo supposes that Lygia goes purposely to
different ones from Pomponia, so that the latter, in case of legal
proceedings or an examination, might swear boldly that she knew
nothing of Lygia's hiding-place. It may be that the presbyters have
advised caution. When Chilo discovers those places, I will go with
him; and if the gods let me see Lygia, I swear to thee by Jupiter
that she will not escape my hands this time.
"I am thinking continually of those places of prayer. Chilo is
unwilling that I should go with him; he is afraid. But I cannot stay
at home. I should know her at once, even in disguise or if veiled.
They assemble in the night, but I should recognize her in the night
even. I should know her voice and motions anywhere. I will go
myself in disguise, and look at every person who goes in or out. I
am thinking of her always, and shall recognize her. Chilo is to
come to-morrow, and we shall go. I will take arms. Some of my
slaves sent to the provinces have returned empty-handed. But I am
certain now that she is in the city, perhaps not far away even. I
myself have visited many houses under pretext of renting them.
She will fare better with me a hundred times; where she is, whole
legions of poor people dwell. Besides, I shall spare nothing for her
sake. Thou writest that I have chosen well. I have chosen suffering
and sorrow. We shall go first to those houses which are in the city,
then beyond the gates. Hope looks for something every morning,
otherwise life would be impossible. Thou sayest that one should
know how to love. I knew how to talk of love to Lygia. But now I
only yearn; I do nothing but wait for Chilo. Life to me is
unendurable in my own house. Farewell!"
BUT Chilo did not appear for some time, and Vinicius knew not at
last what to think of his absence. In vain he repeated to himself
that searching, if continued to a certain and successful issue, must
be gradual. His blood and impulsive nature rebelled against the
voice of judgment. To do nothing, to wait, to sit with folded arms,
was so repulsive to him that he could not be reconciled to it in any
way. To search the alleys of the city in the dark garb of a slave,
through this alone, that it was useless, seemed to him merely a
mask for his own inefficiency, and could give no satisfaction. His
freedmen, persons of experience, whom he commanded to search
independently, turned out a hundred times less expert than Chio.
Meanwhile there rose in him, besides his love for Lygla, the
stubbornness of a player resolved to win. Vinicius had been always
a person of this kind. From earliest youth he had accomplished
what he desired with the passionateness of one who does not
understand failure, or the need of yielding something. For a time
military discipline had put his self-will within bounds, but also it
had engrafted into him the conviction that every command of his
to subordinates must be fulfilled; his prolonged stay in the Orient,
among people pliant and inured to slavish obedience, confirmed in
him the faith that for his "I wish" there were no limits. At present
his vanity, too, was wounded painfully. There was, besides, in
Lygia's opposition and resistance, and in her flight itself, which
was to him incomprehensible, a kind of riddle. In trying to solve
this riddle he racked his head terribly. He felt that Acte had told
the truth, and that Lygia was not indifferent. But if this were true,
why had she preferred wandering and misery to his love, his
tenderness, and a residence in his splendid mansion? To this
question he found no answer, and arrived only at a kind of dim
understanding that between him and Lygia, between their ideas,
between the world which belonged to him and Petronius, and the
world of Lygia and Pomponia, there existed some sort of
difference, some kind of misunderstanding as deep as an abyss,
which nothing could fill up or make even. It seemed to him, then,
that he must lose Lygia; and at this thought he lost the remnant of
balance which Petronius wished to preserve in him. There were
moments in which he did not know whether he loved Lygia or
hated her; he understood only that he must find her, and he would
rather that the earth swallowed her than that he should not see and
possess her. By the power of imagination he saw her as clearly at
times as if she had been before his face. He recalled every word
which he had spoken to her; every word which he had heard from
her. He felt her near; felt her on his bosom, in his arms; and then
desire embraced him like a flame. He loved her and called to her.
And when he thought that he was loved, that she might do with
willingness all that he wished of her, sore and endless sorrow
seized him, and a kind of deep tenderness flooded his heart, like a
mighty wave. But there were moments, too, in which he grew pale
from rage, and delighted in thoughts of the humiliation and
tortures which he would inflict on Lygia when he found her. He
wanted not only to have her, but to have her as a trampled slave.
At the same time he felt that if the choice were left him, to be her
slave or not to see her in life again, he would rather be her slave.
There were days in which he thought of the marks which the lash
would leave on her rosy body, and at the same time he wanted to
kiss those marks. It came to his head also that he would be happy
if he could kill her.
In this torture, torment, uncertainty, and suffering, he lost health,
and even beauty. He became a cruel and incomprehensible master.
His slaves, and even his freedmen, approached him with
trembling; and when punishments fell on them causelessly, --
punishments as merciless as undeserved, -- they began to hate him
in secret; while he, feeling this, and feeling his own isolation, took
revenge all the more on them. He restrained himself with Chilo
alone, fearing lest he might cease his searches; the Greek, noting
this, began to gain control of him, and grew more and more
exacting. At first he assured Vinicius at each visit that the affair
would proceed easily and quickly; now he began to discover
difficulties, and without ceasing, it is true, to guarantee the
undoubted success of the searches, he did not hide the fact that
they must continue yet for a good while.
At last he came, after long days of waiting, with a face so gloomy
that the young man grew pale at sight of him, and springing up had
barely strength to ask,-- "Is she not among the Christians?" "She is,
lord," answered Chilo; "but I found Glaucus among them." "Of
what art thou speaking, and who is Glaucus?" "Thou hast
forgotten, lord, it seems, that old man with whom I journeyed from
Naples to Rome, and in whose defence I lost these two fingers, --
a loss which prevents me from writing. Robbers, who bore away
his wife and child, stabbed him with a knife. I left him dying at an
inn in Minturna, and bewailed him long. Alas! I have convinced
myself that he is alive yet, and belongs in Rome to the Christian
community."
Vinicius, who could not understand what the question was,
understood only that Glaucus was becoming a hindrance to the
discovery of Lygia; hence he suppressed his rising anger, and said,
-- "If thou didst defend him, he should be thankful and help thee."
"Ah! worthy tribune, even gods are not always grateful, and what
must the case be with men? True, he should be thankful. But,
unhappily, he is an old man, of a mind weak and darkened by age
and disappointment; for which reason, not only is he not grateful,
but, as I learned from his co-religionists, he accuses me of having
conspired with the robbers, and says that I am the cause of his
misfortunes. That is the recompense for my fingers!"
"Scoundrel! I am certain that it was as he says," replied Vinicius.
"Then thou knowest more than he does, lord, for he only surmises
that it was so; which, however, would not prevent him from
summoning the Christians, and from revenging himself on me
cruelly. He would have done that undoubtedly, and others, with
equal certainty, would have helped him; but fortunately he does
not know my name, and in the house of prayer where we met, he
did not notice me. I, however, knew him at once, and at the first
moment wished to throw myself on his neck. Wisdom, however,
and the habit of thinking before every step which I intend to take,
restrained me. Therefore, on issuing from the house of prayer, I
inquired concerning him, and those who knew him declared that
he was the man who had been betrayed by his comrade on the
journey from Naples. Otherwise I should not have known that he
gives out such a story."
"How does this concern me? Tell what thou sawest in the house of
prayer."
"It does not concern thee, lord, but it concerns me just as much as
my life. Since I wish that my wisdom should survive me, I would
rather renounce the reward which thou hast offered, than expose
my life for empty lucre; without which, I as a true philosopher
shall be able to live and seek divine wisdom."
But Vinicius approached him with an ominous countenance, and
began in a suppressed voice, -- "Who told thee that death would
meet thee sooner at the hands of Glaucus than at mine? Whence
knowest thou, dog, that I will not have thee buried right away in
my garden?"
Chio, who was a coward, looked at Vinicius, and in the twinkle of
an eye understood that one more unguarded word and he was lost
beyond redemption.
"I will search for her, lord, and I will find her!" cried he, hurriedly.
Silence followed, during which were heard the quick breathing of
Vinicius, and the distant song of slaves at work in the garden.
Only after a while did the Greek resume his speech, when he
noticed that the young patrician was somewhat pacified.
"Death passed me, but I looked on it with the calmness of
Socrates. No, lord, I have not said that I refuse to search for the
maiden; I desired merely to tell thee that search for her is
connected now with great peril to me. On a time thou didst doubt
that there was a certain Euricius in the world, and though thou
wert convinced by thine own eyes that the son of my father told the
truth to thee, thou hast suspicions now that I have invented
Glaucus. Ah! would that he were only a fiction, that I might go
among the Christians with perfect safety, as I went some time
since; I would give up for that the poor old slave woman whom I
bought, three days since, to care for my advanced age and maimed
condition. But Glaucus is living, lord; and if he had seen me once,
thou wouldst not have seen me again, and in that case who would
find the maiden?"
Here he was silent again, and began to dry his tears.
"But while Glaucus lives," continued he, "how can I search for
her? -- for I may meet him at any step; and if I meet him I shall
perish, and with me will cease all my searching."
"What art thou aiming at? What help is there? What dost thou wish
to undertake?" inquired Vinicius.
"Aristotle teaches us, lord, that less things should be sacrificed for
greater, and King Priam said frequently that old age was a grievous
burden. Indeed, the burden of old age and misfortune weighs upon
Glaucus this long time, and so heavily that death would be to him
a benefit. For what is death, according to Seneca, but liberation?"
"Play the fool with Petronius, not with me! Tell what thy desire is."
"If virtue is folly, may the gods permit me to be a fool all my life. I
desire, lord, to set aside Glaucus, for while he is living my life and
searches are in continual peril."
"Hire men to beat him to death with clubs; I will pay them."
"They will rob thee, lord, and afterward make profit of the secret.
There are as many ruffians in Rome as grains of sand in the arena,
but thou wilt not believe how dear they are when an honest man
needs to employ their villainy. No, worthy tribune! But if
watchmen catch the murderers in the act? They would tell, beyond
doubt, who hired them, and then thou wouldst have trouble. They
will not point to me, for I shall not give my name. Thou art doing
ill not to trust in me, for, setting aside my keenness, remember that
there is a question of two other things, -- of my life, and the reward
which thou has promised me."
"How much dost thou need?"
"A thousand sestertia, for turn attention to this, that I must find
honest ruffians, men who when they have received earnest money,
will not take it off without a trace. For good work there must be
good pay! Something might be added, too, for my sake, to wipe
away the tears which I shall shed out of pity for Glaucus. I take the
gods to witness how I love him. If I receive a thousand scstcrtia
to-day, two days hence his soul will be in Hades; and then, if souls
preserve memory and the gift of thought, he will know for the first
time how I loved him. I will find people this very day, and tell
them that for each day of the life of Glaucus I will withhold one
hundred sestertia. I have, besides, a certain idea, which seems to
me infallible."
Vinicius promised him once more the desired sum, forbidding him
to mention Glaucus again; but asked what other news he brought,
where he had been all the time, what he had seen, and what he had
discovered. But Chilo was not able to tell much. He had been in
two more houses of prayer,-- had observed each person carefully,
especially the women, -- but had seen no one who resembled
Lygia: the Christians, however, looked on him as one of their own
sect, and, since he redeemed the son of Euricius, they honored him
as a man following in the steps of "Christ." He had learned from
them, also, that a great lawgiver of theirs, a certain Paul of Tarsus,
was in Rome, imprisoned because of charges preferred by the
Jews, and with this man he had resolved to become acquainted.
But most of all was he pleased by this, -- that the supreme priest of
the whole sect, who had been Christ's disciple, and to whom Christ
had confided government over the whole world of Christians,
might arrive in Rome any moment. All the Christians desired
evidently to see him, and hear his teachings. Some great meetings
would follow, at which he, Chio, would be present; and what is
more, since it is easy to hide in the crowd, he would take Vinicius
to those meetings. Then they would find Lygia certainly. If
Glaucus were once set aside, it would not be connected even with
great danger. As to revenge, the Christians, too, would revenge but
in general they were peaceful people.
Here Chilo began to relate, with a certain surprise, that he had
never seen that they gave themselves up to debauchery, that they
poisoned wells or fountains, that they were enemies of the human
race, worshipped an ass, or ate the flesh of children. No; he had
seen nothing of that sort. Certainly he would find among them
even people who would hide away Glaucus for money; but their
religion, as far as he knew, did not incite to crime, -- on the
contrary, it enloined forgiveness of offences.
Vinicius remembered what Pomponia had said to him at Acte's,
and in general he listened to Chio's words with pleasure. Though
his feeling for Lygia assumed at times the seeming of hatred, he
felt a relief when he heard that the religion which she and
Pomponia confessed was neither criminal nor repulsive. But a
species of undefined feeling rose in him that it was just that
reverence for Christ, unknown and mysterious, which created the
difference between himself and Lygia; hence he began at once to
fear that religion and to hate it.
FOR Chio, it was really important to set aside Glaucus, who,
though advanced in years, was by no means decrepit. There was
considerable truth in what Chilo had narrated to Vinicius. He had
known Glaucus on a time, he had betrayed him, sold him to
robbers, deprived him of family, of property, and delivered him to
murder. But he bore the memory of these events easily, for he had
thrown the man aside dying, not at an inn, but in a field near
Minturna. This one thing he had not foreseen, that Glaucus would
be cured of his wounds and come to Rome. When he saw him,
therefore, in the house of prayer, he was in truth terrified, and at
the first moment wished to discontinue the search for Lygia. But
on the other hand, Vinicius terrified him still more. He understood
that he must choose between the fear of Glaucus, and the pursuit
and vengeance of a powerful patrician, to whose aid would come,
beyond doubt, another and still greater, Petronius. In view of this,
Chilo ceased to hesitate. He thought it better to have small
enemies than great ones, and, though his cowardly nature trembled
somewhat at bloody methods, he saw the need of killing Glaucus
through the aid of other hands.
At present the only question with him was the choice of people,
and to this he was turning that thought of which he had made
mention to Vinicius. Spending his nights in wine-shops most
frequently, and lodging in them, among men without a roof,
without faith or honor, he could find persons easily to undertake
any task, and still more easily others who, if they sniffed coin on
his person, would begin, but when they had received earnest
money, would extort the whole sum by threatening to deliver him
to justice. Besides, for a certain time past Chilo had felt a
repulsion for nakedness, for those disgusting and terrible figures
lurking about suspected houses in the Subura or in the
Trans--Tiber. Measuring everything with his own measure, and not
having fathomed sufficiently the Christians or their religion, he
judged that among them, too, he could find willing tools. Since
they seemed more reliable than others, he resolved to turn to them
and present the affair in such fashion that they would undertake it,
not for money's sake merely, but through devotion.
In view of this, he went in the evening to Euricius, whom he knew
as devoted with whole soul to his person, and who, he was sure,
would do all in his power to assist him. Naturally cautious, Chilo
did not even dream of revealing his real intentions, which would
be in clear opposition, moreover, to the faith which the old man
had in his piety and virtue. He wished to find people who were
ready for anything, and to talk with them of the affair only in such
a way that, out of regard to themselves, they would guard it as an
eternal secret.
The old man Euricius, after the redemption of his son, hired one of
those little shops so numerous near the Circus Maximus, in which
were sold olives, beans, unleavened paste, and water sweetened
with honey, to spectators coming to the Circus. Chilo found him at
home arranging his shop; and when he had greeted him in Christ's
name, he began to speak of the affair which had brought him.
Since he had rendered them a service, he considered that they
would pay him with gratitude. He needed two or three strong and
courageous men, to ward off danger threatening not only him, but
all Christians. He was poor, it was true,'since he had given to
Euricius almost all that he owned; still he would pay such men for
their services if they would trust him and perform faithfully what
he commanded.
Euricius and his son Quartus listened to him as their benefactor
almost on their knees. Both declared that they were ready
themselves to do all that he asked of them, believing that a man so
holy could not ask for deeds inconsistent with the teaching of
Christ.
Chilo assured them that that was true, and, raising his eyes to
heaven, he seemed to be praying; in fact, he was thinking whether
it would not be well to accept their proposal, which might save
him a thousand sestertia. But after a moment of thought he
rejected it. Euricius was an old man, perhaps not so much
weighted by years as weakened by care and disease. Quartus was
sixteen years of age. Chilo needed dexterous, and, above all,
stalwart men. As to the thousand sestertia, he considered that --
thanks to the plan which he had invented -- he would be able in
every case to spare a large part of it.
They insisted for some time, but when he refused decisively they
yielded.
"I know the baker Demas," said Quarrus, "in whose mills slaves
and hired men are employed. One of those hired men is so strong
that he would take the place, not of two, but of four. I myself have
seen him lift stones from the ground which four men could not
stir."
"If that is a God-fearing man, who can sacrifice himself for the
brotherhood, make me acquainted with him," said Chilo.
"He is a Christian, lord," answered Quartus; "nearly all who work
for Demas are Christians. He has night as well as day laborers; this
man is of the night laborers. Were we to go flow to the mill, we
should find them at supper, and thou mightest speak to him freely.
Demas lives near the Emporium."
Chilo consented most willingly. The Emporium was at the foot of
the Aventine, hence not very far from the Circus Maximus. It was
possible, without going around the hill, to pass along the river
through the Porticus Aemilia, which would shorten the road
considerably.
"I am old," said Chilo, when they went under the Colonnade; "at
times I suffer effacement of memory. Yes, though our Christ was
betrayed by one of his disciples, the name of the traitor I cannot
recall at this moment --"
"Judas, lord, who hanged himself," answered Quartus, wondering a
little in his soul how it was possible to forget that name.
"Oh, yes -- Judas! I thank thee," said Chilo.
And they went on some time in silence. When they came to the
Emporium, which was closed, they passed it, and going around the
storehouse, from which grain was distributed to the populace, they
turned toward the left, to houses which stretched along the Via
Ostiensis, up to the Mom Tesraceus and the Forum Pistorium.
There they halted before a wooden building, from the interior of
which came' the noise of millstones. Quartus went in; but Chio,
who did not like to show himself to large numbers of people, and
was in continual dread that some fate might bring him to meet
Glaucus, remained outside.
"I am curious about that Hercules who serves in a mill," said he to
himself, looking at the brightly shining moon. "If he is a scoundrel
and a wise man, he will cost me something; if a virtuous Christian
and dull, he will do what 1 want without money."
Further meditation was interrupted by the return of Quartus, who
issued from the building with a second man, wearing only a tunic
called "exomis," cut in such fashion that the right arm and right
breast were exposed. Such garments, since they left perfect
freedom of movement, were used especially by laborers. Chio,
when he saw the man coming, drew a breath of satisfaction, for he
had not seen in his life such an arm and such a breast.
"Here, lord," said Quartus, "is the brother whom it was thy wish to
see."
"May the peace of Christ be with thee!" answered Chio. "Do thou,
Quartus, tell this brother whether I deserve faith and trust, and then
return in the name of God; for there is no need that thy gray-haired
father should be left in loneliness."
"This is a holy man," said Quartus, "who gave all his property to
redeem me from slavery, -- me, a man unknown to him. May our
Lord the Saviour prepare him a heavenly reward therefor!"
The gigantic laborer, hearing this, bent down and kissed Chilo's
hand.
"What is thy name, brother?" inquired the Greek.
"At holy baptism, father, the name Urban was given me."
"Urban, my brother, hast thou time to talk with me freely?"
"Our work begins at midnight, and only now are they preparing our
supper.'
'Then there is time sufficient. Let us go to the river; there thou wilt
hear my words."
They went, and sat on the embankment, in a silence broken only
by the distant sound of the millstones and the plash of the
onflowing river. Chilo looked into the face of the laborer, which,
notwithstanding a somewhat severe and sad expression, such as
was usual on faces of barbarians living in Rome, seemed to him
kind and honest.
"This is a good-natured, dull man who will kill Glaucus for
nothing," thought Chilo.
"Urban," inquired he then, "dost thou love Christ?"
"I love him from the soul of my heart," said the laborer.
"And thy brethren and sisters, and those who taught thee truth and
faith in Christ?"
"I love them, too, father."
"Then may peace be with thee!"
"And with thee, father!"
Again silence set in, but in the distance the millstones were
roaring, and the river was plashing below the two men.
Chilo looked with fixed gaze into the clear moonlight, and with a
slow, restrained voice began to speak of Christ's death. He seemed
not as speaking to Urban, but as if recalling to himself that death,
or some secret which he was confiding to the drowsy city. There
was in this, too, something touching as well as impressive. The
laborer wept; and when Chilo began to groan and complain that in
the moment of the Saviour's passion there was no one to defend
him, if not from crucifixion, at least from the insults of Jews and
soldiers, the gigantic fists of the barbarian began to squeeze from
pity and suppressed rage. The death only moved him; but at
thought of that rabble reviling the Lamb nailed to the cross, the
simple soul in him was indignant, and a wild desire of vengeance
seized the man.
"Urban, dost thou know who Judas was?" asked Chilo, suddenly.
"I know, I know! -- but he hanged himself!" exclaimed the laborer.
And in his voice there was a kind of sorrow that the traitor had
meted out punishment to himself, and that Judas could not fall into
his hands.
"But if he had not hanged himself," continued Chilo, "and if some
Christian were to meet him on land or on sea, would it not be the
duty of that Christian to take revenge for the torment, the blood,
and the death of the Saviour?"
"Who is there who would not take revenge, father?"
"Peace be with thee, faithful servant of the Lamb! True, it is
permitted to forgive wrongs done ourselves; but who has the right
to forgive a wrong done to God? But as a serpent engenders a
serpent, as malice breeds malice, and treason breeds treason, so
from the poison of Judas another traitor has come; and as that one
delivered to Jews and Roman soldiers the Saviour, so this man
who lives among us intends to give Christ's sheep to the wolves;
and if no one will anticipate the treason, if no one will crush the
head of the serpent in time, destruction is waiting for us all, and
with us will perish the honor of the Lamb."
The laborer looked at Chilo with immense alarm, as if not
understanding what he had heard. But the Greek, covering his head
with a corner of his mantle, began to repeat, with a voice coming
as if from beneath the earth, -- "Woe to you, servants of the true
God! woe to you, Christian men and Christian women!"
And again came silence, again were heard only the roar of the
millstones, the deep song of the millers, and the sound of the river.
"Father," asked the laborer at last, "what kind of traitor is that?"
Chilo dropped his head. "What kind of traitor? A son of Judas, a
son of his poison, a man who pretends to be a Christian, and goes
to houses of prayer only to complain of the brotherhood to Caesar,
-- declaring that they will not recognize Caesar as a god; that they
poison fountains, murder children, and wish to destroy the city, so
that one stone may not remain on another. Behold! in a few days a
command will be given to the pretorians to cast old men, women,
and children into prison, and lead them to death, just as they led to
death the slaves of Pedanius Secundus. All this has been done by
that second Judas. But if no one punished the first Judas, if no one
took vengeance on him, if rio one defended Christ in the hour of
torment, who will punish this one, who will destroy the serpent
before Caesar hears him, who will destroy him, who will defend
from destruction our brothers in the faith of Christ?"
Urban, who had been sitting thus far on a stone, stood up on a
sudden, and said,-- "I will, father."
Chilo rose also; he looked for a while on the face of the laborer,
lighted up by the shining of the moon, then, stretching his arm, he
put his hand slowly on his head.
"Go among Christians," said he, with solemnity; "go to the houses
of prayer, and ask the brethren about Glaucus; and when they show
him to thee, slay him at once in Christ's name!"
"About Glaucus?" repeated the laborer, as if wishing to fix that
name in his memory.
"Dost thou know him?"
"No, I do not. There are thousands of Christians in Rome, and they
are not all known to one another. But to-morrow, in Ostrianum,
brethren and sisters will assemble in the night to the last soul,
because a great apostle of Christ has come, who will teach them,
and the brethren will point out to me Glaucus."
"In Ostrianum?" inquired Chilo. "But that is outside the city gates!
The brethren and all the sisters, -- at night? Outside the city gates,
in Ostrianum?"
"Yes, father; that is our cemetery, between the Vi~ Salaria and
Nomentana. Is it not known to thee that the Great Apostle will
teach there?"
"I have been two days from home, hence I did not receive his
epistle; and I do not know where Ostrianum is, for I came here not
long since from Corinth, where I govern a Christian community.
But it is as thou sayest, -- there thou wilt find Glaucus among the
brethren, and thou wilt slay him on the way home to the city. For
this all thy sins will be forgiven. And now peace be with thee --"
"Father --"
"I listen to thee, servant of the Lamb."
On the laborer's face perplexity was evident. Not long before he
had killed a man, and perhaps two, but the teaching of Christ
forbids killing. He had not killed them in his own defence, for
even that is not permitted. He had not killed them, Christ preserve!
for profit. The bishop himself had given him brethren to assist, but
had not permitted him to kill; he had killed inadvertently, for God
had punished him with too much strength. And now he was doing
grievous penance. Others sing when the millstones are grinding;
but he, hapless man, is thinking of his sin, of his offence against
the Lamb. How much has he prayed already and wept? How much
has he implored the Lamb? And he feels that he has not done
penance enough yet! But now he has promised again to kill a
traitor, -- and done well! He is permitted to pardon only offences
against himself; hence he will kill Glaucus, even before the eyes of
all the brethren and sisters, in Ostrianum to-morrow. But let
Glaucus be condemned previously by the elders among the
brethren, by the bishop, or by the Apostle. To kill is not a great
thing; to kill a traitor is even as pleasant as to kill a bear or a wolf.
But suppose Glaucus to perish innocently? How take on his
conscience a new murder, a new sin, a new offence against the
Lamb?
"There is no time for a trial, my son," said Chio. "The traitor will
hurry from Ostrianum straightway to Caesar in Antium, or hide in
the house of a certain patrician whom he is serving. I will give thee
a sign; if thou show it after the death of Glaucus, the bishop and
the Great Apostle will bless thy deed."
Saying this, he took out a small coin, and began to search for a
knife at his belt; having found it, he scratched with the point on the
sestertium the sign of the cross; this coin he gave to the laborer.
"Here is the sentence of Glaucus, and a sign for thee. If thou show
this to the bishop after the death of Glaucus, he will forgive thee
the killing which thou hast done without wishing it."
The laborer stretched out his hand involuntarily for the coin; but
having the first murder too freshly in his memory just then, he
experienced a feeling of terror.
"Father," said he with a voice almost of entreaty, "dost thou take
this deed on thy conscience, and hast thou thyself heard Glaucus
betraying his brethren?"
Chilo understood that he must give proofs, mention names,
otherwise doubt might creep into the heart of the giant. All at once
a happy thought flashed through his head.
"Listen, Urban," said he, "I dwell in Corinth, but I came from Kos;
and here in Rome I instruct in the religion of Christ a certain
serving maiden named Eunice. She serves as vestiplica in the
house of a friend of Caesar, a certain Petronius. In that house I
have heard how Glaucus has undertaken to betray all the
Christians; and, besides, he has promised another informer of
Caesar's, Vinicius, to find a certain maiden for him among the
Christians."
Here he stopped and looked with amazement at the laborer, whose
eyes blazed suddenly like the eyes of a wild beast, and his face
took on an expression of mad rage and threat.
"What is the matter with thee?" asked Chio, almost in fear.
"Nothing, father; to-morrow I will kill Glaucus."
The Greek was silent. After a while he took the arm of the laborer,
turned him so that the light of the moon struck his face squarely,
and examined him with care. It was evident that he was wavering
in spirit whether to inquire further and bring everything out with
clearness, or for that time to stop with what he had learned or
surmised.
At last, however, his innate caution prevailed. He breathed deeply
once and a second time; then, placing his hand on the laborer's
head again, he asked, in an emphatic and solemn voice, -- "But in
holy baptism the name Urban was given thee?" "It was, father."
"Thy case is a bad one, carissime. It is clear that Venus has
disturbed thy mind, deprived thee of reason and memory, as well
as the power to think of aught else except love. Read some time
thy answer to my letter, and thou wilt see how indifferent thy mind
is to all except Lygia; how exclusively it is occupied with her, how
it returns to her always, and circles above her, as a falcon above
chosen prey. By Pollux! find her quickly, or that of thee which fire
has not turned into ashes will become an Egyptian sphinx, which,
enamored, as 'tis said, of pale isis, grew deaf and indifferent to all
things, waiting only for night, so as to gaze with stony eyes at the
loved one.
"Run disguised through the city in the evening, even honor
Christian houses of prayer in thy philosopher's company. Whatever
excites hope and kills time is praiseworthy. But for my friendship's
sake do this one thing:
Ursus, Lygia's slave, is a man of uncommon strength very likely;
hire Croton, and go out three together; that will be safer and wiser.
The Christians, since Pomponia and Lygia belong to them, are
surely not such scoundrels as most people imagine. But when a
lamb of their flock is in question they are no triflers, as they have
shown by carrying away Lygia. When thou seest Lygia thou wilt
not restrain thyself, I am sure, and wilt try to bear her away on the
spot. But how wilt thou and Chilonides do it? Croton would take
care of himself, even though ten like Ursus defended the maiden.
Be not plundered by Chio, but be not sparing of money on Croton.
Of all counsels which I can give this is the best one.
"Here they have ceased to speak of the infant Augusta, or to say
that she perished through witchcraft. Poppaea mentions her at
times yet; but Caesar's mind is stuffed with something else.
Moreover, if it be true that the divine Augusta is in a changed state
again, the memory of that child will be blown away without trace.
We have been in Naples for some days, or rather in Baile. If thou
art capable of any thought, echoes of our life must strike thy ear,
for surely Rome talks of naught else. We went directly to Bai~,
where at first memories of the mother attacked us, and reproaches
of conscience. But dost thou know to what Ahenobarbus has gone
already? To this, that for him even the murder of his mother is a
mere theme for verses, and a reason for buffoonish tragic scenes.
Formerly he felt real reproaches only in so far as he was a coward;
now, when he is convinced that the earth is under his feet as
before, and that no god is taking vengeance, he feigns them only to
move people by his fate. He springs up at night sometimes
declaring that the Furies are hunting him; he rouses us, looks
around, assumes the posture of an actor playing the role of Orestes,
and the posture of a bad actor too; he declaims Greek verses, and
looks to see if we are admiring him. We admire him apparently;
and instead of saying to him, Go to sleep, thou buffoon! we bring
ourselves also to the tone of tragedy, and protect the great artist
from the Furies. By Castor! this news at least must have reached
thee, that he has appeared in public at Naples. They drove in from
the city and the surrounding towns all the Greek ruffians, who
filled the arena with such a vile odor of sweat and garlic that I
thank the gods that, instead of sitting in the first rows with the
Augustians, I was behind the scenes with Ahenobarbus. And wilt
thou believe it, he was afraid really! He took my hand and put itto
his heart, which was beating with increased pulsation; his breath
was short; and at the moment when he had to appear he grew as
pale as a parchment, and his forehead was covered with drops of
sweat. Still he saw that in every row of seats were pretorians,
armed with clubs, to rouse enthusiasm if the need came. But there
was no need. No herd of monkeys from the environs of Carthage
could howl as did this rabble. I tell thee that the smell of garlic
came to the stage; but Nero bowed, pressed his hand to his heart,
sent kisses from his lips, and shed tears. Then he rushed in among
us, who were waiting behind the scenes, like a drunken man,
crying, 'What were the triumphs of Julius compared with this
triumph of mine?' But the rabble was howling yet and applauding,
knowing that it would applaud to itself favors, gifts, banquets,
lottery tickets, and a fresh exhibition by the Imperial buffoon. I do
not wonder that they applauded, for such a sight had not been seen
till that evening. And every moment he repeated: 'See what the
Greeks are! see what the Greeks are!' From that evening it has
seemed to me that his hatred for Rome is increasing. Meanwhile
special couriers were hurried to Rome announcing the triumph,
and we expect thanks from the Senate one of these days.
Immediately after Nero's first exhibition, a strange event happened
here. The theatre fell in on a sudden, but just after the audience
had gone. I was there, and did not see even one corpse taken from
the ruins. Many, even among the Greeks, see in this event the
anger of the gods, because the dignity of Caesar was disgraced; he,
on the Šontrary, finds in it favor of the gods, who have his song,
and those who listen to it, under their evident protection. Hence
there are offerings in all the temples, and great thanks. For Nero it
is a great encouragement to make the journey to Ach~a. A few
days since he told me, however, that he had doubts as to what the
Roman people might say; that they might revolt out of love for
him, and fear touching the distribution of grain and touching the
games, which might fail them in case of his prolonged absence.
"We are going, however, to Beneventum to look at the cobbler
magnificence which Vatinius will exhibit, and thence to Greece,
under the protection of the divine brothers of Helen. As to me, I
have noted one thing, that when a man is amdng the mad he grows
mad himself, and, what is more, finds a certain charm in mad
pranks. Greece and the journey in a thousand ships; a kind of
triumphal advance of Bacchus among nymphs and bacchantes
crowned with myrtle, vine, and honeysuckle; there will be women
in tiger skins harnessed to chariots; flowers, thyrses, garlands,
shouts of 'Evoe!' music, poetry, and applauding Hellas. All this is
well; but we cherish besides more daring projects. We wish to
create a species of Oriental Imperium, -- an empire of palm-trees,
sunshine, poetry, and reality turned into a dream, reality turned
into the delight of life only. We want to forget Rome; to fix the
balancing point of the world somewhere between Greece, Asia,
and Egypt; to live the life not of men but of gods; not to know
what commonness is; to wander in golden galleys under the
shadow of purple sails along the Archipelago; to be Apollo, Osiis,
and Baal in one person; to be rosy with the dawn, golden with the
sun, silver with the moon; to command, to sing, to dream. And wilt
thou believe that I, who have still sound judgment to the value of a
sestertium, and sense to the value of an as, let myself be borne
away by these fantasies, and I do this for the reason that, if they are
not possible, they are at least grandiose and uncommon? Such a
fabulous empire would be a thing which, some time or other, after
long ages, would seem a dream to mankind. Except when Venus
takes the form of Lygia, or even of a slave Eunice, or when art
beautifies it, life itself is empty, and many a time it has the face of
a monkey. But Bronzebeard will not realize his plans, even for this
cause, that in his fabulous kingdom of poetry and the Orient no
place is given to treason, meanness, and death; and that in him
with the poses of a poet sits a wretched comedian, a dull
charioteer, and a frivolous tyrant. Meanwhile we are killing people
whenever they displease us in any way. Poor Torquatus Silanus is
now a shade; he opened his veins a few days since. Lecanius and
Licinus will enter on the consulate with teror. Old Thrasea will not
escape death, for he dares to be honest. Tigellinus is not able yet to
frame a command for me to open my veins. I am still needed not
only as elegantiae arbiter, but as a man without whose counsel and
taste the expedition to Achaea might fail. More than once,
however, I think that sooner or later it must end in opening my
veins; and knowest thou what the question will be then with me? --
that Bronzebeard should not get my goblet, which thou knowest
and admirest. Shouldst thou be near at the moment of my death, I
will give it to thee; shouldst thou be at a distance, I will break it.
But meanwhile I have before me yet Beneventum of the cobblers
and Olympian Greece; I have Fate too, which, unknown and
unforeseen, points out the road to every one.
"Be well, and engage Croton; otherwise they will snatch Lygia
from thee a second time. When Chionides ceases to be needful,
send him to me wherever I may be. Perhaps I shall make him a
second Vatinius, and consuls and senators may tremble before him
yet, as they trembled before that knight Dratevka. It would be
worth while to live to see such a spectacle. When thou hast found
Lygia, let me know, so that I may offer for you both a pair of
swans and a pair of doves in the round temple of Venus here. Once
I saw Lygia in a dream, sitting on thy knee, seeking thy kisses. Try
to make that dream prophetic. May there be no clouds on thy sky;
or if there be, let them have the color and the odor of roses! Be in
good health; and farewell!"
BARELY had Vinicius finished reading when Chilo pushed
quietly into his library, unannounced by any one, for the servants
had the order to admit him at every hour of the day or night.
"May the divine mother of thy magnanimous ancestor Aeneas be
full of favor to thee, as the son of Maia was kind to me."
"What dost thou mean?" asked Vinicius, springing from the table
at which he was sitting.
Chilo raised his head and said, "Eureka!"
The young patrician was so excited that for a long time he could
not utter a word.
"Hast thou seen her?" asked he, at last.
"I have seen Ursus, lord, and have spoken with him."
"Dost thou know where they are secreted?"
"No, lord. Another, through boastfulness, would have let the
Lygian know that he divined who he was; another would have tried
to extort from him the knowledge of where he lived, and would
have received either a stroke of the fist, -- after which all earthly
affairs would have become indifferent to him, -- or he would have
roused the suspicion of the giant and caused this, -- that a new
hiding-place would be found for the girl, this very night perhaps. I
did not act thus. It suffices me to know that Ursus works near the
Emporium, for a miller named Demas, the same name as that
borne by thy freedman; now any trusted slave of rhine may go in
the morning on his track, and discover their hiding place. I bring
thee merely the assurance that, since Ursus is here, the divine
Lygia also is in Rome, and a second news that she will be in
Ostrianum to-night, almost certainly --"
"In Ostrianum? Where is that?" interrupted Vinicius, wishing
evidently to run to the place indicated.
"An old hypogeum between the Viae Salaria and Nomentana. That
pontifex maximus of the Christians, of whom I spoke to thee, and
whom they expected somewhat later, has come, and to-night he
will teach and baptize in that cemetery. They hide their religion,
for, though there are no edicts to prohibit it as yet, the people hate
them, so they must be careful. Ursus himself told me that all, to
the last soul, would be in Ostrianum to-night, for every one wishes
to see and hear him who was the foremost disciple of Christ, and
whom they call Apostle. Since among them women hear
instruction as well as men, Pomponia alone perhaps of women will
not be there; she could not explain to Aulus, a worshipper of the
ancient gods, her absence from home at night. But Lygia, lord,
who is under the care of Ursus and the Christian elders, will go
undoubtedly with other women."
Vinicius, who had lived hitherto in a fever, and upheld as it were,
by hope alone, now that his hope seemed fulfilled felt all at once
the weakness that a man feels after a journey which has proved
beyond his strength. Chilo noticed this, and resolved to make use
of
it.
"The gates are watched, it is true, by thy people, and the Christians
must know that. But they do not need gates. The Tiber, too, does
not need them; and though it is far from the river to those roads, it
is worth while to walk one road more to see the 'Great Apostle.'
Moreover they may have a thousand ways of going beyond the
walls, and I know that they have. In Ostrianum thou wilt find
Lygia; and even should she not be there, which I will not admit,
Ursus will be there, for he has promised to kill Glaucus. He told
me himself that he would be there, and that he would kill him.
Dost hear, noble tribune? Either thou wilt follow Ursus and learn
where Lygia dwells, or thou wilt command thy people to seize him
as a murderer, and, having him in thy hand, thou wilt make him
confess where he has hidden Lygia. I have done my best! Another
would have told thee that he had drunk ten cantars of the best wine
with Ursus before he wormed the secret out of him; another would
have told thee that he had lost a thousand sestertia to him in
script.e duodecim, or that he had bought the intelligence for two
thousand; I know that thou wouldst repay me doubly, but in spite
of that, once in my life -- I mean, as always in my life -- I shall be
honest, for I think, as the magnanimous Petronius says, that thy
bounty exceeds all my hopes and expectations."
Vinicius, who was a soldier and accustomed not only to take
counsel of himself in all cases, but to act, was overcome by a
momentary weakness and said,-- "Thou wilt not deceive thyself as
to my liberality, but first thou wilt go with me to Ostrianum."
"I, to Ostrianum?" inquired Chio, who had not the least wish to go
there. "I, noble tribune, promised thee to point out Lygia, but I did
not promise to take her away for thee. Think, lord, what would
happen to me if that Lygian bear, when he had torn Glaucus to
pieces, should convince himself straight-way that he had torn him
not altogether justly? Would he not look on me (of course without
reason) as the cause of the accomplished murder? Remember, lord,
that the greater philosopher a man is, the more difficult it is for
him to answer the foolish questions of common people; what
should I answer him were he to ask me why I calumniated
Glaucus? But if thou suspect that I deceive thee, I say, pay me only
when I point out the house in which Lygia lives, show me to-day
only a part of thy liberality, so that if thou, lord (which may all the
gods ward from thee), succumb to some accident, I shall not be
entirely without recompense. Thy heart could not endure that."
Vinicius went to a casket called "area," standing on a marble
pedestal, and, taking out a purse, threw it to Chilo.
"There are scrupula," said he; "when Lygia shall be in my house,
thou wilt get the same full of aurei."
"Thou art Jove!" exclaimed Chio.
But Vinicius frowned.
"Thou wilt receive food here," said he; "then thou mayest rest.
Thou wilt not leave this house till evening, and when night falls
thou wilt go with me to Ostrianuin."
Fear and hesitation were reflected on the Greek's face for a time;
but afterward he grew calm, and said, -- "Who can oppose thee,
lord! Receive these my words as of good omen, just as our great
hero received words like them in the temple of Ammon. As to me,
these 'scruples'" (here he shook the purse) "have outweighed mine,
not to mention thy society, which for me is delight and happiness."
Vinicius interrupted him impatiently, and asked for details of his
conversation with Ursus. From them it seemed clear that either
Lygia's hiding-place would be discovered that night, or he would
be able to seize her on the road back from Ostrianum. At thought
of this, Vinicius was borne away by wild delight. Now, when he
felt clearly sure of finding Lygia, his anger against her, and his
feeling of offence almost vanished. In return for that delight he
forgave her every fault. He thought of her only as dear and desired,
and he had the same impression as if she were returning after a
long journey. He wished to summon his slaves and command them
to deck the house with garlands. In that hour he had not a
complaint against Ursus, even. He was ready to forgive all people
everything. Chio, for whom, in spite of his services, he had felt
hitherto a certain repulsion, seemed to him for the first time an
amusing and also an uncommon person. His house grew radiant;
his eyes and his face became bright. He began again to feel youth
and the pleasure of life. His former gloomy suffering had not given
him yet a sufficient measure of how he loved Lygia. He understood
this now for the first time, when he hoped to possess her. His
desires woke in him, as the earth, warmed by the sun, wakes in
spring; but his desires this time were less blind and wild, as it
were, and more joyous and tender. He felt also within himself
energy without bounds, and was convinced that should he but see
Lygia with his own eyes, all the Christians on earth could not take
her from him, nor could Caesar himself.
Chilo, emboldened by the young tribune's delight, regained power
of speech and began to give advice. According to him, it behooved
Vinicius not to look on the affair as won, and to observe the
greatest caution, without which all their work might end in
nothing. He implored Vinicius not to carry off Lygia from
Ostrianum. They ought to go there with hoods on their heads, with
their faces hidden, and restrict themselves to looking at all who
were present from some dark corner. When they saw Lygia, it
would be safest to follow her at a distance, see what house she
entered, surround it next morning at daybreak, and take her away
in open daylight. Since she was a hostage and belonged specially
to Caesar, they might do that without fear of law. In the event of
not finding her in Ostrianum they could follow Ursus, and the
result would be the same. To go to the cemetery with a crowd of
attendants was impracticable, -- that might draw attention to them
easily; then the Christians need only put out the lights, as they did
when she was intercepted, and scatter in the darkness, or betake
themselves to places known to them only. But Vinicius and he
should arm, and, still better, take a couple of strong, trusty men to
defend them in case of need.
Vinicius saw the perfect truth of what he said, and, recalling
Petronius's counsel, commanded his slaves to bring Croton. Chio,
who knew every one in Rome, was set at rest notably when he
heard the name of the famous athlete, whose superhuman strength
in the arena he had wondered at more than once, and he declared
that he would go to Ostrianum. The purse filled with great aurei
seemed to him much easier of acquisition through the aid of
Croton.
Hence he sat down in good spirits at the table to which, after a
time, he was called by the chief of the atrium.
While eating, he told the slaves that he had obtained for their
master a miraculous ointment. The worst horse, if rubbed on the
hoofs with it, would leave every other far behind. A certain
Christian had taught him how to prepare that ointment, for the
Christian elders were far more skilled in enchantment and miracles
than even the Thessalians, though Thessaly was renowned for its
witches. The Christians had immense confidence in him -- why,
any one easily understands who knows what a fish means. While
speaking he looked sharply at the eyes of the slaves, in the hope of
discovering a Christian among them and informing Vinicius. But
when the hope failed him, he fell to eating and drinking
uncommon quantities, not sparing praises on the cook, and
declaring that he would endeavor to buy him of Vinicius. His
joyfulness was dimmed only by the thought that at night he must
go to Ostrianum. He comforted himself, however, as he would go
in disguise, in darkness, and in the company of two men, one of
whom was so strong that he was the idol of Rome; the other a
patrician, a man of high dignity in the army. "Even should they
discover Vinicius," said he to himself, "they will not dare to raise a
hand on him; as to me, they will be wise if they see the tip of my
nose even.
He fell then to recalling his conversation with the laborer; and the
recollection of that filled him again with delight. He had not the
least doubt that that laborer was Ursus. He knew of the uncommon
strength of the man, from the narratives of Vinicius, and those who
had brought Lygia from Caesar's palace. When he inquired of
Euricius touching men of exceptional strength, there was nothing
remarkable in this, that they pointed out Ursus. Then the confusion
and rage of the laborer at mention of Vinicius and Lygia left him
no doubt that those persons concerned him particularly; the laborer
had mentioned also his penance for killing a man, -- Ursus had
killed Atacinus; finally, the appearance of the laborer answered
perfectly to the account which Vinicius had given of the Lygian.
The change of name was all that could provoke doubt, but Chio
knew that frequently Christians took new names at baptism.
"Should Ursus kill Glaucus," said Chilo to himself, "that will be
better still; but should he not kill him, that will be a good sign, for
it will show how difficult it is for Christians to murder. I described
Glaucus as a real son of Judas, and a traitor to all Christians; I was
so eloquent that a stone would have been moved, and would have
promised to fall on the head of Glaucus. Still I hardly moved that
Lygian bear to put his paw on him. He hesitated, was unwilling,
spoke of his penance and compunction. Evidently murder is not
common among them. Offences against one's self must be
forgiven, and there is not much freedom in taking revenge for
others. Ergo, stop! think, Chio, what can threaten thee? Glaucus is
not free to avenge himself on thee. If Ursus will not kill Glaucus
for such a great crime as the betrayal of all Christians, so much the
more will he not kill thee for the small offence of betraying one
Christian. Moreover, when I have once pointed out to this ardent
wood-pigeon the nest of that turtle-dove, I will wash my hands of
everything, and transfer myself to Naples. The Christians talk,
also, of a kind of washing of the hands; that is evidently a method
by which, if a man has an affair with them, he may finish it
decisively. What good people these Christians are, and how ill
men speak of them! O God! such is the justice of this world. But I
love that religion, since it does not permit killing; but if it does not
permit killing, it certainly does not permit stealing, deceit, or false
testimony; hence I will not say that it is easy. It teaches, evidently,
not only to die honestly, as the Stoics teach, but to live honestly
also. if ever I have property and a house, like this, and slaves in
such numbers as Vinicius, perhaps I shall be a Christian as long as
may be convenient. For a rich man can permit himL self
everything, even virtue. This is a religion for the rich; hence I do
not understand how there are so many poor among its adherents.
What good is it for them, and why do they let virtue tie their
hands? I must think over this sometime. Meanwhile praise to thee,
Hermes! for helping me discover this badger. But if thou hast done
so for the two white yearling heifers with gilded horns, I know thee
not. Be ashamed, O slayer of Argos! such a wise god as thou, and
not foresee that thou wilt get nothing! I will offer thee my
gratitude; and if thou prefer two beasts to it, thou art the third beast
thyself, and in the best event thou shouldst be a shepherd, not a
god. Have a care, too, lest I, as a philosopher, prove to men that
thou art non-existent, and then all will cease to bring thee
offerings. It is safer to be on good terms with philosophers."
Speaking thus to himself and to Hermes, he stretched on the sofa,
put his mantle under his head, and was sleeping when the slave
removed the dishes. He woke, -- or rather they roused him, -- only
at the coming of Croton. He went to the atrium, then, and began to
examine with pleasure the form of the trainer, an ex-gladiator, who
seemed to fill the whole place with his immensity. Croton had
stipulated as to the price of the trip, and was just speaking to
Vinicius.
"By Hercules! it is well, lord," said he, "that thou hast sent to-day
for me, since I shall start to-morrow for Beneventum, whither the
noble Vatinius has summoned me to make a trial, in presence of
Caesar, of a certain Syphax, the most powerful negro that Africa
has ever produced. Dost thou imagine, lord, how his spinal column
will crack in my arms, or how besides I shall break his black jaw
with my fist?"
"By Pollux! Croton, I am sure that thou wilt do that," answered
Vinicius.
"And thou wilt act excellently," added Chio. "Yes, to break his
jaw, besides! That's a good idea, and a deed which befits thee. But
rub thy limbs with olive oil to-day, my Hercules, and gird thyself,
for know this, you mayst meet a real Cacus. The man who is
guarding that girl in whom the worthy Vinicius takes interest, has
exceptional strength very likely."
Chilo spoke thus only to rouse Croton's ambition.
"That is true," said Yinicius; "I have not seen him, but they tell me
that he can take a bull by the horns and drag him wherever he
pleases."
"Oi!" exclaimed Chilo, who had not imagined that Ursus was so
strong. But Croton laughed, from contempt. "I undertake, worthy
lord," said he, "to bear away with this hand whomever thou shalt
point out to me, and with this other defend myself against seven
such Lygians, and bring the maiden to thy dwelling though all the
Christians in Rome were pursuing me like Calabrian wolves. If
not, I will let myself be beaten with clubs in this impluvium."
"Do not permit that, lord," cried Chilo. "They will hurl stones at
us, and what could his strength effect? Is it not better to take the
girl from the house, -- not expose thyself or her to destruction?"
"This is true, Croton," said Vinicius.
"I receive thy money, I do thy will! But remember, lord, that
to-morrow I go to Beneventum."
"I have five hundred slaves in the city," answered Vinicius.
He gave them a sign to withdraw, went to the library himself, and
sitting down wrote the following words to Petronius, -- "The
Lygian has been found by Chio. I go this evening with him and
Croton to Ostrianum, and shall carry her off from the house
to-night or to-morrow. May the gods pour down on thee everything
favorable. Be well, O carissime! for joy will not let me write
further."
Laying aside the reed then, he began to walk with quick step; for
besides delight, which was overflowing his soul, he was tormented
with fever. He said to himself that to-morrow Lygia would be in
that house. He did not know how to act with her, but felt that if she
would love him he would be her servant. He recalled Acte's
assurance that he had been loved, and that moved him to the
uttermost. Hence it would be merely a question of conquering a
certain maiden modesty, and a question of certain ceremonies
which Christian teaching evidently commanded. But if that were
true, Lygia, when once in his house, would yield to persuasion of
superior force; she would have to say to herself, "It has happened!"
and then she would be amiable and loving.
But Chilo appeared and interrupted the course of these pleasant
thoughts. "Lord," said the Greek, "this is what has come to my
head. Have not the Christians signs, 'passwords,' without which no
one will be admitted to Ostrianum? I know that it is so in houses of
prayer, and I have received those passwords from Euricius; permit
me then to go to him, lord, to ask precisely, and receive the
needful signs."
"Well, noble sage," answered Vinicius, gladly; "thou speakest as a
man of forethought, and for that praise belongs to thee. Thou wit
go, then, to Euricius, or whithersoever it may please thee; but as
security thou wilt leave on this table here that purse which thou
hast received from me."
Chilo, who always parted with money unwillingly, squirmed; still
he obeyed the command and went out. From the Carin~ to the
Circus, near which was the little shop of Euricius, it was not very
far; hence he returned considerably before evening.
"Here are the signs, lord. Without them they would not admit us. I
have inquired carefully about the road. I told Euricius that I needed
the signs only for my friends; that I would not go myself, since it
was too far for my advanced age; that, moreover, I should see the
Great Apostle myself to-morrow, and he would repeat to me the
choicest parts of his sermon."
"How! Thou wilt not be there? Thou must go!" said Vinicius.
"I know that I must; but I will go well hooded, and I advise thee to
go in like manner, or we may frighten the birds."
In fact they began soon to prepare, for darkness had come on the
world. They put on Gallic cloaks with hoods, and took lanterns;
Vinicius, besides, armed himself and his companions with short,
curved knives; Chilo put on a wig, which he obtained on the way
from the old man's shop, and they went out, hurrying so as to reach
the distant Nomentan Gate before it was closed.
THEY went through the Vicus Patricius, along the Viminal to the
former Visninal gate, near the plain on which Diocletian afterward
built splendid baths. They passed the remains of the wall of
Servius Tullius, and through places more and more deserted they
reached the Via Nomentana; there, turning to the left, towards the
Via Salaria, they found themselves among hills full of sand-pits,
and here and there they found graveyards.
Meanwhile it had grown dark completely, and since the moon had
not risen yet, it would have been rather difficult for them to find
the road were it not that the Christians themselves indicated it, as
Chilo foresaw.
In fact, on the right, on the left, and in front., dark forms were
evident, making their way carefully toward sandy hollows. Some
of these people carried lanterns, -- covering them, however, as far
as possible with mantles; others, knowing the road better, went in
the dark. The trained military eye of Vinicius distinguished, by
their movements, younger men from old ones, who walked with
canes, and from women, wrapped carefully in long mantles. The
highway police, and villagers leaving the city, took those night
wanderers, evidently, for laborers, going to sand-pits; or
grave-diggers, who at times celebrated ceremonies of their own in
the night-time. In proportion, however, as the young patrician and
his attendants pushed forward, more and more lanterns gleamed,
and the number of persons grew greater. Some of them sang songs
in low voices, which to Vinicius seemed filled with sad-- ness. At
moments a separate word or a phrase of the song struck his ear, as,
for instance, "Awake, thou that sleepest," or "Rise from the dead";
at times, again, the name of Christ was repeated by men and
women.
But Vinicius turned slight attention to the words, for it came to his
head that one of those dark forms might be Lygia. Some, passing
near, said, "Peace be with thee!" or "Glory be to Christ!" but
disquiet seized him, and his heart began to beat with more life, for
it seemed to him that he heard Lygia's voice. Forms or movements
like hers deceived him in the darkness every moment, and only
when he had corrected mistakes made repeatedly did he begin to
distrust his own eyes.
The way seemed long to him. He knew the neighborhood exactly,
but could not fix places in the darkness. Every moment they came
to some narrow passage, or piece of wall, or booths, which he did
not remember as being in the vicinity of the city. Finally the edge
of the moon appeared from behind a mass of clouds, and lighted
the place better than dim lanterns. Something from afar began at
last to glimmer like a ftre, or the flame of a torch. Vinicius turned
to Chilo.
"Is that Ostrianum?" asked he.
Chio, on whom night, distance from the city, and those ghostlike
forms made a deep impression, replied in a voice somewhat
uncertain, -- "I know not, lord; I have never been in Ostrianum.
But they might praise God in some spot nearer the city."
After a while, feeling the need of conversation, and of
strengthening his courage, he added, -- "They come together like
murderers; still they are not permitted to murder, unless that
Lygian has deceived me shamefully."
Vinicius, who was thinking of Lygia, was astonished also by the
caution and mysteriousness with which her co-religionists
assembled to hear their highest priest; hence he said, -- "Like all
religions, this has its adherents in the midst of us; but the
Christians are a Jewish sect. Why do they assemble here, when in
the Trans-Tiber there are temples to which the Jews take their
offerings in daylight?"
"The Jews, lord, are their bitterest enemies. I have heard that,
before the present Caesar's time, it came to war, almost, between
Jews and Christians. Those outbreaks forced Claudius Caesar to
expell all the Jews, but at present that edict is abolished. The
Christians, however, hide themselves from Jews, and from the
populace, who, as is known to thee, accuse them of crimes and
hate them."
They walked on some time in silence, till Chio, whose fear
increased as he receded from the gates, said, -- "When returning
from the shop of Euricius, I borrowed a wig from a barber, and
have put two beans in my nostrils. They must not recognize me;
but if they do, they will not kill me. They are not malignant! They
are even very honest. I esteem and love them."
"Do not win them to thyself by premature praises," retorted
Vinicius.
They went now into a narrow depression, closed, as it were, by two
ditches on the side, over which an aqueduct was thrown in one
place. The moon came out from behind clouds, and at the end of
the depression they saw a wall, covered thickly with ivy, which
looked silvery in the moonlight. That was Ostrianum.
Vinicius's heart began to beat now with more vigor. At the gate
two quarryrnen took the signs from thtm. In a moment Vinicius
and his attendants were in a rather spacious place enclosed on all
sides by a wall. Here and there were separate monuments, and in
the centre was the entrance to the hypogeum itself, or crypt. In the
lower part of the crypt, beneath the earth, were graves; before the
entrance a fountain was playing. But it was evident that no very
large number of persons could find room in the hypogeum; hence
Vinicius divined without difficulty that the ceremony would take
place outside, in the space where a very numerous throng was soon
gathered.
As far as the eye could reach, lantern gleamed near lantern, but
many of those who came had no light whatever. With the
exception of a few uncovered heads, all were hooded, from fear of
treason or the cold; and the young patrician thought with alarm
that, should they remain thus, he would not be able to recognize
Lygia in that crowd and in the dim light.
But all at once, near the crypt, some pitch torches were ignited and
put into a little pile. There was more light. After a while the crowd
began to sing a certain strange hymn, at first in a low voice, and
then louder. Vinicius had never heard such a hymn before. The
same yearning which had struck him in the hymns murmured by
separate persons on the way to the cemetery, was heard now in
that, but with far more distinctness and power; and at last it
became as penetrating and immense as if together with the people,
the whole cemetery, the hills, the pits, and the region about, had
begun to yearn. It might seem, also, that there was in it a certain
calling in the night, a certain humble prayer for rescue in
wandering and darkness.
Eyes turned upward seemed to see some one far above, there on
high, and outstretched hands seemed to implore him to descend.
When the hymn ceased, there followed a moment as it were of
suspense, -- so impressive that Vinicius and his companions
looked unwittingly toward the stars, as if in dread that something
uncommon would happen, and that some one would really descend
to them.
Vinicius had seen a multitude of temples of most various structure
in Asia Minor, in Egypt, and in Rome itself; he had become
acquainted with a multitude of religions, most varied in character,
and had heard many hymns; but here, for the first time, he saw
people calling on a divinity with hymns, -- not to carry out a fixed
ritual, but calling from the bottom of the heart, with the genuine
yearning which children might feel for a father or a mother. One
had to be blind not to see that those people not merely honored
their God, but loved him with the whole soul. Vinicius had not
seen the like, so far, in any land, during any ceremony, in any
sanctuary; for in Rome and in Greece those who still rendered
honor to the gods did so to gain aid for themselves or through fear;
but it had not even entered any one's head to love those divinities.
Though his mind was occupied with Lygia, and his attention with
seeking her in the crowd, he could not avoid seeing those
uncommon and wonderful things which were happening around
him. Meanwhile a few more torches were thrown on the fire,
which filled the cemetery with ruddy light and darkened the gleam
of the lanterns. That moment an old man, wearing a hooded
mantle but with a bare head, issued from the hypogeum. This man
mounted a stone which lay near the fire.
The crowd swayed before him. \Toices near Vinicius whispered,
"Peter! Peter!" Some knelt, others extended their hands toward
him. There followed a silence so deep that one heard every charred
particle that dropped from the torches, the distant rattle of wheels
on the Via Nomentana, and the sound of wind through the few
pines which grew close to the cemetery.
Chilo bent toward Vinicius and whispered, -- "This is he! The
foremost disciple of Christ--a fisherman!"
The old man raised his hand, and with the sign of the cross blessed
those present, who fell on their knees simultaneously. Vinicius and
his attendants, not wishing to betray themselves, followed the
example of others. The young man could not seize his impressions
immediately, for it seemed to him that the form which he saw
there before him was both simple and uncommon, and, what was
more, the uncommonness flowed just from the simplicity. The old
man had no mitre on his head, no garland of oak-leaves on his
temples, no palm in his hand, no golden tablet on his breast, he
wore no white robe embroidered with stars; in a word, he bore no
insignia of the kind worn by priests -- Oriental, Egyptian, or Greek
-- or by Roman flamens. And Vinicius was struck by that same
difference again which he felt when listening to the Christian
hymns; for that "fisherman," too, seemed to him, not like some
high priest skilled in ceremonial, but as it were a witness, simple,
aged, and immensely venerable, who had journeyed from afar to
relate a truth which he had seen, which he had touched, which he
believed as he believed in existence, and he had come to love this
truth precisely because he believed it. There was in his face,
therefore, such a power of convincing as truth itself has. And
Vinicius, who had been a sceptic, who did not wish to yield to the
charm of the old man, yielded, however, to a certain feverish
curiosity to know what would flow from the lips of that companion
of the mysterious "Christus," and what that teaching was of which
Lygia and Pomponia Gzecina were followers.
Meanwhile Peter began to speak, and he spoke from the beginning
like a father instructing his children and teaching them how to live.
He enjoined on them to renounce excess and luxury, to love
poverty, purity of life, and truth, to endure wrongs and
persecutions patiently, to obey the government and those placed
above them, to guard against treason, deceit, and calumny; finally,
to give an example in their own society to each other, and even to
pagans.
Vinicius, for whom good was only that which could bring back to
him Lygia, and evil everything which stood as a barrier between
them, was touched and angered by certain of those counsels. It
seemed to him that by enjoining purity and a struggle with desires
the old man dared, not only to condemn his love, but to rouse
Lygia against him and confirm her in opposition. He understood
that if she were in the assembly listening to those words, and if she
took them to heart, she must think of him as an enemy of that
teaching and an outcast.
Anger seized him at this thought. "What have I heard that is new?"
thought he. "Is this the new religion? Every one knows this, every
one has heard it. The Cynics enjoined poverty and a restriction of
necessities; Socrates enjoined virtue as an old thing and a good
one; the first Stoic one meets, even such a one as Seneca, who has
five hundred tables of lemon-wood, praises moderation, enjoins
truth, patience in adversity, endurance in misfortune,-- and all that
is like stale, mouse-eaten grain; but people do not wish to eat it
because it smells of age."
And besides anger, he had a feeling of disappointment, for he
expected the discovery of unknown, magic secrets of some kind,
and thought that at least he would hear a rhetor astonishing by his
eloquence; meanwhile he heard only words which were immensely
simple, devoid of every ornament. He was astonished only by the
mute attention with which the crowd listened.
But the old man spoke on to those people sunk in listening, -- told
them to be kind, poor, peaceful, just, and pure; not that they might
have peace during life, but that they might live eternally with
Christ after death, in such joy and such glory, in such health and
delight, as no one on earth had attained at any time. And here
Vinicius, though predisposed unfavorably, could not but notice
that still there was a difference between the teaching of the old
man and that of the Cynics, Stoics, and other philosophers; for
they enjoin good and virtue as reasonable, and the only thing
practical in life, while he promised immortality, and that not some
kind of hapless immortality beneath the earth, in wretchednes,
emptiness, and want, but a magnificent life, equal to that of the
gods almost. He spoke meanwhile of it as of a thing perfectly
certain; hence, in view of such a faith, virtue acquired a value
simply measureless, and the misfortunes of this life became
incomparably trivial. To suffer temporally for inexhaustible
happiness is a thing absolutely different from suffering because
such is the order of nature. But the old man said further that virtue
and truth should be loved for themselves, since the highest eternal
good and the virtue existing before ages is God; whoso therefore
loves them loves God, and by that same becomes a cherished child
of His.
Vinicius did not understand this well, but he knew previously,
from words spoken by Pomponia Graecina to Petronius, that,
according to the belief of Christians, God was one and almighty;
when, therefore, he heard now again that He is all good and all
just, he thought involuntarily that, in presence of such a demiurge,
Jupiter, Saturn, Apollo, Juno, Vesta, and Venus would seem like
some vain and noisy rabble, in which all were interfering at once,
and each on his or her own account.
But the greatest astonishment seized him when the old man
declared that God was universal love also; hence he who loves
man fulfils God's supreme command. But it is not enough to love
men of one's own nation, for the God-man shed his blood for all,
and found among pagans such elect of his as Cornelius the
Centurion; it is not enough either to love those who do good to us,
for Christ forgave the Jews who delivered him to death, and the
Roman soldiers who nailed him to the cross, we should not only
forgive but love those who injure us, and return them good for
evil; it is not enough to love the good, we must love the wicked
also, since by love alone is it possible to expel from them evil.
Chilo at these words thought to himself that his work had gone for
nothing, that never in the world would Ursus dare to kill Glaucus,
either that night or any other night. But he comforted himself at
once by another inference from the teaching of the old man;
namely, that neither would Glaucus kill him, though he should
discover and recognize him.
Vinicius did not think now that there was nothing new in the
words of the old man, but with amazement he asked himself:
"What kind of God is this, what kind of religion is this, and what
kind of people are these?" All that he had just heard could not find
place in his head simply. For him all was an unheard-of medley of
ideas. He felt that if he wished, for example, to follow that
teaching, he would have to place on a burning pile all his thoughts,
habits, and character, his whole nature up to that moment, burn
them into ashes, and then fill himself with a life altogether
different, and an entirely new soul. To him the science or the
religion which commanded a Roman to love Parthians, Syrians,
Greeks, Egyptians, Gauls, and Britons, to forgive enemies, to
return them good for evil, and to love them, seemed madness. At
the same time he had a feeling that in that madness itself there was
something mightier than all philosophies so far. He thought that
because of its madness it was impracticable, but because of its
impracticability it was divine. In his soul he rejected it; but he felt
that he was parting as if from a field full of spikenard, a kind of
intoxicating incense; when a man has once breathed of this he
must, as in the land of the lotus-eaters, forget all things else ever
after, and yearn for it only.
It seemed to him that there was nothing real in that religion, but
that reality in presence of it was so paltry that it deserved not the
time for thought. Expanses of some kind, of which hitherto he had
not had a suspicion, surrounded him, -- certain immensities,
certain clouds. That cemetery began to produce on him the
impression of a meeting-place for madmen, but also of a place
mysterious and awful, in which, as on a mystic bed, something was
in progress of birth the like of which had not been in the world so
far. He brought before his mind all that, which from the first
moment of his speech, the old man had said touching life, truth,
love, God; and his thoughts were dazed from the brightness, as the
eyes are blinded from lightning flashes which follow each other
unceasingly.
As is usual with people for whom life has been turned into one
single passion, Vinicius thought of all this through the medium of
his love for Lygia; and in the light of those flashes he saw one
thing distinctly, that if Lygia was in the cemetery, if she confessed
that religion, obeyed and felt it, she never could and never would
be his mistress.
For the first time, then, since he had made her acquaintance at
Aulus's, Vinicius felt that though now he had found her he would
not get her. Nothing similar had come to his head so far, and he
could not explain it to himself then, for that was not so much an
express understanding as a dim feeling of irreparable loss and
misfortune. There rose in him an alarm, which was turned soon
into a storm of anger against the Christians in general, and against
the old man in particular. That fisherman, whom at the first cast of
the eye he considered a peasant, now filled him with fear almost,
and seemed some mysterious power deciding his fate inexorably
and therefore tragically.
The quarrymen again, unobserved, added torches to the fire; the
wind ceased to sound in the pines; the flame rose evenly, with a
slender point toward the stars, which were twinkling in a clear sky.
Having mentioned the death of Christ, the old man talked now of
Him only. All held the breath in their breasts, and a silence set in
which was deeper than the preceding one, so that it was possible
almost to hear the beating of hearts. That man had seen! and he
narrated as one in whose memory every moment had been fixed in
such a way that were he to close his eyes he would see yet. He
told, therefore, how on their return from the Cross he and John had
sat two days and nights in the supper-chamber, neither sleeping
nor eating, in suffering, in sorrow, in doubt, in alarm, holding their
heads in their hands, and thinking that He had died. Oh, how
grievous, how grievous that was! The third day had dawned and
the light whitened the walls, but he and John were sitting in the
chamber, without hope or comfort. How desire for sleep tortured
them (for they had spent the night before the Passion without
sleep)! They roused themselves then, and began again to lament.
But barely had the sun risen when Mary of Magdala, panting, her
hair dishevelled, rushed in with the cry, "Ihey have taken away the
Lord!" When they heard this, he and J olin sprang up and ran
toward the sepulchre. But John, being younger, arrived first; he
saw the place empty, and dared not enter. Only when there were
three at the entrance did he, the person now speaking to them,
enter, and find on the stone a shirt with a winding sheet; but the
body he found not.
Fear fell on them then, because they thought that the priests had
borne away Christ, and both returned home in greater grief still.
Other disciples came later and raised a lament, now in company,
so that the Lord of Hosts might hear them more easily, and now
separately and in turn. The spirit died within them, for they had
hoped that the Master would redeem Israel, and it was now the
third day since his death; hence they did not understand why the
Father had deserted the Son, and they preferred not to look at the
daylight, but to die, so grievous was the burden.
The remembrance of those terrible moments pressed even then
from the eyes of the old man two tears, which were visible by the
light of the fire, coursing down his gray beard. His hairless and
aged head was shaking, and the voice died in his breast.
"That man is speaking the truth and is weeping over it," said
Vinicius in his soul. Sorrow seized by the throat the simple-hearted
listeners also. They had heard more than once of Christ's
sufferings, and it was known to them that joy succeeded sorrow;
but since an apostle who had seen it told this, they wrung their
hands under the impression, and sobbed or beat their breasts.
But they calmed themselves gradually, for the wish to hear more
gained the mastery. The old man closed his eyes, as if to see
distant things more distinctly in his soul, and continued, -- "When
the disciples had lamented in this way, Mary of Magdala rushed in
a second time, crying that she had seen the Lord. Unable to
recognize him, she thought him the gardener: but He said, 'Mary!'
She cried 'Rabboni!' and fell at his feet. He commanded her to go
to the disciples, and vanished. But they, the disciples, did not
believe her; and when she wept for joy, some upbraided her, some
thought that sorrow had disturbed her mind, for she said, too, that
she had seen angels at the grave, but they, running thither a second
time, saw the grave empty. Later in the evening appeared Cleopas,
who had come with another from Emmaus, and they returned
quickly, saying:
'The Lord has indeed risen!' And they discussed with closed doors,
out of fear of the Jews. Meanwhile He stood among them, though
the doors had made no sound, and when they feared, He said,
'Peace be with you!'
"And I saw Him, as did all, and He was like light, and like the
happiness of our hearts, for we believed that He had risen from the
dead, and that the seas will dry and the mountains turn to dust, but
His glory will not pass.
"After eight days Thomas Didymus put his finger in the Lord's
wounds and touched His side; Thomas fell at His feet then, and
cried, 'My Lord and my God!' 'Because thou hast seen me thou hast
believed; blessed are they who have not seen and have believed!'
said the Lord. And we heard those words, and our eyes looked at
Him, for He was among us."
Vinicius listened, and something wonderful took place in him. He
forgot for a moment where he was; he began to lose the feeling of
reality, of incasure, of judgment. He stood in the presence of two
impossibilities. He could not believe what the old man said; and he
felt that it would be necessary either to be blind or renounce one's
own reason, to admit that that man who said "I saw" was lying.
There was something in his movements, in his tears, in his whole
figure, and in the details of the events which he narrated, which
made every suspicion impossible. To Vinicius it seemed at
moments that he was dreaming. But round about he saw the silent
throng; the odor of lanterns came to his nostrils; at a distance the
torches were blazing; and before him on the stone stood an aged
man near the grave, with a head trembling somewhat, who, while
bearing witness, repeated, "I saw!"
And he narrated to them everything up to the Ascension into
heaven. At moments he rested, for he spoke very circumstantially;
but it could be felt that each minute detail had fixed itself in his
memory, as a thing is fixed in a stone into which it has been
engraved. Those who listened to him were seized by ecstasy. They
threw back their hoods to hear him better, and not lose a word of
those which for them were priceless. It seemed to them that some
superhuman power had borne them to Galilee; that they were
walking with the disciples through those groves and on those
waters; that the cemetery was turned into the lake of Tiberius; that
on the bank, in the mist of morning, stood Christ, as he stood when
John, looking from the boat, said, "It is the Lord," and Peter cast
himself in to swim, so as to fall the more quickly at the beloved
feet. In the faces of those present were evident enthusiasm beyond
bounds, oblivion of life, happiness, and love immeasurable. It was
clear that during Peter's long narrative some of them had visions.
When he began to tell how, at the moment of Ascension, the
clouds closed in under the feet of the Saviour, covered Him, and
hid Him from the eyes of the Apostles, all heads were raised
toward the sky unconsciously, and a moment followed as it were
of expectation, as if those people hoped to see Him or as if they
hoped that He would descend again from the fields of heaven, and
see how the old Apostle was feeding the sheep confided to him,
and bless both the flock and him.
Rome did not exist for those people, nor did the man Caesar; there
were no temples of pagan gods; there was only Christ, who filled
the land, the sea, the heavens, and the world.
At the houses scattered here and there along the Via Nomentana,
the cocks began to crow, announcing midnight. At that moment
Chilo pulled the corner of Vinicius's mantle and whispered, --
"Lord, I see Urban over there, not far from the old man, and with
him is a maiden."
Vinicius shook himself, as if out of a dream, and, turning in the
direction indicated by the Greek, he saw Lygia.
EVERY drop of blood quivered in the young patrician at sight of
her. He forgot the crowd, the old man, his own astonishment at the
incomprehensible things which he had heard, -- he saw only her.
At last, after all his efforts, after long days of alarm, trouble, and
suffering, he had found her! For the first time he realized that joy
might rush at the heart, like a wild beast, and squeeze it till breath
was lost. He, who had supposed hitherto that on "Fortuna" had
been imposed a kind of duty to accomplish all his wishes, hardly
beJieved his own eyes now and his own happiness. Were it not for
that disbelief, his passionate nature might have urged him to some
unconsidered step; but he wished to convince himself first that that
was not the continuation of those miracles with which his head
was filled, and that he was not dreaming. But there was no doubt,
-- he saw Lygia, and an interval of barely a few steps divided them.
She stood in perfect light, so that he could rejoice in the sight of
her as much as he liked. The hood had fallen from her head and
dishevelled her hair; her mouth was open slightly, her eyes raised
toward the Apostle, her face fixed in listening and delighted. She
was dressed in a dark woollen mantle, like a daughter of the
people, but never had Vinicius seen her more beautiful; and
notwithstanding all the disorder which had risen in him, he was
struck by the nobility of that wonderful patrician head in
distinction to the dress, almost that of a slave. Love flew over him
like a flame, immense, mixed with a marvellous feeling of
yearning, homage, honor, and desire. He felt the delight which the
sight of her caused him; he drank of her as of life-giving water
after long thirst. Standing near the gigantic Lygian, she seemed to
him smaller than before, almost a child; he noticed, too, that she
had grown more slender. Her complexion had become almost
transparent; she made on him the impression of a flower, and a
spirit. But all the more did he desire to possess that woman, so
different from all women whom he had seen or possessed in Rome
or the Orient. He felt that for her he would have given them all,
and with them Rome and the world in addition.
He would have lost himself in gazing, and forgotten himself
altogether, had it not been for Chilo, who pulled the corner of his
mantle, out of fear that he might do something to expose them to
danger. Meanwhile the Christians began to pray and sing. After a
while Maranatha thundered forth, and then the Great Apostle
baptized with water from the fountain those whom the presbyters
presented as ready for baptism. It seemed to Vinicius that that
night would never end. He wished now to follow Lygia as soon as
possible, and seize her on the road or at her house.
At last some began to leave the cemetery, and Chilo whispered, --
"Let us go out before the gate, lord, we have not removed our
hoods, and people look at us."
Such was the case, for during the discourse of the Apostle all had
cast aside their hoods so as to hear better, and they had not
followed the general example. Chilo's advice seemed wise,
therefore. Standing before the gate, they could look at all who
passed; Ursus it was easy to recognize by his form and size.
"Let us follow them," said Chio; "we shall see to what house they
go. To-morrow, or rather to-day, thou wilt surround the entrances
with slaves and take her."
"No!" said Vinicius.
"What dost thou wish to do, lord?"
"We will follow her to the house and take her now, if thou wilt
undertake that task, Croton?"
"I will," replied Croton, "and I will give myself to thee as a slave if
I do not break the back of that bison who is guarding her."
But Chilo fell to dissuading and entrcating them by all the gods not
to do so. Croton was taken only f or clef ence against attack in
case they were recognized, not to carry off the girl. To take her
when there were only two of them was to expose themselves to
death, and, what was worse, they might let her out of their hands,
and then she would hide in another place or leave Rome. And what
could they do? Why not act with certainty? Why expose
themselves to destruction and the whole undertaking to failure?
Though Vinicius restrained himself with the greatest effort from
seizing Lygia in his arms at once, right there in the cemetery, he
felt that the Greek was right, and would have lent ear, perhaps, to
his counsels, had it not been for Croton, to whom reward was the
question.
"Lord, command that old goat to be silent," said he, "or let me drop
my fist on his head. Once in Buxentum, whither Lucius Saturnius
took me to a play, seven drunken gladiators fell on me at an inn,
and none of them escaped with sound ribs. I do not say to take the
girl now from the crowd, for they might throw stones before our
feet, but once she is at home I will seize her, carry her away, and
take her whithersoever thou shalt indicate."
Vinicius was pleased to hear those words, and answered, -- "Thus
let it be, by Hercules! To-morrow we may not find her at home; if
we surprise them they will remove, the girl surely."
"No one will ask thee to hold his hands," answered Croton.
But they had to wait long yet, and the cocks had begun to crow
before dawn when they saw Ursus coming through the gate, and
with him Lygia. They were accompanied by a number of other
persons. It seemed to Chilo that he recognized among them the
Great Apostle; next to him walked another old man, considerably
lower in stature, two women who were not young, and a boy, who
lighted the way with a lantern. After that handful followed a
crowd, about two hundred in number; Vinicius, Chio, and Croton
walked with these people.
"Yes, lord," said Chio, "thy maiden is under powerful protection.
That is the Great Apostle with her, for see how passing people
kneel to him."
People did in fact kneel before him, but Vinicius did not look at
them. He did not lose Lygia from his eyes for a moment; he
thought only of bearing her away and, accustomed as he had been
in wars to stratagems of all sorts, he arranged in his head the whole
plan of seizure with soldierly precision. He felt that the step on
which he had decided was bold, but he knew well that bold attacks
give success generally.
The way was long; hence at moments he thought too of the gulf
which that wonderful religion had dug between him and Lygia.
Now he understood everything that had happened in the past, and
why it had happened. He was sufficiently penetrating for that.
Lygia he had not known hitherto. He had seen in her a maiden
wonderful beyond others, a maiden toward whom his feelings were
inflamed: he knew now that her religion made her different from
other women, and his hope that feeling, desire, wealth, luxury,
would attract her he knew now to be a vain illusion. Finally he
understood this, which he and Petronius had not understood, that
the new religion ingrafted into the soul something unknown to that
world in which he lived, and that Lygia, even if she loved him,
would not sacrifice any of her Christian truths for his sake, and
that, if pleasure existed for her, it was a pleasure different
altogether from that which he and Petronius and Caesar's court and
all Rome were pursuing. Every other woman whom he knew might
become his mistress, but that Christian would become only his
victim. And when he thought of this, he felt anger and burning
pain, for he felt that his anger was powerless. To carry off Lygia
seemed to him possible; he was almost sure that he could take her,
but he was equally sure that, in view of her religion, he himself
with his bravery was nothing, that his power was nothing, and that
through it he could effect nothing. That Roman military tribune,
convinced that the power of the sword and the fist which had
conquered the world, would command it forever, saw for the first
time in life that beyond that power there might be something else;
hence he asked himself with amazement what it was. And he could
not answer distinctly; through his head flew merely pictures of the
cemetery, the assembled crowd, and Lygia, listening with her
whole soul to the words of the old man, as he narrated the passion,
death, and resurrection of the God-man, who had redeemed the
world, and promised it happiness on the other shore of the Styx.
When he thought of this, chaos rose in his head. But he was
brought out of this chaos by Chilo, who fell to lamenting his own
fate. He had agreed to find Lygia. He had sought for her in peril of
his life, and he had pointed her out. But what more do they want?
Had he offered to carry the maiden away? Who could ask anything
like this of a maimed man deprived of two fingers, an old man,
devoted to meditation, to science, and virtue? What would happen
were a lord of such dignity as Vinicius to meet some mishap while
bearing the maiden away? It is true that the gods are bound to
watch over their chosen ones, -- but have not such things happened
more than once, as if the gods were playing games instead of
watching what was passing in the world? Fortune is blindfold, as is
well known, and does not see even in daylight; what must the case
be at night? Let something happen, -- let that Lygian bear hurl a
millstone at the noble Vinicius, or a keg of wine, or, still worse,
water, -- who will give assurance that instead of a reward blame
will not fall on the hapless Chio? He, the poor sage, has attached
himself to the noble Vinicius as Aristotle to Alexander of
Macedon. If the noble lord should give him at least that purse
which he had thrust into his girdle before leaving home, there
would be something with which to invoke aid in case of need, or to
influence the Christians. Oh, why not listen to the counsels of an
old man, counsels dictated by experience and prudence?
Vinicius, hearing this, took the purse from his belt, and threw it to
the fingers of Chilo.
"Thou hast it; be silent!"
The Greek felt that it was unusually heavy, and gained confidence.
"My whole hope is in this," said he, "that Hercules or Theseus
performed deeds still more arduous; what is my personal, nearest
friend, Croton, if not Hercules? Thee, worthy lord, I will not call a
demigod, for thou art a full god, and in future thou wilt not forget a
poor, faithful servant, whose needs it will be necessary to provide
for from time to time, for once he is sunk in books, he thinks of
nothing else; sonic few stadia of garden land and a little house,
even with the smallest portico, for coolness in summer, would
befit such a donor. Meanwhile I shall admire thy heroic deeds
from afar, and invoke Jove to befriend thee, and if need be I will
make such an outcry that half Rome will be roused to thy
assistance. What a wretched, rough road! The olive oil is burned
out in the lantern; and if Croton, who is as noble as he is strong,
would bear me to the gate in his arms, he would learn, to begin
with, whether he will carry the maiden easily; second, he would
act like IEneas, and win all the good gods to such a degree that
touching the result of the enterprise I should be thoroughly
satisfied."
"I should rather carry a sheep which died of mange a month ago,"
answered the gladiator; "but give that purse, bestowed by the
worthy tribune, and I will bear thee to the gate."
"Mayst thou knock the great toe from thy foot," replied the Greek;
"what profit hast thou from the teachings of that worthy old man,
who described poverty and charity as the two foremost virtues?
Has he not commanded thee expressly to love me? Never shall I
make thee, I see, even a poor Christian; it would be easier for the
sun to pierce the walls of the Mamertine prison than for truth to
penetrate thy skull of a hippopotamus."
"Never fear!" said Croton, who with the strength of a beast had no
human feeling. "I shall not be a Christian! I have no wish to lose
my bread."
"But if thou knew even the rudiments of philosophy, thou wouldst
know that gold is vanity."
"Come to me with thy philosophy. I will give thee one blow of my
head in the stomach; we shall see then who wins."
"An ox might have said the same to Aristotle," retorted Chilo.
It was growing gray in the world. The dawn covered with pale
light the outlines of the walls. The trees along the wayside, the
buildings, and the gravestones scattered here and there began to
issue from the shade. The road was no longer quite empty.
Marketmen were moving toward the gates, leading asses and
mules laden with vegetables;, here and there moved creaking carts
in which game was conveyed. On the road and along both sides of
it was a light mist at the very earth, which promised good weather.
People at some distance seemed like apparitions in that mist.
Vinicius stared at the slender form of Lygia, which became more
silvery as the light increased.
"Lord," said Chio, "I should offend thee were I to foresee the end
of thy bounty, but now, when thou hast paid me, I may not be
suspected of speaking for my own interest only. I advise thee once
more to go home for slaves and a litter, when thou hast learned in
what house the divine Lygia dwells; listen not to that elephant
trunk, Croton, who undertakes to carry off the maiden only to
squeeze thy purse as if it were a bag of curds."
"I have a blow of the fist to be struck between the shoulders, which
means that thou wilt perish," said Croton.
"I have a cask of Cephalonian wine, which means that I shall be
well," answered Chio.
Vinicius made no answer, for he approached the gate, at which a
wonderful sight struck his eyes. Two soldiers knelt when the
Apostle was passing; Peter placed his hand on their iron helmets
for a moment, and then made the sign of the cross on them. It had
never occurred to the patrician before that there could be
Christians in the army; with astonishment he thought that as fire in
a burning city takes in more and more houses, so to all
appearances that doctrine embraces new souls every day, and
extends itself over all human understandings. This struck him also
with reference to Lygia, for he was convinced that, had she wished
to flee from the city, there would be guards willing to facilitate her
flight. He thanked the gods then that this had not happened.
After they had passed vacant places beyond the wall, the
Christians began to scatter. There was need, therefore, to follow
Lygia more from a distance, and more carefully, so as not to rouse
attention. Chilo fell to complaining of wounds, of pains in his legs,
and dropped more and more to the rear. Vinicius did not oppose
this, judging that the cowardly and incompetent Greek would not
be needed. He would even have permitted him to depart, had he
wished; but the worthy sage was detained by circumspection.
Curiosity pressed him evidently, since he continued behind, and at
moments even approached with his previous counsels; he thought
too that the old man accompanying the Apostle might be Glaucus,
were it not for his rather low stature.
They walked a good while before reaching the Trans-Tiber, and
the sun was near rising when the group surrounding Lygia
dispersed. The Apostle, an old woman, and a boy went up the
river; the old man of lower stature, Ursus, and Lygia entered a
narrow vicus, and, advancing still about a hundred yards, went into
a house in which were two shops, -- one for the sale of olives, the
other for poultry.
Chilo, who walked about fifty yards behind Vinicius and Croton,
halted all at once, as if fixed to the earth, and, squeezing up to the
wall, began to hiss at them to turn.
They did so, for they needed to take counsel.
"Go, Chio," said Vinicius, "and see if this house fronts on another
street." Chio, though he had complained of wounds in his feet,
sprang away as quickly as if he had had the wings of J~Iercury on
his ankles, and returned in a moment.
"No," said he, "there is but one entrance."
Then, putting his hands together, he said, "I implore thee, lord, by
Jupiter, Apollo, Vesta, Cybele, Isis. Osiris, Mithra Baal, and all the
gods of the Orient and the Occident to drop this plan. Listen to
me --"
But he stopped on a sudden, for he saw that Vinicius's face was
pale from emotion, and that his eyes were glittering like the eyes
of a wolf. It was enough to look at him to understand that nothing
in the world would restrain him from the undertaking. Croton
began to draw air into his herculean breast, and to sway his
undeveloped skull from side to side as bears do when confined in a
cage, but on his face nut the least fear was evident.
"I will go in first," said he.
"Thou wilt follow me," said Vinicius, in commanding tones.
And after a while both vanished in the dark entrance.
Chilo sprang to the corner of the nearest alley and watched from
behind it, waiting for what would happen.
ONLY inside the entrance did Vinicius comprehend the whole
difficulty of the undertaking. The house was large, of several
stories, one of the kind of which thousands were built in Rome, in
view of profit from rent; hence, as a rule, they were built so
hurriedly and badly that scarcely a year passed in which numbers
of them did not fall on the heads of tenants. Real hives, too high
and too narrow, full of chambers and little dens, in which poor
people fixed themselves too numerously. In a city where many
streets had no names, those houses had no numbers; the owners
committed the collection of rent to slaves, who, not obliged by the
city government to give names of occupants, were ignorant
themselves of them frequently. To find some one by inquiry in
such a house was often very difficult, especially when there was no
gate-keeper.
Vinicius and Croton came to a narrow, corridor-like passage
walled in on four sides, forming a kind of common atrium for the
whole house, with a fountain in the middle whose stream fell into
a stone basin fixed in the ground. At all the walls were internal
stairways, some of stone, some of wood, leading to galleries from
which there were entrances to lodgings. There were lodgings on
the ground, also; some provided with wooden doors, others
separated from the yard by woollen screens only. These, for the
greater part, were worn, rent, or patched.
The hour was early, and there was not a living soul in the yard. It
was evident that all were asleep in the house except those who had
returned from Ostrianum.
"What shall we do, lord?" asked Croton, halting.
"Let us wait here; some one may appear," replied Vinicius. "We
should not be seen in the yard."
At this moment, he thought Chio's counsel practical. If there were
some tens of slaves present, it would be easy to occupy the gate,
which seemed the only exit, search all the lodgings
simultaneously, and thus come to Lygia's; otherwise Christians,
who surely were not lacking in that house, might give notice that
people were seeking her. In view of this, there was risk in
inquiring of strangers. Vinicius stopped to think whether it would
not be better to go for his slaves. Just then, from behind a screen
hiding a remoter lodging, came a man with a sieve in his hand, and
approached the fountain.
At the first glance the young tribune recognized Ursus.
"That is the Lygian!" whispered Vinicius.
"Am I to break his bones now?"
"Wait awhile!"
Ursus did not notice the two men, as they were in the shadow of
the entrance, and he began quietly to sink in water vegetables
which filled the sieve. It was evident that, after a whole night spent
in the cemetery, he in-tended to prepare a meal. After a while the
washing was finished; he took the wet sieve and disappeared
behind the screen. Croton and Vinicius followed him, thinking that
they would come directly to Lygia's lodgings. Their astonishment
was great when they saw that the screen divided from the court,
not lodgings, but another dark corridor, at the end of which was a
little garden containing a few cypresses, some myrtle bushes, and a
small house fixed to the windowless stone wall of another stone
building.
Both understood at once that this was for them a favoring
circumstance. In the courtyard all the tenants might assemble; the
seclusion of the little house facilitated the enterprise. They would
set aside defenders, or rather Ursus, quickly, and would reach the
street just as quickly with the captured Lygia; and there they would
help themselves. It was likely that no one would attack them; if
attacked, they would say that a hostage was fleeing from Caesar.
Vinicius would declare himself then to the guards, and summon
their assistance.
Ursus was almost entering the little house, when the sound of steps
attracted his attention; he halted, and, seeing two persons, put his
sieve on the balustrade and turned to them.
"What do ye want here?" asked he.
"Thee!" said Vinicius.
Then, turning to Croton, he said in a low, hurried voice:
"Kill!"
Croton rushed at him like a tiger, and in one moment, before the
Lygian was able to think or to recognize his enemies, Crown had
caught him in his arms of steel.
Vinicius was too confident in the man's preternatural strength to
wait for the end of the struggle. He passed the two, sprang to the
door of the little house, pushed it open and found himself in a
room a trifle dark, lighted, however, by a fire burning in the
chimney. A gleam of this fire fell on Lygia's face directly. A
second person, sitting at the fire, was that old man who had
accompanied the young girl and Ursus on the road from
Ostrianum.
Vinicius rushed in so suddenly that before Lygia could recognize
him he had seized her by the waist, and, raising her, rushed toward
the door again. The old man barred the way, it is true; but pressing
the girl with one arm to his breast, Vinicius pushed him aside with
the other, which was free. The hood fell from his head, and at sight
of that face, which was known to her and which at that moment
was terrible, the blood grew cold in Lygia from fright, and the
voice died in her throat. She wished to summon aid, but had not
the power. Equally vain was her wish to grasp the door, to resist.
Her fingers slipped along the stone, and she would have fainted but
for the terrible picture which struck her eyes when Vinicius rushed
into the garden.
Ursus was holding in his arms some man doubled back
completely, with hanging head and mouth filled with blood. When
he saw them, he struck the head once more with his fist, and in the
twinkle of an eye sprang toward Vinicius like a raging wild beast.
"Death!" thought the young patrician.
Then he heard, as through a dream, the scream of Lygia, "Kill
not!" He felt that something, as it were a thunderbolt, opened the
arms with which he held Lygia; then the earth turned round with
him, and the light of day died in his eyes.
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Chilo, hidden behind the angle of the corner house, was waiting
for what would happen, since curiosity was struggling with fear in
him. He thought that if they succeeded in carrying off Lygia, he
would fare well near Vinicius. He feared Urban no longer, for he
also felt certain that Croton would kill him. And he calculated that
in case a gathering should begin on the streets, which so far were
empty, -- if Christians, or people of any kind, should offer
resistance, -- he, Chio, would speak to them as one representing
authority, as an executor of Caesar's will, and if need came, call
the guards to aid the young patrician against the street rabble --
thus winning to himself fresh favor. In his soul he judged yet that
the young tribune's method was unwise; considering, however,
Croton's terrible strength, he admitted that it might succeed, and
thought, "If it go hard with him, Vinicius can carry the girl, and
Croton clear the way." Delay grew wearisome, however; the
silence of the entrance which he watched alarmed him.
"If they do not hit upon her hiding-place, and make an uproar, they
will frighten her."
But this thought was not disagreeable; for Chilo understood that in
that event he would be necessary again to Vinicius, and could
squeeze afresh a goodly number of sestertia from the tribune.
"Whatever they do," said he to himself, "they will work for me,
though no one divines that. O gods! O gods! only permit me--"
And he stopped suddenly, for it seemed to him that some one was
bending forward through the entrance; then, squeezing up to the
wall, he began to look, holding the breath in his breast.
And he had not deceived himself, for a head thrust itself half out
of the entrance and looked around. After a while, however, it
vanished.
"That is Vinicius, or Croton," thought Chilo; "but if they have
taken the girl, why does she not scream, and why are they looking
out to the street? They must meet people anyhow, for before they
reach the Carmn~ there will be movement in the city -- What is
that? By the immortal gods!"
And suddenly the remnant of his hair stood on end.
In the door appeared Ursus, with the body of Croton hanging on
his arm, and looking around once more, he began to run, bearing it
along the empty street toward the river.
Chilo made himself as flat against the wall as a bit of mud.
"I am lost if he sees me!" thought he.
But Ursus ran past the corner quickly, and disappeared beyond the
neighboring house. Chio, without further waiting, his teeth
chattering from terror, ran along the cross street with a speed
which even in a young man might have roused admiration.
"If he sees mc from a distance when he is returning, he will catch
and kill me," said he to himself. "Save me, Zeus; save me, Apollo;
save me, Hermes; save me, O God of the Christians! I will leave
Rome, I will return to Mesembria, but save me from the hands of
that demon!"
And that Lygian who had killed Croton seemed to him at that
moment some superhuman being. While running, he thought that
lie might be some god who had taken the form of a barbarian. At
that moment he believed in all the gods of the world, and in all
myths, at which he jeered usually. It flew through his head, too,
that it might be the God of the Christians who had killed Croton;
and his hair stood on end again at the thought that he was in
conflict with such a power.
Only when he had run through a number of alleys, and saw some
workmen coming toward him from a distance, was he calmed
somewhat. Breath failed in his breast; so he sat on the threshold of
a house and began to wipe, with a corner of his mantle, his
sweat-covered forehead.
"I am old, and need calm," said he.
The people coming toward him turned into some little side street,
and again the place round about was empty. The city was sleeping
yet. In the morning movement began earlier in the wealthier parts
of the city, where the slaves of rich houses were forced to rise
before daylight; in portions inhabited by a free population,
supported at the cost of the State, hence unoccupied, they woke
rather late, especially in winter. Chio, after he had sat some time
on the threshold, felt a piercing cold; so he rose, and, convincing
himself that he had not lost the purse received from Vinicius,
turned toward the river with a step now much slower.
"I may see Croton's body somewhere," said he to himself. "O gods!
that Lygian, if he is a man, might make millions of sestertia in the
course of one year; for if he choked Croton, like a whelp, who can
resist him? They would give for his every appearance in the arena
as much gold as he himself weighs. He guards that maiden better
than Cerberus does Hades. But may Hades swallow him, for all
that! I will have nothing to do with him. He is too bony. But where
shall I begin in this case? A dreadful thing has happened. If he has
broken the bones of such a man as Croton, beyond a doubt the soul
of Vinicius is puling above that cursed house now, awaiting his
burial. By Castor! but he is a patrician, a friend of Caesar, a
relative of Petronius, a man known in all Rome, a military tribune.
His death cannot pass without punishment. Suppose I were to go to
the pretorian camp, or the guards of the city, for instance?"
Here he stopped and began to think, but said after a while, -- "Woe
is me! Who took him to that house if not I? His freedmen and his
slaves know that I came to his house, and some of them know with
what object. What will happen if they suspect me of having
pointed out to him purposely the house in which his death met
him? Though it appear afterward, in the court, that I did not wish
his death, they will say that I was the cause of it. Besides, he is a
patrician; hence in no event can I avoid punishment. But if I leave
Rome in silence, and go far away somewhere, I shall place myself
under still greater suspicion."
It was bad in every case. The only question was to choose the less
evil. Rome was immense; still Chilo felt that it might become too
small for him. Any other man might go directly to the prefect of
the city guards and tell what had happened, and, though some
suspicion might fall on him, await the issue calmly. But Chilo's
whole past was of such character that every closer acquaintance
with the prefect of the city or the prefect of the guard must cause
him very serious trouble, and confirm also every suspicion which
might enter the heads of officials.
On the other hand, to flee would be to confirm Petronius in the
opinion that Vinicius had been betrayed and murdered through
conspiracy. Petronius was a powerful man, who could command
the police of the whole Empire, and who beyond doubt would try
to find the guilty parties even at the ends of the earth. Still, Chilo
thought to go straight to him, and tell what had happened. Yes;
that was the best plan. Petronius was calm, and Chilo might be
sure of this, at least, that he would hear him to the end. Petronius,
who knew the affair from its inception, would believe in Chio's
innocence more easily than would the prefects.
But to go to him, it was needful to know with certainty what had
happened to Vinicius. Chilo did not know that. He had seen, it is
true, the Lygian stealing with Crown's body to the river, but
nothing more. Vinicius might be killed; but he might be wounded
or detained. Now it occurred to Chilo for the first time, that surely
the Christians would not dare to kill a man so powerful, -- a friend
of Caesar, and a high military official, -- for that kind of act might
draw on them a general persecution. It was more likely that they
had detained him by superior force, to give Lygia means to hide
herself a second time.
This thought filled Chilo with hope.
"If that Lygian dragon has not torn him to pieces at the first attack,
he is alive, and if he is alive he himself will testify that I have not
betrayed him; and then not only does nothing threaten me, but --O
Hermes, count again on two heifers -- a fresh field is opening. I
can inform one of the freedmen where to seek his lord; and
whether he goes to the prefect or not is his affair, the only point
being that I should not go. Also, I can go to Petronius, and count
on a reward. I have found Lygia; now I shall find Vinicius, and
then again Lygia. It is needful to know first whether Vinicius is
dead or living."
Here it occurred to him that he might go in the night to the baker
Deinas and inquire about Ursus. But he rejected that thought
immediately. He preferred to have nothing to do with Ursus. He
might suppose, justly, that if Ursus had not killed Glaucus he had
been warned, evidently, by the Christian elder to whom he had
confessed his design, -- warned that the affair was an unclean one,
to which some traitor had persuaded him. in every case, at the
mere recollection of Ursus, a shiver ran through Chio's whole
body. But he thought that in the evening he would send Euricius
for news to that house in which the thing had happened.
Meanwhile he needed refreshment, a bath, and rest. The
sleepless night, the journey to Ostrianum, the flight from the
Trans-Tiber, had wearied him exceedingly.
One thing gave him permanent comfort: he had on his person two
purses, -- that which Vinicius had given him at home, and that
which he had thrown him on the way from the cemetery. In view
of this happy circumstance, and of all the excitement through
which he had passed, he resolved to eat abundantly, and drink
better wine than he drank usually.
When the hour for opening the wine-shop came at last, he did so in
such a marked measure that he forgot the bath; he wished to sleep,
above all, and drowsiness overcame his strength so that he
returned with tottering step to his dwelling in the Subura, where a
slave woman, purchased with money obtained from Vinicius, was
waiting for him.
When he had entered a sleeping-room, as dark as the den of a fox,
be threw himself on the bed, and fell asleep in one instant. He
woke only in the evening, or rather he was roused by the slave
woman, who called him to rise, for some one was inquiring, and
wished to see him on urgent business.
The watchful Chilo came to himself in one moment, threw on his
hooded mantle hastily, and, commanding the slave woman to stand
aside, looked out cautiously.
And he was benumbed! for he saw before the door of the
sleeping-room the gigantic form of Ursus.
At that sight he felt his feet and head grow icy-cold, the heart
ceased to beat in his bosom, and shivers were creeping along his
back. For a time he was unable to speak; then with chattering teeth
he said, or rather groaned, -- "Syra -- I am not at home -- I don't
know that -- good man--"
"I told him that thou wert at home, but asleep, lord," answered the
girl; "he asked to rouse thee."
"O gods! I will command that thou --"
But Ursus, as if impatient of delay, approached the door of the
sleeping-room, and, bending, thrust in his head.
"O Chilo Chilonides!" said he.
"Pax tecum! pax! pax!" answered Chio. "O best of Christians! Yes,
I am Chilo; but this is a mistake, -- I do not know thee!"
"Chilo Chilonides," repeated Ursus, "thy lord, Vinicius, summons
thee to go with me to him."
A PIERCING pain roused Vinicius. At the first moment he could
not understand where he was, nor what was happening. He felt a
roaring in his head, and his eyes were covered as if with mist.
Gradually, however, his consciousness returned, and at last he
beheld through that mist three persons bending over him. Two he
recognized: one was Ursus, the other the old man whom he had
thrust aside when carrying off Lygia. The third, an utter stranger,
was holding his left arm, and feeling it from the elbow upward as
far as the shoulder-blade. This caused so terrible a pain that
Vinicius, thinking it a kind of revenge which they were taking,
said through his set teeth, "Kill me!" But they paid no apparent
heed to his words, just as though they heard them not, or
considered them the usual groans of suffering. Ursus, with his
anxious and also threatening face of a barbarian, held a bundle of
white cloth torn in long strips. The old man spoke to the person
who was pressing the arm of Vinicius, -- "Glaucus, art thou certain
that the wound in the head is not mortal?"
"Yes, worthy Crispus," answered Glaucus. "While serving in the
fleet as a slave, and afterward while living at Naples, I cured many
wounds, and with the pay which came to me from that occupation
I freed myself and my relatives at last. The wound in the head is
slight. When this one he pointed to Ursus with his head] took the
girl from the young man, he pushed him against the wall; the
young man while falling put out his arm, evidently to save himself;
he broke and disjointed it, but by so doing saved his head and his
life."
"Thou hast had more than one of the brotherhood in thy care,"
added Crispus, "and hast the repute of a skilful physician;
therefore I sent Ursus to bring thee."
"Ursus, who on the road confessed that yesterday he was ready to
kill me!"
"He confessed his intention earlier to me than to thee; but I, who
know thee and thy love for Christ, explained to him that the traitor
is not thou, but the unknown, who tried to persuade him to
murder."
"That was an evil spirit, but I took him for an angel," said Ursus,
with a sigh.
"Some other time thou wilt tell me, but now we must think of this
wounded man." Thus speaking, he began to set the arm. Though
Crispus sprinkled water on his face, Vinicius fainted repeatedly
from suffering; that was, however, a fortunate circumstance, since
he did not feel the pain of putting his arm into joint, nor of setting
it. Glaucus fixed the limb between two strips of wood, which he
bound quickly and firmly, so as to keep the arm motionless. When
the operation was over, Vinicius recovered consciousness again
and saw
Lygia above him. She stood there at the bed holding a brass basin
with water, in which from time to time Glaucus dipped a sponge
and moistened the head of his patient.
Vinicius gazed and could not believe his eyes. What he saw
seemed a dream, or the pleasant vision brought by fever, and only
after a long time could he whisper, -- "Lygia!"
The basin trembled in her hand at that sound, but she turned on
him eyes full of sadness.
"Peace be with thee!" answered she, in a low voice.
She stood there with extended arms, her face full of pity and
sorrow. But he gazed, as if to fill his sight with her, so that after
his lids were closed the picture might remain under them. He
looked at her face, paler and smaller than it had been, at the tresses
of dark hair, at the poor dress of a laboring woman; he looked so
intently tha: her snowy forehead began to grow rose-colored under
the influence of his look. And first he thought that he would love
her always; and second, that that paleness of hers and that poverty
were his work, -- that it was he who had driven her from a house
where she was loved, and surrounded with plenty and comfort, and
thrust her into that squalid room, and clothed her in that poor robe
of dark wool.
He would have arrayed her in the costliest brocade, in all the
jewels of the earth; hence astonishment, alarm, and pity seized
him, and sorrow so great that he would have fallen at her feet had
he been able to move.
"Lygia," said he, "thou didst not permit my death."
"May God return health to thee," she answered, with sweetness.
For Vinicius, who had a feeling both of those wrongs which he had
inflicted on her formerly, and those which he had wished to inflict
on her recently, there was a real balsam in Lygia's words. He forgot
at the moment that through her mouth Christian teaching might
speak; he felt only that a beloved woman was speaking, and that in
her answer there was a special tenderness, a goodness simply
prcterhuman, which shook him to the depth of his soul. As just
before he had grown weak from pain, so now he grew weak from
emotion. A certain faintness came on him, at once immense and
agreeable. He felt as if falling into some abyss, but he felt that to
fall was pleasant, and that he was happy. He thought at that
moment of weakness that a divinity was standing above him.
Meanwhile Glaucus had finished washing the wound in his head,
and had applied a healing ointment. Ursus took the brass basin
from Lygia's hands; she brought a cup of water and wine which
stood ready on the table, and put it to the wounded man's lips.
Vinicius drank eagerly, and felt great relief. After the operation the
pain had almost passed; the wound and contusion began to grow
firm; perfect consciousness returned to him.
"Give me another drink," said he.
Lygia took the empty cup to the next room; meanwhile Crispus,
after a few words with Glaucus, approached the bed saying, --
"God has not permitted thee, Vinicius, to accomplish an evil deed,
and has preserved thee in life so that thou shouldst come to thy
mind. He, before whom man is but dust, delivered thee defenceless
into our hands; but Christ, in whom we believe, commanded us to
love even our enemies. Therefore we have dressed thy wounds,
and, as Lygia has said, we will implore God to restore thy health,
but we cannot watch over thee longer. Be in peace, then, and think
whether it beseems thee to continue thy pursuit of Lygia. Thou
hast deprived her of guardians, and us of a roof, though we return
thee good for evil."
"Do ye wish to leave me? inquired Vinicius.
"We wish to leave this house, in which prosecution by the prefect
of the city may reach us. Thy companion was killed; thou, who art
powerful among thy own people, art wounded. This did not happen
through our fault, but the anger of the law might fall on us."
"Have no fear of prosecution," replied Vinicius; "I will protect
you."
Crispus did not like to tell him that with them it was not only a
question of the prefect and the police, but of him; they wished to
secure Lygia from his further pursuit.
"Lord," said he, "thy right arm is well. Here are tablets and a stilus;
write to thy servants to bring a litter this evening and bear thee to
thy own house, where thou wilt have more comfort than in our
poverty. We dwell here with a poor widow, who will return soon
with her son, and this youth will take thy letter; as to us, we must
all find another hiding-place."
Vinicius grew pale, for he understood that they wished to separate
him from Lygia, and that if he lost her now he might never see her
in life again. He knew indeed that things of great import had come
between him and her, in virtue of which, if he wished to possess
her, he must seek some new methods which he had not had time
yet to think over. He understood too that whatever he might tell
these people, though he should swear that he would return Lygia to
Pomponia Graecina, they would not believe him, and were
justified in refusing belief. Moreover, he might have done that
before. Instead of hunting for Lygia, he might have gone to
Pomponia and sworn to her that he renounced pursuit, and in that
case Pomponia herself would have found Lygia and brought her
home. No; he felt that such promises would not restrain them, and
no solemn oath would be received, the more since, not being a
Christian, he could swear only by the immortal gods, in whom he
did not himself believe greatly, and whom they considered evil
spirits.
He desired desperately to influence Lygia and her guardians in
some way, but for that there was need of time. For him it was
all-important to see her, to look at her for a few days even. As
every fragment of a plank or an oar seems salvation to a drowning
man, so to him it seemed that during those few days he might say
something to bring him nearer to her, that he might think out
something, that something favorable might happen. Hence he
collected his thoughts and said, --
"Listen to me, Christians. Yesterday I was with you in Ostrianum,
and I heard your teaching; but though I did not know it, your deeds
have convinced me that you are honest and good people. Tell that
widow who occupies this house to stay in it, stay in it yourselves,
and let me stay. Let this man turned to Glaucus], who is a
physician, or at least understands the care of wounds, tell whether
it is possible to carry me from here to-day. I am sick, I have a
broken arm, which must remain immovable for a few days even;
therefore I declare to you that I will not leave this house unless you
bear me hence by force!"
Here he stopped, for breath failed in his breast, and Crispus said, --
"We will use no force against thee, lord; we will only take away
our own heads."
At this the young man, unused to resistance, frowned and said, --
"Permit me to recover breath"; and after a time he began again to
speak, -- "Of Croton, whom Ursus killed, no one will inquire. He
had to go to-day to Beneventum, whither he was summoned by
Vatinius, therefore all will think that he has gone there. When I
entered this house in company with Croton, no one saw us except a
Greek who was with us in Ostrianum. I will indicate to you his
lodgings; bring that man to me. On him I will enjoin silence; he is
paid by me. I will send a letter to my own house stating that I too
went to Beneventum. If the Greek has informed the prefect
already, I will declare that I myself killed Croton, and that it was
he who broke my arm. I will do this, by my father's shade and by
my mother's! Ye may remain in safety here; not a hair will fall
from the head of one of you. Bring hither, and bring in haste, the
Greek whose name is Chilo Chionides!"
"Then Glaucus will remain with thee," said Crispus, "and the
widow will nurse thee."
"Consider, old man, what I say," said Vinicius, who frowned still
more. "I owe thee gratitude, and thou seemest good and honest; but
thou dost not tell me what thou hast in the bottom of thy soul.
Thou art afraid lest I summon my slaves and command them to
take Lygia. Is this true?"
"It is," said Crispus, with sternness.
"Then remember this, I shall speak before all to Chilo, and write a
letter home that I have gone to Beneventum. I shall have no
messengers hereafter but you. Remember this, and do not irritate
me longer."
Here he was indignant, and his face was contorted with anger.
Afterward he began to speak excitedly, -- "Hast thou thought that I
would deny that I wish to stay here to see her?
A fool would have divined that, even had I denied it. But I will not
try to take her by force any longer. I will tell thee more: if she will
not stay here,
I will tear the bandages with this sound hand from my arm, will
take neither food nor drink; let my death fall on thee and thy
brethren. Why hast thou nursed me? Why hast thou not
commanded to kifi me?" He grew pale from weakness and anger.
Lygia, who had heard all from the other room and who was certain
that Vinicius would do what he promised, was terrified. She would
not have him die for anything. Wounded and defenceless, he
roused in her compassion, not fear. Living from the time of her
flight among people in continual religious enthusiasm, thinking
only of sacrifices, offerings, and boundless charity, she had grown
so excited herself through that new inspiration, that for her it took
the place of house, family, lost happiness, and made her one of
those Christian maidens who, later on, changed the former soul of
the world. Vinicius had been too important in her fate, had been
thrust too much on her, to let her forget him. She had thought of
him whole days, and more than once had begged God for the
moment in which, following the inspiration of religion, she might
return good for his evil, mercy for his persecution, break him, win
him to Christ, save him. And now it seemed to her that precisely
that moment had come, and that her prayers had been heard.
She approached Crispus therefore with a face as if inspired, and
addressed him as though some other voice spoke through her, --
"Let him stay among us, Crispus, and we will stay with him till
Christ gives him health."
The old presbyter, accustomed to seek in all things the inspiration
of God, beholding her exaltation, thought at once that perhaps a
higher power was speaking through her, and, fearing in his heart,
he bent his gray head, saymg, -- "Let it be as thou sayest."
On Vinicius, who the whole time had not taken his eyes from her,
this ready obedience of Crispus produced a wonderful and
pervading impression. it seemed to him that among the Christians
Lygia was a kind of sibyl or priestess whom they surrounded with
obedience and honor; and he yielded himself also to that honor. To
the love which he felt was joined now a certain awe, in presence of
which love itself became something almost insolent. He could not
familiarize himself, however, with the thought that their relations
had changed: that now not she was dependent on his will, but he
on hers; that he was lying there sick and broken; that he had
ceased to be an attacking, a conquering force; that he was like a
defenceless child in her care. For his proud and commanding
nature such relations with any other person would have been
humiliating; now, however, not only did he not feel humiliated,
but he was thankful to her as to his sovereign. In him those were
feelings unheard-of, feelings which he could not have entertained
the day before, and which would have amazed him even on that
day had he been able to analyze them clearly. But he did not
inquire at the moment why it was so, just as if the position had
been perfectly natural; he merely felt happy because he remained
there.
And he wished to thank her with gratefulness, and still with a kind
of feeling unknown to him in such a degree that he knew not what
to call it, for it was simply submission. His previous excitement
had so exhausted him that he could not speak, and he thanked her
only with his eyes, which were gleaming from delight because he
remained near her, and would be able to see her -- to-morrow, next
day, perhaps a long time. That delight was diminished only by the
dread that he might lose what he had gained. So great was this
dread that when Lygia gave him water a second time, and the wish
seized him to take her hand, he feared to do so. He feared! he,
that Vinicius who at CTsar's feast had kissed her lips in spite of
her! he, that Vinicius who after her flight had promised himself to
drag her by the hair to the cubiculum, or give command to flog
her!
BUT he began also to fear that some outside force might disturb
his delight. Chilo might give notice of his disappearance to the
prefect of the city, or to his freedmen at home; and in such an
event an invasion of the house by the city guards was likely.
Through his head flew the thought, it is true, that in that event he
might give command to seize Lygia and shut her up in his house,
but he felt that he ought not to do so, and he was not capable of
acting thus. He was tyrannical, insolent, and corrupt enough, if
need be he was inexorable, but he was not Tigellinus or Nero.
Military life had left in him a certain feeling of justice, and
religion, and a conscience to understand that such a deed would be
monstrously mean. He would have been capable, perhaps, of
committing such a deed during an access of anger and while in
possession of his strength, but at that moment he was filled with
tenderness, and was sick. The only question for Vinicius at that
time was that no one should stand between him and Lygia.
He noticed, too, with astonishment, that from the moment when
Lygia had taken his part, neither she herself nor Crispus asked
from him any assurances, just as if they felt confident that, in case
of need, some superhuman power would defend them. The young
tribune, in whose head the distinction bctwcen things possible and
impossible had grown involved and faint since the discourse of the
Apostle in Ostrianum, was also not too far from supposing that
that might take place. But considering things more soberly, he
remembered what he had said of the Greek, and asked again that
Chilo be brought to him.
Crispus agrecd, and they decided to send Ursus. Vinicius, who in
recent days, before his visit to Ostrianum, had sent slaves
frequently to Chilo, though without result, indicated his lodgings
accurately to the Lygian; then writing a few words on the tablet, he
said, turning to Crispus, -- "I give a tablet, for this man is
suspicious and cunning. Frequently when summoned by me, he
gave directions to answer my people that he was not at home; he
did so always when he had no good news for me, and feared my
anger."
"If I find him, I will bring him, willing or unwilling," said Ursus.
Then, taking his mantle, he went out hurriedly.
To find any one in Rome was not easy, even with the most
accurate directions; but in those cases the instinct of a hunter aided
Ursus, and also his great knowledge of the city. After a certain
time, therefore, he found himself at Chilo's lodgings.
He did not recognize Chio, however. He had seen him but once in
his life before, and moreover, in the night. Besides, that lofty and
confident old man who had persuaded him to murder Glaucus was
so unlike the Greek, bent double from terror, that rio one could
suppose the two to be one person. Chio, noticing that Ursus looked
at him as a perfect stranger, recovered from his first fear. The sight
of the tablet, with the writing of Vinicius, calmed him still more.
At least the suspicion that he would take him into an ambush
purposely did not trouble him. He thought, besides, that the
Christians had not killed Vinicius, evidently because they had not
dared to raise hands on so noted a person.
"And then Vinicius will protect me in case of need," thought he;
"of course he does not send to deliver me to death."
Summoning some courage, therefore, he said: "My good man, has
not my friend the noble Vinicius sent a litter? My feet are swollen;
I cannot walk so far."
"He has not," answered Ursus; "we shall go on foot."
"But if I refuse?"
"Do not, for thou wilt have to go."
"And I will go, but of my own will. No one could force me, for I
am a free man, and a friend of the prefect of the city. As a sage, I
have also means to overcome others, and I know how to turn
people into trees and wild beasts. But I will go, I will go! I will
only put on a mantle somewhat warmer, and a hood, lest the slaves
of that quarter might recognize me; they would stop me every
moment to kiss my hands."
He put on a new mantle then, and let down a broad Gallic hood,
lest Ursus might recognize his features on coming into clearer
light.
"Where wilt thou take me?" asked he on the road.
"To the Trans-Tiber."
"I am not long in Rome, and I have never been there, but there too,
of course, live men who love virtue."
But Ursus, who was a simple man, and had heard Vinicius say that
the Greek had been with him in Ostrianum, and had seen him with
Croton enter the house in which Lygia lived, stopped for a moment
and said, -- "Speak no untruth, old man, for to-day thou wert with
Vinicius in Ostrianum and under our gate."
"Ah!" said Chilo, "then is your house in the Trans-Tiber? I have
not been long in Rome, and know not how the different parts are
named. That is true, friend; I was under the gate, and implored
Vinicius in the name of virtue not to enter. I was in Ostrianum, and
dost thou know why? I am working for a certain time over the
conversion of Vinicius, and wished him to hear the chief of the
Apostles. May the light penetrate his soul and thine~ But thou art a
Christian, and wishest truth to overcome falsehood."
"That is true," answered Ursus, with humility.
Courage returned to Chilo completely.
"Vinicius is a powerful lord," said he, "and a friend of Caesar. He
listens often yet to the whisperings of the wil spirit; but if even a
hair should fall from his head, Caesar would take vengeance on all
the Christians."
"A higher power is protecting us."
"Surely, surely! But what do ye intend to do with Vinicius?"
inquired Chio, with fresh alarm.
"I know not. Christ commands mercy."
"Thou hast answered excellently. Think of this always, or thou wilt
fry in hell like a sausage in a frying-pan."
Ursus sighed, and Chilo thought that he could always do what he
liked with that man, who was terrible at the moment of his first
outburst. So, wishing to know what happened at the seizing of
Lygia, he asked further, in the voice of a stern judge, -- "How did
ye treat Croton? Speak, and do not prevaricate." Ursus sighed a
second time. "Vinicius will tell thee." "That means that thou didst
stab him with a knife, or kill him with a club." "I was without
arms."
The Greek could not resist amazement at the superhuman strength
of the barbarian.
"May Pluto--that is to say, may Christ pardon thee!"
They went on for some time in silence; then Chilo said:
"I will not betray thee; but have a care of the watches."
"I fear Christ, not the watches."
"And that is proper. There is no more grievous crime than murder.
I will pray for thee; but I know not if even niy prayer can be
effective, unless thou make a vow never to touch any one in life
with a finger."
"As it is, I have not killed purposely," answered Ursus.
But Chilo, who desired to secure himself in every case, did not
cease to condemn murder, and urge Ursus to make the vow. He
inquired also about Vinicius; but the Lygian answered his inquiries
unwillingly, repeating that from Vinicius himself he would hear
what he needed. Speaking in this way, they passed at last the long
road which separated the lodgings of the Greek from the
Trans-Tiber, and found themselves before the house. Chio's heart
began to beat again unquietly. From dread it seemed to him that
Ursus was beginning to look at him with a kind of greedy
expression.
"It is small consolation to me," said he to himself, "if he kills me
unwillingly. I prefer in every case that paralysis should strike him,
and with him all the Lygians, -- which do thou effect, O Zeus, if
thou art able."
Thus meditating, he wrapped himself more closely in his Gallic
mantle, repeating that he feared the cold. Finally, when they had
passed the entrance and the first court, and found themselves in the
corridor leading to the garden of the little house, he halted
suddenly and said, -- "Let me draw breath, or I shall not be able to
speak with Vinicius and give him saving advice."
He halted; for though he said to himself that no danger threatened,
still his legs trembled under him at the thought that he was among
those mysterious people whom he had seen in Ostrianum.
Meanwhile a hymn came to their ears from the little house.
"What is that?" inquired Chilo.
"Thou sayest that thou art a Christian, and knowest not that among
us it is the custom after every meal to glorify our Saviour with
singing," answered Ursus. "Miriam and her son must have
returned, and perhaps the Apostle is with them, for he visits the
widow and Crispus every day."
"Conduct me directly to Vinicius."
"Vinicius is in the same room with all, for that is the only large
one; the others are very small chambers, to which we go only to
sleep. Come in; thou wilt rest there."
They entered. It was rather dark in the room; the evening was
cloudy and cold, the flames of a few candles did not dispel the
darkness altogether. Vinicius divined rather than recognized Chilo
in the hooded man. Chio, seeing the bed in the corner of the room,
and on it Vinicius, moved toward him directly, not looking at the
others, as if with the conviction that it would be safest near him.
"Oh, lord, why didst thou not listen to my counsels?" exclaimed
he, putting his hands together.
"Silence!" said Vinicius, "and listen!"
Here he looked sharply into Chio's eyes, and spoke slowly with
emphasis, as if wishing the Greek to understand every word of his
as a command, and to keep it forever in memory.
"Croton threw himself on me to kill and rob me, dost understand? I
killed him then, and these people dressed the wounds which I
received in the struggle."
Chilo understood in a moment that if Vinicius spoke in this way it
must be in virtue of some agreement with the Christians, and in
that case he wished people to believe him. He saw this, too, from
his face; hence in one moment, without showing doubt or
astonishment, he raised his eyes and exclaimed, -- "That was a
faith-breaking ruffian! But I warned thee, lord, not to trust him; my
teachings bounded from his head as do peas when thrown against a
wall. In all Hades there are not torments enough for him. He who
cannot be honest must be a rogue; what is more difficult than for a
rogue to become honest? But to fall on his benefactor, a lord so
magnanimous --O gods!"
Here he remembered that he had represented himself to Ursus on
the way as a Christian, and stopped.
"Were it not for the 'sica,' which I brought, he would have slain
me," said Vinicius.
"I bless the moment in which I advised thee to take a knife even."
Vinicius turned an inquiring glance on the Greek, and asked, --
"What hast thou done to-day?"
"How? What! have I not told thee, lord, that I made a vow for thy
health?"
"Nothing more?"
"I was just preparing to visit thee, when this good man came and
said that thou hadst sent for me."
"Here is a tablet. Thou wilt go with it to my house; thou wilt find
my freedman and give it to him. It is written on the tablet that I
have gone to Beneventum. Thou wit tell Demas from thyself that I
went this morning, summoned by an urgent letter from Petronius."
Here he repeated with emphasis: "I have gone to Beneventum, dost
understand?"
"Thou has gone, lord. This morning I took leave of thee at the
Porta Capena, and from the time of thy departure such sadness
possesses me that if thy magnanimity will not soften it, I shall cry
myself to death, like the unhappy wife of Zethos 1 in grief for
Itylos."
Vinicius, though sick and accustomed to the Greek's suppleness,
could not repress a smile. He was glad, moreover, that Chio
understood in a flash; hence he said,-.--
"Therefore I will write that thy tears be wiped away. Give me the
candle." Chilo, now pacified perfectly, rose, and, advancing a few
steps toward the chimney, took one of the candles which was
burning at the wall. But while he was doing this, the hood slipped
from his head, and the light fell directly on his face. Glaucus
sprang from his seat and, coming up quickly, stood before him.
"Dost thou not recognize me, Cephas?" asked he. In his voice there
was something so terrible that a shiver ran through all present.
Chilo raised the candle, and dropped it to the earth almost the
same instant; then he bent nearly double and began to groan, -- "I
am not he--I am not he! Mercy!"
Glaucus turned toward the faithful, and said, -- "This is the man
who betrayed -- who ruined me and my family!"
That history was known to all the Christians and to Vinicius, who
had not guessed who that Glaucus was, -- for this reason only, that
he fainted repeatedly from pain during the dressing of his wound,
and had not heard his name. But for Ursus that short moment, with
the words of Glaucus, was like a lightning-flash in darkness.
Recognizing Chio, he was at his side with one spring, and, seizing
his arm, bent it back, exclaiming, -- "This is the man who
persuaded me to kill Glaucus!"
"Mercy!" groaned Chilo. "I will give you -- O lord!" exclaimed he,
turning his head to Vinicius, "save me! I trusted in thee, take my
part. Thy letter -- I will deliver it. O lord, lord!"
But Vinicius, who looked with more indifference than any one at
what was passing, first because all the affairs of the Greek were
more or less known to him, and second because his heart knew not
what pity was, said, -- "Bury him in the garden; some one else will
take the letter."
It seemed to Chilo that those words were his final sentence. His
bones were shaking in the terrible hands of Ursus; his eyes were
filled with tears from pain.
"By your God, pity!" cried he; "I am a Christian! Par vobiscum! I
am a Christian; and if ye do riot believe me, baptize me again,
baptize me twice, ten times! Glaucus, that is a mistake! Let me
speak, make me a slave! Do not kill me! Have mercy!"
His voice, stifled with pain, was growing weaker and weaker,
when the Apostle Peter rose at the table; for a moment his white
head shook, drooping toward his breast, and his eyes were closed;
but he opened them then, and said amid silence, -- "The Saviour
said this to us: 'If thy brother has sinned against thee, chastise
him; but if he is repentant, forgive him. And if he has offended
seven times in the day against thee, and has turned to thee seven
times, saying, "Have mercy on me!" forgive him.'"
Then came a still deeper silence. Glaucus remained a long time
with his hands covering his face; at last he removed them and said,
-- "Cephas, may God forgive thy offences, as I forgive them in the
name of Christ."
Ursus, letting go the arms of the Greek, added at once:
"May the Saviour be merciful to thee as I forgive thee."
Chilo dropped to the ground, and, supported on it with his hands,
turned his head like a wild beast caught in a snare, looking around
to see whence death might come. He did not trust his eyes and ears
yet, and dared not hope for forgiveness. Consciousness returned to
him slowly; his blue lips were still trembling from terror.
"Depart in peace!" said the Apostle, meanwhile.
Chilo rose, but could not speak. He approached the bed of
Vinicius,
as if seeking protection in it still; for he had not time yet to think
that that man, though he had used his services and was still his
accomplice, condemned him, while those against whom he had
acted forgave. This thought was to come to him later. At present
simply astonishment and incredulity were evident in his look.
Though he had seen that they forgave him, he wished to bear away
his head at the earliest from among these incomprehensible
people, whose kindness terrified him almost as much as their
cruelty would have terrified. It seemed to him that should he
remain longer, something unexpected would happen again; hence,
standing above Vinicius, he said with a broken voice, -- "Give the
letter, lord,--give the letter!" And snatching the tablet which
Vinicius handed him, he made one obeisance to the Christians,
another to the sick man, pushed along sidewise by the very wall,
and hurried out through the door. In the garden, when darkness
surrounded him, fear raised the hair on his head again, for he felt
sure that Ursus would rush out and kill him in the night. He would
have run with all his might, but his legs would not move; next
moment they were perfectly uncontrollable, for Ursus stood near
him really.
Chilo fell with his face to the earth, and began to groan: "Urban --
in Christ's name" -- But Urban said: "Fear not. The Apostle
commanded me to lead thee out beyond the gate, lest thou might
go astray in the darkness, and, if strength failed thee, to conduct
thee home."
"What dost thou say?" asked Chilo, raising his face. "What? Thou
wilt not kill me?"
"No, I will not; and if I seized thee too roughly and harmed a bone
in thee, pardon me."
"Help me to rise," said the Greek. "Thou wilt not kill me? Thou
wilt not? Take me to the Street; I will go farther alone."
Ursus raised him as he might a feather, and placed him on his feet;
then he conducted him through the dark corridor to the second
court. From there was a passage to the entrance and the street. In
the corridor Chilo repeated again in his soul, "It is all over with
me!" Only when he found himself on the street did he recover and
say, "I can go on alone."
"Peace be with thee."
"And with thee! and with thee! Let me draw breath."
And after Ursus had gone, he breathed with a full breast. He felt
his waist and hips, as if to convince himself that he was living, and
then moved forward with hurried step.
"But why did they not kill me?" And in spite of all his talk with
Euricius about Christian teaching, in spite of his conversation at
the river with Urban, and in spite of all that he had heard in
Ostrianum, he could find no answer to that question.
NEITHER could Vinicius discover the cause of what had
happened; and in the bottom of his soul he was almost as much
astonishe& as Chio. That those people should treat him as they
had, and, instead of avenging his attack, dress his wounds
carefully, he ascribed partly to the doctrine which they confessed,
more to Lygia, and a little, also, to his great significance. But their
conduct with Chilo simply went beyond his understanding of man's
power of forgiveness. And the question thrust itself into his mind:
Why did they not kill the Greek? They might have killed him with
impunity. Ursus would have buried him in the garden, or borne
him in the dark to the Tiber, which during that period of
night-murders, committed by Caesar himself even, cast up human
bodies so frequently in the morning that no one inquired whence
they came. To his thinking, the Christians had not only the power,
but the right to kill Chio. True, pity was not entirely a stranger to
that world to which the young patrician belonged. The Athenians
raised an altar to pity, and opposed for a long time the introduction
of gladiatorial combats into Athens. In Rome itself the conquered
received pardon sometimes, as, for in-stance, Calicratus, king of
the Britons, who, taken prisoner in the time of Claudius, and
provided for by him bountifully, dwelt in the city in freedom. But
vengeance for a personal wrong seemed to Vinicius, as to all,
proper and justified. The neglect of it was entirely opposed to his
spirit. True, he had heard in Ostrianum that one should love even
enemies; that, however, he considered as a kind of theory without
application in life. And now this passed through his head: that
perhaps they had not killed Chilo because the day was among
festivals, or was in some period of the moon during which it was
not proper for Christians to kill a man. He had heard that there are
days among various nations on which it is not permitted to begin
war even. But why, in such a case, did they not deliver the Greek
up to justice? Why did the Apostle say that if a man offended
seven times, it was necessary to forgive him seven times; and why
did Glaucus say to Chio, "May God forgive thee, as I forgive
thee"?
Chilo had done him the most terrible wrong that one man could do
another. At the very thought of how he would act with a man who
killed Lygia, for instance, the heart of Vinicius seethed up, as does
water in a caldron; there were no torments which he would not
inflict in his vengeance! But Glaucus had forgiven; Ursus, too, had
forgiven, -- Ursus, who might in fact kill whomever he wished in
Rome with perfect impunity, for all he needed was to kill the king
of the grove in Nemi, and take his place. Could the gladiator
holding that office to which he had succeeded only by killing the
previous "king," resist the man whom Croton could not resist?
There was only one answer to all these questions: that they
refrained from killing him through a goodness so great that the like
of it had not been in the world up to that time, and through an
unbounded love of man, which commands to forget one's self,
one's wrongs, one's happiness and misfortune, and live for others.
What reward those people were to receive for this, Vinicius heard
in Ostrianum, but he could not understand it. He felt, however, that
the earthly life connected with the duty of renouncing everything
good and rich for the benefit of others must be wretched. So in
what he thought of the Christians at that moment, besides the
greatest astonishment, there was pity, and as it were a shade of
contempt. It seemed to him that they were sheep which earlier or
later must be eaten by wolves; his Roman nature could yield no
recognition to people who let themselves be devoured. This one
thing struck him, however, -- that after Chilo's departure the faces
of all were bright with a certain deep joy. The Apostle approached
Glaucus, placed his hand on his head, and said, -- "In thee Christ
has triumphed."
The other raised his eyes, which were full of hope, and as bright
with joy as if some great unexpected happiness had been poured
on him. Vinicius, who could understand only joy or delight born of
vengeance, looked on him with eyes staring from fever, and
somewhat as he would on a madman. He saw, however, and saw
not without internal indignation, that Lygia pressed her lips of a
queen to the hand of that man, who had the appearance of a slave;
and it seemed to him that the order of the world was inverted
utterly. Next Ursus told how he had conducted Chilo to the street,
and had asked forgiveness for the harm which he might have done
his bones; for this the Apostle blessed him also. Crispus declared
that it was a day of great victory. Hearing of this victory, Vinicius
lost the thread of his thought altogether.
But when Lygia gave him a cooling draught again, he held her
hand for a moment, and asked, -- "Then must thou also forgive
me?" "We are Christians; it is not permitted us to keep anger in the
heart." "Lygia," said he, "whoever thy God is, I honor Him only
because He is thine."
"Thou wilt honor Him in thy heart when thou lovest Him."
"Only because He is thine," repeated Vinicius, in a fainter voice;
and he closed his eyes, for weakness had mastered him again.
Lygia went out, but returned after a time, and bent over him to
learn if he were sleeping. Vinicius, feeling that she was near,
opened his eyes and smiled. She placed her hand over them lightly,
as if to incline him to slumber. A great sweetness seized him then;
but soon he felt more grievously ill than before, and was very ill in
reality. Night had come, and with it a more violent fever. He could
not sleep, and followed Lygia with his eyes wherever she went.
At times he fell into a kind of doze, in which he saw and heard
everything which happened around him, but in which reality was
mingled with feverish dreams. It seemed to him that in some old,
deserted cemetery stood a temple, in the form of a tower, in which
Lygia was priestess. He did not take his eyes from her, but saw her
on the summit of the tower, with a lute in her hands, all in the
light, like those priestesses who in the night-time sing hymns in
honor of the moon, and whom he had seen in the Orient. He
himself was climbing up winding steps, with great effort, to bear
her away with him. Behind was creeping up Chio, with teeth
chattering from terror, and repeating, "Do not do that, lord; she is a
priestess, for whom He will take vengeance." Vinicius did not
know who that He was, but he understood that he himself was
going to commit some sacrilege, and he felt a boundless fear also.
But when he went to the balustrade surrounding the summit of the
tower, the Apostle with his silvery beard stood at Lygia's side on a
sudden, and said:
"Do not raise a hand; she belongs to me." Then he moved forward
with her, on a path formed by rays from the moon, as if on a path
made to heaven. He stretched his hands toward them, and begged
both to take him into their company.
Here he woke, became conscious, and looked before him. The
lamp on the tall staff shone more dimly, but still cast a light
sufficiently clear. All were sitting in front of the fire warming
themselves, for the night was chilly, and the chamber rather cold.
Vinicius saw the breath coming as steam from their lips. In the
midst of them sat the Apostle; at his knees, on a low footstool, was
Lygia; farther on, Glaucus, Crispus, Miriam, and at the edge, on
one side Ursus, on the other Miriam's son Nazarius, a youth with a
handsome face, and long, dark hair reaching down to his
shoulders.
Lygia listened with eyes raised to the Apostle, and every head was
turned toward him, while he told something in an undertone.
Vinicius gazed at Peter with a certain superstitious awe, hardly
inferior to that terror which he felt during the fever dream. The
thought passed through his mind that that dream had touched truth;
that the gray-haired man there, freshly come from distant shores,
would take Lygia from him really, and take her somewhere away
by unknown paths. He felt sure also that the old man was speaking
of him, perhaps telling how to separate him from Lygia, for it
seemed to him impossible that any one could speak of aught else.
Hence, collecting all his presence of mind, he listened to Peter's
words.
But he was mistaken altogether, for the Apostle was speaking of
Christ again.
"They live only through that name," thought Vinicius.
The old man was describing the seizure of Christ. "A company
came, and servants of the priest to seize Him. When the Saviour
asked whom they were seeking, they answered, 'Jesus of Nazareth.'
But when He said to them, 'I am He,' they fell on the ground, and
dared not raise a hand on Him. Only after the second inquiry did
they seize Him."
Here the Apostle stopped, stretched his hands toward the fire and
continued: -- "The night was cold, like this one, but the heart in me
was seething; so, drawing a sword to defend Him, I cut an ear from
the servant of the high-priest. I would have defended Him more
than my own life had He not said to me, 'Put thy sword into the
sheath: the cup which my Father has given me, shall I not drink it?'
Then they seized and bound Him."
When he had spoken thus far, Peter placed his palm on his
forehead, and was silent, wishing before he went further to stop
the crowd of his recollections. But Ursus, unable to restrain
himself, sprang to his feet, trimmed the light on the staff till the
sparks scattered in golden rain and the flame shot up with more
vigor. Then he sat down, and exclaimed:
"No matter what happened. I --"
He stopped suddenly, for Lygia had put her finger to her lips. But
he breathed loudly, and it was clear that a storm was in his soul;
and though he was ready at all times to kiss the feet of the Apostle,
that act was one he could not accept; if some one in his presence
had raised hands on the Redeemer, if he had been with Him on
that night -- Oi! splinters would have shot from the soldiers, the
servants of the priest, and the officials. Tears came to his eyes at
the very thought of this, and because of his sorrow and mental
struggle; for on the one hand he thought that he would not only
have defended the Redeemer, but would have called Lygians to his
aid, -- splendid fellows, -- and on the other, if he had acted thus he
would have disobeyed the Redeemer, and hindered the salvation of
man. For this reason he could not keep back his tears.
After a while Peter took his palm from his forehead, and resumed
the narrative. But Vinicius was overpowered by a new feverish,
waking dream. What he heard now was in his mind mixed up with
what the Apostle had told the night previous in Ostrianum, of that
day in which Christ appeared on the shore of the sea of Tiberius.
He saw a sheet of water broadly spread out; on it the boat of a
fisherman, and in the boat Peter and Lygia. He himself was
moving with all his might after that boat, but pain in his broken
arm prevented him from reaching it. The wind hurled waves in his
eyes, he began to sink, and called with entreating voice for rescue.
Lygia knelt down then before the Apostle, who turned his boat,
and reached an oar, which Vinicius seized: with their assistance he
entered the boat and fell on the bottom of it.
It seemed to him, then, that he stood up, and saw a multitude of
people sailing after them. Waves covered their heads with foam; in
the whirl only the hands of a few could be seen; but Peter saved
the drowning time after time, and gathered them into his boat,
which grew larger, as if by a miracle. Soon crowds filled it, as
numerous as those which were collected in Ostrianum, and then
still greater crowds. Vinicius wondered how they could find place
there, and he was afraid that they would sink to the bottom. But
Lygia pacified him by showing him a light on the distant shore
toward which they were sailing. These dream pictures of Vinicius
were blended again with descriptions which he had heard in
Ostrianum, from the lips of the Apostle, as to how Christ had
appeared on the lake once. So that he saw now in that light on the
shore a certain form toward which Peter was steering, and as he
approached it the weather grew calmer, the water grew smoother,
the light became greater. The crowd began to sing sweet hymns;
the air was filled with the odor of nard; the play of water formed a
rainbow, as if from the bottom of the lake lilies and roses were
looking, and at last the boat struck its breast safely against the
sand. Lygia took his hand then, and said, "Come, I will lead thee!"
and she led him to the light.
Vinicius woke again; but his dreaming ceased slowly, and he did
not recover at once the sense of reality. It seemed for a time to
'him that he was still on the lake, and surrounded by crowds,
among which, not knowing the reason himself, he began to look
for Petronius, and was astonished not to find him. The bright light
from the chimney, at which there was no one at that time, brought
him completely to his senses. Olive sticks were burning slowly
under the rosy ashes; but the splinters of pine, which evidently had
been put there some moments before, shot up a bright flame, and
in the light of this, Vinicius saw Lygia, sitting not far from his
bedside.
The sight of her touched him to the depth of his soul. He
remembered that she had spent the night before in Ostrianum, and
had busied herself the whole day in nursing him, and now when all
had gone to rest, she was the only one watching. It was easy to
divine that she must be wearied, for while sitting motionless her
eyes were closed. Vinicius knew not whether she was sleeping or
sunk in thought. He looked at her profile, at her drooping lashes, at
her hands lying on her knees; and in his pagan head the idea began
to hatch with difficulty that at the side of naked beauty, confident,
and proud of Greek and Roman symmetry, there is another in the
world, new, immensely pure, in which a soul has its dwelling.
He could not bring himself so far as to call it Christian, but,
thinking of Lygia, he could not separate her from the religion
which she confessed. He understood, even, that if all the others
had gone to rest, and she alone were watching, she whom he had
injured, it was because her religion commanded her to watch. But
that thought, which filled him with wonder for the religion, was
disagreeable to him. He would rather that Lygia acted thus out of
love for him, his face, his eyes, his statuesque form, -- in a word
for reasons because of which more than once snow-white Grecian
and Roman arms had been wound around his neck.
Still he felt all at once, that, were she like other women, something
would be lacking in her. He was amazed, and knew not what was
happening in him; for he saw that new feelings of some kind were
rising in him, new likings, strange to the world in which he had
lived hitherto.
She opened her eyes then, and, seeing that Vinicius was gazing at
her, she approached him and said, -- "I am with thee."
NEXT morning he woke up weak, but with a cool head and free of
fever. It seemed to him that a whispered conversation had roused
him; but when he opened his eyes, Lygia was not there. Ursus,
stooping before the chimney, was raking apart the gray ashes, and
seeking live coals beneath them. When he found some, he began to
blow, not with his mouth, but as it were with the bellows of a
blacksmith. Vinicius, remembering how that man had crushed
Croton the day before, examined with attention befitting a lover of
the arena his gigantic back, which resembled the back of a
Cyclops, and his limbs strong as columns.
"Thanks to Mercury that my neck was not broken by him," thought
Vinicius. "By Pollux! if the other Lygians are like this one, the
Danubian legions will have heavy work some time!"
But aloud he said, "Hei, slave!"
Ursus drew his head out of the chimney, and, smiling in a manner
almost friendly, said, -- "God give thee a good day, lord, and good
health; but I am a free man, not a slave."
On Vinicius. who wished to question Ursus touching Lygia's
birthplace, these words produced a certain pleasant impression; for
discourse with a free though a common man was less disagreeable
to his Roman and patrician pride, than with a slave, in whom
neither law nor custom recognized human nature.
"Then thou dost not belong to Aulus?" asked he.
"No, lord, I serve Callina, as I served her mother, of my own will."
Here he hid his head again in the chimney, to blow the coals, on
which he had placed some wood. When he had finished, he took it
out and said, -- "With us there are no slaves."
"Where is Lygia?" inquired Vinicius.
"She has gone out, and I am to cook food for thee. She watched
over thee the whole night."
"Why didst thou not relieve her?"
"Because she wished to watch, and it is for me to obey." Here his
eyes grew gloomy, and after a while he added:
"If I had disobeyed her, thou wouldst not be living."
"Art thou sorry for not having killed me?"
"No, lord. Christ has not commanded us to kill."
"But Atacinus and Croton?"
"I could not do otherwise," muttered Ursus. And he looked with
regret on his hands, which had remained pagan evidently, though
his soul had accepted the cross. Then be put a pot on the crane,
and fixed his thoughtful eyes on the fire.
"That was thy fault, lord," said he at last. "Why didst thou raise thy
hand against her, a king's daughter?"
Pride boiled up, at the first moment, in Vinicius, because a
common man and a barbarian had not merely dared to speak to
him thus familiarly, but to blame him in addition. To those
uncommon and improbable things which had met him since
yesterday, was added another. But being weak and without his
slaves, he restrained himself, especially since a wish to learn some
details of Lygia's life gained the upper hand in him.
When he had calmed himself, therefore, he inquired about the war
of the Lygians against Vannius and the Suevi. Ursus was glad to
converse, but could not add much that was new to what in his time
Aulus Plautius had told. Ursus had not been in battle, for he had
attended the hostages to the camp of Atelius Hister. He knew only
that the Lygians had beaten the Suevi and the Yazygi, but that their
leader and king had fallen from the arrows of the Yazygi.
Immediately after they received news that the Semnones had set
fire to forests on their boundaries, they returned in haste to avenge
the wrong, and the hostages remained with Atelius, who ordered at
first to give them kingly honors. Afterward Lygia's mother died.
The Roman commander knew not what to do with the child. Ursus
wished to return with her to their own country, but the road was
unsafe because of wild beasts and wild tribes. When news came
that an embassy of Lygians had visited Pomponius, offering him
aid against the Marcomani, Hister sent him with Lygia to
Pomponius. When they came to him they learned, however, that no
ambassadors had been there, and in that way they remained in the
camp; whence Pomponius took them to Rome, and at the
conclusion of his triumph he gave the king's daughter to Pomponia
Graecina.
Though only certain small details of this narrative had been
unknown to Vinicius, he listened with pleasure, for his enormous
pride of family was pleased that an eye-witness had confirmed
Lygia's royal descent. As a king's daughter she might occupy a
position at Caesar's court equal to the daughters of the very first
families, all the more since the nation whose ruler her father had
been, had not warred with Rome so far, and, though barbarian, it
might become terrible; for, according to Atelius Hister himself, it
possessed an immense force of warriors. Ursus, moreover,
confirmed this completely.
"We live in the woods," said he, in answer to Vinicius, "but we
have so much land that no man knows where the end is, and there
are many people on it. There are also wooden towns in the forest,
in which there is great plenty; for what the Semnones, the
Marcomani, the Vandals, and the Quadi plunder through the
world, we take from them. They dare not come to us; but when the
wind blows from their side, they burn our forests. We fear neither
them nor the Roman Caesar."
"The gods gave Rome dominion over the earth," said Vinicius
severely.
"The gods are evil spirits," replied Ursus, with simplicity, "and
where there are no Romans, there is no supremacy."
Here he fixed the fire, and said, as if to himself, -- "When Caesar
took Callina to the palace, and I thought that harm might meet her,
I wanted to go to the forest and bring Lygians to help the king's
daughter. And Lygians would have moved toward the Danube, for
they are virtuous people though pagan. There I should have given
them 'good tidings.' But as it is, if ever Callina returns to Pomponia
Gra~cina I will bow down to her for permission to go to them; for
Christus was born far away, and they have not even heard of Him.
He knew better than I where He should be born; but if He had
come to the world with us, in the forests, we would not have
tortured Him to death, that is certain. We would have taken care of
the Child, and guarded Him, so that never should He want for
game, mushrooms, beaver-skins, or amber. And what we
plundered from the Suevi and the Marcomani we would have
given Him, so that He might have comfort and plenty."
Thus speaking, he put near the fire the vessel with food for
Vinicius, and was silent. His thoughts wandered evidently, for a
time yet, through the Lygian wildernesses, till the liquid began to
boil; then he poured it into a shallow plate, and, cooling it
properly, said, -- "Glaucus advises thee, lord, to move even thy
sound arm as little as possible; Callina has commanded me to give
thee food."
Lygia commanded! There was no answer to that. It did not even
come to Vinicius's head to oppose her will, just as if she had been
the daughter of Cirsar or a goddess. He uttered not a word,
therefore; and Ursus, sitting near his bed, took out the liquid with a
small cup, and put it to his mouth. He did this so carefully, and
with such a kindly smile, that Vinicius could not believe his own
eyes, could not think him the same terrible Titan who the day
before had crushed Croton, and, rushing on him like a storm,
would have torn him to pieces but for Lygia's pity. The young
patrician, for the first time in life, began to ponder over this: What
can take place in the breast of a simple man, a barbarian, and a
servant?
But Ursus proved to be a nurse as awkward as painstaking; the cup
was lost among his herculean fingers so completely that there was
no place left for the mouth of the sick man. After a few fruitless
efforts the giant was troubled greatly, and said, -- "Li! it would be
easier to lead an aurochs out of a snare." The anxiety of the Lygian
amused Vinicius, but his remark did not interest
hit-n less. He had seen in circuses the terrible urus, brought from
wildernesses of the north, against which the most daring bestiarii
went with dread, and which yielded only to elephants in size and
strength.
"Hast thou tried to take such beasts by the horns?" inquired he,
with astonishment.
"Till the twentieth winter passed over me, I was afraid," answered
Ursus; "but after that it happened."
And he began to feed Vinicius still more awkwardly than before.
"1 must ask Miriam or Nazarius," said he.
But now Lygia's pale face appeared from behind the curtaiil.
"I will assist directly," said she. And after a while she came from
the cubiculum, in which she had been preparing to sleep, as it
seemed, for she was in a single close tunic, called by the ancients
capitium, covering the breast completely, and her hair was
unbound. Vinicius, whose heart beat with more quickness at sight
of her, began to upbraid her for not thinking of sleep yet; but she
answered joyously, -- "I was just preparing to sleep, but first I will
take the place of Ursus."
She took the cup, and, sitting on the edge of the bed, began to give
food to Vinicius, who felt at once overcome and delighted. When
she inclined toward him, the warmth of her body struck him, and
her unbound hair fell on his breast. He grew pale from the
impression; but in the confusion and impulse of desires he felt also
that that was a head dear above all and magnified above all, in
comparison with which the whole world was nothing. At first he
had desired her; now he began to love her with a full breast.
Before that, as generally in life and in feeling, he had been, like all
people of that time, a blind, unconditional egotist, who thought
only of himself; at present he began to think of her.
After a while, therefore, he refused further nourishment; and
though he found inexhaustible delight in her presence and in
looking at her, he said, -- "Enough! Go to rest, my divine one."
"Do not address me in that way," answered Lygia; "it is not proper
for me to hear such words."
She smiled at him, however, and said that sleep had fled from her,
that she felt no toil, that she would not go to rest till Glaucus came.
He listened to her words as to music; his heart rose with increasing
delight, increasing gratitude, and his thought was struggling to
show her that gratitude.
"Lygia," said he, after a moment of silence, "I did not know thee
hitherto. But I know now that I wished to attain thee by a false
way; hence I say, return to Pomponia Graecina, and be assured that
in future no hand will be raised against thee."
Her face became sad on a sudden. "I should be happy," answered
she, "could I look at her, even from a distance; but I cannot return
to her now."
"Why?" inquired Vinicius, with astonishment.
"We Christians know, through Acte, what is done on the Palatine.
Hast thou not heard that Caesar, soon after my flight and before his
departure for Naples, summoned Aulus and Pomponia, and,
thinking that they had helped me, threatened them with his anger?
Fortunately Aulus was able to say to him, 'Thou knowest, lord, that
a lie has never passed my lips; I swear to thee now that we did not
help her to escape, and we do not know, as thou dost not, what has
happened to her.' Caesar believed, and afterward forgot. By the
advice of the elders I have never written to mother where I am, so
that she might take an oath boldly at all times that she has no
knowledge of me. Thou wilt not understand this, perhaps, O
Vinicius; but it is not permitted us to lie, even in a question
involving life. Such is the religion on which we fashion our hearts;
therefore I have not seen Pomponia from the hour when I left her
house. From time to time distant echoes barely reach her that I am
alive and not in danger."
Here a longing seized Lygia, and her eyes were moist with tears;
but she calmed herself quickly, and said, -- "I know that Pomponia,
too, yearns for me; but we have consolation which others have
not."
"Yes," answered Vinicius, "Christ is your consolation, but I do not
understand that."
"Look at us! For us there are no partings, no pains, no sufferings;
or if they come they are turned into pleasure. And death itself,
which for you is the end of life, is for us merely its beginning, --
the exchange of a lower for a higher happiness, a happiness less
calm for one calmer and eternal. Consider what must a religion be
which enjoins on us love even for our enemies, forbids falsehood,
purifies our souls from hatred, and promises happiness
inexhaustible after death."
"I heard those teachings in Ostrianum, and I have seen how ye
acted with me and with Chilo; when I remember your deeds, they
are like a dream, and it seems to me that I ought not to believe my
ears or eyes. But answer me this question: Art thou happy?"
"I am," answered Lygia. "One who confesses Christ cannot be
unhappy." Vinicius looked at her, as though what she said passed
every measure of human understanding.
"And hast thou no wish to return to Pomponia?"
"I should like, from my whole soul, to return to her; and shall
return, if such be God's will."
"I say to thee, therefore, return; and I swear by my lares that I will
not raise a hand against thee."
Lygia thought for a moment, and answered, -- "No, I cannot expose
those near me to danger. Caesar does not like the Plautiuses.
Should I return -- thou knowest how every news is spread
throughout Rome by slaves -- my return would be noised about in
the city. Nero would hear of it surely through his slaves, and
punish Aulus and Pomponia, -- at least take me from them a
second time."
"True," answered Vinicius, frowning, "that would be possible. He
would do so, even to show that his will must be obeyed. It is true
that he only forgot thee, or would remember thee, because the loss
was not his, but mine. Perhaps, if he took thee from Aulus and
Pomponia, he would send thee to mc and I could give thee back to
them."
"Vinicius, wouldst thou see me again on the Palatine?" inquired
Lygia. He set his teeth, and answered, -- "No. Thou art right. I
spoke like a fool! No!" And all at once he saw before him a
precipice, as it were without bottom.
He was a patrician, a military tribune, a powerful man; but above
every power of that world to which he belonged was a madman
whose will and malignity it was impossible to foresee. Only such
people as the Christians might cease to reckon with Nero or fear
him, -- people for whom this whole world, with its separations and
sufferings, was as nothing; people for whom death itself was as
nothing. All others had to tremble before him. The terrors of the
time in which they lived showed themselves to Vinicius in all their
monstrous extent. He could not return Lygia to Aulus and
Pomponia, then, through fear that the monster would remember
her, and turn on her his anger; for the very same reason, if he
should take her as wife, he might expose her, himself, and Aulus.
A moment of ill-humor was enough to ruin all. Vinicius felt, for
the first time in life, that either the world must change and be
transformed, or life would become impossible altogether. He
understood also this, which a moment before had been dark to
him, that in such times only Christians could be happy.
But above all, sorrow seized him, for he understood, too, that it
was he who had so involved his own life and Lygia's that out of the
complication there was scarcely an outcome. And under the
influence of that sorrow he began to speak:
"Dost thou know that thou art happier than I? Thou art in poverty,
arid in this one chamber, among simple people, thou hast thy
religion and thy Christ; but I have only thee, and when I lacked
thee I was like a beggar without a roof above him and without
bread. Thou art dearer to me than the whole world. I sought thee,
for I could not live without thee. I wished neither feasts nor sleep.
Had it not been for the hope of finding thee, I should have cast
myself on a sword. But I fear death, for if dead I could not see
thee. I speak the pure truth in saying that I shall not be able to live
without thee. I have lived so far only in the hope of finding and
beholding thee. Dost thou remember our conversations at the
house of Aulus? Once thou didst draw a fish for me on the sand,
and I knew not what its meaning was. Dost thou remember how
we played ball? I loved thee then above life, and thou had5t begun
already to divine that I loved thee. Aulus came, frightened us with
Libitina, and interrupted our talk. Pomponia, at parting, told
Petronius that God is one, all-mighty and all-merciful, but it did
not even occur to us that Christ was thy God and hers. Let Him
give thee to me and I will love Him, though He seems to me a god
of slaves, foreigners, and beggars. Thou sittest near me, and
thinkest of Him only. Think of me too, or I shall hate Him. For me
thou alone art a divinity. Blessed be thy father and mother; blessed
the land which produced thee! I should wish to embrace thy feet
and pray to thee, give thee honor, homage, offerings, thou thrice
divine! Thou knowest not, or canst not know, how I love thee."
Thus speaking, he placed his hand on his pale forehead and closed
his eyes. His nature never knew bounds in love or anger. He spoke
with enthusiasm, like a man who, having lost self-control, has no
wish to observe any measure in words or feelings. But he spoke
from the depth of his soul, and sincerely. It was to be felt that the
pain, ecstasy, desire, and homage accumulated in his breast had
burst forth at last in an irresistible torrent of words. To Lygia his
words appeared blasphemous, but still her heart began to beat as if
it would tear the tunic enclosing her bosom. She could not resist
pity for him and his suffering. She was moved by the homage with
which he spoke to her. She felt beloved and deified without
bounds; she felt that that unbending and dangerous man belonged
to her now, soul and body, like a slave; and that feeling of his
submission and her own power filled her with happiness. Her
recollections revived in one moment. He was for her again that
splendid Vinicius, beautiful as a pagan god; he, who in the house
of Aulus had spoken to her of love, and roused as if from sleep her
heart half childlike at that time; he from whose embraces Ursus
had wrested her on the Palatine, as he might have wrested her from
flames. But at present, with ecstasy, and at the same time with pain
in his eagle face, with pale forehead and imploring eyes, --
wounded, broken by love, loving, full of homage and submissive,
-- he seemed to her such as she would have wished him, and such
as she would have loved with her whole soul, therefore dearer than
he had ever been before.
All at once she understood that a moment might come in which his
love would seize her and bear her away, as a whirlwind; and when
she felt this, she had the same impression that he had a moment
before, -- that she was standing on the edge of a precipice. Was it
for this that she had left the house of Aulus? Was it for this that
she had saved herself by flight? Was it for this that she had hidden
so long in wretched parts of the city? Who was that Vinicius? An
Augustian, a soldier, a courtier of Nero! Moreover he took part in
his profligacy and madness, as was shown by that feast, which she
could not forget; and he went with others to the temples, and made
offerings to vile gods, in whom he did not believe, perhaps, but
still he gave them official honor. Still more he had pursued her to
make her his slave and mistress, and at the same time to thrust her
into that terrible world of excess, luxury, crime, and dishonor
which calls for the anger and vengeance of God. He seemed
changed, it is true, but still he had just said to her that if she would
think more of Christ than of him, he was ready to hate Christ. It
seemed to Lygia that the very idea of any other love than the love
of Christ was a sin against Him and against religion. When she
saw then that other feelings and desires might be roused in the
depth of her soul, she was seized by alarm for her own future and
her own heart.
At this moment of internal struggle appeared Glaucus, who had
come to care for the patient and study his health. In the twinkle of
an eye, anger and impatience were reflected on the face of
Vinicius. He was angry that his conversation with Lygia had been
interrupted; and when Glaucus questioned him, he answered with
contempt almost. It is true that he moderated himself quickly; but
if Lygia had any illusions as to this, -- that what he had heard in
Ostrianum might have acted on his unyielding nature, -- those
illusions must vanish. He had changed only for her; but beyond
that single feeling there remained in his breast the former harsh
and selfish heart, truly Roman and wolfish, incapable not only of
the sweet sentiment of Christian teaching but even of gratitude.
She went away at last filled with internal care and anxiety.
Formerly in her prayers she had offered to Christ a heart calm, and
really pure as a tear. Now that calmness was disturbed. To the
interior of the flower a poisonous insect had come and began to
buzz. Even sleep, in spite of the two nights passed without sleep,
brought her no relief. She dreamed that at Ostrianum Nero, at the
head of a whole band of Augustians, bacchantes, corybantes, and
gladiators, was trampling crowds of Christians with his chariot
wreathed in roses; and Vinicius seized her by the arm, drew her to
the quadriga, and, pressing her to his bosom, whispered "Come
with us."
FROM that moment Lygia showed herself more rarely in the
common chamber, and approached his couch less frequently. But
peace did not return to her. She saw that Vinicius followed her
with imploring glance; that he was waiting for every word of hers,
as for a favor; that he suffered and dared not complain, lest he
might turn her away from him; that she alone was his health and
delight. And then her heart swelled with compassion. Soon she
observed, too, that the more she tried to avoid him, the more
compassion she had for him; and by this itself the more tender
were the feelings which rose in her. Peace left her. At times she
said to herself that it was her special duty to be near him always,
first, because the religion of God commands return of good for
evil; second, that by conversing with him, she might attract him to
the faith. But at the same time conscience told her that she was
tempting herself; that only love for him and the charm which he
exerted were attracting her, nothing else. Thus she lived in a
ceaseless struggle, which was intensified daily. At times it seemed
that a kind of net surrounded her, and that in trying to break
through it she entangled herself more and more. She had also to
confess that for her the sight of him was becoming more needful,
his voice was becoming dearer, and that she had to struggle with
all her might against the wish to sit at his bedside. When she
approached him, and he grew radiant, delight filled her heart. On a
certain day she noticed traces of tears on his eyelids, and for the
first time in life the thought came to her, to dry them with kisses.
Terrified by that thought, and full of self-contempt, she wept all
the night following.
He was as endurmg as if he had made a vow of patience. When at
moments his eyes flashed with petulance, self-will, and anger, he
restrained those flashes promptly, and looked with alarm at her, as
if to implore pardon. This acted stifi more on her. Never had she
such a feeling of being greatly loved as then; and when she thought
of this, she felt at once guilty and happy. Vinicius, too, had
changed essentially. In his conversations with Glaucus there was
less pride. It occurred to him frequently that even that poor slave
physician and that foreign woman, old Miriam, who surrounded
him with attention, and Crispus, whom he saw absorbed in
continual prayer, were still human. He was astonished at such
thoughts, but he had them. After a time he conceived a liking for
Ursus, with whom he conversed entire days; for with him he could
talk about Lygia. The giant, on his part, was inexhaustible in
narrative, and while performing the most simple services for the
sick man, he began to show him also some attachment. For
Vinicius, Lygia had been at all times a being of another order,
higher a hundred times than those around her: nevertheless, he
began to observe simple and poor people, -- a thing which he had
never done before, -- and he discovered in them various traits the
existence of which he had never suspected.
Nazarius, however, he could not endure, for it seemed to him that
the Young lad had dared to fall in love with Lygia. He had
restrained his aversion for a long time, it is true; but once when he
brought her two quails, which he had bought in the market with his
own earned money, the descendant of the Quiites spoke out in
Vinicius, for whom one who had wandered in from a strange
people had less worth than the meanest worm. When he heard
Lygia's thanks, he grew terribly pale; and when Nazarius went out
to get water for the birds, he said,-- "Lygia, canst thou endure that
he should give thee gifts? Dost thou not know that the Greeks call
people of his nation Jewish dogs?"
"I do not know what the Greeks call them; but I know that
Nazarius is a Christian and my brother."
When she had said this she looked at Vinicius with astonishment
and regret, for he had disaccustomed her to similar outbursts; and
he set his teeth, so as not to tell her that he would have given
command to beat such a brother with sticks, or would have sent
him as a compeditus 1 to dig earth in his Sicilian vineyards. He
restrained himself, however, throttled the anger within him, and
only after a while did he say, -- "Pardon me, Lygia. For me thou art
the daughter of a king and the adopted child of Plautius." And he
subdued himself to that degree that when Nazarius appeared in the
chamber again, he promised him, on returning to his villa, the gift
of a pair of peacocks or flamingoes, of which he had a garden full.
Lygia understood what such victories over himself must have cost
him; but the oftener he gained them the more her heart turned to
him. His merit with regard to Nazarius was less, however, than she
supposed. Vinicius might be indignant for a moment, but he could
not be jealous of him. In fact the son of Miriam did not, in his
eyes, mean much more than a dog; besides, he was a child yet,
who, if he loved Lygia, loved her unconsciously and servilely.
Greater struggles must the young tribune have with himself to
submit, even in silence, to that honor with which among those
people the name of Christ and His religion was surrounded. In this
regard wonderful things took place in Vinicius. That was in every
case a religion which Lygia believed; hence for that single reason
he was ready to receive it. Afterward, the more he returned to
health, the more he remembered the whole series of events which
had happened since that night at Ostrianum, and the whole series
of thoughts which had come to his head from that time, the more
he was astonished at the superhuman power of that religion which
changed the souls of men to their foundations. He understood that
in it there was something uncommon, something which had not
been on earth before, and he felt that could it embrace the whole
world, could it ingraft on the world its love and charity, an epoch
would come recalling that in which not Jupiter, but Saturn had
ruled. He did not dare either to doubt the supernatural origin of
Christ, or His resurrection, or the other miracles. The
eye-witnesses who spoke of them were too trustworthy and
despised falsehood too much to let him suppose that they were
telling things that had not happened. Finally, Roman scepticism
permitted disbelief in the gods, but believed in miracles. Vinicius,
therefore, stood before a kind of marvellous puzzle which he could
not solve. On the other hand, however, that religion seemed to him
opposed to the existing state of things, impossible of practice, and
mad in a degree beyond all others. According to him, people in
Rome and in the whole world might be bad, but the order of things
was good. Had C~csar, for example, been an honest man, had the
Senate been composed, not of insignificant libertines, but of men
like Thrasea, what more could one wish? Nay, Roman peace and
supremacy were good; distinction among people just and proper.
But that religion, according to the understanding of Vinicius,
would destroy all order, all supremacy, every distinction. What
would happen then to the dominion and lordship of Rome? Could
the Romans cease to rule, or could they recognize a whole herd of
conquered nations as equal to themselves? That was a thought
which could find no place in the head of a patrician. As regarded
him personally, that religion was opposed to all his ideas and
habits, his whole character and understanding of life. He was
simply unable to imagine how he could exist were he to accept it.
He feared and admired it; but as to accepting it, his nature
shuddered at that. He understood, finally, that nothing save that
religion separated him from Lygia; and when he thought of this, he
hated it with all the powers of his soul.
Still he acknowledged to himself that it had adorned Lygia with
that exceptional, unexplained beauty which in his heart had
produced, besides love, respect, besides desire, homage, and had
made of that same Lygia a being dear to him l~eyond all others in
the world. And then he wished anew to love Christ. And he
understood clearly that he must either love or hate Him; he could
not remain indifferent. Meanwhile two opposing currents were as
if driving him: he hesitated in thoughts, in feelings; he knew not
how to choose, he bowed his head, however, to that God by him
uncomprehended, and paid silent honor for this sole reason, that
He was Lygia's God.
Lygia saw what was happening in him; she saw how he was
breaking himself, how his nature was rejecting that religion; and
though this mortified her to the death, compassion, pity, and
gratitude for the silent respect which he showed Christ inclined her
heart to him with irresistible force. She recalled Pomponia
Graecina and Aulus. For Pomponia a source of ceaseless sorrOw
and tears that never dried was the thought that beyond the grave
she would not find Aulus. Lygia began now to understand better
that pain, that bitterness. She too had found a being dear to her,
and she was threatened by eternal separation from this dear one.
At times, it is true, she was self-deceived, thinking that his soul
would open itself to Christ's teaching; but these illusions could not
remain. She knew and understood him too well. Vinicius a
Christian! -- These two ideas could find no place together in her
unenlightened head. If the thoughtful, discreet Aulus had not
become a Christian under the influence of the wise and perfect
Pomponia, how could Vinicius become one? To this there was no
answer, or rather there was only one, -- that for him there was
neither hope nor salvation.
But Lygia saw with terror that that sentence of condemnation
which hung over him instead of making him repulsive made him
still dearer simply through compassion. At moments the wish
seized her to speak to him of his dark future; but once, when she
had sat near him and told him that outside Christian truth there
was no life, he, having grown stronger at that time, rose on his
sound arm and placed his head on her knees suddenly. "Thou art
life!" said he. And that moment breath failed in her breast,
presence of mind left her, a certain quiver of ecstasy rushed over
her from head to feet. Seizing his temples with her hands, she tried
to raise him, but bent the while so that her lips touched his hair;
and for a moment both were overcome with delight, with
themselves, and with love, which urged them the one to the other.
Lygia rose at last and rushed away, with a flame in her veins and a
giddiness in her head; but that was the drop which overflowed the
cup filled already to the brim. Vinicius did not divine how dearly
he would have to pay f or that happy moment, but Lygia
understood that now she herself needed rescue. She spent the night
after that evening without sleep, in tears and in prayer, with the
feeling that she was unworthy to pray and could not be heard. Next
morning she went from the cubiculum early, and, calling Crispus
to the garden summer-house, covered with ivy and withered vines,
opened her whole soul to him, imploring him at the same time to
let her leave Miriam's house, since she could not trust herself
longer, and could not overcome her heart's love for Vinicius.
Crispus, an old man, severe and absorbed in endless enthusiasm,
consented to the plan of leaving Miriam's house, but he had no
words of forgiveness for that love, to his thinking sinful. His heart
swelled with indignation at the very thought that Lygia, whom he
had guarded since the time of her flight, whom he had loved,
whom he had confirmed in the faith, and on whom he looked now
as a white lily grown up on the field of Christian teaching
undefiled by any earthly breath, could have found a place in her
soul for love other than heavenly. He had believed hitherto that
nowhere in the world did there beat a heart more purely devoted to
the glory of Christ. He wanted to offer her to Him as a pearl, a
jewel, the precious work of his own hands; hence the
disappointment which he felt filled him with grief and amazement.
"Go and beg God to forgive thy fault," said he, gloomily. "Flee
before the evil spirit who involved thee bring thee to utter fall, and
before thou oppose the Saviour. God died on the cross to redeem
thy soul with His blood, but thou hart preferred to love him who
wished to make thee his concubine. God saved thee by a miracle of
His own hands, but thou hart opened thy heart to impure desire,
and hast loved the son of darkness. Who is he? The friend and
servant of Antichrist, his copartner in crime and profligacy.
Whither will he lead thee, if not to that abyss and to that Sodom
in which he himself is living, but which God will destroy with the
flame of His anger? But I say to thee, would thou hadst died,
would the walls of this house had fallen on thy head before that
serpent had crept into thy bosom and beslimed it with the poison
of iniquity."
And he was borne away more and more, for Lygia's fault filled him
not only with anger but with loathing and contempt for human
nature in general, and in particular for women, whom even
Christian truth could not save from Eve's weakness. To him it
seemed nothing that the maiden had remained pure, that she
wished to flee from that love, that she had confessed it with
compunction and penitence. Crispus had wished to transform her
into an angel, to raise her to heights where love for Christ alone
existed, and she had fallen in love with an Augustian. The very
thought of that filled his heart with horror, strengthened by a
feeling of disillusion and disappointment. No, no, he could not
forgive her. Words of horror burned his lips like glowing coals; he
struggled still with himself not to utter them, but he shook his
emaciated hands over the terrified gil. Lygia felt guilty, but not to
that degree. She had judged even that withdrawal from Miriam's
house would be her victory over temptation, and would lessen her
fault. Crispus rubbed her into the dust; showed her all the misery
and insignificance of her soul, which she had not suspected
hitherto. She had judged even that the old presbyter, who from the
moment of her flight from the Palatine had been to her as a father,
would show some compassion, console her, give her courage, and
strengthen her.
"I offer my pain and disappointment to God," said he, "but thou
hast deceived the Saviour also, for thou hast gone as it were to a
quagmire which has poisoned thy soul with its miasma. Thou
mightst have offered it to Christ as a costly vessel, and said to
Him, 'Fill it with grace, O Lord!' but thou hart preferred to offer it
to the servant of the evil one. May God forgive thee and have
mercy on thee; for till thou cast out the serpent, I who held thee as
chosen--"
But he ceased suddenly to speak, for he saw that they were not
alone. Through the withered vines and the ivy, which was green
alike in summer and winter, he saw two men, one of whom was
Peter the Apostle. The other he was unable to recognize at once,
for a mantle of coarse woollen stuff, called cilicium, concealed a
part of his face. It seemed to Crispus for a moment that that was
Chilo.
They, hearing the loud voice of Crispus, entered the summer-house
and sat on a stone bench. Peter's companion had an emaciated
face; his head, which was growing bald, was covered at the sides
with curly hair; he had reddened eyelids and a crooked nose; in the
face, ugly and at the same time inspired, Crispus recognized the
features of Paul of Tarsus.
Lygia, casting herself on her knees, embraced Peter's feet, as if
from despair, and, sheltering her tortured head in the fold of his
mantle, remained thus in silence.
"Peace to your souls!" said Peter.
And seeing the child at his feet he asked what had happened.
Crispus began then to narrate all that Lygia had confessed to him,
-- her sinful love, her desire to flee from Miriam's house, -- and his
sorrow that a soul which he had thought to offer to Christ pure as a
tear had defiled itself with earthly feelings for a sharer in all those
crimes into which the pagan world had sunk, and which called for
God's vengeance.
Lygia during his speech embraced with increasing force the feet of
the Apostle, as if wishing to seek refuge near them, and to beg
even a little compassion.
But the Apostle, when he had listened to the end, bent down and
placed his aged hand on her head; then he raised his eyes to the old
presbyter, and said,-- "Crispus, hast thou not heard that our
beloved Master was in Cana, at a wedding, and blessed love
between man and woman?"
Crispus's hands dropped, and he looked with astonishment on the
speaker, without power to utter one word. After a moment's silence
Peter asked again,-- "Crispus, dost thou think that Christ, who
permitted Mary of Magdala to lie at his feet, and who forgave the
public sinner, would turn from this maiden, who is as pure as a lily
of the field?"
Lygia nestled up more urgently to the feet of Peter, with sobbing,
understanding that she had not sought refuge in vain. The Apostle
raised her face, which was covered with tears, and said to her, --
'While the eyes of him whom thou lovest are not open to the light
of truth, avoid him, lest he bring thee to sin, but pray for him, and
know that there is no sin in thy love. And since it is thy wish to
avoid temptation, this will be accounted to thee as a merit. Do not
suffer, and do not weep; for I tell thee that the grace of the
Redeemer has not deserted thee, and that thy prayers will be heard;
after sorrow will come days of gladness."
When he had said this, he placed both hands on her head, and,
raising his eyes, blessed her. From his face there shone a goodness
beyond that of earth.
The penitent Crispus began humbly to explain himself; "I have
sinned against mercy," said he; "but I thought that by admitting to
her heart an earthly love she had denied Christ."
"I denied Him thrice," answered Peter, "and still He forgave me,
and commanded me to feed His sheep."
"And because," concluded Crispus, "Vinicius is an Augustian."
"Christ softened harder hearts than his," replied Peter.
Then Paul of Tarsus, who had been silent so far, placed his finger
on his breast, pointing to himself, and said, -- "I am he who
persecuted and hurried servants of Christ to their death; I am he
who during the stoning of Stephen kept the garments of those who
stoned him; I am he who wished to root out the truth in every part
of the inhabited earth, and yet the Lord predestined me to declare
it in every land. I have declared it in Judea, in Greece, on the
Islands, and in this godless city, where first I resided as a prisoner.
And now when Peter, my superior, has summoned me, I enter this
house to bend that proud head to the feet of Christ, and cast a grain
of seed in that stony field, which the Lord will fertilize, so that it
may bring forth a bountiful harvest."
And he rose. To Crispus that diminutive hunchback seemed then
that which he was in reality, -- a giant, who was to stir the world to
its foundations and gather in lands and nations.
PETRONIUS to VINICIUS: -- "Have pity, carissime; imitate not in
thy letters the Lacedemonians or Julius Caesar! Couldst thou, like
Julius, write Veni, vidi, vici (I came, I saw, I conquered), I might
understand thy brevity. But thy letter means absolutely Veni, vidi,
fugi (I came, I saw, I fled). Since such a conclusion of the affair is
directly opposed to thy nature, since thou art wounded, and since,
finally, uncommon things are happening to thee, thy letter needs
explanation. I could not believe my eyes when I read that the
Lygian giant killed Croton as easily as a Caledonian dog would kill
a wolf in the defiles of Hibernia. That man is worth as much gold
as he himself weighs, and it depends on him alone to become a
favorite of Caesar. When I return to the city, I must gain a nearer
acquaintance with that Lygian, and have a bronze statue of him
made for myself. Ahenobarbus will burst from curiosity, when I
tell him that it is from nature. Bodies really athletic are becoming
rarer in Italy and in Greece; of the Orient no mention need be
made; the Germans, though large, have muscles covered with fat,
and are greater in bulk than in strength. Learn from the Lygian if
he is an exception, or if in his country there are more men like
him. Should it happen sometime to thee or me to organize games
officially, it would be well to know where to seek for the best
bodies.
"But praise to the gods of the Orient and the Occident that thou
hast come out of such hands alive. Thou hast escaped, of course,
because thou art a patrician, and the son of a consul; but
everything which has happened astonishes me in the highest
degree, -- that cemetery where thou wert among the Christians,
they, their treatment of thee, the subsequent flight of Lygia; finally,
that peculiar sadness and disquiet which breathes from thy short
letter. Explain, for there are many points which I cannot
understand; and if thou wish the truth, I will tell thee plainly, that I
understand neither the Christians nor thee nor Lygia. Wonder not
that I, who care for few things on earth except my own person,
inquire of thee so eagerly. I have contributed to all this affair of
thine; hence it is my affair so far. Write soon, for I cannot foresee
surely when we may meet. In Bronzebeard's head plans change, as
winds do in autumn. At present, while tarrying in Beneventum, he
has the wish to go straightway to Greece, without returning to
Rome. Tigellinus, however, advises him to visit the city even for a
time, since the people, yearning overmuch for his person (read 'for
games and bread') may revolt. So I cannot tell how it will be.
Should Achaea overbalance, we may want to see Egypt. I should
insist with all my might on thy coming, for I think that in thy state
of mmd travelling and our amusements would be a medicine, but
thou mightst not find us. Consider, then, whether in that case
respose in thy Sicilian estates would not be preferable to
remaining in Rome. Write me minutely of thyself, and farewell. I
add no wish this time, except health; for, by Pollux!
I know not what to wish thee."
Vinicius, on receiving this letter, felt at first no desire to reply. He
had a kind of feeling that it was not worth while to reply, that an
answer would benefit no one in any way, that it would explain
not